Named characters

Major entities (proper, common)

FAC

182 home/HOME
66 the room/The room
57 the house/The house
41 there
39 the street
24 stairs
22 the court/The court
19 here
15 the streets/The streets
10 house

GPE

10 the town
8 town
6 there
4 the Isle of Man
2 other towns
2 the place
1 the country
1 the town in which I resided
1 our manufacturing towns
1 a little village about two miles distant

LOC

19 the world
12 the river
8 earth
7 sea
6 the country
6 the sea
5 th ' world
4 the water/The water
4 the land
4 heaven

PER

139 her father/Her father
77 sir/Sir
63 mother/Mother
61 his mother/His mother
53 the masters/The masters
46 father/Father
42 no one/No one
35 his wife/His wife
33 folk/Folk
32 the man/The man

ORG

3 a trades ' union/a Trades ' Union
3 the Trades ' Union
2 Trades ' Unions
2 Th ' Union/th ' Union
1 workshops engines and machinery
1 the regiment
1 Many other Trades ' Unions , connected with different branches of business
1 the Trades ' Unions
1 Trades ' Union
1 any Trades ' Union

VEH

13 the ship/The ship
8 the boat/The boat
4 a boat
4 the ships
4 the pilot - boat
3 her carriage
3 his ship
2 th ' coach
2 the coach
2 board ship

Text

PREFACE . Three years ago [I]_0-i became anxious ( from circumstances that need not be more fully alluded to ) to employ [myself]_0-i in writing a work of fiction . Living in [Manchester]_1-manchester , but with a deep relish and fond admiration for [the country]_{422-the country} , [my]_0-i first thought was to find a frame - work for [my]_0-i story in some rural scene ; and [I]_0-i had already made a little progress in a tale , the period of which was more than a century ago , and the place on [the borders of [Yorkshire]_2-yorkshire]_{423-the borders of yorkshire} , when [I]_0-i bethought [me]_0-i how deep might be the romance in the lives of some of those who elbowed [me]_0-i daily in [the busy streets of [the town in which [I]_0-i resided]_{425-the town in which i resided}]_{424-the busy streets of the town in which i resided} . [I]_0-i had always felt a deep sympathy with [the care - worn men , who looked as if doomed to struggle through [their]_{426-the care - worn men , who looked as if doomed to struggle through their lives in strange alternations between work and want} lives in strange alternations between work and want]_{426-the care - worn men , who looked as if doomed to struggle through their lives in strange alternations between work and want} ; tossed to and fro by circumstances , apparently in even a greater degree than [other men]_{427-other men} . A little manifestation of this sympathy , and a little attention to the expression of feelings on the part of [some of [the work - people with whom [I]_0-i was acquainted]_{429-the work - people with whom i was acquainted}]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} , had laid open to [me]_0-i the hearts of [one or two of the more thoughtful among [them]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted}]_{430-one or two of the more thoughtful among them} ; [I]_0-i saw that [they]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} were sore and irritable against [the rich]_{431-the rich} , the even tenor of whose seemingly happy lives appeared to increase the anguish caused by the lottery - like nature of [their]_{431-the rich} own . Whether the bitter complaints made by [them]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} , of the neglect which [they]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} experienced from [the prosperous]_{432-the prosperous} -- especially from [the masters whose fortunes [they]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} had helped to build up]_{433-the masters whose fortunes they had helped to build up} -- were well - founded or no , it is not for [me]_0-i to judge . It is enough to say , that this belief of the injustice and unkindness which [they]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} endure from [their]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} fellow - creatures , taints what might be resignation to [God]_224-god 's will , and turns it to revenge in [too many of [the poor uneducated factory - workers of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{435-the poor uneducated factory - workers of manchester}]_{434-too many of the poor uneducated factory - workers of manchester} . The more [I]_0-i reflected on this unhappy state of things between those so bound to [each other]_{436-each other} by common interests , as [the employers]_{437-the employers} and [the employed]_{438-the employed} must ever be , the more anxious [I]_0-i became to give some utterance to the agony which , from time to time , convulses [this dumb people]_{439-this dumb people} ; the agony of suffering without the sympathy of [the happy]_{440-the happy} , or of erroneously believing that such is the case . If it be an error , that the woes , which come with ever - returning tide - like flood to overwhelm [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} in [[our]_442-our manufacturing towns]_{443-our manufacturing towns} , pass unregarded by all but [the sufferers]_{444-the sufferers} , it is at any rate an error so bitter in its consequences to [all parties]_{445-all parties} , that whatever public effort can do in the way of legislation , or private effort in the way of merciful deeds , or helpless love in the way of " [widow]_4728-widow 's mites , "_{[446-the work - people of so miserable a misapprehension]} should be done , and that speedily , to disabuse [the work - people of so miserable a misapprehension]_{446-the work - people of so miserable a misapprehension} . At present [they]_{428-some of the work - people with whom i was acquainted} seem to [me]_0-i to be left in a state , wherein lamentations and tears are thrown aside as useless , but in which the lips are compressed for curses , and the hands clenched and ready to smite . [I]_0-i know nothing of Political Economy , or the theories of trade . [I]_0-i have tried to write truthfully ; and if [my]_0-i accounts agree or clash with any system , the agreement or disagreement is unintentional . To [myself]_0-i the idea which [I]_0-i have formed of the state of feeling among [too many of [the factory - people in [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{448-the factory - people in manchester}]_{447-too many of the factory - people in manchester} , and which [I]_0-i endeavoured to represent in this tale ( completed above a year ago ) , has received some confirmation from the events which have so recently occurred among a similar class on [the Continent]_{3-the continent} . OCTOBER , 1848 . CHAPTER I. [A MYSTERIOUS DISAPPEARANCE]_{4-a mysterious disappearance} . Oh ! ' tis hard , ' tis hard to be working The whole of the live - long day , When all [the neighbours about one]_{449-the neighbours about one} Are off to [their]_{449-the neighbours about one} jaunts and play . There 's [Richard]_128-richard [he]_128-richard carries [[his]_128-richard baby]_{450-his baby} , And [Mary]_145-mary takes [little Jane]_{130-jane wilson} , And lovingly [they]_451-they 'll be wandering Through [field]_452-field and briery lane . [MANCHESTER]_1-manchester SONG . There are [some fields near [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{453-some fields near manchester} , well known to [the inhabitants]_{454-the inhabitants} as " [Green Heys Fields]_{4729-green heys fields} , "_{[454-the inhabitants]} through which runs [a public footpath]_{455-a public footpath} to [a little village about two miles distant]_{456-a little village about two miles distant} . In spite of [these fields]_{457-these fields} being flat and low , nay , in spite of the want of wood ( the great and usual recommendation of [level tracts of land]_{458-level tracts of land} ) , there is a charm about [them]_{457-these fields} which strikes even [the inhabitant of [a mountainous district]_{460-a mountainous district} , who sees and feels the effect of contrast in [these common - place but thoroughly rural fields]_{461-these common - place but thoroughly rural fields} , with [the busy , bustling manufacturing town [he]_{459-the inhabitant of a mountainous district , who sees and feels the effect of contrast in these common - place but thoroughly rural fields , with the busy , bustling manufacturing town he left but half - an - hour ago} left but half - an - hour ago]_{462-the busy , bustling manufacturing town he left but half - an - hour ago}]_{459-the inhabitant of a mountainous district , who sees and feels the effect of contrast in these common - place but thoroughly rural fields , with the busy , bustling manufacturing town he left but half - an - hour ago} . Here and there [an old black and white farm - house]_{463-an old black and white farm - house} , with [[its]_{463-an old black and white farm - house} rambling outbuildings]_{464-its rambling outbuildings} , speaks of other times and other occupations than those which now absorb [the population of [the neighbourhood]_{466-the neighbourhood}]_{465-the population of the neighbourhood} . Here in [their]_{457-these fields} seasons may be seen the country business of hay - making , ploughing , & amp;c . , which are such pleasant mysteries for [townspeople]_{467-townspeople} to watch ; and here [the artisan , deafened with noise of tongues and engines]_{468-the artisan , deafened with noise of tongues and engines} , may come to listen awhile to the delicious sounds of rural life : the lowing of cattle , [the milk - maids]_{469-the milk - maids} ' call , the clatter and cackle of poultry in [the old farm - yards]_{470-the old farm - yards} . [You]_471-you can not wonder , then , that [these fields]_{457-these fields} are popular places of resort at every holiday time ; and [you]_471-you would not wonder , if [you]_471-you could see , or [I]_0-i properly describe , the charm of one particular stile , that it should be , on such occasions , [a crowded halting - place]_{473-a crowded halting - place} . Close by [it]_474-its is [a deep , clear pond]_{475-a deep , clear pond} , reflecting in [its]_474-its dark green depths the shadowy trees that bend over it to exclude the sun . The only place where [its]_474-its banks are shelving is on the side next to [a rambling farm - yard]_{476-a rambling farm - yard} , belonging to one of [those old - world , gabled , black and white houses [I]_0-i named above]_{477-those old - world , gabled , black and white houses i named above} , overlooking the field through which [the public footpath]_{478-the public footpath} leads . [The porch of [this farm - house]_{480-this farm - house}]_{479-the porch of this farm - house} is covered by a rose - tree ; and [the little garden surrounding [it]_{480-this farm - house}]_{481-the little garden surrounding it} is crowded with a medley of old - fashioned herbs and flowers , planted long ago , when [the garden]_{482-the garden} was [the only [druggist]_484-druggist 's shop within reach]_{483-the only druggist 's shop within reach} , and allowed to grow in scrambling and wild luxuriance -- roses , lavender , sage , balm ( for tea ) , rosemary , pinks and wallflowers , onions and jessamine , in most republican and indiscriminate order . [This farm - house and garden]_{485-this farm - house and garden} are within a hundred yards of the stile of which [I]_0-i spoke , leading from [the large pasture field]_{486-the large pasture field} into a smaller one , divided by [a hedge of hawthorn and black - thorn]_{487-a hedge of hawthorn and black - thorn} ; and near [this stile]_{488-this stile} , on the further side , there runs a tale that primroses may often be found , and occasionally the blue sweet violet on the grassy hedge bank . [I]_0-i do not know whether it was on a holiday granted by [the masters]_{489-the masters} , or a holiday seized in right of Nature and [her]_490-her beautiful spring time by [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} , but one afternoon ( now ten or a dozen years ago ) [these fields]_{457-these fields} were much thronged . It was an early May evening -- the April of [the poets]_{493-the poets} ; for heavy showers had fallen all the morning , and the round , soft , white clouds which were blown by a west wind over the dark blue sky , were sometimes varied by one blacker and more threatening . The softness of the day tempted forth the young green leaves , which almost visibly fluttered into life ; and the willows , which that morning had had only a brown reflection in the water below , were now of that tender gray - green which blends so delicately with the spring harmony of colours . Groups of [merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} , came by with a buoyant step . [They]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} were [most of [them]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} [factory girls]_{496-factory girls} , and wore the usual out - of - doors dress of [that particular class of [maidens]_498-maidens]_{497-that particular class of maidens}]_{495-most of them factory girls , and wore the usual out - of - doors dress of that particular class of maidens} ; namely , a shawl , which at mid - day or in fine weather was allowed to be merely a shawl , but towards evening , or if the day were chilly , became a sort of Spanish mantilla or Scotch plaid , and was brought over the head and hung loosely down , or was pinned under the chin in no unpicturesque fashion . [Their]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} faces were not remarkable for beauty ; indeed , [they]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} were below the average , with one or two exceptions ; [they]_{494-merry and somewhat loud - talking girls , whose ages might range from twelve to twenty} had dark hair , neatly and classically arranged , dark eyes , but sallow complexions and irregular features . The only thing to strike [a passer - by]_{499-a passer - by} was an acuteness and intelligence of countenance , which has often been noticed in [a manufacturing population]_{500-a manufacturing population} . There were also numbers of [boys]_501-boys , or [rather young men]_{502-rather young men} , rambling among [these fields]_{457-these fields} , ready to bandy jokes with [any one]_{504-any one} , and particularly ready to enter into conversation with [the girls]_{505-the girls} , who , however , held [themselves]_{505-the girls} aloof , not in a shy , but rather in an independent way , assuming an indifferent manner to the noisy wit or obstreperous compliments of [the lads]_{506-the lads} . Here and there came [a sober quiet couple]_{507-a sober quiet couple} , either [whispering lovers]_{508-whispering lovers} , or [husband]_509-husband and [wife]_510-wife , as the case might be ; and if [the latter]_{511-the latter} , [they]_{507-a sober quiet couple} were seldom unencumbered by [an infant]_{512-an infant} , carried for the most part by [the father]_{513-the father} , while occasionally even [three or four little toddlers]_{514-three or four little toddlers} had been carried or dragged thus far , in order that [the whole family]_{515-the whole family} might enjoy the delicious May afternoon together . Sometime in the course of that afternoon , [two working men]_{516-two working men} met with friendly greeting at [the stile so often named]_{517-the stile so often named} . [One]_518-one was [a thorough specimen of [a Manchester man]_{520-a manchester man} ; born of [factory workers]_{521-factory workers}]_{519-a thorough specimen of a manchester man ; born of factory workers} , and [himself]_{520-a manchester man} bred up in youth , and living in manhood , among [the mills]_{522-the mills} . [He]_{520-a manchester man} was below the middle size and slightly made ; there was almost a stunted look about [him]_{520-a manchester man} ; and [his]_{520-a manchester man} wan , colourless face gave [you]_523-you the idea , that in [his]_{520-a manchester man} childhood [he]_{520-a manchester man} had suffered from the scanty living consequent upon bad times and improvident habits . [His]_{520-a manchester man} features were strongly marked , though not irregular , and their expression was extreme earnestness ; resolute either for good or evil ; a sort of latent , stern enthusiasm . At the time of which [I]_0-i write , the good predominated over the bad in the countenance , and [he]_{520-a manchester man} was one from whom [a stranger]_{524-a stranger} would have asked a favour with tolerable faith that it would be granted . [He]_{520-a manchester man} was accompanied by [[his]_{520-a manchester man} wife]_{525-his wife} , who might , without exaggeration , have been called [a lovely woman]_{526-a lovely woman} , although now [her]_{525-his wife} face was swollen with crying , and often hidden behind [her]_{525-his wife} apron . [She]_{525-his wife} had the fresh beauty of [the agricultural districts]_{527-the agricultural districts} ; and somewhat of the deficiency of sense in [her]_{525-his wife} countenance , which is likewise characteristic of [the rural inhabitants]_{528-the rural inhabitants} in comparison with [the natives of [the manufacturing towns]_{530-the manufacturing towns}]_{529-the natives of the manufacturing towns} . [She]_{525-his wife} was far advanced in pregnancy , which perhaps occasioned the overpowering and hysterical nature of [her]_{525-his wife} grief . [The friend whom [they]_532-they met]_{531-the friend whom they met} was more handsome and less sensible - looking than [the man [I]_0-i have just described]_{533-the man i have just described} ; [he]_{520-a manchester man} seemed hearty and hopeful , and although [his]_{520-a manchester man} age was greater , yet there was far more of youth 's buoyancy in [his]_{520-a manchester man} appearance . [He]_{520-a manchester man} was tenderly carrying [a baby in arms]_{534-a baby in arms} , while [[his]_{520-a manchester man} wife]_{525-his wife} , [a delicate , fragile - looking woman , limping in [her]_{525-his wife} gait]_{536-a delicate , fragile - looking woman , limping in her gait} , bore [another of the same age]_{537-another of the same age} ; [little , feeble twins]_{538-little , feeble twins} , inheriting the frail appearance of [[their]_{538-little , feeble twins} mother]_{539-their mother} . [The last - mentioned man]_{540-the last - mentioned man} was the first to speak , while a sudden look of sympathy dimmed [his]_{520-a manchester man} gladsome face . " Well , [John]_{131-john barton} , how goes it with [you]_{131-john barton} ? "_{[520-a manchester man]} and , in a lower voice , [he]_{520-a manchester man} added , " Any news of [Esther]_132-esther , yet ? "_{[520-a manchester man]} Meanwhile [the wives]_{541-the wives} greeted [each other]_{436-each other} like [old friends]_{543-old friends} , the soft and plaintive voice of [the mother of [the twins]_{545-the twins}]_{544-the mother of the twins} seeming to call forth only fresh sobs from [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} . " Come , [women]_4730-women , "_{[131-john barton]} said [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , " [you]_4730-women 've both walked far enough . [[My]_{131-john barton} [Mary]_145-mary]_{4731-my mary} expects to have [her]_{4731-my mary} bed in three weeks ; and as for [you]_4730-women , [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [you]_4730-women know [you]_4730-women 're but [a cranky sort of a body]_{4732-a cranky sort of a body} at the best of times . "_{[131-john barton]} This was said so kindly , that no offence could be taken . " Sit [you]_4730-women down here ; the grass is well nigh dry by this time ; and [you]_4730-women 're neither of [you]_4730-women nesh [ 1 ] folk about taking cold . Stay , "_{[131-john barton]} [he]_{131-john barton} added , with some tenderness , " here 's [my]_{131-john barton} pocket - handkerchief to spread under [you]_4730-women , to save the gowns [women]_4730-women always think so much of ; and now , [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , give [me]_{131-john barton} [the baby]_{4734-the baby} , [I]_{131-john barton} may as well carry [him]_{4734-the baby} , while [you]_4730-women talk and comfort [[my]_{131-john barton} wife]_{4735-my wife} ; poor thing , [she]_{4735-my wife} takes on sadly about [Esther]_132-esther . "_{[131-john barton]} [ Footnote 1 : " [Nesh]_135-nesh ; "_{[131-john barton]} [Anglo - Saxon]_{546-anglo - saxon} , nesc , tender . ] These arrangements were soon completed : [the two women]_{547-the two women} sat down on the blue cotton handkerchiefs of [[their]_{547-the two women} husbands]_{548-their husbands} , and [the latter]_{511-the latter} , [each carrying a baby]_{550-each carrying a baby} , set off for a further walk ; but as soon as [Barton]_{131-john barton} had turned [his]_{131-john barton} back upon [[his]_{131-john barton} wife]_{525-his wife} , [his]_{131-john barton} countenance fell back into an expression of gloom . " Then [you]_4730-women 've heard nothing of [Esther]_132-esther , [poor lass]_{4736-poor lass} ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} asked [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " No , nor sha n't , as [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} take it . [My]_{134-mrs. wilson} mind is , [she]_132-esther 's gone off with [somebody]_{4737-somebody} . [[My]_{134-mrs. wilson} wife]_{4735-my wife} frets , and thinks [she]_132-esther 's drowned [herself]_132-esther , but [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} tell [her]_132-esther , [folks]_4739-folks do n't care to put on [their]_4739-folks best clothes to drown [themselves]_4739-folks ; and [Mrs. Bradshaw]_{136-mrs. bradshaw} ( where [she]_132-esther lodged , [you]_4730-women know ) says the last time [she]_132-esther set eyes on [her]_132-esther was last Tuesday , when [she]_132-esther came down [stairs]_4740-stairs , dressed in [her]_132-esther Sunday gown , and with a new ribbon in [her]_132-esther bonnet , and gloves on [her]_132-esther hands , like [the lady [she]_132-esther was so fond of thinking [herself]_132-esther]_{4741-the lady she was so fond of thinking herself} . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [She]_132-esther was as pretty a creature as ever the sun shone on . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " Ay , [she]_132-esther was [a farrantly [ 2 ] lass]_{4742-a farrantly [ 2 ] lass} ; more 's the pity now , "_{[131-john barton]} added [Barton]_{131-john barton} , with a sigh . " [You]_4730-women see [them]_4743-them Buckinghamshire [people]_4744-people as comes to work in [Manchester]_1-manchester , has quite a different look with [them]_4743-them to [[us]_4745-us [Manchester]_1-manchester folk]_{4746-us manchester folk} . [You]_4730-women 'll not see among [the Manchester wenches]_{4747-the manchester wenches} such fresh rosy cheeks , or such black lashes to gray eyes ( making [them]_{4747-the manchester wenches} look like black ) , as [[my]_{131-john barton} wife]_{4735-my wife} and [Esther]_132-esther had . [I]_{131-john barton} never seed [two such pretty women]_{4749-two such pretty women} for [sisters]_4750-sisters ; never . Not but what beauty is a sad snare . Here was [Esther]_132-esther so puffed up , that there was no holding [her]_132-esther in . [Her]_132-esther spirit was always up , if [I]_{131-john barton} spoke ever so little in the way of advice to [her]_132-esther ; [[my]_{131-john barton} wife]_{4735-my wife} spoiled [her]_132-esther , it is true , for [you]_4730-women see [she]_132-esther was so much older than [Esther]_132-esther [she]_132-esther was more like a mother to [her]_132-esther , doing every thing for [her]_132-esther . "_{[131-john barton]} [ Footnote 2 : " Farrantly , "_{[131-john barton]} comely , pleasant - looking . ] " [I]_{553-his friend} wonder [she]_132-esther ever left [you]_4730-women , "_{[553-his friend]} observed [[his]_552-his friend]_{553-his friend} . " That 's the worst of factory work , for [girls]_4752-girls . [They]_4752-girls can earn so much when work is plenty , that [they]_4752-girls can maintain [themselves]_4752-girls any how . [[My]_{553-his friend} [Mary]_145-mary]_{4731-my mary} shall never work in [a factory]_{4754-a factory} , that [I]_{553-his friend} 'm determined on . [You]_4730-women see [Esther]_132-esther spent [her]_132-esther money in dress , thinking to set off [her]_132-esther pretty face ; and got to come [home]_4755-home so late at night , that at last [I]_{553-his friend} told [her]_132-esther [my]_{553-his friend} mind : [[my]_{553-his friend} missis]_{4756-my missis} thinks [I]_{553-his friend} spoke crossly , but [I]_{553-his friend} meant right , for [I]_{553-his friend} loved [Esther]_132-esther , if it was only for [Mary]_145-mary 's sake . Says [I]_{553-his friend} , ' [Esther]_132-esther , [I]_{553-his friend} see what [you]_132-esther 'll end at with [your]_132-esther artificials , and [your]_132-esther fly - away veils , and stopping out when [honest women]_{4757-honest women} are in [their]_{4757-honest women} beds ; [you]_132-esther 'll be [a street - walker]_{4758-a street - walker} , [Esther]_132-esther , and then , do n't [you]_132-esther go to think [I]_{553-his friend} 'll have [you]_132-esther darken [my]_{553-his friend} door , though [[my]_{553-his friend} wife]_{4735-my wife} is [[your]_132-esther sister]_{4760-your sister} . ' So says [she]_132-esther , ' Do n't trouble [yourself]_132-esther , [John]_{131-john barton} . [I]_{553-his friend} 'll pack up and be off now , for [I]_{553-his friend} 'll never stay to hear [myself]_{553-his friend} called as [you]_132-esther call [me]_{553-his friend} . ' [She]_132-esther flushed up like a turkey - cock , and [I]_{553-his friend} thought fire would come out of [her]_132-esther eyes ; but when [she]_132-esther saw [Mary]_145-mary cry ( for [Mary]_145-mary ca n't abide words in [a house]_{4761-a house} ) , [she]_132-esther went and kissed [her]_145-mary , and said [she]_145-mary was not so bad as [I]_{553-his friend} thought [her]_132-esther . So [we]_4762-we talked more friendly , for , as [I]_{553-his friend} said , [I]_{553-his friend} liked [the lass]_{4763-the lass} well enough , and [her]_132-esther pretty looks , and [her]_132-esther cheery ways . But [she]_132-esther said ( and at the time [I]_{553-his friend} thought there was sense in what [she]_132-esther said ) [we]_4762-we should be [much better friends]_{4764-much better friends} if [she]_132-esther went into [lodgings]_{4765-lodgings} , and only came to see [us]_4762-we now and then . "_{[553-his friend]} " Then [you]_{553-his friend} still were friendly . [Folks]_137-folks said [you]_{553-his friend} 'd cast [her]_132-esther off , and said [you]_{553-his friend} 'd never speak to [her]_132-esther again . "_{[131-john barton]} " [Folks]_4739-folks always make one a deal worse than one is , "_{[131-john barton]} said [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , testily . " [She]_132-esther came many a time to [[our]_4762-we house]_{4767-our house} after [she]_132-esther left off living with [us]_4762-we . Last Sunday se'nnight -- no ! it was this very last Sunday , [she]_132-esther came to drink a cup of tea with [Mary]_145-mary ; and that was the last time [we]_4762-we set eyes on [her]_132-esther . "_{[131-john barton]} " Was [she]_132-esther any ways different in [her]_132-esther manner ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} asked [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " Well , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} do n't know . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} have thought several times since , that [she]_132-esther was a bit quieter , and more womanly - like ; more gentle , and more blushing , and not so riotous and noisy . [She]_132-esther comes in , toward four o'clock , when [afternoon church]_{4768-afternoon church} was loosing , and [she]_132-esther goes and hangs [her]_132-esther bonnet up on the old nail [we]_4762-we used to call [hers]_132-esther , while [she]_132-esther lived with [us]_4762-we . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} remember thinking what [a pretty lass]_{4769-a pretty lass} [she]_132-esther was , as [she]_132-esther sat on a low stool by [Mary]_145-mary , who was rocking [herself]_145-mary , and in rather a poor way . [She]_132-esther laughed and cried by turns , but all so softly and gently , like [a child]_{4770-a child} , that [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could n't find in [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} heart to scold [her]_132-esther , especially as [Mary]_145-mary was fretting already . One thing [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} do remember [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} did say , and pretty sharply too . [She]_132-esther took [[our]_4762-we little [Mary]_145-mary]_{4771-our little mary} by the waist , and-- "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [Thou]_4772-thou must leave off calling [her]_145-mary ' little ' [Mary]_145-mary , [she]_145-mary 's growing up into as fine [a lass as one]_{4773-a lass as one} can see on a summer 's day ; more of [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's stock than thine , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} interrupted [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " Well , well , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} call [her]_145-mary ' little , ' because [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's name is [Mary]_145-mary . But , as [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} was saying , [she]_132-esther takes [Mary]_145-mary in a coaxing sort of way , and , ' [Mary]_145-mary , ' says [she]_132-esther , ' what should [you]_145-mary think if [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} sent for [you]_145-mary some day and made [a lady]_{4776-a lady} of [you]_145-mary ? ' So [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could not stand such talk as that to [[my]_{134-mrs. wilson} girl]_{4777-my girl} , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} said , ' [Thou'd]_4778-thou'd best not put that nonsense [i]_{134-mrs. wilson} ' [the girl]_{4779-the girl} 's head [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can tell [thee]_{4777-my girl} ; [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'd rather see [her]_132-esther earning [her]_132-esther bread by the sweat of [her]_132-esther brow , as the Bible tells [her]_132-esther [she]_132-esther should do , ay , though [she]_132-esther never got butter to [her]_132-esther bread , than be like [a do - nothing lady]_{4780-a do - nothing lady} , worrying [shopmen]_4781-shopmen all morning , and screeching at [her]_132-esther pianny all afternoon , and going to bed without having done a good turn to any one of [God]_224-god 's creatures but [herself]_132-esther . ' "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [Thou]_4782-thou never could abide [the gentlefolk]_{4783-the gentlefolk} , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , half amused at [[his]_554-his friend]_{553-his friend} 's vehemence . " And what good have [they]_{4783-the gentlefolk} ever done [me]_{131-john barton} that [I]_{131-john barton} should like [them]_{4783-the gentlefolk} ? "_{[131-john barton]} asked [Barton]_{131-john barton} , the latent fire lighting up [his]_{131-john barton} eye : and bursting forth , [he]_{131-john barton} continued , " If [I]_{131-john barton} am sick , do [they]_{4783-the gentlefolk} come and nurse [me]_{131-john barton} ? If [[my]_{131-john barton} child]_{4784-my child} lies dying ( as poor [Tom]_138-thomas lay , with [his]_138-thomas white wan lips quivering , for want of better food than [I]_{131-john barton} could give [him]_138-thomas ) , does [the rich man]_{4785-the rich man} bring the wine or broth that might save [his]_{4785-the rich man} life ? If [I]_{131-john barton} am out of work for weeks in the bad times , and winter comes , with black frost , and keen east wind , and there is no coal for the grate , and no clothes for the bed , and the thin bones are seen through the ragged clothes , does [the rich man]_{4785-the rich man} share [his]_{4785-the rich man} plenty with [me]_{131-john barton} , as [he]_{4785-the rich man} ought to do , if [his]_{4785-the rich man} religion was n't a humbug ? When [I]_{131-john barton} lie on [my]_{131-john barton} death - bed , and [Mary]_145-mary ( bless [her]_145-mary ) stands fretting , as [I]_{131-john barton} know [she]_145-mary will fret , "_{[131-john barton]} and here [his]_556-i voice faltered a little , " will [a rich lady]_{4787-a rich lady} come and take [her]_145-mary to [[her]_145-mary own home]_{4788-her own home} if need be , till [she]_145-mary can look round , and see what best to do ? No , [I]_556-i tell [you]_4789-you , it 's [the poor]_{4790-the poor} , and [the poor]_{4790-the poor} only , as does such things for [the poor]_{4790-the poor} . Do n't think to come over [me]_556-i with th ' old tale , that [the rich]_{431-the rich} know nothing of the trials of [the poor]_{4790-the poor} . [I]_556-i say , if [they]_{431-the rich} do n't know , [they]_{431-the rich} ought to know . [We]_4795-we 're [[their]_{431-the rich} slaves]_{4796-their slaves} as long as [we]_4795-we can work ; [we]_4795-we pile up [their]_{431-the rich} fortunes with the sweat of [our]_4795-we brows ; and yet [we]_4795-we are to live as separate as if [we]_4795-we were in [two worlds]_{4797-two worlds} ; ay , as separate as [Dives]_139-dives and [Lazarus]_140-lazarus , with a great gulf betwixt [us]_4795-we : but [I]_556-i know who was best off then , "_[556-i] and [he]_557-i wound up [his]_557-i speech with a low chuckle that had no mirth in it . " Well , [neighbour]_{4798-neighbour} , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , " all that may be very true , but what [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} want to know now is about [Esther]_132-esther -- when did [you]_{4798-neighbour} last hear of [her]_132-esther ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " Why , [she]_132-esther took leave of [us]_4795-we that Sunday night in a very loving way , kissing both [wife Mary]_{4799-wife mary} , and daughter [Mary]_145-mary ( if [I]_557-i must not call [her]_132-esther little ) , and shaking hands with [me]_557-i ; but all in a cheerful sort of manner , so [we]_4795-we thought nothing about [her]_132-esther kisses and shakes . But on Wednesday night comes [[Mrs. Bradshaw]_{136-mrs. bradshaw} 's son]_{4800-mrs. bradshaw 's son} with [Esther]_132-esther 's box , and presently [Mrs. Bradshaw]_{136-mrs. bradshaw} follows with the key ; and when [we]_4795-we began to talk , [we]_4795-we found [Esther]_132-esther told [her]_132-esther [she]_132-esther was coming back to live with [us]_4795-we , and would pay [her]_132-esther week 's money for not giving notice ; and on Tuesday night [she]_132-esther carried off a little bundle ( [her]_132-esther best clothes were on [her]_132-esther back , as [I]_557-i said before ) , and told [Mrs. Bradshaw]_{136-mrs. bradshaw} not to hurry [herself]_132-esther about the big box , but bring it when [she]_132-esther had time . So of course [she]_132-esther thought [she]_132-esther should find [Esther]_132-esther with [us]_4795-we ; and when [she]_132-esther told [her]_132-esther story , [[my]_557-i missis]_{4756-my missis} set up such a screech , and fell down in a dead swoon . [Mary]_145-mary ran up with water for [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} , and [I]_557-i thought so much about [[my]_557-i wife]_{4735-my wife} , [I]_557-i did not seem to care at all for [Esther]_132-esther . But the next day [I]_557-i asked all [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} ( both [our]_4795-we own and [Bradshaw]_{136-mrs. bradshaw} 's ) , and [they]_{4804-the neighbours} 'd none of ['em]_4805-'em heard or seen nothing of [her]_132-esther . [I]_557-i even went to [a policeman]_{4806-a policeman} , [a good enough sort of man]_{4807-a good enough sort of man} , but [a fellow [I]_557-i 'd never spoke to before because of [his]_{4806-a policeman} livery]_{4808-a fellow i 'd never spoke to before because of his livery} , and [I]_557-i asks [him]_{4806-a policeman} if [his]_{4806-a policeman} ' cuteness could find any thing out for [us]_4795-we . So [I]_557-i believe [he]_{4806-a policeman} asks [other policemen]_{4809-other policemen} ; and one on ['em]_4805-'em had seen a wench , like [[our]_4795-we [Esther]_132-esther]_{4810-our esther} , walking very quickly , with a bundle under [her]_132-esther arm , on Tuesday night , toward eight o'clock , and get into [a hackney coach]_{4811-a hackney coach} , near [Hulme Church]_{5-hulme church} , and [we]_4795-we do n't know th ' number , and ca n't trace it no further . [I]_557-i 'm sorry enough for [the girl]_{4779-the girl} , for bad 's come over [her]_{4779-the girl} , one way or another , but [I]_557-i 'm sorrier for [[my]_557-i wife]_{4735-my wife} . [She]_{4735-my wife} loved [her]_{4735-my wife} next to [me]_557-i and [Mary]_145-mary , and [she]_{4735-my wife} 's never been the same body since poor [Tom]_138-thomas 's death . However , let 's go back to [them]_558-they ; [[your]_557-i old woman]_{4814-your old woman} may have done [her]_{4735-my wife} good . "_[557-i] As [they]_558-they walked homewards with a brisker pace , [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} expressed a wish that [they]_558-they still were [the near neighbours [they]_558-they once had been]_{559-the near neighbours they once had been} . " Still [[our]_558-they [Alice]_146-alice]_{4815-our alice} lives in [the cellar under No . 14]_{4816-the cellar under no . 14} , in [Barber Street]_{6-barber street} , and if [you]_557-i 'd only speak the word [she]_146-alice 'd be with [you]_557-i in five minutes , to keep [[your]_557-i wife]_{4817-your wife} company when [she]_146-alice 's lonesome . Though [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'm [[Alice]_146-alice 's brother]_{4818-alice 's brother} , and perhaps ought not to say it , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} will say there 's [none more ready to help with heart or hand]_{4819-none more ready to help with heart or hand} than [she]_146-alice is . Though [she]_146-alice may have done a hard day 's wash , there 's not [a child]_{4770-a child} ill within [the street]_{4821-the street} but [Alice]_146-alice goes to offer to sit up , and does sit up too , though may be [she]_146-alice 's to be at [her]_146-alice work by six next morning . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [She]_146-alice 's [a poor woman]_{4822-a poor woman} , and can feel for [the poor]_{4790-the poor} , [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , "_{[131-john barton]} was [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's reply ; and then [he]_{131-john barton} added , " Thank [you]_{134-mrs. wilson} kindly for [your]_{134-mrs. wilson} offer , and mayhap [I]_{131-john barton} may trouble [her]_146-alice to be a bit with [[my]_{131-john barton} wife]_{4735-my wife} , for while [I]_{131-john barton} 'm at work , and [Mary]_145-mary 's at [school]_4825-school , [I]_{131-john barton} know [she]_146-alice frets above a bit . See , there 's [Mary]_145-mary ! "_{[131-john barton]} and [the father]_{513-the father} 's eye brightened , as in the distance , among [a group of girls]_{561-a group of girls} , [he]_{513-the father} spied [[his]_{513-the father} only daughter]_{562-his only daughter} , [a bonny lassie of thirteen or so]_{563-a bonny lassie of thirteen or so} , who came bounding along to meet and to greet [[her]_{562-his only daughter} father]_{564-her father} , in a manner which showed that [the stern - looking man]_{565-the stern - looking man} had a tender nature within . [The two men]_{566-the two men} had crossed the last stile while [Mary]_145-mary loitered behind to gather some buds of the coming hawthorn , when [an over - grown lad]_{567-an over - grown lad} came past [her]_145-mary , and snatched a kiss , exclaiming , " For old acquaintance sake , [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[567-an over - grown lad]} " Take that for old acquaintance sake , then , "_{[4779-the girl]} said [the girl]_{4779-the girl} , blushing rosy red , more with anger than shame , as [she]_{4779-the girl} slapped [his]_{513-the father} face . The tones of [her]_{4779-the girl} voice called back [[her]_{4779-the girl} father]_{564-her father} and [[his]_{513-the father} friend]_{553-his friend} , and [the aggressor]_{571-the aggressor} proved to be [the eldest son of [the latter]_{511-the latter}]_{572-the eldest son of the latter} , [the senior by eighteen years of [[his]_{513-the father} little brothers]_{575-his little brothers}]_{574-the senior by eighteen years of his little brothers} . " Here , [children]_{4826-children} , instead o ' kissing and quarrelling , do [ye]_{4826-children} each take [a baby]_{4827-a baby} , for if [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's arms be like [mine]_{564-her father} [they]_{4826-children} are heartily tired . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary sprang forward to take [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's charge , with [a girl]_{577-a girl} 's fondness for [infants]_578-infants , and with some little foresight of the event soon to happen at [home]_4755-home ; while [young Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} seemed to lose [his]_{513-the father} rough , cubbish nature as [he]_{513-the father} crowed and cooed to [[his]_{513-the father} little brother]_{580-his little brother} . " [Twins]_142-twins is a great trial to [a poor man]_{4828-a poor man} , bless 'em , "_{[581-the half - proud , half - weary father]} said [the half - proud , half - weary father]_{581-the half - proud , half - weary father} , as [he]_{581-the half - proud , half - weary father} bestowed a smacking kiss on [the babe]_{582-the babe} ere [he]_{581-the half - proud , half - weary father} parted with it . CHAPTER II . [A MANCHESTER TEA - PARTY]_{583-a manchester tea - party} . [Polly]_145-mary , put the kettle on , And let 's have tea ! [Polly]_145-mary , put the kettle on , And [we]_584-we 'll all have tea . " Here [we]_584-we are , [wife]_510-wife ; didst [thou]_4830-thou think thou'd lost [us]_584-we ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} quoth hearty - voiced [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , as [the two women]_{547-the two women} rose and shook [themselves]_{547-the two women} in preparation for [their]_{547-the two women} homeward walk . [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} was evidently soothed , if not cheered , by the unburdening of [her]_{133-mrs. barton} fears and thoughts to [[her]_{133-mrs. barton} friend]_{586-her friend} ; and [her]_{133-mrs. barton} approving look went far to second [[her]_{133-mrs. barton} husband]_{587-her husband} 's invitation that [the whole party]_{588-the whole party} should adjourn from [Green Heys Fields]_{7-green heys fields} to tea , at [[the Bartons]_{143-the bartons} ' house]_{589-the bartons ' house} . The only faint opposition was raised by [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , on account of the lateness of the hour at which [they]_{547-the two women} would probably return , which [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} feared on [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} babies]_{590-her babies} ' account . " Now , hold [your]_{133-mrs. barton} tongue , [missis]_4831-missis , will [you]_{133-mrs. barton} , "_{[587-her husband]} said [[her]_{133-mrs. barton} husband]_{587-her husband} , good - temperedly . " Do n't [you]_{133-mrs. barton} know [[them]_{547-the two women} brats]_{4832-them brats} never goes to sleep till long past ten ? and have n't [you]_{133-mrs. barton} a shawl , under which [you]_{133-mrs. barton} can tuck [one lad]_{4833-one lad} 's head , as safe as a bird 's under its wing ? And as for t'other one , [I]_{587-her husband} 'll put it in [my]_{587-her husband} pocket rather than not stay , now [we]_596-our are this far away from [Ancoats]_8-ancoats . "_{[587-her husband]} " Or [I]_{133-mrs. barton} can lend [you]_{133-mrs. barton} another shawl , "_{[133-mrs. barton]} suggested [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} . " Ay , any thing rather than not stay . "_{[133-mrs. barton]} The matter being decided , [the party]_{592-the party} proceeded [home]_4755-home , through [many half - finished streets]_{594-many half - finished streets} , all so like one another that [you]_595-you might have easily been bewildered and lost [your]_595-you way . Not a step , however , did [[our]_596-our friends]_{597-our friends} lose ; down [this entry]_{598-this entry} , cutting off [that corner]_{599-that corner} , until [they]_{597-our friends} turned out of [one of [these innumerable streets]_{601-these innumerable streets}]_{600-one of these innumerable streets} into [a little paved court]_{602-a little paved court} , having the backs of houses at the end opposite to the opening , and a gutter running through the middle to carry off household slops , washing suds , & amp;c . [The women who lived in [the court]_{604-the court}]_{603-the women who lived in the court} were busy taking in strings of caps , frocks , and various articles of linen , which hung from side to side , dangling so low , that if [[our]_596-our friends]_{597-our friends} had been a few minutes sooner , [they]_{597-our friends} would have had to stoop very much , or else the half - wet clothes would have flapped in [their]_{597-our friends} faces ; but although the evening seemed yet early when [they]_{597-our friends} were in [the open fields]_{606-the open fields} -- among [the pent - up houses]_{607-the pent - up houses} , night , with its mists , and its darkness , had already begun to fall . Many greetings were given and exchanged between [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} and [these women]_{608-these women} , for not long ago [they]_{597-our friends} had also dwelt in [this court]_{609-this court} . [Two rude lads]_{610-two rude lads} , standing at a disorderly looking house - door , exclaimed , as [Mary Barton]_145-mary ( [the daughter]_{611-the daughter} ) passed , " Eh , look ! [Polly Barton]_145-mary 's gotten [a sweetheart]_{4834-a sweetheart} . "_{[610-two rude lads]} Of course this referred to [young Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , who stole a look to see how [Mary]_145-mary took the idea . [He]_612-he saw [her]_145-mary assume the air of [a young fury]_{613-a young fury} , and to [his]_612-he next speech [she]_145-mary answered not a word . [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} produced the key of the door from [her]_{133-mrs. barton} pocket ; and on entering [the house - place]_{614-the house - place} it seemed as if [they]_615-they were in total darkness , except one bright spot , which might be a cat 's eye , or might be , what it was , a red - hot fire , smouldering under a large piece of coal , which [John Barton]_{131-john barton} immediately applied [himself]_{131-john barton} to break up , and the effect instantly produced was warm and glowing light in every corner of [the room]_{616-the room} . To add to this ( although the coarse yellow glare seemed lost in the ruddy glow from the fire ) , [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} lighted a dip by sticking it in the fire , and having placed it satisfactorily in a tin candlestick , began to look further about [her]_{133-mrs. barton} , on hospitable thoughts intent . [The room]_{616-the room} was tolerably large , and possessed many conveniences . On the right of the door , as [you]_618-you entered , was a longish window , with a broad ledge . On each side of this , hung blue - and - white check curtains , which were now drawn , to shut in [the friends]_{619-the friends} met to enjoy [themselves]_{619-the friends} . Two geraniums , unpruned and leafy , which stood on the sill , formed a further defence from out - door pryers . In the corner between the window and the fire - side was a cupboard , apparently full of plates and dishes , cups and saucers , and some more nondescript articles , for which one would have fancied [[their]_615-they possessors]_{620-their possessors} could find no use -- such as triangular pieces of glass to save carving knives and forks from dirtying table - cloths . However , it was evident [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} was proud of [her]_{133-mrs. barton} crockery and glass , for [she]_{133-mrs. barton} left [her]_{133-mrs. barton} cupboard door open , with a glance round of satisfaction and pleasure . On the opposite side to the door and window was the staircase , and two doors ; one of which ( the nearest to the fire ) led into [a sort of little back kitchen , where dirty work , such as washing up dishes , might be done , and whose shelves served as larder , and pantry , and [storeroom]_{622-storeroom}]_{621-a sort of little back kitchen , where dirty work , such as washing up dishes , might be done , and whose shelves served as larder , and pantry , and storeroom} , and all . The other door , which was considerably lower , opened into the coal - hole -- the slanting closet under the stairs ; from which , to the fire - place , there was a gay - coloured piece of oil - cloth laid . [The place]_{623-the place} seemed almost crammed with furniture ( sure sign of good times among [the mills]_{522-the mills} ) . Beneath the window was a dresser with three deep drawers . Opposite [the fire - place]_{625-the fire - place} was a table , which [I]_0-i should call a Pembroke , only that it was made of deal , and [I]_0-i can not tell how far such a name may be applied to such humble material . On it , resting against the wall , was a bright green japanned tea - tray , having a couple of scarlet lovers embracing in the middle . The fire - light danced merrily on this , and really ( setting all taste but that of [a child]_{4770-a child} 's aside ) it gave a richness of colouring to that side of [the room]_{616-the room} . It was in some measure propped up by a crimson tea - caddy , also of japan ware . A round table on one branching leg really for use , stood in the corresponding corner to the cupboard ; and , if [you]_618-you can picture all this with a washy , but clean stencilled pattern on the walls , [you]_618-you can form some idea of [[John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's [home]_4755-home]_{628-john barton 's home} . The tray was soon hoisted down , and before the merry chatter of cups and saucers began , [the women]_{630-the women} disburdened [themselves]_{630-the women} of [their]_{630-the women} out - of - door things , and sent [Mary]_145-mary up [stairs]_4740-stairs with [them]_{630-the women} . Then came a long whispering , and chinking of money , to which [Mr.]_632-mr. and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} were too polite to attend ; knowing , as [they]_{630-the women} did full well , that it all related to the preparations for hospitality ; hospitality that , in [their]_{630-the women} turn , [they]_{630-the women} should have such pleasure in offering . So [they]_{630-the women} tried to be busily occupied with [the children]_{633-the children} , and not to hear [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} 's directions to [Mary]_145-mary . " Run , [[Mary]_145-mary dear]_{4835-mary dear} , just round the corner , and get some fresh eggs at [Tipping 's]_{9-tipping 's} ( [you]_145-mary may get one a - piece , that will be five - pence ) , and see if [he]_{9-tipping 's} has any nice ham cut , that [he]_{9-tipping 's} would let [us]_{630-the women} have a pound of . "_{[133-mrs. barton]} " Say two pounds , [missis]_4831-missis , and do n't be stingy , "_{[634-the husband]} chimed in [the husband]_{634-the husband} . " Well , a pound and a half , [Mary]_145-mary . And get it [Cumberland]_{10-cumberland} ham , for [Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} comes from there - away , and it will have a sort of relish of [home]_4755-home with it [he]_{9-tipping 's} 'll like,--and [Mary]_145-mary "_{[634-the husband]} ( seeing [the lassie]_{635-the lassie} fain to be off ) , " [you]_145-mary must get a pennyworth of milk and a loaf of bread -- mind [you]_145-mary get it fresh and new -- and , and -- that 's all , [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[634-the husband]} " No , it 's not all , "_{[587-her husband]} said [[her]_145-mary husband]_{587-her husband} . " [Thou]_145-mary must get sixpennyworth of rum , to warm the tea ; [thou'll]_145-mary get it at the ' Grapes . ' And [thou]_145-mary just go to [Alice Wilson]_146-alice ; [he]_{587-her husband} says [she]_146-alice lives just right round [the corner]_{4838-the corner} , under 14 , [Barber Street]_{6-barber street} "_{[587-her husband]} ( this was addressed to [[his]_{587-her husband} wife]_{525-his wife} ) , " and tell [her]_146-alice to come and take [her]_146-alice tea with [us]_4839-us ; [she]_146-alice 'll like to see [[her]_146-alice brother]_{4840-her brother} , [I]_{587-her husband} 'll be bound , let alone [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} and [the twins]_{545-the twins} . "_{[587-her husband]} " If [she]_146-alice comes [she]_146-alice must bring a tea - cup and saucer , for [we]_4839-us have but half - a - dozen , and here 's [six of [us]_4839-us]_{4842-six of us} , "_{[133-mrs. barton]} said [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} . " Pooh ! pooh ! [Jem]_147-jem and [Mary]_145-mary can drink out of one , surely . "_{[133-mrs. barton]} But [Mary]_145-mary secretly determined to take care that [Alice]_146-alice brought [her]_146-alice tea - cup and saucer , if the alternative was to be [her]_146-alice sharing any thing with [Jem]_147-jem . [Alice Wilson]_146-alice had but just come in . [She]_146-alice had been out all day in [the fields]_{638-the fields} , gathering wild herbs for drinks and medicine , for in addition to [her]_146-alice invaluable qualities as [a sick nurse]_{639-a sick nurse} and [her]_146-alice worldly occupation as [a washerwoman]_{640-a washerwoman} , [she]_146-alice added a considerable knowledge of hedge and field simples ; and on fine days , when no more profitable occupation offered itself , [she]_146-alice used to ramble off into [the lanes]_{641-the lanes} and meadows as far as [her]_146-alice legs could carry [her]_146-alice . This evening [she]_146-alice had returned loaded with nettles , and [her]_146-alice first object was to light a candle and see to hang them up in bunches in every available place in [[her]_146-alice cellar room]_{642-her cellar room} . It was the perfection of cleanliness : in one corner stood the modest - looking bed , with a check curtain at the head , the whitewashed wall filling up the place where the corresponding one should have been . The floor was bricked , and scrupulously clean , although so damp that it seemed as if the last washing would never dry up . As the cellar window looked into an area in [the street]_{4821-the street} , down which [boys]_501-boys might throw stones , [it]_645-it was protected by an outside shelter , and was oddly festooned with all manner of hedge - row , [ditch]_646-ditch , and field plants , which [we]_647-we are accustomed to call valueless , but which have a powerful effect either for good or for evil , and are consequently much used among [the poor]_{4790-the poor} . [The room]_{616-the room} was strewed , hung , and darkened with these bunches , which emitted no very fragrant odour in their process of drying . In one corner was a sort of broad hanging shelf , made of old planks , where some old hoards of [Alice]_146-alice 's were kept . [Her]_146-alice little bit of crockery ware was ranged on the mantelpiece , where also stood [her]_146-alice candlestick and box of matches . A small cupboard contained at the bottom coals , and at the top [her]_146-alice bread and basin of oatmeal , [her]_146-alice frying pan , tea - pot , and a small tin saucepan , which served as a kettle , as well as for cooking the delicate little messes of broth which [Alice]_146-alice sometimes was able to manufacture for [a sick neighbour]_{650-a sick neighbour} . After [her]_146-alice walk [she]_146-alice felt chilly and weary , and was busy trying to light [her]_146-alice fire with the damp coals , and half green sticks , when [Mary]_145-mary knocked . " Come in , "_[146-alice] said [Alice]_146-alice , remembering , however , that [she]_146-alice had barred the door for the night , and hastening to make it possible for [any one]_{504-any one} to come in . " Is that [you]_145-mary , [Mary Barton]_145-mary ? "_[145-mary] exclaimed [she]_145-mary , as the light from [her]_145-mary candle streamed on [the girl]_{4779-the girl} 's face . " How [you]_145-mary are grown since [I]_145-mary used to see [you]_145-mary at [[my]_145-mary brother]_{4843-my brother} 's ! Come in , [lass]_4844-lass , come in . "_[145-mary] " Please , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , almost breathless , " [mother]_4845-mother says [you]_145-mary 're to come to tea , and bring [your]_145-mary cup and saucer , for [George]_148-george and [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} is with [us]_4846-us , and [the twins]_{545-the twins} , and [Jem]_147-jem . And [you]_145-mary 're to make haste , please . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary 'm sure it 's very neighbourly and kind in [[your]_145-mary mother]_{4848-your mother} , and [I]_145-mary 'll come , with many thanks . Stay , [Mary]_145-mary , has [[your]_145-mary mother]_{4848-your mother} got any nettles for spring drink ? If [she]_{4848-your mother} has n't [I]_145-mary 'll take [her]_{4848-your mother} some . "_[145-mary] " No , [I]_145-mary do n't think [she]_{4848-your mother} has . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary ran off like a hare to fulfil what , to [a girl of thirteen , fond of power]_{653-a girl of thirteen , fond of power} , was the more interesting part of [her]_145-mary errand -- the money - spending part . And well and ably did [she]_145-mary perform [her]_145-mary business , returning [home]_4755-home with a little bottle of rum , and the eggs in one hand , while [her]_145-mary other was filled with some excellent red - and - white smoke - flavoured Cumberland ham , wrapped up in paper . [She]_145-mary was at [home]_4755-home , and frying ham , before [Alice]_146-alice had chosen [her]_146-alice nettles , put out [her]_146-alice candle , locked [her]_146-alice door , and walked in a very foot - sore manner as far as [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's . What an aspect of comfort did [[his]_{131-john barton} houseplace]_{656-his houseplace} present , after [[her]_145-mary humble cellar]_{657-her humble cellar} . [She]_145-mary did not think of comparing ; but for all that [she]_145-mary felt the delicious glow of the fire , the bright light that revelled in every corner of [the room]_{616-the room} , the savoury smells , the comfortable sounds of a boiling kettle , and the hissing , frizzling ham . With a little old - fashioned curtsey [she]_145-mary shut the door , and replied with a loving heart to the boisterous and surprised greeting of [[her]_145-mary brother]_{4840-her brother} . And now all preparations being made , [the party]_{592-the party} sat down ; [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} in the post of honour , the rocking chair on the right hand side of the fire , nursing [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} baby]_{661-her baby} , while [its father]_{662-its father} , in an opposite arm - chair , tried vainly to quieten the other with bread soaked in milk . [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} knew manners too well to do any thing but sit at the tea - table and make tea , though in [her]_{133-mrs. barton} heart [she]_{133-mrs. barton} longed to be able to superintend the frying of the ham , and cast many an anxious look at [Mary]_145-mary as [she]_{133-mrs. barton} broke the eggs and turned the ham , with a very comfortable portion of confidence in [her]_{133-mrs. barton} own culinary powers . [Jem]_147-jem stood awkwardly leaning against the dresser , replying rather gruffly to [[his]_147-jem aunt]_{663-his aunt} 's speeches , which gave [him]_147-jem , [he]_147-jem thought , the air of being [a little boy]_{664-a little boy} ; whereas [he]_147-jem considered [himself]_147-jem as [a young man]_{665-a young man} , and [not so very young neither]_{666-not so very young neither} , as in two months [he]_147-jem would be eighteen . [Barton]_{131-john barton} vibrated between the fire and the tea - table , [his]_{131-john barton} only drawback being a fancy that every now and then [[his]_{131-john barton} wife]_{525-his wife} 's face flushed and contracted as if in pain . At length the business actually began . Knives and forks , cups and saucers made a noise , but human voices were still , for [human beings]_{668-human beings} were hungry , and had no time to speak . [Alice]_146-alice first broke silence ; holding [her]_146-alice tea - cup with the manner of one proposing a toast , [she]_146-alice said , " Here 's to [absent friends]_{4850-absent friends} . [Friends]_4851-friends may meet , but mountains never . "_[146-alice] It was an unlucky toast or sentiment , as [she]_146-alice instantly felt . [Every one]_{669-every one} thought of [Esther]_132-esther , [the absent Esther]_{670-the absent esther} ; and [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} put down [her]_{133-mrs. barton} food , and could not hide the fast dropping tears . [Alice]_146-alice could have bitten [her]_146-alice tongue out . It was a wet blanket to the evening ; for though all had been said and suggested in [the fields]_{638-the fields} that could be said or suggested , [every one]_{669-every one} had a wish to say something in the way of comfort to poor [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} , and a dislike to talk about any thing else while [her]_{133-mrs. barton} tears fell fast and scalding . So [George Wilson]_148-george , [[his]_148-george wife]_{525-his wife} and [children]_{4826-children} , set off early [home]_4755-home , not before ( in spite of _ mal - à - propos _ speeches ) [they]_676-they had expressed a wish that such meetings might often take place , and not before [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had given [his]_{131-john barton} hearty consent ; and declared that as soon as ever [[his]_{131-john barton} wife]_{525-his wife} was well again [they]_676-they would have just such another evening . " [I]_146-alice will take care not to come and spoil it , "_[146-alice] thought [poor Alice]_146-alice ; and going up to [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} [she]_146-alice took [her]_{133-mrs. barton} hand almost humbly , and said , " [You]_{133-mrs. barton} do n't know how sorry [I]_146-alice am [I]_146-alice said it . "_[146-alice] To [her]_{133-mrs. barton} surprise , a surprise that brought tears of joy into [her]_{133-mrs. barton} eyes , [Mary Barton]_145-mary put [her]_145-mary arms round [her]_{133-mrs. barton} neck , and kissed the self - reproaching [Alice]_146-alice . " [You]_146-alice did n't mean any harm , and it was [me]_145-mary as was so foolish ; only this work about [Esther]_132-esther , and not knowing where [she]_132-esther is , lies so heavy on [my]_145-mary heart . Good night , and never think no more about it . God bless [you]_146-alice , [Alice]_146-alice . "_[145-mary] Many and many a time , as [Alice]_146-alice reviewed that evening in [her]_146-alice after life , did [she]_146-alice bless [Mary Barton]_145-mary for these kind and thoughtful words . But just then all [she]_146-alice could say was , " Good night , [Mary]_145-mary , and may God bless _ [you]_146-alice _ . "_[146-alice] CHAPTER III . [JOHN BARTON]_{131-john barton} 'S GREAT TROUBLE . But when [the morn]_{678-the morn} came dim and sad , And chill with early showers , [Her]_146-alice quiet eyelids closed -- [she]_146-alice had Another morn than [ours]_679-ours ! [HOOD]_149-hood . In the middle of that same night [a neighbour of [the Bartons]_{143-the bartons}]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} was roused from [her]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} sound , well - earned sleep , by a knocking , which had at first made part of [her]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} dream ; but starting up , as soon as [she]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} became convinced of its reality , [she]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} opened the window , and asked who was there ? " [Me]_{131-john barton} , [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , "_{[131-john barton]} answered [he]_{131-john barton} , in a voice tremulous with agitation . " [[My]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} missis]_{4756-my missis} is in labour , and , for the love of [God]_224-god , step in while [I]_{680-a neighbour of the bartons} run for [th ' doctor]_{4853-th ' doctor} , for [she]_{4756-my missis} 's fearful bad . "_{[680-a neighbour of the bartons]} While [the woman]_{681-the woman} hastily dressed [herself]_{681-the woman} , leaving the window still open , [she]_{681-the woman} heard cries of agony , which resounded in [the little court]_{682-the little court} in the stillness of the night . In less than five minutes [she]_{681-the woman} was standing by [Mrs. Barton]_{133-mrs. barton} 's bed - side , relieving the terrified [Mary]_145-mary , who went about , where [she]_145-mary was told , like [an automaton]_{683-an automaton} ; [her]_145-mary eyes tearless , [her]_145-mary face calm , though deadly pale , and uttering no sound , except when [her]_145-mary teeth chattered for very nervousness . The cries grew worse . [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} was very long in hearing the repeated rings at [his]_{684-the doctor} night - bell , and still longer in understanding who it was that made this sudden call upon [his]_{684-the doctor} services ; and then [he]_{684-the doctor} begged [Barton]_{131-john barton} just to wait while [he]_{684-the doctor} dressed [himself]_{684-the doctor} , in order that no time might be lost in finding [the court]_{604-the court} and [house]_686-house . [Barton]_{131-john barton} absolutely stamped with impatience , outside [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} 's door , before [he]_{131-john barton} came down ; and walked so fast homewards , that [the medical man]_{688-the medical man} several times asked [him]_{131-john barton} to go slower . " Is [she]_689-she so very bad ? "_{[131-john barton]} asked [he]_{131-john barton} . " Worse , much worser than ever [I]_{131-john barton} saw [her]_689-she before , "_{[131-john barton]} replied [John]_{131-john barton} . No ! [she]_689-she was not -- [she]_689-she was at peace . The cries were still for ever . [John]_{131-john barton} had no time for listening . [He]_{684-the doctor} opened the latched door , stayed not to light a candle for the mere ceremony of showing [[his]_{684-the doctor} companion]_{690-his companion} up the stairs , so well known to [himself]_{684-the doctor} ; but , in two minutes was in [the room]_{616-the room} , where lay [the dead wife]_{692-the dead wife} , whom [he]_{684-the doctor} had loved with all the power of [his]_{684-the doctor} strong heart . [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} stumbled up [stairs]_4740-stairs by the fire - light , and met the awe - struck look of [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} , which at once told [him]_{684-the doctor} the state of things . [The room]_{616-the room} was still , as [he]_{684-the doctor} , with habitual tip - toe step , approached [the poor frail body , whom nothing now could more disturb]_{697-the poor frail body , whom nothing now could more disturb} . [[Her]_{692-the dead wife} daughter]_{698-her daughter} knelt by the bed - side , [her]_{698-her daughter} face buried in the clothes , which were almost crammed into [her]_{698-her daughter} mouth , to keep down the choking sobs . [The husband]_{634-the husband} stood like [one stupified]_{700-one stupified} . [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} questioned [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} in whispers , and then approaching [Barton]_{131-john barton} , said , " [You]_{131-john barton} must go down [stairs]_4740-stairs . This is a great shock , but bear it like [a man]_{4855-a man} . Go down . "_{[131-john barton]} [He]_{684-the doctor} went mechanically and sat down on the first chair . [He]_{684-the doctor} had no hope . The look of death was too clear upon [her]_{695-the neighbour} face . Still , when [he]_{684-the doctor} heard one or two unusual noises , the thought burst on [him]_{684-the doctor} that it might only be a trance , a fit , a -- [he]_{684-the doctor} did not well know what,--but not death ! Oh , not death ! And [he]_{684-the doctor} was starting up to go up [stairs]_4740-stairs again , when [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} 's heavy cautious creaking footstep was heard on the stairs . Then [he]_{684-the doctor} knew what it really was in [the chamber above]_{705-the chamber above} . " Nothing could have saved [her]_{695-the neighbour} -- there has been some shock to the system-- "_{[684-the doctor]} and so [he]_{684-the doctor} went on ; but , to unheeding ears , which yet retained [his]_{684-the doctor} words to ponder on ; words not for immediate use in conveying sense , but to be laid by , in [the store - house of memory]_{706-the store - house of memory} , for a more convenient season . [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} seeing the state of the case , grieved for [the man]_{708-the man} ; and , very sleepy , thought it best to go , and accordingly wished [him]_{684-the doctor} good - night -- but there was no answer , so [he]_{684-the doctor} let [himself]_{684-the doctor} out ; and [Barton]_{131-john barton} sat on , like a stock or a stone , so rigid , so still . [He]_{684-the doctor} heard the sounds above too , and knew what they meant . [He]_{684-the doctor} heard the stiff , unseasoned drawer , in which [[his]_{684-the doctor} wife]_{525-his wife} kept [her]_{525-his wife} clothes , pulled open . [He]_{684-the doctor} saw [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} come down , and blunder about in search of soap and water . [He]_{684-the doctor} knew well what [she]_{695-the neighbour} wanted , and _ why _ [she]_{695-the neighbour} wanted them , but [he]_{684-the doctor} did not speak , nor offer to help . At last [she]_{695-the neighbour} went , with some kindly - meant words ( a text of comfort , which fell upon a deafened ear ) , and something about " [Mary]_145-mary , "_{[695-the neighbour]} but which [Mary]_145-mary , in [his]_{684-the doctor} bewildered state , [he]_{684-the doctor} could not tell . [He]_{684-the doctor} tried to realise it , to think it possible . And then [his]_{684-the doctor} mind wandered off to other days , to far different times . [He]_{684-the doctor} thought of [their]_711-their courtship ; of [his]_{684-the doctor} first seeing [her]_{695-the neighbour} , [an awkward , beautiful rustic , far too shiftless for the delicate factory work to which [she]_{695-the neighbour} was apprenticed]_{712-an awkward , beautiful rustic , far too shiftless for the delicate factory work to which she was apprenticed} ; of [his]_{684-the doctor} first gift to [her]_{695-the neighbour} , a bead necklace , which had long ago been put by , in one of the deep drawers of the dresser , to be kept for [Mary]_145-mary . [He]_{684-the doctor} wondered if it was there yet , and with a strange curiosity [he]_{684-the doctor} got up to feel for it ; for the fire by this time was well - nigh out , and candle [he]_{684-the doctor} had none . [His]_{684-the doctor} groping hand fell on the piled - up tea things , which at [his]_{684-the doctor} desire [she]_{695-the neighbour} had left unwashed till morning -- [they]_713-they were all so tired . [He]_{684-the doctor} was reminded of one of the daily little actions , which acquire such power when they have been performed for the last time , by one [we]_714-we love . [He]_{684-the doctor} began to think over [[his]_{684-the doctor} wife]_{525-his wife} 's daily round of duties ; and something in the remembrance that these would never more be done by [her]_{695-the neighbour} , touched the source of tears , and [he]_{684-the doctor} cried aloud . [Poor Mary]_145-mary , meanwhile , had mechanically helped [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} in all the last attentions to [the dead]_{717-the dead} ; and when [she]_145-mary was kissed , and spoken to soothingly , tears stole quietly down [her]_145-mary cheeks : but [she]_145-mary reserved the luxury of a full burst of grief till [she]_145-mary should be alone . [She]_145-mary shut the chamber - door softly , after [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} had gone , and then shook the bed by which [she]_145-mary knelt , with [her]_145-mary agony of sorrow . [She]_145-mary repeated , over and over again , the same words ; the same vain , unanswered address to [her]_{695-the neighbour} who was no more . " Oh , [mother]_4845-mother ! [mother]_4845-mother , are [you]_4845-mother really dead ! Oh , [mother]_4845-mother , [mother]_4845-mother ! "_[145-mary] At last [she]_145-mary stopped , because it flashed across [her]_145-mary mind that [her]_145-mary violence of grief might disturb [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . All was still below . [She]_145-mary looked on the face so changed , and yet so strangely like . [She]_145-mary bent down to kiss it . The cold , unyielding flesh struck a shudder to [her]_145-mary heart , and , hastily obeying [her]_145-mary impulse , [she]_145-mary grasped the candle , and opened the door . Then [she]_145-mary heard the sobs of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's grief ; and quickly , quietly , stealing down the steps , [she]_145-mary knelt by [him]_{564-her father} , and kissed [his]_{564-her father} hand . [He]_{564-her father} took no notice at first , for [his]_{564-her father} burst of grief would not be controlled . But when [her]_145-mary shriller sobs , [her]_145-mary terrified cries ( which [she]_145-mary could not repress ) , rose upon [his]_{564-her father} ear , [he]_{564-her father} checked [himself]_{564-her father} . " [Child]_4860-child , [we]_4861-we must be all to [one another]_{4862-one another} , now _ [she]_145-mary _ is gone , "_{[564-her father]} whispered [he]_{564-her father} . " Oh , [father]_4863-father , what can [I]_{564-her father} do for [you]_4860-child ? Do tell [me]_{564-her father} ! [I]_{564-her father} 'll do any thing . "_{[564-her father]} " [I]_{564-her father} know [thou]_{564-her father} wilt . [Thou]_{564-her father} must not fret [thyself]_{564-her father} ill , that 's the first thing [I]_{564-her father} ask . [Thou]_{564-her father} must leave [me]_{564-her father} , and go to bed now , like [a good girl]_{4864-a good girl} as [thou]_{564-her father} art . "_{[564-her father]} " Leave [you]_4863-father , [father]_4863-father ! oh , do n't say so . "_{[564-her father]} " Ay , but [thou]_{564-her father} must ! [thou]_{564-her father} must go to bed , and try and sleep ; [thou'lt]_{564-her father} have enough to do and to bear , [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} , to - morrow . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary got up , kissed [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , and sadly went up [stairs]_4740-stairs to [the little closet]_{723-the little closet} , where [she]_145-mary slept . [She]_145-mary thought it was of no use undressing , for that [she]_145-mary could never , never sleep , so threw [herself]_145-mary on [her]_145-mary bed in [her]_145-mary clothes , and before ten minutes had passed away , the passionate grief of youth had subsided into sleep . [Barton]_{131-john barton} had been roused by [[his]_{131-john barton} daughter]_{724-his daughter} 's entrance , both from [his]_{131-john barton} stupor and from [his]_{131-john barton} uncontrollable sorrow . [He]_{131-john barton} could think on what was to be done , could plan for the funeral , could calculate the necessity of soon returning to [his]_{131-john barton} work , as the extravagance of the past night would leave [them]_725-them short of money , if [he]_{131-john barton} long remained away from [the mill]_{726-the mill} . [He]_{131-john barton} was in [a club]_{727-a club} , so that money was provided for the burial . These things settled in [his]_{131-john barton} own mind , [he]_{131-john barton} recalled [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} 's words , and bitterly thought of the shock [[his]_{131-john barton} poor wife]_{729-his poor wife} had so recently had , in the mysterious disappearance of [[her]_{729-his poor wife} cherished sister]_{730-her cherished sister} . [His]_{131-john barton} feelings towards [Esther]_132-esther almost amounted to curses . It was [she]_132-esther who had brought on all this sorrow . [Her]_132-esther giddiness , [her]_132-esther lightness of conduct , had wrought this woe . [His]_{131-john barton} previous thoughts about [her]_132-esther had been tinged with wonder and pity , but now [he]_{131-john barton} hardened [his]_{131-john barton} heart against [her]_132-esther for ever . One of the good influences over [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's life had departed that night . One of the ties which bound [him]_{131-john barton} down to [the gentle humanities of earth]_{731-the gentle humanities of earth} was loosened , and henceforward [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} all remarked [he]_{131-john barton} was [a changed man]_{733-a changed man} . [His]_{131-john barton} gloom and [his]_{131-john barton} sternness became habitual instead of occasional . [He]_{131-john barton} was more obstinate . But never to [Mary]_145-mary . Between [the father]_{513-the father} and [the daughter]_{611-the daughter} there existed in full force that mysterious bond which unites those who have been loved by [one who is now dead and gone]_{736-one who is now dead and gone} . While [he]_{131-john barton} was harsh and silent to [others]_737-others , [he]_{131-john barton} humoured [Mary]_145-mary with tender love ; [she]_145-mary had more of [her]_145-mary own way than is common in any rank with [girls of [her]_145-mary age]_{738-girls of her age} . Part of this was the necessity of the case ; for , of course , all the money went through [her]_145-mary hands , and the household arrangements were guided by [her]_145-mary will and pleasure . But part was [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's indulgence , for [he]_{131-john barton} left [her]_145-mary , with full trust in [her]_145-mary unusual sense and spirit , to choose [[her]_145-mary own associates]_{740-her own associates} , and [her]_145-mary own times for seeing [them]_{740-her own associates} . With all this , [Mary]_145-mary had not [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's confidence in the matters which now began to occupy [him]_{131-john barton} , heart and soul ; [she]_145-mary was aware that [he]_{131-john barton} had joined clubs , and become [an active member of [a trades ' union]_{743-a trades ' union}]_{742-an active member of a trades ' union} , but it was hardly likely that [a girl of Mary]_{744-a girl of mary} 's age ( even when two or three years had elapsed since [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's death ) should care much for the differences between [the employers]_{437-the employers} and [the employed,--an]_{747-the employed,--an} eternal subject for agitation in [the manufacturing districts]_{748-the manufacturing districts} , which , however it may be lulled for a time , is sure to break forth again with fresh violence at any depression of trade , showing that in [its]_749-its apparent quiet , the ashes had still smouldered in the breasts of [a few]_{750-a few} . Among these few was [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . At all times it is a bewildering thing to [the poor weaver]_{751-the poor weaver} to see [[his]_{751-the poor weaver} employer]_{752-his employer} removing from [house]_686-house to [house]_686-house , each one grander than the last , till [he]_{752-his employer} ends in building one more magnificent than all , or withdraws [his]_{752-his employer} money from the concern , or sells [[his]_{752-his employer} mill]_{755-his mill} to buy [an estate in [the country]_{422-the country}]_{756-an estate in the country} , while all the time [the weaver]_{758-the weaver} , who thinks [he]_{751-the poor weaver} and [[his]_{751-the poor weaver} fellows]_{759-his fellows} are [the real makers of this wealth]_{760-the real makers of this wealth} , is struggling on for bread for [[their]_{758-the weaver} children]_{761-their children} , through the vicissitudes of lowered wages , short hours , fewer hands employed , & amp;c . And when [he]_{751-the poor weaver} knows trade is bad , and could understand ( at least partially ) that there are not buyers enough in the market to purchase the goods already made , and consequently that there is no demand for more ; when [he]_{751-the poor weaver} would bear and endure much without complaining , could [he]_{751-the poor weaver} also see that [[his]_{751-the poor weaver} employers]_{762-his employers} were bearing [their]_{762-his employers} share ; [he]_{751-the poor weaver} is , [I]_0-i say , bewildered and ( to use [his]_{751-the poor weaver} own word ) " aggravated "_{[751-the poor weaver]} to see that all goes on just as usual with [the mill - owners]_{763-the mill - owners} . [Large houses]_{764-large houses} are still occupied , while [[spinners]_765-spinners ' and [weavers]_767-weavers ' cottages]_{766-spinners ' and weavers ' cottages} stand empty , because [the families that once occupied them]_{768-the families that once occupied them} are obliged to live in [rooms]_769-rooms or [cellars]_770-cellars . [Carriages]_{771-carriages} still roll along [the streets]_{772-the streets} , concerts are still crowded by [subscribers]_{773-subscribers} , [the shops]_{774-the shops} for expensive luxuries still find [daily customers]_{775-daily customers} , while [the workman]_{776-the workman} loiters away [his]_{776-the workman} unemployed time in watching these things , and thinking of [the pale , uncomplaining wife]_{777-the pale , uncomplaining wife} at [home]_4755-home , and [the wailing children]_{779-the wailing children} asking in vain for enough of food , of the sinking health , of the dying life of [those near and dear to [him]_{776-the workman}]_{780-those near and dear to him} . The contrast is too great . Why should [he]_{776-the workman} alone suffer from bad times ? [I]_0-i know that this is not really the case ; and [I]_0-i know what is the truth in such matters : but what [I]_0-i wish to impress is what [the workman]_{776-the workman} feels and thinks . True , that with child - like improvidence , good times will often dissipate [his]_{776-the workman} grumbling , and make [him]_{776-the workman} forget all prudence and foresight . But there are [earnest men among [these people]_{783-these people}]_{782-earnest men among these people} , [men who have endured wrongs without complaining]_{784-men who have endured wrongs without complaining} , but without ever forgetting or forgiving [those whom ( [they]_{784-men who have endured wrongs without complaining} believe ) have caused all this woe]_{785-those whom ( they believe ) have caused all this woe} . Among these was [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [[His]_{131-john barton} parents]_{786-his parents} had suffered , [[his]_{131-john barton} mother]_{787-his mother} had died from absolute want of the necessaries of life . [He]_{131-john barton} [himself]_{131-john barton} was [a good , steady workman]_{788-a good , steady workman} , and , as such , pretty certain of steady employment . But [he]_{131-john barton} spent all [he]_{131-john barton} got with the confidence ( [you]_789-you may also call it improvidence ) of one who was willing , and believed [himself]_{131-john barton} able , to supply all [his]_{131-john barton} wants by [his]_{131-john barton} own exertions . And when [[his]_{131-john barton} master]_{790-his master} suddenly failed , and all hands in [that mill]_{791-that mill} were turned back , one Tuesday morning , with the news that [Mr. Hunter]_{150-mr. hunter} had stopped , [Barton]_{131-john barton} had only a few shillings to rely on ; but [he]_{131-john barton} had good heart of being employed at [some other mill]_{792-some other mill} , and accordingly , before returning [home]_4755-home , [he]_{131-john barton} spent some hours in going from [factory]_794-factory to [factory]_794-factory , asking for work . But at [every mill]_{796-every mill} was some sign of depression of trade ; [some]_797-some were working short hours , [some]_797-some were turning off hands , and for weeks [Barton]_{131-john barton} was out of work , living on credit . It was during this time [[his]_{131-john barton} little son]_{799-his little son} , the apple of [his]_{131-john barton} eye , the cynosure of all [his]_{131-john barton} strong power of love , fell ill of the scarlet fever . [They]_800-they dragged [him]_{131-john barton} through the crisis , but [his]_{131-john barton} life hung on a gossamer thread . Every thing , [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} said , depended on good nourishment , on generous living , to keep up [the little fellow]_{802-the little fellow} 's strength , in the prostration in which the fever had left [him]_{131-john barton} . Mocking words ! when the commonest food in [the house]_{803-the house} would not furnish one little meal . [Barton]_{131-john barton} tried credit ; but it was worn out at [the little provision shops]_{804-the little provision shops} , which were now suffering in [their]_{804-the little provision shops} turn . [He]_{131-john barton} thought it would be no sin to steal , and would have stolen ; but [he]_{131-john barton} could not get the opportunity in the few days [the child]_{805-the child} lingered . Hungry [himself]_{131-john barton} , almost to an animal pitch of ravenousness , but with the bodily pain swallowed up in anxiety for [[his]_{131-john barton} little sinking lad]_{806-his little sinking lad} , [he]_{131-john barton} stood at one of [the shop]_{807-the shop} windows where all edible luxuries are displayed ; haunches of venison , Stilton cheeses , moulds of jelly -- all appetising sights to [the common passer by]_{808-the common passer by} . And out of [this shop]_{809-this shop} came [Mrs. Hunter]_{151-mrs. hunter} ! [She]_{151-mrs. hunter} crossed to [[her]_{151-mrs. hunter} carriage]_{810-her carriage} , followed by [the shopman loaded with purchases for a party]_{811-the shopman loaded with purchases for a party} . The door was quickly slammed to , and [she]_{151-mrs. hunter} drove away ; and [Barton]_{131-john barton} returned [home]_4755-home with a bitter spirit of wrath in [his]_{131-john barton} heart , to see [[his]_{131-john barton} only boy]_{813-his only boy} a corpse ! [You]_814-you can fancy , now , the hoards of vengeance in [his]_{131-john barton} heart against [the employers]_{437-the employers} . For there are never wanting [those who , either in speech or in print]_{816-those who , either in speech or in print} , find it [their]_{816-those who , either in speech or in print} interest to cherish such feelings in [the working classes]_{817-the working classes} ; who know how and when to rouse the dangerous power at [their]_{816-those who , either in speech or in print} command ; and who use [their]_{816-those who , either in speech or in print} knowledge with unrelenting purpose to [either party]_{818-either party} . So while [Mary]_145-mary took [her]_145-mary own way , growing more spirited every day , and growing in [her]_145-mary beauty too , [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was chairman at many a trades ' union meeting ; [a friend of delegates]_{820-a friend of delegates} , and ambitious of being [a delegate]_{821-a delegate} [himself]_{564-her father} ; [a Chartist]_{822-a chartist} , and ready to do any thing for [his]_{564-her father} order . But now times were good ; and all these feelings were theoretical , not practical . [His]_{131-john barton} most practical thought was getting [Mary]_145-mary apprenticed to [a dressmaker]_{823-a dressmaker} ; for [he]_{131-john barton} had never left off disliking [a factory]_{4754-a factory} life for [a girl]_{577-a girl} , on more accounts than one . [Mary]_145-mary must do something . [The factories]_{826-the factories} being , as [I]_0-i said , out of the question , there were two things open -- going out to service , and the dressmaking business ; and against the first of these , [Mary]_145-mary set [herself]_145-mary with all the force of [her]_145-mary strong will . What that will might have been able to achieve had [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} been against [her]_145-mary , [I]_0-i can not tell ; but [he]_{131-john barton} disliked the idea of parting with [her]_145-mary , who was the light of [his]_{131-john barton} hearth , the voice of [[his]_{131-john barton} otherwise silent home]_{828-his otherwise silent home} . Besides , with [his]_{131-john barton} ideas and feelings towards [the higher classes]_{829-the higher classes} , [he]_{131-john barton} considered domestic servitude as a species of slavery ; a pampering of artificial wants on the one side , a giving - up of every right of leisure by day and quiet rest by night on the other . How far [his]_{131-john barton} strong exaggerated feelings had any foundation in truth , it is for [you]_830-you to judge . [I]_0-i am afraid that [Mary]_145-mary 's determination not to go to service arose from far less sensible thoughts on the subject than [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's . Three years of independence of action ( since [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's death such a time had now elapsed ) had little inclined [her]_145-mary to submit to rules as to hours and [associates]_{833-associates} , to regulate [her]_145-mary dress by [a mistress]_{834-a mistress} 's ideas of propriety , to lose the dear feminine privileges of gossiping with [a merry neighbour]_{835-a merry neighbour} , and working night and day to help one who was sorrowful . Besides all this , the sayings of [[her]_145-mary absent]_{836-her absent} , [[her]_145-mary mysterious aunt]_{837-her mysterious aunt} , [Esther]_132-esther , had an unacknowledged influence over [Mary]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary knew [she]_145-mary was very pretty ; [the factory people as [they]_{838-the factory people as they poured from the mills} poured from [the mills]_{522-the mills}]_{838-the factory people as they poured from the mills} , and in [their]_{838-the factory people as they poured from the mills} freedom told the truth ( whatever it might be ) to [every passer - by]_{840-every passer - by} , had early let [Mary]_145-mary into the secret of [her]_145-mary beauty . If [their]_{838-the factory people as they poured from the mills} remarks had fallen on an unheeding ear , there were always [young men]_{841-young men} enough , in a different rank from [her]_145-mary own , who were willing to compliment [[the pretty weaver]_{842-the pretty weaver} 's daughter]_{843-the pretty weaver 's daughter} as [they]_{838-the factory people as they poured from the mills} met [her]_145-mary in [the streets]_{772-the streets} . Besides , trust [a girl of sixteen]_{845-a girl of sixteen} for knowing well if [she]_{845-a girl of sixteen} is pretty ; concerning [her]_{845-a girl of sixteen} plainness [she]_{845-a girl of sixteen} may be ignorant . So with this consciousness [she]_145-mary had early determined that [her]_145-mary beauty should make [her]_145-mary [a lady]_{4776-a lady} ; the rank [she]_145-mary coveted the more for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's abuse ; the rank to which [she]_145-mary firmly believed [[her]_145-mary lost aunt]_{848-her lost aunt} [Esther]_132-esther had arrived . Now , while [a servant]_{849-a servant} must often drudge and be dirty , must be known as [a servant]_{849-a servant} by all who visited at [[[her]_145-mary master]_{851-her master} 's house]_{852-her master 's house} , [[a dressmaker]_{823-a dressmaker} 's apprentice]_{854-a dressmaker 's apprentice} must ( or so [Mary]_145-mary thought ) be always dressed with a certain regard to appearance ; must never soil [her]_145-mary hands , and need never redden or dirty [her]_145-mary face with hard labour . Before [my]_0-i telling [you]_855-you so truly what folly [Mary]_145-mary felt or thought , injures [her]_145-mary without redemption in [your]_855-you opinion , think what are [the silly fancies of sixteen years of age in every class]_{856-the silly fancies of sixteen years of age in every class} , and under all circumstances . The end of all the thoughts of [father]_4863-father and [daughter]_858-daughter was , as [I]_0-i said before , [Mary]_145-mary was to be [a dressmaker]_{823-a dressmaker} ; and [her]_145-mary ambition prompted [[her]_145-mary unwilling father]_{860-her unwilling father} to apply at all the first establishments , to know on what terms of painstaking and zeal [[his]_{860-her unwilling father} daughter]_{724-his daughter} might be admitted into ever so humble [a workwoman]_{862-a workwoman} 's situation . But high premiums were asked at all ; [poor man]_{863-poor man} ! [he]_{860-her unwilling father} might have known that without giving up a day 's work to ascertain the fact . [He]_{860-her unwilling father} would have been indignant , indeed , had [he]_{860-her unwilling father} known that if [Mary]_145-mary had accompanied [him]_{860-her unwilling father} , the case might have been rather different , as [her]_145-mary beauty would have made [her]_145-mary desirable as [a show - woman]_{864-a show - woman} . Then [he]_{860-her unwilling father} tried second - rate places ; at all the payment of a sum of money was necessary , and money [he]_{860-her unwilling father} had none . Disheartened and angry [he]_{860-her unwilling father} went [home]_4755-home at night , declaring it was time lost ; that dressmaking was at all events a toilsome business , and not worth learning . [Mary]_145-mary saw that the grapes were sour , and the next day set out [herself]_145-mary , as [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} could not afford to lose another day 's work ; and before night ( as yesterday 's experience had considerably lowered [her]_145-mary ideas ) [she]_145-mary had engaged [herself]_145-mary as [apprentice]_{867-apprentice} ( so called , though there were no deeds or indentures to the bond ) to [a certain [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} , [milliner]_869-milliner and [dressmaker]_{870-dressmaker}]_{868-a certain miss simmonds , milliner and dressmaker} , in [a respectable little street]_{871-a respectable little street} leading off [Ardwick Green]_{11-ardwick green} , where [her]_145-mary business was duly announced in gold letters on a black ground , enclosed in a bird's - eye maple frame , and stuck in the front parlour window ; where [the workwomen]_{872-the workwomen} were called " [[her]_{152-miss simmonds} young ladies]_{4867-her young ladies} ; "_{[872-the workwomen]} and where [Mary]_145-mary was to work for two years without any remuneration , on consideration of being taught the business ; and where afterwards [she]_145-mary was to dine and have tea , with a small quarterly salary ( paid quarterly , because so much more genteel than by the week ) , a _ very _ small one , divisible into a minute weekly pittance . In summer [she]_145-mary was to be [there]_873-there by six , bringing [her]_145-mary day 's meals during the first two years ; in winter [she]_145-mary was not to come till after breakfast . [Her]_145-mary time for returning [home]_4755-home at night must always depend upon the quantity of work [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} had to do . And [Mary]_145-mary was satisfied ; and seeing this , [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was contented too , although [his]_{564-her father} words were grumbling and morose ; but [Mary]_145-mary knew [his]_{564-her father} ways , and coaxed and planned for the future so cheerily , that [both]_876-both went to bed with easy if not happy hearts . CHAPTER IV . OLD ALICE 'S HISTORY . To envy nought beneath the ample sky ; To mourn no evil deed , no hour mis - spent ; And , like a living violet , silently Return in sweets to Heaven what goodness lent , Then bend beneath the chastening shower content . ELLIOTT . Another year passed on . The waves of time seemed long since to have swept away all trace of poor [Mary Barton]_145-mary . But [[her]_145-mary husband]_{587-her husband} still thought of [her]_145-mary , although with a calm and quiet grief , in the silent watches of the night : and [Mary]_145-mary would start from [her]_145-mary hard - earned sleep , and think in [her]_145-mary half - dreamy , half - awakened state , [she]_145-mary saw [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} stand by [her]_145-mary bed - side , as [she]_145-mary used to do " in the days of long - ago ; "_[145-mary] with a shaded candle and an expression of ineffable tenderness , while [she]_145-mary looked on [[her]_145-mary sleeping child]_{879-her sleeping child} . But [Mary]_145-mary rubbed [her]_145-mary eyes and sank back on [her]_145-mary pillow , awake , and knowing it was a dream ; and still , in all [her]_145-mary troubles and perplexities , [her]_145-mary heart called on [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} for aid , and [she]_145-mary thought , " If [mother]_4845-mother had but lived , [she]_4845-mother would have helped [me]_145-mary . "_[145-mary] Forgetting that [the woman]_{681-the woman} 's sorrows are far more difficult to mitigate than [a child]_{4770-a child} 's , even by the mighty power of [a mother]_{883-a mother} 's love ; and unconscious of the fact , that [she]_{681-the woman} was far superior in sense and spirit to [the mother [she]_{681-the woman} mourned]_{884-the mother she mourned} . [Aunt Esther]_153-esther was still mysteriously absent , and [people]_4744-people had grown weary of wondering and began to forget . [Barton]_145-mary still attended [[his]_886-his club]_{887-his club} , and was [an active member of [a trades ' union]_{743-a trades ' union}]_{742-an active member of a trades ' union} ; indeed , more frequently than ever , since the time of [Mary]_145-mary 's return in the evening was so uncertain ; and , as [she]_145-mary occasionally , in very busy times , remained all night . [[His]_886-his chiefest friend]_{890-his chiefest friend} was still [George Wilson]_148-george , although [he]_148-george had no great sympathy on the questions that agitated [Barton]_145-mary 's mind . Still [their]_891-their hearts were bound by old ties to [one another]_{4862-one another} , and the remembrance of former times gave an unspoken charm to [their]_891-their meetings . [[Our]_893-our old friend]_{894-our old friend} , [the cub - like lad]_{895-the cub - like lad} , [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , had shot up into [the powerful , well - made young man]_{896-the powerful , well - made young man} , with a sensible face enough ; nay , a face that might have been handsome , had it not been here and there marked by the small - pox . [He]_886-his worked with one of the great firms of engineers , who send from out [[their]_897-their towns of [workshops engines and machinery]_{899-workshops engines and machinery} to [the dominions of [the Czar]_{901-the czar} and [the Sultan]_{155-the sultan}]_{900-the dominions of the czar and the sultan}]_{898-their towns of workshops engines and machinery to the dominions of the czar and the sultan} . [[His]_886-his father]_{902-his father} and [mother]_4845-mother were never weary of praising [Jem]_154-jem , at all which [commendation pretty Mary Barton]_145-mary would toss [her]_145-mary head , seeing clearly enough that [they]_904-they wished [her]_145-mary to understand what [a good husband]_{905-a good husband} [he]_{905-a good husband} would make , and to favour [his]_{905-a good husband} love , about which [he]_{905-a good husband} never dared to speak , whatever eyes and looks revealed . One day , in the early winter time , when [people]_4744-people were provided with warm substantial gowns , not likely soon to wear out , and when , accordingly , business was rather slack at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' , [Mary]_145-mary met [Alice Wilson]_146-alice , coming [home]_4755-home from [her]_146-alice half - day 's work at [[some tradesman]_{908-some tradesman} 's house]_{909-some tradesman 's house} . [Mary]_145-mary and [Alice]_146-alice had always liked [each other]_{436-each other} ; indeed , [Alice]_146-alice looked with particular interest on [the motherless girl]_{911-the motherless girl} , [the daughter of [her]_145-mary whose forgiving kiss had so comforted [her]_145-mary in many sleepless hours]_{912-the daughter of her whose forgiving kiss had so comforted her in many sleepless hours} . So there was a warm greeting between [the tidy old woman]_{913-the tidy old woman} and [the blooming young work - girl]_{914-the blooming young work - girl} ; and then [Alice]_146-alice ventured to ask if [she]_145-mary would come in and take [her]_145-mary tea with [her]_145-mary that very evening . " [You]_145-mary 'll think it dull enough to come just to sit with [an old woman like [me]_146-alice]_{4869-an old woman like me} , but there 's [a tidy young lass as lives in the floor above , who does plain work]_{4870-a tidy young lass as lives in the floor above , who does plain work} , and now and then a bit in [your]_145-mary own line , [Mary]_145-mary ; [she]_{4870-a tidy young lass as lives in the floor above , who does plain work} 's grand - daughter to [old Job Legh]_156-job , [a spinner]_{4871-a spinner} , and [a good girl]_{4864-a good girl} [she]_{4870-a tidy young lass as lives in the floor above , who does plain work} is . Do come , [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_146-alice 've a terrible wish to make [you]_145-mary known to [each other]_{436-each other} . [She]_{4870-a tidy young lass as lives in the floor above , who does plain work} 's [a genteel - looking lass]_{4874-a genteel - looking lass} , too . "_[146-alice] At the beginning of this speech [Mary]_145-mary had feared [the intended visitor]_{915-the intended visitor} was to be [no other than [[Alice]_146-alice 's nephew]_{917-alice 's nephew}]_{916-no other than alice 's nephew} ; but [Alice]_146-alice was too delicate - minded to plan a meeting , even for [[her]_146-alice dear]_{918-her dear} [Jem]_154-jem , when one would have been [an unwilling party]_{919-an unwilling party} ; and [Mary]_145-mary , relieved from [her]_145-mary apprehension by the conclusion , gladly agreed to come . How busy [Alice]_146-alice felt ! it was not often [she]_146-alice had any one to tea ; and now [her]_146-alice sense of the duties of [a hostess]_{920-a hostess} were almost too much for [her]_146-alice . [She]_146-alice made haste [home]_4755-home , and lighted the unwilling fire , borrowing a pair of bellows to make it burn the faster . For [herself]_146-alice [she]_146-alice was always patient ; [she]_146-alice let the coals take [their]_922-their time . Then [she]_146-alice put on [her]_146-alice pattens , and went to fill [her]_146-alice kettle at the pump in [the next court]_{923-the next court} , and on the way [she]_146-alice borrowed a cup ; of odd saucers [she]_146-alice had plenty , serving as plates when occasion required . Half an ounce of tea and a quarter of a pound of butter went far to absorb [her]_146-alice morning 's wages ; but this was an unusual occasion . In general , [she]_146-alice used herb - tea for [herself]_146-alice , when at [home]_4755-home , unless [some thoughtful mistress]_{925-some thoughtful mistress} made [her]_146-alice a present of tea - leaves from [[her]_146-alice more abundant household]_{926-her more abundant household} . The two chairs drawn out for [visitors]_927-visitors , and duly swept and dusted ; an old board arranged with some skill upon two old candle - boxes set on end ( rather ricketty to be sure , but [she]_146-alice knew the seat of old , and when to sit lightly ; indeed the whole affair was more for apparent dignity of position than for any real ease ) ; a little , very little round table put just before the fire , which by this time was blazing merrily ; [her]_146-alice unlackered , ancient , third - hand tea - tray arranged with a black tea - pot , two cups with a red and white pattern , and one with the old friendly willow pattern , and saucers , not to match ( on one of the extra supply , the lump of butter flourished away ) ; all these preparations complete , [Alice]_146-alice began to look about [her]_146-alice with satisfaction , and a sort of wonder what more could be done to add to the comfort of the evening . [She]_146-alice took one of the chairs away from [its]_928-its appropriate place by the table , and putting it close to the broad large hanging shelf [I]_0-i told [you]_929-you about when [I]_0-i first described [[her]_146-alice cellar - dwelling]_{930-her cellar - dwelling} , and mounting on it , [she]_146-alice pulled towards [her]_146-alice an old deal box , and took thence a quantity of the oat bread of [the north]_{931-the north} , the clap - bread of [Cumberland]_{10-cumberland} and [Westmoreland]_{12-westmoreland} , and descending carefully with the thin cakes threatening to break to pieces in [her]_146-alice hand , [she]_146-alice placed them on the bare table , with the belief that [[her]_146-alice visitors]_{932-her visitors} would have an unusual treat in eating the bread of [her]_146-alice childhood . [She]_146-alice brought out a good piece of a four - pound loaf of common household bread as well , and then sat down to rest , really to rest , and not to pretend , on one of the rush - bottomed chairs . The candle was ready to be lighted , the kettle boiled , the tea was awaiting its doom in its paper parcel ; all was ready . A knock at the door ! It was [Margaret]_157-margaret , [the young workwoman who lived in [the rooms above]_{934-the rooms above}]_{933-the young workwoman who lived in the rooms above} , [who having heard the bustle , and the subsequent quiet]_{935-who having heard the bustle , and the subsequent quiet} , began to think it was time to pay [her]_157-margaret visit below . [She]_146-alice was [a sallow , unhealthy , sweet - looking young woman , with a careworn look]_{936-a sallow , unhealthy , sweet - looking young woman , with a careworn look} ; [her]_146-alice dress was humble and very simple , consisting of some kind of dark stuff gown , [her]_146-alice neck being covered by a drab shawl or large handkerchief , pinned down behind and at the sides in front . [The old woman]_{937-the old woman} gave [her]_146-alice a hearty greeting , and made [her]_146-alice sit down on the chair [she]_146-alice had just left , while [she]_146-alice balanced [herself]_146-alice on the board seat , in order that [Margaret]_157-margaret might think it was quite [her]_146-alice free and independent choice to sit there . " [I]_146-alice can not think what keeps [Mary Barton]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary 's quite grand with [her]_145-mary late hours , "_[146-alice] said [Alice]_146-alice , as [Mary]_145-mary still delayed . The truth was , [Mary]_145-mary was dressing [herself]_145-mary ; yes , to come to poor old [Alice's]_158-alice's -- [she]_145-mary thought it worth while to consider what gown [she]_145-mary should put on . It was not for [Alice]_146-alice , however , [you]_938-you may be pretty sure ; no , [they]_939-they knew [each other]_{436-each other} too well . But [Mary]_145-mary liked making an impression , and in this it must be owned [she]_145-mary was pretty often gratified -- and there was [this strange girl]_{941-this strange girl} to consider just now . So [she]_145-mary put on [her]_145-mary pretty new blue merino , made tight to [her]_145-mary throat , [her]_145-mary little linen collar and linen cuffs , and sallied forth to impress [poor gentle [Margaret]_157-margaret]_{942-poor gentle margaret} . [She]_145-mary certainly succeeded . [Alice]_146-alice , who never thought much about beauty , had never told [Margaret]_157-margaret how pretty [Mary]_145-mary was ; and , as [she]_146-alice came in half - blushing at [her]_146-alice own self - consciousness , [Margaret]_157-margaret could hardly take [her]_157-margaret eyes off [her]_146-alice , and [Mary]_145-mary put down [her]_145-mary long black lashes with a sort of dislike of the very observation [she]_145-mary had taken such pains to secure . Can [you]_943-you fancy the bustle of [Alice]_146-alice to make the tea , to pour it out , and sweeten it to [their]_944-their liking , to help and help again to clap - bread and bread - and - butter ? Can [you]_943-you fancy the delight with which [she]_145-mary watched [her]_145-mary piled - up clap - bread disappear before [the hungry girls]_{945-the hungry girls} , and listened to the praises of [her]_145-mary home - remembered dainty ? " [[My]_157-margaret mother]_{4875-my mother} used to send [me]_157-margaret some clap - bread by [any north - country person]_{4876-any north - country person} -- bless [her]_{4875-my mother} ! [She]_{4875-my mother} knew how good such things taste when far away from [home]_4755-home . Not but what [every one]_{669-every one} likes it . When [I]_157-margaret was in service [[my]_157-margaret fellow - servants]_{4879-my fellow - servants} were always glad to share with [me]_157-margaret . [Eh]_4880-eh , it 's a long time ago , [yon]_943-you . "_{[157-margaret]} " Do tell [us]_4881-us about it , [Alice]_146-alice , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret . " Why , [lass]_4844-lass , there 's nothing to tell . There was more mouths at [home]_4755-home than could be fed . [Tom]_138-thomas , that 's [[Will]_146-alice 's [father]_4863-father]_{4884-will 's father} ( [you]_943-you do n't know [Will]_146-alice , but [he]_{4884-will 's father} 's [a sailor to foreign parts]_{4886-a sailor to foreign parts} ) , had come to [Manchester]_1-manchester , and sent word what terrible lots of work was to be had , both for [lads]_4887-lads and [lasses]_4888-lasses . So [father]_4863-father sent [George]_148-george first ( [you]_943-you know [George]_148-george , well enough , [Mary]_145-mary ) , and then work was scarce out toward [Burton]_13-burton , where [we]_4890-we lived , and [father]_4863-father said [I]_157-margaret maun try and get a place . And [George]_148-george wrote as how wages were far higher in [Manchester]_1-manchester than [Milnthorpe]_{14-milnthorpe} or [Lancaster]_15-lancaster ; and , [lasses]_4888-lasses , [I]_157-margaret was young and thoughtless , and thought it was a fine thing to go so far from [home]_4755-home . So , one day , th ' butcher [he]_4863-father brings [us]_4890-we a letter fra [George]_148-george , to say [he]_4863-father 'd heard on a place -- and [I]_157-margaret was all agog to go , and [father]_4863-father was pleased , like ; but [mother]_4845-mother said little , and that little was very quiet . [I]_157-margaret 've often thought [she]_4845-mother was a bit hurt to see [me]_157-margaret so ready to go -- [God]_224-god forgive [me]_157-margaret ! But [she]_4845-mother packed up [my]_157-margaret clothes , and some o ' the better end of [her]_4845-mother own as would fit [me]_157-margaret , in [yon]_4896-yon little paper box up there -- it 's good for nought now , but [I]_157-margaret would liefer live without fire than break it up to be burnt ; and yet it 's going on for eighty years old , for [she]_4845-mother had it when [she]_4845-mother was [a girl]_{577-a girl} , and brought all [her]_4845-mother clothes in it to [[father]_4863-father 's]_{4899-father 's} , when [they]_4900-they were married . But , as [I]_157-margaret was saying , [she]_4845-mother did not cry , though the tears was often in [her]_4845-mother eyes ; and [I]_157-margaret seen [her]_4845-mother looking after [me]_157-margaret down [the lane]_{4901-the lane} as long as [I]_157-margaret were in sight , with [her]_4845-mother hand shading [her]_4845-mother eyes -- and that were the last look [I]_157-margaret ever had on [her]_4845-mother . "_{[157-margaret]} [Alice]_146-alice knew that before long [she]_146-alice should go to [that mother]_{946-that mother} ; and , besides , the griefs and bitter woes of youth have worn themselves out before [we]_947-we grow old ; but [she]_{946-that mother} looked so sorrowful that [the girls]_{505-the girls} caught [her]_{946-that mother} sadness , and mourned for [the poor woman who had been dead and gone so many years ago]_{949-the poor woman who had been dead and gone so many years ago} . " Did [you]_146-alice never see [her]_4845-mother again , [Alice]_146-alice ? Did [you]_146-alice never go [home]_4755-home while [she]_4845-mother was alive ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " No , nor since . Many a time and oft have [I]_145-mary planned to go . [I]_145-mary plan it yet , and hope to go [home]_4755-home again before it please [God]_224-god to take [me]_145-mary . [I]_145-mary used to try and save money enough to go for a week when [I]_145-mary was in service ; but first one thing came , and then another . First , [[missis]_4831-missis 's children]_{4905-missis 's children} fell ill of the measles , just when th ' week [I]_145-mary 'd ask'd for came , and [I]_145-mary could n't leave [them]_{4905-missis 's children} , for one and [all]_4906-all cried for [me]_145-mary to nurse [them]_{4905-missis 's children} . Then [missis]_4831-missis [herself]_4831-missis fell sick , and [I]_145-mary could go less than ever . For , [you]_4908-you see , [they]_{4905-missis 's children} kept [a little shop]_{4909-a little shop} , and [he]_4831-missis drank , and [missis]_4831-missis and [me]_145-mary was all there was to mind [children]_{4826-children} , and [shop]_4912-shop , and all , and cook and wash besides . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary was glad [she]_145-mary had not gone into service , and said so . " Eh , [lass]_4844-lass ! [thou]_4914-thou little knows the pleasure o ' helping [others]_737-others ; [I]_145-mary was as happy there as could be ; almost as happy as [I]_145-mary was at [home]_4755-home . Well , but next year [I]_145-mary thought [I]_145-mary could go at a leisure time , and [missis]_4831-missis telled [me]_145-mary [I]_145-mary should have a fortnight then , and [I]_145-mary used to sit up all that winter working hard at patchwork , to have a quilt of [my]_145-mary own making to take to [[my]_145-mary mother]_{4875-my mother} . But [master]_4919-master died , and [missis]_4831-missis went away fra [Manchester]_1-manchester , and [I]_145-mary 'd to look out for [a place]_{4921-a place} again . "_[145-mary] " Well , but , "_[145-mary] interrupted [Mary]_145-mary , " [I]_145-mary should have thought that was the best time to go [home]_4755-home . "_[145-mary] " No , [I]_145-mary thought not . [You]_145-mary see it was a different thing going [home]_4755-home for a week on a visit , may be with money in [my]_145-mary pocket to give [father]_4863-father a lift , to going [home]_4755-home to be a burden to [him]_4863-father . Besides , how could [I]_145-mary hear o ' a place there ? Anyways [I]_145-mary thought it best to stay , though perhaps it might have been better to [ha]_4926-ha ' gone , for then [I]_145-mary should [ha]_4926-ha ' seen [mother]_4845-mother again ; "_[145-mary] and [the poor old woman]_{950-the poor old woman} looked puzzled . " [I]_157-margaret 'm sure [you]_145-mary did what [you]_145-mary thought right , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret , gently . " Ay , [lass]_4844-lass , that 's it , "_[146-alice] said [Alice]_146-alice , raising [her]_146-alice head and speaking more cheerfully . " That 's the thing , and then let [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} send what [He]_{4929-the lord} sees fit ; not but that [I]_146-alice grieved sore , oh , sore and sad , when toward spring next year , when [my]_146-alice quilt were all done to th ' lining , [George]_148-george came in one evening to tell [me]_146-alice [mother]_4845-mother was dead . [I]_146-alice cried many a night at after ; [ 3 ] [I]_146-alice 'd no time for crying by day , for [that missis]_{4931-that missis} was terrible strict ; [she]_{4931-that missis} would not hearken to [my]_146-alice going to [th]_4932-th ' funeral ; and indeed [I]_146-alice would have been too late , for [George]_148-george set off that very night by [[th]_4932-th ' coach]_{4933-th ' coach} , and [th]_4932-th ' letter had been kept or summut ( posts were not like [th ' posts]_{4934-th ' posts} now - a - days ) , and [he]_148-george found the burial all over , and [father]_4863-father talking o ' flitting ; for [he]_148-george could n't abide [the cottage]_{4936-the cottage} after [mother]_4845-mother was gone . "_[146-alice] [ Footnote 3 : A common Lancashire phrase . " Come to [me]_146-alice , [Tyrrel]_159-tyrrel , soon , _ at after _ supper . "_[146-alice] [SHAKSPEARE]_{160-shakspeare} , [Richard III]_128-richard . ] " Was [it]_{4936-the cottage} [a pretty place]_{4938-a pretty place} ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " Pretty , [lass]_4844-lass ! [I]_145-mary never seed such a bonny bit anywhere . [You]_4844-lass see there are [hills there]_{4940-hills there} as seem to go up into th ' skies , not near may be , but that makes them all the bonnier . [I]_145-mary used to think they were [the golden hills of heaven]_{4941-the golden hills of heaven} , about which [[my]_145-mary mother]_{4875-my mother} sang when [I]_145-mary was [a child]_{4770-a child} , ' Yon are [the golden hills o ' heaven]_{4944-the golden hills o ' heaven} , Where [ye]_4844-lass sall never win . ' Something about [a ship]_{4945-a ship} and [a lover that should hae been na lover]_{4946-a lover that should hae been na lover} , the ballad was . Well , and near [[our]_4947-we cottage]_{4948-our cottage} were rocks . Eh , [lasses]_4888-lasses ! [ye]_4844-lass do n't know what rocks are in [Manchester]_1-manchester ! Gray pieces o ' stone as large as [a house]_{4761-a house} , all covered over wi ' moss of different colours , some yellow , some brown ; and the ground beneath them knee - deep in purple heather , smelling sae sweet and fragrant , and the low music of the humming - bee for ever sounding among it . [Mother]_161-mother used to send [Sally]_162-sally and [me]_145-mary out to gather ling and heather for besoms , and it was such pleasant work ! [We]_4947-we used to come [home]_4755-home of an evening loaded so as [you]_4844-lass could not see [us]_4947-we , for all that it was so light to carry . And then [mother]_4845-mother would make [us]_4947-we sit down under the old hawthorn tree ( where [we]_4947-we used to make [[our]_4947-we house]_{4767-our house} among the great roots as stood above th ' ground ) , to pick and tie up the heather . It seems all like yesterday , and yet it 's a long long time agone . [Poor sister [Sally]_162-sally]_{4954-poor sister sally} has been in [her]_162-sally grave this forty year and more . But [I]_145-mary often wonder if the hawthorn is standing yet , and if [the lasses]_{4955-the lasses} still go to gather heather , as [we]_4947-we did many and many a year past and gone . [I]_145-mary sicken at heart to see [the old spot]_{4956-the old spot} once again . May be next summer [I]_145-mary may set off , if [God]_224-god spares [me]_145-mary to see next summer . "_[145-mary] " Why have [you]_145-mary never been in all these many years ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " Why , [lass]_4844-lass ! [first one]_{4958-first one} wanted [me]_145-mary and then another ; and [I]_145-mary could n't go without money either , and [I]_145-mary got very poor at times . [Tom]_138-thomas was a scapegrace , [poor fellow]_{4959-poor fellow} , and always wanted help of one kind or another ; and [[his]_138-thomas wife]_{525-his wife} ( for [I]_145-mary think scapegraces are always married long before [steady folk]_{4961-steady folk} ) was but a helpless kind of body . [She]_{525-his wife} were always ailing , and [he]_138-thomas were always in trouble ; so [I]_145-mary had enough to do with [my]_145-mary hands and [my]_145-mary money too , for that matter . [They]_{525-his wife} died within twelvemonth of [each other]_{436-each other} , leaving [one lad]_{4833-one lad} ( [they]_{525-his wife} had had seven , but [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} had taken six to [Himself]_{4929-the lord} ) , [Will]_148-george , as [I]_145-mary was telling [you]_4965-you on ; and [I]_145-mary took [him]_{4833-one lad} [myself]_145-mary , and left service to make a bit on a home - place for [him]_{4833-one lad} , and [a fine lad [he]_{4833-one lad} was]_{4966-a fine lad he was} , [the very spit of [[his]_{4833-one lad} father]_{902-his father} as to looks , only steadier]_{4967-the very spit of his father as to looks , only steadier} . For [he]_{4833-one lad} was steady , although nought would serve [him]_{4833-one lad} but going to [sea]_4969-sea . [I]_145-mary tried all [I]_145-mary could to set [him]_{4833-one lad} again [a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} 's life . Says [I]_145-mary , ' [Folks]_4739-folks is as sick as dogs all the time [they]_4739-folks 're at [sea]_4969-sea . [[Your]_{4833-one lad} own mother]_{4973-your own mother} telled [me]_145-mary ( for [she]_{4973-your own mother} came from foreign parts , being [a Manx woman]_{4974-a manx woman} ) that [she]_{4973-your own mother} 'd ha thanked [any one]_{504-any one} for throwing [her]_{4973-your own mother} into [the water]_{4976-the water} . ' Nay , [I]_145-mary sent [him]_{4833-one lad} a ' the way to [Runcorn]_16-runcorn by [[th ' Duke]_{4977-th ' duke} 's canal]_{4978-th ' duke 's canal} , that [he]_{4833-one lad} might know what [th ' sea]_{4979-th ' sea} were ; and [I]_145-mary looked to see [him]_{4833-one lad} come back as white as a sheet wi ' vomiting . But [the lad]_{4980-the lad} went on to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool and saw [real ships]_{4981-real ships} , and came back more set than ever on being [a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} , and [he]_{4833-one lad} said as how [he]_{4833-one lad} had never been sick at all , and thought [he]_{4833-one lad} could stand [the sea]_{4983-the sea} pretty well . So [I]_145-mary telled [him]_{4833-one lad} [he]_{4833-one lad} mun do as [he]_{4833-one lad} liked ; and [he]_{4833-one lad} thanked [me]_145-mary and kissed [me]_145-mary , for all [I]_145-mary was very frabbit [ 4 ] with [him]_{4833-one lad} ; and now [he]_{4833-one lad} 's gone to [South America]_{18-south america} , at [t'other side of the sun]_{4984-t'other side of the sun} , [they]_4985-they tell [me]_145-mary . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 4 : " [Frabbit]_163-frabbit , "_[145-mary] peevish . ] [Mary]_145-mary stole a glance at [Margaret]_157-margaret to see what [she]_157-margaret thought of [Alice]_146-alice 's geography ; but [Margaret]_157-margaret looked so quiet and demure , that [Mary]_145-mary was in doubt if [she]_145-mary were not really ignorant . Not that [Mary]_145-mary 's knowledge was very profound , but [she]_145-mary had seen a terrestrial globe , and knew where to find [France]_19-france and [the continents]_{951-the continents} on a map . After this long talking [Alice]_146-alice seemed lost for a time in reverie ; and [the girls]_{505-the girls} , respecting [her]_146-alice thoughts , which [they]_{505-the girls} suspected had wandered to the home and scenes of [her]_146-alice childhood , were silent . All at once [she]_146-alice recalled [her]_146-alice duties as [hostess]_953-hostess , and by an effort brought back [her]_146-alice mind to the present time . " [Margaret]_157-margaret , [thou]_4986-thou must let [Mary]_145-mary hear [thee]_157-margaret sing . [I]_146-alice do n't know about fine music [myself]_146-alice , but [folks]_4739-folks say [Margaret]_157-margaret is [a rare singer]_{4988-a rare singer} , and [I]_146-alice know [she]_157-margaret can make [me]_146-alice cry at any time by singing ' [Th ' Owdham Weaver]_{4989-th ' owdham weaver} . ' Do sing that , [Margaret]_157-margaret , there 's [a good lass]_{4990-a good lass} . "_[146-alice] With a faint smile , as if amused at [Alice]_146-alice 's choice of a song , [Margaret]_157-margaret began . Do [you]_954-you know " [The Oldham Weaver]_{164-the oldham weaver} ? "_[954-you] Not unless [you]_954-you are [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} born and bred , for it is a complete [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} ditty . [I]_0-i will copy it for [you]_954-you . [THE OLDHAM WEAVER]_{955-the oldham weaver} . [I.]_0-i Oi'm [a poor cotton - weyver]_{956-a poor cotton - weyver} , as [mony a one knoowas]_{165-mony a one knoowas} , [Oi've]_957-oi nowt for [t]_958-t ' yeat , an ' oi've woorn eawt [my]_0-i clooas , [Yo'ad]_959-yo'ad hardly gi ' tuppence for aw as oi've on , [My]_0-i clogs are boath brosten , an ' stuckins oi've none , [Yo'd]_959-yo'ad think it wur hard , To be browt into [th ' warld]_{960-th ' warld} , To be -- clemmed , [ 5 ] an ' do th ' best as [yo]_959-yo'ad con . II . Owd [Dicky o ' Billy]_{166-dicky o ' billy} 's kept telling [me]_0-i lung , [Wee]_961-wee s'd ha ' better toimes if [I]_0-i 'd but how d [my]_0-i tung , [Oi've]_957-oi howden [my]_0-i tung , till [oi've]_957-oi near stopped [my]_0-i breath , [Oi]_957-oi think [i]_0-i ' [my]_0-i heeart oi'se soon clem to deeath , Owd [Dicky]_{166-dicky o ' billy} 's weel crammed , [He]_{166-dicky o ' billy} never wur clemmed , An ' [he]_{166-dicky o ' billy} ne'er picked ower [i]_0-i ' [his]_{166-dicky o ' billy} loife . [ 6 ] III . [We]_962-we tow'rt on six week -- thinking aitch day wur th ' last , [We]_962-we shifted , an ' shifted , till neaw [we]_962-we 're quoite fast ; [We]_962-we lived upo ' nettles , whoile nettles wur good , An ' Waterloo porridge the best o ' eawr food , [Oi'm]_957-oi tellin ' [yo]_963-yo ' true , [Oi]_957-oi can find [folk enow]_{964-folk enow} , As wur livin ' [na]_965-na better nor [me]_0-i . IV . Owd [Billy o ' Dans]_167-bill sent [th ' baileys]_{966-th ' baileys} one day , [Fur a shop]_{967-fur a shop} deebt [oi]_957-oi eawd [him]_{166-dicky o ' billy} , as [oi]_957-oi could [na]_965-na pay , But [he]_{166-dicky o ' billy} wur too lat , fur owd Billy o ' th ' Bent , Had sowd th ' tit an ' cart , an ' ta'en goods fur th ' rent , [We]_962-we 'd neawt left bo ' [th ' owd stoo ']_{968-th ' owd stoo '} , That wur seeats fur two , An ' on it ceawred [Marget]_{168-eawr marget} an ' [me]_0-i . V. Then [t ' baileys]_{969-t ' baileys} leuked reawnd as sloy as a meawse , When [they]_{969-t ' baileys} seed as aw t ' goods were ta'en eawt o ' t ' heawse , Says one chap to [th ' tother]_{970-th ' tother} , " Aws gone , theaw may see ; "_[957-oi] Says oi , " Ne'er freet , [mon]_4991-mon , [yeaur]_{970-th ' tother} welcome ta ' [me]_957-oi . "_[957-oi] [They]_{969-t ' baileys} made no moor ado But whopped up [th ' eawd stoo ']_{971-th ' eawd stoo '} , An ' [we]_962-we booath leet , whack -- upo ' t ' flags ! VI . Then [oi]_957-oi said to [eawr Marget]_{168-eawr marget} , as [we]_962-we lay upo ' t ' floor , " [We]_962-we 's never be lower [i]_957-oi ' this warld , oi'm sure , If ever things awtern , oi'm sure [they]_{969-t ' baileys} mun mend , For [oi]_957-oi think [i]_957-oi ' [my]_957-oi heart [we]_962-we 're booath at t ' far eend ; For [meeat]_4992-meeat [we]_962-we ha ' none ; Nor looms t ' weyve on,-- [Edad]_21-edad ! [they]_{969-t ' baileys} 're as good lost as fund . "_[957-oi] VII . [Eawr Marget]_{168-eawr marget} declares had hoo cloo'as to put on , Hoo'd goo up to [Lunnon]_22-lunnon an ' talk to [th ' greet mon]_{972-th ' greet mon} ; An ' if things were na awtered when there hoo had been , Hoo 's fully resolved t ' sew up meawth an ' eend ; [Hoo]_169-hoo 's neawt to say again t ' [king]_973-king , But hoo loikes a fair thing , An ' hoo says hoo can tell when hoo 's hurt . [ Footnote 5 : " [Clem]_170-clem , "_[169-hoo] to starve with hunger . " Hard is the choice , when [the valiant]_{4993-the valiant} must eat [their]_{4993-the valiant} arms or _ clem_."--_Ben_[171-jonson] [Jonson]_171-jonson . _ ] [ Footnote 6 : To " pick ower , "_[169-hoo] means to throw [the shuttle]_{974-the shuttle} in hand - loom weaving . ] The air to which this is sung is a kind of droning recitative , depending much on expression and feeling . To read it , it may , perhaps , seem humorous ; but it is that humour which is near akin to pathos , and to [those who have seen the distress it]_{975-those who have seen the distress it} describes , it is a powerfully pathetic song . [Margaret]_157-margaret had both witnessed the destitution , and had the heart to feel it ; and withal , [her]_157-margaret voice was of that rich and rare order , which does not require any great compass of notes to make itself appreciated . [Alice]_146-alice had [her]_146-alice quiet enjoyment of tears . But [Margaret]_157-margaret , with fixed eye , and earnest , dreamy look , seemed to become more and more absorbed in realising to [herself]_157-margaret the woe [she]_157-margaret had been describing , and which [she]_157-margaret felt might at that very moment be suffering and hopeless within a short distance of [their]_976-their comparative comfort . Suddenly [she]_157-margaret burst forth with all the power of [her]_157-margaret magnificent voice , as if a prayer from [her]_157-margaret very heart for [all who were in distress]_{977-all who were in distress} , in the grand supplication , " [Lord]_4994-lord , remember [David]_172-david . "_{[157-margaret]} [Mary]_145-mary held [her]_145-mary breath , unwilling to lose a note , it was so clear , so perfect , so imploring . [A far more correct musician]_{978-a far more correct musician} than [Mary]_145-mary might have paused with equal admiration of the really scientific knowledge , with which [the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman]_{979-the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman} used [her]_{979-the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman} superb and flexile voice . [Deborah Travers]_{173-deborah travers} [herself]_{173-deborah travers} ( once [an Oldham factory girl]_{980-an oldham factory girl} , and afterwards the darling of [fashionable crowds]_{981-fashionable crowds} as [Mrs. Knyvett]_{174-mrs. knyvett} ) might have owned [a sister]_{982-a sister} in [her]_{979-the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman} art . [She]_{979-the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman} stopped ; and with tears of holy sympathy in [her]_{979-the poor depressed - looking young needle - woman} eyes , [Alice]_146-alice thanked [the songstress]_{983-the songstress} , who resumed [her]_{983-the songstress} calm , demure manner , much to [Mary]_145-mary 's wonder , for [she]_{983-the songstress} looked at [her]_{983-the songstress} unweariedly , as if surprised that the hidden power should not be perceived in the outward appearance . When [Alice]_146-alice 's little speech of thanks was over , there was quiet enough to hear a fine , though rather quavering , male voice , going over again one or two strains of [Margaret]_157-margaret 's song . " [That 's [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather}]_{4995-that 's grandfather} ! "_{[157-margaret]} exclaimed [she]_157-margaret . " [I]_157-margaret must be going , for [he]_{4996-grandfather} said [he]_{4996-grandfather} should not be at [home]_4755-home till past nine . "_{[157-margaret]} " Well , [I]_157-margaret 'll not say nay , for [I]_157-margaret 've to be up by four for a very heavy wash at [Mrs. Simpson]_{175-mrs. simpson} 's ; but [I]_157-margaret shall be terrible glad to see [you]_{505-the girls} again at any time , [lasses]_4888-lasses ; and [I]_157-margaret hope [you]_{505-the girls} 'll take to [one another]_{4862-one another} . "_{[157-margaret]} As [the girls]_{505-the girls} ran up [the cellar steps]_{985-the cellar steps} together , [Margaret]_157-margaret said : " Just step in and see [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} . [I]_157-margaret should like [him]_{4996-grandfather} to see [you]_{505-the girls} . "_{[157-margaret]} And [Mary]_145-mary consented . CHAPTER V. [THE MILL ON FIRE]_{986-the mill on fire} -- [JEM WILSON]_154-jem TO THE RESCUE . Learned [he]_154-jem was ; nor bird , nor insect flew , But [he]_154-jem [its]_154-jem leafy home and history knew ; Nor wild - flower decked the rock , nor moss the well , But [he]_154-jem its name and qualities could tell . [ELLIOTT]_176-elliott . There is [a class of men in [Manchester]_1-manchester , unknown even to [many of [the inhabitants]_{454-the inhabitants}]_{988-many of the inhabitants} , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . [I]_0-i said " in [Manchester]_1-manchester , "_[0-i] but [they]_{987-a class of men in manchester , unknown even to many of the inhabitants , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . i said " in manchester , " but they are scattered all over the manufacturing districts of lancashire} are scattered all over [the manufacturing districts of [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire}]_{990-the manufacturing districts of lancashire}]_{987-a class of men in manchester , unknown even to many of the inhabitants , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . i said " in manchester , " but they are scattered all over the manufacturing districts of lancashire} . In [the neighbourhood of [Oldham]_23-oldham]_{991-the neighbourhood of oldham} there are [weavers]_767-weavers , common hand - loom weavers , who throw the shuttle with unceasing sound , though [Newton]_177-newton 's " Principia "_{[767-weavers]} lie open on the loom , to be snatched at in work hours , but revelled over in meal times , or at night . Mathematical problems are received with interest , and studied with absorbing attention by [many a broad - spoken , common - looking , factory - hand]_{993-many a broad - spoken , common - looking , factory - hand} . It is perhaps less astonishing that the more popularly interesting branches of natural history have [their]_994-their warm and devoted followers among [this class]_{995-this class} . There are botanists among [them]_{995-this class} , equally familiar with either [the Linnæan]_{24-the linnæan} or the Natural system , who know the name and habitat of every plant within a day 's walk from [[their]_{987-a class of men in manchester , unknown even to many of the inhabitants , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . i said " in manchester , " but they are scattered all over the manufacturing districts of lancashire} dwellings]_{996-their dwellings} ; [who steal the holiday of a day or two when any particular plant should be in flower]_{997-who steal the holiday of a day or two when any particular plant should be in flower} , and tying up [their]_{987-a class of men in manchester , unknown even to many of the inhabitants , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . i said " in manchester , " but they are scattered all over the manufacturing districts of lancashire} simple food in [their]_{987-a class of men in manchester , unknown even to many of the inhabitants , and whose existence will probably be doubted by many , who yet may claim kindred with all the noble names that science recognises . i said " in manchester , " but they are scattered all over the manufacturing districts of lancashire} pocket - handkerchiefs , set off with single purpose to fetch [home]_4755-home the humble - looking weed . There are [entomologists , who may be seen with a rude - looking net , ready to catch any winged insect , or a kind of dredge]_{999-entomologists , who may be seen with a rude - looking net , ready to catch any winged insect , or a kind of dredge} , with which [they]_{999-entomologists , who may be seen with a rude - looking net , ready to catch any winged insect , or a kind of dredge} rake [the green and slimy pools]_{1000-the green and slimy pools} ; [practical , shrewd , hard - working men]_{1001-practical , shrewd , hard - working men} , who pore over every new specimen with real scientific delight . Nor is it the common and more obvious divisions of Entomology and Botany that alone attract [these earnest seekers]_{1002-these earnest seekers} after knowledge . Perhaps it may be owing to the great annual town - holiday of [Whitsun]_25-whitsun - week so often falling in May or June that [the two great , beautiful families of Ephemeridæ and [Phryganidæ]_{178-phryganidæ}]_{1003-the two great , beautiful families of ephemeridæ and phryganidæ} have been so much and so closely studied by [Manchester workmen]_{1004-manchester workmen} , while [they]_{1003-the two great , beautiful families of ephemeridæ and phryganidæ} have in a great measure escaped general observation . If [you]_1005-you will refer to the preface to [Sir J. E. Smith]_{179-sir j. e. smith} 's Life ( [I]_0-i have it not by [me]_0-i , or [I]_0-i would copy [you]_1005-you the exact passage ) , [you]_1005-you will find that [he]_{179-sir j. e. smith} names a little circumstance corroborative of what [I]_0-i have said . [Sir J. E. Smith]_{179-sir j. e. smith} , being on a visit to [Roscoe]_180-roscoe , of [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , made some inquiries from [him]_180-roscoe as to the habitat of a very rare plant , said to be found in [certain places in [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire}]_{1006-certain places in lancashire} . [Mr. Roscoe]_180-roscoe knew nothing of the plant ; but stated , that if [any one]_{504-any one} could give [him]_180-roscoe the desired information , it would be a hand - loom weaver in [Manchester]_1-manchester , whom [he]_180-roscoe named . [Sir J. E. Smith]_{179-sir j. e. smith} proceeded by [coach]_1008-coach to [Manchester]_1-manchester , and on arriving at [that town]_{1009-that town} , [he]_{179-sir j. e. smith} inquired of [the porter who was carrying [his]_{179-sir j. e. smith} luggage]_{1010-the porter who was carrying his luggage} if [he]_{179-sir j. e. smith} could direct [him]_{179-sir j. e. smith} to So and So . " Oh , yes , "_{[708-the man]} replied [the man]_{708-the man} . " [He]_{179-sir j. e. smith} does a bit in [my]_{708-the man} way ; "_{[708-the man]} and , on further investigation , it turned out , that both [the porter]_{1012-the porter} , and [[his]_{179-sir j. e. smith} friend]_{553-his friend} [the weaver]_{758-the weaver} , were [skilful botanists]_{1015-skilful botanists} , and able to give [Sir J. E. Smith]_{179-sir j. e. smith} the very information which [he]_{179-sir j. e. smith} wanted . Such are the tastes and pursuits of [some of [the thoughtful , little understood , working men of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{1017-the thoughtful , little understood , working men of manchester}]_{1016-some of the thoughtful , little understood , working men of manchester} . And [[Margaret]_157-margaret 's grandfather]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} was one of these . [He]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} was [a little wiry - looking old man]_{1019-a little wiry - looking old man} , who moved with a jerking motion , as if [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} limbs were worked by a string like [a child]_{4770-a child} 's toy , with dun coloured hair lying thin and soft at the back and sides of [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} head ; [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} forehead was so large it seemed to overbalance the rest of [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} face , which had indeed lost its natural contour by the absence of all the teeth . The eyes absolutely gleamed with intelligence ; so keen , so observant , [you]_1021-you felt as if they were almost wizard - like . Indeed , [the whole room]_{1022-the whole room} looked not unlike [[a wizard]_{1023-a wizard} 's dwelling]_{1024-a wizard 's dwelling} . Instead of pictures were hung rude wooden frames of impaled insects ; the little table was covered with cabalistic books ; and a case of mysterious instruments lay beside , one of which [Job Legh]_156-job was using when [[his]_156-job grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} entered . On [her]_157-margaret appearance [he]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} pushed [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} spectacles up so as to rest midway on [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} forehead , and gave [Mary]_145-mary a short , kind welcome . But [Margaret]_157-margaret [he]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} caressed as [a mother]_{883-a mother} caresses [her]_{883-a mother} first - born ; stroking [her]_157-margaret with tenderness , and almost altering [his]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} voice as [he]_{1018-margaret 's grandfather} spoke to [her]_157-margaret . [Mary]_145-mary looked round on the odd , strange things [she]_145-mary had never seen at [home]_4755-home , and which seemed to [her]_145-mary to have a very uncanny look . " Is [[your]_157-margaret grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} [a fortune - teller]_{5002-a fortune - teller} ? "_[145-mary] whispered [she]_145-mary to [[her]_145-mary new friend]_{1028-her new friend} . " No , "_{[157-margaret]} replied [Margaret]_157-margaret , in the same voice ; " but [you]_157-margaret 're not the first as has taken [him]_{5001-your grandfather} for such . [He]_{5001-your grandfather} is only fond of such things as [most folks]_{5003-most folks} know nothing about . "_{[157-margaret]} " And do [you]_157-margaret know aught about them , too ? "_{[157-margaret]} " [I]_157-margaret know a bit about some of the things [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} is fond on ; just because [he]_{5001-your grandfather} 's fond on ['em]_5005-'em [I]_157-margaret tried to learn about them . "_{[157-margaret]} " What things are these ? "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , struck with the weird looking creatures that sprawled around [the room]_{616-the room} in [their]_1030-their roughly - made glass cases . But [she]_145-mary was not prepared for the technical names which [Job Legh]_156-job pattered down on [her]_145-mary ear , on which they fell like hail on a skylight ; and the strange language only bewildered [her]_145-mary more than ever . [Margaret]_157-margaret saw the state of the case , and came to the rescue . " Look , [Mary]_145-mary , at this horrid scorpion . [He]_{5001-your grandfather} gave [me]_157-margaret such a fright : [I]_157-margaret 'm all of a twitter yet when [I]_157-margaret think of it . [Grandfather]_{181-grandfather} went to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool one [Whitsun]_25-whitsun - week to go strolling about [the docks]_{5006-the docks} and pick up what [he]_{181-grandfather} could from [the sailors]_{5007-the sailors} , who often bring some queer thing or another from [the hot countries [they]_{5007-the sailors} go to]_{5008-the hot countries they go to} ; and so [he]_{181-grandfather} sees a chap with a bottle in [his]_{181-grandfather} hand , like [a druggist]_{5009-a druggist} 's physic - bottle ; and says [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} , ' What have [ye]_{181-grandfather} gotten there ? ' So [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} holds it up , and [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} knew it was a rare kind o ' scorpion , not common even in [the East Indies]_{26-the east indies} where [the man]_{708-the man} came from ; and says [he]_{4996-grandfather} , ' How did [ye]_{181-grandfather} catch [this fine fellow]_{5014-this fine fellow} , for [he]_{5014-this fine fellow} would n't be taken for nothing [I]_157-margaret 'm thinking ? ' And [the man]_{708-the man} said as how when [they]_5016-they were unloading [the ship]_{5017-the ship} [he]_{708-the man} 'd found [him]_{708-the man} lying behind a bag of rice , and [he]_{708-the man} thought the cold had killed [him]_{708-the man} , for [he]_{708-the man} was not squashed nor injured a bit . [He]_{708-the man} did not like to part with any of the spirit out of [his]_{708-the man} grog to put the scorpion in , but slipped [him]_{708-the man} into the bottle , knowing there were [folks enow]_{5018-folks enow} who would give [him]_{708-the man} something for [him]_{708-the man} . So grandfather gives [him]_{708-the man} a shilling . "_{[157-margaret]} " Two shilling , "_[156-job] interrupted [Job Legh]_156-job , " and a good bargain it was . "_[156-job] " Well ! [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} came [home]_4755-home as proud as [Punch]_182-punch , and pulled the bottle out of [his]_{4996-grandfather} pocket . But [you]_5021-you see th ' scorpion were doubled up , and [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} thought [I]_157-margaret could n't fairly see how big [he]_{708-the man} was . So [he]_{4996-grandfather} shakes [him]_{708-the man} out right before the fire ; and a good warm one it was , for [I]_157-margaret was ironing , [I]_157-margaret remember . [I]_157-margaret left off ironing , and stooped down over [him]_{708-the man} , to look at [him]_{708-the man} better , and [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} got a book , and began to read how this very kind were the most poisonous and vicious species , how [their]_5024-their bite were often fatal , and then went on to read how [people who were bitten]_{5025-people who were bitten} got swelled , and screamed with pain . [I]_157-margaret was listening hard , but as it fell out , [I]_157-margaret never took [my]_157-margaret eyes off the creature , though [I]_157-margaret could not ha ' told [I]_157-margaret was watching it . Suddenly it seemed to give a jerk , and before [I]_157-margaret could speak , it gave another , and in a minute it was as wild as could be , running at [me]_157-margaret just like a mad dog . "_{[157-margaret]} " What did [you]_157-margaret do ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " [Me]_145-mary ! why , [I]_145-mary jumped first on a chair , and then on all the things [I]_145-mary 'd been ironing on the dresser , and [I]_145-mary screamed for [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} to come up by [me]_145-mary , but [he]_{4996-grandfather} did not hearken to [me]_145-mary . "_[145-mary] " Why , if [I]_157-margaret 'd come up by [thee]_157-margaret , who 'd [ha]_5027-ha ' caught the creature , [I]_157-margaret should like to know ? "_{[157-margaret]} " Well , [I]_157-margaret begged [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} to crush [it]_5029-it , and [I]_157-margaret had the iron right over it once , ready to drop , but [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} begged [me]_157-margaret not to hurt it in that way . So [I]_157-margaret could n't think what [he]_{4996-grandfather} 'd have , for [he]_{4996-grandfather} hopped round [the room]_{616-the room} as if [he]_{4996-grandfather} were sore afraid , for all [he]_{4996-grandfather} begged [me]_157-margaret not to injure [it]_5029-it . At last [he]_{4996-grandfather} goes to [th ' kettle]_{5032-th ' kettle} , and lifts up the lid , and peeps in . What on earth is [he]_{4996-grandfather} doing that for , thinks [I]_157-margaret ; [he]_{4996-grandfather} 'll never drink [his]_{4996-grandfather} tea with a scorpion running free and easy about [the room]_{616-the room} . Then [he]_{4996-grandfather} takes the tongs , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} settles [his]_{4996-grandfather} spectacles on [his]_{4996-grandfather} nose , and in a minute [he]_{4996-grandfather} had lifted the creature up by th ' leg , and dropped [him]_{4996-grandfather} into the boiling water . "_{[157-margaret]} " And did that kill [him]_{4996-grandfather} ? "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " Ay , sure enough ; [he]_{4996-grandfather} boiled for longer time than [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} liked though . But [I]_145-mary was so afeard of [his]_{4996-grandfather} coming round again . [I]_145-mary ran to [the public - house]_{5035-the public - house} for some gin , and [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} filled the bottle , and then [we]_5037-we poured off the water , and picked [him]_{4996-grandfather} out of the kettle , and dropped [him]_{4996-grandfather} into the bottle , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} were there above a twelvemonth . "_[145-mary] " What brought [him]_{4996-grandfather} to life at first ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " Why , [you]_{4996-grandfather} see , [he]_{4996-grandfather} were never really dead , only torpid -- that is , dead asleep with the cold , and [our]_5037-we good fire brought [him]_{4996-grandfather} round . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary 'm glad [father]_4863-father does not care for such things , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " Are [you]_{4996-grandfather} ! Well , [I]_145-mary 'm often downright glad [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} is so fond of [his]_{4996-grandfather} books , and [his]_{4996-grandfather} creatures , and [his]_{4996-grandfather} plants . It does [my]_145-mary heart good to see [him]_{4996-grandfather} so happy , sorting them all at [home]_4755-home , and so ready to go in search of more , whenever [he]_{4996-grandfather} 's a spare day . Look at [him]_{4996-grandfather} now ! [he]_{4996-grandfather} 's gone back to [his]_{4996-grandfather} books , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} 'll be as happy as [a king]_{5041-a king} , working away till [I]_145-mary make [him]_{4996-grandfather} go to bed . It keeps [him]_{4996-grandfather} silent , to be sure ; but so long as [I]_145-mary see [him]_{4996-grandfather} earnest , and pleased , and eager , what does that matter ? Then , when [he]_{4996-grandfather} has [his]_{4996-grandfather} talking bouts , [you]_145-mary ca n't think how much [he]_{4996-grandfather} has to say . [Dear grandfather]_{5042-dear grandfather} ! [you]_145-mary do n't know how happy [we]_5043-we are ! "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary wondered if [the dear grandfather]_{1031-the dear grandfather} heard all this , for [Margaret]_157-margaret did not speak in an under tone ; but no ! [he]_{1031-the dear grandfather} was far too deep and eager in solving a problem . [He]_{1031-the dear grandfather} did not even notice [Mary]_145-mary 's leave - taking , and [she]_145-mary went [home]_4755-home with the feeling that [she]_145-mary had that night made the acquaintance of two of [the strangest people [she]_145-mary ever saw in [her]_145-mary life]_{1033-the strangest people she ever saw in her life} . [Margaret]_157-margaret , so quiet , so common place , until [her]_157-margaret singing powers were called forth ; so silent from [home]_4755-home , so cheerful and agreeable at [home]_4755-home ; and [[her]_145-mary grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} so very different to [any one [Mary]_145-mary had ever seen]_{1037-any one mary had ever seen} . [Margaret]_157-margaret had said [he]_{1031-the dear grandfather} was not [a fortune - teller]_{5002-a fortune - teller} , but [she]_157-margaret did not know whether to believe [her]_157-margaret . To resolve [her]_145-mary doubts , [she]_145-mary told the history of the evening to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , who was interested by [her]_145-mary account , and curious to see and judge for [himself]_{564-her father} . Opportunities are not often wanting where inclination goes before , and ere the end of that winter [Mary]_145-mary looked upon [Margaret]_157-margaret almost as [an old friend]_{1040-an old friend} . [The latter]_{511-the latter} would bring [her]_157-margaret work when [Mary]_145-mary was likely to be at [home]_4755-home in the evenings and sit with [her]_157-margaret ; and [Job Legh]_156-job would put a book and [his]_156-job pipe in [his]_156-job pocket and just step round the corner to fetch [[his]_156-job grand - child]_{1043-his grand - child} , ready for a talk if [he]_156-job found [Barton]_145-mary in ; ready to pull out pipe and book if [the girls]_{505-the girls} wanted [him]_156-job to wait , and [John]_{131-john barton} was still at [[his]_{131-john barton} club]_{887-his club} . In short , ready to do whatever would give pleasure to [[his]_{131-john barton} darling [Margaret]_157-margaret]_{1046-his darling margaret} . [I]_0-i do not know what points of resemblance ( or dissimilitude , for [the one joins people]_{1047-the one joins people} as often as [the other]_{1048-the other} ) attracted [the two girls]_{1049-the two girls} to [each other]_{436-each other} . [Margaret]_157-margaret had the great charm of possessing good strong common sense , and do [you]_1051-you not perceive how involuntarily this is valued ? It is so pleasant to have [a friend who possesses the power of setting a difficult question in a clear light]_{1052-a friend who possesses the power of setting a difficult question in a clear light} ; whose judgment can tell what is best to be done ; and who is so convinced of what is " wisest , best , "_{[1052-a friend who possesses the power of setting a difficult question in a clear light]} that in consideration of the end , all difficulties in the way diminish . [People]_4744-people admire talent , and talk about [their]_4744-people admiration . But [they]_4744-people value common sense without talking about it , and often without knowing it . So [Mary]_145-mary and [Margaret]_157-margaret grew in love one toward the other ; and [Mary]_145-mary told many of [her]_145-mary feelings in a way [she]_145-mary had never done before to [any one]_{504-any one} . Most of [her]_145-mary foibles also were made known to [Margaret]_157-margaret , but not all . There was one cherished weakness still concealed from every one . It concerned [a lover]_{1055-a lover} , not beloved , but favoured by [fancy]_1056-fancy . [A gallant , handsome young man]_{1057-a gallant , handsome young man} ; but -- not beloved . Yet [Mary]_145-mary hoped to meet [him]_{1057-a gallant , handsome young man} every day in [her]_145-mary walks , blushed when [she]_145-mary heard [his]_{1057-a gallant , handsome young man} name , and tried to think of [him]_{1057-a gallant , handsome young man} as [[her]_145-mary future husband]_{1058-her future husband} , and above all , tried to think of [herself]_145-mary as [[his]_{1057-a gallant , handsome young man} future wife]_{1059-his future wife} . Alas ! poor [Mary]_145-mary ! Bitter woe did [thy]_145-mary weakness work [thee]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary had [other lovers]_{1060-other lovers} . [One or two]_{1061-one or two} would gladly have kept [her]_145-mary company , but [she]_145-mary held [herself]_145-mary too high , [they]_{1061-one or two} said . [Jem Wilson]_154-jem said nothing , but loved on and on , ever more fondly ; [he]_154-jem hoped against hope ; [he]_154-jem would not give up , for it seemed like giving up life to give up thought of [Mary]_145-mary . [He]_154-jem did not dare to look to any end of all this ; the present , so that [he]_154-jem saw [her]_145-mary , touched the hem of [her]_145-mary garment , was enough . Surely , in time , such deep love would beget love . [He]_154-jem would not relinquish hope , and yet [her]_145-mary coldness of manner was enough to daunt [any man]_{1062-any man} ; and it made [Jem]_154-jem more despairing than [he]_154-jem would acknowledge for a long time even to [himself]_154-jem . But one evening [he]_154-jem came round by [[Barton]_{131-john barton} 's house]_{1063-barton 's house} , [a willing messenger for [[his]_154-jem father]_{902-his father}]_{1064-a willing messenger for his father} , and opening the door saw [Margaret]_157-margaret sitting asleep before the fire . [She]_157-margaret had come in to speak to [Mary]_145-mary ; and worn out by a long working , watching night , [she]_157-margaret fell asleep in the genial warmth . An old - fashioned saying about a pair of gloves came into [Jem]_154-jem 's mind , and stepping gently up [he]_154-jem kissed [Margaret]_157-margaret with a friendly kiss . [She]_157-margaret awoke , and perfectly understanding the thing , [she]_157-margaret said , " For shame of [yourself]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem ! What would [Mary]_145-mary say ? "_{[157-margaret]} [Lightly]_183-lightly said , lightly answered . " [She]_145-mary 'd nobbut say , practice makes perfect . "_{[183-lightly]} And [they]_1066-they both laughed . But the words [Margaret]_157-margaret had said rankled in [Jem]_154-jem 's mind . Would [Mary]_145-mary care ? Would [she]_145-mary care in the very least ? [They]_1066-they seemed to call for an answer by night , and by day ; and [Jem]_154-jem felt that [his]_154-jem heart told [him]_154-jem [Mary]_145-mary was quite indifferent to any action of [his]_154-jem . Still [he]_154-jem loved on , and on , ever more fondly . [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} was well aware of the nature of [Jem Wilson]_154-jem 's feelings for [[his]_{1067-mary 's father} daughter]_{724-his daughter} , but [he]_{1067-mary 's father} took no notice of [them]_1069-them to [any one]_{504-any one} , thinking [Mary]_145-mary full young yet for the cares of married life , and unwilling , too , to entertain the idea of parting with [her]_145-mary at any time , however distant . But [he]_{1067-mary 's father} welcomed [Jem]_154-jem at [[his]_{1067-mary 's father} house]_{1071-his house} , as [he]_{1067-mary 's father} would have done [[[his]_{1067-mary 's father} father]_{902-his father} 's son]_{1073-his father 's son} , whatever were [his]_{1067-mary 's father} motives for coming ; and now and then admitted the thought , that [Mary]_145-mary might do worse when [her]_145-mary time came , than marry [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , [a steady workman at a good trade]_{1074-a steady workman at a good trade} , [a good son to [[his]_154-jem parents]_{786-his parents}]_{1075-a good son to his parents} , and [a fine manly spirited chap]_{1077-a fine manly spirited chap} -- at least when [Mary]_145-mary was not by : for when [she]_145-mary was present [he]_{1067-mary 's father} watched [her]_145-mary too closely , and too anxiously , to have much of what [John Barton]_{131-john barton} called " spunk "_{[131-john barton]} in [him]_{1067-mary 's father} . It was towards the end of February , in that year , and a bitter black frost had lasted for many weeks . The keen east wind had long since swept [the streets]_{772-the streets} clean , though on a gusty day the dust would rise like pounded ice , and make [people]_4744-people 's faces quite smart with the cold force with which it blew against [them]_4744-people . [Houses]_1080-houses , sky , [people]_4744-people , and every thing looked as if a gigantic brush had washed them all over with a dark shade of Indian ink . There was some reason for this grimy appearance on [human beings]_{668-human beings} , whatever there might be for the dun looks of [the landscape]_{1083-the landscape} ; for soft water had become an article not even to be purchased ; and [the poor washerwomen]_{1084-the poor washerwomen} might be seen vainly trying to procure a little by breaking the thick gray ice that coated the ditches and ponds in [the neighbourhood]_{466-the neighbourhood} . [People]_4744-people prophesied a long continuance to this already lengthened frost ; said the spring would be very late ; no spring fashions required ; no summer clothing purchased for a short uncertain summer . Indeed there was no end to the evil prophesied during the continuance of that bleak east wind . [Mary]_145-mary hurried [home]_4755-home one evening , just as daylight was fading , from [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' , with [her]_145-mary shawl held up to [her]_145-mary mouth , and [her]_145-mary head bent as if in deprecation of the meeting wind . So [she]_145-mary did not perceive [Margaret]_157-margaret till , [she]_157-margaret was close upon [her]_157-margaret at the very turning into [the court]_{604-the court} . " Bless [me]_157-margaret , [Margaret]_157-margaret ! is that [you]_157-margaret ? Where are [you]_157-margaret bound to ? "_{[157-margaret]} " To nowhere but [[your]_157-margaret own house]_{5044-your own house} ( that is , if [you]_157-margaret 'll take [me]_157-margaret in ) . [I]_157-margaret 've a job of work to finish to - night ; mourning , as must be in time for the funeral to - morrow ; and [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} has been out moss - hunting , and will not be [home]_4755-home till late . "_{[157-margaret]} " Oh , how charming it will be . [I]_157-margaret 'll help [you]_157-margaret if [you]_157-margaret 're backward . Have [you]_157-margaret much to do ? "_{[157-margaret]} " Yes , [I]_157-margaret only got the order yesterday at noon ; and there 's [three girls]_{5047-three girls} beside [the mother]_{5048-the mother} ; and what with trying on and matching the stuff ( for there was not enough in the piece [they]_{5047-three girls} chose first ) , [I]_157-margaret 'm above a bit behindhand . [I]_157-margaret 've the skirts all to make . [I]_157-margaret kept that work till candlelight ; and the sleeves , to say nothing of little bits to the bodies ; for [the missis]_{5049-the missis} is very particular , and [I]_157-margaret could scarce keep from smiling while [they]_{5047-three girls} were crying so , really taking on sadly [I]_157-margaret 'm sure , to hear first one and then t'other clear up to notice the sit of [her]_{5049-the missis} gown . [They]_{5047-three girls} were n't to be [misfits]_5050-misfits [I]_157-margaret promise [you]_157-margaret , though [they]_{5047-three girls} were in such trouble . "_{[157-margaret]} " Well , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [you]_157-margaret 're right welcome as [you]_157-margaret know , and [I]_157-margaret 'll sit down and help [you]_157-margaret with pleasure , though [I]_157-margaret was tired enough of sewing to - night at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' . "_{[157-margaret]} By this time [Mary]_145-mary had broken up the raking coal , and lighted [her]_145-mary candle ; and [Margaret]_157-margaret settled [herself]_157-margaret to [her]_157-margaret work on one side of the table , while [[her]_157-margaret friend]_{586-her friend} hurried over [her]_{586-her friend} tea at the other . The things were then lifted _ en masse _ to the dresser ; and dusting [her]_157-margaret side of the table with the apron [she]_157-margaret always wore at [home]_4755-home , [Mary]_145-mary took up some breadths and began to run them together . " Who 's it all for , for if [you]_157-margaret told [me]_145-mary [I]_145-mary 've forgotten ? "_[145-mary] " Why for [Mrs. Ogden]_{184-mrs. ogden} as keeps [[the greengrocer]_{5051-the greengrocer} 's shop in [Oxford Road]_{27-oxford road}]_{5052-the greengrocer 's shop in oxford road} . [[Her]_{184-mrs. ogden} husband]_{587-her husband} drank [himself]_{587-her husband} to death , and though [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} cried over [him]_{587-her husband} and [his]_{587-her husband} ways all the time [he]_{587-her husband} was alive , [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} 's fretted sadly for [him]_{587-her husband} now [he]_{587-her husband} 's dead . "_[145-mary] " Has [he]_{587-her husband} left [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} much to go upon ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , examining the texture of the dress . " This is beautifully fine soft bombazine . "_[145-mary] " No , [I]_145-mary 'm much afeared there 's but little , and there 's [several young children]_{5054-several young children} , besides [the three Miss Ogdens]_{185-the three miss ogdens} . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary should have thought [girls like [them]_{5054-several young children}]_{5055-girls like them} would ha ' made [their]_{5055-girls like them} own gowns , "_[145-mary] observed [Mary]_145-mary . " So [I]_145-mary dare say [they]_{5054-several young children} do , [many a one]_{5056-many a one} , but now [they]_{5054-several young children} seem all so busy getting ready for the funeral ; for it 's to be quite a grand affair , well - nigh [twenty people to breakfast]_{5057-twenty people to breakfast} , as one of [the little ones]_{5058-the little ones} told [me]_145-mary ; the little thing seemed to like the fuss , and [I]_145-mary do believe it comforted [poor Mrs. Ogden]_{184-mrs. ogden} to make all the piece o ' work . Such a smell of ham boiling and fowls roasting while [I]_145-mary waited in [the kitchen]_{5059-the kitchen} ; it seemed more like a wedding nor [ 7 ] a funeral . [They]_{5054-several young children} said [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} 'd spend a matter o ' sixty pound on th ' burial . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 7 : " Nor , "_[145-mary] generally used in [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} for " than . "_[145-mary] " [They]_{5054-several young children} had lever sleep _ nor _ be in laundery . "--_Dunbar_[145-mary] _ . ] " [I]_145-mary thought [you]_145-mary said [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} was but badly off , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " Ay , [I]_145-mary know [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} 's asked for credit at several places , saying [[her]_{184-mrs. ogden} husband]_{587-her husband} laid hands on every farthing [he]_{587-her husband} could get for drink . But [th ' undertakers]_{5061-th ' undertakers} urge [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} on [you]_145-mary see , and tell [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} this thing 's usual , and that thing 's only a common mark of respect , and that every body has t'other thing , till [the poor woman]_{5062-the poor woman} has no will o ' [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} own . [I]_145-mary dare say , too , [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} heart strikes [her]_{184-mrs. ogden} ( it always does when [a person]_{5063-a person} 's gone ) for many a word and many a slighting deed to [him]_{5063-a person} , who 's stiff and cold ; and [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} thinks to make up matters , as it were , by a grand funeral , though [she]_{184-mrs. ogden} and all [[her]_{184-mrs. ogden} children]_{5064-her children} , too , may have to pinch many a year to pay the expenses , if ever [they]_{5061-th ' undertakers} pay [them]_{5061-th ' undertakers} at all . "_[145-mary] " This mourning , too , will cost a pretty penny , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " [I]_145-mary often wonder why [folks]_4739-folks wear mourning ; it 's not pretty or becoming ; and it costs a deal of money just when [people]_4744-people can spare it least ; and if what the Bible tells [us]_5067-us be true , [we]_5067-us ought not to be sorry when [a friend , who 's been good]_{5068-a friend , who 's been good} , goes to [his]_{5068-a friend , who 's been good} rest ; and as for [a bad man]_{5069-a bad man} , [one]_518-one 's glad enough to get shut [ 8 ] on [him]_{5069-a bad man} . [I]_145-mary can not see what good comes out o ' wearing mourning . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 8 : " Shut , "_[145-mary] quit . ] " [I]_145-mary 'll tell [you]_145-mary what [I]_145-mary think [th]_5071-th ' fancy was sent for ( [Old Alice]_146-alice calls every thing ' sent for , ' and [I]_145-mary believe [she]_146-alice 's right ) . It does do good , though not as much as it costs , that [I]_145-mary do believe , in setting [people]_4744-people ( as is cast down by sorrow and feels [themselves]_4744-people unable to settle to any thing but crying ) something to do . Why now [I]_145-mary told [you]_145-mary how [they]_4744-people were grieving ; for , perhaps , [he]_{5068-a friend , who 's been good} was [a kind husband]_{5073-a kind husband} and [father]_4863-father , in [his]_{5068-a friend , who 's been good} thoughtless way , when [he]_{5068-a friend , who 's been good} was n't in liquor . But [they]_4744-people cheered up wonderful while [I]_145-mary was [there]_873-there , and [I]_145-mary asked ['em]_5076-'em for more directions than usual , that [they]_4744-people might have something to talk over and fix about ; and [I]_145-mary left 'em [my]_145-mary fashion - book ( though it were two months old ) just a purpose . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary do n't think [every one]_{669-every one} would grieve a that way . [Old Alice]_146-alice would n't . "_[145-mary] " [Old Alice]_146-alice is one in a thousand . [I]_145-mary doubt , too , if [she]_146-alice would fret much , however sorry [she]_146-alice might be . [She]_146-alice would say it were sent , and fall to trying to find out what good it were to do . Every sorrow in [her]_146-alice mind is sent for good . Did [I]_145-mary ever tell [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , what [she]_146-alice said one day when [she]_146-alice found [me]_145-mary taking on about something ? "_[145-mary] " No ; do tell [me]_145-mary . What were [you]_145-mary fretting about , first place ? "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary ca n't tell [you]_145-mary just now ; perhaps [I]_145-mary may sometime . "_[145-mary] " When ? "_[145-mary] " Perhaps this very evening , if it rises in [my]_145-mary heart ; perhaps never . It 's a fear that sometimes [I]_145-mary ca n't abide to think about , and sometimes [I]_145-mary do n't like to think on any thing else . Well , [I]_145-mary was fretting about this fear , and [Alice]_146-alice comes in for something , and finds [me]_145-mary crying . [I]_145-mary would not tell [her]_146-alice no more than [I]_145-mary would [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ; so [she]_146-alice says , ' Well , [dear]_5078-dear , [you]_5078-dear must mind this , when [you]_5078-dear 're going to fret and be low about any thing , "_[145-mary] An anxious mind is never a holy mind . " ' Oh , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_145-mary have so often checked [my]_145-mary grumbling sin ' [ 9 ] [she]_146-alice said that . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 9 : " Sin ' , "_[145-mary] since . " _ Sin _ that [[his]_5079-his lord]_{5080-his lord} was twenty yere of age . "_[145-mary] _ Prologue to Canterbury Tales . _ ] The weary sound of stitching was the only sound heard for a little while , till [Mary]_145-mary inquired , " Do [you]_145-mary expect to get paid for this mourning ? "_[145-mary] " Why [I]_157-margaret do not much think [I]_157-margaret shall . [I]_157-margaret 've thought it over once or twice , and [I]_157-margaret mean to bring [myself]_157-margaret to think [I]_157-margaret sha n't , and to like to do it as [my]_157-margaret bit towards comforting [them]_5081-they . [I]_157-margaret do n't think [they]_5081-they can pay , and yet [they]_5081-they 're just the sort of folk to have [their]_5081-they minds easier for wearing mourning . There 's only one thing [I]_157-margaret dislike making black for , it does so hurt the eyes . "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret put down [her]_157-margaret work with a sigh , and shaded [her]_157-margaret eyes . Then [she]_157-margaret assumed a cheerful tone , and said , " [You]_145-mary 'll not have to wait long , [Mary]_145-mary , for [my]_157-margaret secret 's on the tip of [my]_157-margaret tongue . [Mary]_145-mary ! do [you]_145-mary know [I]_157-margaret sometimes think [I]_157-margaret 'm growing a little blind , and then what would become of [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} and [me]_157-margaret ? Oh , [God]_224-god help [me]_157-margaret , [Lord]_5083-lord help [me]_157-margaret ! "_{[157-margaret]} [She]_157-margaret fell into an agony of tears , while [Mary]_145-mary knelt by [her]_157-margaret , striving to soothe and to comfort [her]_157-margaret ; but , like [an inexperienced person]_{1091-an inexperienced person} , striving rather to deny the correctness of [Margaret]_157-margaret 's fear , than helping [her]_157-margaret to meet and overcome the evil . " No , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret , quietly fixing [her]_157-margaret tearful eyes on [Mary]_145-mary ; " [I]_1092-i know [I]_1092-i 'm not mistaken . [I]_1092-i have felt one going some time , long before [I]_1092-i ever thought what it would lead to ; and last autumn [I]_1092-i went to [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} ; and [he]_{5084-a doctor} did not mince the matter , but said unless [I]_1092-i sat in [a darkened room]_{5085-a darkened room} , with [my]_1092-i hands before [me]_1092-i , [my]_1092-i sight would not last [me]_1092-i many years longer . But how could [I]_1092-i do that , [Mary]_145-mary ? For one thing , [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} would have known there was somewhat the matter ; and , oh ! it will grieve [him]_{4996-grandfather} sore whenever [he]_{4996-grandfather} 's told , so the later the better ; and besides , [Mary]_145-mary , [we]_5087-we 've sometimes little enough to go upon , and what [I]_1092-i earn is a great help . For [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} takes a day here , and a day there , for botanising or going after insects , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} 'll think little enough of four or five shillings for a specimen ; [dear grandfather]_{5042-dear grandfather} ! and [I]_1092-i 'm so loath to think [he]_{4996-grandfather} should be stinted of what gives [him]_{4996-grandfather} such pleasure . So [I]_1092-i went to [another doctor]_{5090-another doctor} to try and get [him]_{5090-another doctor} to say something different , and [he]_{5090-another doctor} said , ' Oh , it was only weakness , ' and gived [me]_1092-i a bottle of lotion ; but [I]_1092-i 've used three bottles ( and each of 'em cost two shillings ) , and [my]_1092-i eye is so much worse , not hurting so much , but [I]_1092-i ca n't see a bit with it . There now , [Mary]_145-mary , "_[1092-i] continued [she]_1092-i , shutting one eye , " now [you]_145-mary only look like a great black shadow , with the edges dancing and sparkling . "_[1092-i] " And can [you]_145-mary see pretty well with [th ' other]_{5091-th ' other} ? "_{[157-margaret]} " Yes , pretty near as well as ever . Th ' only difference is , that if [I]_1092-i sew a long time together , a bright spot like th ' sun comes right where [I]_1092-i 'm looking ; all the rest is quite clear but just where [I]_1092-i want to see . [I]_1092-i 've been to [both doctors]_{5092-both doctors} again , and now [they]_{5092-both doctors} 're both o ' the same story ; and [I]_1092-i suppose [I]_1092-i 'm going dark as fast as may be . Plain work pays so bad , and mourning has been so plentiful this winter , [I]_1092-i were tempted to take in any black work [I]_1092-i could ; and now [I]_1092-i 'm suffering from it . "_[1092-i] " And yet , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [you]_157-margaret 're going on taking it in ; that 's what [you]_157-margaret 'd call foolish in another . "_[1092-i] " It is , [Mary]_145-mary ! and yet what can [I]_157-margaret do ? [Folk]_5093-folk mun live ; and [I]_157-margaret think [I]_157-margaret should go blind any way , and [I]_157-margaret darn't tell [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} , else [I]_157-margaret would leave it off , but [he]_{4996-grandfather} will so fret . "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret rocked [herself]_157-margaret backward and forward to still [her]_157-margaret emotion . " Oh [Mary]_145-mary ! "_{[157-margaret]} [she]_157-margaret said , " [I]_157-margaret try to get [his]_{4996-grandfather} face off by heart , and [I]_157-margaret stare at [him]_{4996-grandfather} so when [he]_{4996-grandfather} 's not looking , and then shut [my]_157-margaret eyes to see if [I]_157-margaret can remember [his]_{4996-grandfather} dear face . There 's one thing , [Mary]_145-mary , that serves a bit to comfort [me]_157-margaret . [You]_145-mary 'll have heard of old [Jacob Butterworth]_{186-jacob butterworth} , [the singing weaver]_{5095-the singing weaver} ? Well , [I]_157-margaret know'd [him]_{186-jacob butterworth} a bit , so [I]_157-margaret went to [him]_{186-jacob butterworth} , and said how [I]_157-margaret wished [he]_{186-jacob butterworth} 'd teach [me]_157-margaret the right way o ' singing ; and [he]_{186-jacob butterworth} says [I]_157-margaret 've a rare fine voice , and [I]_157-margaret go once a week , and take a lesson fra ' [him]_{186-jacob butterworth} . [He]_{186-jacob butterworth} 's been [a grand singer]_{5096-a grand singer} in [his]_{186-jacob butterworth} day . [He]_{186-jacob butterworth} 's led [th ' chorusses]_{5097-th ' chorusses} at the Festivals , and got thanked many a time by [[London]_28-london folk]_{5098-london folk} ; and [one foreign singer]_{5099-one foreign singer} , [Madame Catalani]_{187-madame catalani} , turned round and shook [him]_{186-jacob butterworth} by th ' hand before [the Oud Church]_{5100-the oud church} [ 10 ] full o ' [people]_4744-people . [He]_{186-jacob butterworth} says [I]_157-margaret may gain ever so much money by singing ; but [I]_157-margaret do n't know . Any rate it 's sad work , being blind . "_{[157-margaret]} [ Footnote 10 : " [Old Church]_{5102-old church} ; "_{[157-margaret]} now [the Cathedral of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{1093-the cathedral of manchester} . ] [She]_1094-she took up [her]_1094-she sewing , saying [her]_1094-she eyes were rested now , and for some time they sewed on in silence . Suddenly there were steps heard in [the little paved court]_{1095-the little paved court} ; [person]_1096-person after [person]_1096-person ran past the curtained window . " Something 's up , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . [She]_1094-she went to the door and stopping [the first person [she]_1094-she saw]_{1098-the first person she saw} , inquired the cause of the commotion . " Eh , [wench]_5103-wench ! donna [ye]_5103-wench see the fire - light ? [Carsons ' mill]_{5104-carsons ' mill} is blazing away like fun ; "_[1094-she] and away [[her]_1094-she informant]_{1099-her informant} ran . " Come , [Margaret]_157-margaret , on wi ' [your]_157-margaret bonnet , and let ['s]_5105-'s go to see [Carsons ' mill]_{5104-carsons ' mill} ; it 's afire , and [they]_5107-they say [a burning mill]_{5108-a burning mill} is such a grand sight . [I]_{1099-her informant} never saw one . "_{[1099-her informant]} " Well , [I]_145-mary think it 's a fearful sight . Besides [I]_145-mary 've all this work to do . "_[145-mary] But [Mary]_145-mary coaxed in [her]_145-mary sweet manner , and with [her]_145-mary gentle caresses , promising to help with the gowns all night long if necessary , nay , saying [she]_145-mary should quite enjoy it . The truth was , [Margaret]_157-margaret 's secret weighed heavily and painfully on [her]_157-margaret mind , and [she]_157-margaret felt [her]_157-margaret inability to comfort ; besides , [she]_157-margaret wanted to change the current of [Margaret]_157-margaret 's thoughts ; and in addition to these unselfish feelings , came the desire [she]_157-margaret had honestly expressed , of seeing [a factory]_{4754-a factory} on fire . So in two minutes [they]_1101-they were ready . At the threshold of [the house]_{803-the house} [they]_1101-they met [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , to whom [they]_1101-they told [their]_1101-they errand . " [Carsons ' mill]_{5104-carsons ' mill} ! Ay , there is [a mill on fire somewhere]_{5110-a mill on fire somewhere} , sure enough , by the light , and it will be a rare blaze , for there 's not a drop o ' water to be got . And much [Carsons]_188-carsons will care , for [they]_188-carsons 're well insured , and the machines are a ' th ' oud - fashioned kind . See if [they]_188-carsons do n't think it a fine thing for [themselves]_188-carsons . [They]_188-carsons 'll not thank [them]_188-carsons as tries to put it out . "_{[131-john barton]} [He]_{131-john barton} gave way for [the impatient girls]_{1103-the impatient girls} to pass . Guided by the ruddy light more than by any exact knowledge of [the streets that led to [the mill]_{726-the mill}]_{1104-the streets that led to the mill} , [they]_1101-they scampered along with bent heads , facing the terrible east wind as best [they]_1101-they might . [[Carsons]_188-carsons ' mill]_{5104-carsons ' mill} ran lengthways from east to west . [Along]_1107-along [it]_{5104-carsons ' mill} went [one of [the oldest thoroughfares in [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{1109-the oldest thoroughfares in manchester}]_{1108-one of the oldest thoroughfares in manchester} . Indeed [all that part of [the town]_{1111-the town}]_{1110-all that part of the town} was comparatively old ; it was there that [the first cotton mills]_{1112-the first cotton mills} were built , and [the crowded alleys and back streets of [the neighbourhood]_{466-the neighbourhood}]_{1113-the crowded alleys and back streets of the neighbourhood} made a fire there particularly to be dreaded . [The staircase of [the mill]_{726-the mill}]_{1115-the staircase of the mill} ascended from the entrance at the western end , which faced into [a wide dingy - looking street]_{1117-a wide dingy - looking street} , consisting principally of [public - houses]_{1118-public - houses} , [[pawn - brokers]_{1119-pawn - brokers} ' shops]_{1120-pawn - brokers ' shops} , [rag and bone warehouses]_{1121-rag and bone warehouses} , and [dirty provision shops]_{1122-dirty provision shops} . The other , [the east end of [the factory]_{1124-the factory}]_{1123-the east end of the factory} , fronted into [a very narrow back street]_{1125-a very narrow back street} , not twenty feet wide , and miserably lighted and paved . Right against this end of [the factory]_{1124-the factory} were the gable ends of [the last house in [the principal street]_{1128-the principal street}]_{1127-the last house in the principal street} -- [a house which from [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} size , [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} , had probably been once [[a gentleman]_{1130-a gentleman} 's house]_{1131-a gentleman 's house} ; but now the light which streamed from [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} enlarged front windows made clear the interior of [the splendidly fitted up room]_{1132-the splendidly fitted up room} , with [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} painted walls , [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} pillared recesses , [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} gilded and gorgeous fittings up , [its]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} miserable , squalid inmates . [It]_{1129-a house which from its size , its handsome stone facings , and the attempt at ornament in the front} was [a gin palace]_{1133-a gin palace} . [Mary]_145-mary almost wished [herself]_145-mary away , so fearful ( as [Margaret]_157-margaret had said ) was the sight when [they]_1134-they joined [the crowd assembled to witness the fire]_{1135-the crowd assembled to witness the fire} . There was a murmur of many voices whenever the roaring of the flames ceased for an instant . It was easy to perceive [the mass]_{1136-the mass} were deeply interested . " What do [they]_1134-they say ? "_{[157-margaret]} asked [Margaret]_157-margaret , of [a neighbour in the crowd]_{1137-a neighbour in the crowd} , as [she]_157-margaret caught a few words , clear and distinct , from the general murmur . " There never is [anyone]_5111-anyone in [the mill]_{726-the mill} , surely ! "_[145-mary] exclaimed [Mary]_145-mary , as [the sea of upward - turned faces]_{1138-the sea of upward - turned faces} moved with one accord to the eastern end , looking into [Dunham Street]_{29-dunham street} , [the narrow back lane already mentioned]_{1139-the narrow back lane already mentioned} . The western end of [the mill]_{726-the mill} , whither the raging flames were driven by the wind , was crowned and turreted with triumphant fire . It sent forth its infernal tongues from every window hole , licking the black walls with amorous fierceness ; it was swayed or fell before the mighty gale , only to rise higher and yet higher , to ravage and roar yet more wildly . This part of the roof fell in with an astounding crash , while [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd} struggled more and more to press into [Dunham Street]_{29-dunham street} , for what were magnificent terrible flames , what were falling timbers or tottering walls , in comparison with human life ? There , where [the devouring flames had been repelled by the yet more powerful wind]_{1142-the devouring flames had been repelled by the yet more powerful wind} , but where yet black smoke gushed out from every aperture , there , at one of the windows on [the fourth story]_{1143-the fourth story} , or rather a doorway where a crane was fixed to hoist up goods , might occasionally be seen , when the thick gusts of smoke cleared partially away for an instant , the imploring figures of [two men]_{1144-two men} . [They]_1134-they had remained after [the rest of [the workmen]_{441-the workmen}]_{1145-the rest of the workmen} for some reason or other , and , owing to the wind having driven the fire in the opposite direction , had perceived no sight or sound of alarm , till long after ( if any thing could be called long in that throng of terrors which passed by in less time than half an hour ) the fire had consumed the old wooden staircase at [the other end of [the building]_{1148-the building}]_{1147-the other end of the building} . [I]_0-i am not sure whether it was not the first sound of [the rushing crowd below]_{1149-the rushing crowd below} that made [them]_1134-they fully aware of [their]_1134-they awful position . " Where are the engines ? "_{[157-margaret]} asked [[Margaret]_157-margaret of [[her]_157-margaret neighbour]_{1151-her neighbour}]_{1150-margaret of her neighbour} . " [They]_5113-they 're coming , no doubt ; but , bless [you]_145-mary , [I]_157-margaret think it 's bare ten minutes since [we]_{1152-the men} first found out th ' fire ; it rages so wi ' this wind , and all so dry - like . "_{[157-margaret]} " Is [no one gone for a ladder]_{5114-no one gone for a ladder} ? "_[145-mary] gasped [Mary]_145-mary , as [the men]_{1152-the men} were perceptibly , though not audibly , praying [the great multitude below]_{1153-the great multitude below} for help . " [Ay]_5115-ay , [[Wilson]_154-jem 's son]_{5116-wilson 's son} and [another man]_{5117-another man} were off like a shot , well nigh five minute agone . But [th ' masons]_{5118-th ' masons} , and [slaters]_5119-slaters , and [such like]_{5120-such like} , have left [their]_{1152-the men} work , and locked up [the yards]_{5121-the yards} . "_[154-jem] [Wilson]_154-jem ! then , was [that man whose figure loomed out against the ever increasing dull hot light behind]_{1154-that man whose figure loomed out against the ever increasing dull hot light behind} , whenever the smoke was clear,--was that [George Wilson]_148-george ? [Mary]_145-mary sickened with terror . [She]_145-mary knew [he]_148-george worked for [Carsons]_188-carsons ; but at first [she]_145-mary had had no idea any lives were in danger ; and since [she]_145-mary had become aware of this , the heated air , the roaring flames , the dizzy light , and [the agitated and murmuring crowd]_{1155-the agitated and murmuring crowd} , had bewildered [her]_145-mary thoughts . " Oh ! let [us]_5122-we go [home]_4755-home , [Margaret]_157-margaret ; [I]_{1156-the hushed crowd} can not stay . "_{[1156-the hushed crowd]} " [We]_5122-we can not go ! See how [we]_5122-we are wedged in by [folks]_4739-folks . [Poor Mary]_145-mary ! [ye]_145-mary wo n't hanker after a fire again . Hark ! listen ! "_{[1156-the hushed crowd]} For through [the hushed crowd]_{1156-the hushed crowd} , pressing round the angle of [the mill]_{726-the mill} , and filling up [Dunham Street]_{29-dunham street} , might be heard the rattle of the engine , the heavy , quick tread of loaded horses . " Thank [God]_224-god ! "_{[157-margaret]} said [[Margaret]_157-margaret 's neighbour]_{1158-margaret 's neighbour} , " the engine 's come . "_{[157-margaret]} Another pause ; the plugs were stiff , and water could not be got . Then there was a pressure through [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd} , the front rows bearing back on [those behind]_{1160-those behind} , till [the girls]_{505-the girls} were sick with the close ramming confinement . Then a relaxation , and a breathing freely once more . " ' Twas young [Wilson]_148-george and [a fireman]_{5125-a fireman} wi ' a ladder , "_{[157-margaret]} said [[Margaret]_157-margaret 's neighbour]_{1158-margaret 's neighbour} , [a tall man who could overlook [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd}]_{1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd} . " Oh , tell [us]_5126-they what [you]_145-mary see ? "_[145-mary] begged [Mary]_145-mary . " [They]_5126-they 've gotten it fixed again the gin - shop wall . [One o ' [the men [i]_{1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd} ' th ' factory]_{5128-the men i ' th ' factory}]_{5127-one o ' the men i ' th ' factory} has fell back ; dazed wi ' the smoke , [I]_{1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd} 'll warrant . The floor 's not given way there . [God]_224-god ! "_{[1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd]} said [he]_{1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd} , bringing [his]_{1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd} eye lower down , " th ' ladder 's too short ! It 's a ' over wi ' [them]_5126-they , [poor chaps]_{5129-poor chaps} . Th ' fire 's coming slow and sure to that end , and afore [they]_5126-they 've either gotten water , or another ladder , [they]_5126-they 'll be dead out and out . [Lord]_5130-lord have mercy on [them]_5126-they ! "_{[1163-a tall man who could overlook the crowd]} A sob , as if of [excited women]_{1165-excited women} , was heard in the hush of [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd} . Another pressure like the former ! [Mary]_145-mary clung to [Margaret]_157-margaret 's arm with a pinching grasp , and longed to faint , and be insensible , to escape from the oppressing misery of [her]_145-mary sensations . A minute or two . " [They]_5126-they 've taken [th]_5131-th ' ladder into [th ' Temple of [Apollor]_189-apollor]_{5132-th ' temple of apollor} . Ca n't press back with it to [the yard it came from]_{5133-the yard it came from} . "_{[1141-the crowd]} A mighty shout arose ; a sound to wake [the dead]_{717-the dead} . Up on high , quivering in the air , was seen the end of the ladder , protruding out of a garret window , in [the gable end of [the gin palace]_{1169-the gin palace}]_{1168-the gable end of the gin palace} , nearly opposite to the doorway where [the men]_{1152-the men} had been seen . [Those in the crowd nearest the factory , and consequently best able to see up to the garret window]_{1171-those in the crowd nearest the factory , and consequently best able to see up to the garret window} , said that [several men]_{1172-several men} were holding one end , and guiding by [their]_{1172-several men} weight its passage to the door - way . The garret window - frame had been taken out before [the crowd below]_{1173-the crowd below} were aware of the attempt . At length -- for it seemed long , measured by beating hearts , though scarce two minutes had elapsed -- the ladder was fixed , an aerial bridge at a dizzy height , across [the narrow street]_{1174-the narrow street} . Every eye was fixed in unwinking anxiety , and [people]_4744-people 's very breathing seemed stilled in suspense . [The men]_{1152-the men} were nowhere to be seen , but the wind appeared , for the moment , higher than ever , and drove back the invading flames to the other end . [Mary]_145-mary and [Margaret]_157-margaret could see now ; right above [them]_{1152-the men} danced the ladder in the wind . [The crowd]_{1141-the crowd} pressed back from under ; [firemen]_1178-firemen 's helmets appeared at the window , holding the ladder firm , when [a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} , passed from one side to the other . [The multitude]_{1180-the multitude} did not even whisper while [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} crossed the perilous bridge , which quivered under [him]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} ; but when [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} was across , safe comparatively in [the factory]_{1124-the factory} , a cheer arose for an instant , checked , however , almost immediately , by the uncertainty of the result , and the desire not in any way to shake the nerves of [the brave fellow who had cast [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} life on such a die]_{1182-the brave fellow who had cast his life on such a die} . " There [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} is again ! "_[1183-many] sprung to the lips of [many]_1183-many , as [they]_1183-many saw [him]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} at the doorway , standing as if for an instant to breathe a mouthful of the fresher air , before [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} trusted [himself]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} to cross . On [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} shoulders [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} bore an insensible body . " It 's [Jem Wilson]_154-jem and [[his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} father]_{902-his father} , "_{[157-margaret]} whispered [Margaret]_157-margaret ; but [Mary]_145-mary knew it before . [The people]_{1184-the people} were sick with anxious terror . [He]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} could no longer balance [himself]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} with [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} arms ; every thing must depend on nerve and eye . [They]_1183-many saw the latter was fixed , by the position of the head , which never wavered ; the ladder shook under the double weight ; but still [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} never moved [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} head -- [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} dared not look below . It seemed an age before the crossing was accomplished . At last the window was gained ; [the bearer]_{1185-the bearer} relieved from [his]_{1185-the bearer} burden ; both had disappeared . Then [the multitude]_{1180-the multitude} might shout ; and above the roaring flames , louder than the blowing of the mighty wind , arose that tremendous burst of applause at the success of the daring enterprise . Then a shrill cry was heard , asking " Is [the oud man]_{5135-the oud man} alive , and likely to do ? "_{[1187-one of the firemen]} " Ay , "_{[1187-one of the firemen]} answered [one of [the firemen]_{1188-the firemen}]_{1187-one of the firemen} to [the hushed crowd below]_{1189-the hushed crowd below} . " [He]_{5135-the oud man} 's coming round finely , now [he]_{5135-the oud man} 's had a dash of cowd water . "_{[1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head]} [He]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} drew back [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} head ; and the eager inquiries , the shouts , the sea - like murmurs of the moving rolling mass began again to be heard -- but for an instant though . In far less time than even that in which [I]_0-i have endeavoured briefly to describe the pause of events , [the same bold hero]_{1190-the same bold hero} stepped again upon the ladder , with evident purpose to rescue [the man]_{708-the man} yet remaining in [the burning mill]_{1192-the burning mill} . [He]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} went across in the same quick steady manner as before , and [the people below]_{1193-the people below} , made less acutely anxious by [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} previous success , were talking to [each other]_{436-each other} , shouting out intelligence of the progress of the fire at the other end of [the factory]_{1124-the factory} , telling of the endeavours of [the firemen]_{1188-the firemen} at that part to obtain water , while the closely packed body of [men]_1197-men heaved and rolled from side to side . It was different from [the former silent breathless hush]_{1198-the former silent breathless hush} . [I]_0-i do not know if it were from this cause , or from the recollection of peril past , or that [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} looked below , in the breathing moment before returning with [the remaining person]_{1199-the remaining person} ( [a slight little man]_{1200-a slight little man} ) slung across [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} shoulders , but [Jem Wilson]_154-jem 's step was less steady , [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} tread more uncertain ; [he]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} seemed to feel with [his]_{1179-a man , with quick , steady tread , and unmoving head} foot for the next round of the ladder , to waver , and finally to stop half - way . By this time [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd} was still enough ; in the awful instant that intervened [no one]_{1202-no one} durst speak , even to encourage . [Many]_1183-many turned sick with terror , and shut [their]_1183-many eyes to avoid seeing the catastrophe [they]_1183-many dreaded . It came . [The brave man]_{1204-the brave man} swayed from side to side , at first as slightly as if only balancing [himself]_{1204-the brave man} ; but [he]_{1204-the brave man} was evidently losing nerve , and even sense : it was only wonderful how the animal instinct of self - preservation did not overcome every generous feeling , and impel [him]_{1204-the brave man} at once to drop the helpless , inanimate body [he]_{1204-the brave man} carried ; perhaps the same instinct told [him]_{1204-the brave man} , that the sudden loss of so heavy a weight would of itself be a great and imminent danger . " Help [me]_157-margaret ! [she]_157-margaret 's fainted , "_{[157-margaret]} cried [Margaret]_157-margaret . But [no one]_{1202-no one} heeded . All eyes were directed upwards . At this point of time a rope , with a running noose , was dexterously thrown by one of [the firemen , after the manner of a lasso]_{1206-the firemen , after the manner of a lasso} , over the head and round the bodies of [the two men]_{566-the two men} . True , it was with rude and slight adjustment : but , slight as it was , it served as a steadying guide ; it encouraged the sinking heart , the dizzy head . Once more [Jem]_154-jem stepped onwards . [He]_154-jem was not hurried by any jerk or pull . Slowly and gradually the rope was hauled in , slowly and gradually did [he]_154-jem make the four or five paces between [him]_154-jem and safety . The window was gained , and [all]_4906-all were saved . [The multitude in [the street]_{4821-the street}]_{1209-the multitude in the street} absolutely danced with triumph , and huzzaed and yelled till [you]_1211-you would have fancied [their]_{1209-the multitude in the street} very throats would crack ; and then with all the fickleness of interest characteristic of [a large body of people]_{1212-a large body of people} , pressed and stumbled , and cursed and swore in the hurry to get out of [Dunham Street]_{29-dunham street} , and back to the immediate scene of the fire , [the mighty diapason of whose roaring flames formed an awful accompaniment to the screams , and yells , and imprecations , of the struggling crowd]_{1213-the mighty diapason of whose roaring flames formed an awful accompaniment to the screams , and yells , and imprecations , of the struggling crowd} . As [they]_1214-they pressed away , [Margaret]_157-margaret was left , pale and almost sinking under the weight of [Mary]_145-mary 's body , which [she]_157-margaret had preserved in an upright position by keeping [her]_157-margaret arms tight round [Mary]_145-mary 's waist , dreading , with reason , the trampling of unheeding feet . Now , however , [she]_157-margaret gently let [her]_157-margaret down on the cold clean pavement ; and the change of posture , and the difference in temperature , now that [the people]_{1184-the people} had withdrawn from [[their]_{1184-the people} close neighbourhood]_{1216-their close neighbourhood} , speedily restored [her]_157-margaret to consciousness . [Her]_157-margaret first glance was bewildered and uncertain . [She]_157-margaret had forgotten where [she]_157-margaret was . [Her]_157-margaret cold , hard bed felt strange ; the murky glare in the sky affrighted [her]_157-margaret . [She]_157-margaret shut [her]_157-margaret eyes to think , to recollect . [Her]_157-margaret next look was upwards . [The fearful bridge]_{1217-the fearful bridge} had been withdrawn ; the window was unoccupied . " [They]_{1184-the people} are safe , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret . " All ? Are all safe , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " Ask [yon fireman]_{5136-yon fireman} , and [he]_{1218-the fireman} 'll tell [you]_157-margaret more about it than [I]_{1218-the fireman} can . But [I]_{1218-the fireman} know [they]_{1184-the people} 're all safe . "_{[1218-the fireman]} [The fireman]_{1218-the fireman} hastily corroborated [Margaret]_157-margaret 's words . " Why did [you]_{1218-the fireman} let [Jem Wilson]_154-jem go twice ? "_{[157-margaret]} asked [Margaret]_157-margaret . " Let!--why [we]_5137-we could not hinder [him]_154-jem . As soon as ever [he]_154-jem 'd heard [[his]_154-jem father]_{902-his father} speak ( which [he]_154-jem was na long a doing ) , [Jem]_154-jem were off like a shot ; only saying [he]_154-jem knowed better nor [us]_5137-we where to find [t'other man]_{5139-t'other man} . [We]_5137-we 'd all ha ' gone , if [he]_154-jem had na been in such a hurry , for [no one]_{1202-no one} can say as [Manchester firemen]_{5141-manchester firemen} is ever backward when there 's danger . "_{[1218-the fireman]} So saying , [he]_{1218-the fireman} ran off ; and [the two girls]_{1049-the two girls} , without remark or discussion , turned homewards . [They]_{1049-the two girls} were overtaken by [the elder Wilson]_154-jem , pale , grimy , and blear - eyed , but apparently as strong and well as ever . [He]_{1218-the fireman} loitered a minute or two alongside of [them]_{1049-the two girls} , giving an account of [his]_{1218-the fireman} detention in [the mill]_{726-the mill} ; [he]_{1218-the fireman} then hastily wished good - night , saying [he]_{1218-the fireman} must go [home]_4755-home and tell [his]_{1218-the fireman} missis [he]_{1218-the fireman} was all safe and well : but after [he]_{1218-the fireman} had gone a few steps , [he]_{1218-the fireman} turned back , came on [Mary]_145-mary 's side of [the pavement]_{1222-the pavement} , and in an earnest whisper , which [Margaret]_157-margaret could not avoid hearing , [he]_{1218-the fireman} said , " [Mary]_145-mary , if [[my]_{1218-the fireman} boy]_{5142-my boy} comes across [you]_145-mary to - night , give [him]_{5142-my boy} a kind word or two for [my]_{1218-the fireman} sake . Do ! bless [you]_145-mary , there 's [a good wench]_{5143-a good wench} . "_{[1218-the fireman]} [Mary]_145-mary hung [her]_145-mary head and answered not a word , and in an instant [he]_{1218-the fireman} was gone . When [they]_1223-they arrived at [home]_4755-home , [they]_1223-they found [John Barton]_{131-john barton} smoking [his]_{131-john barton} pipe , unwilling to question , yet very willing to hear all the details [they]_1223-they could give [him]_{131-john barton} . [Margaret]_157-margaret went over the whole story , and it was amusing to watch [his]_{131-john barton} gradually increasing interest and excitement . First , the regular puffing abated , then ceased . Then the pipe was fairly taken out of [his]_{131-john barton} mouth , and held suspended . Then [he]_{131-john barton} rose , and at every further point [he]_{131-john barton} came a step nearer to [the narrator]_{1225-the narrator} . When it was ended , [he]_{131-john barton} swore ( an unusual thing for [him]_{131-john barton} ) that if [Jem Wilson]_154-jem wanted [Mary]_145-mary [he]_{131-john barton} should have [her]_145-mary to - morrow , if [he]_{131-john barton} had not a penny to keep [her]_145-mary . [Margaret]_157-margaret laughed , but [Mary]_145-mary , who was now recovered from [her]_145-mary agitation , pouted , and looked angry . The work which [they]_1223-they had left was resumed : but with full hearts , fingers never go very quickly ; and [I]_0-i am sorry to say , that owing to the fire , [the two younger Miss Ogdens]_{1226-the two younger miss ogdens} were in such grief for the loss of [[their]_{1226-the two younger miss ogdens} excellent father]_{1227-their excellent father} , that [they]_{1226-the two younger miss ogdens} were unable to appear before [the little circle of sympathising friends]_{1228-the little circle of sympathising friends} gathered together to comfort [the widow]_{1229-the widow} , and see the funeral set off . CHAPTER VI . POVERTY AND [DEATH]_190-death . " How little can [the rich man]_{4785-the rich man} know Of what [the poor man]_{5145-the poor man} feels , When Want , like [some dark dæmon foe]_{5146-some dark dæmon foe} , Nearer and nearer steals ! _ [He]_{4785-the rich man} _ never tramp'd the weary round , A stroke of work to gain , And sicken'd at the dreaded sound Telling [him]_{4785-the rich man} ' twas in vain . Foot - sore , heart - sore , _ [he]_{4785-the rich man} _ never came Back through the winter 's wind , To [a dark cellar]_{5147-a dark cellar} , there no flame , No light , no food , to find . _ [He]_{4785-the rich man} _ never saw [[his]_{4785-the rich man} darlings]_{5148-his darlings} lie Shivering , the flags [their]_{5148-his darlings} bed ; _ [He]_{4785-the rich man} _ never heard that maddening cry , ' [Daddy]_191-daddy , a bit of bread ! ' "_{[131-john barton]} [MANCHESTER SONG]_{30-manchester song} . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} was not far wrong in [his]_{131-john barton} idea that [the Messrs. Carson]_{192-the messrs. carson} would not be over much grieved for the consequences of the fire in [[their]_{192-the messrs. carson} mill]_{1230-their mill} . [They]_{192-the messrs. carson} were well insured ; the machinery lacked the improvements of late years , and worked but poorly in comparison with that which might now be procured . Above all , trade was very slack ; cottons could find no market , and goods lay packed and piled in many [a warehouse]_{1231-a warehouse} . [The mills]_{522-the mills} were merely worked to keep the machinery , human and metal , in some kind of order and readiness for better times . So this was an excellent opportunity , [Messrs. Carson]_{192-the messrs. carson} thought , for refitting [[their]_{192-the messrs. carson} factory]_{1233-their factory} with first - rate improvements , for which the insurance money would amply pay . [They]_{192-the messrs. carson} were in no hurry about the business , however . The weekly drain of wages given for labour , useless in the present state of the market , was stopped . [The partners]_{1234-the partners} had more leisure than [they]_{1234-the partners} had known for years ; and promised [wives]_1235-wives and [daughters]_{1236-daughters} all manner of pleasant excursions , as soon as the weather should become more genial . It was a pleasant thing to be able to lounge over breakfast with a review or newspaper in hand ; to have time for becoming acquainted with [agreeable and accomplished daughters , on whose education no money had been spared]_{1237-agreeable and accomplished daughters , on whose education no money had been spared} , but whose [fathers , shut up during a long day with calicoes and accounts]_{1238-fathers , shut up during a long day with calicoes and accounts} , had so seldom had leisure to enjoy [[their]_{1238-fathers , shut up during a long day with calicoes and accounts} daughters]_{1239-their daughters} ' talents . There were happy family evenings , now that [the men of business]_{1240-the men of business} had time for domestic enjoyments . There is another side to the picture . There were homes over which [Carsons]_188-carsons ' fire threw a deep , terrible gloom ; [the homes of [those who would fain work , and [no man]_{1243-no man} gave unto [them]_{1241-the homes of those who would fain work , and no man gave unto them}]_{1242-those who would fain work , and no man gave unto them}]_{1241-the homes of those who would fain work , and no man gave unto them} -- [the homes of [those to whom leisure was a curse]_{1245-those to whom leisure was a curse}]_{1244-the homes of those to whom leisure was a curse} . There , the family music was hungry wails , when week after week passed by , and there was no work to be had , and consequently no wages to pay for the bread [the children]_{633-the children} cried aloud for in [their]_{633-the children} young impatience of suffering . There was no breakfast to lounge over ; [[their]_{192-the messrs. carson} lounge]_{1247-their lounge} was taken in bed , to try and keep warmth in [them]_{192-the messrs. carson} that bitter March weather , and , by being quiet , to deaden the gnawing wolf within . Many a penny that would have gone little way enough in oatmeal or potatoes , bought opium to still [the hungry little ones]_{1248-the hungry little ones} , and make [them]_{1248-the hungry little ones} forget [their]_{1248-the hungry little ones} uneasiness in heavy troubled sleep . It was [mother]_4845-mother 's mercy . The evil and the good of [our]_1250-us nature came out strongly then . There were [desperate fathers]_{1251-desperate fathers} ; there were [bitter - tongued mothers]_{1252-bitter - tongued mothers} ( [O God]_224-god ! what wonder ! ) ; there were [reckless children]_{1253-reckless children} ; the very closest bonds of nature were snapt in that time of trial and distress . There was Faith such as [the rich]_{431-the rich} can never imagine on [earth]_1255-earth ; there was " Love strong as death ; "_{[1252-bitter - tongued mothers]} and self - denial , among [rude , coarse men]_{1256-rude , coarse men} , akin to that of [Sir Philip Sidney]_{193-sir philip sidney} 's most glorious deed . The vices of [the poor]_{4790-the poor} sometimes astound [us]_1250-us _ here _ ; but when the secrets of all hearts shall be made known , [their]_{192-the messrs. carson} virtues will astound [us]_1250-us in far greater degree . Of this [I]_0-i am certain . As the cold bleak spring came on ( spring , in name alone ) , and consequently as trade continued dead , [other mills]_{1258-other mills} shortened hours , turned off hands , and finally stopped work altogether . [Barton]_{131-john barton} worked short hours ; [Wilson]_154-jem , of course , being [a hand in [[Carsons]_188-carsons ' factory]_{1260-carsons ' factory}]_{1259-a hand in carsons ' factory} , had no work at all . But [[his]_154-jem son]_{1261-his son} , working at [an engineer]_{1262-an engineer} 's , and [a steady man]_{1263-a steady man} , obtained wages enough to maintain [all the family]_{1264-all the family} in a careful way . Still it preyed on [Wilson]_154-jem 's mind to be so long indebted to [[his]_154-jem son]_{1261-his son} . [He]_154-jem was out of spirits and depressed . [Barton]_{131-john barton} was morose , and soured towards mankind as [a body]_{1266-a body} , and the rich in particular . One evening , when the clear light at six o'clock contrasted strangely with the Christmas cold , and when the bitter wind piped down every entry , and through [every cranny]_{1267-every cranny} , [Barton]_{131-john barton} sat brooding over [his]_{131-john barton} stinted fire , and listening for [Mary]_145-mary 's step , in unacknowledged trust that [her]_145-mary presence would cheer [him]_{131-john barton} . The door was opened , and [Wilson]_154-jem came breathless in . " [You]_154-jem 've not got a bit o ' money by [you]_154-jem , [Barton]_{131-john barton} ? "_[154-jem] asked [he]_154-jem . " Not [I]_154-jem ; who has now , [I]_154-jem 'd like to know . Whatten [you]_154-jem want it for ? "_[154-jem] " [I]_154-jem donnot [ 11 ] want it for [mysel]_154-jem , tho ' [we]_1268-we 've none to spare . But don [ye]_154-jem know [Ben Davenport]_{194-davenport} as worked at [Carsons]_188-carsons ' ? [He]_{194-davenport} 's down wi ' the fever , and ne'er a stick o ' fire , nor a cowd [ 12 ] potato in [the house]_{803-the house} . "_[154-jem] [ Footnote 11 : " [Don]_195-don "_[154-jem] is constantly used in [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} for " do ; "_[154-jem] as it was by [[our]_1268-we older writers]_{1269-our older writers} . " And that may [non Hors _ don_."--_Sir_[154-jem] J. Mondeville]_{196-non hors _ don_."--_sir j. mondeville} . _ " But for th ' entent to _ don _ this sinne . "--_Chaucer_[154-jem] . _ ] [ Footnote 12 : " [Cowd]_197-cowd , "_[154-jem] cold . Teut . , _ kaud _ . [Dutch]_198-dutch , _ koud _ . ] " [I]_{131-john barton} han got no money , [I]_{131-john barton} tell [ye]_154-jem , "_{[131-john barton]} said [Barton]_{131-john barton} . [Wilson]_154-jem looked disappointed . [Barton]_{131-john barton} tried not to be interested , but [he]_{131-john barton} could not help it in spite of [his]_{131-john barton} gruffness . [He]_{131-john barton} rose , and went to the cupboard ( [[his]_{131-john barton} wife]_{525-his wife} 's pride long ago ) . There lay the remains of [his]_{131-john barton} dinner , hastily put by ready for supper . Bread , and a slice of cold fat boiled bacon . [He]_{131-john barton} wrapped them in [his]_{131-john barton} handkerchief , put them in the crown of [his]_{131-john barton} hat , and said--"Come , let ['s]_1271-they be going . "_{[131-john barton]} " Going -- art [thou]_5150-thou going to work this time o ' day ? "_{[131-john barton]} " No , stupid , to be sure not . Going to see [the fellow]_{5151-the fellow} [thou]_5150-thou spoke on . "_{[131-john barton]} So [they]_1271-they put on [their]_1271-they hats and set out . On the way [Wilson]_154-jem said [Davenport]_{194-davenport} was [a good fellow]_{1272-a good fellow} , though too much of [the Methodee]_{199-the methodee} ; that [[his]_{194-davenport} children]_{1273-his children} were too young to work , but not too young to be cold and hungry ; that [they]_{1273-his children} had sunk lower and lower , and pawned thing after thing , and that now [they]_{1273-his children} lived in [a cellar in [Berry Street]_{31-berry street}]_{1274-a cellar in berry street} , off [Store Street]_{32-store street} . [Barton]_{131-john barton} growled inarticulate words of no benevolent import to [a large class of mankind]_{1275-a large class of mankind} , and so [they]_1271-they went along till [they]_1271-they arrived in [Berry Street]_{31-berry street} . [It]_{31-berry street} was unpaved ; and down the middle a gutter forced its way , every now and then forming pools in the holes with which [the street]_{4821-the street} abounded . Never was the Old Edinburgh cry of " Gardez l'eau "_[1271-they] more necessary than in [this street]_{1277-this street} . As [they]_1271-they passed , [women]_4730-women from [[their]_4730-women doors]_{1279-their doors} tossed household slops of _ every _ description into the gutter ; [they]_1271-they ran into the next pool , which overflowed and stagnated . Heaps of ashes were the stepping - stones , on which [the passer - by]_{1280-the passer - by} , who cared in the least for cleanliness , took care not to put [his]_{1280-the passer - by} foot . [[Our]_1281-our friends]_{597-our friends} were not dainty , but even [they]_{597-our friends} picked [their]_{597-our friends} way till [they]_{597-our friends} got to some steps leading down into a small area , where [a person standing]_{1283-a person standing} would have [his]_{1283-a person standing} head about one foot below the level of [the street]_{4821-the street} , and might at the same time , without the least motion of [his]_{1283-a person standing} body , touch the window of [the cellar]_{1285-the cellar} and the damp muddy wall right opposite . [You]_1286-you went down one step even from the foul area into [the cellar in which [a family of human beings]_{1288-a family of human beings} lived]_{1287-the cellar in which a family of human beings lived} . It was very dark inside . The window - panes were , many of them , broken and stuffed with rags , which was reason enough for the dusky light that pervaded [the place]_{623-the place} even at mid - day . After the account [I]_0-i have given of the state of [the street]_{4821-the street} , [no one]_{1202-no one} can be surprised that on going into [the cellar inhabited by [Davenport]_{194-davenport}]_{1292-the cellar inhabited by davenport} , the smell was so foetid as almost to knock [the two men]_{566-the two men} down . Quickly recovering [themselves]_{566-the two men} , as [those inured to such things]_{1294-those inured to such things} do , [they]_{566-the two men} began to penetrate the thick darkness of [the place]_{623-the place} , and to see [three or four little children rolling on the damp , nay wet , brick floor]_{1296-three or four little children rolling on the damp , nay wet , brick floor} , through which the stagnant , filthy moisture of [the street]_{4821-the street} oozed up ; the fire - place was empty and black ; [the wife]_{1298-the wife} sat on [[[her]_{1298-the wife} husband]_{587-her husband} 's lair]_{1300-her husband 's lair} , and cried in the dank loneliness . " See , [missis]_4831-missis , [I]_{1298-the wife} 'm back again.--Hold [your]_4831-missis noise , [children]_{4826-children} , and do n't mither [ 13 ] [your]_4831-missis mammy for bread ; here 's [a chap]_{5154-a chap} as has got some for [you]_4831-missis . "_{[1298-the wife]} [ Footnote 13 : " [Mither]_200-mither , "_{[1298-the wife]} to trouble and perplex . " [I]_{1298-the wife} 'm welly mithered"--I'm_{[1298-the wife]} well nigh crazed . ] In that dim light , which was darkness to [strangers]_{1301-strangers} , [they]_{566-the two men} clustered round [Barton]_{131-john barton} , and tore from [him]_{131-john barton} the food [he]_{131-john barton} had brought with [him]_{131-john barton} . It was a large hunch of bread , but it vanished in an instant . " [We]_{566-the two men} mun do summut for ['em]_5155-'em , "_{[131-john barton]} said [he]_{131-john barton} to [Wilson]_154-jem . " [Yo]_154-jem stop here , and [I]_{131-john barton} 'll be back in half - an - hour . "_{[131-john barton]} So [he]_{131-john barton} strode , and ran , and hurried [home]_4755-home . [He]_{131-john barton} emptied into the ever - useful pocket - handkerchief the little meal remaining in the mug . [Mary]_145-mary would have [her]_145-mary tea at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' ; [her]_145-mary food for the day was safe . Then [he]_{131-john barton} went up - stairs for [his]_{131-john barton} better coat , and [his]_{131-john barton} one , gay , red - and - yellow silk pocket - handkerchief -- [his]_{131-john barton} jewels , [his]_{131-john barton} plate , [his]_{131-john barton} valuables , these were . [He]_{131-john barton} went to [the pawn - shop]_{1303-the pawn - shop} ; [he]_{131-john barton} pawned them for five shillings ; [he]_{131-john barton} stopped not , nor stayed , till [he]_{131-john barton} was once more in [London Road]_{33-london road} , within five minutes ' walk of [Berry Street]_{31-berry street} -- then [he]_{131-john barton} loitered in [his]_{131-john barton} gait , in order to discover [the shops]_{774-the shops} [he]_{131-john barton} wanted . [He]_{131-john barton} bought meat , and a loaf of bread , candles , chips , and from [a little retail yard]_{1305-a little retail yard} [he]_{131-john barton} purchased a couple of hundredweights of coals . Some money yet remained -- all destined for [them]_1306-them , but [he]_{131-john barton} did not yet know how best to spend it . Food , light , and warmth , [he]_{131-john barton} had instantly seen were necessary ; for luxuries [he]_{131-john barton} would wait . [Wilson]_154-jem 's eyes filled with tears when [he]_154-jem saw [Barton]_{131-john barton} enter with [his]_{131-john barton} purchases . [He]_154-jem understood it all , and longed to be once more in work , that [he]_154-jem might help in some of these material ways , without feeling that [he]_154-jem was using [[his]_154-jem son]_{1261-his son} 's money . But though " silver and gold [he]_154-jem had none , "_[154-jem] [he]_154-jem gave heart - service and love works of far more value . Nor was [John Barton]_{131-john barton} behind in these . " The fever "_{[131-john barton]} was ( as it usually is in [Manchester]_1-manchester ) of a low , putrid , typhoid kind ; brought on by miserable living , [filthy neighbourhood]_{1308-filthy neighbourhood} , and great depression of mind and body . It is virulent , malignant , and highly infectious . But [the poor]_{4790-the poor} are fatalists with regard to infection ; and well for [them]_{4790-the poor} it is so , for in [[their]_{4790-the poor} crowded [dwellings]_{1311-dwellings}]_{1310-their crowded dwellings} [no invalid]_{1312-no invalid} can be isolated . [Wilson]_154-jem asked [Barton]_{131-john barton} if [he]_{131-john barton} thought [he]_{131-john barton} should catch it , and was laughed at for [his]_{131-john barton} idea . [The two men]_{566-the two men} , rough , tender nurses as [they]_{566-the two men} were , lighted the fire , which smoked and puffed into [the room]_{616-the room} as if it did not know the way up the damp , unused chimney . The very smoke seemed purifying and healthy in the thick clammy air . [The children]_{633-the children} clamoured again for bread ; but this time [Barton]_{131-john barton} took a piece first to [the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of [[her]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} husband]_{587-her husband} , listening to [his]_{587-her husband} anxious miserable mutterings]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} . [She]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} took the bread , when it was put into [her]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} hand , and broke a bit , but could not eat . [She]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} was past hunger . [She]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} fell down on the floor with a heavy unresisting bang . [The men]_{1152-the men} looked puzzled . " [She]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} 's well - nigh clemmed , "_{[131-john barton]} said [Barton]_{131-john barton} . " [Folk]_5093-folk do say one must n't give [clemmed people]_{5157-clemmed people} much to eat ; but , bless [us]_{1152-the men} , [she]_{1316-the poor , helpless , hopeless woman , who still sat by the side of her husband , listening to his anxious miserable mutterings} 'll eat nought . "_{[131-john barton]} " [I]_154-jem 'll tell [yo]_{131-john barton} what [I]_154-jem 'll do , "_[154-jem] said [Wilson]_154-jem . " [I]_154-jem 'll take [these two big lads]_{5158-these two big lads} , as does nought but fight , [home]_4755-home to [[my]_154-jem missis]_{4756-my missis} 's for to - night , and [I]_154-jem 'll get a jug o ' tea . [[Them]_{5158-these two big lads} [women]_4730-women]_{5161-them women} always does best with tea and such - like slop . "_[154-jem] So [Barton]_{131-john barton} was now left alone with [a little child]_{1319-a little child} , crying ( when [it]_{1319-a little child} had done eating ) for [mammy]_1320-mammy ; with [a fainting , dead - like woman]_{1321-a fainting , dead - like woman} ; and with [the sick man , whose mutterings were rising up to screams and shrieks of agonised anxiety]_{1322-the sick man , whose mutterings were rising up to screams and shrieks of agonised anxiety} . [He]_{131-john barton} carried [the woman]_{681-the woman} to the fire , and chafed [her]_{681-the woman} hands . [He]_{131-john barton} looked around for something to raise [her]_{681-the woman} head . There was literally nothing but some loose bricks . However , those [he]_{131-john barton} got ; and taking off [his]_{131-john barton} coat [he]_{131-john barton} covered [them]_1324-them with it as well as [he]_{131-john barton} could . [He]_{131-john barton} pulled [her]_{681-the woman} feet to the fire , which now began to emit some faint heat . [He]_{131-john barton} looked round for water , but [the poor woman]_{5062-the poor woman} had been too weak to drag [herself]_{5062-the poor woman} out to [the distant pump]_{1326-the distant pump} , and water there was none . [He]_{131-john barton} snatched [the child]_{805-the child} , and ran up [the area - steps]_{1328-the area - steps} to [the room above]_{1329-the room above} , and borrowed [their]_1330-their only saucepan with some water in it . Then [he]_{131-john barton} began , with the useful skill of [a working - man]_{1331-a working - man} , to make some gruel ; and when it was hastily made [he]_{131-john barton} seized a battered iron table - spoon ( kept when many other little things had been sold in a lot ) , in order to feed [baby]_1332-baby , and with it [he]_{131-john barton} forced one or two drops between [her]_{681-the woman} clenched teeth . The mouth opened mechanically to receive more , and gradually [she]_{681-the woman} revived . [She]_{681-the woman} sat up and looked round ; and recollecting all , fell down again in weak and passive despair . [[Her]_{681-the woman} little child]_{1333-her little child} crawled to [her]_{681-the woman} , and wiped with its fingers the thick - coming tears which [she]_{681-the woman} now had strength to weep . It was now high time to attend to [the man]_{708-the man} . [He]_{708-the man} lay on straw , so damp and mouldy no dog would have chosen it in preference to flags ; over it was a piece of sacking , coming next to [his]_{708-the man} worn skeleton of a body ; above [him]_{708-the man} was mustered every article of clothing that could be spared by [mother]_4845-mother or [children]_{4826-children} this bitter weather ; and in addition to [his]_{708-the man} own , these might have given as much warmth as one blanket , could they have been kept on [him]_{708-the man} ; but as [he]_{708-the man} restlessly tossed to and fro , they fell off and left [him]_{708-the man} shivering in spite of the burning heat of [his]_{708-the man} skin . Every now and then [he]_{708-the man} started up in [his]_{708-the man} naked madness , looking like [the prophet of woe in the fearful plague - picture]_{1337-the prophet of woe in the fearful plague - picture} ; but [he]_{708-the man} soon fell again in exhaustion , and [Barton]_{131-john barton} found [he]_{708-the man} must be closely watched , lest in these falls [he]_{708-the man} should injure [himself]_{708-the man} against the hard brick floor . [He]_{131-john barton} was thankful when [Wilson]_154-jem re - appeared , carrying in both hands a jug of steaming tea , intended for [the poor wife]_{1338-the poor wife} ; but when [the delirious husband]_{1339-the delirious husband} saw drink , [he]_{1339-the delirious husband} snatched at it with animal instinct , with a selfishness [he]_{1339-the delirious husband} had never shown in health . Then [the two men]_{566-the two men} consulted together . It seemed decided , without a word being spoken on the subject , that [both]_876-both should spend the night with [the forlorn couple]_{1342-the forlorn couple} ; that was settled . But could [no doctor]_{1343-no doctor} be had ? In all probability , no ; the next day an infirmary order might be begged , but meanwhile the only medical advice [they]_{566-the two men} could have must be from [a druggist]_{5009-a druggist} 's . So [Barton]_{131-john barton} ( being [the moneyed man]_{1345-the moneyed man} ) set out to find [a shop in [London Road]_{33-london road}]_{1346-a shop in london road} . It is a pretty sight to walk through [a street]_{1347-a street} with [lighted shops]_{1348-lighted shops} ; the gas is so brilliant , the display of goods so much more vividly shown than by day , and of [all shops]_{1349-all shops} [a druggist]_{5009-a druggist} 's looks the most like the tales of [our]_1351-our childhood , from [Aladdin]_201-aladdin 's garden of enchanted fruits to the charming [Rosamond]_202-rosamond with [her]_202-rosamond purple jar . No such associations had [Barton]_{131-john barton} ; yet [he]_{131-john barton} felt the contrast between [the well - filled , well - lighted shops]_{1352-the well - filled , well - lighted shops} and [the dim gloomy cellar]_{1353-the dim gloomy cellar} , and it made [him]_{131-john barton} moody that such contrasts should exist . They are the mysterious problem of life to more than [him]_{131-john barton} . [He]_{131-john barton} wondered if [any in all the hurrying crowd]_{1354-any in all the hurrying crowd} had come from such [a house of mourning]_{1355-a house of mourning} . [He]_{131-john barton} thought [they]_1356-they all looked joyous , and [he]_{131-john barton} was angry with [them]_1356-they . But [he]_{131-john barton} could not , [you]_1357-you can not , read the lot of [those who daily pass [you]_1357-you by in [the street]_{4821-the street}]_{1358-those who daily pass you by in the street} . How do [you]_1357-you know the wild romances of [their]_1356-they lives ; the trials , the temptations [they]_1356-they are even now enduring , resisting , sinking under ? [You]_1357-you may be elbowed one instant by [the girl desperate in [her]_{1360-the girl desperate in her abandonment} abandonment]_{1360-the girl desperate in her abandonment} , laughing in mad merriment with [her]_{1360-the girl desperate in her abandonment} outward gesture , while [her]_{1360-the girl desperate in her abandonment} soul is longing for the rest of the dead , and bringing itself to think of [the cold - flowing river]_{1361-the cold - flowing river} as the only mercy of [God]_224-god remaining to [her]_{1360-the girl desperate in her abandonment} here . [You]_1357-you may pass [the criminal]_{1362-the criminal} , meditating crimes at which [you]_1357-you will to - morrow shudder with horror as [you]_1357-you read them . [You]_1357-you may push against one , humble and unnoticed , the last upon earth , who in [Heaven]_278-heaven will for ever be in the immediate light of [God]_224-god 's countenance . Errands of mercy -- errands of sin -- did [you]_1357-you ever think where [all the thousands of people [you]_1357-you daily meet]_{1363-all the thousands of people you daily meet} are bound ? [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's was an errand of mercy ; but the thoughts of [his]_{131-john barton} heart were touched by sin , by bitter hatred of the happy , whom [he]_{131-john barton} , for the time , confounded with [the selfish]_{1364-the selfish} . [He]_{131-john barton} reached [[a druggist]_{5009-a druggist} 's shop]_{1366-a druggist 's shop} , and entered . [The druggist]_{1367-the druggist} ( whose smooth manners seemed to have been salved over with [his]_{1367-the druggist} own spermaceti ) listened attentively to [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's description of [Davenport]_{194-davenport} 's illness ; concluded it was typhus fever , very prevalent in [that neighbourhood]_{1368-that neighbourhood} ; and proceeded to make up a bottle of medicine , sweet spirits of nitre , or some such innocent potion , very good for slight colds , but utterly powerless to stop , for an instant , the raging fever of [the poor man it was intended to relieve]_{1369-the poor man it was intended to relieve} . [He]_{131-john barton} recommended the same course [they]_1370-they had previously determined to adopt , applying the next morning for an infirmary order ; and [Barton]_{131-john barton} left [the shop]_{807-the shop} with comfortable faith in the physic given [him]_{131-john barton} ; for [men of [his]_{131-john barton} class]_{1372-men of his class} , if [they]_{1372-men of his class} believe in physic at all , believe that every description is equally efficacious . Meanwhile , [Wilson]_154-jem had done what [he]_154-jem could at [[Davenport]_{194-davenport} 's home]_{1373-davenport 's home} . [He]_154-jem had soothed , and covered [the man]_{708-the man} many a time ; [he]_154-jem had fed and hushed [the little child]_{1375-the little child} , and spoken tenderly to [the woman]_{681-the woman} , who lay still in [her]_{681-the woman} weakness and [her]_{681-the woman} weariness . [He]_154-jem had opened a door , but only for an instant ; it led into [a back cellar]_{1377-a back cellar} , with a grating instead of a window , down which dropped the moisture from pigsties , and worse abominations . [It]_{1377-a back cellar} was not paved ; the floor was one mass of bad smelling mud . [It]_{1377-a back cellar} had never been used , for there was not an article of furniture in [it]_{1377-a back cellar} ; nor could [a human being]_{1378-a human being} , much less a pig , have lived [there]_873-there many days . Yet [the " back apartment]_{5163-the " back apartment} "_{[681-the woman]} made a difference in the rent . [The Davenports]_{203-the davenports} paid threepence more for having [two rooms]_{1380-two rooms} . When [he]_154-jem turned round again , [he]_154-jem saw [the woman]_{681-the woman} suckling [the child]_{805-the child} from [her]_{681-the woman} dry , withered breast . " Surely [the lad]_{4980-the lad} is weaned ! "_[154-jem] exclaimed [he]_154-jem , in surprise . " Why , how old is [he]_{4980-the lad} ? "_[154-jem] " Going on two year , "_{[681-the woman]} [she]_{681-the woman} faintly answered . " But , oh ! it keeps [him]_{4980-the lad} quiet when [I]_{681-the woman} 've nought else to gi ' [him]_{4980-the lad} , and [he]_{4980-the lad} 'll get a bit of sleep lying there , if [he]_{4980-the lad} 's getten [ 14 ] nought beside . [We]_{203-the davenports} han done [our]_{203-the davenports} best to gi ' [the childer]_{5165-the childer} [ 15 ] food , howe'er [we]_{203-the davenports} pinched [ourselves]_{203-the davenports} . "_{[681-the woman]} [ Footnote 14 : " For [he]_{4980-the lad} had _ geten _ [him]_{4980-the lad} yet no benefice . "--_Prologue_{[681-the woman]} to [Canterbury Tales]_{35-canterbury tales} . _ ] [ Footnote 15 : [Wicklife]_204-wicklife uses " _ childre _ "_{[204-wicklife]} in [his]_204-wicklife Apology , page 26 . ] " [Han]_205-han [ 16 ] [ye]_205-han had no money fra [th ' town]_{5166-th ' town} ? "_{[204-wicklife]} [ Footnote 16 : " What concord _ han _ light and dark . "--_Spenser_{[204-wicklife]} . _ ] " No ; [[my]_{5062-the poor woman} master]_{5167-my master} is [Buckinghamshire born]_{5168-buckinghamshire born} ; and [he]_{5167-my master} 's feared [the town]_{1111-the town} would send [him]_{5167-my master} back to [[his]_{5167-my master} parish]_{5170-his parish} , if [he]_{5167-my master} went to [th ' board]_{5171-th ' board} ; so [we]_5172-we 've just borne on in hope o ' better times . But [I]_{5062-the poor woman} think [they]_5173-they 'll never come in [my]_{5062-the poor woman} day ; "_{[5062-the poor woman]} and [the poor woman]_{5062-the poor woman} began [her]_{5062-the poor woman} weak high - pitched cry again . " Here , sup [ 17 ] this drop o ' gruel , and then try and get a bit o ' sleep . [John]_{131-john barton} and [I]_{5062-the poor woman} 'll watch by [[your]_{5062-the poor woman} master]_{5174-your master} to - night . "_{[5062-the poor woman]} [ Footnote 17 : " And thay _ soupe _ the brothe thereof . "--_Sir_{[5062-the poor woman]} [J. Mandeville]_{206-j. mandeville} . _ ] " [God]_224-god 's blessing be on [you]_{5062-the poor woman} ! "_{[5062-the poor woman]} [She]_{5062-the poor woman} finished the gruel , and fell into a deep sleep . [Wilson]_154-jem covered [her]_{5062-the poor woman} with [his]_154-jem coat as well as [he]_154-jem could , and tried to move lightly for fear of disturbing [her]_{5062-the poor woman} ; but there need have been no such dread , for [her]_{5062-the poor woman} sleep was profound and heavy with exhaustion . Once only [she]_{5062-the poor woman} roused to pull the coat round [[her]_{5062-the poor woman} little child]_{1333-her little child} . And now all [Wilson]_154-jem 's care , and [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's to boot , was wanted to restrain the wild mad agony of [the fevered man]_{1385-the fevered man} . [He]_154-jem started up , [he]_154-jem yelled , [he]_154-jem seemed infuriated by overwhelming anxiety . [He]_154-jem cursed and swore , which surprised [Wilson]_154-jem , who knew [his]_154-jem piety in health , and who did not know the unbridled tongue of delirium . At length [he]_154-jem seemed exhausted , and fell asleep ; and [Barton]_{131-john barton} and [Wilson]_154-jem drew near the fire , and talked together in whispers . [They]_1386-they sat on the floor , for chairs there were none ; the sole table was an old tub turned upside - down . [They]_1386-they put out the candle and conversed by the flickering fire - light . " Han yo known [this chap]_{5175-this chap} long ? "_{[131-john barton]} asked [Barton]_{131-john barton} . " Better nor three year . [He]_154-jem 's worked wi ' [Carsons]_188-carsons that long , and were [alway]_5176-alway [a steady , civil - spoken fellow]_{5177-a steady , civil - spoken fellow} , though , as [I]_{131-john barton} said afore , somewhat of [a Methodee]_{5178-a methodee} . [I]_{131-john barton} wish [I]_{131-john barton} 'd gotten a letter [he]_154-jem sent [his]_154-jem missis , a week or two agone , when [he]_154-jem were on tramp for work . It did [my]_{131-john barton} heart good to read it ; for , [yo]_5179-yo see , [I]_{131-john barton} were a bit grumbling [mysel]_5180-mysel ; it seemed hard to be spunging on [Jem]_154-jem , and taking a ' [his]_154-jem flesh - meat money to buy bread for [me]_{131-john barton} and [them]_188-carsons as [I]_{131-john barton} ought to be keeping . But , [yo]_5179-yo know , though [I]_{131-john barton} can earn nought , [I]_{131-john barton} mun eat summut . Well , as [I]_{131-john barton} telled [ye]_5179-yo , [I]_{131-john barton} were grumbling , when [she]_5181-she ( indicating [the sleeping woman]_{5182-the sleeping woman} by a nod ) brought [me]_{131-john barton} [Ben]_{194-davenport} 's letter , for [she]_5181-she could na read hersel . It were as good as Bible - words ; ne'er a word o ' repining ; a ' about [God]_224-god being [[our]_5183-we Father]_{5184-our father} , and that [we]_5183-we mun bear patiently whate'er [He]_{194-davenport} sends . "_{[131-john barton]} " Don [ye]_5179-yo think [He]_{194-davenport} 's th ' [masters ' Father]_{5185-masters ' father} , too ? [I]_154-jem 'd be loath to have 'em for [brothers]_{5186-brothers} . "_[154-jem] " Eh , [John]_{131-john barton} ! donna talk so ; sure there 's many and many [a master]_{5187-a master} as good or better nor [us]_5183-we . "_[154-jem] " If [you]_5179-yo think so , tell [me]_{131-john barton} this . How comes it [they]_5188-they 're rich , and [we]_5183-we 're poor ? [I]_{131-john barton} 'd like to know that . Han [they]_5188-they done as [they]_5188-they 'd be done by for [us]_5183-we ? "_{[131-john barton]} But [Wilson]_154-jem was [no arguer]_{1387-no arguer} ; no speechifier as [he]_154-jem would have called it . [So Barton]_{131-john barton} , seeing [he]_154-jem was likely to have it [his]_154-jem own way , went on . " [You]_5179-yo 'll say ( at least many [a one]_{5189-a one} does ) , [they'n]_5188-they [ 18 ] getten capital an ' [we'n]_5183-we getten none . [I]_{131-john barton} say , [[our]_5183-we labour]_{5190-our labour} 's [our]_5183-we capital and [we]_5183-we ought to draw interest on that . [They]_5188-they get interest on [their]_5188-they capital somehow a ' this time , while [ourn]_5183-we is lying idle , else how could [they]_5188-they all live as [they]_5188-they do ? Besides , there 's many on ['em]_5191-'em as had nought to begin wi ' ; there 's [Carsons]_188-carsons , and [Duncombes]_{207-duncombes} , and [Mengies]_208-mengies , and many another , as comed into [Manchester]_1-manchester with clothes to [their]_5188-they back , and that were all , and now [they]_5188-they 're worth [their]_5188-they tens of thousands , a ' getten out of [our]_5183-we labour ; why [the very land]_{5192-the very land} as fetched but sixty pound twenty year agone is now worth six hundred , and that , too , is owing to [our]_5183-we labour : but look at [yo]_5193-yo , and see [me]_{131-john barton} , and poor [Davenport]_{194-davenport} yonder ; whatten better are [we]_5183-we ? [They'n]_5188-they screwed [us]_5183-we down to th ' lowest peg , in order to make [their]_5188-they great big fortunes , and build [[their]_5188-they great big houses]_{5194-their great big houses} , and [we]_5183-we , why [we]_5183-we 're just clemming , many and many of [us]_5183-we . Can [you]_5193-yo say there 's nought wrong in this ? "_{[131-john barton]} [ Footnote 18 : " [They'n]_1388-they , "_{[131-john barton]} contraction of " [they]_1388-they han , "_[1388-they] [they]_1388-they have . ] " Well , [Barton]_{131-john barton} , [I]_{131-john barton} 'll not gainsay [ye]_{131-john barton} . But [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} spoke to [me]_{131-john barton} after th ' fire , and says [he]_{209-mr. carson} , ' [I]_{131-john barton} shall ha ' to retrench , and be very careful in [my]_{131-john barton} expenditure during these bad times , [I]_{131-john barton} assure [ye]_{131-john barton} ; ' so [yo]_{131-john barton} see [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} suffer too . "_{[131-john barton]} " Han [they]_1388-they ever seen [a child o ' their'n]_{5196-a child o ' their'n} die for want o ' food ? "_{[131-john barton]} asked [Barton]_{131-john barton} , in a low , deep voice . " [I]_{131-john barton} donnot mean , "_{[131-john barton]} continued [he]_{131-john barton} , " to say as [I]_{131-john barton} 'm so badly off . [I]_{131-john barton} 'd scorn to speak for [mysel]_{131-john barton} ; but when [I]_{131-john barton} see [such men as [Davenport]_{194-davenport}]_{5197-such men as davenport} there dying away , for very clemming , [I]_{131-john barton} can not stand it . [I]_{131-john barton} 've but gotten [Mary]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary keeps hersel pretty much . [I]_{131-john barton} think [we]_1389-we 'll ha ' to give up [house]_686-house - keeping ; but that [I]_{131-john barton} donnot mind . "_{[131-john barton]} And in this kind of talk the night , the long heavy night of watching , wore away . As far as [they]_1389-we could judge , [Davenport]_{194-davenport} continued in the same state , although the symptoms varied occasionally . [The wife]_{1298-the wife} slept on , only roused by a cry of [[her]_{1298-the wife} child]_{1391-her child} now and then , which seemed to have power over [her]_{1298-the wife} , when far louder noises failed to disturb [her]_{1298-the wife} . [The watchers]_{1392-the watchers} agreed , that as soon as it was likely [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} would be up and visible , [Wilson]_154-jem should go to [[his]_154-jem house]_{1071-his house} , and beg for an Infirmary order . At length the gray dawn penetrated even into [the dark cellar]_{1394-the dark cellar} . [Davenport]_{194-davenport} slept , and [Barton]_{131-john barton} was to remain [there]_873-there until [Wilson]_154-jem 's return ; so stepping out into the fresh air , brisk and reviving , even in [that street of abominations]_{1396-that street of abominations} , [Wilson]_154-jem took [his]_154-jem way to [[Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's]_{1397-mr. carson 's} . [Wilson]_154-jem had about two miles to walk before [he]_154-jem reached [[Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's house]_{1398-mr. carson 's house} , which was almost in [the country]_{422-the country} . [The streets]_{772-the streets} were not yet bustling and busy . [The shopmen]_{1401-the shopmen} were lazily taking down the shutters , although it was near eight o'clock ; for the day was long enough for the purchases [people]_4744-people made in [that quarter of [the town]_{1111-the town}]_{1403-that quarter of the town} , while trade was so flat . [One or two miserable - looking women]_{1405-one or two miserable - looking women} were setting off on [their]_{1405-one or two miserable - looking women} day 's begging expedition . But there were [few people abroad]_{1406-few people abroad} . [[Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's]_{1397-mr. carson 's} was [a good house]_{1408-a good house} , and furnished with disregard to expense . But in addition to lavish expenditure , there was much taste shown , and many articles chosen for their beauty and elegance adorned [[his]_154-jem rooms]_{1409-his rooms} . As [Wilson]_154-jem passed a window which [a housemaid]_{1410-a housemaid} had thrown open , [he]_154-jem saw pictures and gilding , at which [he]_154-jem was tempted to stop and look ; but then [he]_154-jem thought it would not be respectful . So [he]_154-jem hastened on to the kitchen door . [The servants]_{1411-the servants} seemed very busy with preparations for breakfast ; but good - naturedly , though hastily , told [him]_154-jem to step in , and [they]_{1411-the servants} could soon let [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} know [he]_154-jem was [there]_873-there . So [he]_154-jem was ushered into [a kitchen hung round with glittering tins , where a roaring fire burnt merrily]_{1413-a kitchen hung round with glittering tins , where a roaring fire burnt merrily} , and where numbers of utensils hung round , at whose nature and use [Wilson]_154-jem amused [himself]_154-jem by guessing . Meanwhile , [the servants]_{1411-the servants} bustled to and fro ; [an out - door man - servant]_{1415-an out - door man - servant} came in for orders , and sat down near [Wilson]_154-jem ; [the cook]_{1416-the cook} broiled steaks , and [the kitchen - maid]_{1417-the kitchen - maid} toasted bread , and boiled eggs . The coffee steamed upon the fire , and altogether the odours were so mixed and appetising , that [Wilson]_154-jem began to yearn for food to break [his]_154-jem fast , which had lasted since dinner the day before . If [the servants]_{1411-the servants} had known this , [they]_{1411-the servants} would have willingly given [him]_154-jem meat and bread in abundance ; but [they]_{1411-the servants} were like [the rest of [us]_1420-us]_{1419-the rest of us} , and not feeling hunger [themselves]_{1411-the servants} , forgot it was possible another might . So [Wilson]_154-jem 's craving turned to sickness , while [they]_{1411-the servants} chattered on , making [the kitchen]_{5059-the kitchen} 's free and keen remarks upon [the parlour]_{1422-the parlour} . " How late [you]_154-jem were last night , [Thomas]_138-thomas ! "_{[1411-the servants]} " Yes , [I]_{1423-the housemaid} was right weary of waiting ; [they]_{1411-the servants} told [me]_{1423-the housemaid} to be at [the rooms]_{5199-the rooms} by twelve ; and there [I]_{1423-the housemaid} was . But it was two o'clock before [they]_{1411-the servants} called [me]_{1423-the housemaid} . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} " And did [you]_154-jem wait all that time in [the street]_{4821-the street} ? "_{[1423-the housemaid]} asked [the housemaid]_{1423-the housemaid} , who had done [her]_{1423-the housemaid} work for the present , and come into [the kitchen]_{5059-the kitchen} for a bit of gossip . " [My]_{1423-the housemaid} eye as like ! [you]_5201-you do n't think [I]_{1423-the housemaid} 'm such a fool as to catch [my]_{1423-the housemaid} death of cold , and let the horses catch [their]_{1411-the servants} death too , as [we]_5202-we should ha ' done if [we]_5202-we 'd stopped [there]_873-there . No ! [I]_{1423-the housemaid} put th ' horses up in [th ' stables]_{5204-th ' stables} at [th ' Spread Eagle]_{5205-th ' spread eagle} , and went [mysel]_{1423-the housemaid} , and got a glass or two by th ' fire . [They]_{1411-the servants} 're driving a good custom , [them]_{1411-the servants} , wi ' [coachmen]_{5206-coachmen} . There were five on [us]_5202-we , and [we]_5202-we 'd many a quart o ' ale , and gin wi ' it , to keep out cold . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} " Mercy on [us]_5202-we , [Thomas]_138-thomas ; [you]_138-thomas 'll get [a drunkard]_{5207-a drunkard} at last ! "_{[1423-the housemaid]} " If [I]_{1423-the housemaid} do , [I]_{1423-the housemaid} know whose blame it will be . It will be missis 's , and not [mine]_{1423-the housemaid} . Flesh and blood ca n't sit to be starved to death on a coach - box , waiting for [folks]_4739-folks as do n't know [their]_4739-folks own mind . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} [A servant]_{849-a servant} , [semi - upper - housemaid]_{1426-semi - upper - housemaid} , [semi - lady's - maid]_{1427-semi - lady's - maid} , now came down with orders from [[her]_{849-a servant} mistress]_{1428-her mistress} . " [Thomas]_138-thomas , [you]_138-thomas must ride to [the fishmonger]_{5209-the fishmonger} 's , and say [missis]_4831-missis ca n't give above half - a - crown a pound for salmon for Tuesday ; [she]_4831-missis 's grumbling because trade 's so bad . And [she]_4831-missis 'll want [the carriage]_{5211-the carriage} at three to go to the lecture , [Thomas]_138-thomas ; at [the Royal Execution]_{5212-the royal execution} , [you]_138-thomas know . "_{[849-a servant]} " Ay , ay , [I]_{1423-the housemaid} know . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} " And [you]_138-thomas 'd better all of [you]_138-thomas mind [your]_138-thomas P 's and Q 's , for [she]_4831-missis 's very black this morning . [She]_4831-missis 's got a bad headache . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} " It 's a pity [Miss Jenkins]_{210-miss jenkins} is not here to match [her]_4831-missis . [Lord]_5213-lord ! how [she]_{210-miss jenkins} and [missis]_4831-missis did quarrel which had got the worst headaches ; it was that [Miss Jenkins]_{210-miss jenkins} left for ; [she]_{210-miss jenkins} would not give up having bad headaches , and [missis]_4831-missis could not abide [any one to have 'em but [herself]_4831-missis]_{5216-any one to have 'em but herself} . "_{[849-a servant]} " [Missis]_211-missis will have [her]_211-missis breakfast up - [stairs]_4740-stairs , cook , and the cold partridge as was left yesterday , and put plenty of cream in [her]_211-missis coffee , and [she]_211-missis thinks there 's a roll left , and [she]_211-missis would like it well buttered . "_{[1423-the housemaid]} So saying , [the maid]_{1429-the maid} left [the kitchen]_{5059-the kitchen} to be ready to attend to [the young ladies]_{1431-the young ladies} ' bell when [they]_{1431-the young ladies} chose to ring , after [their]_{1431-the young ladies} late assembly the night before . In [the luxurious library]_{1432-the luxurious library} , at the well - spread breakfast - table , sat [the two Mr. Carsons]_{1433-the two mr. carsons} , [father]_4863-father and [son]_1435-son . [Both]_876-both were reading ; [the father]_{513-the father} a newspaper , [the son]_{1438-the son} a review , while [they]_876-both lazily enjoyed [their]_876-both nicely prepared food . [The father]_{513-the father} was [a prepossessing - looking old man]_{1440-a prepossessing - looking old man} ; perhaps self - indulgent [you]_1441-you might guess . [The son]_{1438-the son} was strikingly handsome , and knew it . [His]_{1438-the son} dress was neat and well appointed , and [his]_{1438-the son} manners far more gentlemanly than [[his]_{1438-the son} father]_{902-his father} 's . [He]_{1438-the son} was [the only son]_{1444-the only son} , and [[his]_{1438-the son} sisters]_{1445-his sisters} were proud of [him]_{1438-the son} ; [[his]_{1438-the son} father]_{902-his father} and [mother]_4845-mother were proud of [him]_{1438-the son} : [he]_{1438-the son} could not set up [his]_{1438-the son} judgment against [theirs]_1448-theirs ; [he]_{1438-the son} was proud of [himself]_{1438-the son} . The door opened and in bounded [Amy]_212-amy , [the sweet youngest daughter of [the house]_{803-the house}]_{1449-the sweet youngest daughter of the house} , [a lovely girl of sixteen , fresh and glowing , and bright as a rosebud]_{1451-a lovely girl of sixteen , fresh and glowing , and bright as a rosebud} . [She]_212-amy was too young to go to [assemblies]_{1452-assemblies} , at which [[her]_212-amy father]_{564-her father} rejoiced , for [he]_{564-her father} had [little Amy]_212-amy with [her]_212-amy pretty jokes , and [her]_212-amy bird - like songs , and [her]_212-amy playful caresses all the evening to amuse [him]_{564-her father} in [his]_{564-her father} loneliness ; and [she]_212-amy was not too much tired , like [Sophy]_213-sophy and [Helen]_214-helen , to give [him]_{564-her father} [her]_212-amy sweet company at breakfast the next morning . [He]_{564-her father} submitted willingly while [she]_212-amy blinded [him]_{564-her father} with [her]_212-amy hands , and kissed [his]_{564-her father} rough red face all over . [She]_212-amy took [his]_{564-her father} newspaper away after a little pretended resistance , and would not allow [[her]_212-amy brother]_{4840-her brother} [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} to go on with [his]_{209-mr. carson} review . " [I]_212-amy 'm [the only lady]_{5218-the only lady} this morning , [papa]_5219-papa , so [you]_5219-papa know [you]_5219-papa must make a great deal of [me]_212-amy . "_[212-amy] " [[My]_212-amy darling]_{5220-my darling} , [I]_212-amy think [you]_{5220-my darling} have [your]_{5220-my darling} own way always , whether [you]_{5220-my darling} 're [the only lady]_{5218-the only lady} or not . "_[212-amy] " Yes , [papa]_5219-papa , [you]_5219-papa 're pretty good and obedient , [I]_212-amy must say that ; but [I]_212-amy 'm sorry to say [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} is very naughty , and does not do what [I]_212-amy tell [him]_{209-mr. carson} ; do [you]_5219-papa , [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ? "_[212-amy] " [I]_212-amy 'm sure [I]_212-amy do n't know what [you]_5219-papa mean to accuse [me]_212-amy of , [Amy]_212-amy ; [I]_212-amy expected praise and not blame ; for did not [I]_212-amy get [you]_5219-papa that eau de [Portugal]_36-portugal from [town]_5223-town , that [you]_5219-papa could not meet with at [Hughes ']_{37-hughes '} , [you]_5219-papa little ungrateful puss ? "_[212-amy] " Did [you]_5219-papa ! Oh , [sweet Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ; [you]_5219-papa 're as sweet as eau de [Portugal]_36-portugal [yourself]_5219-papa ; [you]_5219-papa 're almost as good as [papa]_5219-papa ; but still [you]_5219-papa know [you]_5219-papa did go and forget to ask [Bigland]_215-bigland for that rose , that new rose [they]_5225-they say [he]_5219-papa has got . "_[212-amy] " No , [Amy]_212-amy , [I]_1456-i did not forget . [I]_1456-i asked [him]_5219-papa , and [he]_5219-papa has got the Rose , _ sans reproche _ ; but do [you]_5219-papa know , [little Miss Extravagance]_{216-little miss extravagance} , a very small one is half - a - guinea ? "_[1456-i] " Oh , [I]_{209-mr. carson} do n't mind . [Papa]_217-papa will give it [me]_{209-mr. carson} , wo n't [you]_5219-papa , [dear father]_{5226-dear father} ? [He]_217-papa knows [[his]_217-papa little daughter]_{5227-his little daughter} ca n't live without flowers and scents . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} tried to refuse [[his]_{209-mr. carson} darling]_{1455-his darling} , but [she]_1456-i coaxed [him]_{209-mr. carson} into acquiescence , saying [she]_1456-i must have it , it was one of [her]_1456-i necessaries . Life was not worth having without flowers . " Then , [Amy]_212-amy , "_{[4840-her brother]} said [[her]_1456-i brother]_{4840-her brother} , " try and be content with peonies and dandelions . "_{[4840-her brother]} " Oh , [[you]_5219-papa wretch]_{5228-you wretch} ! [I]_1456-i do n't call them flowers . Besides , [you]_5219-papa 're every bit as extravagant . Who gave half - a - crown for a bunch of lilies of [the valley]_{5229-the valley} at [Yates ']_{38-yates '} , a month ago , and then would not let [[his]_{4840-her brother} poor little sister]_{5230-his poor little sister} have them , though [she]_{5230-his poor little sister} went on [her]_{5230-his poor little sister} knees to beg [them]_5231-them ? Answer [me]_1456-i that , [Master Hal]_{209-mr. carson} . "_[1456-i] " Not on compulsion , "_{[4840-her brother]} replied [[her]_1456-i brother]_{4840-her brother} , smiling with [his]_{4840-her brother} mouth , while [his]_{4840-her brother} eyes had an irritated expression , and [he]_{4840-her brother} went first red , then pale , with vexed embarrassment . " If [you]_5219-papa please , [sir]_5232-sir , "_{[849-a servant]} said [a servant]_{849-a servant} , entering [the room]_{616-the room} , " here 's [one of [the mill people wanting to see [you]_5219-papa]_{5234-the mill people wanting to see you}]_{5233-one of the mill people wanting to see you} ; [his]_{5233-one of the mill people wanting to see you} name is [Wilson]_154-jem , [he]_{5233-one of the mill people wanting to see you} says . "_{[849-a servant]} " [I]_212-amy 'll come to [him]_{5233-one of the mill people wanting to see you} directly ; stay , tell [him]_{5233-one of the mill people wanting to see you} to come in [here]_5235-here . "_[212-amy] [Amy]_212-amy danced off into [the conservatory]_{1461-the conservatory} which opened out of [the room]_{616-the room} , before [the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} was ushered in . There [he]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} stood at the door , sleeking [his]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} hair with old country habit , and every now and then stealing a glance round at the splendour of [the apartment]_{1464-the apartment} . " Well , [Wilson]_154-jem , and what do [you]_154-jem want to - day , [man]_5236-man ? "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} " Please , [sir]_5232-sir , [Davenport]_{194-davenport} 's ill of the fever , and [I]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} 'm come to know if [you]_5232-sir 've got an Infirmary order for [him]_{194-davenport} ? "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} " [Davenport]_{194-davenport} -- [Davenport]_{194-davenport} ; who is [the fellow]_{5151-the fellow} ? [I]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} do n't know the name . "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} " [He]_{194-davenport} 's worked in [[your]_5232-sir factory]_{5239-your factory} better nor three year , [sir]_5232-sir . "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} " Very likely ; [I]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} do n't pretend to know the names of [the men [I]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} employ]_{5241-the men i employ} ; that [I]_{1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver} leave to [the overlooker]_{5242-the overlooker} . So [he]_{194-davenport} 's ill , eh ? "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} " Ay , [sir]_5232-sir , [he]_{194-davenport} 's very bad ; [we]_5244-we want to get [him]_{194-davenport} in at [the fever wards]_{5245-the fever wards} . "_{[1463-the gaunt , pale , unwashed , unshaven weaver]} [I]_0-i doubt if [I]_0-i have [an in - patient]_{1465-an in - patient} 's order to spare ; [they]_1466-they 're always wanted for accidents , [you]_1467-you know . But [I]_0-i 'll give [you]_1467-you an out - patient 's , and welcome . " So saying , [he]_0-i rose up , unlocked a drawer , pondered a minute , and then gave [Wilson]_154-jem an [out - patient]_{5246-out - patient} 's order to be presented the following Monday . Monday ! How many days there were before Monday ! Meanwhile , [the younger Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had ended [his]_{209-mr. carson} review , and began to listen to what was going on . [He]_{209-mr. carson} finished [his]_{209-mr. carson} breakfast , got up , and pulled five shillings out of [his]_{209-mr. carson} pocket , which [he]_{209-mr. carson} gave to [Wilson]_154-jem as [he]_154-jem passed [him]_{209-mr. carson} , for [the "_[0-i] poor fellow]_{5247-the " poor fellow} . " [He]_{209-mr. carson} went past quickly , and calling for [his]_{209-mr. carson} horse , mounted gaily , and rode away . [He]_{209-mr. carson} was anxious to be in time to have a look and a smile from lovely [Mary Barton]_145-mary , as [she]_145-mary went to [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' . But to - day [he]_{209-mr. carson} was to be disappointed . [Wilson]_154-jem left [the house]_{803-the house} , not knowing whether to be pleased or grieved . It was long to Monday , but [they]_5249-they had all spoken kindly to [him]_154-jem , and who could tell if [they]_5249-they might not remember this , and do something before Monday . Besides , [the cook]_{1416-the cook} , who , when [she]_{1416-the cook} had had [time to think , after breakfast was sent in]_{5251-time to think , after breakfast was sent in} , had noticed [his]_154-jem paleness , had had meat and bread ready to put in [his]_154-jem hand when [he]_154-jem came out of [the parlour]_{1422-the parlour} ; and a full stomach makes every one of [us]_5253-us more hopeful . When [he]_154-jem reached [Berry Street]_{31-berry street} , [he]_154-jem had persuaded [himself]_154-jem [he]_154-jem bore good news , and felt almost elated in [his]_154-jem heart . But it fell when [he]_154-jem opened the cellar - door , and saw [Barton]_145-mary and [the wife]_{1298-the wife} both bending over [the sick man]_{5255-the sick man} 's couch with awe - struck , saddened look . "_[0-i] Come here , " said [Barton]_145-mary . "_[1469-yo] There 's a change comed over [him]_1468-he sin ' yo left , is there not ? " [Wilson]_154-jem looked . The flesh was sunk , the features prominent , bony , and rigid . The fearful clay - colour of death was over all . But the eyes were open and sensible , though the films of the grave were settling upon [them]_5256-them . "_[1468-he] [He]_1468-he wakened fra [his]_1468-he sleep , as [yo]_1469-yo left [him]_1468-he in , and began to mutter and moan ; but [he]_1468-he soon went off again , and [we]_1470-they never knew [he]_1468-he were awake till [he]_1468-he called [[his]_1468-he wife]_{525-his wife} , but now [she]_{525-his wife} 's here [he]_1468-he 's gotten nought to say to [her]_{525-his wife} . " Most probably , as [they]_1470-they all felt , [he]_1468-he could not speak , for [his]_1468-he strength was fast ebbing . [They]_1470-they stood round [him]_1468-he still and silent ; even [the wife]_{1298-the wife} checked [her]_{1298-the wife} sobs , though [her]_{1298-the wife} heart was like to break . [She]_{1298-the wife} held [[her]_{1298-the wife} child]_{1391-her child} to [her]_{1298-the wife} breast , to try and keep [him]_1468-he quiet . [Their]_1470-they eyes were all fixed on [the yet living one , whose moments of life were passing so rapidly away]_{5259-the yet living one , whose moments of life were passing so rapidly away} . At length [he]_1468-he brought ( with jerking , convulsive effort ) [his]_1468-he two hands into the attitude of prayer . [They]_1470-they saw [his]_1468-he lips move , and bent to catch the words , which came in gasps , and not in tones . "_{[525-his wife]} Oh [Lord God]_218-god ! [I]_0-i thank [thee]_218-god , that the hard struggle of living is over . " "_{[194-davenport]} Oh , [Ben]_{194-davenport} ! [Ben]_{194-davenport} ! " wailed forth [[his]_1468-he wife]_{525-his wife} , "_{[194-davenport]} have [you]_{194-davenport} no thought for [me]_0-i ? Oh , [Ben]_{194-davenport} ! [Ben]_{194-davenport} ! do say one word to help [me]_0-i through life . " [He]_1468-he could not speak again . The trump of [the archangel]_{5261-the archangel} would set [his]_1468-he tongue free ; but not a word more would it utter till then . Yet [he]_1468-he heard , [he]_1468-he understood , and though sight failed , [he]_1468-he moved [his]_1468-he hand gropingly over the covering . [They]_5262-they knew what [he]_1468-he meant , and guided it to [her]_{525-his wife} head , bowed and hidden in [her]_{525-his wife} hands , when [she]_{525-his wife} had sunk in [her]_{525-his wife} woe . It rested there , with a feeble pressure of endearment . The face grew beautiful , as the soul neared [God]_218-god . A peace beyond understanding came over it . The hand was a heavy , stiff weight on [the wife]_{1298-the wife} 's head . No more grief or sorrow for [him]_1468-he . [They]_5262-they reverently laid out the corpse -- [Wilson]_154-jem fetching [his]_154-jem only spare shirt to array it in . [The wife]_{1298-the wife} still lay hidden in the clothes , in a stupor of agony . There was a knock at the door , and [Barton]_145-mary went to open it . It was [Mary]_145-mary , who had received a message from [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , through [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} , telling [her]_145-mary where [he]_1468-he was ; and [she]_145-mary had set out early to come and have a word with [him]_1468-he before [her]_145-mary day 's work ; but some errands [she]_145-mary had to do for [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} had detained [her]_145-mary until now . "_{[194-davenport]} Come in , [wench]_5103-wench ! " said [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . "_[5103-wench] Try if [thou]_1473-thou canst comfort [yon]_5103-wench [poor , poor woman]_{1474-poor , poor woman} , kneeling down there . God help [her]_{1474-poor , poor woman} . " [Mary]_145-mary did not know what to say , or how to comfort ; but [she]_145-mary knelt down by [her]_{1474-poor , poor woman} , and put [her]_145-mary arm round [her]_{1474-poor , poor woman} neck , and in a little while fell to crying [herself]_145-mary so bitterly , that the source of tears was opened by sympathy in [the widow]_{1229-the widow} , and [her]_145-mary full heart was , for a time , relieved . And [Mary]_145-mary forgot all purposed meeting with [[her]_145-mary gay lover]_{5269-her gay lover} , [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; forgot [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' errands , and [her]_145-mary anger , in the anxious desire to comfort [the poor lone woman]_{5270-the poor lone woman} . Never had [her]_145-mary sweet face looked more angelic , never had [her]_145-mary gentle voice seemed so musical as when [she]_145-mary murmured [her]_145-mary broken sentences of comfort . "_{[1474-poor , poor woman]} Oh , do n't cry so , [dear Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , pray do n't take on so . Sure [he]_1475-he 's gone where [he]_1475-he 'll never know care again . Yes , [I]_0-i know how lonesome [you]_{219-mrs. davenport} must feel ; but think of [[your]_{219-mrs. davenport} children]_{1476-your children} . Oh ! [we]_1477-we 'll all help to earn food for ['em]_1475-he . Think how sorry _ [he]_1475-he 'd _ be , if [he]_1475-he sees [you]_{219-mrs. davenport} fretting so . Do n't cry so , please do n't . " And [she]_145-mary ended by crying [herself]_145-mary , as passionately as [the poor widow]_{5271-the poor widow} . It was agreed that [the town]_{1111-the town} must bury [him]_1475-he ; [he]_1475-he had paid to a burial club as long as [he]_1475-he could ; but by a few weeks ' omission , [he]_1475-he had forfeited [his]_1475-he claim to a sum of money now . Would [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} and [the little child]_{1375-the little child} go [home]_4755-home with [Mary]_145-mary ? [The latter]_{511-the latter} brightened up as [she]_145-mary urged this plan ; but no ! where [the poor , fondly loved remains]_{5276-the poor , fondly loved remains} were , there would [the mourner]_{5277-the mourner} be ; and all that [they]_5278-they could do was to make [her]_145-mary as comfortable as [their]_5278-they funds would allow , and to beg [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} to look in and say a word at times . So [she]_145-mary was left alone with [[her]_145-mary dead]_{5280-her dead} , and [they]_5278-they went to work that had work , and [he]_1475-he who had none , took upon [him]_1475-he the arrangements for the funeral . [Mary]_145-mary had many a scolding from [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} that day for [her]_145-mary absence of mind . To be sure [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} was much put out by [Mary]_145-mary 's non - appearance in the morning with certain bits of muslin , and shades of silk which were wanted to complete a dress to be worn that night ; but it was true enough that [Mary]_145-mary did not mind what [she]_145-mary was about ; [she]_145-mary was too busy planning how [her]_145-mary old black gown ( [her]_145-mary best when [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} died ) might be spunged , and turned , and lengthened into something like decent mourning for [the widow]_{1229-the widow} . And when [she]_145-mary went [home]_4755-home at night ( though it was very late , as a sort of retribution for [her]_145-mary morning 's negligence ) , [she]_145-mary set to work at once , and was so busy , and so glad over [her]_145-mary task , that [she]_145-mary had , every now and then , to check [herself]_145-mary in singing merry ditties , that [she]_145-mary felt little accorded with the sewing on which [she]_145-mary was engaged . So when the funeral day came , [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} was neatly arrayed in black , a satisfaction to [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} poor heart in the midst of [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} sorrow . [Barton]_145-mary and [Wilson]_154-jem both accompanied [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} , as [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} led [[her]_{219-mrs. davenport} two elder boys]_{5284-her two elder boys} , and followed the coffin . It was a simple walking funeral , with nothing to grate on the feelings of any ; far more in accordance with its purpose , to [my]_1475-he mind , than the gorgeous hearses , and nodding plumes , which form the grotesque funeral pomp of [respectable people]_{5285-respectable people} . There was no "_[1475-he] rattling the bones over the stones , " of [the pauper]_{5286-the pauper} 's funeral . Decently and quietly was [he]_{5286-the pauper} followed to [the grave]_{5287-the grave} by one determined to endure [her]_{5286-the pauper} woe meekly for [his]_{5286-the pauper} sake . The only mark of [pauperism attendant on the burial]_{5288-pauperism attendant on the burial} concerned the living and joyous , far more than the dead , or the sorrowful . When [they]_{5285-respectable people} arrived in [the churchyard]_{5289-the churchyard} , [they]_{5285-respectable people} halted before a raised and handsome tombstone ; in reality a wooden mockery of stone respectabilities which adorned [the burial - ground]_{5290-the burial - ground} . It was easily raised in a very few minutes , and below was [the grave in which [pauper bodies]_{5292-pauper bodies} were piled until within a foot or two of the surface]_{5291-the grave in which pauper bodies were piled until within a foot or two of the surface} ; when the soil was shovelled over , and stamped down , and the wooden cover went to do temporary duty over another hole . [ 19 ] But little [they]_{5285-respectable people} recked of this who now gave up [their]_{5285-respectable people} dead . [ Footnote 19 : The case , to [my]_1475-he certain knowledge , in [one churchyard in [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{5293-one churchyard in manchester} . There may be more . ] CHAPTER VII . [JEM WILSON 'S REPULSE]_154-jem . "_[1475-he] How infinite the wealth of love and hope Garnered in [these same tiny treasure - houses]_{1478-these same tiny treasure - houses} ! And oh ! what bankrupts in [the world]_{1479-the world} [we]_1480-we feel , When [Death]_190-death , like [some remorseless creditor]_{1481-some remorseless creditor} , Seizes on all [we]_1480-we fondly thought [our]_1480-we own ! " "_[142-twins] [THE TWINS]_142-twins . " The ghoul - like fever was not to be braved with impunity , and baulked of its prey . [The widow]_{1229-the widow} had reclaimed [[her]_{1229-the widow} children]_{5064-her children} ; [[her]_{1229-the widow} neighbours]_{5296-her neighbours} , in the good Samaritan sense of the word , had paid [her]_{1229-the widow} little arrears of rent , and made [her]_{1229-the widow} a few shillings beforehand with [the world]_{1479-the world} . [She]_{1229-the widow} determined to flit from [that cellar]_{5298-that cellar} to another less full of painful associations , less haunted by mournful memories . [The board]_{5299-the board} , not so formidable as [she]_{1229-the widow} had imagined , had inquired into [her]_{1229-the widow} case ; and , instead of sending [her]_{1229-the widow} to [Stoke Claypole]_{39-stoke claypole} , [[[her]_{1229-the widow} husband]_{587-her husband} 's Buckinghamshire parish]_{5301-her husband 's buckinghamshire parish} , as [she]_{1229-the widow} had dreaded , had agreed to pay [her]_{1229-the widow} rent . So food for four mouths was all [she]_{1229-the widow} was now required to find ; only for three [she]_{1229-the widow} would have said ; for [herself]_{1229-the widow} and [the unweaned child]_{5302-the unweaned child} were but reckoned as one in [her]_{1229-the widow} calculation . [She]_{1229-the widow} had a strong heart , now [her]_{1229-the widow} bodily strength had been recruited by a week or two of food , and [she]_{1229-the widow} would not despair . So [she]_{1229-the widow} took in [some little children]_{5303-some little children} to nurse , who brought [their]_{5303-some little children} daily food with [them]_{5303-some little children} , which [she]_{1229-the widow} cooked for [them]_{5303-some little children} , without wronging [their]_{5303-some little children} helplessness of a crumb ; and when [she]_{1229-the widow} had restored [them]_{5303-some little children} to [[their]_{5303-some little children} mothers]_{5304-their mothers} at night , [she]_{1229-the widow} set to work at plain sewing , "_[142-twins] seam , and gusset , and band , " and sat thinking how [she]_{1229-the widow} might best cheat [the factory inspector]_{5305-the factory inspector} , and persuade [him]_{5305-the factory inspector} that [her]_{1229-the widow} strong , big , hungry [Ben]_{194-davenport} was above thirteen . [Her]_{1229-the widow} plan of living was so far arranged , when [she]_{1229-the widow} heard , with keen sorrow , that [[Wilson]_154-jem 's twin lads]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} were ill of the fever . [They]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} had never been strong . [They]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} were like [many a pair of twins]_{5307-many a pair of twins} , and seemed to have but one life divided between [them]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} . One life , one strength , and in this instance , [I]_{1482-poor lad} might almost say , one brain ; for [they]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} were [helpless , gentle , silly children]_{5308-helpless , gentle , silly children} , but not the less dear to [[their]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} parents]_{5309-their parents} and to [[their]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} strong , [active , manly , elder brother]_{5311-active , manly , elder brother}]_{5310-their strong , active , manly , elder brother} . [They]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} were late on [their]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} feet , late in talking , late every way ; had to be nursed and cared for when [other lads of [their]_{5306-wilson 's twin lads} age]_{5312-other lads of their age} were tumbling about in [the street]_{4821-the street} , and losing [themselves]_{5312-other lads of their age} , and being taken to [the police - office miles away from [home]_4755-home]_{5314-the police - office miles away from home} . Still want had never yet come in at the door to make love for [these innocents]_{5316-these innocents} fly out at the window . Nor was this the case even now , when [Jem Wilson]_154-jem 's earnings , and [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's occasional charrings were barely sufficient to give [all the family]_{1264-all the family} [their]_{1264-all the family} fill of food . But when [the twins]_{545-the twins} , after ailing many days , and caring little for [their]_{545-the twins} meat , fell sick on the same afternoon , with the same heavy stupor of suffering , the three hearts that loved [them]_{545-the twins} so , [each]_5320-each felt , though none acknowledged to [the other]_{1048-the other} , that [they]_{545-the twins} had little chance for life . It was nearly a week before the tale of [their]_{545-the twins} illness spread as far as [the court where [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} had once dwelt , and [the Bartons]_{143-the bartons} yet lived]_{5322-the court where the wilsons had once dwelt , and the bartons yet lived} . [Alice]_146-alice had heard of the illness of [[her]_146-alice little nephews]_{5323-her little nephews} several days before , and had locked [her]_146-alice cellar door , and gone off straight to [[[her]_146-alice brother]_{4840-her brother} 's house]_{5325-her brother 's house} , in [Ancoats]_8-ancoats ; but [she]_146-alice was often absent for days , sent for , as [[her]_146-alice neighbours]_{5296-her neighbours} knew , to help in some sudden emergency of illness or distress , so that occasioned no surprise . [Margaret]_157-margaret met [Jem Wilson]_154-jem several days after [[his]_154-jem brothers]_{5327-his brothers} were seriously ill , and heard from [him]_154-jem the state of things at [[his]_154-jem home]_{5328-his home} . [She]_157-margaret told [Mary]_145-mary of it as [she]_157-margaret entered [the court]_{604-the court} late that evening ; and [Mary]_145-mary listened with saddened heart to the strange contrast which such woeful tidings presented to the gay and loving words [she]_145-mary had been hearing on [her]_145-mary walk [home]_4755-home . [She]_145-mary blamed [herself]_145-mary for being so much taken up with visions of the golden future , that [she]_145-mary had lately gone but seldom on Sunday afternoons , or other leisure time , to see [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [[[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's friend]_{5332-her mother 's friend} ; and with hasty purpose of amendment [she]_145-mary only stayed to leave a message for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} with [the next - door neighbour]_{5334-the next - door neighbour} , and then went off at a brisk pace on [her]_145-mary way to [the house of mourning]_{5335-the house of mourning} . [She]_145-mary stopped with [her]_145-mary hand on the latch of [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} ' door , to still [her]_145-mary beating heart , and listened to the hushed quiet within . [She]_145-mary opened the door softly : there sat [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} in the old rocking - chair , with [one sick , death - like boy]_{5336-one sick , death - like boy} lying on [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} knee , crying without let or pause , but softly , gently , as fearing to disturb [the troubled , gasping child]_{5337-the troubled , gasping child} ; while behind [her]_145-mary , [old Alice]_146-alice let [her]_146-alice fast - dropping tears fall down on the dead body of [the other twin , which [she]_146-alice was laying out on a board , placed on a sort of sofa - settee in a corner of [the room]_{616-the room}]_{5338-the other twin , which she was laying out on a board , placed on a sort of sofa - settee in a corner of the room} . Over [the child]_{805-the child} , which yet breathed , [the father]_{513-the father} bent , watching anxiously for some ground of hope , where hope there was none . [Mary]_145-mary stepped slowly and lightly across to [Alice]_146-alice . "_{[1482-poor lad]} Ay , [poor lad]_{1482-poor lad} ! [God]_218-god has taken [him]_{1482-poor lad} early , [Mary]_145-mary . " [Mary]_145-mary could not speak ; [she]_145-mary did not know what to say ; it was so much worse than [she]_145-mary expected . At last [she]_145-mary ventured to whisper , "_[218-god] Is there any chance for [the other one]_{1483-the other one} , think [you]_{1482-poor lad} ? " [Alice]_146-alice shook [her]_146-alice head , and told with a look that [she]_146-alice believed there was none . [She]_146-alice next endeavoured to lift [the little body]_{5342-the little body} , and carry [it]_{5342-the little body} to [its]_{5342-the little body} old accustomed bed in [[[its]_{5342-the little body} parents]_{5343-its parents} ' room]_{5344-its parents ' room} . But earnest as [the father]_{513-the father} was in watching [the yet - living]_{5346-the yet - living} , [he]_{513-the father} had eyes and ears for all that concerned the dead , and sprang gently up , and took [[his]_{513-the father} dead son]_{5347-his dead son} on [his]_{513-the father} hard couch in [his]_{513-the father} arms with tender strength , and carried [him]_1485-him [upstairs]_{5348-upstairs} as if afraid of wakening [him]_1485-him . [The other child]_{5349-the other child} gasped longer , louder , with more of effort . "_{[1482-poor lad]} [We]_1484-we mun get [him]_1485-him away from [[his]_1485-him mother]_{787-his mother} . [He]_1485-him can not die while [she]_{787-his mother} 's wishing [him]_1485-him . " "_{[787-his mother]} Wishing [him]_1485-him ? " said [Mary]_145-mary , in a tone of inquiry . "_{[787-his mother]} Ay ; donno [ye]_1487-ye know what wishing means ? There 's none can die in the arms of [those who are wishing [them]_{1488-those who are wishing them sore to stay on earth} sore to stay on [earth]_1255-earth]_{1488-those who are wishing them sore to stay on earth} . The soul o ' [them]_{1488-those who are wishing them sore to stay on earth} as holds [them]_{1488-those who are wishing them sore to stay on earth} wo n't let [the dying soul]_{1490-the dying soul} go free ; so it has a hard struggle for the quiet of death . [We]_1484-we mun get [him]_1485-him away fra ' [[his]_1485-him mother]_{787-his mother} , or [he]_1485-him 'll have a hard death , poor lile [ 20 ] fellow . " [ Footnote 20 : "_[220-lile] [Lile]_220-lile , " a north - country word for "_[220-lile] little . " "_[220-lile] [Wit _ leil]_{221-wit _ leil} _ labour to live . "--_Piers [Ploughman]_{5350-ploughman} . _ ] So without circumlocution [she]_{787-his mother} went and offered to take [the sinking child]_{5351-the sinking child} . But [the mother]_{5048-the mother} would not let [him]_1485-him go , and looking in [Alice]_146-alice 's face with brimming and imploring eyes , declared in earnest whispers , that [she]_{787-his mother} was not wishing [him]_1485-him , that [she]_{787-his mother} would fain have [him]_1485-him released from [his]_1485-him suffering . [Alice]_146-alice and [Mary]_145-mary stood by with eyes fixed on [the poor child]_{5353-the poor child} , whose struggles seemed to increase , till at last [[his]_1485-him mother]_{787-his mother} said with a choking voice , "_[220-lile] May happen [ 21 ] yo'd better take [him]_1485-him , [Alice]_146-alice ; [I]_0-i believe [my]_0-i heart 's wishing [him]_1485-him a ' this while , for [I]_0-i can not , no , [I]_0-i can not bring [mysel]_0-i to let [[my]_0-i two childer]_{1492-my two childer} go in one day ; [I]_0-i can not help longing to keep [him]_1485-him , and yet [he]_1485-him sha'not suffer longer for [me]_0-i . " [ Footnote 21 : "_[0-i] May happen , " perhaps . ] [She]_{787-his mother} bent down , and fondly , oh ! with what passionate fondness , kissed [[her]_{787-his mother} child]_{1391-her child} , and then gave [him]_1485-him up to [Alice]_146-alice , who took [him]_1485-him with tender care . [Nature]_222-nature 's struggles were soon exhausted , and [he]_1485-him breathed [his]_1485-him little life away in peace . Then [the mother]_{5048-the mother} lifted up [her]_{5048-the mother} voice and wept . [Her]_{5048-the mother} cries brought [[her]_{787-his mother} husband]_{587-her husband} down to try with [his]_1485-him aching heart to comfort [hers]_{787-his mother} . Again [Alice]_146-alice laid out the dead , [Mary]_145-mary helping with reverent fear . [The father]_{513-the father} and [mother]_4845-mother carried [him]_1485-him up - stairs to the bed , where [[his]_1485-him little brother]_{580-his little brother} lay in calm repose . [Mary]_145-mary and [Alice]_146-alice drew near the fire , and stood in quiet sorrow for some time . Then [Alice]_146-alice broke the silence by saying , "_[0-i] It will be bad news for [Jem]_154-jem , poor fellow , when [he]_154-jem comes [home]_4755-home . " "_[154-jem] Where is [he]_154-jem ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[154-jem] Working over - hours at [th ' shop]_{1494-th ' shop} . [They'n]_1495-they'n getten a large order fra ' forrin parts ; and [yo]_1496-yo ' know , [Jem]_154-jem mun work , though [his]_154-jem heart 's well - nigh breaking for [these poor laddies]_{1497-these poor laddies} . " Again [they]_5361-they were silent in thought , and again [Alice]_146-alice spoke first . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sometimes think [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} is against planning . Whene'er [I]_0-i plan over - much , [He]_{4929-the lord} is sure to send and mar all [my]_0-i plans , as if [He]_{4929-the lord} would [ha]_1499-ha ' [me]_0-i put the future into [His]_{4929-the lord} hands . Afore Christmas - time [I]_0-i was as full as full could be , of going [home]_4755-home for good and all ; [yo]_1496-yo ' han heard how [I]_0-i 've wished it this terrible long time . And [a young lass from behind]_{1501-a young lass from behind} [Burton]_13-burton came into place in [Manchester last Martinmas]_{41-manchester last martinmas} ; so after awhile , [she]_{1501-a young lass from behind} had a Sunday out , and [she]_{1501-a young lass from behind} comes to [me]_0-i , and tells [me]_0-i [some cousins o ' mine]_{1502-some cousins o ' mine} bid [her]_{1501-a young lass from behind} find [me]_0-i out , and say how glad [they]_{1502-some cousins o ' mine} should be to [ha]_1499-ha ' [me]_0-i to bide wi ' 'em , and look after [th ' childer]_{1503-th ' childer} , for they'n getten [a big farm]_{1504-a big farm} , and [she]_{1501-a young lass from behind} 's a deal to do among th ' cows . So many a winter 's night did [I]_0-i lie awake and think , that please [God]_218-god , come summer , [I]_0-i 'd bid [George]_148-george and [[his]_148-george wife]_{525-his wife} good bye , and go [home]_4755-home at last . [Little]_223-little did [I]_0-i think how [God Almighty]_224-god would baulk [me]_0-i , for not leaving [my]_0-i days in [His]_224-god hands , who had led [me]_0-i through [the wilderness hitherto]_{1507-the wilderness hitherto} . Here 's [George]_148-george out o ' work , and more cast down than ever [I]_0-i seed [him]_148-george ; wanting every chip o ' comfort [he]_148-george can get , e'en afore this last heavy stroke ; and now [I]_0-i 'm thinking [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} 's finger points very clear to [[my]_0-i fit abiding place]_{1509-my fit abiding place} ; and [I]_0-i 'm sure if [George]_148-george and [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} can say ' [His]_148-george will be done , ' it 's no more than what [I]_0-i 'm beholden to do . " So saying , [she]_{130-jane wilson} fell to tidying [the room]_{616-the room} , removing as much as [she]_{130-jane wilson} could every vestige of sickness ; making up the fire , and setting on the kettle for a cup of tea for [[her]_{130-jane wilson} sister - in - law]_{5363-her sister - in - law} , whose low moans and sobs were occasionally heard in [the room below]_{5364-the room below} . [Mary]_145-mary helped [her]_{130-jane wilson} in all [these little offices]_{5365-these little offices} . [They]_5366-they were busy in this way when the door was softly opened , and [Jem]_154-jem came in , all grimed and dirty from [his]_154-jem night - work , [his]_154-jem soiled apron wrapped round [his]_154-jem middle , in guise and apparel in which [he]_154-jem would have been sorry at another time to have been seen by [Mary]_145-mary . But just now [he]_154-jem hardly saw [her]_{130-jane wilson} ; [he]_154-jem went straight up to [Alice]_146-alice , and asked how [the little chaps]_{5367-the little chaps} were . [They]_{5367-the little chaps} had been a shade better at dinner - time , and [he]_154-jem had been working away through the long afternoon , and far into the night , in the belief that [they]_{5367-the little chaps} had taken the turn . [He]_154-jem had stolen out during the half - hour allowed at [the works]_{5368-the works} for tea , to buy [them]_{5367-the little chaps} an orange or two , which now puffed out [his]_154-jem jacket - pocket . [He]_154-jem would make [[his]_154-jem aunt]_{663-his aunt} speak ; [he]_154-jem would not understand [her]_{663-his aunt} shakes of the head and fast coursing tears . "_[1510-they] [They]_1510-they 're both gone , " said [she]_{663-his aunt} . "_[1510-they] Dead ! " "_[1510-they] Ay ! [poor fellows]_{1511-poor fellows} . [They]_1510-they took worse about two o'clock . [Joe]_225-joe went first , as easy as a lamb , and [Will]_{130-jane wilson} died harder like . " "_{[130-jane wilson]} Both ! " "_[1512-lad] Ay , [lad]_1512-lad ! both . [The Lord]_{4929-the lord} has ta'en [them]_1510-they from some evil to come , or [He]_{4929-the lord} would na ha ' made choice o ' [them]_1510-they . [Ye]_1512-lad may rest sure o ' that . " [Jem]_154-jem went to the cupboard , and quietly extricated from [his]_154-jem pocket the oranges [he]_154-jem had bought . But [he]_154-jem stayed long there , and at last [his]_154-jem sturdy frame shook with [his]_154-jem strong agony . [The two women]_{547-the two women} were frightened , as [women]_4730-women always are , on witnessing [a man]_{4855-a man} 's overpowering grief . [They]_{547-the two women} cried afresh in company . [Mary]_145-mary 's heart melted within [her]_145-mary as [she]_145-mary witnessed [Jem]_154-jem 's sorrow , and [she]_145-mary stepped gently up to the corner where [he]_154-jem stood , with [his]_154-jem back turned to [them]_{547-the two women} , and putting [her]_145-mary hand softly on [his]_154-jem arm , said , "_[1512-lad] Oh , [Jem]_154-jem , do n't give way so ; [I]_0-i can not bear to see [you]_154-jem . " [Jem]_154-jem felt a strange leap of joy in [his]_154-jem heart , and knew the power [she]_145-mary had of comforting [him]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem did not speak , as though fearing to destroy by sound or motion the happiness of that moment , when [her]_145-mary soft hand 's touch thrilled through [his]_154-jem frame , and [her]_145-mary silvery voice was whispering tenderness in [his]_154-jem ear . Yes ! it might be very wrong ; [he]_154-jem could almost hate [himself]_154-jem for it ; with death and woe so surrounding [him]_154-jem , it yet was happiness , was bliss , to be so spoken to by [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] Do n't , [Jem]_154-jem , please do n't , " whispered [she]_145-mary again , believing that [his]_154-jem silence was only another form of grief . [He]_154-jem could not contain [himself]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem took [her]_145-mary hand in [his]_154-jem firm yet trembling grasp , and said , in tones that instantly produced a revulsion in [her]_145-mary mood , "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_0-i almost loathe [myself]_0-i when [I]_0-i feel [I]_0-i would not give up this minute , when [[my]_0-i brothers]_{1514-my brothers} lie dead , and [father]_4863-father and [mother]_4845-mother are in such trouble , for all [my]_0-i life that 's past and gone . And , [Mary]_145-mary ( as [she]_145-mary tried to release [her]_145-mary hand ) , [you]_0-i know what makes [me]_0-i feel so blessed . " [She]_145-mary did know -- [he]_154-jem was right there . But as [he]_154-jem turned to catch a look at [her]_145-mary sweet face , [he]_154-jem saw that it expressed unfeigned distress , almost amounting to vexation ; a dread of [him]_154-jem , that [he]_154-jem thought was almost repugnance . [He]_154-jem let [her]_145-mary hand go , and [she]_145-mary quickly went away to [Alice]_146-alice 's side . "_[145-mary] Fool that [I]_0-i was -- nay , wretch that [I]_0-i was -- to let [myself]_0-i take this time of trouble to tell [her]_1517-her how [I]_0-i loved [her]_1517-her ; no wonder that [she]_1517-her turns away from such a selfish beast . " Partly to relieve [her]_145-mary from [his]_154-jem presence , and partly from natural desire , and partly , perhaps , from a penitent wish to share to the utmost [[his]_154-jem parents]_{786-his parents} ' sorrow , [he]_154-jem soon went up - stairs to [the chamber of death]_{5374-the chamber of death} . [Mary]_145-mary mechanically helped [Alice]_146-alice in all the duties [she]_145-mary performed through the remainder of that long night , but [she]_145-mary did not see [Jem]_154-jem again . [He]_154-jem remained up - stairs until after the early dawn showed [Mary]_145-mary that [she]_145-mary need have no fear of going [home]_4755-home through [the deserted and quiet streets]_{5376-the deserted and quiet streets} , to try and get a little sleep before work hour . So leaving kind messages to [George]_148-george and [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} , and hesitating whether [she]_145-mary might dare to send a few kind words to [Jem]_154-jem , and deciding that [she]_145-mary had better not , [she]_145-mary stepped out into the bright morning light , so fresh a contrast to [the darkened room where death had been]_{5377-the darkened room where death had been} . "_[1517-her] [They]_1518-they had Another morn than [ours]_1519-ours . " [Mary]_145-mary lay down on [her]_145-mary bed in [her]_145-mary clothes ; and whether it was this , or the broad daylight that poured in through the sky - window , or whether it was over - excitement , it was long before [she]_145-mary could catch a wink of sleep . [Her]_145-mary thoughts ran on [Jem]_154-jem 's manner and words ; not but what [she]_145-mary had known the tale [they]_1518-they told for many a day ; but still [she]_145-mary wished [he]_154-jem had not put it so plainly . "_[1518-they] Oh dear , " said [she]_145-mary to [herself]_145-mary , "_[1518-they] [I]_0-i wish [he]_1520-him would not mistake [me]_0-i so ; [I]_0-i never dare to speak a common word o ' kindness , but [his]_1520-him eye brightens and [his]_1520-him cheek flushes . It 's very hard on [me]_0-i ; for [father]_4863-father and [George Wilson]_148-george are [old friends]_{543-old friends} ; and [Jem]_154-jem and [I]_0-i ha ' known each other since [we]_1523-we were quite [children]_{4826-children} . [I]_0-i can not think what possesses [me]_0-i , that [I]_0-i must always be wanting to comfort [him]_1520-him when [he]_1520-him 's downcast , and that [I]_0-i must go meddling wi ' [him]_1520-him to - night , when sure enough it was [[his]_1520-him aunt]_{663-his aunt} 's place to speak to [him]_1520-him . [I]_0-i do n't care for [him]_1520-him , and yet , unless [I]_0-i 'm always watching [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i 'm speaking to [him]_1520-him in a loving voice . [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i can not go right , for [I]_0-i either check [myself]_0-i till [I]_0-i 'm downright cross to [him]_1520-him , or else [I]_0-i speak just natural , and that 's too kind and tender by half . And [I]_0-i 'm as good as engaged to be married to [another]_1526-another ; and another far handsomer than [Jem]_154-jem ; only [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i like [Jem]_154-jem 's face best for all that ; liking 's liking , and there 's no help for it . Well , when [I]_0-i 'm [Mrs. Harry Carson]_226-harry , may happen [I]_0-i can put some good fortune in [Jem]_154-jem 's way . But will [he]_1520-him thank [me]_0-i for it ? [He]_154-jem 's rather savage at times , that [I]_0-i can see , and perhaps kindness from [me]_0-i , when [I]_0-i 'm another 's , will only go against the grain . [I]_0-i 'll not plague [myself]_0-i wi ' thinking any more about [him]_1520-him , that [I]_0-i wo n't . " So [she]_226-harry turned on [her]_226-harry pillow , and fell asleep , and dreamt of what was often in [her]_226-harry waking thoughts ; of the day when [she]_226-harry should ride from [church]_5378-church in [[her]_226-harry carriage]_{810-her carriage} , with wedding - bells ringing , and take up [[her]_226-harry astonished father]_{5380-her astonished father} , and drive away from [the old dim work - a - day court]_{5381-the old dim work - a - day court} for ever , to live in [a grand house]_{5382-a grand house} , where [[her]_226-harry father]_{564-her father} should have newspapers , and pamphlets , and pipes , and meat dinners every day,--and all day long if [he]_{564-her father} liked . Such thoughts mingled in [her]_226-harry predilection for the handsome young [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , who , unfettered by work - hours , let scarcely a day pass without contriving a meeting with [the beautiful little milliner [he]_{209-mr. carson} had first seen while lounging in a shop where [[his]_{209-mr. carson} sisters]_{1445-his sisters} were making some purchases , and afterwards never rested till [he]_{209-mr. carson} had freely , though respectfully , made [her]_226-harry acquaintance in [her]_226-harry daily walks]_{5384-the beautiful little milliner he had first seen while lounging in a shop where his sisters were making some purchases , and afterwards never rested till he had freely , though respectfully , made her acquaintance in her daily walks} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} was , to use [his]_{209-mr. carson} own expression to [himself]_{209-mr. carson} , quite infatuated by [her]_226-harry , and was restless each day till the time came when [he]_{209-mr. carson} had a chance , and , of late , more than a chance of meeting [her]_226-harry . There was something of keen practical shrewdness about [her]_226-harry , which contrasted very bewitchingly with the simple , foolish , unworldly ideas [she]_226-harry had picked up from the romances which [[Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' young ladies]_{5386-miss simmonds ' young ladies} were in the habit of recommending to [each other]_{436-each other} . Yes ! [Mary]_145-mary was ambitious , and did not favour [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} the less because [he]_{209-mr. carson} was rich and [a gentleman]_{1130-a gentleman} . The old leaven , infused years ago by [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} [Esther]_153-esther , fermented in [her]_153-esther little bosom , and perhaps all the more , for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's aversion to [the rich and the gentle]_{5391-the rich and the gentle} . Such is the contrariness of the human heart , from [Eve]_227-eve downwards , that [we]_5392-we all , in [our]_5392-we old - Adam state , fancy things forbidden sweetest . So [Mary]_145-mary dwelt upon and enjoyed the idea of some day becoming [a lady]_{4776-a lady} , and doing all the elegant nothings appertaining to ladyhood . It was a comfort to [her]_145-mary , when scolded by [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} , to think of the day when [she]_145-mary would drive up to the door in [[her]_145-mary own carriage]_{5394-her own carriage} , to order [her]_145-mary gowns from [the hasty tempered yet kind dressmaker]_{5395-the hasty tempered yet kind dressmaker} . It was a pleasure to [her]_145-mary to hear the general admiration of [the two elder Miss Carsons]_{5396-the two elder miss carsons} , acknowledged beauties in [ball - room]_{5397-ball - room} and [street]_5398-street , on horseback and on foot , and to think of the time when [she]_145-mary should ride and walk with [them]_{5396-the two elder miss carsons} in loving sisterhood . But the best of [her]_145-mary plans , the holiest , that which in some measure redeemed the vanity of the rest , were those relating to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ; [[her]_145-mary dear father]_{5400-her dear father} , now oppressed with care , and always [a disheartened , gloomy person]_{5401-a disheartened , gloomy person} . How [she]_145-mary would surround [him]_{5400-her dear father} with every comfort [she]_145-mary could devise ( of course , [he]_{5400-her dear father} was to live with [them]_{5396-the two elder miss carsons} ) , till [he]_{5400-her dear father} should acknowledge riches to be very pleasant things , and bless [[his]_{5400-her dear father} lady - daughter]_{5402-his lady - daughter} ! [Every one who had shown [her]_{5403-every one who had shown her kindness in her low estate} kindness in [her]_{5403-every one who had shown her kindness in her low estate} low estate]_{5403-every one who had shown her kindness in her low estate} should then be repaid a hundred - fold . Such were the castles in air , the Alnaschar - visions in which [Mary]_145-mary indulged , and which [she]_145-mary was doomed in after days to expiate with many tears . Meanwhile , [her]_145-mary words -- or , even more , [her]_145-mary tones -- would maintain their hold on [Jem Wilson]_154-jem 's memory . A thrill would yet come over [him]_{5400-her dear father} when [he]_{5400-her dear father} remembered how [her]_145-mary hand had rested on [his]_{5400-her dear father} arm . The thought of [her]_145-mary mingled with all [his]_{5400-her dear father} grief , and it was profound , for the loss of [[his]_{5400-her dear father} brothers]_{5327-his brothers} . CHAPTER VIII . [MARGARET]_157-margaret 'S [DEBUT]_228-debut AS [A PUBLIC SINGER]_{5405-a public singer} . "_[0-i] Deal gently with [them]_1527-they , [they]_1527-they have much endured . Scoff not at [their]_1527-they fond hopes and earnest plans , Though [they]_1527-they may seem to thee wild dreams and fancies . Perchance , in the rough school of stern experience , [They]_1527-they 've something learned which Theory does not teach ; Or if [they]_1527-they greatly err , deal gently still , And let [their]_1527-they error but the stronger plead ' Give [us]_1528-us the light and guidance that [we]_1528-us need ! ' " [LOVE THOUGHTS]_{229-love thoughts} . One Sunday afternoon , about three weeks after that mournful night , [Jem Wilson]_154-jem set out with the ostensible purpose of calling on [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [He]_154-jem was dressed in [his]_154-jem best , [his]_154-jem Sunday suit of course ; while [his]_154-jem face glittered with the scrubbing [he]_154-jem had bestowed on it . [His]_154-jem dark black hair had been arranged and re - arranged before the household looking - glass , and in [his]_154-jem button - hole [he]_154-jem stuck a narcissus ( a sweet [Nancy]_230-nancy is its pretty Lancashire name ) , hoping it would attract [Mary]_145-mary 's notice , so that [he]_154-jem might have the delight of giving it [her]_145-mary . It was a bad beginning of [his]_154-jem visit of happiness that [Mary]_145-mary saw [him]_154-jem some minutes before [he]_154-jem came into [[[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's house]_{5407-her father 's house} . [She]_145-mary was sitting at the end of the dresser , with the little window - blind drawn on one side , in order that [she]_145-mary might see [the passers - by]_{5408-the passers - by} , in the intervals of reading [her]_145-mary Bible , which lay open before [her]_145-mary . So [she]_145-mary watched all the greeting [a friend]_{5409-a friend} gave [Jem]_154-jem ; [she]_145-mary saw the face of condolence , the sympathetic shake of the hand , and had time to arrange [her]_145-mary own face and manner before [Jem]_154-jem came in , which [he]_154-jem did , as if [he]_154-jem had eyes for [no one]_{1202-no one} but [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , who sat smoking [his]_{564-her father} pipe by the fire , while [he]_154-jem read an old "_[231-star] Northern Star , " borrowed from [a neighbouring public - house]_{5412-a neighbouring public - house} . Then [he]_154-jem turned to [Mary]_145-mary , who , [he]_154-jem felt by the sure instinct of love , by which almost [his]_154-jem body thought , was present . [Her]_145-mary hands were busy adjusting [her]_145-mary dress ; a forced and unnecessary movement [Jem]_154-jem could not help thinking . [Her]_145-mary accost was quiet and friendly , if grave ; [she]_145-mary felt that [she]_145-mary reddened like a rose , and wished [she]_145-mary could prevent it , while [Jem]_154-jem wondered if [her]_145-mary blushes arose from fear , or anger , or love . [She]_145-mary was very cunning , [I]_231-star am afraid . [She]_145-mary pretended to read diligently , and not to listen to a word that was said , while , in fact , [she]_145-mary heard all sounds , even to [Jem]_154-jem 's long , deep sighs , which wrung [her]_145-mary heart . At last [she]_145-mary took up [her]_145-mary Bible , and as if [their]_5413-their conversation disturbed [her]_145-mary , went up - stairs to [[her]_145-mary little room]_{5414-her little room} . And [she]_145-mary had scarcely spoken a word to [Jem]_154-jem ; scarcely looked at [him]_154-jem ; never noticed [his]_154-jem beautiful sweet Nancy , which only awaited [her]_145-mary least word of praise to be [hers]_145-mary ! [He]_154-jem did not know -- that pang was spared -- that in [[her]_145-mary little dingy bed - room]_{5415-her little dingy bed - room} , stood a white jug , filled with a luxuriant bunch of early spring roses , making [the whole room]_{1022-the whole room} fragrant and bright . They were the gift of [[her]_145-mary richer lover]_{5417-her richer lover} . So [Jem]_154-jem had to go on sitting with [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , fairly caught in [his]_{131-john barton} own trap , and had to listen to [his]_{131-john barton} talk , and answer [him]_{131-john barton} as best [he]_154-jem might . "_[231-star] There 's the right stuff in this here ' [Star]_231-star , ' and no mistake . Such a right - down piece for short hours . " "_[231-star] At the same rate of wages as now ? " asked [Jem]_154-jem . "_[231-star] Ay , ay ! else where 's the use ? It 's only taking out o ' [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' pocket what [they]_{489-the masters} can well afford . Did [I]_0-i ever tell [yo]_1530-yo what [th ' Infirmary chap]_{1531-th ' infirmary chap} let [me]_0-i into , many a year agone ? " "_[0-i] No , " said [Jem]_154-jem , listlessly . "_[0-i] Well ! [yo]_1530-yo must know [I]_0-i were in [th ' Infirmary]_{1532-th ' infirmary} for a fever , and times were rare and bad ; and there be [good chaps]_{1533-good chaps} there to [a man]_{4855-a man} , while [he]_{4855-a man} 's wick , [ 22 ] whate'er [they]_{489-the masters} may be about cutting [him]_{4855-a man} up at after . [ 23 ] So when [I]_0-i were better o ' th ' fever , but weak as water , [they]_{489-the masters} says to [me]_0-i , says [they]_{489-the masters} , ' If [yo]_1530-yo can write , [yo]_1530-yo may stay in a week longer , and help [[our]_1535-our surgeon]_{1536-our surgeon} wi ' sorting [his]_{1536-our surgeon} papers ; and [we]_1535-our 'll take care yo've [your]_1530-yo belly full o ' meat and drink . [Yo'll]_1530-yo be twice as strong in a week . ' So there wanted but one word to that bargain . So [I]_0-i were set to writing and copying ; [th]_1537-th ' writing [I]_0-i could do well enough , but [they]_{489-the masters} 'd such queer ways o ' spelling that [I]_0-i 'd ne'er been used to , that [I]_0-i 'd to look first at [th]_1537-th ' copy and then at [my]_0-i letters , for all [the world]_{1479-the world} like a cock picking up grains o ' corn . But one thing startled [me]_0-i e'en then , and [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd make bold to ask [the surgeon]_{1539-the surgeon} the meaning o't . [I]_0-i 've gotten no head for numbers , but this [I]_0-i know , that by _ far th ' greater part o ' th ' accidents as comed in , happened in th ' last two hours o ' work _ , when [folk]_5093-folk getten tired and careless . [Th ' surgeon]_{1541-th ' surgeon} said it were all true , and that [he]_{1539-the surgeon} were going to bring that fact to light . " [ Footnote 22 : "_{[1539-the surgeon]} Wick , " alive . [Anglo - Saxon]_{546-anglo - saxon} , cwic . "_{[1539-the surgeon]} [The _ quick _ and the dead]_{1542-the _ quick _ and the dead} . "--_Book of Common Prayer . _ ] [ Footnote 23 : "_{[1542-the _ quick _ and the dead]} At after . " "_{[1542-the _ quick _ and the dead]} _ At after souper goth [this noble king]_{1543-this noble king} . _ " _ [Chaucer]_232-chaucer ; [The Squire]_{5419-the squire} 's Tale . _ ] [Jem]_154-jem was pondering [Mary]_145-mary 's conduct ; but the pause made [him]_154-jem aware [he]_154-jem ought to utter some civil listening noise ; so [he]_154-jem said "_{[1546-block - printers]} Very true . " "_{[1546-block - printers]} Ay , it 's true enough , [[my]_0-i lad]_{1544-my lad} , that [we]_1545-we 're sadly over - borne , and worse will come of it afore long . [Block - printers]_{1546-block - printers} is going to strike ; they'n getten a bang - up union , as wo n't let ['em]_1547-'em be put upon . But there 's many a thing will happen afore long , as [folk]_5093-folk do n't expect . [Yo]_{1544-my lad} may take [my]_0-i word for that , [Jem]_154-jem . " [Jem]_154-jem was very willing to take it , but did not express the curiosity [he]_154-jem should have done . So [John Barton]_{131-john barton} thought [he]_154-jem 'd try another hint or two . "_[154-jem] [Working folk]_{1549-working folk} wo n't be ground to the dust much longer . [We'n]_1545-we a ' had as much to bear as human nature can bear . So , if [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} ca n't do [us]_1545-we no good , and [they]_{5195-th ' masters} say [they]_{5195-th ' masters} ca n't , [we]_1545-we mun try [higher folk]_{1551-higher folk} . " Still [Jem]_154-jem was not curious . [He]_154-jem gave up hope of seeing [Mary]_145-mary again by [her]_145-mary own good free will ; and the next best thing would be , to be alone to think of [her]_145-mary . So , muttering something which [he]_154-jem meant to serve as an excuse for [his]_154-jem sudden departure , [he]_154-jem hastily wished [John]_{131-john barton} good afternoon , and left [him]_{131-john barton} to resume [his]_154-jem pipe and [his]_154-jem politics . For three years past , trade had been getting worse and worse , and the price of provisions higher and higher . This disparity between the amount of the earnings of [the working classes]_{817-the working classes} and the price of [their]_{817-the working classes} food , occasioned , in more cases than could well be imagined , disease and death . [Whole families]_{5421-whole families} went through a gradual starvation . [They]_{5421-whole families} only wanted a Dante to record [their]_{5421-whole families} sufferings . And yet even [his]_154-jem words would fall short of the awful truth ; [they]_{5421-whole families} could only present an outline of the tremendous facts of the destitution that surrounded [thousands upon thousands]_{5422-thousands upon thousands} in the terrible years 1839 , 1840 , and 1841 . [Even philanthropists who had studied the subject]_{5423-even philanthropists who had studied the subject} , were forced to own [themselves]_{5423-even philanthropists who had studied the subject} perplexed in [their]_{5423-even philanthropists who had studied the subject} endeavour to ascertain the real causes of the misery ; the whole matter was of so complicated a nature , that it became next to impossible to understand it thoroughly . It need excite no surprise then to learn that a bad feeling between [working - men]_{5424-working - men} and [the upper classes]_{5425-the upper classes} became very strong in this season of privation . The indigence and sufferings of [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} induced a suspicion in the minds of [many of [them]_{5426-the operatives}]_{5427-many of them} , that [[their]_{5426-the operatives} legislators]_{5428-their legislators} , [[their]_{5426-the operatives} magistrates]_{5429-their magistrates} , [[their]_{5426-the operatives} employers]_{5430-their employers} , and even [the ministers of religion]_{5431-the ministers of religion} , were , in general , [[their]_{5426-the operatives} oppressors]_{5432-their oppressors} and [enemies]_5433-enemies ; and were in league for [their]_{5426-the operatives} prostration and enthralment . The most deplorable and enduring evil that arose out of the period of commercial depression to which [I]_{1551-higher folk} refer , was this feeling of alienation between [the different classes of society]_{5434-the different classes of society} . It is so impossible to describe , or even faintly to picture , the state of distress which prevailed in [the town]_{1111-the town} at that time , that [I]_{1551-higher folk} will not attempt it ; and yet [I]_{1551-higher folk} think again that surely , in [a Christian land]_{5436-a christian land} , it was not known even so feebly as words could tell it , or [the more happy and fortunate]_{5437-the more happy and fortunate} would have thronged with [their]_{5426-the operatives} sympathy and [their]_{5426-the operatives} aid . In many instances [the sufferers]_{444-the sufferers} wept first , and then [they]_{444-the sufferers} cursed . [Their]_{444-the sufferers} vindictive feelings exhibited [themselves]_{444-the sufferers} in rabid politics . And when [I]_{1551-higher folk} hear , as [I]_{1551-higher folk} have heard , of the sufferings and privations of [the poor]_{4790-the poor} , of [provision shops where ha'porths of tea , sugar , butter , and even flour]_{5440-provision shops where ha'porths of tea , sugar , butter , and even flour} , were sold to accommodate [the indigent,--of parents]_{5441-the indigent,--of parents} sitting in [their]_{5441-the indigent,--of parents} clothes by the fire - side during the whole night for seven weeks together , in order that [their]_{5441-the indigent,--of parents} only bed and bedding might be reserved for the use of [their]_{5441-the indigent,--of parents} large family,--of [others]_737-others sleeping upon the cold hearth - stone for weeks in succession , without adequate means of providing [themselves]_737-others with food or fuel ( and this in the depth of winter),--of [others]_737-others being compelled to fast for days together , uncheered by any hope of better fortune , living , moreover , or rather starving , in [a crowded garret]_{5444-a crowded garret} , or [damp cellar]_{5445-damp cellar} , and gradually sinking under the pressure of want and despair into a premature grave ; and when this has been confirmed by the evidence of [their]_{444-the sufferers} care - worn looks , [their]_{444-the sufferers} excited feelings , and [their]_{444-the sufferers} desolate homes,--can [I]_{1551-higher folk} wonder that many of [them]_{444-the sufferers} , in such times of misery and destitution , spoke and acted with ferocious precipitation ? An idea was now springing up among [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} , that originated with [the Chartists]_{233-the chartists} , but which came at last to be cherished as [a darling child]_{5447-a darling child} by [many and many a one]_{5448-many and many a one} . [They]_{444-the sufferers} could not believe that government knew of [their]_{444-the sufferers} misery ; [they]_{444-the sufferers} rather chose to think it possible that [men]_1197-men could voluntarily assume the office of legislators for [a nation]_{5450-a nation} , ignorant of [its]_{5450-a nation} real state ; as who should make domestic rules for the pretty behaviour of [children]_{4826-children} , without caring to know that [those children]_{5452-those children} had been kept for days without food . Besides , [the starving multitudes]_{5453-the starving multitudes} had heard , that the very existence of [their]_{444-the sufferers} distress had been denied in Parliament ; and though [they]_{444-the sufferers} felt this strange and inexplicable , yet the idea that [their]_{444-the sufferers} misery had still to be revealed in all its depths , and that then some remedy would be found , soothed [their]_{444-the sufferers} aching hearts , and kept down [their]_{444-the sufferers} rising fury . So a petition was framed , and signed by [thousands]_{5454-thousands} in the bright spring days of 1839 , imploring [Parliament]_{234-parliament} to hear [witnesses who could testify to the unparalleled destitution of]_{5455-witnesses who could testify to the unparalleled destitution of} [the manufacturing districts]_{748-the manufacturing districts} . [Nottingham]_{42-nottingham} , [Sheffield]_43-sheffield , [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , [Manchester]_1-manchester , and [many other towns]_{5457-many other towns} , were busy appointing [delegates]_{5458-delegates} to convey this petition , who might speak , not merely of what [they]_{5458-delegates} had seen , and had heard , but from what [they]_{5458-delegates} had borne and suffered . [Life - worn , gaunt , anxious , hunger - stamped men]_{5459-life - worn , gaunt , anxious , hunger - stamped men} , were [those delegates]_{5460-those delegates} . [One of [them]_{5460-those delegates}]_{5461-one of them} was [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [He]_{131-john barton} would have been ashamed to own the flutter of spirits [his]_{131-john barton} appointment gave [him]_{131-john barton} . There was the childish delight of seeing [London]_28-london -- that went a little way , and but a little way . There was the vain idea of speaking out [his]_{131-john barton} notions before [so many grand folk]_{5462-so many grand folk} -- that went a little further ; and last , there was the really pure gladness of heart , arising from the idea that [he]_{131-john barton} was one of those chosen to be instruments in making known the distresses of [the people]_{1184-the people} , and consequently in procuring [them]_{1184-the people} some grand relief , by means of which [they]_{1184-the people} should never suffer want or care any more . [He]_{131-john barton} hoped largely , but vaguely , of the results of [his]_{131-john barton} expedition . An argosy of the precious hopes of [many otherwise despairing creatures]_{5464-many otherwise despairing creatures} , was that petition to be heard concerning [their]_{5464-many otherwise despairing creatures} sufferings . The night before the morning on which [the Manchester delegates]_{5465-the manchester delegates} were to leave for [London]_28-london , [Barton]_{131-john barton} might be said to hold a levée , so [many neighbours]_{5466-many neighbours} came dropping in . [Job Legh]_156-job had early established [himself]_156-job and [his]_156-job pipe by [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's fire , not saying much , but puffing away , and imagining [himself]_156-job of use in adjusting the smoothing - irons that hung before the fire , ready for [Mary]_145-mary when [she]_145-mary should want [them]_{5465-the manchester delegates} . As for [Mary]_145-mary , [her]_145-mary employment was the same as that of [[Beau Tibbs]_{235-beau tibbs} ' wife]_{5467-beau tibbs ' wife} , "_{[1551-higher folk]} just washing [[her]_1552-her father]_{564-her father} 's two shirts , " in [the pantry back - kitchen]_{5468-the pantry back - kitchen} ; for [she]_145-mary was anxious about [his]_156-job appearance in [London]_28-london . ( The coat had been redeemed , though the silk handkerchief was forfeited . ) The door stood open , as usual , between [the houseplace]_{5469-the houseplace} and [back - kitchen]_{5470-back - kitchen} , so [she]_145-mary gave [her]_145-mary greeting to [[their]_5471-their friends]_{5472-their friends} as [they]_5471-their entered . "_{[1551-higher folk]} So , [John]_{131-john barton} , [yo're]_{131-john barton} bound for [London]_28-london , are [yo]_{131-john barton} ? " said [one]_518-one . "_{[131-john barton]} Ay , [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i mun go , " answered [John]_{131-john barton} , yielding to necessity as it were . "_[0-i] Well , there 's many a thing [I]_0-i 'd like [yo]_{131-john barton} to speak on to [the Parliament people]_{1554-the parliament people} . [Thou'lt]_1555-thou'lt not spare 'em , [John]_{131-john barton} , [I]_0-i hope . Tell ['em]_1556-'em [our]_1557-we minds ; how [we]_1557-we 're thinking [we]_1557-we 've been clemmed long enough , and [we]_1557-we donnot see whatten good [they'n]_1558-they'n been doing , if [they]_1558-they'n ca n't give [us]_1557-we what [we]_1557-we 're all crying for sin ' the day [we]_1557-we were born . " "_{[1558-they'n]} Ay , ay ! [I]_0-i 'll tell ['em]_1556-'em that , and much more to it , when it gets to [my]_0-i turn ; but [thou]_1559-thou knows there 's many will have [their]_1558-they'n word afore [me]_0-i . " "_{[1558-they'n]} Well , [thou'lt]_1555-thou'lt speak at last . Bless [thee]_1556-'em , [lad]_1512-lad , do ask ['em]_1556-'em to make [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} break th ' machines . There 's never been good times sin ' spinning - jennies came up . " "_[1562-th] Machines is [[th]_1562-th ' ruin of [poor folk]_{1564-poor folk}]_{1563-th ' ruin of poor folk} , " chimed in several voices . "_[1562-th] For [my]_0-i part , " said [a shivering , half - clad man , who crept near the fire]_{5474-a shivering , half - clad man , who crept near the fire} , as if ague - stricken , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would like [thee]_1556-'em to tell ['em]_1556-'em to pass th ' Short - hours [Bill]_167-bill . Flesh and blood gets wearied wi ' so much work ; why should [factory hands]_{1565-factory hands} work so much longer nor other trades ? Just ask ['em]_1556-'em that , [Barton]_{131-john barton} , will [ye]_1556-'em ? " [Barton]_{131-john barton} was saved the necessity of answering , by the entrance of [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , [the poor widow [he]_{131-john barton} had been so kind to]_{5475-the poor widow he had been so kind to} ; [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} looked half - fed , and eager , but was decently clad . In [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} hand [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} brought a little newspaper parcel , which [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} took to [Mary]_145-mary , who opened it , and then called out , dangling a shirt collar from [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} soapy fingers : "_[1556-'em] See , [father]_4863-father , what [a dandy]_{1567-a dandy} [you]_4863-father 'll be in [London]_28-london ! [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} has brought [you]_4863-father this ; made new cut , all after the fashion.--Thank [you]_4863-father for thinking on [him]_4863-father . " "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} Eh , [Mary]_145-mary ! " said [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , in a low voice . "_[145-mary] Whatten 's all [I]_0-i can do , to what [he]_4863-father 's done for [me]_0-i and [mine]_0-i ? But , [Mary]_145-mary , sure [I]_0-i can help [ye]_145-mary , for [you]_145-mary 'll be busy wi ' this journey . " "_[145-mary] Just help [me]_0-i wring these out , and then [I]_0-i 'll take ['em]_1568-'em to [th ' mangle]_{1569-th ' mangle} . " [So Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} became [a listener to the conversation]_{5476-a listener to the conversation} ; and after a while joined in . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm sure , [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , if [yo]_{131-john barton} are taking messages to [the Parliament folk]_{1570-the parliament folk} , [yo'll]_{131-john barton} not object to telling ['em]_1571-'em what a sore trial it is , this law o ' [theirs]_{1570-the parliament folk} , keeping [childer]_1572-childer fra ' factory work , whether [they]_{1570-the parliament folk} be weakly or strong . There 's [[our]_1573-our [Ben]_{194-davenport}]_{1574-our ben} ; why , porridge seems to go no way wi ' [him]_{194-davenport} , [he]_{194-davenport} eats so much ; and [I]_0-i han gotten no money to send [him]_{194-davenport} t ' school , as [I]_0-i would like ; and there [he]_{194-davenport} is , rampaging about [th ' streets]_{1575-th ' streets} a ' day , getting hungrier and hungrier , and picking up a ' manner o ' bad ways ; and [th ' inspector]_{1576-th ' inspector} wo n't let [him]_{194-davenport} in to work in [th ' factory]_{1577-th ' factory} , because [he]_{194-davenport} 's not right age ; though [he]_{194-davenport} 's twice as strong as [Sankey]_236-sankey 's little ritling [ 24 ] of [a lad]_{1578-a lad} , as works till [he]_{194-davenport} cries for [his]_{194-davenport} legs aching so , though [he]_{194-davenport} is right age , and better . " [ Footnote 24 : "_{[237-ritling]} [Ritling]_237-ritling , " probably a corruption of "_{[237-ritling]} ricketling , " [a child that suffers from the rickets -- a weakling]_{5477-a child that suffers from the rickets -- a weakling} . ] "_{[237-ritling]} [I]_0-i 've one plan [I]_0-i wish to tell [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , " said [a pompous , careful - speaking man]_{5478-a pompous , careful - speaking man} , "_{[194-davenport]} and [I]_0-i should like [him]_{194-davenport} for to lay it afore [the Honourable House]_{1579-the honourable house} . [[My]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} comed out o ' [Oxfordshire]_{45-oxfordshire} , and were [under - laundry - maid in [[Sir Francis Dashwood]_{238-sir francis dashwood} 's family]_{1582-sir francis dashwood 's family}]_{1581-under - laundry - maid in sir francis dashwood 's family} ; and when [we]_1583-we were [little ones]_{1584-little ones} , [she]_{4875-my mother} 'd tell [us]_1583-we stories of [their]_{1582-sir francis dashwood 's family} grandeur ; and one thing [she]_{4875-my mother} named were , that [Sir Francis]_{238-sir francis dashwood} wore two shirts a day . Now [he]_{238-sir francis dashwood} were all as one as [a Parliament man]_{1585-a parliament man} ; and [many on 'em]_{1586-many on 'em} , [I]_0-i han no doubt , are like extravagant . Just tell ['em]_1587-'em , [John]_{131-john barton} , do , that [they]_1588-they 'd be doing [th]_1589-th ' [[Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} [weavers]_767-weavers]_{1590-lancashire weavers} a great kindness , if [they]_1588-they 'd ha ' [their]_1588-they shirts a ' made o ' calico ; ' twould make trade brisk , that would , wi ' the power o ' shirts [they]_1588-they wear . " [Job Legh]_156-job now put in [his]_156-job word . Taking the pipe out of [his]_156-job mouth , and addressing [the last speaker]_{5479-the last speaker} , [he]_156-job said : "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll tell [ye]_1592-ye what , [Bill]_167-bill , and no offence , mind [ye]_1592-ye ; there 's but hundreds of [them]_1593-them [Parliament folk]_{1594-parliament folk} as wear so many shirts to [their]_{1594-parliament folk} back ; but there 's thousands and [thousands o ' poor weavers]_{1595-thousands o ' poor weavers} as han only gotten one shirt [i]_0-i ' [th ' world]_{1596-th ' world} ; ay , and do n't know where t ' get another when that rag 's done , though [they]_1588-they 're turning out miles o ' calico every day ; and many a mile o't is lying in [warehouses]_{1597-warehouses} , stopping up trade for want o ' [purchasers]_{1598-purchasers} . [Yo]_1599-yo take [my]_0-i advice , [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , and ask [Parliament]_{234-parliament} to set trade free , so as [workmen]_1600-workmen can earn a decent wage , and buy [their]_1600-workmen two , ay and three , shirts a - year ; that would make weaving brisk . " [He]_0-i put [his]_0-i pipe in [his]_0-i mouth again , and redoubled [his]_0-i puffing to make up for lost time . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm afeard , [neighbours]_{1601-neighbours} , " said [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 've not much chance o ' telling ['em]_1602-'em all [yo]_{1601-neighbours} say ; what [I]_0-i think on , is just speaking out about the distress that [they]_1588-they say is nought . When [they]_1588-they hear o ' [children born on wet flags]_{1603-children born on wet flags} , without a rag t ' cover 'em , or a bit o ' food for [th ' mother]_{1604-th ' mother} ; when [they]_1588-they hear of [folk]_5093-folk lying down to die [i]_0-i ' [th ' streets]_{1575-th ' streets} , or hiding [their]_5093-folk want [i]_0-i ' some hole o ' [a cellar]_{1607-a cellar} till death come to set ['em]_1602-'em free ; and when [they]_1588-they hear o ' all this plague , pestilence , and famine , [they]_1588-they 'll surely do somewhat wiser for [us]_1608-us than [we]_1608-us can guess at now . [Howe'er]_239-howe'er , [I]_0-i han no objection , if so be there 's an opening , to speak up for what [yo]_{1601-neighbours} say ; anyhow , [I]_0-i 'll do [my]_0-i best , and [yo]_{1601-neighbours} see now , if better times do n't come after [Parliament]_{234-parliament} knows all . " [Some]_797-some shook [their]_797-some heads , but more looked cheery ; and then [one by one]_{5481-one by one} dropped off , leaving [John]_{131-john barton} and [[his]_{131-john barton} daughter]_{724-his daughter} alone . "_{[234-parliament]} Didst [thou]_1609-thou mark how poorly [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} looked ? " asked [he]_0-i , as [they]_5483-their wound up [their]_5483-their hard day 's work by a supper eaten over the fire , which glowed and glimmered through [the room]_{616-the room} , and formed [their]_5483-their only light . "_[1609-thou] No , [I]_0-i ca n't say as [I]_0-i did . But [she]_{130-jane wilson} 's never rightly held up [her]_{130-jane wilson} head since [the twins]_{545-the twins} died ; and all along [she]_{130-jane wilson} has never been [a strong woman]_{1611-a strong woman} . " "_{[130-jane wilson]} Never sin ' [her]_{130-jane wilson} accident . Afore that [I]_0-i mind [her]_{130-jane wilson} looking as fresh and likely [a girl as e'er a one in [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{1612-a girl as e'er a one in manchester} . " "_{[1612-a girl as e'er a one in manchester]} What accident , [father]_4863-father ? " "_{[130-jane wilson]} [She]_{130-jane wilson} cotched [ 25 ] [her]_{130-jane wilson} side again a wheel . It were afore wheels were boxed up . It were just when [she]_{130-jane wilson} were to have been married , and [many a one]_{5056-many a one} thought [George]_148-george would ha ' been off [his]_148-george bargain ; but [I]_0-i knew [he]_148-george wern't the chap for that trick . Pretty near the first place [she]_{130-jane wilson} went to when [she]_{130-jane wilson} were able to go about again , was [th]_1615-th ' Oud [Church]_5378-church ; [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} , all pale and limping [she]_{130-jane wilson} went up [the aisle]_{1618-the aisle} , [George]_148-george holding [her]_{130-jane wilson} up as tender as [a mother]_{883-a mother} , and walking as slow as e'er [he]_148-george could , not to hurry [her]_{130-jane wilson} , though there were plenty enow of [rude lads]_{1620-rude lads} to cast [their]_{1620-rude lads} jests at [him]_148-george and [her]_{130-jane wilson} . [Her]_{130-jane wilson} face were white like a sheet when [she]_{130-jane wilson} came in [church]_5378-church , but afore [she]_{130-jane wilson} got to th ' altar [she]_{130-jane wilson} were all one flush . But for a ' that it 's been a happy marriage , and [George]_148-george has stuck by [me]_0-i through life like [a brother]_{1622-a brother} . [He]_148-george 'll never hold up [his]_148-george head again if [he]_148-george loses [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} . [I]_0-i did n't like [her]_{130-jane wilson} looks to - night . " [ Footnote 25 : "_[0-i] Cotched , " caught . ] And so [he]_148-george went to bed , the fear of forthcoming sorrow to [[his]_148-george friend]_{553-his friend} mingling with [his]_148-george thoughts of to - morrow , and [his]_148-george hopes for the future . [Mary]_145-mary watched [him]_148-george set off , with [her]_145-mary hands over [her]_145-mary eyes to shade them from the bright slanting rays of the morning sun , and then [she]_145-mary turned into [the house]_{803-the house} to arrange [its]_{803-the house} disorder before going to [her]_145-mary work . [She]_145-mary wondered if [she]_145-mary should like or dislike the evening and morning solitude ; for several hours when the clock struck [she]_145-mary thought of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , and wondered where [he]_148-george was ; [she]_145-mary made good resolutions according to [her]_145-mary lights ; and by - and - bye came the distractions and events of the broad full day to occupy [her]_145-mary with the present , and to deaden the memory of [the absent]_{5488-the absent} . One of [Mary]_145-mary 's resolutions was , that [she]_145-mary would not be persuaded or induced to see [Mr. Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} during [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's absence . There was something crooked in [her]_145-mary conscience after all ; for this very resolution seemed an acknowledgment that it was wrong to meet [him]_148-george at any time ; and yet [she]_145-mary had brought [herself]_145-mary to think [her]_145-mary conduct quite innocent and proper , for although unknown to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , and certain , even did [he]_148-george know it , to fail of obtaining [his]_148-george sanction , [she]_145-mary esteemed [her]_145-mary love - meetings with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} as sure to end in [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's good and happiness . But now that [he]_148-george was away , [she]_145-mary would do nothing that [he]_148-george would disapprove of ; no , not even though it was for [his]_148-george own good in the end . Now , amongst [[Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' young ladies]_{5386-miss simmonds ' young ladies} was one who had been from the beginning a confidant in [Mary]_145-mary 's love affair , made so by [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} [himself]_{209-mr. carson} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} had felt the necessity of [some third person]_{5493-some third person} to carry letters and messages , and to plead [his]_{209-mr. carson} cause when [he]_{209-mr. carson} was absent . In [a girl named [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally]_{5494-a girl named sally leadbitter} [he]_148-george had found [a willing advocate]_{5495-a willing advocate} . [She]_162-sally would have been willing to have embarked in a love - affair [herself]_162-sally ( especially a clandestine one ) , for the mere excitement of the thing ; but [her]_162-sally willingness was strengthened by sundry half - sovereigns , which from time to time [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} bestowed upon [her]_162-sally . [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally was vulgar - minded to the last degree ; never easy unless [her]_162-sally talk was of love and [lovers]_5496-lovers ; in [her]_162-sally eyes it was an honour to have had a long list of [wooers]_5497-wooers . So constituted , it was a pity that [Sally]_162-sally [herself]_162-sally was but [a plain , red - haired , freckled girl]_{5498-a plain , red - haired , freckled girl} ; never likely , [one]_518-one would have thought , to become [a heroine]_{5500-a heroine} on [her]_162-sally own account . But what [she]_162-sally lacked in beauty [she]_162-sally tried to make up for by a kind of witty boldness , which gave [her]_162-sally what [her]_162-sally betters would have called piquancy . Considerations of modesty or propriety never checked [her]_162-sally utterance of a good thing . [She]_162-sally had just talent enough to corrupt [others]_737-others . [Her]_162-sally very good - nature was an evil influence . [They]_737-others could not hate one who was so kind ; [they]_737-others could not avoid [one who was so willing to shield [them]_737-others from scrapes by any exertion of [her]_162-sally own]_{5502-one who was so willing to shield them from scrapes by any exertion of her own} ; whose ready fingers would at any time make up for [their]_737-others deficiencies , and whose still more convenient tongue would at any time invent for [them]_737-others . [The Jews]_{240-the jews} , or [Mohammedans]_{5503-mohammedans} ( [I]_0-i forget which ) , believe that there is one little bone of [our]_5504-our body , one of the vertebræ , if [I]_0-i remember rightly , which will never decay and turn to dust , but will lie incorrupt and indestructible in the ground until the Last Day : this is the Seed of [the Soul]_{241-the soul} . [The most depraved]_{5505-the most depraved} have also [their]_{5505-the most depraved} Seed of the Holiness that shall one day overcome [their]_{5505-the most depraved} evil , [their]_{5505-the most depraved} one good quality , lurking hidden , but safe , among [all the corrupt and bad]_{5506-all the corrupt and bad} . [Sally]_162-sally 's seed of the future soul was [her]_162-sally love for [[her]_162-sally mother]_{4774-her mother} , [an aged bedridden woman]_{5508-an aged bedridden woman} . For [her]_162-sally [she]_162-sally had self - denial ; for [her]_162-sally , [her]_162-sally good - nature rose into tenderness ; to cheer [her]_162-sally lonely bed , [her]_162-sally spirits , in the evenings when [her]_162-sally body was often woefully tired , never flagged , but were ready to recount the events of the day , to turn them into ridicule , and to mimic , with admirable fidelity , [any person gifted with an absurdity who had fallen under]_{5509-any person gifted with an absurdity who had fallen under} [her]_162-sally keen eye . But [the mother]_{5048-the mother} was lightly principled like [Sally]_162-sally [herself]_162-sally ; nor was there need to conceal from [her]_162-sally the reason why [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} gave [her]_162-sally so much money . [She]_162-sally chuckled with pleasure , and only hoped that the wooing would be long a - doing . Still neither [she]_162-sally , nor [[her]_162-sally daughter]_{698-her daughter} , nor [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} liked this resolution of [Mary]_145-mary , not to see [him]_{209-mr. carson} during [[her]_162-sally father]_{564-her father} 's absence . One evening ( and the early summer evenings were long and bright now ) , [Sally]_162-sally met [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} by appointment , to be charged with a letter for [Mary]_145-mary , imploring [her]_145-mary to see [him]_{209-mr. carson} , which [Sally]_162-sally was to back with all [her]_162-sally powers of persuasion . After parting from [him]_{209-mr. carson} [she]_162-sally determined , as it was not so very late , to go at once to [Mary]_145-mary 's , and deliver the message and letter . [She]_162-sally found [Mary]_145-mary in great sorrow . [She]_162-sally had just heard of [George Wilson]_148-george 's sudden death : [[her]_162-sally old friend]_{5513-her old friend} , [[[her]_162-sally father]_{564-her father} 's friend]_{5515-her father 's friend} , [[Jem]_154-jem 's father]_{5516-jem 's father} -- all [his]_{209-mr. carson} claims came rushing upon [her]_162-sally . Though not guarded from unnecessary sight or sound of death , as [the children of the rich]_{5517-the children of the rich} are , yet it had so often been brought [home]_4755-home to [her]_162-sally this last three or four months . It was so terrible thus to see [friend]_5519-friend after [friend]_5519-friend depart . [[Her]_162-sally father]_{564-her father} , too , who had dreaded [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's death the evening before [he]_{564-her father} set off . And [she]_162-sally , [the weakly]_{5522-the weakly} , was left behind while [the strong man]_{5523-the strong man} was taken . At any rate the sorrow [[her]_162-sally father]_{564-her father} had so feared for [him]_{564-her father} was spared . Such were the thoughts which came over [her]_162-sally . [She]_162-sally could not go to comfort [the bereaved]_{5525-the bereaved} , even if comfort were in [her]_162-sally power to give ; for [she]_162-sally had resolved to avoid [Jem]_154-jem ; and [she]_162-sally felt that this of all others was not the occasion on which [she]_162-sally could keep up a studiously cold manner . And in this shock of grief , [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally was [the last person [she]_162-sally wished to see]_{5526-the last person she wished to see} . However , [she]_162-sally rose to welcome [her]_162-sally , betraying [her]_162-sally tear - swollen face . "_[0-i] Well , [I]_0-i shall tell [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} to - morrow how [you]_0-i 're fretting for [him]_{209-mr. carson} ; it 's no more nor [he]_{209-mr. carson} 's doing for [you]_0-i , [I]_0-i can tell [you]_0-i . " "_{[209-mr. carson]} For [him]_{209-mr. carson} , indeed ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , with a toss of [her]_145-mary pretty head . "_{[209-mr. carson]} Ay , [miss]_1623-miss , for [him]_{209-mr. carson} ! [You]_0-i 've been sighing as if [your]_0-i heart would break now for several days , over [your]_0-i work ; now arn't [you]_0-i a little goose not to go and see one who [I]_0-i am sure loves [you]_0-i as [his]_{209-mr. carson} life , and whom [you]_0-i love ; ' How much , [Mary]_145-mary ? ' ' This much , ' as [the children]_{633-the children} say " ( opening [her]_145-mary arms very wide ) . "_{[633-the children]} Nonsense , " said [Mary]_145-mary , pouting ; "_{[633-the children]} [I]_0-i often think [I]_0-i do n't love [him]_{209-mr. carson} at all . " "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i 'm to tell [him]_{209-mr. carson} that , am [I]_0-i , next time [I]_0-i see [him]_{209-mr. carson} ? " asked [Sally]_162-sally . "_[0-i] If [you]_0-i like , " replied [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm sure [I]_0-i do n't care for that or any thing else now ; " weeping afresh . But [Sally]_162-sally did not like to be [the bearer of any such news]_{5527-the bearer of any such news} . [She]_162-sally saw [she]_162-sally had gone on the wrong tack , and that [Mary]_145-mary 's heart was too full to value either message or letter as [she]_162-sally ought . So [she]_162-sally wisely paused in [their]_5528-their delivery , and said in a more sympathetic tone than [she]_162-sally had heretofore used , "_[0-i] Do tell [me]_0-i , [Mary]_145-mary , what 's fretting [you]_145-mary so ? [You]_145-mary know [I]_0-i never could abide to see [you]_145-mary cry . " "_[145-mary] [George Wilson]_148-george 's dropped down dead this afternoon , " said [Mary]_145-mary , fixing [her]_145-mary eyes for one minute on [Sally]_162-sally , and the next hiding [her]_145-mary face in [her]_145-mary apron as [she]_145-mary sobbed anew . "_[148-george] [Dear]_5078-dear , [dear]_5078-dear ! All flesh is grass ; here to - day and gone to - morrow , as the Bible says . Still [he]_148-george was [an old man]_{1627-an old man} , and not good for much ; there 's [better folk]_{1628-better folk} than [him]_148-george left behind . Is [th ' canting old maid]_{1629-th ' canting old maid} as was [[his]_148-george sister]_{1630-his sister} alive yet ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know who [you]_145-mary mean , " said [Mary]_145-mary , sharply ; for [she]_145-mary did know , and did not like to have [her]_145-mary dear , simple [Alice]_146-alice so spoken of . "_[0-i] Come , [Mary]_145-mary , do n't be so innocent . Is [Miss Alice Wilson]_146-alice alive , then ; will that please [you]_145-mary ? [I]_0-i have n't seen [her]_146-alice hereabouts lately . " "_[146-alice] No , [she]_146-alice 's left living [here]_5235-here . When [the twins]_{545-the twins} died [she]_146-alice thought [she]_146-alice could , may be , be of use to [[her]_146-alice sister]_{1633-her sister} , who was sadly cast down , and [Alice]_146-alice thought [she]_146-alice could cheer [her]_146-alice up ; at any rate [she]_146-alice could listen to [her]_146-alice when [her]_146-alice heart grew overburdened ; so [she]_146-alice gave up [[her]_146-alice cellar]_{1634-her cellar} and went to live with [them]_{545-the twins} . " "_[146-alice] Well , good go with [her]_146-alice . [I]_0-i 'd no fancy for [her]_146-alice , and [I]_0-i 'd no fancy for [her]_146-alice making [my]_0-i pretty [Mary]_145-mary into [a Methodee]_{5178-a methodee} . " "_[146-alice] [She]_146-alice was n't [a Methodee]_{5178-a methodee} , [she]_146-alice was [Church o ' [England]_46-england]_{1637-church o ' england} . " "_[146-alice] Well , well , [Mary]_145-mary , [you]_145-mary 're very particular . [You]_145-mary know what [I]_0-i meant . Look , who is this letter from ? " holding up [Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's letter . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know , and do n't care , " said [Mary]_145-mary , turning very red . "_[0-i] [My]_0-i eye ! as if [I]_0-i did n't know [you]_145-mary did know and did care . " "_[0-i] Well , give it [me]_0-i , " said [Mary]_145-mary , impatiently , and anxious in [her]_145-mary present mood for [[her]_145-mary visitor]_{5529-her visitor} 's departure . [Sally]_162-sally relinquished it unwillingly . [She]_162-sally had , however , the pleasure of seeing [Mary]_145-mary dimple and blush as [she]_162-sally read the letter , which seemed to say [the writer]_{5530-the writer} was not indifferent to [her]_162-sally . "_[0-i] [You]_145-mary must tell [him]_1638-him [I]_0-i ca n't come , " said [Mary]_145-mary , raising [her]_145-mary eyes at last . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have said [I]_0-i wo n't meet [him]_1638-him while [father]_4863-father is away , and [I]_0-i wo n't . " "_[0-i] But , [Mary]_145-mary , [he]_1638-him does so look for [you]_145-mary . [You]_145-mary 'd be quite sorry for [him]_1638-him , [he]_1638-him 's so put out about not seeing [you]_145-mary . Besides [you]_145-mary go when [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} 's at [home]_4755-home , without letting on [ 26 ] to [him]_1638-him , and what harm would there be in going now ? " [ Footnote 26 : "_[162-sally] Letting on , " informing . In [Anglo - Saxon]_{47-anglo - saxon} , one meaning of "_[162-sally] lætan " was "_[162-sally] to admit ; " and [we]_5531-we say , to _ let _ out a secret . ] "_[162-sally] Well , [Sally]_162-sally ! [you]_162-sally know [my]_0-i answer , [I]_0-i wo n't ; and [I]_0-i wo n't . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll tell [him]_1638-him to come and see [you]_162-sally [himself]_1638-him some evening , instead o ' sending [me]_0-i ; [he]_1638-him 'd may be find [you]_162-sally not so hard to deal with . " [Mary]_145-mary flashed up . "_[1638-him] If [he]_1638-him dares to come here while [father]_4863-father 's away , [I]_0-i 'll call [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} in to turn [him]_1638-him out , so do n't be putting [him]_1638-him up to that . " "_{[1055-a lover]} Mercy on [us]_1644-us ! one would think [you]_162-sally were [the first girl that ever had [a lover]_{1055-a lover}]_{1645-the first girl that ever had a lover} ; have [you]_162-sally never heard what [other girls]_{1647-other girls} do and think no shame of ? " "_{[1055-a lover]} Hush , [Sally]_162-sally ! that 's [Margaret Jennings]_157-margaret at the door . " And in an instant [Margaret]_157-margaret was in [the room]_{616-the room} . [Mary]_145-mary had begged [Job Legh]_156-job to let [her]_157-margaret come and sleep with [her]_157-margaret . In the uncertain fire - light [you]_162-sally could not help noticing that [she]_157-margaret had the groping walk of [a blind person]_{5533-a blind person} . "_{[157-margaret]} Well , [I]_0-i must go , [Mary]_145-mary , " said [Sally]_162-sally . "_[145-mary] And that 's [your]_0-i last word ? " "_[0-i] Yes , yes ; good - night . " [She]_145-mary shut the door gladly on [[her]_145-mary unwelcome visitor]_{5534-her unwelcome visitor} -- unwelcome at that time at least . "_[0-i] Oh [Margaret]_157-margaret , have [ye]_157-margaret heard this sad news about [George Wilson]_148-george ? " "_[0-i] Yes , that [I]_0-i have . [Poor creatures]_{1648-poor creatures} , [they]_{1648-poor creatures} 've been sore tried lately . Not that [I]_0-i think sudden death so bad a thing ; it 's easy , and there 's no terrors for [him]_148-george as dies . For [them]_{1648-poor creatures} as survives it 's very hard . [Poor George]_{242-poor george} ! [he]_{242-poor george} were such [a hearty looking man]_{1649-a hearty looking man} . " "_{[242-poor george]} [Margaret]_157-margaret , " said [Mary]_145-mary , who had been closely observing [[her]_145-mary friend]_{586-her friend} , "_{[157-margaret]} [thou'rt]_1650-thou'rt very blind to - night , arn't [thou]_1650-thou'rt ? Is it wi ' crying ? [Your]_157-margaret eyes are so swollen and red . " "_{[157-margaret]} Yes , [dear]_5078-dear ! but not crying for sorrow . Han [ye]_157-margaret heard where [I]_0-i was last night ? " "_{[157-margaret]} No ; where ? " "_{[157-margaret]} Look here . " [She]_145-mary held up a bright golden sovereign . [Mary]_145-mary opened [her]_145-mary large gray eyes with astonishment . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_5078-dear all how and about it . [You]_5078-dear see there 's [a gentleman lecturing on music at th ' Mechanics]_{1652-a gentleman lecturing on music at th ' mechanics} ' , and [he]_{1652-a gentleman lecturing on music at th ' mechanics} wants [folk]_5093-folk to sing [his]_{1652-a gentleman lecturing on music at th ' mechanics} songs . Well , last night [th ' counter]_{1654-th ' counter} got a sore throat and could n't make a note . So [they]_1655-they sent for [me]_0-i . [Jacob Butterworth]_{186-jacob butterworth} had said a good word for [me]_0-i , and [they]_1655-they asked [me]_0-i would [I]_0-i sing ? [You]_5078-dear may think [I]_0-i was frightened , but [I]_0-i thought now or never , and said [I]_0-i 'd do [my]_0-i best . So [I]_0-i tried o'er the songs wi ' [th ' lecturer]_{1656-th ' lecturer} , and then [th ' managers]_{1657-th ' managers} told [me]_0-i [I]_0-i were to make [myself]_0-i decent and be [there]_873-there by seven . " "_{[1657-th ' managers]} And what did [you]_0-i put on ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] Oh , why did n't [you]_0-i come in for [my]_0-i pretty pink gingham ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did think on't ; but [you]_0-i had na come [home]_4755-home then . No ! [I]_0-i put on [my]_0-i merino , as was turned last winter , and [my]_0-i white shawl , and did [my]_0-i hair pretty tidy ; it did well enough . Well , but as [I]_0-i was saying , [I]_0-i went at seven . [I]_0-i could n't see to read [my]_0-i music , but [I]_0-i took [th]_1660-th ' paper in wi ' [me]_0-i , to ha ' somewhat to do wi ' [my]_0-i fingers . [Th ' folks]_{1661-th ' folks} ' heads danced , as [I]_0-i stood as right afore 'em all as if [I]_0-i 'd been going to play at ball wi ' 'em . [You]_1662-you may guess [I]_0-i felt squeamish , but mine were n't the first song , and [th]_1660-th ' music sounded like [a friend]_{5409-a friend} 's voice , telling [me]_0-i to take courage . So to make a long story short , when it were all o'er [th ' lecturer]_{1656-th ' lecturer} thanked [me]_0-i , and [th ' managers]_{1657-th ' managers} said as how there never was [a new singer]_{1666-a new singer} so applauded ( for [they]_{1657-th ' managers} 'd clapped and stamped after [I]_0-i 'd done , till [I]_0-i began to wonder how many pair o ' shoes [they]_{1657-th ' managers} 'd get through a week at that rate , let alone [their]_{1657-th ' managers} hands ) . So [I]_0-i 'm to sing again o ' Thursday ; and [I]_0-i got [a sovereign]_{1667-a sovereign} last night , and am to have half - a - sovereign every night [th ' lecturer]_{1656-th ' lecturer} is at [th ' Mechanics ']_{1669-th ' mechanics '} . " "_{[1667-a sovereign]} Well , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [I]_0-i 'm right glad to hear it . " "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i do n't think [you]_157-margaret 've heard the best bit yet . Now that a way seemed opened to [me]_0-i , of not being a burden to [any one]_{504-any one} , though it did please [God]_224-god to make [me]_0-i blind , [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd tell [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} . [I]_0-i only telled [him]_{4996-grandfather} about the singing and [the sovereign]_{1672-the sovereign} last night , for [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd not send [him]_{4996-grandfather} to bed wi ' a heavy heart ; but this morning [I]_0-i telled [him]_{4996-grandfather} all . " "_[0-i] And how did [he]_{4996-grandfather} take it ? " "_{[4996-grandfather]} [He]_{4996-grandfather} 's not [a man of many words]_{1673-a man of many words} ; and it took [him]_{4996-grandfather} by surprise like . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wonder at that ; [I]_0-i 've noticed it in [your]_1674-you ways ever since [you]_1674-you telled [me]_0-i . " "_[1674-you] Ay , that 's it ! If [I]_0-i 'd not telled [you]_1674-you , and [you]_1674-you 'd seen [me]_0-i every day , [you]_1674-you 'd not ha ' noticed the little mite o ' difference fra ' day to day . " "_{[5001-your grandfather]} Well , but what did [[your]_1674-you grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} say ? " "_{[5001-your grandfather]} Why , [Mary]_145-mary , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , half smiling , "_[145-mary] [I]_0-i 'm a bit loath to tell [yo]_145-mary , for unless [yo]_145-mary knew [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} 's ways like [me]_0-i , [yo'd]_145-mary think it strange . [He]_{4996-grandfather} were taken by surprise , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} said : ' Damn [yo]_145-mary ! ' Then [he]_{4996-grandfather} began looking at [his]_{4996-grandfather} book as it were , and were very quiet , while [I]_0-i telled [him]_{4996-grandfather} all about it ; how [I]_0-i 'd feared , and how downcast [I]_0-i 'd been ; and how [I]_0-i were now reconciled to it , if it were [th]_1677-th ' [Lord]_1678-lord 's will ; and how [I]_0-i hoped to earn money by singing ; and while [I]_0-i were talking , [I]_0-i saw great big tears come dropping on [th]_1677-th ' book ; but in course [I]_0-i never let on that [I]_0-i saw ['em]_1679-'em . [Dear grandfather]_{5042-dear grandfather} ! and all day long [he]_{4996-grandfather} 's been quietly moving things out o ' [my]_0-i way , as [he]_{4996-grandfather} thought might trip [me]_0-i up , and putting things in [my]_0-i way , as [he]_{4996-grandfather} thought [I]_0-i might want ; never knowing [I]_0-i saw and felt what [he]_{4996-grandfather} were doing ; for , [yo]_1681-yo see , [he]_{4996-grandfather} thinks [I]_0-i 'm out and out blind , [I]_0-i guess -- as [I]_0-i shall be soon . " [Margaret]_157-margaret sighed , in spite of [her]_157-margaret cheerful and relieved tone . Though [Mary]_145-mary caught the sigh , [she]_145-mary felt it was better to let it pass without notice , and began , with the tact which true sympathy rarely fails to supply , to ask a variety of questions respecting [[her]_145-mary friend]_{586-her friend} 's musical debut , which tended to bring out more distinctly how successful it had been . "_{[4996-grandfather]} Why , [Margaret]_157-margaret , " at length [she]_157-margaret exclaimed , "_{[157-margaret]} [thou'lt]_1682-thou'lt become as famous , may be , as [that grand lady fra ' [London]_28-london]_{1683-that grand lady fra ' london} , as [we]_1684-we seed one night driving up to [th ' concert room]_{1685-th ' concert room} door in [[her]_{1683-that grand lady fra ' london} carriage]_{810-her carriage} . " "_{[1683-that grand lady fra ' london]} It looks very like it , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , with a smile . "_{[1683-that grand lady fra ' london]} And be sure , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_0-i 'll not forget to give [thee]_145-mary a lift now an ' then when that comes about . Nay , who knows , if [thou'rt]_1687-thou'rt [a good girl]_{4864-a good girl} , but mayhappen [I]_0-i may make [thee]_145-mary [[[my]_0-i lady]_{1689-my lady} 's maid]_{1690-my lady 's maid} ! Would n't that be nice ? So [I]_0-i 'll [e'en]_1691-e'en sing to [mysel]_0-i ' th ' beginning o ' one o ' [my]_0-i songs , ' An ' [ye]_145-mary shall walk in silk attire , An ' siller hae to spare . ' " "_[1691-e'en] Nay , do n't stop ; or else give [me]_0-i something a bit more new , for somehow [I]_0-i never quite liked that part about thinking o ' [Donald]_195-don mair . " "_[195-don] Well , though [I]_0-i 'm a bit tir'd , [I]_0-i do n't care if [I]_0-i do . Before [I]_0-i come , [I]_0-i were practising well nigh upon two hours this one which [I]_0-i 'm to sing o ' Thursday . [Th ' lecturer]_{1656-th ' lecturer} said [he]_{1656-th ' lecturer} were sure it would just suit [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i should do justice to it ; and [I]_0-i should be right sorry to disappoint [him]_{1656-th ' lecturer} , [he]_{1656-th ' lecturer} were so nice and encouraging like to [me]_0-i . Eh ! [Mary]_145-mary , what a pity there is n't more o ' that way , and less scolding and rating [i]_0-i ' [th ' world]_{1596-th ' world} ! It would go a vast deal further . Beside , [some o ' th ' singers]_{1694-some o ' th ' singers} said [they]_{1694-some o ' th ' singers} were a'most certain it were a song o ' [his]_{1656-th ' lecturer} own , because [he]_{1656-th ' lecturer} were so fidgetty and particular about it , and so anxious [I]_0-i should give [it]_1695-it th ' proper expression . And that makes [me]_0-i care still more . [Th]_1696-th ' first verse , [he]_{1656-th ' lecturer} said , were to be sung ' tenderly , but joyously ! ' [I]_0-i 'm afraid [I]_0-i do n't quite hit that , but [I]_0-i 'll try . ' What a single word can do ! Thrilling all the heart - strings through , Calling forth fond memories , Raining round hope 's melodies , Steeping all in one bright hue-- What a single word can do ! ' Now it falls into th ' minor key , and must be very sad like . [I]_0-i feel as if [I]_0-i could do that better than t'other . ' What a single word can do ! Making life seem all untrue , Driving joy and hope away , Leaving not one cheering ray Blighting every flower that grew-- What a single word can do ! ' " [Margaret]_157-margaret certainly made the most of this little song . As [a factory worker , listening outside]_{5537-a factory worker , listening outside} , observed , "_[1697-she] [She]_1697-she spun it reet [ 27 ] fine ! " And if [she]_1697-she only sang it at [the Mechanics]_{48-the mechanics} ' with half the feeling [she]_1697-she put into it that night , [the lecturer]_{5538-the lecturer} must have been hard to please , if [he]_{5538-the lecturer} did not admit that [his]_{5538-the lecturer} expectations were more than fulfilled . [ Footnote 27 : "_[1697-she] Reet , " right ; often used for "_[1697-she] very . " ] When it was ended , [Mary]_145-mary 's looks told more than words could have done what [she]_145-mary thought of it ; and partly to keep in a tear which would fain have rolled out , [she]_145-mary brightened into a laugh , and said , "_[1697-she] For certain , [th ' carriage]_{1698-th ' carriage} is coming . So let [us]_1699-us go and dream on it . " CHAPTER IX . [BARTON]_145-mary 'S [LONDON]_28-london EXPERIENCES . "_[1697-she] A life of self - indulgence is for [us]_1699-us , A life of self - denial is for [them]_1700-them ; For [us]_1699-us [the streets]_{772-the streets} , broad - built and [populous]_{1702-populous} , For [them]_{772-the streets} unhealthy corners , [garrets]_1703-garrets dim , And [cellars]_770-cellars where the water - rat may swim ! For [us]_1699-us green paths refreshed by frequent rain , For [them]_{772-the streets} dark [alleys where the dust lies grim]_{1705-alleys where the dust lies grim} ! Not doomed by [us]_1699-us to this appointed pain-- [God]_224-god made [us]_1699-us rich and poor -- of what do these complain ? " [MRS . NORTON]_{243-mrs . norton} 'S "_{[1706-child of the islands]} [CHILD OF [THE ISLANDS]_{49-the islands}]_{1706-child of the islands} . " The next evening it was a warm , pattering , incessant rain , just the rain to waken up the flowers . But in [Manchester]_1-manchester , where , alas ! there are no flowers , the rain had only a disheartening and gloomy effect ; [the streets]_{772-the streets} were wet and dirty , the drippings from [the houses]_{5540-the houses} were wet and dirty , and [the people]_{1184-the people} were wet and dirty . Indeed , most kept within - doors ; and there was an unusual silence of footsteps in [the little paved courts]_{5542-the little paved courts} . [Mary]_145-mary had to change [her]_145-mary clothes after [her]_145-mary walk [home]_4755-home ; and had hardly settled [herself]_145-mary before [she]_145-mary heard [some one]_{5544-some one} fumbling at the door . The noise continued long enough to allow [her]_145-mary to get up , and go and open it . There stood -- could it be ? yes it was , [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ! Drenched and way - worn , there [he]_{564-her father} stood ! [He]_{564-her father} came in with no word to [Mary]_145-mary in return for [her]_145-mary cheery and astonished greeting . [He]_{564-her father} sat down by the fire in [his]_{564-her father} wet things , unheeding . But [Mary]_145-mary would not let [him]_{564-her father} so rest . [She]_145-mary ran up and brought down [his]_{564-her father} working - day clothes , and went into [the pantry]_{5546-the pantry} to rummage up [their]_5547-their little bit of provision while [he]_{564-her father} changed by the fire , talking all the while as gaily as [she]_145-mary could , though [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's depression hung like lead on [her]_145-mary heart . For [Mary]_145-mary , in [her]_145-mary seclusion at [Miss Simmonds',--where]_{244-miss simmonds',--where} the chief talk was of fashions , and dress , and parties to be given , for which such and such gowns would be wanted , varied with a slight whispered interlude occasionally about love and [lovers,--had]_{5549-lovers,--had} not heard the political news of the day : that [Parliament]_{234-parliament} had refused to listen to [the working - men]_{5550-the working - men} , when [they]_{5550-the working - men} petitioned with all the force of [their]_{5550-the working - men} rough , untutored words to be heard concerning the distress which was riding , like the Conqueror on [his]_{564-her father} Pale Horse , among [the people]_{1184-the people} ; which was crushing [their]_{1184-the people} lives out of [them]_{1184-the people} , and stamping woe - marks over [the land]_{5552-the land} . When [he]_{564-her father} had eaten and was refreshed , [they]_5547-their sat in silence for some time ; for [Mary]_145-mary wished [him]_{564-her father} to tell [her]_145-mary what oppressed [him]_{564-her father} so , yet durst not ask . In this [she]_145-mary was wise ; for when [we]_5553-our are heavy laden in [our]_5553-our hearts , it falls in better with [our]_5553-our humour to reveal [our]_5553-our case in [our]_5553-our own way , and [our]_5553-our own time . [Mary]_145-mary sat on a stool at [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's feet in old childish guise , and stole [her]_145-mary hand into [his]_{564-her father} , while [his]_{564-her father} sadness infected [her]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary "_{[1706-child of the islands]} caught the trick of grief , and sighed , " [she]_145-mary knew not why . "_{[1706-child of the islands]} [Mary]_145-mary , [we]_1707-we mun speak to [[our]_1707-we God]_{1708-our god} to hear [us]_1707-we , for [man]_5236-man will not hearken ; no , not now , when [we]_1707-we weep tears o ' blood . " In an instant [Mary]_145-mary understood the fact , if not the details , that so weighed down [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's heart . [She]_145-mary pressed [his]_{564-her father} hand with silent sympathy . [She]_145-mary did not know what to say , and was so afraid of speaking wrongly , that [she]_145-mary was silent . But when [his]_{564-her father} attitude had remained unchanged for more than half - an - hour , [his]_{564-her father} eyes gazing vacantly and fixedly at the fire , no sound but now and then a deep drawn sigh to break the weary ticking of the clock , and the drip - drop from the roof without , [Mary]_145-mary could bear it no longer . Any thing to rouse [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . Even bad news . "_[245-father] [Father]_245-father , do [you]_245-father know [George Wilson]_148-george 's dead ? " ( [Her]_145-mary hand was suddenly and almost violently compressed . ) "_[148-george] [He]_148-george dropped down dead in [Oxford Road]_{27-oxford road} yester morning . It 's very sad , is n't it , [father]_4863-father ? " [Her]_145-mary tears were ready to flow as [she]_145-mary looked up in [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's face for sympathy . Still the same fixed look of despair , not varied by grief for the dead . "_{[4863-father]} Best for [him]_148-george to die , " [he]_{564-her father} said , in a low voice . This was unbearable . [Mary]_145-mary got up under pretence of going to tell [Margaret]_157-margaret that [she]_145-mary need not come to sleep with [her]_145-mary to - night , but really to ask [Job Legh]_156-job to come and cheer [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . [She]_145-mary stopped outside [their]_5559-their door . [Margaret]_157-margaret was practising [her]_157-margaret singing , and through the still night air [her]_157-margaret voice rang out like that of [an angel]_{5560-an angel} . "_{[4863-father]} Comfort [ye]_1711-ye , comfort [ye]_1711-ye , [[my]_0-i people]_{1712-my people} , saith [[your]_1711-ye God]_{1713-your god} . " The old Hebrew prophetic words fell like dew on [Mary]_145-mary 's heart . [She]_145-mary could not interrupt . [She]_145-mary stood listening and "_{[1713-your god]} comforted , " till the little buzz of conversation again began , and then entered and told [her]_145-mary errand . [Both grandfather]_{5561-both grandfather} and [grand - daughter]_{5562-grand - daughter} rose instantly to fulfil [her]_145-mary request . "_{[1713-your god]} [He]_1714-he 's just tired out , [Mary]_145-mary , " said [old Job]_156-job . "_[145-mary] [He]_1714-he 'll be [a different man]_{1715-a different man} to - morrow . " There is no describing the looks and tones that have power over an aching , heavy laden heart ; but in an hour or so [John Barton]_{131-john barton} was talking away as freely as ever , though all [his]_{131-john barton} talk ran , as was natural , on the disappointment of [his]_{131-john barton} fond hope , of the forlorn hope of [many]_1183-many . "_[1714-he] Ay , [London]_28-london 's [a fine place]_{1716-a fine place} , " said [he]_{131-john barton} , "_[1714-he] and [finer folk]_{1717-finer folk} live in [it]_28-london than [I]_0-i ever thought on , or ever heerd tell on except in th ' story - books . [They]_{1717-finer folk} are having [their]_{1717-finer folk} good things now , that afterwards [they]_{1717-finer folk} may be tormented . " Still at [the old parable of [Dives]_139-dives and [Lazarus]_140-lazarus]_{5564-the old parable of dives and lazarus} ! Does it haunt the minds of [the rich]_{431-the rich} as it does those of [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ? "_{[5226-dear father]} Do tell [us]_1718-us all about [London]_28-london , [dear father]_{5226-dear father} , " asked [Mary]_145-mary , who was sitting at [her]_145-mary old post by [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's knee . "_{[5226-dear father]} How can [I]_0-i tell [yo]_{5226-dear father} a ' about it , when [I]_0-i never seed one - tenth of it . It 's as big as [six Manchesters]_{246-six manchesters} , [they]_{1717-finer folk} telled [me]_0-i . One - sixth may be made up [o ' grand palaces]_{1720-o ' grand palaces} , and three - sixths o ' middling kind , and [th ' rest o ' holes o ' iniquity and filth]_{1721-th ' rest o ' holes o ' iniquity and filth} , such as [Manchester]_1-manchester knows nought on , [I]_0-i 'm glad to say . " "_[0-i] Well , [father]_4863-father , but did [you]_4863-father see [th ' Queen]_{1723-th ' queen} ? " "_{[1723-th ' queen]} [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i did n't , though one day [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd seen [her]_{1723-th ' queen} many a time . [You]_1724-you see , " said [he]_0-i , turning to [Job Legh]_156-job , "_[1724-you] there were a day appointed for [us]_1725-we to go to [Parliament House]_{52-parliament house} . [We]_1725-we were most on [us]_1725-we biding at [a public - house in [Holborn]_53-holborn]_{1726-a public - house in holborn} , where [they]_1727-they did very well for [us]_1725-we . Th ' morning of taking [our]_1725-we petition [we]_1725-we 'd such a spread for breakfast as [th ' Queen hersel]_{1728-th ' queen hersel} might ha ' sitten down to . [I]_0-i suppose [they]_1727-they thought [we]_1725-we wanted putting in heart . There were mutton kidneys , and sausages , and broiled ham , and fried beef and onions ; more like a dinner nor a breakfast . Many on [[our]_1725-we chaps]_{1729-our chaps} though , [I]_0-i could see , could eat but little . [Th]_1730-th ' food stuck in [their]_1730-th throats when [they]_1730-th thought o ' [them]_1730-th at [home]_4755-home , [wives]_1235-wives and [little ones]_{1584-little ones} , as had , may be at that very time , nought to eat . Well , after breakfast , [we]_1725-we were all set to walk in procession , and a time it took to put [us]_1725-we in order , two and two , and the petition as was yards long , carried by [th ' foremost pairs]_{1734-th ' foremost pairs} . [The men]_{1152-the men} looked grave enough , [yo]_1736-yo may be sure ; and such a set of [thin , wan , wretched - looking chaps]_{1737-thin , wan , wretched - looking chaps} as [they]_{1152-the men} were ! " "_{[1738-yourself]} [Yourself]_{1738-yourself} is none to boast on . " "_{[1738-yourself]} Ay , but [I]_0-i were fat and rosy to many a one . Well , [we]_1725-we walked on and on through many [a street]_{1347-a street} , much the same as [Deansgate]_54-deansgate . [We]_1725-we had to walk slowly , slowly , for [th ' carriages]_{1740-th ' carriages} an ' cabs as thronged [th ' streets]_{1575-th ' streets} . [I]_0-i thought by - and - bye [we]_1725-we should may be get clear on 'em , but as [th ' streets]_{1575-th ' streets} grew wider they grew worse , and at last [we]_1725-we were fairly blocked up at [Oxford Street]_{55-oxford street} . [We]_1725-we getten across at last though , and [my]_0-i eyes ! [the grand streets [we]_1725-we were in then]_{1743-the grand streets we were in then} ! [They]_{1152-the men} 're sadly puzzled how to build [houses]_1080-houses though in [London]_28-london ; there 'd be an opening for [a good steady master - builder]_{1745-a good steady master - builder} [there]_873-there , as know'd [his]_{1745-a good steady master - builder} business . For [yo]_1747-yo see [the houses]_{5540-the houses} are many on 'em built without any proper shape for a body to live in ; some on 'em [they]_{5540-the houses} 've after thought would fall down , so [they]_{5540-the houses} 've stuck great ugly pillars out before 'em . And [some on 'em]_{1749-some on 'em} ( [we]_1725-we thought [they]_{1749-some on 'em} must be [[th]_1750-th ' [tailor]_1752-tailor 's sign]_{1751-th ' tailor 's sign} ) had getten [stone men]_{1753-stone men} and [women]_4730-women as wanted clothes stuck on 'em . [I]_0-i were like [a child]_{4770-a child} , [I]_0-i forgot a ' [my]_0-i errand in looking about [me]_0-i . By this it were dinner - time , or better , as [we]_1725-we could tell by th ' sun , right above [our]_1725-we heads , and [we]_1725-we were dusty and tired , going a step now and a step then . Well , at last [we]_1725-we getten into [a street]_{1347-a street} grander nor all , leading to [[th ' Queen]_{1723-th ' queen} 's palace]_{1758-th ' queen 's palace} , and there [it]_1759-it were [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i saw [th ' Queen]_{1723-th ' queen} . [Yo've]_0-i seen [th]_1761-th ' hearses wi ' white plumes , [Job]_156-job ? " [Job]_156-job assented . "_[156-job] Well , [[them]_1762-them [undertaker folk]_{1764-undertaker folk}]_{1763-them undertaker folk} are driving a pretty trade in [London]_28-london . Wellnigh [every lady [we]_1725-we saw in [a carriage]_{1766-a carriage}]_{1765-every lady we saw in a carriage} had hired [one o ' them plumes]_{1767-one o ' them plumes} for the day , and had it niddle noddling on [her]_{1765-every lady we saw in a carriage} head . It were [th ' Queen 's Drawing - room]_{1768-th ' queen 's drawing - room} , [they]_1769-they said , and th ' carriages went bowling along toward [[her]_{1765-every lady we saw in a carriage} house]_{1770-her house} , some wi ' dressed up [gentlemen]_{1771-gentlemen} like [circus folk]_{1772-circus folk} in 'em , and rucks [ 28 ] o ' [ladies]_1773-ladies in others . [Carriages]_{771-carriages} [themselves]_{771-carriages} were great shakes too . [Some o ' th ' gentlemen as could n't get inside]_{1775-some o ' th ' gentlemen as could n't get inside} hung on behind , [wi ' nosegays to smell at]_{1776-wi ' nosegays to smell at} , and sticks to keep off [folk]_5093-folk as might splash [their]_5093-folk silk stockings . [I]_0-i wondered why [they]_1769-they did n't hire [a cab]_{1778-a cab} rather than hang on like [a whip - behind boy]_{1779-a whip - behind boy} ; but [I]_0-i suppose [they]_1769-they wished to keep [wi]_1780-wi ' [[their]_1769-they wives]_{1781-their wives} , [Darby]_248-darby and [Joan]_249-joan like . [Coachmen]_{5206-coachmen} were [little squat men]_{1783-little squat men} , [wi]_1784-wi ' wigs like [th ' oud fashioned parsons]_{1785-th ' oud fashioned parsons} . Well , [we]_1786-we could na get on for [these carriages]_{1787-these carriages} , though [we]_1786-we waited and waited . [Th]_1788-th ' horses were too fat to move quick ; [they'n]_1788-th never known want o ' food , [one]_518-one might tell by [their]_1769-they sleek coats ; and [police]_1790-police pushed [us]_1786-we back when [we]_1786-we tried to cross . [One or two on 'em]_{1791-one or two on 'em} struck [wi]_1792-wi ' [their]_1790-police sticks , and [coachmen]_{5206-coachmen} laughed , and [some officers as stood nigh]_{1794-some officers as stood nigh} put [their]_{1794-some officers as stood nigh} spy - glasses in [their]_{1794-some officers as stood nigh} eye , and left 'em sticking there like [mountebanks]_{1795-mountebanks} . [One o ' th ' police]_{1796-one o ' th ' police} struck [me]_0-i . ' Whatten business have [yo]_1797-yo to do that ? ' said [I.]_0-i [ Footnote 28 : " [Rucks]_250-rucks , "_[0-i] a great quantity . ] " ' [You]_0-i 're frightening [them]_1769-they horses , ' says [he]_1797-yo , in [his]_1797-yo mincing way ( for [Londoners]_{5568-londoners} are mostly all tongue - tied , and ca n't say [their]_{5568-londoners} a 's and [i]_0-i 's properly ) , ' and it 's [our]_1798-our business to keep [you]_0-i from molesting [the ladies and [gentlemen]_{1771-gentlemen} going to [[her]_5571-her Majesty 's Drawing - room]_{5572-her majesty 's drawing - room}]_{5569-the ladies and gentlemen going to her majesty 's drawing - room} . ' "_[0-i] ' And why are [we]_1798-our to be molested ? ' asked [I]_0-i , ' going decently about [our]_1798-our business , which is life and death to [us]_1798-our , and [many a little one]_{1799-many a little one} clemming at [home]_4755-home in [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire} ? Which business is of most consequence [i]_0-i ' the sight o ' [God]_224-god , think [yo]_0-i , [our'n]_1801-our'n or [them]_1802-them [gran ladies]_{1803-gran ladies} and [gentlemen]_{1771-gentlemen} as [yo]_0-i think so much on ? ' " But [I]_{131-john barton} might as well ha ' held [my]_{131-john barton} peace , for [he]_{131-john barton} only laughed . "_{[131-john barton]} [John]_{131-john barton} ceased . After waiting a little to see if [he]_{131-john barton} would go on of [himself]_{131-john barton} , [Job]_156-job said , " Well , but that 's not a ' [your]_{131-john barton} story , [man]_5236-man . Tell [us]_5574-us what happened when [yo]_{131-john barton} got to [th ' Parliament House]_{5575-th ' parliament house} . "_[156-job] After a little pause [John]_{131-john barton} answered , " If [yo]_{131-john barton} please , [neighbour]_{4798-neighbour} , [I]_{131-john barton} 'd rather say nought about that . It 's not to be forgotten or forgiven either by [me]_{131-john barton} or [many another]_{5577-many another} ; but [I]_{131-john barton} canna tell of [our]_5574-us down - casting just as a piece of [London]_28-london news . As long as [I]_{131-john barton} live , [our]_5574-us rejection that day will bide in [my]_{131-john barton} heart ; and as long as [I]_{131-john barton} live [I]_{131-john barton} shall curse [them]_1805-them as so cruelly refused to hear [us]_5574-us ; but [I]_{131-john barton} 'll not speak of it no [ 29 ] more . "_{[131-john barton]} [ Footnote 29 : A similar use of a double negative is not unfrequent in [Chaucer]_232-chaucer ; as in the " [Miller]_251-miller 's Tale "_{[131-john barton]} : " That of [no wife]_{5578-no wife} toke [he]_251-miller non offering For curtesie , [he]_251-miller sayd , [he]_251-miller n'old non . "_{[131-john barton]} ] So , daunted in [their]_1805-them inquiries , [they]_1805-them sat silent for a few minutes . [Old Job]_{252-old job} , however , felt that [some one]_{5544-some one} must speak , else all the good [they]_{5544-some one} had done in dispelling [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's gloom was lost . So after awhile [he]_{252-old job} thought of a subject , neither sufficiently dissonant from [the last to jar on the full heart]_{1807-the last to jar on the full heart} , nor too much the same to cherish the continuance of the gloomy train of thought . " Did [you]_145-mary ever hear tell , "_{[252-old job]} said [he]_{252-old job} to [Mary]_145-mary , " that [I]_{252-old job} were in [London]_28-london once ? "_{[252-old job]} " No ! "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , with surprise , and looking at [Job]_{252-old job} with increased respect . " Ay , but [I]_145-mary were though , and [Peg]_157-margaret there too , though [she]_157-margaret minds nought about it , [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} ! [You]_145-mary must know [I]_145-mary had but [one child]_{5580-one child} , and [she]_{5580-one child} were [[Margaret]_157-margaret 's mother]_{5581-margaret 's mother} . [I]_145-mary loved [her]_{5580-one child} above a bit , and one day when [she]_{5580-one child} came ( standing behind [me]_145-mary for that [I]_145-mary should not see [her]_{5580-one child} blushes , and stroking [my]_145-mary cheeks in [her]_{5580-one child} own coaxing way ) , and told [me]_145-mary [she]_{5580-one child} and [Frank Jennings]_253-frank ( as was [a joiner lodging near [us]_5583-us]_{5582-a joiner lodging near us} ) should be so happy if [they]_5583-us were married , [I]_145-mary could not find in [my]_145-mary heart t ' say [her]_{5580-one child} nay , though [I]_145-mary went sick at the thought of losing [her]_{5580-one child} away from [[my]_145-mary home]_{5584-my home} . [Howe'er]_239-howe'er , [she]_{5580-one child} were [[my]_145-mary only child]_{5585-my only child} , and [I]_145-mary never said nought of what [I]_145-mary felt , for fear o ' grieving [her]_{5580-one child} young heart . But [I]_145-mary tried to think o ' the time when [I]_145-mary 'd been young mysel , and had loved [[her]_{5580-one child} blessed mother]_{5586-her blessed mother} , and how [we]_5583-us 'd left [father]_4863-father and [mother]_4845-mother and gone out into [th ' world]_{1596-th ' world} together , and [I]_145-mary 'm now right thankful [I]_145-mary held [my]_145-mary peace , and didna fret [her]_{5586-her blessed mother} wi ' telling [her]_{5586-her blessed mother} how sore [I]_145-mary was at parting wi ' [her]_{5586-her blessed mother} that were the light o ' [my]_145-mary eyes . "_[145-mary] " But , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , " [you]_145-mary said [the young man]_{5590-the young man} were [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} . "_[145-mary] " Ay , so [he]_{5590-the young man} were ; and [[his]_{5590-the young man} father]_{902-his father} afore [him]_{5590-the young man} . But work were rather slack in [Manchester]_1-manchester , and [[Frank]_253-frank 's uncle]_{5593-frank 's uncle} sent [him]_{5590-the young man} word o ' [London]_28-london work and [London]_28-london wages , so [he]_{5590-the young man} were to go [there]_873-there ; and it were there [Margaret]_157-margaret was to follow [him]_{5590-the young man} . Well , [my]_{252-old job} heart aches yet at thought of those days . [She]_157-margaret so happy , and [he]_{5590-the young man} so happy ; only [the poor father]_{5595-the poor father} as fretted sadly behind [their]_5596-they backs . [They]_5596-they were married , and stayed some days wi ' [me]_{252-old job} afore setting off ; and [I]_{252-old job} 've often thought sin ' [Margaret]_157-margaret 's heart failed [her]_157-margaret many a time those few days , and [she]_157-margaret would fain ha ' spoken ; but [I]_{252-old job} knew fra ' [mysel]_{252-old job} it were better to keep it pent up , and [I]_{252-old job} never let on what [I]_{252-old job} were feeling . [I]_{252-old job} knew what [she]_157-margaret meant when [she]_157-margaret came kissing , and holding [my]_{252-old job} hand , and all [her]_157-margaret old childish ways o ' loving [me]_{252-old job} . Well , [they]_5596-they went at last . [You]_{1025-his grand - daughter} know them two letters , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? "_{[252-old job]} " Yes , sure , "_{[1025-his grand - daughter]} replied [[his]_1808-his grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} . " Well , [them]_5596-they two were the only letters [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} ever had fra ' [her]_157-margaret , [poor lass]_{4736-poor lass} . [She]_157-margaret said in [them]_5596-they [she]_157-margaret were very happy , and [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} believe [she]_157-margaret were . And [[Frank]_253-frank 's family]_{5598-frank 's family} heard [he]_253-frank were in good work . In one o ' [her]_157-margaret letters , poor thing , [she]_157-margaret ends wi ' saying , ' Farewell , [Grandad]_254-grandad ! ' wi ' a line drawn under grandad , and fra ' that an ' other hints [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} knew [she]_157-margaret were in th ' family way ; and [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} said nought , but [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} screwed up a little money , thinking come Whitsuntide [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} 'd take a holiday and go and see [her]_157-margaret an ' [th ' little one]_{5599-th ' little one} . But one day towards [Whitsuntide]_{255-whitsuntide} comed [Jennings]_253-frank wi ' a grave face , and says [he]_253-frank , ' [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} hear [[our]_5600-they [Frank]_253-frank]_{5601-our frank} and [[your]_253-frank Margaret]_{5602-your margaret} 's both getten the fever . ' [You]_253-frank might ha ' knocked [me]_{1025-his grand - daughter} down wi ' a straw , for it seemed as if [God]_224-god told [me]_{1025-his grand - daughter} what th ' upshot would be . [Old Jennings]_{256-old jennings} had gotten a letter , [yo]_253-frank see , fra ' [the landlady]_{5603-the landlady} [they]_5600-they lodged wi ' ; a well - penned letter , asking if [they]_5600-they 'd [no friends]_{5604-no friends} to come and nurse [them]_5600-they . [She]_{5603-the landlady} 'd caught it first , and [Frank]_253-frank , who was as tender o ' [her]_{5603-the landlady} as [[her]_{5603-the landlady} own mother]_{5605-her own mother} could ha ' been , had nursed [her]_{5603-the landlady} till [he]_253-frank 'd caught it [himsel]_253-frank ; and [she]_{5603-the landlady} expecting [her]_{5603-the landlady} down - lying [ 30 ] every day . Well , t ' make a long story short , [Old Jennings]_{256-old jennings} and [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} went up by [that night 's coach]_{5606-that night 's coach} . So [you]_145-mary see , [Mary]_145-mary , that was the way [I]_{1025-his grand - daughter} got to [London]_28-london . "_{[1025-his grand - daughter]} [ Footnote 30 : " Down - lying , "_{[1025-his grand - daughter]} lying - in . ] " But how was [[your]_{256-old jennings} daughter]_{5607-your daughter} when [you]_{256-old jennings} got [there]_873-there ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , anxiously . " [She]_{5607-your daughter} were at rest , [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} , and so were [Frank]_253-frank . [I]_145-mary guessed as much when [I]_145-mary see'd [th ' landlady]_{5610-th ' landlady} 's face , all swelled wi ' crying , when [she]_{5603-the landlady} opened th ' door to [us]_5611-us . [We]_5611-us said , ' Where are [they]_5612-they ? ' and [I]_145-mary knew [they]_5612-they were dead , fra ' [her]_{5603-the landlady} look ; but [Jennings]_253-frank did n't , as [I]_145-mary take it ; for when [she]_{5603-the landlady} showed [us]_5611-us into [a room]_{5613-a room} wi ' a white sheet on th ' bed , and underneath it , plain to be seen , two still figures , [he]_1810-he screeched out as if [he]_1810-he 'd been [a woman]_{5614-a woman} . "_[145-mary] Yet [he]_1810-he 'd [other childer]_{1811-other childer} and [I]_0-i 'd none . There lay [[my]_0-i darling]_{5220-my darling} , [[my]_0-i only one]_{1813-my only one} . [She]_{5220-my darling} were dead , and there were [no one]_{1202-no one} to love [me]_0-i , no , [not one]_{1815-not one} . [I]_0-i disremember [ 31 ] rightly what [I]_0-i did ; but [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i were very quiet , while [my]_0-i heart were crushed within [me]_0-i . [ Footnote 31 : " Disremember , "_[0-i] forget . ] " [Jennings]_253-frank could na ' stand being in [th ' room]_{5615-th ' room} at all , so [th ' landlady]_{5610-th ' landlady} took [him]_253-frank down , and [I]_1816-i were glad to be alone . It grew dark while [I]_1816-i sat there ; and at last [th ' landlady]_{5610-th ' landlady} come up again , and said , ' Come here . ' So [I]_1816-i got up and walked into [th]_5618-th ' light , but [I]_1816-i had to hold by [th]_5618-th ' stair - rails , [I]_1816-i were so weak and dizzy . [She]_{5610-th ' landlady} led [me]_1816-i into [a room]_{5613-a room} , where [Jennings]_253-frank lay on a sofa fast asleep , wi ' [his]_253-frank pocket handkercher over [his]_253-frank head for a night - cap . [She]_{5610-th ' landlady} said [he]_253-frank 'd cried [himself]_253-frank fairly off to sleep . There were tea on th ' table all ready ; for [she]_{5610-th ' landlady} were [a kind - hearted body]_{5620-a kind - hearted body} . But [she]_{5610-th ' landlady} still said , ' Come here , ' and took hold o ' [my]_1816-i arm . So [I]_1816-i went round the table , and there were a clothes - basket by th ' fire , wi ' a shawl put o'er it . ' Lift that up , ' says [she]_{5610-th ' landlady} , and [I]_1816-i did ; and there lay [a little wee babby]_{5621-a little wee babby} fast asleep . [My]_1816-i heart gave a leap , and th ' tears comed rushing into [my]_1816-i eyes first time that day . ' Is it [hers]_1816-i ? ' said [I]_1816-i , though [I]_1816-i knew it were . ' Yes , ' said [she]_{5610-th ' landlady} . ' [She]_1816-i were getting a bit better o ' the fever , and [th ' babby]_{5622-th ' babby} were born ; and then [the poor young man]_{5623-the poor young man} took worse and died , and [she]_1816-i were not many hours behind . ' "_[1816-i] Little mite of a thing ! and yet it seemed [[her]_1816-i angel]_{1817-her angel} come back to comfort [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i were quite jealous o ' [Jennings]_253-frank whenever [he]_253-frank went near [the babby]_{1818-the babby} . [I]_0-i thought it were more [my]_0-i flesh and blood than [his'n]_1819-his'n , and yet [I]_0-i were afeared [he]_253-frank would claim it . However , that were far enough fra ' [his]_253-frank thoughts ; [he]_253-frank 'd [plenty other childer]_{1820-plenty other childer} , and as [I]_0-i found out at after [he]_253-frank 'd all along been wishing [me]_0-i to take it . Well , [we]_1821-we buried [Margaret]_157-margaret and [[her]_157-margaret husband]_{587-her husband} in [a big , crowded , lonely churchyard in [London]_28-london]_{1823-a big , crowded , lonely churchyard in london} . [I]_0-i were loath to leave [them]_1824-they there , as [I]_0-i thought , when [they]_1824-they rose again , [they]_1824-they 'd feel so strange at first away fra [Manchester]_1-manchester , and [all old friends]_{1825-all old friends} ; but it couldna be helped . Well , [God]_224-god watches o'er [[their]_1824-they grave]_{1826-their grave} there as well as here . That funeral cost a mint o ' money , but [Jennings]_157-margaret and [I]_0-i wished to do th ' thing decent . Then [we]_1821-we 'd [the stout little babby]_{1827-the stout little babby} to bring [home]_4755-home . [We]_1821-we 'd not overmuch money left ; but it were fine weather , and [we]_1821-we thought [we]_1821-we 'd take [th ' coach]_{4933-th ' coach} to [Brummagem]_56-brummagem , and walk on . It were a bright May morning when last [I]_0-i saw [London town]_{1830-london town} , looking back from [a big hill a mile or two off]_{1831-a big hill a mile or two off} . And in that big mass o ' a place [I]_0-i were leaving [[my]_0-i blessed child]_{1832-my blessed child} asleep -- in [her]_{1832-my blessed child} last sleep . Well , [God]_224-god 's will be done ! [She]_{1832-my blessed child} 's gotten to [heaven]_1833-heaven afore [me]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i shall get there at last , please [God]_224-god , though it 's a long while first . " [The babby]_{1818-the babby} had been fed afore [we]_1821-we set out , and [th]_{4933-th ' coach} ' coach moving kept [it]_{1818-the babby} asleep , bless [its]_{1818-the babby} little heart . But when [th ' coach]_{4933-th ' coach} stopped for dinner [it]_{1818-the babby} were awake , and crying for [its]_{1818-the babby} pobbies . [ 32 ] So [we]_1821-we asked for some bread and milk , and [Jennings]_157-margaret took [it]_{1818-the babby} first for to feed [it]_{1818-the babby} ; but it made [its]_{1818-the babby} mouth like a square , and let it run out at each o ' th ' four corners . ' Shake it , [Jennings]_157-margaret , ' says [I]_257-pobbies ; ' that 's the way [they]_5626-they make water run through a funnel , when it 's o'er full ; and [a child]_{4770-a child} 's mouth is broad end o ' th ' funnel , and th ' gullet the narrow one . ' So [he]_0-i shook it , but it only cried th ' more . ' Let [me]_257-pobbies have it , ' says [I]_257-pobbies , thinking [he]_0-i were [an awkward oud chap]_{5628-an awkward oud chap} . But it were just as bad wi ' [me]_257-pobbies . By shaking [th ' babby]_{5622-th ' babby} [we]_1821-we got better nor a gill into its mouth , but more nor that came up again , wetting a ' th ' nice dry clothes [landlady]_{5630-landlady} had put on . Well , just as [we]_1821-we 'd gotten to th ' dinner - table , and helped [oursels]_1821-we , and eaten two mouthful , came in [th ' guard]_{5631-th ' guard} , and a fine chap wi ' a sample o ' calico flourishing in [his]_0-i hand . ' [Coach]_1008-coach is ready ! ' says [one]_518-one ; ' Half - a - crown [your]_5634-your dinner ! ' says [th ' other]_{5091-th ' other} . Well , [we]_1821-we thought it a deal for both [our]_1821-we dinners , when [we]_1821-we 'd hardly tasted 'em ; but , bless [your]_5634-your life , it were half - a - crown apiece , and a shilling for th ' bread and milk as were possetted all over [babby]_5636-babby 's clothes . [We]_1821-we spoke up again [ 33 ] it ; but [every body]_{5637-every body} said it were the rule , so what could [two poor oud chaps like [us]_1821-we]_{5638-two poor oud chaps like us} do again it ? Well , [poor babby]_{5639-poor babby} cried without stopping to take breath , fra ' that time till [we]_1821-we got to [Brummagem]_56-brummagem for the night . [My]_257-pobbies heart ached for [th]_5640-th ' little thing . [It]_{5639-poor babby} caught wi ' [its]_{5639-poor babby} wee mouth at [our]_1821-we coat sleeves and at [our]_1821-we mouths , when [we]_1821-we tried t ' comfort [it]_{5639-poor babby} by talking to it . [Poor little wench]_{5641-poor little wench} ! [It]_{5639-poor babby} wanted its mammy , as were lying cold in th ' grave . ' Well , ' says [I]_257-pobbies , ' it 'll be clemmed to death , if it lets out [its]_{5639-poor babby} supper as [it]_{5639-poor babby} did [its]_{5639-poor babby} dinner . Let 's get [some woman]_{5642-some woman} to feed [it]_{5639-poor babby} ; it comes natural to [women]_4730-women to do for [babbies]_5644-babbies . ' So [we]_1821-we asked [[th]_5640-th ' chamber - maid at [the inn]_{5646-the inn}]_{5645-th ' chamber - maid at the inn} , and [she]_{5645-th ' chamber - maid at the inn} took quite kindly to it ; and [we]_1821-we got a good supper , and grew rare and sleepy , what wi ' th ' warmth , and wi ' [our]_1821-we long ride [i]_257-pobbies ' th ' open air . [Th ' chamber - maid]_{5647-th ' chamber - maid} said [she]_{5647-th ' chamber - maid} would like t ' have it t ' sleep wi ' [her]_{5647-th ' chamber - maid} , only [missis]_4831-missis would scold so ; but it looked so quiet and smiling like , as it lay in [her]_{5647-th ' chamber - maid} arms , that [we]_1821-we thought ' twould be no trouble to have it wi ' [us]_1821-we . [I]_257-pobbies says : ' See , [Jennings]_157-margaret , how [women - folk]_{5649-women - folk} do quieten babbies ; it 's just as [I]_257-pobbies said . ' [He]_1834-he looked grave ; [he]_1834-he were always thoughtful - looking , though [I]_257-pobbies never heard [him]_1834-he say any thing very deep . At last says [he--]_1834-he [ Footnote 32 : "_{[257-pobbies]} [Pobbies]_257-pobbies , " or "_{[257-pobbies]} pobs , " [child]_4860-child 's porridge . ] [ Footnote 33 : "_{[257-pobbies]} Again , " for against . "_[1834-he] [He]_1834-he that is not with [me]_0-i , [he]_1834-he is ageyn [me]_0-i . "--_Wickliffe 's Version . _ ] "_{[1835-young woman]} ' [Young woman]_{1835-young woman} ! have [you]_{1835-young woman} gotten a spare night - cap ? ' " ' [Missis]_211-missis always keeps night - caps for [gentlemen]_{1771-gentlemen} as does not like to unpack , ' says [she]_211-missis , rather quick . "_{[1835-young woman]} ' Ay , but [young woman]_{1835-young woman} , it 's one of [your]_{1835-young woman} night - caps [I]_0-i want . [Th ' babby]_{5622-th ' babby} seems to have taken a mind to [yo]_{1835-young woman} ; and may be in th ' dark it might take [me]_0-i for [yo]_{1835-young woman} if [I]_0-i 'd getten [your]_{1835-young woman} night - cap on . ' " [The chambermaid]_{5652-the chambermaid} smirked and went for a cap , but [I]_0-i laughed outright at [th]_{1835-young woman} ' oud bearded chap thinking [he]_{5622-th ' babby} 'd make hissel like [a woman]_{5614-a woman} just by putting on [a woman]_{5614-a woman} 's cap . [Howe'er]_239-howe'er [he]_{5622-th ' babby} 'd not be laughed out on't , so [I]_0-i held [th ' babby]_{5622-th ' babby} till [he]_{5622-th ' babby} were in bed . Such a night as [we]_5656-we had on it ! [Babby]_258-babby began to scream o ' th ' oud fashion , and [we]_5656-we took it turn and turn about to sit up and rock it . [My]_0-i heart were very sore for [th ' little one]_{5599-th ' little one} , as it groped about wi ' [its]_{5599-th ' little one} mouth ; but for a ' that [I]_0-i could scarce keep fra ' smiling at th ' thought o ' [[us]_5656-we two oud chaps]_{5658-us two oud chaps} , th ' one wi ' [a woman]_{5614-a woman} 's night - cap on , sitting on [our]_5656-we hinder ends for half th ' night , hushabying a babby as would n't be hushabied . Toward morning , [poor little wench]_{5641-poor little wench} ! it fell asleep , fairly tired out wi ' crying , but even in [its]_{5599-th ' little one} sleep it gave such pitiful sobs , quivering up fra ' the very bottom of [its]_{5599-th ' little one} little heart , that once or twice [I]_0-i almost wished [it]_{5599-th ' little one} lay on [[its]_{5599-th ' little one} mother]_{5661-its mother} 's breast , at peace for ever . [Jennings]_157-margaret fell asleep too ; but [I]_0-i began for to reckon up [our]_5656-we money . It were little enough [we]_5656-we had left , [our]_5656-we dinner the day afore had ta'en so much . [I]_0-i did n't know what [our]_5656-we reckoning would be for that night lodging , and supper , and breakfast . Doing a sum alway sent [me]_0-i asleep ever sin ' [I]_0-i were [a lad]_{1578-a lad} ; so [I]_0-i fell sound in a short time , and were only wakened by [chambermaid]_{5663-chambermaid} tapping at [th]_5664-th ' door , to say [she]_{5663-chambermaid} 'd dress the babby afore [her]_{5663-chambermaid} missis were up if [we]_5656-we liked . But bless [yo]_1839-yo ' , [we]_5656-we 'd never thought o ' undressing it th ' night afore , and now [it]_5665-it were sleeping so sound , and [we]_5656-we were so glad o ' the peace and quietness , that [we]_5656-we thought it were no good to waken it up to screech again . "_[0-i] Well ! ( there 's [Mary]_145-mary asleep for [a good listener]_{1838-a good listener} ! ) [I]_0-i suppose [you]_1839-yo 're getting weary of [my]_0-i tale , so [I]_0-i 'll not be long over ending it . [Th]_1840-th ' reckoning left [us]_1841-we very bare , and [we]_1841-we thought [we]_1841-we 'd best walk [home]_4755-home , for it were only sixty mile , [they]_1843-they telled [us]_1841-we , and not stop again for nought , save victuals . So [we]_1841-we left [Brummagem]_56-brummagem , ( which is as black a place as [Manchester]_1-manchester , without looking so like [home]_4755-home ) , and walked a ' that day , carrying babby turn and turn about . It were well fed by [chambermaid]_{5663-chambermaid} afore [we]_1841-we left , and th ' day were fine , and [folk]_5093-folk began to have some knowledge o ' th ' proper way o ' speaking , and [we]_1841-we were more cheery at thoughts o ' [home]_4755-home ( though [mine]_0-i , God knows , were lonesome enough ) . [We]_1841-we stopped none for dinner , but at baggin - time [ 34 ] [we]_1841-we getten a good meal at [a public - house]_{1848-a public - house} , an ' fed [th]_1840-th ' babby as well as [we]_1841-we could , but that were but poorly . [We]_1841-we got a crust too , for it to suck -- [chambermaid]_{5663-chambermaid} put [us]_1841-we up to that . That night , whether [we]_1841-we were tired or whatten , [I]_0-i do n't know , but it were dree [ 35 ] work , and [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} had slept out [her]_{4866-poor wench} sleep , and began th ' cry as wore [my]_0-i heart out again . Says [Jennings]_157-margaret , says [he]_0-i , [ Footnote 34 : " Baggin - time , "_{[157-margaret]} time of the evening meal . ] [ Footnote 35 : " [Dree]_259-dree , "_[0-i] long and tedious . [Anglo - Saxon]_{260-anglo - saxon} , " [dreogan]_261-dreogan , "_[0-i] to suffer , to endure . ] " ' [We]_1841-we should na ha ' set out so like [gentlefolk a top o ']_{5666-gentlefolk a top o '} [the coach]_{5667-the coach} yesterday . ' "_[1512-lad] ' Nay , [lad]_1512-lad ! [We]_1841-we should [ha]_1852-ha ' had more to walk , if [we]_1841-we had na ridden , and [I]_0-i 'm sure both [you]_1512-lad and [I'se]_1853-i'se [ 36 ] weary o ' tramping . ' [ Footnote 36 : " [I]_1512-lad have not been , nor _ is _ , nor never schal . "--_Wickliffe_[1512-lad] 's " Apology , "_[1512-lad] p. 1 . _ ] " So [he]_0-i were quiet a bit . But [he]_0-i were one o ' [them]_5668-them as were sure to find out somewhat had been done amiss , when there were no going back to undo it . So presently [he]_0-i coughs , as if [he]_0-i were going to speak , and [I]_0-i says to [mysel]_0-i , ' At it again , [[my]_0-i lad]_{1544-my lad} . ' Says [he]_0-i , "_[0-i] ' [I]_0-i ax pardon , [neighbour]_{4798-neighbour} , but it strikes [me]_0-i it would ha ' been better for [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} if [he]_{1855-my son} had never begun to keep company wi ' [[your]_{4798-neighbour} daughter]_{5607-your daughter} . ' " Well ! that put [me]_224-god up , and [my]_224-god heart got very full , and but that [I]_224-god were carrying _ [her]_{5607-your daughter} _ babby , [I]_224-god think [I]_224-god should ha ' struck [him]_{1855-my son} . At last [I]_224-god could hold in no longer , and says [I]_224-god , "_[224-god] ' Better say at once it would ha ' been better for [God]_224-god never to [ha]_1857-ha ' made [th ' world]_{1596-th ' world} , for then [we]_1859-we 'd never [ha]_1857-ha ' been in [it]_{1596-th ' world} , to have had [th]_1860-th ' heavy hearts [we]_1859-we have now . ' " Well ! [he]_{1855-my son} said that were rank blasphemy ; but [I]_224-god thought [his]_{1855-my son} way of casting up again th ' events [God]_224-god had pleased to send , were worse blasphemy . [Howe'er]_239-howe'er , [I]_224-god said nought more angry , for [th ' little babby]_{5670-th ' little babby} 's sake , as were [th ' child]_{5671-th ' child} o ' [[his]_{1855-my son} dead son]_{5347-his dead son} , as well as [o]_5673-o ' [[my]_224-god dead daughter]_{5674-my dead daughter} . "_[224-god] [Th ' longest lane]_{1861-th ' longest lane} will have a turning , and that night came to an end at last ; and [we]_1859-we were foot - sore and tired enough , and to [my]_0-i mind [th ' babby]_{5622-th ' babby} were getting weaker and weaker , and it wrung [my]_0-i heart to hear [its]_{5622-th ' babby} little wail ; [I]_0-i 'd ha ' given [my]_0-i right hand for one of yesterday 's hearty cries . [We]_1859-we were wanting [our]_1859-we breakfasts , and so were it too , [motherless babby]_{1863-motherless babby} ! [We]_1859-we could see [no public - house]_{1864-no public - house} , so about six o'clock ( only [we]_1859-we thought it were later ) [we]_1859-we stopped at [a cottage where [a woman]_{5614-a woman} were moving about near [th]_1867-th ' open door]_{1865-a cottage where a woman were moving about near th ' open door} . Says [I]_0-i , ' [Good woman]_{1868-good woman} , may [we]_1859-we rest [us]_1859-we a bit ? ' ' Come in , ' says [she]_{5614-a woman} , wiping a chair , as looked bright enough afore , wi ' [her]_{5614-a woman} apron . It were [a cheery , clean room]_{1869-a cheery , clean room} ; and [we]_1859-we were glad to sit down again , though [I]_0-i thought [my]_0-i legs would never bend at th ' knees . In a minute [she]_{5614-a woman} fell a noticing th ' babby , and took it in [her]_{5614-a woman} arms , and kissed it again and again . ' [Missis]_211-missis , ' says [I]_0-i , ' [we]_1859-we 're not without money , and if [yo'd]_1870-yo give [us]_1859-we somewhat for breakfast , [we]_1859-we 'd pay [yo]_1870-yo honest , and if [yo]_1870-yo would wash and dress [that poor babby]_{1871-that poor babby} , and get some pobbies down [its]_{1871-that poor babby} throat , for it 's well - nigh clemmed , [I]_0-i 'd pray for [yo]_1870-yo ' till [my]_0-i dying day . ' So [she]_{5614-a woman} said nought , but gived [me]_0-i th ' babby back , and afore [yo]_1870-yo ' could say [Jack Robinson]_{262-jack robinson} , [she]_{262-jack robinson} 'd a pan on th ' fire , and bread and cheese on th ' table . When [she]_{5614-a woman} turned round , [her]_{5614-a woman} face looked red , and [her]_{5614-a woman} lips were tight pressed together . Well ! [we]_1859-we were right down glad on [our]_1859-we breakfast , and [God]_224-god bless and reward [that woman]_{1872-that woman} for [her]_{1872-that woman} kindness that day ; [she]_{5614-a woman} fed [th]_{1871-that poor babby} ' poor babby as gently and softly , and spoke to [it]_{1871-that poor babby} as tenderly as [[its]_{1871-that poor babby} own poor mother]_{1873-its own poor mother} could ha ' done . It seemed as if [that stranger]_{1874-that stranger} and it had known [each other]_{436-each other} afore , maybe in [Heaven]_278-heaven , where [folk 's spirits]_{1876-folk 's spirits} come from [they]_{1876-folk 's spirits} say ; [th]_{1871-that poor babby} ' babby looked up so lovingly in [her]_{5614-a woman} eyes , and made little noises more like a dove than aught else . Then [she]_{5614-a woman} undressed [it]_{1871-that poor babby} ( [poor darling]_{1877-poor darling} ! it were time ) , touching it so softly ; and washed [it]_{1871-that poor babby} from head to foot , and as many on its things were dirty ; and what bits o ' things [[its]_{1871-that poor babby} mother]_{5661-its mother} had gotten ready for it had been sent by [th]_{1871-that poor babby} ' carrier fra [London]_28-london , [she]_{5614-a woman} put ['em]_1879-'em aside ; and wrapping [little naked babby]_{1880-little naked babby} in [her]_{5614-a woman} apron , [she]_{5614-a woman} pulled out a key , as were fastened to a black ribbon , and hung down [her]_{5614-a woman} breast , and unlocked a drawer in [th ' dresser]_{1881-th ' dresser} . [I]_0-i were sorry to be prying , but [I]_0-i could na ' help seeing in that drawer [some little child]_{1882-some little child} 's clothes , all strewed wi ' lavendar , and lying by 'em a little whip an ' a broken rattle . [I]_0-i began to have an insight into [that woman]_{1872-that woman} 's heart then . [She]_{5614-a woman} took out a thing or two ; and locked the drawer , and went on dressing [babby]_5636-babby . Just about then come [[her]_{5614-a woman} husband]_{587-her husband} down , a great big fellow as did n't look half awake , though it were getting late ; but [he]_{587-her husband} 'd heard all as had been said down - [stairs]_4740-stairs , as were plain to be seen ; but [he]_{587-her husband} were [a gruff chap]_{1887-a gruff chap} . [We]_1888-we 'd finished [our]_1888-we breakfast , and [Jennings]_157-margaret were looking hard at [th ' woman]_{1889-th ' woman} as [she]_{1889-th ' woman} were getting [the babby]_{1818-the babby} to sleep wi ' a sort of rocking way . At length says [he]_{587-her husband} , ' [I]_0-i ha learnt th ' way now ; it 's two jiggits and a shake , two jiggits and a shake . [I]_0-i can get that babby asleep now [mysel]_0-i . ' " [The man]_{708-the man} had nodded cross enough to [us]_1888-we , and had gone to th ' door , and stood there whistling wi ' [his]_{708-the man} hands in [his]_{708-the man} breeches - pockets , looking abroad . But at last [he]_{708-the man} turns and says , quite sharp , "_[0-i] ' [I]_0-i say , [missis]_4831-missis , [I]_0-i 'm to have no breakfast to - day , [I]_0-i s'pose . ' " So wi ' that [she]_{1889-th ' woman} kissed [th ' child]_{5671-th ' child} , a long , soft kiss ; and looking in [my]_1892-i face to see if [I]_1892-i could take [her]_{1889-th ' woman} meaning , gave [me]_1892-i th ' babby without a word . [I]_1892-i were loath to stir , but [I]_1892-i saw it were better to go . So giving [Jennings]_157-margaret a sharp nudge ( for [he]_{708-the man} 'd fallen asleep ) , [I]_1892-i says , ' [Missis]_211-missis , what 's to pay ? ' pulling out [my]_1892-i money wi ' a jingle that [she]_{1889-th ' woman} might na guess [we]_5677-we were at all bare o ' cash . So [she]_{1889-th ' woman} looks at [[her]_{1889-th ' woman} husband]_{587-her husband} , who said ne'er a word , but were listening wi ' all [his]_{587-her husband} ears nevertheless ; and when [she]_{1889-th ' woman} saw [he]_{587-her husband} would [na]_5679-na say , [she]_{1889-th ' woman} said , hesitating , as if pulled two ways , by [her]_{1889-th ' woman} fear o ' [him]_{587-her husband} , ' Should [you]_{587-her husband} think sixpence over much ? ' It were so different to public - house reckoning , for [we]_5677-we 'd eaten a main deal afore [the chap]_{5680-the chap} came down . So says [I]_1892-i , ' And , [missis]_4831-missis , what should [we]_5677-we gie [you]_4831-missis for the babby 's bread and milk ? ' ( [I]_1892-i had it once in [my]_1892-i mind to say ' and for a ' [your]_4831-missis trouble with it , ' but [my]_1892-i heart would na let [me]_1892-i say it , for [I]_1892-i could read in [her]_{1889-th ' woman} ways how it had been a work o ' love . ) So says [she]_{1889-th ' woman} , quite quick , and stealing a look at [[her]_{1889-th ' woman} husband]_{587-her husband} 's back , as looked all ear , if ever a back did , ' Oh , [we]_5677-we could take nought for [the little babby]_{5683-the little babby} 's food , if it had eaten twice as much , bless it . ' Wi ' that [he]_{587-her husband} looked at [her]_{1889-th ' woman} ; such a scowling look ! [She]_{1889-th ' woman} knew what [he]_{587-her husband} meant , and stepped softly across the floor to [him]_{587-her husband} , and put [her]_{1889-th ' woman} hand on [his]_{587-her husband} arm . [He]_{587-her husband} seem'd as though [he]_{587-her husband} 'd shake it off by a jerk on [his]_{587-her husband} elbow , but [she]_{1889-th ' woman} said quite low , ' For [poor little Johnnie]_263-johnnie 's sake , [Richard]_128-richard . ' [He]_{587-her husband} did not move or speak again , and after looking in [his]_{587-her husband} face for a minute , [she]_{1889-th ' woman} turned away , swallowing deep in [her]_{1889-th ' woman} throat . [She]_{1889-th ' woman} kissed [th ' sleeping babby]_{5684-th ' sleeping babby} as [she]_{1889-th ' woman} passed , when [I]_1892-i paid [her]_{1889-th ' woman} . To quieten [[th]_{1889-th ' woman} ' gruff husband]_{5685-th ' gruff husband} , and stop [him]_{587-her husband} if [he]_{587-her husband} rated [her]_{1889-th ' woman} , [I]_1892-i could na help slipping another sixpence under th ' loaf , and then [we]_5686-we set off again . Last look [I]_1892-i had o ' [that woman]_{1872-that woman} [she]_{1889-th ' woman} were quietly wiping [her]_{1889-th ' woman} eyes wi ' the corner of [her]_{1889-th ' woman} apron , as [she]_{1889-th ' woman} went about [[her]_{1889-th ' woman} husband]_{587-her husband} 's breakfast . But [I]_1892-i shall know [her]_{1889-th ' woman} in [heaven]_1833-heaven . "_[1892-i] [He]_1892-i stopped to think of that long - ago May morning , when [he]_1892-i had carried [[his]_1892-i grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} under the distant hedge - rows and beneath the flowering sycamores . " There 's nought more to say , [wench]_5103-wench , "_[1892-i] said [he]_1892-i to [Margaret]_157-margaret , as [she]_157-margaret begged [him]_1892-i to go on . " That night [we]_1894-their reached [Manchester]_1-manchester , and [I]_157-margaret 'd found out that [Jennings]_157-margaret would be glad enough to give up babby to [me]_157-margaret , so [I]_157-margaret took [her]_{1025-his grand - daughter} [home]_4755-home at once , and a blessing [she]_{1025-his grand - daughter} 's been to [me]_157-margaret . "_{[157-margaret]} [They]_1894-their were all silent for a few minutes ; each following out the current of [their]_1894-their thoughts . Then , almost simultaneously , [their]_1894-their attention fell upon [Mary]_145-mary . Sitting on [her]_145-mary little stool , [her]_145-mary head resting on [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's knee , and sleeping as soundly as [any infant]_{1896-any infant} , [her]_145-mary breath ( still like [an infant]_{512-an infant} 's ) came and went as softly as a bird steals to [her]_145-mary leafy nest . [Her]_145-mary half - open mouth was as scarlet as the winter - berries , and contrasted finely with the clear paleness of [her]_145-mary complexion , where the eloquent blood flushed carnation at each motion . [Her]_145-mary black eye - lashes lay on the delicate cheek , which was still more shaded by the masses of [her]_145-mary golden hair , that seemed to form a nest - like pillow for [her]_145-mary as [she]_145-mary lay . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} in fond pride straightened one glossy curl , for an instant , as if to display its length and silkiness . The little action awoke [her]_145-mary , and , like nine out of ten people in similar circumstances , [she]_145-mary exclaimed , opening [her]_145-mary eyes to [their]_1899-their fullest extent , " [I]_145-mary 'm not asleep . [I]_145-mary 've been awake all the time . "_[145-mary] Even [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} could not keep from smiling , and [Job Legh]_156-job and [Margaret]_157-margaret laughed outright . " Come , [wench]_5103-wench , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , " do n't look so gloppened [ 37 ] because [thou'st]_5693-thou'st fallen asleep while [an oud chap like [me]_156-job]_{5694-an oud chap like me} was talking on oud times . It were like enough to send [thee]_5693-thou'st to sleep . Try if [thou]_5693-thou'st canst keep [thine]_5693-thou'st eyes open while [I]_156-job read [[thy]_5693-thou'st father]_{5695-thy father} a bit on a poem as is written by [a weaver like [oursel]_5697-oursel]_{5696-a weaver like oursel} . A rare chap [I]_156-job 'll be bound is [he]_{5694-an oud chap like me} who could weave verse like this . "_[156-job] [ Footnote 37 : " Gloppened , "_[156-job] amazed , frightened . ] So adjusting [his]_{564-her father} spectacles on nose , cocking [his]_{564-her father} chin , crossing [his]_{564-her father} legs , and coughing to clear [his]_{564-her father} voice , [he]_{564-her father} read aloud a little poem of [Samuel Bamford]_{264-samuel bamford} 's [ 38 ] [he]_{564-her father} had picked up somewhere . [ Footnote 38 : [The fine - spirited author of " Passages in the Life of [a Radical"--a_{[564-her father]} man who illustrates [his]_{564-her father} order , and shows what nobility may be in [a cottage]_{1902-a cottage}]_{5698-a radical"--a man who illustrates his order , and shows what nobility may be in a cottage}]_{1901-the fine - spirited author of " passages in the life of a radical"--a man who illustrates his order , and shows what nobility may be in a cottage} . ] [God]_224-god help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} , who , on [this wintry morn]_{1904-this wintry morn} , Come forth from [alleys dim and courts obscure]_{1905-alleys dim and courts obscure} . [God]_224-god help [[yon]_1906-thee poor pale girl]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} , who droops forlorn , And meekly [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} affliction doth endure ; [God]_224-god help [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} , [outcast lamb]_{1908-outcast lamb} ; [she]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} trembling stands , All wan [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} lips , and frozen red [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} hands ; [Her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} sunken eyes are modestly down - cast , [Her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} night - black hair streams on the fitful blast ; [Her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} bosom , passing fair , is half revealed , And oh ! so cold , the snow lies there congealed ; [Her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} feet benumbed , [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} shoes all rent and worn , [God]_224-god help [thee]_1906-thee , [outcast lamb]_{1908-outcast lamb} , who standst forlorn ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! [An infant]_{512-an infant} 's feeble wail Comes from yon narrow gateway , and behold ! [A female crouching there]_{1913-a female crouching there} , so deathly pale , Huddling [[her]_{1913-a female crouching there} child]_{1391-her child} , to screen it from the cold ; [Her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} vesture scant , [her]_{1907-yon poor pale girl} bonnet crushed and torn ; A thin shawl doth [[her]_{1913-a female crouching there} baby]_{661-her baby} dear enfold : And so [she]_{1913-a female crouching there} ' bides the ruthless gale of morn , Which almost to [her]_{1913-a female crouching there} heart hath sent its cold . And now [she]_{1913-a female crouching there} , sudden , darts a ravening look , As one , with new hot bread , goes past the nook ; And , as the tempting load is onward borne , [She]_{1913-a female crouching there} weeps . God help [thee]_1906-thee , helpless one , forlorn ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! Behold [[yon]_1906-thee famished lad]_{1918-yon famished lad} , No shoes , nor hose , [his]_{1918-yon famished lad} wounded feet protect ; With limping gait , and looks so dreamy sad , [He]_{1918-yon famished lad} wanders onward , stopping to inspect Each window , stored with articles of food . [He]_{1918-yon famished lad} yearns but to enjoy one cheering meal ; Oh ! to [the hungry palate]_{1919-the hungry palate} , viands rude , Would yield a zest the famished only feel ! [He]_{1918-yon famished lad} now devours a crust of mouldy bread ; With teeth and hands the precious boon is torn ; Unmindful of the storm that round [his]_{1918-yon famished lad} head Impetuous sweeps . God help [thee]_1906-thee , [child]_4860-child forlorn ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! Another have [I]_0-i found-- [A bowed and venerable man]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} is [he]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} ; [His]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} slouched hat with faded crape is bound ; [His]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} coat is gray , and threadbare too , [I]_0-i see . " The rude winds "_[0-i] seem " to mock [his]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} hoary hair ; "_{[1923-a bowed and venerable man]} [His]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} shirtless bosom to the blast is bare . Anon [he]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} turns and casts a wistful eye , And with scant napkin wipes the blinding spray ; And looks around , as if [he]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} fain would spy [Friends]_4851-friends [he]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} had feasted in [his]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} better day : Ah ! [some]_797-some are dead ; and [some]_797-some have long forborne To know [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ; and [he]_{1923-a bowed and venerable man} is left forlorn ! God help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ! God help [the poor , who in [lone valleys]_{1930-lone valleys} dwell , Or by [far hills , where whin and heather grow]_{1931-far hills , where whin and heather grow}]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} ; [Theirs]_1932-theirs is a story sad indeed to tell , Yet little cares [the world]_{1479-the world} , and less ' t would know About the toil and want [men]_1197-men undergo . [The wearying loom]_{1935-the wearying loom} doth call [them]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} up at morn , [They]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} work till worn - out nature sinks to sleep , [They]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} taste , but are not fed . The snow drifts deep Around [the fireless cot]_{1936-the fireless cot} , and blocks the door ; The night - storm howls a dirge across [the moor]_{1937-the moor} ; And shall [they]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} perish thus -- [oppressed and lorn]_{1938-oppressed and lorn} ? Shall toil and famine , hopeless , still be borne ? No ! [God]_224-god will yet arise , and help [the poor]_{4790-the poor} . " Amen ! "_[145-mary] said [Barton]_145-mary , solemnly , and sorrowfully . " [Mary]_145-mary ! wench , couldst [thou]_5699-thou copy [me]_145-mary them lines , dost think?--that 's to say , if [Job]_156-job there has no objection . "_[145-mary] " Not [I.]_5700-i. More [they]_{1929-the poor , who in lone valleys dwell , or by far hills , where whin and heather grow} 're heard and read and the better , say [I.]_5700-i. "_[145-mary] So [Mary]_145-mary took the paper . And the next day , on the blank half sheet of a valentine , all bordered with hearts and darts -- a valentine [she]_145-mary had once suspected to come from [Jem Wilson]_154-jem -- [she]_145-mary copied [Bamford]_{264-samuel bamford} 's beautiful little poem . CHAPTER X. RETURN OF [THE PRODIGAL]_{1940-the prodigal} . " [My]_176-elliott heart , once soft as [woman]_5701-woman 's tear , is gnarled With gloating on the ills [I]_176-elliott can not cure . "_{[176-elliott]} [ELLIOTT]_176-elliott . " Then guard and shield [her]_5702-her innocence , Let [her]_5702-her not fall like [me]_176-elliott ; ' Twere better , Oh ! a thousand times , [She]_5702-her in [her]_5702-her grave should be . "_{[176-elliott]} " THE OUTCAST . "_[145-mary] Despair settled down like a heavy cloud ; and now and then , through the dead calm of sufferings , came pipings of stormy winds , foretelling the end of these dark prognostics . In times of sorrowful or fierce endurance , [we]_1941-we are often soothed by the mere repetition of old proverbs which tell the experience of [[our]_1941-we forefathers]_{1942-our forefathers} ; but now , " it 's [a long lane]_{5703-a long lane} that has no turning , "_{[4790-the poor]} " the weariest day draws to an end , "_{[4790-the poor]} & amp;c . , seemed false and vain sayings , so long and so weary was the pressure of the terrible times . Deeper and deeper still sank [the poor]_{4790-the poor} ; it showed how much lingering suffering it takes to kill [men]_1197-men , that so few ( in comparison ) died during those times . But remember ! [we]_1941-we only miss [those who do [men]_1197-men 's work in [their]_{1945-those who do men 's work in their humble sphere} humble sphere]_{1945-those who do men 's work in their humble sphere} ; [the aged]_{1947-the aged} , [the feeble]_{1948-the feeble} , [the children]_{633-the children} , when [they]_{633-the children} die , are hardly noted by [the world]_{1479-the world} ; and yet to many hearts , [their]_{633-the children} deaths make a blank which long years will never fill up . Remember , too , that though it may take much suffering to kill [the able - bodied and effective members of society]_{1951-the able - bodied and effective members of society} , it does _ not _ take much to reduce [them]_{1951-the able - bodied and effective members of society} to [worn , listless , diseased creatures , who thenceforward crawl through life with moody hearts and pain - stricken bodies]_{1952-worn , listless , diseased creatures , who thenceforward crawl through life with moody hearts and pain - stricken bodies} . [The people]_{1184-the people} had thought the poverty of the preceding years hard to bear , and had found its yoke heavy ; but this year added sorely to its weight . Former times had chastised [them]_{1184-the people} with whips , but this chastised [them]_{1184-the people} with scorpions . Of course , [Barton]_145-mary had [his]_1954-he share of mere bodily sufferings . Before [he]_1954-he had gone up to [London]_28-london on [his]_1954-he vain errand , [he]_1954-he had been working short time . But in the hopes of speedy redress by means of the interference of [Parliament]_{234-parliament} , [he]_1954-he had thrown up [[his]_1954-he place]_{1955-his place} ; and now , when [he]_1954-he asked leave to resume work , [he]_1954-he was told [they]_1956-they were diminishing [their]_1956-they number of hands every week , and [he]_1954-he was made aware by the remarks of [fellow workmen]_{1957-fellow workmen} , that [a Chartist delegate]_{1958-a chartist delegate} , and [a leading member of [a Trades ' Union]_{743-a trades ' union}]_{1959-a leading member of a trades ' union} , was not likely to be favoured in [his]_1954-he search after employment . Still [he]_1954-he tried to keep up a brave heart concerning [himself]_1954-he . [He]_1954-he knew [he]_1954-he could bear hunger ; for that power of endurance had been called forth when [he]_1954-he was [a little child]_{1319-a little child} , and had seen [[his]_1954-he mother]_{787-his mother} hide [her]_{787-his mother} daily morsel to share it among [[her]_{787-his mother} children]_{5064-her children} , and when [he]_1954-he , being [the eldest]_{1964-the eldest} , had told the noble lie , that " [he]_1954-he was not hungry , could not eat a bit more , "_[1954-he] in order to imitate [[his]_1954-he mother]_{787-his mother} 's bravery , and still the sharp wail of [the younger infants]_{1966-the younger infants} . [Mary]_145-mary , too , was secure of two meals a day at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' ; though , by the way , [the dress - maker]_{1967-the dress - maker} , too , feeling the effect of bad times , had left off giving tea to [[her]_{1967-the dress - maker} apprentices]_{1968-her apprentices} , setting [them]_{1968-her apprentices} the example of long abstinence by putting off [her]_145-mary own meal until work was done for the night , however late that might be . But the rent ! It was half - a - crown a week -- nearly all [Mary]_145-mary 's earnings -- and much less room might do for [them]_1969-them , only two.--(Now came the time to be thankful that [the early dead]_{1970-the early dead} were saved from the evil to [come.)--The agricultural labourer]_{1971-come.)--the agricultural labourer} generally has strong local attachments ; but they are far less common , almost obliterated , among [the inhabitants of [a town]_{1973-a town}]_{1972-the inhabitants of a town} . Still there are exceptions , and [Barton]_145-mary formed one . [He]_1954-he had removed to [[his]_1954-he present house]_{1974-his present house} just after the last bad times , when [little Tom]_138-thomas had sickened and died . [He]_1954-he had then thought the bustle of a removal would give [[his]_1954-he poor stunned wife]_{1975-his poor stunned wife} something to do , and [he]_1954-he had taken more interest in the details of the proceeding than [he]_1954-he otherwise would have done , in the hope of calling [her]_{1975-his poor stunned wife} forth to action again . So [he]_1954-he seemed to know every brass - headed nail driven up for [her]_{1975-his poor stunned wife} convenience . [One]_518-one only had been displaced . It was [Esther]_153-esther 's bonnet nail , which , in [his]_1954-he deep revengeful anger against [her]_{1975-his poor stunned wife} , after [[his]_1954-he wife]_{525-his wife} 's death , [he]_1954-he had torn out of the wall , and cast into [the street]_{4821-the street} . It would be hard work to leave [that house]_{1979-that house} , which yet seemed hallowed by [[his]_1954-he wife]_{525-his wife} 's presence in the happy days of old . But [he]_1954-he was a law unto [himself]_1954-he , though sometimes a bad , fierce law ; and [he]_1954-he resolved to give [the rent - collector]_{1981-the rent - collector} notice , and look out for [a cheaper abode]_{1982-a cheaper abode} , and tell [Mary]_145-mary [they]_1983-they must flit . [Poor Mary]_145-mary ! [she]_145-mary loved [the house]_{803-the house} , too . It was wrenching up [her]_145-mary natural feelings of [home]_4755-home , for it would be long before the fibres of [her]_145-mary heart would gather [themselves]_1983-they about another place . This trial was spared . [The collector]_{1986-the collector} ( of [himself]_1954-he ) , on the very Monday when [Barton]_145-mary planned to give [him]_1954-he notice of [his]_1954-he intention to leave , lowered the rent threepence a week , just enough to make [Barton]_145-mary compromise and agree to stay on a little longer . But by degrees [the house]_{803-the house} was stripped of [its]_{803-the house} little ornaments . Some were broken ; and the odd twopences and threepences wanted to pay for [their]_1983-they repairs , were required for the far sterner necessity of food . And by - and - bye [Mary]_145-mary began to part with other superfluities at [the pawn - shop]_{1303-the pawn - shop} . The smart tea - tray and tea - caddy , long and carefully kept , went for bread for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . [He]_{564-her father} did not ask for it , or complain , but [she]_145-mary saw hunger in [his]_{564-her father} shrunk , fierce , animal look . Then the blankets went , for it was summer time , and [they]_1990-they could spare [them]_1991-them ; and [their]_1990-they sale made a fund , which [Mary]_145-mary fancied would last till better times came . But it was soon all gone ; and then [she]_145-mary looked around [the room]_{616-the room} to crib [it]_{616-the room} of [its]_{616-the room} few remaining ornaments . To all these proceedings [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} said never a word . If [he]_{564-her father} fasted , or feasted ( after the sale of some article ) , on an unusual meal of bread and cheese , [he]_{564-her father} took all with a sullen indifference , which depressed [Mary]_145-mary 's heart . [She]_145-mary often wished [he]_{564-her father} would apply for relief from [[the Guardian]_{1994-the guardian} 's relieving office]_{1995-the guardian 's relieving office} ; often wondered [the Trades ' Union]_{1996-the trades ' union} did nothing for [him]_{564-her father} . Once when [she]_145-mary asked [him]_{564-her father} as [he]_{564-her father} sat , grimed , unshaven , and gaunt , after a day 's fasting over the fire , why [he]_{564-her father} did not get relief from [the town]_{1111-the town} , [he]_{564-her father} turned round , with grim wrath , and said , " [I]_{564-her father} do n't want money , [child]_4860-child ! D----n [their]_5705-their charity and [their]_5705-their money ! [I]_{564-her father} want work , and it is [my]_{564-her father} right . [I]_{564-her father} want work . "_{[564-her father]} [He]_{564-her father} would bear it all , [he]_{564-her father} said to [himself]_{564-her father} . And [he]_{564-her father} did bear it , but not meekly ; that was too much to expect . Real meekness of character is called out by experience of kindness . And [few]_1998-few had been kind to [him]_{564-her father} . Yet through it all , with stern determination [he]_{564-her father} refused the assistance [his]_{564-her father} Trades ' Union would have given [him]_{564-her father} . [It]_1999-it had not much to give , but with worldly wisdom , thought it better to propitiate [an active , useful member]_{2000-an active , useful member} , than to help those who were unenergetic , though [they]_2001-they had [large families to provide for]_{2002-large families to provide for} . Not so thought [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . With [him]_{131-john barton} need was right . " Give it to [Tom Darbyshire]_138-thomas , "_{[131-john barton]} [he]_{131-john barton} said . " [He]_138-thomas 's more claim on it than [me]_{131-john barton} , for [he]_138-thomas 's more need of it , with [[his]_138-thomas seven children]_{5706-his seven children} . "_{[131-john barton]} Now [Tom Darbyshire]_138-thomas was , in [his]_138-thomas listless , grumbling way , [a backbiting enemy of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's]_{2003-a backbiting enemy of john barton 's} . And [he]_138-thomas knew it ; but [he]_138-thomas was not to be influenced by that in a matter like this . [Mary]_145-mary went early to [her]_145-mary work ; but [her]_145-mary cheery laugh over it was now missed by [the other girls]_{2004-the other girls} . [Her]_145-mary mind wandered over the present distress , and then settled , as [she]_145-mary stitched , on the visions of the future , where yet [her]_145-mary thoughts dwelt more on the circumstances of ease , and the pomps and vanities awaiting [her]_145-mary , than on [the lover with whom [she]_145-mary was to share them]_{2005-the lover with whom she was to share them} . Still [she]_145-mary was not insensible to the pride of having attracted one so far above [herself]_145-mary in station ; not insensible to the secret pleasure of knowing that [he]_{2005-the lover with whom she was to share them} , whom so many admired , had often said [he]_{2005-the lover with whom she was to share them} would give any thing for one of [her]_145-mary sweet smiles . [Her]_145-mary love for [him]_{2005-the lover with whom she was to share them} was a bubble , blown out of vanity ; but it looked very real and very bright . [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally , meanwhile , keenly observed the signs of the times ; [she]_162-sally found out that [Mary]_145-mary had begun to affix a stern value to money as [the " Purchaser of Life]_{5707-the " purchaser of life} , "_[162-sally] and [many girls]_{2006-many girls} had been dazzled and lured by gold , even without the betraying love which [she]_162-sally believed to exist in [Mary]_145-mary 's heart . So [she]_162-sally urged [young Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , by representations of the want [she]_162-sally was sure surrounded [Mary]_145-mary , to bring matters more to a point . But [he]_{209-mr. carson} had a kind of instinctive dread of hurting [Mary]_145-mary 's pride of spirit , and durst not hint [his]_{209-mr. carson} knowledge in any way of the distress that [many]_1183-many must be enduring . [He]_{209-mr. carson} felt that for the present [he]_{209-mr. carson} must still be content with stolen meetings and summer evening strolls , and the delight of pouring sweet honeyed words into [her]_145-mary ear , while [she]_145-mary listened with a blush and a smile that made [her]_145-mary look radiant with beauty . No , [he]_{209-mr. carson} would be cautious in order to be certain ; for [Mary]_145-mary , one way or another , [he]_{209-mr. carson} must make [his]_{209-mr. carson} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} had no doubt of the effect of [his]_{209-mr. carson} own personal charms in the long run ; for [he]_{209-mr. carson} knew [he]_{209-mr. carson} was handsome , and believed [himself]_{209-mr. carson} fascinating . If [he]_{209-mr. carson} had known what [[Mary]_145-mary 's [home]_4755-home]_{2008-mary 's home} was , [he]_{209-mr. carson} would not have been so much convinced of [his]_{209-mr. carson} increasing influence over [her]_145-mary , by [her]_145-mary being more and more ready to linger with [him]_{209-mr. carson} in the sweet summer air . For when [she]_145-mary returned for the night [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was often out , and [the house]_{803-the house} wanted the cheerful look [it]_{803-the house} had had in the days when money was never wanted to purchase soap and brushes , black - lead and pipe - clay . It was dingy and comfortless ; for , of course , there was not even [the dumb familiar home - friend]_{2012-the dumb familiar home - friend} , a fire . And [Margaret]_157-margaret , too , was now so often from [home]_4755-home , singing at some of [those grand places]_{2014-those grand places} . And [Alice]_146-alice ; oh , [Mary]_145-mary wished [she]_145-mary had never left [[her]_145-mary cellar]_{1634-her cellar} to go and live at [Ancoats]_8-ancoats with [[her]_145-mary sister - in - law]_{5363-her sister - in - law} . For in that matter [Mary]_145-mary felt very guilty ; [she]_145-mary had put off and put off going to see [the widow]_{1229-the widow} after [George Wilson]_148-george 's death from dread of meeting [Jem]_154-jem , or giving [him]_154-jem reason to think [she]_145-mary wished to be as intimate with [him]_154-jem as formerly ; and now [she]_145-mary was so much ashamed of [her]_145-mary delay that [she]_145-mary was likely never to go at all . If [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was at [home]_4755-home it was no better ; indeed it was worse . [He]_{564-her father} seldom spoke , less than ever ; and often when [he]_{564-her father} did speak they were sharp angry words , such as [he]_{564-her father} had never given [her]_145-mary formerly . [Her]_145-mary temper was high , too , and [her]_145-mary answers not over - mild ; and once in [his]_{564-her father} passion [he]_{564-her father} had even beaten [her]_145-mary . If [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally or [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had been at hand at that moment , [Mary]_145-mary would have been ready to leave [home]_4755-home for ever . [She]_145-mary sat alone , after [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} had flung out of [the house]_{803-the house} , bitterly thinking on the days that were gone ; angry with [her]_145-mary own hastiness , and believing that [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} did not love [her]_145-mary ; striving to heap up one painful thought on another . Who cared for [her]_145-mary ? [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} might , but in this grief that seemed no comfort . [Mother]_4845-mother dead ! [Father]_245-father so often angry , so lately cruel ( for it was a hard blow , and blistered and reddened [Mary]_145-mary 's soft white skin with pain ): and then [her]_145-mary heart turned round , and [she]_145-mary remembered with self - reproach how provokingly [she]_145-mary had looked and spoken , and how much [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} had to bear ; and oh , what [a kind and loving parent]_{2026-a kind and loving parent} [he]_{564-her father} had been , till these days of trial . The remembrance of one little instance of [his]_{564-her father} fatherly love thronged after another into [her]_145-mary mind , and [she]_145-mary began to wonder how [she]_145-mary could have behaved to [him]_{564-her father} as [she]_145-mary had done . Then [he]_{564-her father} came [home]_4755-home ; and but for very shame [she]_145-mary would have confessed [her]_145-mary penitence in words . But [she]_145-mary looked sullen , from [her]_145-mary effort to keep down emotion ; and for some time [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} did not know how to begin to speak . At length [he]_{564-her father} gulped down pride , and said : " [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_{564-her father} 'm not above saying [I]_{564-her father} 'm very sorry [I]_{564-her father} beat [thee]_145-mary . [Thou]_5708-thou wert a bit aggravating , and [I]_{564-her father} 'm not [the man [I]_{564-her father} was]_{5709-the man i was} . But it were wrong , and [I]_{564-her father} 'll try never to lay hands on [thee]_145-mary again . "_{[564-her father]} So [he]_{564-her father} held out [his]_{564-her father} arms , and in many tears [she]_145-mary told [him]_{564-her father} [her]_145-mary repentance for [her]_145-mary fault . [He]_{564-her father} never struck [her]_145-mary again . Still , [he]_{564-her father} often was angry . But that was almost better than being silent . Then [he]_{564-her father} sat near [the fire - place]_{625-the fire - place} ( from habit ) , smoking , or chewing opium . Oh , how [Mary]_145-mary loathed that smell ! And in the dusk , just before it merged into the short summer night , [she]_145-mary had learned to look with dread towards the window , which now [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} would have kept uncurtained ; for there were not seldom seen sights which haunted [her]_145-mary in [her]_145-mary dreams . Strange faces of [pale men , with dark glaring eyes]_{2031-pale men , with dark glaring eyes} , peered into the inner darkness , and seemed desirous to ascertain if [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} were at [home]_4755-home . Or a hand and arm ( the body hidden ) was put within the door , and beckoned [him]_{564-her father} away . [He]_{564-her father} always went . And once or twice , when [Mary]_145-mary was in bed , [she]_145-mary heard [men]_1197-men 's voices below , in earnest , whispered talk . [They]_1197-men were [all desperate members of [Trades ' Unions]_{2036-trades ' unions}]_{2035-all desperate members of trades ' unions} , ready for any thing ; made ready by want . While all this change for gloom yet struck fresh and heavy on [Mary]_145-mary 's heart , [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} startled [her]_145-mary out of a reverie one evening , by asking [her]_145-mary when [she]_145-mary had been to see [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} . From [his]_{564-her father} manner of speaking , [she]_145-mary was made aware that [he]_{564-her father} had been ; but at the time of [his]_{564-her father} visit [he]_{564-her father} had never mentioned any thing about it . Now , however , [he]_{564-her father} gruffly told [her]_145-mary to go next day without fail , and added some abuse of [her]_145-mary for not having been before . The little outward impulse of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's speech gave [Mary]_145-mary the push which [she]_145-mary , in this instance , required ; and , accordingly , timing [her]_145-mary visit so as to avoid [Jem]_154-jem 's hours at [home]_4755-home , [she]_145-mary went the following afternoon to [Ancoats]_8-ancoats . The outside of [the well - known house]_{2040-the well - known house} struck [her]_145-mary as different ; for the door was closed , instead of open , as [it]_2041-it once had always stood . The window - plants , [George Wilson]_148-george 's pride and especial care , looked withering and drooping . [They]_2042-they had been without water for a long time , and now , when [the widow]_{1229-the widow} had reproached [herself]_{1229-the widow} severely for neglect , in [her]_{1229-the widow} ignorant anxiety , [she]_{1229-the widow} gave [them]_2042-they too much . On opening the door , [Alice]_146-alice was seen , not stirring about in [her]_146-alice habitual way , but knitting by the fire - side . [The room]_{616-the room} felt hot , although the fire burnt gray and dim , under the bright rays of the afternoon sun . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was " siding "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [ 39 ] the dinner things , and talking all the time , in a kind of whining , shouting voice , which [Mary]_145-mary did not at first understand . [She]_145-mary understood at once , however , that [her]_145-mary absence had been noted , and talked over ; [she]_145-mary saw a constrained look on [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's sorrow - stricken face , which told [her]_145-mary a scolding was to come . [ Footnote 39 : To " side , "_{[130-jane wilson]} to put aside , or in order . ] " [Dear Mary]_265-mary , is that [you]_265-mary ? "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary began . " Why , who would ha ' dreamt of seeing [you]_265-mary ! [We]_5710-we thought [you]_265-mary 'd clean forgotten [us]_5710-we ; and [Jem]_154-jem has often wondered if [he]_154-jem should know [you]_265-mary , if [he]_154-jem met [you]_265-mary in [the street]_{4821-the street} . "_[145-mary] Now , poor [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} had been sorely tried ; and at present [her]_{130-jane wilson} trials had had no outward effect , but that of increased acerbity of temper . [She]_{130-jane wilson} wished to show [Mary]_265-mary how much [she]_265-mary was offended , and meant to strengthen [her]_265-mary cause , by putting some of [her]_265-mary own sharp speeches into [Jem]_154-jem 's mouth . [Mary]_265-mary felt guilty , and had no good reason to give as an apology ; so for a minute [she]_265-mary stood silent , looking very much ashamed , and then turned to speak to [aunt [Alice]_266-mary , who , in [her]_266-mary surprised , hearty greeting to [Mary]_266-mary]_266-mary , had dropped [her]_266-mary ball of worsted , and was busy trying to set the thread to rights , before the kitten had entangled it past redemption , once round every chair , and twice round the table . " [You]_266-mary mun speak louder than that , if [you]_266-mary mean [her]_{130-jane wilson} to hear ; [she]_{130-jane wilson} become as deaf as a post this last few weeks . [I]_266-mary 'd ha ' told [you]_266-mary , if [I]_266-mary 'd remembered how long it were sin ' [you]_266-mary 'd seen [her]_{130-jane wilson} . "_[266-mary] " Yes , [[my]_266-mary dear]_{5712-my dear} , [I]_266-mary 'm getting very hard o ' hearing of late , "_[266-mary] said [Alice]_266-mary , catching the state of the case , with [her]_266-mary quick - glancing eyes . " [I]_266-mary suppose it 's the beginning of th ' end . "_[266-mary] " Do n't talk o ' that way , "_{[5363-her sister - in - law]} screamed [[her]_266-mary sister - in - law]_{5363-her sister - in - law} . " [We]_5713-we 've had enow of ends and deaths without forecasting more . "_{[5363-her sister - in - law]} [She]_{5363-her sister - in - law} covered [her]_{5363-her sister - in - law} face with [her]_{5363-her sister - in - law} apron , and sat down to cry . " [He]_5714-he was such [a good husband]_{905-a good husband} , "_{[5363-her sister - in - law]} said [she]_{5363-her sister - in - law} , in a less excited tone , to [Mary]_266-mary , as [she]_{5363-her sister - in - law} looked up with tear - streaming eyes from behind [her]_{5363-her sister - in - law} apron . " [No one]_{1202-no one} can tell what [I]_{5363-her sister - in - law} 've lost in [him]_5714-he , for [no one]_{1202-no one} knew [his]_5714-he worth like [me]_{5363-her sister - in - law} . "_{[5363-her sister - in - law]} [Mary]_266-mary 's listening sympathy softened [her]_266-mary , and [she]_266-mary went on to unburden [her]_266-mary heavy laden heart . " Eh , [dear]_5078-dear , [dear]_5078-dear ! [No one]_{1202-no one} knows what [I]_266-mary 've lost . When [[my]_266-mary poor boys]_{5721-my poor boys} went , [I]_266-mary thought [th ' Almighty]_{5722-th ' almighty} had crushed [me]_266-mary to th ' ground , but [I]_266-mary never thought o ' losing [George]_148-george ; [I]_266-mary did [na]_5723-na think [I]_266-mary could ha ' borne to [ha]_5724-ha ' lived without [him]_148-george . And yet [I]_266-mary 'm [here]_5235-here , and he's-- "_[266-mary] A fresh burst of crying interrupted [her]_266-mary speech . " [Mary,"--beginning]_{267-mary,"--beginning[266-mary]} to speak again,--"did [you]_5078-dear ever hear what [a poor creature]_{5726-a poor creature} [I]_266-mary were when [he]_148-george married [me]_266-mary ? And [he]_148-george such [a handsome fellow]_{5727-a handsome fellow} ! [Jem]_154-jem 's nothing to what [[his]_148-george father]_{902-his father} were at [his]_148-george age . "_[266-mary] Yes ! [Mary]_266-mary had heard , and so [she]_266-mary said . But [the poor woman]_{5062-the poor woman} 's thoughts had gone back to those days , and [her]_{5062-the poor woman} little recollections came out , with many interruptions of sighs , and tears , and shakes of the head . " There were nought about [me]_{5062-the poor woman} for [him]_148-george to choose [me]_{5062-the poor woman} . [I]_{5062-the poor woman} were just well enough afore that accident , but at after [I]_{5062-the poor woman} were downright plain . And there was [Bessy Witter]_{268-bessy witter} as would [ha]_5729-ha ' given [her]_{268-bessy witter} eyes for [him]_148-george ; [she]_{268-bessy witter} as is [Mrs. Carson]_226-harry now , for [she]_{268-bessy witter} were [a handsome lass]_{5730-a handsome lass} , although [I]_{5062-the poor woman} never could see [her]_{268-bessy witter} beauty then ; and [Carson]_226-harry warn't so much above [her]_{268-bessy witter} , as [they]_5731-they 're both above [us]_5732-us all now . "_{[5062-the poor woman]} [Mary]_266-mary went very red , and wished [she]_266-mary could help doing so , and wished also that [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} would tell [her]_266-mary more about [the father]_{513-the father} and mother of [[her]_266-mary lover]_{2048-her lover} ; but [she]_266-mary durst not ask , and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's thoughts soon returned to [[her]_266-mary husband]_{587-her husband} , and [their]_2050-we early married days . " If [you]_266-mary 'll believe [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [Mary]_266-mary , there never was such a born goose at [house]_686-house - keeping as [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} were ; and yet [he]_{587-her husband} married [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} ! [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} had been in [a factory]_{4754-a factory} sin ' five years old a'most , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} knew nought about cleaning , or cooking , let alone washing and such - like work . The day after [we]_2050-we were married [he]_{587-her husband} goes to [his]_{587-her husband} work at after breakfast , and says [he]_{587-her husband} , ' [Jenny]_269-jenny , [we]_2050-we 'll ha ' th ' cold beef , and potatoes , and that 's a dinner fit for [a prince]_{5735-a prince} . ' [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} were anxious to make [him]_{587-her husband} comfortable , [God]_224-god knows how anxious . And yet [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'd no notion how to cook a potato . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} know'd [they]_5736-they were boiled , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} know'd [their]_5736-they skins were taken off , and that were all . So [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} tidyed [[my]_{134-mrs. wilson} house]_{5737-my house} in a rough kind o ' way , and then [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} looked at that very clock up yonder , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} pointing at one that hung against the wall , " and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} seed it were nine o'clock , so , thinks [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} , th ' potatoes shall be well boiled at any rate , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} gets 'em on th ' fire in a jiffy ( that 's to say , as soon as [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could peel 'em , which were a tough job at first ) , and then [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} fell to unpacking [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} boxes ! and at twenty minutes past twelve [he]_{587-her husband} comes [home]_4755-home , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} had [th]_5739-th ' beef ready on th ' table , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} went to take the potatoes out o ' th ' pot ; but oh ! [Mary]_266-mary , th ' water had boiled away , and they were all a nasty brown mass , as smelt through all [the house]_{803-the house} . [He]_{587-her husband} said nought , and were very gentle ; but , oh , [Mary]_266-mary , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} cried so that afternoon . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} shall ne'er forget it ; no , never . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} made many a blunder at after , but none that fretted [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} like that . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [Father]_4863-father does not like [girls]_4752-girls to work in [factories]_{5743-factories} , "_[266-mary] said [Mary]_266-mary . " No , [I]_266-mary know [he]_4863-father does n't ; and reason good . [They]_4752-girls ought n't to go at after [they]_4752-girls 're married , that [I]_266-mary 'm very clear about . [I]_266-mary could reckon up "_[266-mary] ( counting with [her]_266-mary fingers ) " ay , [nine men]_{5744-nine men} [I]_266-mary know , as has been driven to [th ' public - house]_{5745-th ' public - house} by having [wives]_1235-wives as worked in [factories]_{5743-factories} ; [good folk]_{5748-good folk} , too , as thought there was no harm in putting [[their]_{5748-good folk} little ones]_{5749-their little ones} out at nurse , and letting [[their]_{5748-good folk} house]_{5750-their house} go all dirty , and [their]_{5748-good folk} fires all out ; and that was a place as was tempting for [a husband]_{5751-a husband} to stay in , was it ? [He]_{5751-a husband} soon finds out [gin - shops]_{5752-gin - shops} , where all is clean and bright , and where th ' fire blazes cheerily , and gives [a man]_{4855-a man} a welcome as it were . "_[266-mary] [Alice]_266-mary , who was standing near for the convenience of hearing , had caught much of this speech , and it was evident the subject had previously been discussed by [the women]_{630-the women} , for [she]_266-mary chimed in . " [I]_266-mary wish [[our]_5754-our [Jem]_154-jem]_{5755-our jem} could speak a word to [th ' Queen]_{1723-th ' queen} about factory work for [married women]_{5757-married women} . Eh ! but [he]_154-jem comes it strong , when once [yo]_266-mary get [him]_154-jem to speak about it . [Wife o ' his'n]_{5758-wife o ' his'n} will never work away fra ' [home]_4755-home . "_[266-mary] " [I]_266-mary say it 's [Prince Albert]_{270-prince albert} as ought to be asked how [he]_{270-prince albert} 'd like [[his]_{270-prince albert} missis]_{5760-his missis} to be from [home]_4755-home when [he]_{270-prince albert} comes in , tired and worn , and wanting [some one]_{5544-some one} to cheer [him]_{270-prince albert} ; and may be , [her]_{5758-wife o ' his'n} to come in by - and - bye , just as tired and down in [th]_5763-th ' mouth ; and how [he]_{270-prince albert} 'd like for [her]_{5758-wife o ' his'n} never to be at [home]_4755-home to see to th ' cleaning of [[his]_{270-prince albert} house]_{1071-his house} , or to keep a bright fire in [[his]_{270-prince albert} grate]_{5766-his grate} . Let alone [his]_{270-prince albert} meals being all [hugger - mugger]_{5767-hugger - mugger} and comfortless . [I]_266-mary 'd be bound , [prince]_5768-prince as [he]_{270-prince albert} is , if [[his]_{270-prince albert} missis]_{5760-his missis} served [him]_{270-prince albert} so , [he]_{270-prince albert} 'd be off to [a gin - palace]_{5770-a gin - palace} , or summut o ' that kind . So why ca n't [he]_{270-prince albert} make a law again [[poor folks]_{5771-poor folks} ' wives]_{5772-poor folks ' wives} working in [factories]_{5743-factories} ? "_[266-mary] [Mary]_266-mary ventured to say that [she]_266-mary thought [the Queen]_{2052-the queen} and [Prince Albert]_{270-prince albert} could not make laws , but the answer was , " Pooh ! do n't tell [me]_266-mary it 's not [the Queen]_{2052-the queen} as makes laws ; and is n't [she]_{2052-the queen} bound to obey [Prince Albert]_{270-prince albert} ? And if [he]_{270-prince albert} said [they]_5775-they must n't , why [she]_{2052-the queen} 'd say [they]_5775-they must n't , and then [all folk]_{5776-all folk} would say , oh no , [we]_5775-they never shall do any such thing no more . "_[266-mary] " [Jem]_154-jem 's getten on rarely , "_[266-mary] said [Alice]_266-mary , who had not heard [[her]_266-mary sister]_{1633-her sister} 's last burst of eloquence , and whose thoughts were still running on [[her]_266-mary nephew]_{2054-her nephew} , and [his]_{270-prince albert} various talents . " [He]_154-jem 's found out summut about a crank or a tank , [I]_266-mary forget rightly which it is , but [th ' master]_{5777-th ' master} 's made [him]_154-jem foreman , and [he]_154-jem all the while turning off hands ; but [he]_154-jem said [he]_154-jem could na part wi ' [Jem]_154-jem , nohow . [He]_154-jem 's good wage now : [I]_266-mary tell [him]_154-jem [he]_154-jem 'll be thinking of marrying soon , and [he]_154-jem deserves [a right down good wife]_{5778-a right down good wife} , that [he]_154-jem does . "_[266-mary] [Mary]_266-mary went very red , and looked annoyed , although there was a secret spring of joy deep down in [her]_266-mary heart , at hearing [Jem]_154-jem so spoken of . But [[his]_{270-prince albert} mother]_{787-his mother} only saw the annoyed look , and was piqued accordingly . [She]_{787-his mother} was not over and above desirous that [[her]_{787-his mother} son]_{2056-her son} should marry . [His]_154-jem presence in [the house]_{803-the house} seemed a relic of happier times , and [she]_{787-his mother} had some little jealousy of [[his]_154-jem future wife]_{1059-his future wife} , whoever [she]_{1059-his future wife} might be . Still [she]_{787-his mother} could not bear [any one]_{504-any one} not to feel gratified and flattered by [Jem]_154-jem 's preference , and full well [she]_{787-his mother} knew how above all others [he]_154-jem preferred [Mary]_266-mary . Now [she]_{787-his mother} had never thought [Mary]_266-mary good enough for [Jem]_154-jem , and [her]_{787-his mother} late neglect in coming to see [her]_266-mary still rankled a little in [her]_{787-his mother} breast . So [she]_{787-his mother} determined to invent a little , in order to do away with any idea [Mary]_266-mary might have that [Jem]_154-jem would choose [her]_266-mary for " [[his]_154-jem right down good wife]_{5779-his right down good wife} , "_{[787-his mother]} as [aunt Alice]_266-mary called it . " Ay , [he]_154-jem 'll be for taking [a wife]_{5780-a wife} soon , "_{[787-his mother]} and then , in a lower voice , as if confidentially , but really to prevent any contradiction or explanation from [[her]_{787-his mother} simple sister - in - law]_{2060-her simple sister - in - law} , [she]_{787-his mother} added , " It 'll not be long afore [Molly Gibson]_145-mary ( that 's [her]_145-mary at [th ' provision - shop]_{5781-th ' provision - shop} round the corner ) will hear a secret as will not displease [her]_145-mary , [I]_{787-his mother} 'm thinking . [She]_145-mary 's been casting [sheep]_5782-sheep 's eyes at [[our]_5783-our [Jem]_154-jem]_{5755-our jem} this many a day , but [he]_154-jem thought [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} would not give [her]_145-mary to [a common working man]_{5786-a common working man} ; but now [he]_154-jem 's as good as [her]_145-mary , every bit . [I]_{787-his mother} thought once [he]_154-jem 'd a fancy for [thee]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , but [I]_{787-his mother} donnot think yo'd ever ha ' suited , so it 's best as it is . "_{[787-his mother]} By an effort [Mary]_145-mary managed to keep down [her]_145-mary vexation , and to say , " [She]_145-mary hoped [he]_154-jem 'd be happy with [Molly Gibson]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary was very handsome , for certain . "_[145-mary] " Ay , and a notable body , too . [I]_145-mary 'll just step up stairs and show [you]_266-mary the patchwork quilt [she]_145-mary gave [me]_145-mary but last Saturday . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary was glad [she]_145-mary was going out of [the room]_{616-the room} . [Her]_145-mary words irritated [her]_145-mary ; perhaps not the less because [she]_145-mary did not fully believe them . Besides [she]_145-mary wanted to speak to [Alice]_266-mary , and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} seemed to think that [she]_145-mary , as [the widow]_{1229-the widow} , ought to absorb all the attention . " [Dear Alice]_{272-dear alice} , "_[266-mary] began [Mary]_266-mary , " [I]_266-mary 'm so grieved to find [you]_{272-dear alice} so deaf ; it must have come on very rapid . "_[266-mary] " Yes , [dear]_5078-dear , it 's a trial ; [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'll not deny it . Pray [God]_224-god give [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} strength to find out its teaching . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} felt it sore one fine day when [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} thought [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'd go gather some meadow - sweet to make tea for [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} 's cough ; and [the fields]_{638-the fields} seemed so dree and still , and at first [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could na make out what was wanting ; and then it struck [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} it were th ' song o ' the birds , and that [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} never should hear [their]_5789-their sweet music no more , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could na help crying a bit . But [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 've much to be thankful for . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} think [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'm a comfort to [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} , if [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'm only [some one to scold now and then]_{5790-some one to scold now and then} ; poor body ! It takes off [her]_{130-jane wilson} thoughts from [her]_{130-jane wilson} sore losses when [she]_{130-jane wilson} can scold a bit . If [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} eyes are left [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can do well enough ; [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can guess at what [folk]_5093-folk are saying . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} The splendid red and yellow patch quilt now made its appearance , and [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} would not be satisfied unless [Mary]_266-mary praised it all over , border , centre , and ground - work , right side and wrong ; and [Mary]_266-mary did [her]_266-mary duty , saying all the more , because [she]_266-mary could not work [herself]_266-mary up to any very hearty admiration of [[her]_266-mary rival]_{2063-her rival} 's present . [She]_266-mary made haste , however , with [her]_266-mary commendations , in order to avoid encountering [Jem]_154-jem . As soon as [she]_266-mary was fairly away from [the house]_{803-the house} and [street]_5398-street , [she]_266-mary slackened [her]_266-mary pace , and began to think . Did [Jem]_154-jem really care for [Molly Gibson]_145-mary ? Well , if [he]_154-jem did , let [him]_154-jem . [People]_4744-people seemed all to think [he]_154-jem was much too good for [her]_266-mary ( [Mary]_145-mary 's own self ) . Perhaps [some one else , far more handsome , and far more grand]_{2067-some one else , far more handsome , and far more grand} , would show [him]_154-jem one day that [she]_266-mary was good enough to be [Mrs. Henry Carson]_226-harry . So temper , or what [Mary]_145-mary called " spirit , "_[266-mary] led [her]_266-mary to encourage [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} more than ever [she]_266-mary had done before . Some weeks after this , there was a meeting of [the Trades ' Union]_{1996-the trades ' union} to which [John Barton]_{131-john barton} belonged . The morning of the day on which it was to take place [he]_{131-john barton} had lain late in bed , for what was the use of getting up ? [He]_{131-john barton} had hesitated between the purchase of meal or opium , and had chosen the latter , for its use had become a necessity with [him]_{131-john barton} . [He]_{131-john barton} wanted it to relieve [him]_{131-john barton} from the terrible depression its absence occasioned . A large lump seemed only to bring [him]_{131-john barton} into a natural state , or what had been [his]_{131-john barton} natural state formerly . Eight o'clock was the hour fixed for the meeting ; and at it were read letters , filled with details of woe , from [all parts of [the country]_{422-the country}]_{2069-all parts of the country} . Fierce , heavy gloom brooded over [the assembly]_{2071-the assembly} ; and fiercely and heavily did [the men]_{1152-the men} separate , towards eleven o'clock , some irritated by the opposition of [others]_737-others to [their]_{1152-the men} desperate plans . It was not a night to cheer [them]_{1152-the men} , as [they]_{1152-the men} quitted the glare of [the gas - lighted room]_{2074-the gas - lighted room} , and came out into [the street]_{4821-the street} . Unceasing , soaking rain was falling ; the very lamps seemed obscured by the damp upon the glass , and [their]_{1152-the men} light reached but to a little distance from the posts . [The streets]_{772-the streets} were cleared of [passers - by]_{2077-passers - by} ; [not a creature]_{2078-not a creature} seemed stirring , except here and there [a drenched policeman in [his]_{2079-a drenched policeman in his oil - skin cape} oil - skin cape]_{2079-a drenched policeman in his oil - skin cape} . [Barton]_{131-john barton} wished [the others]_{2080-the others} good night , and set off [home]_4755-home . [He]_{131-john barton} had gone through [a street]_{1347-a street} or two , when [he]_{131-john barton} heard a step behind [him]_{131-john barton} ; but [he]_{131-john barton} did not care to look and see who it was . A little further , and [the person quickened step]_{2083-the person quickened step} , and touched [his]_{131-john barton} arm very lightly . [He]_{131-john barton} turned , and saw , even by the darkness visible of [that badly - lighted street]_{2084-that badly - lighted street} , that [the woman who stood by [him]_{131-john barton}]_{2085-the woman who stood by him} was of no doubtful profession . It was told by [her]_{2085-the woman who stood by him} faded finery , all unfit to meet the pelting of that pitiless storm ; the gauze bonnet , once pink , now dirty white ; the muslin gown , all draggled , and soaking wet up to the very knees ; the gay - coloured barège shawl , closely wrapped round the form , which yet shivered and shook , as [the woman]_{681-the woman} whispered : " [I]_{681-the woman} want to speak to [you]_{131-john barton} . "_{[681-the woman]} [He]_{131-john barton} swore an oath , and bade [her]_{681-the woman} begone . " [I]_{681-the woman} really do . Do n't send [me]_{681-the woman} away . [I]_{681-the woman} 'm so out of breath , [I]_{681-the woman} can not say what [I]_{681-the woman} would all at once . "_{[681-the woman]} [She]_{681-the woman} put [her]_{681-the woman} hand to [her]_{681-the woman} side , and caught [her]_{681-the woman} breath with evident pain . " [I]_{681-the woman} tell [thee]_{131-john barton} [I]_{681-the woman} 'm not [the man for [thee]_{131-john barton}]_{5792-the man for thee} , "_{[681-the woman]} adding an opprobrious name . " Stay , "_{[131-john barton]} said [he]_{131-john barton} , as a thought suggested by [her]_{681-the woman} voice flashed across [him]_{131-john barton} . [He]_{131-john barton} gripped [her]_{681-the woman} arm -- the arm [he]_{131-john barton} had just before shaken off , and dragged [her]_{681-the woman} , faintly resisting , to the nearest lamp - post . [He]_{131-john barton} pushed [her]_{681-the woman} bonnet back , and roughly held the face [she]_{681-the woman} would fain have averted , to the light , and in [her]_{681-the woman} large , unnaturally bright gray eyes , [her]_{681-the woman} lovely mouth , half open , as if imploring the forbearance [she]_{681-the woman} could not ask for in words , [he]_{131-john barton} saw at once the long - lost [Esther]_153-esther ; [she]_153-esther who had caused [[his]_{131-john barton} wife]_{525-his wife} 's death . Much was like [the gay creature of former years]_{2088-the gay creature of former years} ; but the glaring paint , the sharp features , the changed expression of the whole ! But most of all , [he]_{131-john barton} loathed the dress ; and yet [the poor thing]_{2089-the poor thing} , out of [her]_{681-the woman} little choice of attire , had put on the plainest [she]_{681-the woman} had , to come on that night 's errand . " So it 's [thee]_{681-the woman} , is it ! It 's [thee]_{681-the woman} ! "_{[131-john barton]} exclaimed [John]_{131-john barton} , as [he]_{131-john barton} ground [his]_{131-john barton} teeth , and shook [her]_{681-the woman} with passion . " [I]_{131-john barton} 've looked for [thee]_{681-the woman} long at [corners o ' streets]_{5793-corners o ' streets} , and such like [places]_5794-places . [I]_{131-john barton} knew [I]_{131-john barton} should find [thee]_{681-the woman} at last . [Thee'll]_{681-the woman} may be bethink [thee]_{681-the woman} o ' some words [I]_{131-john barton} spoke , which put [thee]_{681-the woman} up at th ' time ; summut about [street - walkers]_{5795-street - walkers} ; but oh no ! [thou]_{681-the woman} art none o ' [them]_{5795-street - walkers} naughts ; [no one]_{1202-no one} thinks [thou]_{681-the woman} art , who sees [thy]_{681-the woman} fine draggle - tailed dress , and [thy]_{681-the woman} pretty pink cheeks ! "_{[131-john barton]} stopping for very want of breath . " Oh , mercy ! [John]_{131-john barton} , mercy ! listen to [me]_2090-she for [Mary]_145-mary 's sake ! "_[2090-she] [She]_2090-she meant [[his]_2091-his daughter]_{724-his daughter} , but the name only fell on [his]_2091-his ear as belonging to [[his]_2091-his wife]_{525-his wife} ; and it was adding fuel to the fire . In vain did [her]_2090-she face grow deadly pale round the vivid circle of paint , in vain did [she]_2090-she gasp for mercy,--he burst forth again . " And [thou]_{681-the woman} names that name to [me]_2094-me ! and [thou]_{681-the woman} thinks the thought of [her]_2090-she will bring [thee]_{681-the woman} mercy ! Dost [thou]_{681-the woman} know it was [thee]_{681-the woman} who killed [her]_2090-she , as sure as ever [Cain]_273-cain killed [Abel]_274-abel . [She]_2090-she 'd loved [thee]_{681-the woman} as [her]_2090-she own , and [she]_2090-she trusted [thee]_{681-the woman} as [her]_2090-she own , and when [thou]_{681-the woman} wert gone [she]_2090-she never held up head again , but died in less than a three week ; and at the judgment day [she]_2090-she 'll rise , and point to [thee]_{681-the woman} as [[her]_2090-she murderer]_{5797-her murderer} ; or if [she]_2090-she do n't , [I]_2094-me will . "_[2094-me] [He]_2094-me flung [her]_2095-her , trembling , sickening , fainting , from [him]_2094-me , and strode away . [She]_2095-her fell with a feeble scream against the lamp - post , and lay there in [her]_2095-her weakness , unable to rise . [A policeman]_{4806-a policeman} came up in time to see the close of these occurrences , and concluding from [Esther]_153-esther 's unsteady , reeling fall , that [she]_2095-her was tipsy , [he]_{4806-a policeman} took [her]_2095-her in [her]_2095-her half - unconscious state to the lock - ups for the night . [The superintendent of that abode of vice and misery]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} was roused from [his]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} dozing watch through the dark hours , by half - delirious wails and moanings , which [he]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} reported as arising from intoxication . If [he]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} had listened , [he]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} would have heard these words , repeated in various forms , but always in the same anxious , muttering way . " [He]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} would not listen to [me]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} ; what can [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} do ? [He]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} would not listen to [me]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} , and [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} wanted to warn [him]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} ! Oh , what shall [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} do to save [[Mary]_145-mary 's child]_{5798-mary 's child} ? What shall [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} do ? How can [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} keep [her]_{5798-mary 's child} from being such a one as [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} am ; such [a wretched , loathsome creature]_{5799-a wretched , loathsome creature} ! [She]_{5798-mary 's child} was listening just as [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} listened , and loving just as [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} loved , and the end will be just like [my]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} end . How shall [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} save [her]_{5798-mary 's child} ? [She]_{5798-mary 's child} wo n't hearken to warning , or heed it more than [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} did ; and who loves [her]_{5798-mary 's child} well enough to watch over [her]_{5798-mary 's child} as [she]_{5798-mary 's child} should be watched ? [God]_224-god keep [her]_{5798-mary 's child} from harm ! And yet [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} wo n't pray for [her]_{5798-mary 's child} ; sinner that [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} am ! Can [my]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} prayers be heard ? No ! [they]_5800-they 'll only do harm . How shall [I]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} save [her]_{5798-mary 's child} ? [He]_{209-mr. carson} would not listen to [me]_{2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery} . "_{[2097-the superintendent of that abode of vice and misery]} So the night wore away . The next morning [she]_2098-she was taken up to [the New Bailey]_{58-the new bailey} . It was a clear case of disorderly vagrancy , and [she]_2098-she was committed to [prison]_2099-prison for a month . How much might happen in that time ! CHAPTER XI . [MR . CARSON]_{209-mr. carson} 'S INTENTIONS REVEALED . " O [Mary]_145-mary , canst [thou]_5801-thou wreck [his]_{209-mr. carson} peace , Wha for [thy]_5801-thou sake wad gladly die ? Or canst [thou]_5801-thou break that heart of [his]_{209-mr. carson} , Whase only faut is loving [thee]_5801-thou ? "_[275-burns] [BURNS]_275-burns . " [I]_275-burns can like of the wealth , [I]_275-burns must confess , Yet more [I]_275-burns prize [the man]_{708-the man} , though moneyless ; [I]_275-burns am not of [their]_{708-the man} humour yet that can For title or estate affect [a man]_{4855-a man} ; Or of [myself]_275-burns one body deign to make With [him]_{4855-a man} [I]_275-burns loathe , for [his]_{4855-a man} possessions ' sake . "_[275-burns] [WITHER]_276-wither 'S " [FIDELIA]_277-fidelia . "_[276-wither] [Barton]_{131-john barton} returned [home]_4755-home after [his]_{131-john barton} encounter with [Esther]_153-esther , uneasy and dissatisfied . [He]_{131-john barton} had said no more than [he]_{131-john barton} had been planning to say for years , in case [she]_153-esther was ever thrown in [his]_{131-john barton} way , in the character in which [he]_{131-john barton} felt certain [he]_{131-john barton} should meet [her]_153-esther . [He]_{131-john barton} believed [she]_153-esther deserved it all , and yet [he]_{131-john barton} now wished [he]_{131-john barton} had not said it . [Her]_153-esther look , as [she]_153-esther asked for mercy , haunted [him]_{131-john barton} through [his]_{131-john barton} broken and disordered sleep ; [her]_153-esther form , as [he]_{131-john barton} last saw [her]_153-esther , lying prostrate in helplessness , would not be banished from [his]_{131-john barton} dreams . [He]_{131-john barton} sat up in bed to try and dispel the vision . Now , too late , [his]_{131-john barton} conscience smote [him]_{131-john barton} for [his]_{131-john barton} harshness . It would have been all very well , [he]_{131-john barton} thought , to have said what [he]_{131-john barton} did , if [he]_{131-john barton} had added some kind words , at last . [He]_{131-john barton} wondered if [[his]_{131-john barton} dead wife]_{2101-his dead wife} was conscious of that night 's occurrence ; and [he]_{131-john barton} hoped not , for with [her]_{2101-his dead wife} love for [Esther]_153-esther [he]_{131-john barton} believed it would embitter [Heaven]_278-heaven to have seen [her]_{2101-his dead wife} so degraded and repulsed . For [he]_{131-john barton} now recalled [her]_{2101-his dead wife} humility , [her]_{2101-his dead wife} tacit acknowledgment of [her]_{2101-his dead wife} lost character ; and [he]_{131-john barton} began to marvel if there was power in the religion [he]_{131-john barton} had often heard of , to turn [her]_{2101-his dead wife} from [her]_{2101-his dead wife} ways . [He]_{131-john barton} felt that no earthly power that [he]_{131-john barton} knew of could do it , but there glimmered on [his]_{131-john barton} darkness the idea that religion might save [her]_{2101-his dead wife} . Still , where to find [her]_{2101-his dead wife} again ? In [the wilderness of [a large town]_{2103-a large town}]_{2102-the wilderness of a large town} , where to meet with [an individual of so little value or note to any]_{2104-an individual of so little value or note to any} ? And evening after evening [he]_{131-john barton} paced [those streets in which [he]_{131-john barton} had heard [her]_{2101-his dead wife} footsteps following [him]_{131-john barton} , peering under every fantastic , discreditable bonnet]_{2105-those streets in which he had heard her footsteps following him , peering under every fantastic , discreditable bonnet} , in the hopes of once more meeting [Esther]_153-esther , and addressing [her]_{2101-his dead wife} in a far different manner from what [he]_{131-john barton} had done before . But [he]_{131-john barton} returned , night after night , disappointed in [his]_{131-john barton} search , and at last gave it up in despair , and tried to recall [his]_{131-john barton} angry feelings towards [her]_{2101-his dead wife} , in order to find relief from [his]_{131-john barton} present self - reproach . [He]_{131-john barton} often looked at [Mary]_145-mary , and wished [she]_145-mary were not so like [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} , for the very bodily likeness seemed to suggest the possibility of a similar likeness in [their]_2107-their fate ; and then this idea enraged [his]_{131-john barton} irritable mind , and [he]_{131-john barton} became suspicious and anxious about [Mary]_145-mary 's conduct . Now hitherto [she]_{2101-his dead wife} had been so remarkably free from all control , and almost from all inquiry concerning [her]_{2101-his dead wife} actions , that [she]_{2101-his dead wife} did not brook this change in [[her]_{2101-his dead wife} father]_{564-her father} 's behaviour very well . Just when [she]_{2101-his dead wife} was yielding more than ever to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's desire of frequent meetings , it was hard to be so questioned concerning [her]_{2101-his dead wife} hours of leaving off work , whether [she]_{2101-his dead wife} had come straight [home]_4755-home , & amp;c . [She]_{2101-his dead wife} could not tell lies ; though [she]_{2101-his dead wife} could conceal much if [she]_{2101-his dead wife} were not questioned . So [she]_{2101-his dead wife} took refuge in obstinate silence , alleging as a reason for it [her]_{2101-his dead wife} indignation at being so cross - examined . This did not add to the good feeling between [father]_4863-father and [daughter]_858-daughter , and yet [they]_2112-they dearly loved [each other]_{436-each other} ; and in the minds of each , one principal reason for maintaining such behaviour as displeased [the other]_{1048-the other} , was the believing that this conduct would insure [that person]_{2115-that person} 's happiness . [[Her]_{2101-his dead wife} father]_{564-her father} now began to wish [Mary]_145-mary were married . Then this terrible superstitious fear suggested by [her]_145-mary likeness to [Esther]_153-esther would be done away with . [He]_{564-her father} felt that [he]_{564-her father} could not resume the reins [he]_{564-her father} had once slackened . But with [a husband]_{5751-a husband} it would be different . If [Jem Wilson]_154-jem would but marry [her]_145-mary ! With [his]_154-jem character for steadiness and talent ! But [he]_{564-her father} was afraid [Mary]_145-mary had slighted [him]_{564-her father} , [he]_{564-her father} came so seldom now to [the house]_{803-the house} . [He]_{564-her father} would ask [her]_145-mary . " [Mary]_145-mary , what 's come o'er [thee]_145-mary and [Jem Wilson]_154-jem ? [Yo]_145-mary were [great friends]_{5804-great friends} at one time . "_{[564-her father]} " Oh , [folk]_5093-folk say [he]_154-jem 's going to be married to [Molly Gibson]_145-mary , and of course courting takes up a deal o ' time , "_[145-mary] answered [Mary]_145-mary , as indifferently as [she]_145-mary could . " [Thou'st]_5806-thou'st played [thy]_5806-thou'st cards badly , then , "_{[564-her father]} replied [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , in a surly tone . " At one time [he]_154-jem were desperate fond o ' [thee]_145-mary , or [I]_{564-her father} 'm much mistaken . Much fonder of [thee]_145-mary than [thou]_5806-thou'st deservedst . "_{[564-her father]} " That 's as [people]_4744-people think , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , pertly , for [she]_145-mary remembered that the very morning before [she]_145-mary had met [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , who had sighed , and swore , and protested all manner of tender vows that [she]_145-mary was [the loveliest , sweetest , best , & amp;c]_{2120-the loveliest , sweetest , best , & amp;c} . And when [she]_145-mary had seen [him]_{209-mr. carson} afterwards riding with [one of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} beautiful sisters]_{2122-his beautiful sisters}]_{2121-one of his beautiful sisters} , had [he]_{209-mr. carson} not evidently pointed [her]_145-mary out as in some way or other an object worthy of attention and interest , and then lingered behind [[his]_{209-mr. carson} sister]_{1630-his sister} 's horse for a moment to kiss [his]_{209-mr. carson} hand repeatedly . So , as for [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , [she]_145-mary could whistle [him]_154-jem down the wind . But [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was not in the mood to put up with pertness , and [he]_{564-her father} upbraided [her]_145-mary with the loss of [Jem Wilson]_154-jem till [she]_145-mary had to bite [her]_145-mary lips till the blood came , in order to keep down the angry words that would rise in [her]_145-mary heart . At last [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} left [the house]_{803-the house} , and then [she]_145-mary might give way to [her]_145-mary passionate tears . It so happened that [Jem]_154-jem , after much anxious thought , had determined that day to " put [his]_154-jem fate to the touch , to win or lose it all . "_[154-jem] [He]_154-jem was in a condition to maintain [a wife]_{5780-a wife} in comfort . It was true [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} and [aunt]_2129-aunt must form part of [the household]_{2130-the household} ; but such is not an uncommon case among [the poor]_{4790-the poor} , and if there were the advantage of previous friendship between [the parties]_{2132-the parties} , it was not , [he]_154-jem thought , an obstacle to matrimony . [Both [mother]_4845-mother]_{2133-both mother} and [aunt]_2129-aunt [he]_154-jem believed would welcome [Mary]_145-mary . And oh ! what a certainty of happiness the idea of that welcome implied . [He]_154-jem had been absent and abstracted all day long with the thought of the coming event of the evening . [He]_154-jem almost smiled at [himself]_154-jem for [his]_154-jem care in washing and dressing in preparation for [his]_154-jem visit to [Mary]_145-mary . As if one waistcoat or another could decide [his]_154-jem fate in so passionately momentous a thing . [He]_154-jem believed [he]_154-jem only delayed before [his]_154-jem little looking - glass for cowardice , for absolute fear of [a girl]_{577-a girl} . [He]_154-jem would try not to think so much about the affair , and [he]_154-jem thought the more . [Poor Jem]_154-jem ! it is not an auspicious moment for [thee]_154-jem ! " Come in , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , as [some one]_{5544-some one} knocked at the door , while [she]_145-mary sat sadly at [her]_145-mary sewing , trying to earn a few pence by working over hours at some mourning . [Jem]_154-jem entered , looking more awkward and abashed than [he]_154-jem had ever done before . Yet [here]_5235-here was [Mary]_145-mary all alone , just as [he]_154-jem had hoped to find [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary did not ask [him]_154-jem to take a chair , but after standing a minute or two [he]_154-jem sat down near [her]_145-mary . " Is [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} at [home]_4755-home , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[154-jem] said [he]_154-jem , by way of making an opening , for [she]_145-mary seemed determined to keep silence , and went on stitching away . " No , [he]_{1640-your father} 's gone to [[his]_{1640-your father} Union]_{5810-his union} , [I]_145-mary suppose . "_[145-mary] Another silence . It was no use waiting , thought [Jem]_154-jem . The subject would never be led to by any talk [he]_154-jem could think of in [his]_154-jem anxious fluttered state . [He]_154-jem had better begin at once . " [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[154-jem] said [he]_154-jem , and the unusual tone of [his]_154-jem voice made [her]_145-mary look up for an instant , but in that time [she]_145-mary understood from [his]_154-jem countenance what was coming , and [her]_145-mary heart beat so suddenly and violently [she]_145-mary could hardly sit still . Yet one thing [she]_145-mary was sure of ; nothing [he]_154-jem could say should make [her]_145-mary have [him]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary would show [them]_2139-them all _ who _ would be glad to have [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary was not yet calm after [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's irritating speeches . Yet [her]_145-mary eyes fell veiled before that passionate look fixed upon [her]_145-mary . " Dear [Mary]_145-mary ! ( for how dear [you]_145-mary are , [I]_145-mary can not rightly tell [you]_145-mary in words ) . It 's no new story [I]_145-mary 'm going to speak about . [You]_145-mary must ha ' seen and known it long ; for since [we]_5811-we were [boy]_5812-boy and [girl]_5813-girl , [I]_145-mary ha ' loved [you]_145-mary above [father]_4863-father and [mother]_4845-mother and all ; and all [I]_145-mary 've thought on by day and dreamt on by night , has been something in which [you]_145-mary 've had a share . [I]_145-mary 'd no way of keeping [you]_145-mary for long , and [I]_145-mary scorned to try and tie [you]_145-mary down ; and [I]_145-mary lived in terror lest [some one else]_{5816-some one else} should take [you]_145-mary to [himself]_{5816-some one else} . But now , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_145-mary 'm foreman in th ' works , and , dear [Mary]_145-mary ! listen , "_[145-mary] as [she]_2141-she , in [her]_2141-she unbearable agitation , stood up and turned away from [him]_2142-him . [He]_2142-him rose , too , and came nearer , trying to take hold of [her]_2141-she hand ; but this [she]_2141-she would not allow . [She]_2141-she was bracing [herself]_2141-she up to refuse [him]_2142-him , for once and for all . " And now , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_2143-i 've a home to offer [you]_145-mary , and a heart as true as ever [man]_5236-man had to love [you]_145-mary and cherish [you]_145-mary ; [we]_5818-we shall never be [rich folk]_{5819-rich folk} , [I]_2143-i dare say ; but if a loving heart and a strong right arm can shield [you]_145-mary from sorrow , or from want , [mine]_2143-i shall do it . [I]_2143-i can not speak as [I]_2143-i would like ; [my]_2143-i love wo n't let itself be put in words . But oh ! [darling]_5820-darling , say [you]_145-mary believe [me]_2143-i , and that [you]_145-mary 'll be [mine]_2143-i . "_[2143-i] [She]_2143-i could not speak at once ; [her]_2143-i words would not come . " [Mary]_145-mary , [they]_5821-they say silence gives consent ; is it so ? "_[2144-me] [he]_2144-me whispered . Now or never the effort must be made . " No ! it does not with [me]_2143-i . "_[2143-i] [Her]_2143-i voice was calm , although [she]_2143-i trembled from head to foot . " [I]_2143-i will always be [[your]_2144-me friend]_{5822-your friend} , [Jem]_154-jem , but [I]_2143-i can never be [[your]_2144-me wife]_{4817-your wife} . "_[2143-i] " Not [[my]_2144-me wife]_{4735-my wife} ! "_[2144-me] said [he]_2144-me , mournfully . " Oh [Mary]_145-mary , think awhile ! [you]_145-mary can not be [[my]_2144-me friend]_{5825-my friend} if [you]_145-mary will not be [[my]_2144-me wife]_{4735-my wife} . At least [I]_2144-me can never be content to be only [[your]_145-mary friend]_{5822-your friend} . Do think awhile ! If [you]_145-mary say No [you]_145-mary will make [me]_2144-me hopeless , desperate . It 's no love of yesterday . It has made the very groundwork of all that [people]_4744-people call good in [me]_2144-me . [I]_2144-me do n't know what [I]_2144-me shall be if [you]_145-mary wo n't have [me]_2144-me . And , [Mary]_145-mary ! think how glad [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} would be ! it may sound vain , but [he]_{1640-your father} 's told [me]_2144-me more than once how much [he]_{1640-your father} should like to see [[us]_5830-us two]_{5831-us two} married ! "_[2144-me] [Jem]_154-jem intended this for a powerful argument , but in [Mary]_145-mary 's present mood it told against [him]_154-jem more than any thing ; for it suggested the false and foolish idea , that [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , in [his]_{564-her father} evident anxiety to promote [her]_145-mary marriage with [Jem]_154-jem , had been speaking to [him]_154-jem on the subject with some degree of solicitation . " [I]_{564-her father} tell [you]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem , it can not be . Once for all , [I]_{564-her father} will never marry [you]_154-jem . "_{[564-her father]} " And is this the end of all [my]_154-jem hopes and fears ? the end of [my]_154-jem life , [I]_154-jem may say , for it is the end of all worth living for ! "_[154-jem] [His]_154-jem agitation rose and carried [him]_154-jem into passion . " [Mary]_145-mary ! [you]_145-mary 'll hear , may be , of [me]_154-jem as [a drunkard]_{5207-a drunkard} , and may be as [a thief]_{5833-a thief} , and may be as [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} . Remember ! when all are speaking ill of [me]_154-jem , [you]_145-mary will have no right to blame [me]_154-jem , for it 's [your]_145-mary cruelty that will have made [me]_154-jem what [I]_154-jem feel [I]_154-jem shall become . [You]_145-mary wo n't even say [you]_145-mary 'll try and like [me]_154-jem ; will [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[154-jem] said [he]_154-jem , suddenly changing [his]_154-jem tone from threatening despair to fond passionate entreaty , as [he]_154-jem took [her]_2146-her hand and held it forcibly between both of [his]_154-jem , while [he]_154-jem tried to catch a glimpse of [her]_2146-her averted face . [She]_2146-her was silent , but it was from deep and violent emotion . [He]_154-jem could not bear to wait ; [he]_154-jem would not hope , to be dashed away again ; [he]_154-jem rather in [his]_154-jem bitterness of heart chose the certainty of despair , and before [she]_2146-her could resolve what to answer , [he]_154-jem flung away [her]_2146-her hand and rushed out of [the house]_{803-the house} . " [Jem]_154-jem ! [Jem]_154-jem ! "_[2146-her] cried [she]_2146-her , with faint and choking voice . It was too late ; [he]_154-jem left street after [street]_5398-street behind [him]_154-jem with [his]_154-jem almost winged speed , as [he]_154-jem sought [the fields]_{638-the fields} , where [he]_154-jem might give way unobserved to all the deep despair [he]_154-jem felt . It was scarcely ten minutes since [he]_154-jem had entered [the house]_{803-the house} , and found [Mary]_145-mary at comparative peace , and now [she]_145-mary lay half across the dresser , [her]_145-mary head hidden in [her]_145-mary hands , and every part of [her]_145-mary body shaking with the violence of [her]_145-mary sobs . [She]_145-mary could not have told at first ( if [you]_2151-you had asked [her]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary could have commanded voice enough to answer ) why [she]_145-mary was in such agonised grief . It was too sudden for [her]_145-mary to analyse , or think upon it . [She]_145-mary only felt that by [her]_145-mary own doing [her]_145-mary life would be hereafter dreary and blank . By - and - bye [her]_145-mary sorrow exhausted [her]_145-mary body by its power , and [she]_145-mary seemed to have no strength left for crying . [She]_145-mary sat down ; and now thoughts crowded on [her]_145-mary mind . One little hour ago , and all was still unsaid , and [she]_145-mary had [her]_145-mary fate in [her]_145-mary own power . And yet , how long ago had [she]_145-mary determined to say pretty much what [she]_145-mary did , if the occasion ever offered . It was as if [two people]_{2152-two people} were arguing the matter ; that mournful , desponding communion between [her]_145-mary former self and [her]_145-mary present self . [Herself]_145-mary , a day , an hour ago ; and [herself]_145-mary now . For [we]_2153-we have [every one of [us]_2153-we]_{2154-every one of us} felt how a very few minutes of the months and years called life , will sometimes suffice to place all time past and future in an entirely new light ; will make [us]_2153-we see the vanity or the criminality of the bye - gone , and so change the aspect of the coming time , that [we]_2153-we look with loathing on the very thing [we]_2153-we have most desired . A few moments may change [our]_2153-we character for life , by giving a totally different direction to [our]_2153-we aims and energies . To return to [Mary]_145-mary . [Her]_145-mary plan had been , as [we]_2153-we well know , to marry [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , and the occurrence an hour ago was only a preliminary step . True ; but it had unveiled [her]_145-mary heart to [her]_145-mary ; it had convinced [her]_145-mary [she]_145-mary loved [Jem]_154-jem above all persons or things . But [Jem]_154-jem was [a poor mechanic]_{2155-a poor mechanic} , with [a mother]_{883-a mother} and [aunt to keep]_{2157-aunt to keep} ; [a mother]_{883-a mother} , too , who had shown [her]_145-mary pretty clearly [she]_{883-a mother} did not desire [her]_145-mary for [a daughter - in - law]_{2159-a daughter - in - law} : while [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was rich , and prosperous , and gay , and ( [she]_145-mary believed ) would place [her]_145-mary in all circumstances of ease and luxury , where want could never come . What were these hollow vanities to [her]_145-mary , now [she]_145-mary had discovered the passionate secret of [her]_145-mary soul ? [She]_145-mary felt as if [she]_145-mary almost hated [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , who had decoyed [her]_145-mary with [his]_{209-mr. carson} baubles . [She]_145-mary now saw how vain , how nothing to [her]_145-mary , would be all gaieties and pomps , all joys and pleasures , unless [she]_145-mary might share them with [Jem]_154-jem ; yes , with [him]_154-jem [she]_145-mary harshly rejected so short a time ago . If [he]_154-jem were poor , [she]_145-mary loved [him]_154-jem all the better . If [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} did think [her]_145-mary unworthy of [him]_154-jem , what was it but the truth , as [she]_145-mary now owned with bitter penitence . [She]_145-mary had hitherto been walking in grope - light towards a precipice ; but in the clear revelation of that past hour , [she]_145-mary saw [her]_145-mary danger , and turned away resolutely and for ever . That was some comfort : [I]_0-i mean [her]_145-mary clear perception of what [she]_145-mary ought not to do ; of what no luring temptation should ever again induce [her]_145-mary to hearken to . How [she]_145-mary could best undo the wrong [she]_145-mary had done to [Jem]_154-jem and [herself]_145-mary by refusing [his]_154-jem love , was another anxious question . [She]_145-mary wearied [herself]_145-mary with proposing plans , and rejecting them . [She]_145-mary was roused to a consciousness of time by hearing the neighbouring church clock strike twelve . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} [she]_145-mary knew might be expected [home]_4755-home any minute , and [she]_145-mary was in no mood for a meeting with [him]_{564-her father} . So [she]_145-mary hastily gathered up [her]_145-mary work , and went to [[her]_145-mary own little bed - room]_{2163-her own little bed - room} , leaving [him]_{564-her father} to let [himself]_{564-her father} in . [She]_145-mary put out [her]_145-mary candle , that [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} might not see its light under the door ; and sat down on [her]_145-mary bed to think . But after turning things over in [her]_145-mary mind again and again , [she]_145-mary could only determine at once to put an end to all further communication with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , in the most decided way [she]_145-mary could . Maidenly modesty ( and true love is ever modest ) seemed to oppose every plan [she]_145-mary could think of , for showing [Jem]_154-jem how much [she]_145-mary repented [her]_145-mary decision against [him]_154-jem , and how dearly [she]_145-mary had now discovered that [she]_145-mary loved [him]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary came to the unusual wisdom of resolving to do nothing , but try and be patient , and improve circumstances as they might turn up . Surely , if [Jem]_154-jem knew of [her]_145-mary remaining unmarried , [he]_154-jem would try [his]_154-jem fortune again . [He]_154-jem would never be content with one rejection ; [she]_145-mary believed [she]_145-mary could not in [his]_154-jem place . [She]_145-mary had been very wrong , but now [she]_145-mary would try and do right , and have womanly patience , until [he]_154-jem saw [her]_145-mary changed and repentant mind in [her]_145-mary natural actions . Even if [she]_145-mary had to wait for years , it was no more than now it was easy to look forward to , as a penance for [her]_145-mary giddy flirting on the one hand , and [her]_145-mary cruel mistake concerning [her]_145-mary feelings on the other . So anticipating a happy ending to the course of [her]_145-mary love , however distant it might be , [she]_145-mary fell asleep just as the earliest factory bells were ringing . [She]_145-mary had sunk down in [her]_145-mary clothes , and [her]_145-mary sleep was unrefreshing . [She]_145-mary wakened up shivery and chill in body , and sorrow - stricken in mind , though [she]_145-mary could not at first rightly tell the cause of [her]_145-mary depression . [She]_145-mary recalled the events of the night before , and still resolved to adhere to those determinations [she]_145-mary had then formed . But patience seemed a far more difficult virtue this morning . [She]_145-mary hastened down - [stairs]_4740-stairs , and in [her]_145-mary earnest sad desire to do right , now took much pains to secure a comfortable though scanty breakfast for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ; and when [he]_{564-her father} dawdled into [the room]_{616-the room} , in an evidently irritable temper , [she]_145-mary bore all with the gentleness of penitence , till at last [her]_145-mary mild answers turned away wrath . [She]_145-mary loathed the idea of meeting [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally at [her]_145-mary daily work ; yet it must be done , and [she]_145-mary tried to nerve [herself]_145-mary for the encounter , and to make it at once understood , that having determined to give up having any thing further to do with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , [she]_145-mary considered the bond of intimacy broken between [them]_2168-them . But [Sally]_162-sally was not [the person to let these resolutions be carried into effect]_{2169-the person to let these resolutions be carried into effect} too easily . [She]_162-sally soon became aware of the present state of [Mary]_145-mary 's feelings , but [she]_162-sally thought they merely arose from the changeableness of girlhood , and that the time would come when [Mary]_145-mary would thank [her]_162-sally for almost forcing [her]_162-sally to keep up [her]_162-sally meetings and communications with [[her]_145-mary rich lover]_{2170-her rich lover} . So , when two days had passed over in rather too marked avoidance of [Sally]_162-sally on [Mary]_145-mary 's part , and when [the former]_{2171-the former} was made aware by [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's complaints that [Mary]_145-mary was not keeping [her]_145-mary appointments with [him]_{209-mr. carson} , and that unless [he]_{209-mr. carson} detained [her]_145-mary by force , [he]_{209-mr. carson} had no chance of obtaining a word as [she]_145-mary passed [him]_{209-mr. carson} in [the street]_{4821-the street} on [her]_145-mary rapid walk [home]_4755-home , [she]_145-mary resolved to compel [Mary]_145-mary to what [she]_145-mary called [her]_145-mary own good . [She]_145-mary took no notice during the third day of [Mary]_145-mary 's avoidance as [they]_2174-they sat at work ; [she]_145-mary rather seemed to acquiesce in the coolness of [their]_2174-they intercourse . [She]_145-mary put away [her]_145-mary sewing early , and went [home]_4755-home to [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} , who , [she]_145-mary said , was more ailing than usual . [The other girls]_{2004-the other girls} soon followed [her]_145-mary example , and [Mary]_145-mary , casting a rapid glance up and down [the street]_{4821-the street} , as [she]_145-mary stood last on [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' door - step , darted homewards , in hopes of avoiding [the person whom [she]_145-mary was fast learning to dread]_{2179-the person whom she was fast learning to dread} . That night [she]_145-mary was safe from any encounter on [[her]_145-mary road]_{2180-her road} , and [she]_145-mary arrived at [home]_4755-home , which [she]_145-mary found as [she]_145-mary expected , empty ; for [she]_145-mary knew it was a club night , which [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} would not miss . [She]_145-mary sat down to recover breath , and to still [her]_145-mary heart , which panted more from nervousness than from over - exertion , although [she]_145-mary had walked so quickly . Then [she]_145-mary rose , and taking off [her]_145-mary bonnet , [her]_145-mary eye caught the form of [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally passing the window with a lingering step , and looking into the darkness with all [her]_145-mary might , as if to ascertain if [Mary]_145-mary were returned . In an instant [she]_145-mary re - passed and knocked at [the house]_{803-the house} - door , but without awaiting an answer , [she]_145-mary entered . " Well , [Mary]_145-mary , [dear]_5078-dear "_[145-mary] ( knowing well how little " dear "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary considered [her]_145-mary just then ) ; " [i]_145-mary 's so difficult to get any comfortable talk at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' , [I]_145-mary thought [I]_145-mary 'd just step up and see [you]_145-mary at [home]_4755-home . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary understood from what [you]_145-mary said [[your]_145-mary mother]_{4848-your mother} was ailing , and that [you]_145-mary wanted to be with [her]_{4848-your mother} , "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , in no welcoming tone . " Ay , but [mother]_4845-mother 's better now , "_{[2184-the unabashed sally]} said [the unabashed Sally]_{2184-the unabashed sally} . " [[Your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} 's out [I]_145-mary suppose ? "_[145-mary] looking round as well as [she]_145-mary could ; for [Mary]_145-mary made no haste to perform the hospitable offices of striking a match , and lighting a candle . " Yes , [he]_{1640-your father} 's out , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , shortly , and busying [herself]_145-mary at last about the candle , without ever asking [[her]_145-mary visitor]_{5529-her visitor} to sit down . " So much the better , "_[162-sally] answered [Sally]_162-sally , " for to tell [you]_145-mary the truth , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_162-sally 've [a friend at th ' end of [the street]_{4821-the street}]_{5840-a friend at th ' end of the street} , as is anxious to come and see [you]_145-mary at [home]_4755-home , since [you]_145-mary 're grown so particular as not to like to speak to [him]_{1640-your father} in [the street]_{4821-the street} . [He]_{1640-your father} 'll be [here]_5235-here directly . "_[162-sally] " Oh , [Sally]_162-sally , do n't let [him]_{1640-your father} , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , speaking at last heartily ; and running to the door [she]_145-mary would have fastened it , but [Sally]_162-sally held [her]_162-sally hands , laughing meanwhile at [her]_162-sally distress . " Oh , please , [Sally]_162-sally , "_[162-sally] struggling , " [dear Sally]_162-sally ! do n't let [him]_{1640-your father} come here , [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} will so talk , and [father'll]_{5846-father'll} go mad if [he]_{1640-your father} hears ; [he]_{1640-your father} 'll kill [me]_162-sally , [Sally]_162-sally , [he]_{1640-your father} will . Besides , [I]_162-sally do n't love [him]_{1640-your father} -- [I]_162-sally never did . Oh , let [me]_162-sally go , "_[162-sally] as footsteps approached ; and then , as [they]_2186-they passed [the house]_{803-the house} , and seemed to give [her]_162-sally a respite , [she]_162-sally continued , " Do , [Sally]_162-sally , dear [Sally]_162-sally , go and tell [him]_{1640-your father} [I]_162-sally do n't love [him]_{1640-your father} , and that [I]_162-sally do n't want to have any thing more to do with [him]_{1640-your father} . It was very wrong , [I]_162-sally dare say , keeping company with [him]_{1640-your father} at all , but [I]_162-sally 'm very sorry , if [I]_162-sally 've led [him]_{1640-your father} to think too much of [me]_162-sally ; and [I]_162-sally do n't want [him]_{1640-your father} to think any more . Will [you]_162-sally tell [him]_{1640-your father} this , [Sally]_162-sally ? and [I]_162-sally 'll do any thing for [you]_162-sally if [you]_162-sally will . "_[162-sally] " [I]_162-sally 'll tell [you]_162-sally what [I]_162-sally 'll do , "_[162-sally] said [Sally]_162-sally , in a more relenting mood , " [I]_162-sally 'll go back with [you]_162-sally to where [he]_{1640-your father} 's waiting for [us]_5847-us ; or rather , [I]_162-sally should say , where [I]_162-sally told [him]_{1640-your father} to wait for a quarter of an hour , till [I]_162-sally seed if [[your]_162-sally father]_{1640-your father} was at [home]_4755-home ; and if [I]_162-sally did n't come back in that time , [he]_{1640-your father} said [he]_{1640-your father} 'd come here , and break the door open but [he]_{1640-your father} 'd see [you]_162-sally . "_[162-sally] " Oh , let [us]_5850-us go , let [us]_5850-us go , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , feeling that the interview must be , and had better be anywhere than at [home]_4755-home , where [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} might return at any minute . [She]_145-mary snatched up [her]_145-mary bonnet , and was at the end of [the court]_{604-the court} in an instant ; but then , not knowing whether to turn to the right or to the left , [she]_145-mary was obliged to wait for [Sally]_162-sally , who came leisurely up , and put [her]_162-sally arm through [Mary]_145-mary 's , with a kind of decided hold , intended to prevent the possibility of [her]_162-sally changing [her]_162-sally mind , and turning back . But this , under the circumstances , was quite different to [Mary]_145-mary 's plan . [She]_145-mary had wondered more than once if [she]_145-mary must not have another interview with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; and had then determined , while [she]_145-mary expressed [her]_145-mary resolution that it should be the final one , to tell [him]_{209-mr. carson} how sorry [she]_145-mary was if [she]_145-mary had thoughtlessly given [him]_{209-mr. carson} false hopes . For be it remembered , [she]_145-mary had the innocence , or the ignorance , to believe [his]_{209-mr. carson} intentions honourable ; and [he]_{209-mr. carson} , feeling that at any price [he]_{209-mr. carson} must have [her]_145-mary , only that [he]_{209-mr. carson} would obtain [her]_145-mary as cheaply as [he]_{209-mr. carson} could , had never undeceived [her]_145-mary ; while [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally laughed in [her]_162-sally sleeve at [them]_2191-them both , and wondered how it would all end,--whether [Mary]_145-mary would gain [her]_145-mary point of marriage , with [her]_145-mary sly affectation of believing such to be [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's intention in courting [her]_145-mary . Not very far from the end of [the street]_{4821-the street} , into which [the court where [Mary]_145-mary lived opened]_{2193-the court where mary lived opened} , [they]_2191-them met [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , [his]_{209-mr. carson} hat a good deal slouched over [his]_{209-mr. carson} face as if afraid of being recognised . [He]_{209-mr. carson} turned when [he]_{209-mr. carson} saw [them]_2191-them coming , and led the way without uttering a word ( although [they]_2191-them were close behind ) to [a street of [half - finished houses]_{2195-half - finished houses}]_{2194-a street of half - finished houses} . The length of the walk gave [Mary]_145-mary time to recoil from the interview which was to follow ; but even if [her]_145-mary own resolve to go through with it had failed , there was the steady grasp of [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally , which [she]_145-mary could not evade without an absolute struggle . At last [he]_{209-mr. carson} stopped in the shelter and concealment of a wooden fence , put up to keep the building rubbish from intruding on the foot - pavement . Inside this fence , a minute afterwards , [the girls]_{505-the girls} were standing by [him]_{209-mr. carson} ; [Mary]_145-mary now returning [Sally]_162-sally 's detaining grasp with interest , for [she]_145-mary had determined on the way to make [her]_162-sally [a witness]_{2197-a witness} , willing or unwilling , to the ensuing conversation . But [Sally]_162-sally 's curiosity led [her]_162-sally to be a very passive prisoner in [Mary]_145-mary 's hold . With more freedom than [he]_{209-mr. carson} had ever used before , [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} put [his]_{209-mr. carson} arm firmly round [Mary]_145-mary 's waist , in spite of [her]_145-mary indignant resistance . " Nay , nay ! [you little witch]_{5851-you little witch} ! Now [I]_{209-mr. carson} have caught [you]_145-mary , [I]_{209-mr. carson} shall keep [you]_145-mary prisoner . Tell [me]_{209-mr. carson} now what has made [you]_145-mary run away from [me]_{209-mr. carson} so fast these few days -- tell [me]_{209-mr. carson} , [[you]_145-mary sweet little coquette]_{5852-you sweet little coquette} ! "_{[209-mr. carson]} [Mary]_145-mary ceased struggling , but turned so as to be almost opposite to [him]_{209-mr. carson} , while [she]_145-mary spoke out calmly and boldly , " [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ! [I]_145-mary want to speak to [you]_{209-mr. carson} for once and for all . Since [I]_145-mary met [you]_145-mary last Monday evening , [I]_145-mary have made up [my]_145-mary mind to have nothing more to do with [you]_145-mary . [I]_145-mary know [I]_145-mary 've been wrong in leading [you]_145-mary to think [I]_145-mary liked [you]_145-mary ; but [I]_145-mary believe [I]_145-mary did n't rightly know [my]_145-mary own mind ; and [I]_145-mary humbly beg [your]_145-mary pardon , [sir]_5232-sir , if [I]_145-mary 've led [you]_145-mary to think too much of [me]_145-mary . "_[145-mary] For an instant [he]_2198-you was surprised ; the next , vanity came to [his]_2198-you aid , and convinced [him]_2198-you that [she]_2199-she could only be joking . [He]_2198-you , [young , agreeable , rich , handsome]_{2200-young , agreeable , rich , handsome} ! No ! [she]_2199-she was only showing a little womanly fondness for coquetting . " [You]_2198-you 're [a darling little rascal to go on in this way]_{5854-a darling little rascal to go on in this way} ! ' Humbly begging [my]_2199-she pardon if [you]_2199-she 've made [me]_2199-she think too much of [you]_2198-you . ' As if [you]_145-mary did n't know [I]_2199-she think of [you]_2198-you from morning to night . But [you]_145-mary want to be told it again and again , do [you]_145-mary ? "_[2199-she] " No , indeed , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_2201-you do n't . [I]_2201-you would far liefer [ 40 ] that [you]_145-mary should say [you]_145-mary will never think of [me]_2201-you again , than that [you]_145-mary should speak of [me]_2201-you in this way . For indeed , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_2201-you never was more in earnest than [I]_2201-you am , when [I]_2201-you say to - night is the last night [I]_2201-you will ever speak to [you]_145-mary . "_[2201-you] [ Footnote 40 : " [Liefer]_279-liefer , "_[2201-you] rather . " Yet had [I]_2201-you _ levre _ unwist for sorrow die . "_[2201-you] _ [Chaucer]_232-chaucer ; " [Troilus]_280-troilus and [Creseide]_59-creseide . "_[2201-you] _ ] " Last night , [[you]_2202-you sweet little equivocator]_{5857-you sweet little equivocator} , but not last day . Ha , [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_2201-you 've caught [you]_2202-you , have [I]_2201-you ? "_[2201-you] as [she]_2201-you , puzzled by [his]_2202-you perseverance in thinking [her]_2201-you joking , hesitated in what form [she]_2201-you could now put [her]_2201-you meaning . " [I]_2201-you mean , [sir]_5232-sir , "_[2201-you] [she]_2201-you said , sharply , " that [I]_2201-you will never speak to [you]_2202-you again at any time , after to - night . "_[2201-you] " And what 's made this change , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[2202-you] said [he]_2202-you , seriously enough now . " Have [I]_2202-you done any thing to offend [you]_2201-you ? "_[2202-you] added [he]_2202-you , earnestly . " No , [sir]_5232-sir , "_[2201-you] [she]_2201-you answered gently , but yet firmly . " [I]_2201-you can not tell [you]_2202-you exactly why [I]_2201-you 've changed [my]_2201-you mind ; but [I]_2201-you shall not alter it again ; and as [I]_2201-you said before , [I]_2201-you beg [your]_2202-you pardon if [I]_2201-you 've done wrong by [you]_2202-you . And now , [sir]_5232-sir , if [you]_2202-you please , good night . "_[2201-you] " But [I]_2202-you do not please . [You]_2201-you shall not go . What have [I]_2202-you done , [Mary]_145-mary ? Tell [me]_2202-you . [You]_2201-you must not go without telling [me]_2202-you how [I]_2202-you have vexed [you]_2201-you . What would [you]_2202-you have [me]_2202-you do ? "_[2202-you] " Nothing , [sir]_5232-sir ! but ( in an agitated tone ) oh ! let [me]_2201-you go ! [You]_2202-you can not change [my]_2201-you mind ; it 's quite made up . Oh , [sir]_5232-sir ! why do [you]_5232-sir hold [me]_2201-you so tight ? If [you]_5232-sir _ will _ know why [I]_2201-you wo n't have any thing more to do with [you]_2201-you , it is that [I]_2201-you can not love [you]_2201-you . [I]_2201-you have tried , and [I]_2201-you really can not . "_[2201-you] [This naive and candid avowal]_{2203-this naive and candid avowal} served [her]_2204-her but little . [He]_2205-he could not understand how it could be true . Some reason lurked behind . [He]_2205-he was passionately in love . What should [he]_2205-he do to tempt [her]_2204-her ? A thought struck [him]_2205-he . " Listen ! [Mary]_145-mary . Nay , [I]_281-deep can not let [you]_2201-you go till [you]_2201-you have heard [me]_281-deep . [I]_281-deep do love [you]_2201-you dearly ; and [I]_281-deep wo n't believe but what [you]_2201-you love [me]_281-deep a very little , just a very little . Well , if [you]_2201-you do n't like to own it , never mind ! [I]_281-deep only want now to tell [you]_2201-you how much [I]_281-deep love [you]_2201-you , by what [I]_281-deep am ready to give up for [you]_2201-you . [You]_2201-you know ( or perhaps [you]_2201-you are not fully aware ) how little [[my]_281-deep father]_{5863-my father} and [mother]_4845-mother would like [me]_281-deep to marry [you]_2201-you . So angry would [they]_5865-they be , and so much ridicule should [I]_281-deep have to brave , that of course [I]_281-deep have never thought of it till now . [I]_281-deep thought [we]_5866-we could be happy enough without marriage . "_[281-deep] ( [Deep]_281-deep sank those words into [Mary]_145-mary 's heart . ) " But now , if [you]_2201-you like , [I]_281-deep 'll get a licence to - morrow morning -- nay , to - night , and [I]_281-deep 'll marry [you]_2201-you in defiance of all [the world]_{1479-the world} , rather than give [you]_2201-you up . In a year or two [[my]_281-deep father]_{5863-my father} will forgive [me]_281-deep , and meanwhile [you]_2201-you shall have every luxury money can purchase , and every charm that love can devise to make [your]_2201-you life happy . After all , [[my]_281-deep mother]_{4875-my mother} was but [a factory girl]_{5870-a factory girl} . "_[281-deep] ( This was said half to [himself]_281-deep , as if to reconcile [himself]_281-deep to this bold step . ) " Now , [Mary]_145-mary , [you]_2201-you see how willing [I]_281-deep am to -- to sacrifice a good deal for [you]_2201-you ; [I]_281-deep even offer [you]_2201-you marriage , to satisfy [your]_2201-you little ambitious heart ; so , now , wo n't [you]_2201-you say [you]_2201-you can love [me]_281-deep a little , little bit ? "_[281-deep] [He]_281-deep pulled [her]_2206-she towards [him]_281-deep . To [his]_281-deep surprise , [she]_2206-she still resisted . Yes ! though all [she]_2206-she had pictured to [herself]_2206-she for so many months in being [the wife of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson}]_{2207-the wife of mr. carson} was now within [her]_2206-she grasp , [she]_2206-she resisted . [His]_281-deep speech had given [her]_2206-she but one feeling , that of exceeding great relief . For [she]_2206-she had dreaded , now [she]_2206-she knew what true love was , to think of the attachment [she]_2206-she might have created ; the deep feeling [her]_2206-she flirting conduct might have called out . [She]_2206-she had loaded [herself]_2206-she with reproaches for the misery [she]_2206-she might have caused . It was a relief to gather that the attachment was of that low , despicable kind , which can plan to seduce the object of its affection ; that the feeling [she]_2206-she had caused was shallow enough , for it only pretended to embrace self , at the expense of the misery , the ruin , of [one falsely termed beloved]_{2208-one falsely termed beloved} . [She]_2206-she need not be penitent to [such a plotter]_{2209-such a plotter} ! That was the relief . " [I]_2210-i am obliged to [you]_281-deep , [sir]_5232-sir , for telling [me]_2210-i what [you]_281-deep have . [You]_281-deep may think [I]_2210-i am [a fool]_{5872-a fool} ; but [I]_2210-i did think [you]_281-deep meant to marry [me]_2210-i all along ; and yet , thinking so , [I]_2210-i felt [I]_2210-i could not love [you]_281-deep . Still [I]_2210-i felt sorry [I]_2210-i had gone so far in keeping company with [you]_281-deep . Now , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_2210-i tell [you]_281-deep , if [I]_2210-i had loved [you]_281-deep before , [I]_2210-i do n't think [I]_2210-i should have loved [you]_281-deep now [you]_281-deep have told [me]_2210-i [you]_281-deep meant to ruin [me]_2210-i ; for that 's the plain English of not meaning to marry [me]_2210-i till just this minute . [I]_2210-i said [I]_2210-i was sorry , and humbly begged [your]_281-deep pardon ; that was before [I]_2210-i knew what [you]_281-deep were . Now [I]_2210-i scorn [you]_281-deep , [sir]_5232-sir , for plotting to ruin [a poor girl]_{5875-a poor girl} . Good night . "_[2210-i] And with a wrench , for which [she]_2210-i had reserved all [her]_2210-i strength , [she]_2210-i was off like a bolt . [They]_2211-they heard [her]_2210-i flying footsteps echo down [the quiet street]_{2212-the quiet street} . The next sound was [Sally]_162-sally 's laugh , which grated on [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's ears , and keenly irritated [him]_{209-mr. carson} . " And what do [you]_162-sally find so amusing , [Sally]_162-sally ? "_{[209-mr. carson]} asked [he]_{209-mr. carson} . " Oh , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_162-sally beg [your]_281-deep pardon . [I]_162-sally humbly beg [your]_281-deep pardon , as [Mary]_145-mary says , but [I]_162-sally ca n't help laughing , to think how [she]_162-sally 's outwitted [us]_2211-they . "_[162-sally] ( [She]_162-sally was going to have said , " outwitted [you]_{209-mr. carson} , "_[162-sally] but changed the pronoun . ) " Why , [Sally]_162-sally , had [you]_{209-mr. carson} any idea [she]_162-sally was going to fly out in this style ? "_[162-sally] " No , [I]_162-sally had n't , to be sure . But if [you]_{209-mr. carson} did think of marrying [her]_162-sally , why ( if [I]_162-sally may be so bold as to ask ) did [you]_{209-mr. carson} go and tell [her]_162-sally [you]_{209-mr. carson} had no thought of doing otherwise by [her]_162-sally ? That was what put [her]_162-sally up at last ! "_[162-sally] " Why [I]_162-sally had repeatedly before led [her]_162-sally to infer that marriage was not [my]_162-sally object . [I]_162-sally never dreamed [she]_162-sally could have been so foolish as to have mistaken [me]_162-sally , little provoking romancer though [she]_162-sally be ! So [I]_162-sally naturally wished [her]_162-sally to know what a sacrifice of prejudice , of -- of [myself]_162-sally , in short , [I]_162-sally was willing to make for [her]_162-sally sake ; yet [I]_162-sally do n't think [she]_162-sally was aware of it after all . [I]_162-sally believe [I]_162-sally might have [any lady in [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{5877-any lady in manchester} if [I]_162-sally liked , and yet [I]_162-sally was willing and ready to marry [a poor dress - maker]_{5878-a poor dress - maker} . Do n't [you]_5879-you understand [me]_162-sally now ? and do n't [you]_5879-you see what a sacrifice [I]_162-sally was making to humour [her]_162-sally ? and all to no avail . "_[162-sally] [Sally]_162-sally was silent , so [he]_2213-you went on : " [[My]_2213-you father]_{5863-my father} would have forgiven any temporary connexion , far sooner than [my]_2213-you marrying one so far beneath [me]_2213-you in rank . "_[2213-you] " [I]_162-sally thought [you]_2213-you said , [sir]_5232-sir , [[your]_2213-you mother]_{4848-your mother} was [a factory girl]_{5870-a factory girl} , "_[162-sally] reminded [Sally]_162-sally , rather maliciously . " Yes , yes!--but then [[my]_162-sally father]_{5863-my father} was in much such a station ; at any rate , there was not the disparity there is between [Mary]_145-mary and [me]_162-sally . "_[162-sally] Another pause . " Then [you]_2213-you mean to give [her]_162-sally up , [sir]_5232-sir ? [She]_162-sally made no bones of saying [she]_162-sally gave [you]_2213-you up . "_[162-sally] " No , [I]_2213-you do not mean to give [her]_162-sally up , whatever [you]_2213-you and [she]_162-sally may please to think . [I]_2213-you am more in love with [her]_162-sally than ever ; even for this charming capricious ebullition of [hers]_162-sally . [She]_162-sally 'll come round , [you]_2213-you may depend upon it . [Women]_4730-women always do . [They]_4730-women always have second thoughts , and find out that [they]_4730-women are best in casting off [a lover]_{1055-a lover} . Mind ! [I]_2213-you do n't say [I]_2213-you shall offer [her]_162-sally the same terms again . "_[2213-you] With a few more words of no importance , [the allies]_{2214-the allies} parted . CHAPTER XII . [OLD ALICE]_146-alice 'S [BAIRN]_282-bairn . " [I]_282-bairn lov'd [him]_282-bairn not ; and yet , now [he]_282-bairn is gone , [I]_282-bairn feel [I]_282-bairn am alone . [I]_282-bairn check'd [him]_282-bairn while [he]_282-bairn spoke ; yet , could [he]_282-bairn speak , Alas ! [I]_282-bairn would not check . For reasons not to love [him]_282-bairn once [I]_282-bairn sought , And wearied all [my]_282-bairn thought . "_[282-bairn] [W. S. LANDOR]_{283-w. s. landor} . And now [Mary]_145-mary had , as [she]_145-mary thought , dismissed both [[her]_145-mary lovers]_{2215-her lovers} . But [they]_{2215-her lovers} looked on [their]_{2215-her lovers} dismissals with very different eyes . [He]_2216-his who loved [her]_145-mary with all [his]_2216-his heart and with all [his]_2216-his soul , considered [his]_2216-his rejection final . [He]_2216-his did not comfort [himself]_2216-his with the idea , which would have proved so well founded in [his]_2216-his case , that [women]_4730-women have second thoughts about casting off [[their]_4730-women lovers]_{2218-their lovers} . [He]_2216-his had too much respect for [his]_2216-his own heartiness of love to believe [himself]_2216-his unworthy of [Mary]_145-mary ; that [mock humble conceit]_{2219-mock humble conceit} did not enter [his]_2216-his head . [He]_2216-his thought [he]_2216-his did not " hit [Mary]_145-mary 's fancy ; "_[2216-his] and though that may sound a trivial every - day expression , yet the reality of it cut [him]_2216-his to the heart . Wild visions of enlistment , of drinking [himself]_2216-his into forgetfulness , of becoming desperate in some way or another , entered [his]_2216-his mind ; but then the thought of [[his]_2216-his mother]_{787-his mother} stood like an angel with a drawn sword in the way to sin . For , [you]_2221-you know , " [he]_2216-his was [the only son of [[his]_2216-his mother]_{787-his mother}]_{5888-the only son of his mother} , and [she]_{787-his mother} was [a widow]_{5890-a widow} ; "_[2221-you] dependent on [him]_2216-his for daily bread . So [he]_2216-his could not squander away health and time , which were to [him]_2216-his money wherewith to support [her]_{787-his mother} failing years . [He]_2216-his went to [his]_2216-his work , accordingly , to all outward semblance just as usual ; but with a heavy , heavy heart within . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , as [we]_2222-we have seen , persevered in considering [Mary]_145-mary 's rejection of [him]_2216-his as merely [a " charming caprice]_{5891-a " charming caprice} . "_{[5891-a " charming caprice]} If [she]_145-mary were at work , [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally was sure to slip a passionately loving note into [her]_145-mary hand , and then so skilfully move away from [her]_145-mary side , that [Mary]_145-mary could not all at once return it , without making some sensation among [the work - women]_{2223-the work - women} . [She]_145-mary was even forced to take several [home]_4755-home with [her]_145-mary . But after reading one , [she]_145-mary determined on [her]_145-mary plan . [She]_145-mary made no great resistance to receiving them from [Sally]_162-sally , but kept them unopened , and occasionally returned them in a blank half - sheet of paper . But far worse than this , was the being so constantly waylaid as [she]_145-mary went [home]_4755-home by [[her]_145-mary persevering lover]_{2226-her persevering lover} ; who had been so long acquainted with all [her]_145-mary habits , that [she]_145-mary found it difficult to evade [him]_{2226-her persevering lover} . Late or early , [she]_145-mary was never certain of being free from [him]_{2226-her persevering lover} . Go this way or that , [he]_{2226-her persevering lover} might come up [some cross street]_{2227-some cross street} when [she]_145-mary had just congratulated [herself]_145-mary on evading [him]_{2226-her persevering lover} for that day . [He]_{2226-her persevering lover} could not have taken a surer mode of making [himself]_{2226-her persevering lover} odious to [her]_145-mary . And all this time [Jem Wilson]_154-jem never came ! Not to see [her]_145-mary -- that [she]_145-mary did not expect -- but to see [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ; to -- [she]_145-mary did not know what , but [she]_145-mary had hoped [he]_{2226-her persevering lover} would have come on some excuse , just to see if [she]_145-mary had n't changed [her]_145-mary mind . [He]_{2226-her persevering lover} never came . Then [she]_145-mary grew weary and impatient , and [her]_145-mary spirits sank . The persecution of [the one lover]_{2229-the one lover} , and the neglect of the other , oppressed [her]_145-mary sorely . [She]_145-mary could not now sit quietly through the evening at [her]_145-mary work ; or , if [she]_145-mary kept , by a strong effort , from pacing up and down [the room]_{616-the room} , [she]_145-mary felt as if [she]_145-mary must sing to keep off thought while [she]_145-mary sewed . And [her]_145-mary songs were the maddest , merriest , [she]_145-mary could think of . " [Barbara Allen]_{284-barbara allen} , "_[145-mary] and such sorrowful ditties , did well enough for happy times ; but now [she]_145-mary required all the aid that could be derived from external excitement to keep down the impulse of grief . And [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , too -- [he]_{564-her father} was a great anxiety to [her]_145-mary , [he]_{564-her father} looked so changed and so ill . Yet [he]_{564-her father} would not acknowledge to any ailment . [She]_145-mary knew , that be it as late as it would , [she]_145-mary never left off work until ( if [the poor servants]_{2232-the poor servants} paid [her]_145-mary pretty regularly for the odd jobs of mending [she]_145-mary did for [them]_{2232-the poor servants} ) [she]_145-mary had earned a few pence , enough for one good meal for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} on the next day . But very frequently all [she]_145-mary could do in the morning , after [her]_145-mary late sitting up at night , was to run with the work [home]_4755-home , and receive the money from [the person for whom it was done]_{2235-the person for whom it was done} . [She]_145-mary could not stay often to make purchases of food , but gave up the money at once to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's eager clutch ; sometimes prompted by savage hunger it is true , but more frequently by a craving for opium . On the whole [he]_{564-her father} was not so hungry as [[his]_{564-her father} daughter]_{724-his daughter} . For it was a long fast from the one o'clock dinner - hour at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' to the close of [Mary]_145-mary 's vigil , which was often extended to midnight . [She]_145-mary was young , and had not yet learned to bear " clemming . "_[145-mary] One evening , as [she]_145-mary sang a merry song over [her]_145-mary work , stopping occasionally to sigh , [the blind Margaret]_{2238-the blind margaret} came groping in . It had been one of [Mary]_145-mary 's additional sorrows that [[her]_145-mary friend]_{586-her friend} had been absent from [home]_4755-home , accompanying [the lecturer]_{5538-the lecturer} on music in [his]_{5538-the lecturer} round among [the manufacturing towns of [Yorkshire]_2-yorkshire and [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire}]_{2242-the manufacturing towns of yorkshire and lancashire} . [[Her]_145-mary grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} , too , had seen this a good time for going [his]_{564-her father} expeditions in search of specimens ; so that [the house]_{803-the house} had been shut up for several weeks . " Oh ! [Margaret]_157-margaret , [Margaret]_157-margaret ! how glad [I]_2246-i am to see [you]_157-margaret . Take care . There , now , [you]_157-margaret 're all right , that 's [father]_4863-father 's chair . Sit down . "--She_[2246-i] kissed [her]_145-mary over and over again . " It seems like the beginning o ' brighter times , to see [you]_157-margaret again , [Margaret]_157-margaret . Bless [you]_157-margaret ! And how well [you]_157-margaret look ! "_[2246-i] " [Doctors]_5893-doctors always send [ailing folk]_{5894-ailing folk} for change of air ! and [you]_157-margaret know [I]_2246-i 've had plenty o ' that same lately . "_[2246-i] " [You]_157-margaret 've been quite [a traveller]_{5895-a traveller} for sure ! Tell [us]_5896-us all about it , do , [Margaret]_157-margaret . Where have [you]_157-margaret been to , first place ? "_[2246-i] " Eh , [lass]_4844-lass , that would take a long time to tell . Half o'er [the world]_{1479-the world} [I]_2246-i sometimes think . [Bolton]_60-bolton , and [Bury]_61-bury , and [Owdham]_285-owdham , and [Halifax]_62-halifax , and -- but [Mary]_145-mary , guess who [I]_2246-i saw [there]_873-there ! May be [you]_145-mary know though , so it 's not fair guessing . "_[2246-i] " No , [I]_2246-i donnot . Tell [me]_2246-i , [Margaret]_157-margaret , for [I]_2246-i can not abide waiting and guessing . "_[2246-i] " Well , one night as [I]_2246-i were going fra ' [[my]_2246-i lodgings]_{5900-my lodgings} wi ' the help on [a lad]_{1578-a lad} as belonged to [th ' landlady]_{5610-th ' landlady} , to find [the room where [I]_2246-i were to sing]_{5903-the room where i were to sing} , [I]_2246-i heard a cough before [me]_2246-i , walking along . Thinks [I]_2246-i , that 's [Jem Wilson]_154-jem 's cough , or [I]_2246-i 'm much mistaken . Next time came a sneeze and a cough , and then [I]_2246-i were certain . First [I]_2246-i hesitated whether [I]_2246-i should speak , thinking if it were [a stranger]_{524-a stranger} [he]_{524-a stranger} 'd may be think [me]_2246-i forrard . [ 41 ] But [I]_2246-i knew [blind folks]_{5905-blind folks} must not be nesh about using [their]_{5905-blind folks} tongues , so says [I]_2246-i , ' [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , is that [you]_154-jem ? ' And sure enough it was , and [nobody else]_{5906-nobody else} . Did [you]_154-jem know [he]_{524-a stranger} were in [Halifax]_62-halifax , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[2246-i] [ Footnote 41 : " [Forrard]_286-forrard , "_[2246-i] forward . ] " No ; "_[2245-she] [she]_2245-she answered , faintly and sadly ; for [Halifax]_62-halifax was all the same to [her]_2245-she heart as [the Antipodes]_{63-the antipodes} ; equally inaccessible by humble penitent looks and maidenly tokens of love . " Well , [he]_{524-a stranger} 's [there]_873-there , however ; [he]_{524-a stranger} 's putting up an engine for [some folks]_{5908-some folks} [there]_873-there , for [[his]_{524-a stranger} master]_{790-his master} . [He]_{524-a stranger} 's doing well , for [he]_{524-a stranger} 's getten four or five men under [him]_{524-a stranger} ; [we]_5911-we 'd two or three meetings , and [he]_{524-a stranger} telled [me]_2246-i all about [his]_{524-a stranger} invention for doing away wi ' the crank , or somewhat . [[His]_{524-a stranger} master]_{790-his master} 's bought it from [him]_{524-a stranger} , and ta'en out a patent , and [Jem]_154-jem 's [a gentleman]_{1130-a gentleman} for life wi ' the money [[his]_{524-a stranger} master]_{790-his master} gied [him]_{524-a stranger} . But [you]_2246-i 'll ha ' heard all this , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[2246-i] No ! [she]_2246-i had not . " Well , [I]_2246-i thought it all happened afore [he]_{524-a stranger} left [Manchester]_1-manchester , and then in course [you]_2246-i 'd ha ' known . But may be it were all settled after [he]_{524-a stranger} got to [Halifax]_62-halifax ; however , [he]_{524-a stranger} 's gotten two or three hunder pounds for [his]_{524-a stranger} invention . But what 's up with [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ? [you]_145-mary 're sadly out o ' sorts . [You]_145-mary 've never been quarrelling wi ' [Jem]_154-jem , surely ? "_[2246-i] Now [Mary]_145-mary cried outright ; [she]_145-mary was weak in body , and unhappy in mind , and the time was come when [she]_145-mary might have the relief of telling [her]_145-mary grief . [She]_145-mary could not bring [herself]_145-mary to confess how much of [her]_145-mary sorrow was caused by [her]_145-mary having been vain and foolish ; [she]_145-mary hoped that need never be known , and [she]_145-mary could not bear to think of it . " Oh , [Margaret]_157-margaret ; do [you]_157-margaret know [Jem]_154-jem came [here]_5235-here one night when [I]_2247-i were put out , and cross . Oh , dear ! dear ! [I]_2247-i could bite [my]_2247-i tongue out when [I]_2247-i think on it . And [he]_154-jem told [me]_2247-i how [he]_154-jem loved [me]_2247-i , and [I]_2247-i thought [I]_2247-i did not love [him]_154-jem , and [I]_2247-i told [him]_154-jem [I]_2247-i did n't ; and , [Margaret,--he]_{288-margaret,--he} believed [me]_2247-i , and went away so sad , and so angry ; and now [I]_2247-i 'd do any thing,--I would , indeed , "_[2247-i] [her]_2247-i sobs choked the end of [her]_2247-i sentence . [Margaret]_157-margaret looked at [her]_2247-i with sorrow , but with hope ; for [she]_157-margaret had no doubt in [her]_157-margaret own mind , that it was only a temporary estrangement . " Tell [me]_145-mary , [Margaret]_157-margaret , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , taking [her]_145-mary apron down from [her]_145-mary eyes , and looking at [Margaret]_157-margaret with eager anxiety , " what can [I]_145-mary do to bring [him]_154-jem back to [me]_145-mary ? Should [I]_145-mary write to [him]_154-jem ? "_[145-mary] " No , "_{[586-her friend]} replied [[her]_145-mary friend]_{586-her friend} , " that would not do . [Men]_1197-men are so queer , [they]_1197-men like to have a ' the courting to [themselves]_1197-men . "_{[586-her friend]} " But [I]_145-mary did not mean to write [him]_154-jem a courting letter , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , somewhat indignantly . " If [you]_157-margaret wrote at all , it would be to give [him]_154-jem a hint [you]_157-margaret 'd taken the rue , and would be very glad to have [him]_154-jem now . [I]_145-mary believe now [he]_154-jem 'd rather find that out [himself]_154-jem . "_[145-mary] " But [he]_154-jem wo n't try , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , sighing . " How can [he]_154-jem find it out when [he]_154-jem 's at [Halifax]_62-halifax ? "_[145-mary] " If [he]_154-jem 's a will [he]_154-jem 's a way , depend upon it . And [you]_145-mary would not have [him]_154-jem if [he]_154-jem 's not a will to [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ! No , [dear]_5078-dear ! "_[145-mary] changing [her]_145-mary tone from the somewhat hard way in which [sensible people]_{2249-sensible people} too often speak , to the soft accents of tenderness which come with such peculiar grace from [them]_{2249-sensible people} ; " [you]_145-mary must just wait and be patient . [You]_145-mary may depend upon it , all will end well , and better than if [you]_145-mary meddled in it now . "_[145-mary] " But it 's so hard to be [patient]_5918-patient , "_[145-mary] pleaded [Mary]_145-mary . " Ay , [dear]_5078-dear ; being patient is the hardest work [we]_5920-we , any on [us]_5920-we , have to do through life , [I]_145-mary take it . Waiting is far more difficult than doing . [I]_145-mary 've known that about [my]_145-mary sight , and [many a one]_{5056-many a one} has known it in watching [the sick]_{5922-the sick} ; but it 's one of [God]_224-god 's lessons [we]_5920-we all must learn , one way or another . "_[145-mary] After a pause . " Have [ye]_145-mary been to see [[his]_5923-his mother]_{787-his mother} of late ? "_[145-mary] " No ; not for some weeks . When last [I]_145-mary went [she]_{787-his mother} was so frabbit [ 42 ] with [me]_145-mary , that [I]_145-mary really thought [she]_{787-his mother} wished [I]_145-mary 'd keep away . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 42 : " [Frabbit]_163-frabbit , "_[145-mary] ill - tempered . ] " Well ! if [I]_2250-i were [you]_145-mary [I]_2250-i 'd go . [Jem]_154-jem will hear on't , and it will do [you]_145-mary far more good in [his]_154-jem mind than writing a letter , which , after all , [you]_145-mary would find a tough piece of work when [you]_145-mary came to settle to it . ' Twould be hard to say neither too much nor too little . But [I]_2250-i must be going , [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} is at [home]_4755-home , and it 's [our]_5927-we first night together , and [he]_{4996-grandfather} must not be sitting wanting [me]_2250-i any longer . "_[2250-i] [She]_2250-i rose up from [her]_2250-i seat , but still delayed going . " [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_2250-i 've somewhat else [I]_2250-i want to say to [you]_145-mary , and [I]_2250-i do n't rightly know how to begin . [You]_145-mary see , [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} and [I]_2250-i know what bad times is , and [we]_5927-we know [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} is out o ' work , and [I]_2250-i 'm getting more money than [I]_2250-i can well manage ; and , [dear]_5078-dear , would [you]_145-mary just take this bit o ' gold , and pay [me]_2250-i back in good times ? "_[2250-i] The tears stood in [Margaret]_157-margaret 's eyes as [she]_2250-i spoke . " [Dear Margaret]_157-margaret , [we]_5927-we 're not so bad pressed as that . "_[2250-i] ( The thought of [[her]_157-margaret father]_{564-her father} , and [his]_{564-her father} ill looks , and [his]_{564-her father} one meal a day , rushed upon [Mary]_145-mary . ) " And yet , [dear]_5078-dear , if it would not put [you]_5078-dear out o ' [your]_5078-dear way,--I would work hard to make it up to [you;--but]_{5932-you;--but} would not [[your]_5078-dear grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} be vexed ? "_[2250-i] " Not [he]_{5001-your grandfather} , [wench]_5103-wench ! It were more [his]_{5001-your grandfather} thought than [mine]_145-mary , and [we]_5927-we have gotten ever so many more at [home]_4755-home , so do n't hurry yoursel about paying . It 's hard to be blind , to be sure , else money comes in so easily now to what it used to do ; and it 's downright pleasure to earn it , for [I]_2250-i do so like singing . "_[2250-i] " [I]_145-mary wish [I]_145-mary could sing , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , looking at [the sovereign]_{1672-the sovereign} . " [Some]_797-some has one kind o ' gifts , and some another . Many 's the time when [I]_145-mary could see , that [I]_145-mary longed for [your]_5078-dear beauty , [Mary]_145-mary ! [We]_5927-we 're like [childer]_1572-childer , ever wanting what [we]_5927-we han not got . But now [I]_145-mary must say just one more word . Remember , if [you]_5078-dear 're sore pressed for money , [we]_5927-we shall take it very unkind if [you]_5078-dear donnot let [us]_5927-we know . Good bye to [ye]_5078-dear . "_[145-mary] In spite of [her]_145-mary blindness [she]_145-mary hurried away , anxious to rejoin [[her]_145-mary grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} , and desirous also to escape from [Mary]_145-mary 's expressions of gratitude . [Her]_145-mary visit had done [Mary]_145-mary good in many ways . It had strengthened [her]_145-mary patience and [her]_145-mary hope . It had given [her]_145-mary confidence in [Margaret]_157-margaret 's sympathy ; and last , and really least in comforting power ( of so little value are silver and gold in comparison to love , that gift in every one 's power to bestow ) , came the consciousness of the money - value of the sovereign [she]_145-mary held in [her]_145-mary hand . The many things it might purchase ! First of all came the thought of a comfortable supper for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} that very night ; and acting instantly upon the idea , [she]_145-mary set off in hopes that [all the provision - shops]_{2255-all the provision - shops} might not yet be closed , although it was so late . That night [the cottage]_{4936-the cottage} shone with unusual light , and fire - gleam ; and [the father]_{513-the father} and [daughter]_858-daughter sat down to a meal [they]_2259-they thought almost extravagant . It was so long since [they]_2259-they had had enough to eat . " Food gives heart , "_{[2260-the lancashire people]} say [the Lancashire people]_{2260-the lancashire people} ; and the next day [Mary]_145-mary made time to go and call on [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , according to [Margaret]_157-margaret 's advice . [She]_145-mary found [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} quite alone , and more gracious than [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had been the last time [Mary]_145-mary had visited [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} . [Alice]_146-alice was gone out , [she]_145-mary said . " [She]_146-alice would just step to [the post - office]_{5938-the post - office} , all for no earthly use . For it were to ask if [they]_2259-they had n't a letter lying there for [her]_146-alice from [[her]_146-alice foster - son]_{5939-her foster - son} [Will Wilson]_{5940-will wilson} , [the sailor - lad]_{5941-the sailor - lad} . "_[145-mary] " What made [her]_146-alice think there were a letter ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary . " Why , [yo]_145-mary see , [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} as has been in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , telled [us]_5943-us [Will]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's ship were come in . Now [he]_{5266-a neighbour} said last time [he]_{5266-a neighbour} were in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool [he]_{5266-a neighbour} 'd ha ' come to ha ' seen [Alice]_146-alice , but [[his]_{5266-a neighbour} ship]_{5944-his ship} had but a week holiday , and hard work for [the men]_{1152-the men} in that time too . So [Alice]_146-alice makes sure [he]_{5266-a neighbour} 'll come this , and has had [her]_146-alice hand behind [her]_146-alice ear at every noise in [th ' street]_{5946-th ' street} , thinking it were [him]_{5266-a neighbour} . And to - day [she]_146-alice were neither to have nor to hold , but off [she]_146-alice would go to [th ' post]_{5947-th ' post} , and see if [he]_{5266-a neighbour} had na sent [her]_146-alice a line to [th ' old house]_{5948-th ' old house} near [yo]_5949-yo . [I]_145-mary tried to get [her]_146-alice to give up going , for let alone [her]_146-alice deafness [she]_146-alice 's getten so dark , [she]_146-alice can not see five yards afore [her]_146-alice ; but no , [she]_146-alice would go , [poor old body]_{5950-poor old body} . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary did not know [her]_146-alice sight had failed [her]_146-alice ; [she]_146-alice used to have good eyes enough when [she]_146-alice lived near [us]_5951-us . "_[145-mary] " Ay , but it 's gone lately a good deal . But [you]_145-mary never ask after [Jem--]_290-jem-- "_[145-mary] anxious to get in a word on the subject nearest [her]_2261-her heart . " No , "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , blushing scarlet . " How is [he]_5952-he ? "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary can not justly say how [he]_5952-he is , seeing [he]_5952-he 's at [Halifax]_62-halifax ; but [he]_5952-he were very well when [he]_5952-he wrote last Tuesday . Han [ye]_145-mary heard o ' [his]_5952-he good luck ? "_[145-mary] Rather to [her]_145-mary disappointment , [Mary]_145-mary owned [she]_145-mary had heard of the sum [[his]_2262-his master]_{790-his master} had paid [him]_2262-his for [his]_2262-his invention . " Well ! and did not [Margaret]_157-margaret tell [yo]_145-mary what [he]_2262-his 'd done wi ' it ? It 's just like [him]_2262-his though , [ne'er]_5953-ne'er to say a word about it . Why , when it were paid what does [he]_2262-his do , but get [[his]_2262-his master]_{790-his master} to help [him]_2262-his to buy an income for [me]_2264-i and [Alice]_146-alice . [He]_2262-his had [her]_146-alice name put down for [her]_146-alice life ; but , poor thing , [she]_146-alice 'll not be long to the fore , [I]_2264-i 'm thinking . [She]_146-alice 's sadly failed of late . And so , [Mary]_145-mary , [yo]_145-mary see , [we]_5955-we 're [two ladies o ' property]_{5956-two ladies o ' property} . It 's a matter o ' twenty pound a year [they]_5955-we tell [me]_2264-i . [I]_2264-i wish [the twins]_{545-the twins} had lived , bless 'em , "_[2264-i] said [she]_2264-i , dropping a few tears . " [They]_{545-the twins} should ha ' had the best o ' schooling , and [their]_{545-the twins} belly - fulls o ' food . [I]_2264-i suppose [they]_{545-the twins} 're better off in [heaven]_1833-heaven , only [I]_2264-i should so like to see ['em]_5959-'em . "_[2264-i] [Mary]_145-mary 's heart filled with love at this new proof of [Jem]_154-jem 's goodness ; but [she]_145-mary could not talk about it . [She]_145-mary took [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's hand , and pressed it with affection ; and then turned the subject to [Will]_{130-jane wilson} , [[her]_145-mary sailor nephew]_{2265-her sailor nephew} . [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} was a little bit sorry , but [her]_{130-jane wilson} prosperity had made [her]_{130-jane wilson} gentler , and [she]_{130-jane wilson} did not resent what [she]_{130-jane wilson} felt as [Mary]_145-mary 's indifference to [Jem]_154-jem and [his]_154-jem merits . " [He]_154-jem 's been in [Africa]_64-africa and [that neighbourhood]_{1368-that neighbourhood} , [I]_{130-jane wilson} believe . [He]_154-jem 's [a fine chap]_{5961-a fine chap} , but [he]_154-jem 's not gotten [Jem]_154-jem 's hair . [His]_154-jem has too much o ' the red in it . [He]_154-jem sent [Alice]_146-alice ( but , maybe , [she]_146-alice telled [you]_5962-you ) a matter o ' five pound when [he]_154-jem were over before ; but that were nought to an income , [yo]_5962-you know . "_{[130-jane wilson]} " It 's not every one that can get a hundred or two at a time , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " No ! no ! that 's true enough . There 's not many a one like [Jem]_154-jem . That 's [Alice]_146-alice 's step , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , hastening to open the door to [[her]_145-mary sister - in - law]_{5363-her sister - in - law} . [Alice]_146-alice looked weary , and sad , and dusty . The weariness and the dust would not have been noticed either by [her]_146-alice , or [the others]_{2080-the others} , if it had not been for the sadness . " No letters ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " No , none ! [I]_146-alice must just wait another day to hear fra [[my]_146-alice lad]_{1544-my lad} . It 's very dree work , waiting ! "_[146-alice] said [Alice]_146-alice . [Margaret]_157-margaret 's words came into [Mary]_145-mary 's mind . [Every one]_{669-every one} has [their]_{669-every one} time and kind of waiting . " If [I]_146-alice but knew [he]_{1544-my lad} were safe , and not drowned ! "_[146-alice] spoke [Alice]_146-alice . " If [I]_146-alice but knew [he]_{1544-my lad} _ were _ drowned , [I]_146-alice would ask grace to say , [Thy]_5964-thy will be done . It 's the waiting . "_[146-alice] " It 's hard work to be patient to [all of [us]_{5965-all of us}]_{5965-all of us} , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary ; " [I]_145-mary know [I]_145-mary find it so , but [I]_145-mary did not know one so good as [you]_146-alice did , [Alice]_146-alice ; [I]_145-mary shall not think so badly of [myself]_145-mary for being a bit impatient , now [I]_145-mary 've heard [you]_146-alice say [you]_146-alice find it difficult . "_[145-mary] The idea of reproach to [Alice]_146-alice was the last in [Mary]_145-mary 's mind ; and [Alice]_146-alice knew it was . Nevertheless , [she]_146-alice said , " Then , [[my]_146-alice dear]_{5712-my dear} , [I]_146-alice ask [your]_{5712-my dear} pardon , and [God]_224-god 's pardon , too , if [I]_146-alice 've weakened [your]_{5712-my dear} faith , by showing [you]_{5712-my dear} how feeble [mine]_146-alice was . Half [our]_5967-our life 's spent in waiting , and it ill becomes one like [me]_146-alice , wi ' so many mercies , to grumble . [I]_146-alice 'll try and put a bridle o'er [my]_146-alice tongue , and [my]_146-alice thoughts too . "_[146-alice] [She]_146-alice spoke in a humble and gentle voice , like one asking forgiveness . " Come , [Alice]_146-alice , "_[146-alice] interposed [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , " do n't fret [yoursel]_146-alice for e'er a trifle wrong said here or there . See ! [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 've put th ' kettle on , and [you]_146-alice and [Mary]_145-mary shall ha ' a dish o ' tea in no time . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} So [she]_146-alice bustled about , and brought out a comfortable - looking substantial loaf , and set [Mary]_145-mary to cut bread and butter , while [she]_146-alice rattled out the tea - cups -- always a cheerful sound . Just as [they]_2269-they were sitting down , there was a knock heard at the door , and without waiting for it to be opened from the inside , [some one]_{5544-some one} lifted the latch , and in [a man]_{4855-a man} 's voice asked , if one [George Wilson]_148-george lived [there]_873-there ? [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was entering on a long and sorrowful explanation of [his]_148-george having once lived [there]_873-there , but of [his]_148-george having dropped down dead ; when [Alice]_146-alice , with the instinct of love ( for in all usual and common instances , sight and hearing failed to convey impressions to [her]_146-alice until long after [other people]_{2274-other people} had received them ) , arose , and tottered to the door . " [[My]_146-alice bairn!--my own dear bairn]_{5968-my bairn!--my own dear bairn} ! "_[146-alice] [she]_146-alice exclaimed , falling on [Will Wilson]_{2275-will wilson} 's neck . [You]_2276-you may fancy the hospitable and welcoming commotion that ensued ; how [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} laughed , and talked , and cried , altogether , if such a thing can be done ; and how [Mary]_145-mary gazed with wondering pleasure at [[her]_145-mary old playmate]_{2277-her old playmate} ; now [a dashing , bronzed - looking , ringletted sailor]_{2278-a dashing , bronzed - looking , ringletted sailor} , frank , and hearty , and affectionate . But it was something different from common to see [Alice]_146-alice 's joy at once more having [[her]_146-alice foster - child]_{2279-her foster - child} with [her]_146-alice . [She]_146-alice did not speak , for [she]_146-alice really could not ; but the tears came coursing down [her]_146-alice old withered cheeks , and dimmed the horn spectacles [she]_146-alice had put on , in order to pry lovingly into [his]_{2279-her foster - child} face . So what with [her]_146-alice failing sight , and [her]_146-alice tear - blinded eyes , [she]_146-alice gave up the attempt of learning [his]_{2279-her foster - child} face by heart through the medium of that sense , and tried another . [She]_146-alice passed [her]_146-alice sodden , shrivelled hands , all trembling with eagerness , over [his]_{2279-her foster - child} manly face , bent meekly down in order that [she]_146-alice might more easily make [her]_146-alice strange inspection . At last , [her]_146-alice soul was satisfied . After tea , [Mary]_145-mary , feeling sure there was much to be said on both sides , at which it would be better [no one]_{1202-no one} should be present , not even [an intimate friend like [herself]_145-mary]_{2281-an intimate friend like herself} , got up to go away . This seemed to arouse [Alice]_146-alice from [her]_146-alice dreamy consciousness of exceeding happiness , and [she]_146-alice hastily followed [Mary]_145-mary to the door . There , standing outside , with the latch in [her]_146-alice hand , [she]_146-alice took hold of [Mary]_145-mary 's arm , and spoke nearly the first words [she]_146-alice had uttered since [[her]_146-alice nephew]_{2054-her nephew} 's return . " [[My]_146-alice dear]_{5712-my dear} ! [I]_146-alice shall never forgive [mysel]_146-alice , if [my]_146-alice wicked words to - night are any stumbling - block in [your]_145-mary path . See how [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} has put coals of fire on [my]_146-alice head ! Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , do n't let [my]_146-alice being an unbelieving [Thomas]_138-thomas weaken [your]_145-mary faith . Wait patiently on [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} , whatever [your]_145-mary trouble may be . "_[146-alice] CHAPTER XIII . [A TRAVELLER 'S TALES]_{2283-a traveller 's tales} . " [The mermaid]_{5972-the mermaid} sat upon the rocks All day long , Admiring [her]_{5972-the mermaid} beauty and combing [her]_{5972-the mermaid} locks , And singing a mermaid song . "_{[2283-a traveller 's tales]} And hear [the mermaid]_{5972-the mermaid} 's song [you]_2285-you may , As sure as sure can be , If [you]_2285-you will but follow the sun all day , And souse with [him]_2286-him into [the sea]_{4983-the sea} . " [W. S. LANDOR]_{283-w. s. landor} . It was perhaps four or five days after the events mentioned in the last chapter , that one evening , as [Mary]_145-mary stood lost in reverie at the window , [she]_145-mary saw [Will Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} enter [the court]_{604-the court} , and come quickly up to [her]_145-mary door . [She]_145-mary was glad to see [him]_2286-him , for [he]_2286-him had always been [a friend of [hers]_145-mary]_{5974-a friend of hers} , perhaps too much like [her]_145-mary in character ever to become any thing nearer or dearer . [She]_145-mary opened the door in readiness to receive [his]_2286-him frank greeting , which [she]_145-mary as frankly returned . "_{[5972-the mermaid]} Come , [Mary]_145-mary ! on with bonnet and shawl , or whatever rigging [you]_145-mary women require before leaving [the house]_{803-the house} . [I]_0-i 'm sent to fetch [you]_145-mary , and [I]_0-i ca n't lose time when [I]_0-i 'm under orders . " "_[0-i] Where am [I]_0-i to go to ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary , as [her]_145-mary heart leaped up at the thought of who might be waiting for [her]_145-mary . "_[0-i] Not very far , " replied [he]_0-i . "_[0-i] Only to old Job Legh 's round the corner here . [Aunt]_2289-aunt would have [me]_0-i come and see [these new friends of hers]_{2290-these new friends of hers} , and then [we]_2291-we meant to ha ' come on here to see [you]_145-mary and [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} , but [the old gentleman]_{2293-the old gentleman} seems inclined to make a night of it , and have [you]_145-mary all there . Where 's [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} ? [I]_0-i want to see [him]_{1640-your father} . [He]_{1640-your father} must come too . " "_{[1640-your father]} [He]_{1640-your father} 's out , but [I]_0-i 'll leave word next door for [him]_{1640-your father} to follow [me]_0-i ; that 's to say , if [he]_{1640-your father} comes [home]_4755-home afore long . " [She]_{130-jane wilson} added , hesitatingly , "_{[2296-any one else at job]} Is [any one else at Job]_{2296-any one else at job} 's ? " "_{[2296-any one else at job]} No ! [[My]_0-i aunt]_{2297-my aunt} [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} would not come for [some maggot]_{2298-some maggot} or other ; and as for [Jem]_154-jem ! [I]_0-i do n't know what [you]_145-mary 've all been doing to [him]_154-jem , but [he]_154-jem 's as down - hearted a chap as [I]_0-i 'd wish to see . [He]_154-jem 's had [his]_154-jem sorrows sure enough , [poor lad]_{1482-poor lad} ! But it 's time for [him]_154-jem to be shaking off [his]_154-jem dull looks , and not go moping like [a girl]_{577-a girl} . " "_[154-jem] Then [he]_154-jem 's come fra [Halifax]_62-halifax , is [he]_154-jem ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[154-jem] Yes ! [his]_154-jem body 's come , but [I]_0-i think [he]_154-jem 's left [his]_154-jem heart behind [him]_154-jem . [His]_154-jem tongue [I]_0-i 'm sure [he]_154-jem has , as [we]_2301-we used to say to [childer]_1572-childer , when [they]_2301-we would not speak . [I]_0-i try to rouse [him]_154-jem up a bit , and [I]_0-i think [he]_154-jem likes having [me]_0-i with [him]_154-jem , but still [he]_154-jem 's as gloomy and as dull as can be . ' Twas only yesterday [he]_154-jem took [me]_0-i to the works , and [you]_2303-you 'd ha ' thought [us]_2301-we two Quakers as the spirit had n't moved , all the way down [we]_2301-we were so mum . It 's a place to craze [a man]_{4855-a man} , certainly ; such a noisy black hole ! There were one or two things worth looking at , the bellows for instance , or the gale [they]_2305-they called a bellows . [I]_0-i could ha ' stood near it a whole day ; and if [I]_0-i 'd a berth in [that place]_{2306-that place} , [I]_0-i should like to be [bellows - man]_{2307-bellows - man} , if there is such a one . But [Jem]_154-jem were n't diverted even with that ; [he]_154-jem stood as grave as [a judge]_{2308-a judge} while it blew [my]_0-i hat out o ' [my]_0-i hand . [He]_154-jem 's lost all relish for [his]_154-jem food , too , which frets [[my]_0-i aunt]_{2297-my aunt} sadly . Come ! [Mary]_145-mary , ar'n't [you]_145-mary ready ? " [She]_145-mary had not been able to gather if [she]_145-mary were to see [Jem]_154-jem at [Job Legh 's]_156-job ; but when the door was opened , [she]_145-mary at once saw and felt [he]_154-jem was not [there]_873-there . The evening then would be a blank ; at least so [she]_145-mary thought for the first five minutes ; but [she]_145-mary soon forgot [her]_145-mary disappointment in the cheerful meeting of [old friends]_{543-old friends} , all , except [herself]_145-mary , with some cause for rejoicing at that very time . [Margaret]_157-margaret , who could not be idle , was knitting away , with [her]_157-margaret face looking full into [the room]_{616-the room} , away from [her]_157-margaret work . [Alice]_146-alice sat meek and patient with [her]_146-alice dimmed eyes and gentle look , trying to see and to hear , but never complaining ; indeed , in [her]_146-alice inner self [she]_146-alice was blessing [God]_224-god for [her]_146-alice happiness ; for the joy of having [[her]_146-alice nephew]_{2054-her nephew} , [[her]_146-alice child]_{1391-her child} , near [her]_146-alice , was far more present to [her]_146-alice mind , than [her]_146-alice deprivations of sight and hearing . [Job]_156-job was in the full glory of [host]_5980-host and [hostess]_953-hostess too , for by a tacit agreement [he]_156-job had roused [himself]_156-job from [his]_156-job habitual abstraction , and had assumed many of [Margaret]_157-margaret 's little household duties . While [he]_156-job moved about [he]_156-job was deep in conversation with [the young sailor]_{5982-the young sailor} , trying to extract from [him]_156-job any circumstances connected with the natural history of [the different countries [he]_156-job had visited]_{5983-the different countries he had visited} . "_[145-mary] Oh ! if [you]_2310-you are fond of grubs , and flies , and beetles , there 's no place for 'em like [Sierra Leone]_{66-sierra leone} . [I]_0-i wish [you]_2310-you 'd had some of [ours]_2311-we ; [we]_2311-we had rather too much of a good thing ; [we]_2311-we drank them with [our]_2311-we drink , and could scarcely keep from eating them with [our]_2311-we food . [I]_0-i never thought [any folk]_{2312-any folk} could care for such fat green beasts as those , or [I]_0-i would ha ' brought [you]_2310-you [them]_2313-them by [the thousand]_{2314-the thousand} . A plate full o ' peas - soup would ha ' been full enough for [you]_2310-you , [I]_0-i dare say ; it were often too full for [us]_2311-we . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would [ha]_2315-ha ' given a good deal for some on 'em , " said [Job]_156-job . "_[0-i] Well , [I]_0-i knew [folk]_5093-folk at [home]_4755-home liked some o ' the queer things one meets with abroad ; but [I]_0-i never thought [they]_5093-folk 'd care for [them]_5093-folk nasty slimy things . [I]_0-i were always on the look - out for [a mermaid]_{2318-a mermaid} , for that [I]_0-i knew were a curiosity . " "_[2310-you] [You]_2310-you might ha ' looked long enough , " said [Job]_156-job , in an under - tone of contempt , which , however , the quick ears of [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} caught . "_[2310-you] Not so long , [master]_4919-master , in some latitudes , as [you]_4919-master think . It stands to reason th ' sea hereabouts is too cold for [mermaids]_{2320-mermaids} ; for [women]_4730-women here do n't go half - naked on account o ' climate . But [I]_0-i 've been in [lands where muslin were too hot to wear on land]_{2322-lands where muslin were too hot to wear on land} , and where [the sea were more than milk - warm]_{2323-the sea were more than milk - warm} ; and though [I]_0-i 'd never the good luck to see [a mermaid]_{2318-a mermaid} in that latitude , [I]_0-i know [them]_{2320-mermaids} that has . " "_{[291-jack harris]} Do tell [us]_2325-us about it , " cried [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[291-jack harris]} Pooh , pooh ! " said [Job]_156-job [the naturalist]_{5985-the naturalist} . Both speeches determined [Will]_154-jem to go on with [his]_154-jem story . What could [a fellow]_{5986-a fellow} who had never been many miles from [home]_4755-home know about the wonders of [the deep]_{5988-the deep} , that [he]_154-jem should put [him]_154-jem down in that way ? "_{[291-jack harris]} Well , it were [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} , [[our]_2325-us third mate]_{2326-our third mate} last voyage , as many and many a time telled [us]_2325-us all about it . [You]_2327-you see [he]_{291-jack harris} were becalmed off [Chatham Island]_{67-chatham island} ( that 's in [the Great Pacific]_{68-the great pacific} , and a warm enough latitude for mermaids , and sharks , and such like perils ) . So [some of [the men]_{1152-the men}]_{2328-some of the men} took [the long boat]_{2330-the long boat} , and pulled for [the island]_{2331-the island} to see what it were like ; and when [they]_{2328-some of the men} got near , [they]_{2328-some of the men} heard a puffing , like a creature come up to take breath ; [you]_2327-you 've never heard [a diver]_{2332-a diver} ? No ! Well ! [you]_2327-you 've heard [folks]_4739-folks in [th ' asthma]_{2334-th ' asthma} , and it were for [all the world]_{2335-all the world} like that . So [they]_{2328-some of the men} looked around , and what should [they]_{2328-some of the men} see but [a mermaid]_{2318-a mermaid} , sitting on a rock , and sunning [herself]_{2318-a mermaid} . [The water]_{4976-the water} is always warmer when it 's rough , [you]_2327-you know , so [I]_0-i suppose in the calm [she]_{2318-a mermaid} felt it rather chilly , and had come up to warm [herself]_{2318-a mermaid} . " "_{[2318-a mermaid]} What was [she]_{2318-a mermaid} like ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary , breathlessly . [Job]_156-job took [his]_156-job pipe off the chimney - piece and began to smoke with very audible puffs , as if the story were not worth listening to . "_{[2318-a mermaid]} Oh ! [Jack]_{291-jack harris} used to say [she]_{2318-a mermaid} was for all [the world]_{1479-the world} as beautiful as [any of [the wax ladies in [the barbers ' shops]_{2341-the barbers ' shops}]_{2340-the wax ladies in the barbers ' shops}]_{2339-any of the wax ladies in the barbers ' shops} ; only , [Mary]_145-mary , there were one little difference : [her]_{2318-a mermaid} hair was bright grass green . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should not think that was pretty , " said [Mary]_145-mary , hesitatingly ; as if not liking to doubt the perfection of any thing belonging to such an acknowledged beauty . "_[0-i] Oh ! but it is when [you]_2327-you 're used to it . [I]_0-i always think when first [we]_2342-we get sight of [land]_2343-land , there 's no colour so lovely as grass green . However , [she]_{2318-a mermaid} had green hair sure enough ; and were proud enough of it , too ; for [she]_{2318-a mermaid} were combing it out full - length when first [they]_2344-they saw [her]_{2318-a mermaid} . [They]_2344-they all thought [she]_{2318-a mermaid} were a fair prize , and may be as good as a whale in ready money ( [they]_2344-they were [whale - fishers]_{2345-whale - fishers} [you]_2327-you know ) . For [some folk]_{2346-some folk} think a deal of [mermaids]_{2320-mermaids} , whatever [other folk]_{2348-other folk} do . " This was a hit at [Job]_156-job , who retaliated in a series of sonorous spittings and puffs . "_[0-i] So , as [I]_0-i were saying , [they]_2344-they pulled towards [her]_{2318-a mermaid} , thinking to catch [her]_{2318-a mermaid} . [She]_{2318-a mermaid} were all the while combing [her]_{2318-a mermaid} beautiful hair , and beckoning to [them]_2344-they , while with the other hand [she]_{2318-a mermaid} held a looking - glass . " "_{[2318-a mermaid]} How many hands had [she]_{2318-a mermaid} ? " asked [Job]_156-job . "_{[2318-a mermaid]} Two , to be sure , just like [any other woman]_{2349-any other woman} , " answered [Will]_154-jem , indignantly . "_{[2349-any other woman]} Oh ! [I]_0-i thought [you]_0-i said [she]_{2318-a mermaid} beckoned with one hand , and combed [her]_{2318-a mermaid} hair with another , and held a looking - glass with a third , " said [Job]_156-job , with provoking quietness . "_{[2318-a mermaid]} No ! [I]_0-i did n't ! at least if [I]_0-i did , [I]_0-i meant [she]_{2318-a mermaid} did one thing after another , as [any one]_{504-any one} but " ( here [he]_0-i mumbled a word or two ) "_[145-mary] could understand . Well , [Mary]_145-mary , " turning very decidedly towards [her]_{2318-a mermaid} , "_{[2318-a mermaid]} when [she]_{2318-a mermaid} saw [them]_2344-they coming near , whether it were [she]_{2318-a mermaid} grew frightened at [their]_2344-they fowling - pieces , as [they]_2344-they had on board , for a bit o ' shooting on [the island]_{2331-the island} , or whether it were [she]_{2318-a mermaid} were just a fickle jade as did not rightly know [her]_{2318-a mermaid} own mind ( which , seeing one half of [her]_{2318-a mermaid} was [woman]_5701-woman , [I]_0-i think [myself]_0-i was most probable ) , but when [they]_2344-they were only about two oars ' length from the rock where [she]_{2318-a mermaid} sat , down [she]_{2318-a mermaid} plopped into the water , leaving nothing but [her]_{2318-a mermaid} hinder end of a fish tail sticking up for a minute , and then that disappeared too . " "_{[2353-the man who had the second watch one night]} And did [they]_2344-they never see [her]_{2318-a mermaid} again ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[2344-they] Never so plain ; [the man who had the second watch one night]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} declared [he]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} saw [her]_{2318-a mermaid} swimming round [the ship]_{5017-the ship} , and holding up [her]_{2318-a mermaid} glass for [him]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} to look in ; and then [he]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} saw [the little cottage near [Aber]_69-aber in [Wales]_70-wales]_{2355-the little cottage near aber in wales} ( where [[his]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} wife]_{525-his wife} lived ) as plain as ever [he]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} saw [it]_{2355-the little cottage near aber in wales} in life , and [[his]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} wife]_{525-his wife} standing outside , shading [her]_{2318-a mermaid} eyes as if [she]_{2318-a mermaid} were looking for [him]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} . But [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} gave [him]_{2353-the man who had the second watch one night} no credit , for [he]_{291-jack harris} said [he]_{291-jack harris} were always a bit of [a romancer]_{2358-a romancer} , and beside that , were [a home - sick , down - hearted chap]_{2359-a home - sick , down - hearted chap} . " "_{[291-jack harris]} [I]_0-i wish [they]_2360-they had caught [her]_{525-his wife} , " said [Mary]_145-mary , musing . "_[2360-they] [They]_2360-they got one thing as belonged to [her]_{525-his wife} , " replied [Will]_154-jem , "_[0-i] and that [I]_0-i 've often seen with [my]_0-i own eyes , and [I]_0-i reckon it 's a sure proof of the truth of [their]_2360-they story ; for [them]_2360-they that wants proof . " "_[0-i] What was it ? " asked [Margaret]_157-margaret , almost anxious [[her]_157-margaret grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} should be convinced . "_[0-i] Why , in [her]_{525-his wife} hurry [she]_{525-his wife} left [her]_{525-his wife} comb on [the rock]_{2361-the rock} , and [one o ' [the men]_{1152-the men}]_{2362-one o ' the men} spied it ; so [they]_2360-they thought that were better than nothing , and [they]_2360-they rowed there and took it , and [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} had it on board [the _ John Cropper _]_{2364-the _ john cropper _} , and [I]_0-i saw [him]_{291-jack harris} comb [his]_{291-jack harris} hair with it every Sunday morning . " "_{[291-jack harris]} What was it like ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary , eagerly ; [her]_145-mary imagination running on coral combs , studded with pearls . "_{[291-jack harris]} Why , if it had not had such a strange yarn belonging to it , [you]_2365-you 'd never ha ' noticed it from any other small - tooth comb . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should rather think not , " sneered [Job Legh]_156-job . [The sailor]_{5011-the sailor} bit [his]_{5011-the sailor} lips to keep down [his]_{5011-the sailor} anger against [an old man]_{1627-an old man} . [Margaret]_157-margaret felt very uneasy , knowing [[her]_157-margaret grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} so well , and not daring to guess what caustic remark might come next to irritate [the young sailor guest]_{5993-the young sailor guest} . [Mary]_145-mary , however , was too much interested by the wonders of [the deep]_{5988-the deep} to perceive the incredulity with which [Job Legh]_156-job received [Wilson]_154-jem 's account of the mermaid ; and when [he]_156-job left off , half offended , and very much inclined not to open [his]_156-job lips again through the evening , [she]_145-mary eagerly said , "_[0-i] Oh do tell [us]_2366-us something more of what [you]_2365-you hear and see on [board ship]_{2367-board ship} . Do , [Will]_154-jem ! " "_[154-jem] What 's the use , [Mary]_145-mary , if [folk]_5093-folk wo n't believe one . There are things [I]_0-i saw with [my]_0-i own eyes , that [some people]_{2369-some people} would pish and pshaw at , as if [I]_0-i were [a baby to be put down by cross noises]_{2370-a baby to be put down by cross noises} . But [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , " with an emphasis on _ [you]_145-mary _ , "_[0-i] some more of the wonders of [the sea]_{4983-the sea} , sin ' [you]_145-mary 're not too wise to believe [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i have seen a fish fly . " This did stagger [Mary]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary had heard of mermaids as signs of [inns]_5995-inns , and as sea - wonders , but never of flying fish . Not so [Job]_156-job . [He]_156-job put down [his]_156-job pipe , and nodding [his]_156-job head as a token of approbation , [he]_156-job said "_[0-i] Ay , ay ! [young man]_{2372-young man} . Now [you]_{2372-young man} 're speaking truth . " "_{[2372-young man]} Well now ! [you]_{2372-young man} 'll swallow that , [old gentleman]_{2373-old gentleman} . [You]_{2372-young man} 'll credit [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i say [I]_0-i 've seen a crittur half fish , half bird , and [you]_{2372-young man} wo n't credit [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i say there be such beasts as mermaids , half fish , [half woman]_{2374-half woman} . To [me]_0-i , [one]_518-one 's just as strange as t'other . " "_[518-one] [You]_{2372-young man} never saw [the mermaid yoursel]_{2376-the mermaid yoursel} , " interposed [Margaret]_157-margaret , gently . But "_{[2376-the mermaid yoursel]} love [me]_0-i , love [my]_0-i dog , " was [Will Wilson]_{5996-will wilson} 's motto , only [his]_0-i version was "_{[2376-the mermaid yoursel]} believe [me]_0-i , believe [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} ; " and the remark was not so soothing to [him]_0-i as it was intended to have been . "_{[291-jack harris]} It 's [the Exocetus]_{2377-the exocetus} ; one of [the Malacopterygii Abdominales]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} , " said [Job]_156-job , much interested . "_{[2378-the malacopterygii abdominales]} Ay , there [you]_{2372-young man} go ! [You]_{2372-young man} 're [one o ' [[them]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} folks]_{2380-them folks} as never knows beasts unless [they]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} 're called out o ' [their]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} names]_{2379-one o ' them folks as never knows beasts unless they 're called out o ' their names} . Put 'em in Sunday clothes and [you]_{2372-young man} know 'em , but in [their]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} work - a - day English [you]_{2372-young man} never know nought about 'em . [I]_0-i 've met wi ' many o ' [your]_{2372-young man} kidney ; and if [I]_0-i 'd ha ' known it , [I]_0-i 'd [ha]_2381-ha ' christened [poor [Jack]_{291-jack harris} 's mermaid]_{2382-poor jack 's mermaid} wi ' some grand gibberish of a name . [Mermaidicus Jack Harrisensis]_{292-mermaidicus jack harrisensis} ; that 's just like [their]_{2378-the malacopterygii abdominales} new - fangled words . [D'ye]_293-d'ye believe there 's such a thing as [the Mermaidicus]_{2383-the mermaidicus} , [master]_4919-master ? " asked [Will]_154-jem , enjoying [his]_154-jem own joke uncommonly , as [most people]_{5997-most people} do . "_[0-i] Not [I]_0-i ! Tell [me]_0-i about the-- " "_[0-i] Well ! " said [Will]_154-jem , pleased at having excited [the old gentleman]_{2293-the old gentleman} 's faith and credit at last . "_[0-i] It were on this last voyage , about a day 's sail from [Madeira]_71-madeira , that one of [[our]_2385-our men--]_{2386-our men--} " "_{[2386-our men--]} Not [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} , [I]_0-i hope , " murmured [Job]_156-job . "_[0-i] Called [me]_0-i , " continued [Will]_154-jem , not noticing the interruption , "_[0-i] to see the what [d'ye]_293-d'ye call it -- flying fish [I]_0-i say it is . [It]_2387-it were twenty feet out o ' water , and it flew near on to a hundred yards . But [I]_0-i say , [old gentleman]_{2373-old gentleman} , [I]_0-i ha ' gotten one dried , and if [you]_{2373-old gentleman} 'll take it , why , [I]_0-i 'll give it [you]_{2373-old gentleman} ; only , " [he]_0-i added , in a lower tone , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wish [you]_{2373-old gentleman} 'd just gie [me]_0-i credit for the Mermaidicus . " [I]_2389-i really believe if the assuming faith in the story of the mermaid had been made the condition of receiving the flying fish , [Job Legh]_156-job , [sincere man]_{5999-sincere man} as [he]_156-job was , would have pretended belief ; [he]_156-job was so much delighted at the idea of possessing this specimen . [He]_156-job won [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} 's heart by getting up to shake both [his]_156-job hands in [his]_156-job vehement gratitude , puzzling poor old Alice , who yet smiled through [her]_6001-her wonder ; for [she]_6001-her understood the action to indicate some kindly feeling towards [[her]_6001-her nephew]_{2054-her nephew} . [Job]_156-job wanted to prove [his]_156-job gratitude , and was puzzled how to do it . [He]_156-job feared [the young man]_{5590-the young man} would not appreciate any of [his]_156-job duplicate [Araneides]_{294-araneides} ; not even the great American Mygale , one of [his]_156-job most precious treasures ; or else [he]_156-job would gladly have bestowed any duplicate on [the donor of [a real dried Exocetus]_{6005-a real dried exocetus}]_{6004-the donor of a real dried exocetus} . What could [he]_156-job do for [him]_{5590-the young man} ? [He]_156-job could ask [Margaret]_157-margaret to sing . [Other folks beside [[her]_157-margaret old doating grandfather]_{6007-her old doating grandfather}]_{6006-other folks beside her old doating grandfather} thought a deal of [her]_157-margaret songs . So [Margaret]_157-margaret began some of [her]_157-margaret noble old - fashioned songs . [She]_157-margaret knew no modern music ( for which [[her]_157-margaret auditors]_{6008-her auditors} might have been thankful ) , but [she]_157-margaret poured [her]_157-margaret rich voice out in some of the old canzonets [she]_157-margaret had lately learnt while accompanying [the musical lecturer]_{6009-the musical lecturer} on [his]_{6009-the musical lecturer} tour . [Mary]_145-mary was amused to see how [the young sailor]_{5982-the young sailor} sat entranced ; mouth , eyes , all open , in order to catch every breath of sound . [His]_{5982-the young sailor} very lids refused to wink , as if afraid in that brief proverbial interval to lose a particle of the rich music that floated through [the room]_{616-the room} . For the first time the idea crossed [Mary]_145-mary 's mind that it was possible the plain little sensible [Margaret]_157-margaret , so prim and demure , might have power over the heart of the handsome , dashing , spirited [Will Wilson]_{6012-will wilson} . [Job]_156-job , too , was rapidly changing [his]_156-job opinion of [[his]_156-job new guest]_{6013-his new guest} . The flying fish went a great way , and [his]_156-job undisguised admiration for [Margaret]_157-margaret 's singing carried [him]_156-job still further . It was amusing enough to see [these two]_{6014-these two} , within the hour so barely civil to [each other]_{436-each other} , endeavouring now to be ultra - agreeable . [Will]_154-jem , as soon as [he]_154-jem had taken breath ( a long , deep gasp of admiration ) after [Margaret]_157-margaret 's song , sidled up to [Job]_156-job , and asked [him]_156-job in a sort of doubting tone , "_[2389-i] [You]_2389-i would n't like a live Manx cat , would [ye]_2389-i , [master]_4919-master ? " "_[2389-i] A what ? " exclaimed [Job]_156-job . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know its best name , " said [Will]_154-jem , humbly . "_[0-i] But [we]_2391-we call ['em]_2392-they just Manx cats . [They]_2392-they 're cats without tails . " Now Job , in all [his]_156-job natural history , had never heard of such animals ; so [Will]_154-jem continued , "_[2392-they] Because [I]_0-i 'm going , afore joining [[my]_0-i ship]_{2393-my ship} , to see [[mother]_4845-mother 's friends]_{2395-mother 's friends} in [the island]_{2331-the island} , and would gladly bring [you]_2397-you one , if so be [you]_2397-you 'd like to have it . [They]_2392-they look as queer and out o ' nature as flying fish , [or"--he]_6016-or"--he gulped the words down that should have followed . "_[2392-they] Especially when [you]_2397-you see ['em]_2398-'em walking a roof - top , right again the sky , when a cat , as is a proper cat , is sure to stick [her]_2399-her tail stiff out behind , like [a slack - rope dancer a - balancing]_{2400-a slack - rope dancer a - balancing} ; but these cats having no tail , can not stick it out , which captivates [some people]_{2369-some people} uncommonly . If yo'll allow [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i 'll bring one for [Miss]_2402-miss [there]_873-there , " jerking [his]_0-i head at [Margaret]_157-margaret . [Job]_156-job assented with grateful curiosity , wishing much to see the tail - less phenomenon . "_[0-i] When are [you]_0-i going to sail ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i can not justly say ; [[our]_2404-our ship]_{2405-our ship} 's bound for [America]_72-america next voyage , [they]_2406-they tell [me]_0-i . [A mess - mate]_{2407-a mess - mate} will let [me]_0-i know when [her]_{2407-a mess - mate} sailing - day is fixed ; but [I]_0-i 've got to go to [th ' Isle o ' Man]_{2408-th ' isle o ' man} first . [I]_0-i promised [uncle]_2409-uncle last time [I]_0-i were in [England]_46-england to go this next time . [I]_0-i may have to hoist the blue Peter any day ; so , make much of [me]_0-i while [you]_2410-you have [me]_0-i , [Mary]_145-mary . " [Job]_156-job asked [him]_2410-you if [he]_0-i had ever been in [America]_72-america . "_[2410-you] Have n't [I]_0-i ? North and South both ! This time [we]_2411-we 're bound to [North]_2412-north . [Yankee - Land]_{73-yankee - land} , as [we]_2411-we call [it]_{73-yankee - land} , where [Uncle Sam]_{295-uncle sam} lives . " "_{[295-uncle sam]} Uncle who ? " said [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[295-uncle sam]} Oh , it 's a way [sailors]_2413-sailors have of speaking . [I]_0-i only mean [I]_0-i 'm going to [Boston]_74-boston , U. S. , that 's [Uncle Sam]_{295-uncle sam} . " [Mary]_145-mary did not understand , so [she]_145-mary left [him]_0-i and went to sit by [Alice]_146-alice , who could not hear conversation unless expressly addressed to [her]_145-mary . [She]_146-alice had sat patiently silent the greater part of the night , and now greeted [Mary]_145-mary with a quiet smile . "_{[295-uncle sam]} Where 's [[yo'r]_2414-yo'r father]_{2415-yo'r father} ? " asked [she]_145-mary . "_{[2415-yo'r father]} [I]_0-i guess [he]_{2415-yo'r father} 's at [[his]_{2415-yo'r father} Union]_{5810-his union} ; [he]_{2415-yo'r father} 's [there]_873-there most evenings . " [Alice]_146-alice shook [her]_146-alice head ; but whether it were that [she]_146-alice did not hear , or that [she]_146-alice did not quite approve of what [she]_146-alice heard , [Mary]_145-mary could not make out . [She]_145-mary sat silently watching [Alice]_146-alice , and regretting over [her]_146-alice dimmed and veiled eyes , formerly so bright and speaking ; as if [Alice]_146-alice understood by some other sense what was passing in [Mary]_145-mary 's mind , [she]_146-alice turned suddenly round , and answered [Mary]_145-mary 's thought . "_{[2415-yo'r father]} [Yo're]_2418-yo're mourning for [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5712-my dear} ; and there 's no need , [Mary]_145-mary . [I]_0-i 'm as happy as [a child]_{4770-a child} . [I]_0-i sometimes think [I]_0-i am [a child]_{4770-a child} , whom [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} is hushabying to [my]_0-i long sleep . For when [I]_0-i were [a nurse - girl]_{2423-a nurse - girl} , [[my]_0-i missis]_{4756-my missis} alway telled [me]_0-i to speak very soft and low , and to darken [the room]_{616-the room} that [[her]_{4756-my missis} little one]_{2426-her little one} might go to sleep ; and now all noises are hushed and still to [me]_0-i , and [the bonny earth]_{2427-the bonny earth} seems dim and dark , and [I]_0-i know it 's [[my]_0-i Father]_{5863-my father} lulling [me]_0-i away to [my]_0-i long sleep . [I]_0-i 'm very well content , and [yo]_2429-yo must n't fret for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i 've had well nigh every blessing in life [I]_0-i could desire . " [Mary]_145-mary thought of [Alice]_146-alice 's long - cherished , fond wish to revisit [the home of [her]_146-alice childhood]_{6017-the home of her childhood} , so often and often deferred , and now probably never to take place . Or if it did , how changed from the fond anticipation of what it was to have been ! It would be a mockery to [the blind and deaf Alice]_{6018-the blind and deaf alice} . The evening came quickly to an end . There was the humble cheerful meal , and then the bustling merry farewell , and [Mary]_145-mary was once more in the quietness and solitude of [[her]_145-mary own dingy , dreary - looking home]_{6019-her own dingy , dreary - looking home} ; [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} still out , the fire extinguished , and [her]_145-mary evening 's task of work lying all undone upon the dresser . But it had been a pleasant little interlude to think upon . It had distracted [her]_145-mary attention for a few hours from the pressure of many uneasy thoughts , of the dark , heavy , oppressive times , when sorrow and want seemed to surround [her]_145-mary on every side ; of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , [his]_{564-her father} changed and altered looks , telling so plainly of broken health , and an embittered heart ; of the morrow , and the morrow beyond that , to be spent in [that close monotonous work - room]_{6022-that close monotonous work - room} , with [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally 's odious whispers hissing in [her]_145-mary ear ; and of the hunted look , so full of dread , from [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' door - step up and down [the street]_{4821-the street} , lest [[her]_145-mary persecuting lover]_{6024-her persecuting lover} should be near : for [he]_{564-her father} lay in wait for [her]_145-mary with wonderful perseverance , and of late had made [himself]_{564-her father} almost hateful , by the unmanly force which [he]_{564-her father} had used to detain [her]_145-mary to listen to [him]_{564-her father} , and the indifference with which [he]_{564-her father} exposed [her]_145-mary to the remarks of [the passers - by]_{5408-the passers - by} , [any one of whom might circulate reports which it would be terrible for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} to hear]_{6026-any one of whom might circulate reports which it would be terrible for her father to hear} -- and worse than death should [they]_{6026-any one of whom might circulate reports which it would be terrible for her father to hear} reach [Jem Wilson]_154-jem . And all this [she]_145-mary had drawn upon [herself]_145-mary by [her]_145-mary giddy flirting . Oh ! how [she]_145-mary loathed the recollection of the hot summer evening , when , worn out by stitching and sewing , [she]_145-mary had loitered homewards with weary languor , and first listened to the voice of [the tempter]_{6028-the tempter} . And [Jem Wilson]_154-jem ! Oh , [Jem]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem , why did [you]_154-jem not come to receive some of the modest looks and words of love which [Mary]_145-mary longed to give [you]_154-jem , to try and make up for the hasty rejection which [you]_154-jem as hastily took to be final , though [both]_876-both mourned over it with many tears . But day after day passed away , and patience seemed of no avail ; and [Mary]_145-mary 's cry was ever the old moan of [the Moated Grange]_{296-the moated grange} , "_[2430-he] Why comes [he]_2430-he not , " [she]_145-mary said , "_[2430-he] [I]_0-i am aweary , aweary , [I]_0-i would that [I]_0-i were dead . " CHAPTER XIV . [JEM]_154-jem 'S INTERVIEW WITH [POOR ESTHER]_132-esther . "_[0-i] Know the temptation ere [you]_2431-you judge the crime ! Look on this tree--'twas green , and fair , and graceful ; Yet now , save these few shoots , how dry and rotten ! [Thou]_2432-thou canst not tell the cause . Not long ago , A neighbour oak , with which its roots were twined , In falling wrenched them with such cruel force , That though [we]_2433-we covered them again with care , Its beauty withered , and it pined away . So , could [we]_2433-we look into the human breast , How oft the fatal blight that meets [our]_2433-we view , Should [we]_2433-we trace down to the torn , bleeding fibres Of a too trusting heart -- where it were shame , For pitying tears , to give contempt or blame . " "_{[4831-missis]} [STREET WALKS]_{75-street walks} . " The month was over;--the honeymoon to [the newly - married]_{6030-the newly - married} ; the exquisite convalescence to [the "_{[4831-missis]} living mother of [a living child]_{2434-a living child}]_{6031-the " living mother of a living child} ; " the "_[154-jem] first dark days of nothingness " to [the widow]_{1229-the widow} and [the child]_{805-the child} bereaved ; the term of penance , of hard labour , and solitary confinement , to [the shrinking , shivering , hopeless prisoner]_{6034-the shrinking , shivering , hopeless prisoner} . "_[154-jem] Sick , and in [prison]_2099-prison , and [ye]_2436-i visited [me]_0-i . " Shall [you]_2436-i , or [I]_2436-i , receive such blessing ? [I]_2436-i know one who will . [An overseer of a foundry]_{6035-an overseer of a foundry} , [an aged man , with hoary hair]_{6036-an aged man , with hoary hair} , has spent [his]_{6035-an overseer of a foundry} Sabbaths , for many years , in visiting [the prisoners]_{6037-the prisoners} and the afflicted in [[Manchester]_1-manchester New Bailey]_{6038-manchester new bailey} ; not merely advising and comforting , but putting means into [their]_{6037-the prisoners} power of regaining the virtue and the peace [they]_{6037-the prisoners} had lost ; becoming [himself]_{6035-an overseer of a foundry} [their]_{6037-the prisoners} guarantee in obtaining employment , and never deserting [those who have once asked help from [him]_{6035-an overseer of a foundry}]_{6039-those who have once asked help from him} . [ 43 ] [ Footnote 43 : Vide _ [Manchester]_1-manchester Guardian _ , of Wednesday , March 18 , 1846 ; and also the Reports of [Captain Williams , [prison inspector]_{6041-prison inspector}]_{6040-captain williams , prison inspector} . ] [Esther]_132-esther 's term of imprisonment was ended . [She]_132-esther received a good character in [the governor]_{6042-the governor} 's books ; [she]_132-esther had picked [her]_132-esther daily quantity of oakum , had never deserved the extra punishment of the tread - mill , and had been civil and decorous in [her]_132-esther language . And once more [she]_132-esther was out of [prison]_2099-prison . The door closed behind [her]_132-esther with a ponderous clang , and in [her]_132-esther desolation [she]_132-esther felt as if shut out of [home]_4755-home -- from [the only shelter [she]_132-esther could meet with]_{6045-the only shelter she could meet with} , houseless and pennyless as [she]_132-esther was , on that dreary day . But it was but for an instant that [she]_132-esther stood there doubting . One thought had haunted [her]_132-esther both by night and by day , with monomaniacal incessancy ; and that thought was how to save [Mary]_145-mary ( [[her]_132-esther dead sister 's only child]_{6046-her dead sister 's only child} , [[her]_132-esther own little pet]_{6047-her own little pet} in the days of [her]_132-esther innocence ) from following in the same downward path to vice . To whom could [she]_132-esther speak and ask for aid ? [She]_132-esther shrank from the idea of addressing [John Barton]_{131-john barton} again ; [her]_132-esther heart sank within [her]_132-esther , at the remembrance of [his]_{131-john barton} fierce repulsing action , and far fiercer words . It seemed worse than death to reveal [her]_132-esther condition to [Mary]_145-mary , else [she]_132-esther sometimes thought that this course would be the most terrible , the most efficient warning . [She]_132-esther must speak ; to that [she]_132-esther was soul - compelled ; but to whom ? [She]_132-esther dreaded addressing [any of [[her]_132-esther former female acquaintance]_{6049-her former female acquaintance}]_{6048-any of her former female acquaintance} , even supposing [they]_{6048-any of her former female acquaintance} had sense , or spirit , or interest enough to undertake [her]_132-esther mission . To whom shall [the outcast prostitute]_{6050-the outcast prostitute} tell [her]_{6050-the outcast prostitute} tale ? Who will give [her]_{6050-the outcast prostitute} help in [her]_{6050-the outcast prostitute} day of need ? [Hers]_{6050-the outcast prostitute} is [the leper - sin]_{6051-the leper - sin} , and [all stand aloof]_{6052-all stand aloof} dreading to be counted [unclean]_6053-unclean . In [her]_132-esther wild night wanderings , [she]_132-esther had noted the haunts and habits of [many a one who little thought of [a watcher in [the poor forsaken woman]_{6056-the poor forsaken woman}]_{6055-a watcher in the poor forsaken woman}]_{6054-many a one who little thought of a watcher in the poor forsaken woman} . [You]_6057-you may easily imagine that a double interest was attached by [her]_132-esther to the ways and companionships of those with whom [she]_132-esther had been acquainted in the days which , when present , [she]_132-esther [had considered hardly - worked and monotonous]_{6058-had considered hardly - worked and monotonous} , but which now in retrospection seemed so happy and unclouded . Accordingly , [she]_132-esther had , as [we]_6059-we have seen , known where to meet with [John Barton]_{131-john barton} on that unfortunate night , which had only produced irritation in [him]_{131-john barton} , and a month 's imprisonment to [her]_132-esther . [She]_132-esther had also observed that [he]_{131-john barton} was still intimate with [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} . [She]_132-esther had seen [him]_{131-john barton} walking and talking with both [father]_4863-father and [son]_1435-son ; [[her]_132-esther old friends]_{6062-her old friends} too ; and [she]_132-esther had shed unregarded , unvalued tears , when [some one]_{5544-some one} had casually told [her]_132-esther of [George Wilson]_148-george 's sudden death . It now flashed across [her]_132-esther mind , that to [the son]_{1438-the son} , to [[Mary]_145-mary 's play - fellow]_{6065-mary 's play - fellow} , [[her]_132-esther elder brother]_{6066-her elder brother} in the days of childhood , [her]_132-esther tale might be told , and listened to with interest , and some mode of action suggested by [him]_{131-john barton} by which [Mary]_145-mary might be guarded and saved . All these thoughts had passed through [her]_132-esther mind while yet [she]_132-esther was in [prison]_2099-prison ; so when [she]_132-esther was turned out , [her]_132-esther purpose was clear , and [she]_132-esther did not feel [her]_132-esther desolation of freedom as [she]_132-esther would otherwise have done . That night [she]_132-esther stationed [herself]_132-esther early near [the foundry where [she]_132-esther knew [Jem]_154-jem worked]_{6068-the foundry where she knew jem worked} ; [he]_154-jem stayed later than usual , being detained by some arrangements for the morrow . [She]_132-esther grew tired and impatient ; [many workmen]_{6069-many workmen} had come out of the door in the long , dead , brick wall , and eagerly had [she]_132-esther peered into [their]_{6069-many workmen} faces , deaf to all insult or curse . [He]_154-jem must have gone [home]_4755-home early ; one more turn in [the street]_{4821-the street} , and [she]_132-esther would go . During that turn [he]_154-jem came out , and in the quiet of [that street of workshops]_{6072-that street of workshops} and [warehouses]_{1597-warehouses} , [she]_132-esther directly heard [his]_154-jem steps . Now [her]_132-esther heart failed [her]_132-esther for an instant ; but still [she]_132-esther was not daunted from [her]_132-esther purpose , painful as its fulfilment was sure to be . [She]_132-esther laid [her]_132-esther hand on [his]_154-jem arm . As [she]_132-esther expected , after a momentary glance at [the person who thus endeavoured to detain [him]_154-jem]_{6074-the person who thus endeavoured to detain him} , [he]_154-jem made an effort to shake it off , and pass on . But trembling as [she]_132-esther was , [she]_132-esther had provided against this by a firm and unusual grasp . "_[2436-i] [You]_2437-you must listen to [me]_0-i , [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , " [she]_132-esther said , with almost an accent of command . "_[154-jem] Go away , [missis]_4831-missis ; [I]_0-i 've nought to do with [you]_2437-you , either in hearkening , or talking . " [He]_154-jem made another struggle . "_[2437-you] [You]_2437-you must listen , " [she]_132-esther said again , authoritatively , "_[2437-you] for [Mary Barton]_145-mary 's sake . " The spell of [her]_132-esther name was as potent as that of [the mariner]_{6075-the mariner} 's glittering eye . "_[154-jem] [He]_154-jem listened like [a three - year child]_{2439-a three - year child} . " "_[154-jem] [I]_0-i know [you]_2437-you care enough for [her]_145-mary to wish to save [her]_145-mary from harm . " [He]_154-jem interrupted [his]_154-jem earnest gaze into [her]_132-esther face , with the exclamation-- "_[2437-you] And who can [yo]_2437-you be to know [Mary Barton]_145-mary , or to know that [she]_145-mary 's ought to [me]_0-i ? " There was a little strife in [Esther]_132-esther 's mind for an instant , between the shame of acknowledging [herself]_132-esther , and the additional weight to [her]_132-esther revelation which such acknowledgment would give . Then [she]_132-esther spoke . "_[2437-you] Do [you]_2437-you remember [Esther]_132-esther , [the sister of [[John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's wife]_{2441-john barton 's wife}]_{2440-the sister of john barton 's wife} ? [the aunt to [Mary]_145-mary]_{2442-the aunt to mary} ? And the Valentine [I]_0-i sent [you]_2437-you last February ten years ? " "_[0-i] Yes , [I]_0-i mind [her]_132-esther well ! But [yo]_2437-you are not [Esther]_132-esther , are [you]_2437-you ? " [He]_2437-you looked again into [her]_132-esther face , and seeing that indeed it was [[his]_2437-you boyhood]_{6076-his boyhood} 's friend , [he]_2437-you took [her]_132-esther hand , and shook it with a cordiality that forgot the present in the past . "_[2437-you] Why , [Esther]_132-esther ! Where han [ye]_132-esther been this many a year ? Where han [ye]_132-esther been wandering that [we]_2443-we none of [us]_2443-we could find [you]_132-esther out ? " The question was asked thoughtlessly , but answered with fierce earnestness . "_[132-esther] Where have [I]_0-i been ? What have [I]_0-i been doing ? Why do [you]_2437-you torment [me]_0-i with questions like these ? Can [you]_2437-you not guess ? But the story of [my]_0-i life is wanted to give force to [my]_0-i speech , afterwards [I]_0-i will tell it [you]_2437-you . Nay ! do n't change [your]_2437-you fickle mind now , and say [you]_2437-you do n't want to hear it . [You]_2437-you must hear it , and [I]_0-i must tell it ; and then see after [Mary]_145-mary , and take care [she]_145-mary does not become like [me]_0-i . As [she]_145-mary is loving now , so did [I]_0-i love once ; one above [me]_0-i far . " [She]_145-mary remarked not , in [her]_145-mary own absorption , the change in [Jem]_154-jem 's breathing , the sudden clutch at the wall which told the fearfully vivid interest [he]_154-jem took in what [she]_145-mary said . "_[2444-he] [He]_2444-he was so handsome , so kind ! Well , [the regiment]_{2445-the regiment} was ordered to [Chester]_76-chester ( did [I]_0-i tell [you]_2437-you [he]_2444-he was [an officer]_{2446-an officer} ? ) , and [he]_2444-he could not bear to part from [me]_0-i , nor [I]_0-i from [him]_2444-he , so [he]_2444-he took [me]_0-i with [him]_2444-he . [I]_0-i never thought poor [Mary]_145-mary would have taken it so to heart ! [I]_0-i always meant to send for [her]_145-mary to pay [me]_0-i a visit when [I]_0-i was married ; for , mark [you]_2437-you ! [he]_2444-he promised [me]_0-i marriage . [They]_2447-they all do . Then came three years of happiness . [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i ought not to have been happy , but [I]_0-i was . [I]_0-i had [a little girl]_{2448-a little girl} , too . Oh ! [the sweetest darling that ever was seen]_{2449-the sweetest darling that ever was seen} ! But [I]_0-i must not think of [her]_{2448-a little girl} , " putting [her]_2450-you hand wildly up to [her]_2450-you forehead , "_{[2448-a little girl]} or [I]_0-i shall go mad ; [I]_0-i shall . " "_[0-i] Do n't tell [me]_0-i any more about [yoursel]_2450-you , " said [Jem]_154-jem , soothingly . "_[2450-you] What ! [you]_2450-you 're tired already , are [you]_2450-you ? but [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_2450-you ; as [you]_2450-you 've asked for it , [you]_2450-you shall hear it . [I]_0-i wo n't recall the agony of the past for nothing . [I]_0-i will have the relief of telling it . Oh , how happy [I]_0-i was!"--sinking [her]_2450-you voice into a plaintive child - like manner . "_[0-i] It came like a shot on [me]_0-i when one day [he]_2451-he came to [me]_0-i and told [me]_0-i [he]_2451-he was ordered to [Ireland]_77-ireland , and must leave [me]_0-i behind ; at [Bristol]_78-bristol [we]_2452-we then were . " [Jem]_154-jem muttered some words ; [she]_2450-you caught their meaning , and in a pleading voice continued , "_[2450-you] Oh , do n't abuse [him]_2451-he ; do n't speak a word against [him]_2451-he ! [You]_2450-you do n't know how [I]_0-i love [him]_2451-he yet ; yet , when [I]_0-i am sunk so low . [You]_2450-you do n't guess how kind [he]_2451-he was . [He]_2451-he gave [me]_0-i fifty pound before [we]_2452-we parted , and [I]_0-i knew [he]_2451-he could ill spare it . Do n't , [Jem]_154-jem , please , " as [his]_0-i muttered indignation rose again . For [her]_2450-you sake [he]_0-i ceased . "_[154-jem] [I]_0-i might have done better with the money ; [I]_0-i see now . But [I]_0-i did not know the value of money . Formerly [I]_0-i had earned it easily enough at [the factory]_{1124-the factory} , and as [I]_0-i had no more sensible wants , [I]_0-i spent it on dress and on eating . While [I]_0-i lived with [him]_2451-he , [I]_0-i had it for asking ; and fifty pounds would , [I]_0-i thought , go a long way . So [I]_0-i went back to [Chester]_76-chester , where [I]_0-i 'd been so happy , and set up [a small - ware shop]_{2454-a small - ware shop} , and hired [a room near]_{2455-a room near} . [We]_2456-we should have done well , but alas ! alas ! [[my]_0-i little girl]_{2457-my little girl} fell ill , and [I]_0-i could not mind [[my]_0-i shop]_{2458-my shop} and [her]_{2457-my little girl} too ; and things grew worse and worse . [I]_0-i sold [my]_0-i goods any how to get money to buy [her]_{2457-my little girl} food and medicine ; [I]_0-i wrote over and over again to [[her]_{2457-my little girl} father]_{564-her father} for help , but [he]_{564-her father} must have changed [[his]_{564-her father} quarters]_{2460-his quarters} , for [I]_0-i never got an answer . [The landlord]_{2461-the landlord} seized the few bobbins and tapes [I]_0-i had left , for shop - rent ; and [the person to whom [the mean little room]_{2463-the mean little room} , to which [we]_2464-us had been forced to remove]_{2462-the person to whom the mean little room , to which we had been forced to remove} , belonged , threatened to turn [us]_2464-us out unless [his]_{2462-the person to whom the mean little room , to which we had been forced to remove} rent was paid ; it had run on many weeks , and it was winter , cold bleak winter ; and [[my]_0-i child]_{4784-my child} was so ill , so ill , and [I]_0-i was starving . And [I]_0-i could not bear to see [her]_{2457-my little girl} suffer , and forgot how much better it would be for [us]_2464-us to die together;--oh [her]_{2457-my little girl} moans , [her]_{2457-my little girl} moans , which money would give [me]_0-i the means of relieving ! So [I]_0-i went out into [the street]_{4821-the street} , one January night -- Do [you]_2467-you think [God]_224-god will punish [me]_0-i for that ? " [she]_{2457-my little girl} asked with wild vehemence , almost amounting to insanity , and shaking [Jem]_154-jem 's arm in order to force an answer from [him]_154-jem . But before [he]_154-jem could shape [his]_154-jem heart 's sympathy into words , [her]_{2457-my little girl} voice had lost its wildness , and [she]_{2457-my little girl} spoke with the quiet of despair . "_[2467-you] But it 's no matter ! [I]_0-i 've done that since , which separates [us]_2464-us as far asunder as heaven and hell can be . " [Her]_{2457-my little girl} voice rose again to the sharp pitch of agony . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i darling]_{5220-my darling} ! [[my]_0-i darling]_{5220-my darling} ! even after death [I]_0-i may not see [thee]_{5220-my darling} , [my]_0-i own sweet one ! [She]_{5220-my darling} was so good -- like [a little angel]_{2470-a little angel} . What is that text , [I]_0-i do n't remember,--that text [mother]_4845-mother used to teach [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i sat on [her]_{5220-my darling} knee long ago ; it begins , ' Blessed are the pure'"-- "_{[297-blessed]} [Blessed]_297-blessed are the pure in heart , for [they]_297-blessed shall see [God]_224-god . " "_{[297-blessed]} Ay , that 's it ! It would break [mother]_4845-mother 's heart if [she]_{5220-my darling} knew what [I]_0-i am now -- it did break [Mary]_145-mary 's heart , [you]_2473-you see . And now [I]_0-i recollect it was about [[her]_145-mary child]_{1391-her child} [I]_0-i wanted so to see [you]_2473-you , [Jem]_154-jem . [You]_2473-you know [Mary Barton]_145-mary , do n't [you]_2473-you ? " said [she]_145-mary , trying to collect [her]_145-mary thoughts . Yes , [Jem]_154-jem knew [her]_145-mary . How well , [his]_154-jem beating heart could testify ! "_[2473-you] Well , there 's something to do for [her]_145-mary ; [I]_0-i forget what ; wait a minute ! [She]_145-mary is so like [[my]_0-i little girl]_{2457-my little girl} ; " said [she]_145-mary , raising [her]_145-mary eyes , glistening with unshed tears , in search of the sympathy of [Jem]_154-jem 's countenance . [He]_154-jem deeply pitied [her]_145-mary ; but oh ! how [he]_154-jem longed to recall [her]_145-mary mind to the subject of [Mary]_145-mary , and [the lover above [her]_145-mary]_{6077-the lover above her} in rank , and the service to be done for [her]_{2457-my little girl} sake . But [he]_154-jem controlled [himself]_154-jem to silence . After awhile , [she]_145-mary spoke again , and in a calmer voice . "_[145-mary] When [I]_0-i came to [Manchester]_1-manchester ( for [I]_0-i could not stay in [Chester]_76-chester after [her]_{2457-my little girl} death ) , [I]_0-i found [you]_2476-you all out very soon . And yet [I]_0-i never thought [[my]_0-i poor sister]_{2477-my poor sister} was dead . [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i would not think so . [I]_0-i used to watch about [the court where [John]_{131-john barton} lived]_{2478-the court where john lived} , for many and many a night , and gather all [I]_0-i could about [them]_{2478-the court where john lived} from [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} ' talk ; for [I]_0-i never asked a question . [I]_0-i put this and that together , and followed one , and listened to the other ; many 's the time [I]_0-i 've watched [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} off [his]_{2480-the policeman} beat , and peeped through the chink of the window - shutter to see [the old room]_{2481-the old room} , and sometimes [Mary]_145-mary or [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} sitting up late for some reason or another . [I]_0-i found out [Mary]_145-mary went to learn dress - making , and [I]_0-i began to be frightened for [her]_145-mary ; for it 's a bad life for [a girl]_{577-a girl} to be out late at night in [the streets]_{772-the streets} , and after many an hour of weary work , [they]_2485-they 're ready to follow after any novelty that makes a little change . But [I]_0-i made up [my]_0-i mind , that bad as [I]_0-i was , [I]_0-i could watch over [Mary]_145-mary and perhaps keep [her]_145-mary from harm . So [I]_0-i used to wait for [her]_145-mary at nights , and follow [her]_145-mary [home]_4755-home , often when [she]_145-mary little knew [any one was near [her]_145-mary]_{2487-any one was near her} . There was [one of [[her]_145-mary companions]_{2489-her companions}]_{2488-one of her companions} [I]_0-i never could abide , and [I]_0-i 'm sure [that girl]_{2490-that girl} is at the bottom of some mischief . By - and - bye , [[Mary]_145-mary 's walks homewards]_{2491-mary 's walks homewards} were not alone . [She]_145-mary was joined soon after [she]_145-mary came out , by [a man]_{4855-a man} ; [a gentleman]_{1130-a gentleman} . [I]_0-i began to fear for [her]_145-mary , for [I]_0-i saw [she]_145-mary was light - hearted , and pleased with [his]_{4855-a man} attentions ; and [I]_0-i thought worse of [him]_{4855-a man} for having such long talks with [that bold girl [I]_0-i told [you]_2495-you of]_{2494-that bold girl i told you of} . But [I]_0-i was laid up for a long time with spitting of blood ; and could do nothing . [I]_0-i 'm sure it made [me]_0-i worse , thinking about what might be happening to [Mary]_145-mary . And when [I]_0-i came out , all was going on as before , only [she]_145-mary seemed fonder of [him]_{4855-a man} than ever ; and oh [Jem]_154-jem ! [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} wo n't listen to [me]_0-i , and it 's [you]_154-jem must save [Mary]_145-mary ! [You]_154-jem 're like [a brother to [her]_145-mary]_{2497-a brother to her} , and maybe could give [her]_145-mary advice and watch over [her]_145-mary , and at any rate [John]_{131-john barton} will hearken to [you]_154-jem ; only [he]_{131-john barton} 's so stern and so cruel . " [She]_145-mary began to cry a little at the remembrance of [his]_0-i harsh words ; but [Jem]_154-jem cut [her]_145-mary short by [his]_0-i hoarse , stern inquiry , "_{[131-john barton]} Who is [this spark that [Mary]_145-mary loves]_{2498-this spark that mary loves} ? Tell [me]_0-i [his]_{2498-this spark that mary loves} name ! " "_{[2498-this spark that mary loves]} It 's [young [Carson]_{209-mr. carson}]_{2499-young carson} , [[old Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's son]_{2500-old carson 's son} , that [[your]_154-jem father]_{1640-your father} worked for . " There was a pause . [She]_145-mary broke the silence . "_[154-jem] Oh ! [Jem]_154-jem , [I]_0-i charge [you]_154-jem with the care of [her]_145-mary ! [I]_0-i suppose it would be murder to kill [her]_145-mary , but it would be better for [her]_145-mary to die than to live to lead such a life as [I]_0-i do . Do [you]_154-jem hear [me]_0-i , [Jem]_154-jem ? " "_[0-i] Yes ! [I]_0-i hear [you]_154-jem . It would be better . Better [we]_2502-we were all dead . " This was said as if thinking aloud ; but [he]_0-i immediately changed [his]_0-i tone , and continued , "_[132-esther] [Esther]_132-esther , [you]_132-esther may trust to [my]_0-i doing all [I]_0-i can for [Mary]_145-mary . That [I]_0-i have determined on . And now listen to [me]_0-i ! [you]_132-esther loathe the life [you]_132-esther lead , else [you]_132-esther would not speak of it as [you]_132-esther do . Come [home]_4755-home with [me]_0-i . Come to [[my]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} . [She]_{4875-my mother} and [[my]_0-i aunt]_{2297-my aunt} [Alice]_146-alice live together . [I]_0-i will see that [they]_2506-they give [you]_132-esther a welcome . And to - morrow [I]_0-i will see if some honest way of living can not be found for [you]_132-esther . Come [home]_4755-home with [me]_0-i . " [She]_{4875-my mother} was silent for a minute , and [he]_154-jem hoped [he]_154-jem had gained [his]_154-jem point . Then [she]_{4875-my mother} said , "_[224-god] [God]_224-god bless [you]_132-esther , [Jem]_154-jem , for the words [you]_132-esther have just spoken . Some years ago [you]_132-esther might have saved [me]_0-i , as [I]_0-i hope and trust [you]_132-esther will yet save [Mary]_145-mary . But it is too late now;--too late , " [she]_{4875-my mother} added , with accents of deep despair . Still [he]_154-jem did not relax [his]_154-jem hold . "_[132-esther] Come [home]_4755-home , " [he]_154-jem said . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i tell [you]_132-esther , [I]_0-i can not . [I]_0-i could not lead a virtuous life if [I]_0-i would . [I]_0-i should only disgrace [you]_132-esther . If [you]_132-esther will know all , " said [she]_6078-she , as [he]_154-jem still seemed inclined to urge [her]_6078-she , "_[132-esther] [I]_0-i must have drink . [Such as live like [me]_0-i]_{2509-such as live like me} could not bear life if [they]_{2509-such as live like me} did not drink . It 's the only thing to keep [us]_2510-we from suicide . If [we]_2510-we did not drink , [we]_2510-we could not stand the memory of what [we]_2510-we have been , and the thought of what [we]_2510-we are , for a day . If [I]_0-i go without food , and without shelter , [I]_0-i must have [my]_0-i dram . Oh ! [you]_132-esther do n't know the awful nights [I]_0-i have had in [prison]_2099-prison for want of it ! " said [she]_{4875-my mother} , shuddering , and glaring round with terrified eyes , as if dreading to see [some spiritual creature]_{6079-some spiritual creature} , with dim form , near [her]_{4875-my mother} . "_[2512-they] It is so frightful to see [them]_2512-they , " whispering in tones of wildness , although so low spoken . "_[2512-they] There [they]_2512-they go round and round [my]_0-i bed the whole night through . [[My]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} , carrying [little Annie]_230-nancy ( [I]_0-i wonder how [they]_2512-they got together ) and [Mary]_145-mary -- and all looking at [me]_0-i with [their]_2512-they sad , stony eyes ; oh [Jem]_154-jem ! it is so terrible ! [They]_2512-they do n't turn back either , but pass behind the head of the bed , and [I]_0-i feel [their]_2512-they eyes on [me]_0-i everywhere . If [I]_0-i creep under the clothes [I]_0-i still see them ; and what is worse , " hissing out [her]_{4875-my mother} words with fright , "_[2512-they] [they]_2512-they see [me]_0-i . Do n't speak to [me]_0-i of leading a better life -- [I]_0-i must have drink . [I]_0-i can not pass to - night without a dram ; [I]_0-i dare not . " [Jem]_154-jem was silent from deep sympathy . Oh ! could [he]_154-jem , then , do nothing for [her]_{4875-my mother} ! [She]_{4875-my mother} spoke again , but in a less excited tone , although it was thrillingly earnest . "_[154-jem] [You]_154-jem are grieved for [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i know it better than if [you]_154-jem told [me]_0-i in words . But [you]_154-jem can do nothing for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i am past hope . [You]_154-jem can yet save [Mary]_145-mary . [You]_154-jem must . [She]_145-mary is innocent , except for the great error of loving one above [her]_145-mary in [station]_2514-station . [Jem]_154-jem ! [you]_154-jem _ will _ save [her]_145-mary ? " With heart and soul , though in few words , [Jem]_154-jem promised that if [aught earthly]_{298-aught earthly} could keep [her]_145-mary from falling , [he]_154-jem would do it . Then [she]_145-mary blessed [him]_154-jem , and bade [him]_154-jem good - night . "_[154-jem] Stay a minute , " said [he]_154-jem , as [she]_145-mary was on the point of departure . "_[154-jem] [I]_0-i may want to speak to [you]_145-mary again . [I]_0-i mun know where to find [you]_145-mary -- where do [you]_145-mary live ? " [She]_145-mary laughed strangely . "_[0-i] And do [you]_154-jem think one sunk so low as [I]_0-i am has [a home]_{2515-a home} ? Decent , [good people]_{2516-good people} have [homes]_2517-homes . [We]_2518-we have none . No , if [you]_154-jem want [me]_0-i , come at night , and look at the corners of [the streets]_{772-the streets} about here . The colder , the bleaker , the more stormy the night , the more certain [you]_154-jem will be to find [me]_0-i . For then , " [she]_145-mary added , with a plaintive fall in [her]_145-mary voice , "_[154-jem] it is so cold sleeping in [entries]_2520-entries , and on door - steps , and [I]_0-i want a dram more than ever . " Again [she]_145-mary rapidly turned off , and [Jem]_154-jem also went on [his]_154-jem way . But before [he]_154-jem reached the end of [the street]_{4821-the street} , even in the midst of the jealous anguish that filled [his]_154-jem heart , [his]_154-jem conscience smote [him]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem had not done enough to save [her]_145-mary . One more effort , and [she]_145-mary might have come . Nay , twenty efforts would have been well rewarded by [her]_145-mary yielding . [He]_154-jem turned back , but [she]_145-mary was gone . In the tumult of [his]_154-jem other feelings , [his]_154-jem self - reproach was deadened for the time . But many and many a day afterwards [he]_154-jem bitterly regretted [his]_154-jem omission of duty ; [his]_154-jem weariness of well - doing . Now , the great thing was to reach [home]_4755-home , and solitude . [Mary]_145-mary loved [another]_1526-another ! Oh ! how should [he]_154-jem bear it ? [He]_154-jem had thought [her]_145-mary rejection of [him]_154-jem a hard trial , but that was nothing now . [He]_154-jem only remembered it , to be thankful [he]_154-jem had not yielded to the temptation of trying [his]_154-jem fate again , not in actual words , but in a meeting , where [her]_145-mary manner should tell far more than words , that [her]_145-mary sweeter smiles , [her]_145-mary dainty movements , [her]_145-mary pretty household ways , were all to be reserved to gladden another 's eyes and heart . And [he]_154-jem must live on ; that seemed the strangest . That a long life ( and [he]_154-jem knew [men]_1197-men did live long , even with deep , biting sorrow corroding at [their]_1197-men hearts ) must be spent without [Mary]_145-mary ; nay , with the consciousness [she]_145-mary was another 's ! That hell of thought [he]_154-jem would reserve for the quiet of [[his]_154-jem own room]_{6084-his own room} , the dead stillness of night . [He]_154-jem was on the threshold of [home]_4755-home now . [He]_154-jem entered . There were the usual faces , the usual sights . [He]_154-jem loathed them , and then [he]_154-jem cursed [himself]_154-jem because [he]_154-jem loathed [them]_6086-them . [[His]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's love had taken a cross turn , because [he]_154-jem had kept the tempting supper [she]_{787-his mother} had prepared for [him]_154-jem waiting until it was nearly spoilt . [Alice]_146-alice , [her]_146-alice dulled senses deadening day by day , sat mutely near the fire ; [her]_146-alice happiness , bounded by the circle of the consciousness of the presence of [[her]_146-alice foster child]_{6088-her foster child} , knowing that [his]_154-jem voice repeated what was passing to [her]_146-alice deafened ear , that [his]_154-jem arm removed each little obstacle to [her]_146-alice tottering steps . And [Will]_154-jem , out of the very kindness of [his]_154-jem heart , talked more and more merrily than ever . [He]_154-jem saw [Jem]_154-jem was downcast , and fancied [his]_154-jem rattling might cheer [him]_154-jem ; at any rate , it drowned [[his]_154-jem aunt]_{663-his aunt} 's muttered grumblings , and in some measure concealed the blank of the evening . At last , bed - time came ; and [Will]_154-jem withdrew to [[his]_154-jem neighbouring lodging]_{6090-his neighbouring lodging} ; and [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} and [Alice Wilson]_146-alice had raked the fire , and fastened doors and shutters , and pattered up stairs , with [their]_{663-his aunt} tottering foot - steps , and shrill voices . [Jem]_154-jem , too , went to the closet termed [[his]_154-jem bed - room]_{6091-his bed - room} . There was no bolt to the door ; but by one strong effort of [his]_154-jem right arm , a heavy chest was moved against it , and [he]_154-jem could sit down on the side of [his]_154-jem bed , and think . [Mary]_145-mary loved another ! That idea would rise uppermost in [his]_154-jem mind , and had to be combated in all its forms of pain . It was , perhaps , no great wonder that [she]_145-mary should prefer one so much above [Jem]_154-jem in the external things of life . But [the gentleman]_{6092-the gentleman} ; why did [he]_{6092-the gentleman} , with [his]_{6092-the gentleman} range of choice among [the ladies of [the land]_{5552-the land}]_{6093-the ladies of the land} , why did [he]_{6092-the gentleman} stoop down to carry off [[the poor man]_{5145-the poor man} 's darling]_{6096-the poor man 's darling} ? With all the glories of [the garden]_{482-the garden} at [his]_{6092-the gentleman} hand , why did [he]_{6092-the gentleman} prefer to cull the wild - rose,--Jem 's own fragrant wild - rose ? [His]_154-jem _ own ! _ Oh ! never now [his]_154-jem own!--Gone for evermore ! Then uprose the guilty longing for blood!--The frenzy of jealousy!--Some [one]_518-one should die . [He]_154-jem would rather [Mary]_145-mary were dead , cold in [her]_145-mary grave , than that [she]_145-mary were another 's . A vision of [her]_145-mary pale , sweet face , with [her]_145-mary bright hair all bedabbled with gore , seemed to float constantly before [his]_154-jem aching eyes . But [hers]_145-mary were ever open , and contained , in [their]_6099-their soft , deathly look , such mute reproach ! What had [she]_145-mary done to deserve such cruel treatment from [him]_154-jem ? [She]_145-mary had been wooed by one whom [Jem]_154-jem knew to be handsome , gay , and bright , and [she]_145-mary had given [him]_154-jem [her]_145-mary love . That was all ! [It]_6100-it was [the wooer who should die]_{6101-the wooer who should die} . Yes , die , knowing the cause of [his]_154-jem death . [Jem]_154-jem pictured [him]_154-jem ( and gloated on the picture ) , lying smitten , yet conscious ; and listening to the upbraiding accusation of [[his]_154-jem murderer]_{6102-his murderer} . How [he]_154-jem had left [his]_154-jem own rank , and dared to love [a maiden of low degree]_{6103-a maiden of low degree} ; and -- oh ! stinging agony of all -- how [she]_145-mary , in return , had loved [him]_154-jem ! Then [the other nature]_{6104-the other nature} spoke up , and bade [him]_154-jem remember the anguish [he]_154-jem should so prepare for [Mary]_145-mary ! At first [he]_154-jem refused to listen to that better voice ; or listened only to pervert . [He]_154-jem would glory in [her]_145-mary wailing grief ! [he]_154-jem would take pleasure in [her]_145-mary desolation of heart ! No ! [he]_154-jem could not , said [the still small voice]_{6105-the still small voice} . It would be worse , far worse , to have caused such woe , than it was now to bear [his]_154-jem present heavy burden . But it was too heavy , too grievous to be borne , and live . [He]_154-jem would slay [himself]_154-jem , and [the lovers]_{6106-the lovers} should love on , and the sun shine bright , and [he]_154-jem with [his]_154-jem burning , woeful heart would be at rest . "_[0-i] Rest that is reserved for [the people of [God]_224-god]_{2521-the people of god} . " Had [he]_154-jem not promised with such earnest purpose of soul , as makes words more solemn than oaths , to save [Mary]_145-mary from becoming such as [Esther]_132-esther ? Should [he]_154-jem shrink from the duties of life , into the cowardliness of death ? Who would then guard [Mary]_145-mary , with [her]_145-mary love and [her]_145-mary innocence ? Would it not be a goodly thing to serve [her]_145-mary , although [she]_145-mary loved [him]_154-jem not ; to be [[her]_145-mary preserving angel]_{6107-her preserving angel} , through the perils of life ; and [she]_145-mary , unconscious all the while ? [He]_154-jem braced up [his]_154-jem soul , and said to [himself]_154-jem , that with [God]_224-god 's help [he]_154-jem would be [that earthly keeper]_{6108-that earthly keeper} . And now the mists and the storms seemed clearing away from [his]_154-jem path , though it still was full of stinging thorns . Having done the duty nearest to [him]_154-jem ( of reducing the tumult of [his]_154-jem own heart to something like order ) , [the second]_{6109-the second} became more plain before [him]_154-jem . [Poor Esther]_132-esther 's experience had led [her]_132-esther , perhaps , too hastily to the conclusion , that [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's intentions were evil towards [Mary]_145-mary ; at least [she]_132-esther had given no just ground for the fears [she]_132-esther entertained that such was the case . It was possible , nay , to [Jem]_154-jem 's heart , very probable , that [he]_154-jem might only be too happy to marry [her]_132-esther . [She]_132-esther was [a lady by right of nature]_{6110-a lady by right of nature} , [Jem]_154-jem thought ; in movement , grace , and spirit . what was birth to [a Manchester manufacturer]_{6111-a manchester manufacturer} , many of whom glory , and justly too , in being the architects of [their]_{6111-a manchester manufacturer} own fortunes ? And , as far as wealth was concerned , judging another by [himself]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem could only imagine it a great privilege to lay it at the feet of [the loved one]_{6112-the loved one} . [[Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's mother]_{6113-harry carson 's mother} had been [a factory girl]_{5870-a factory girl} ; so , after all , what was the great reason for doubting [his]_154-jem intentions towards [Mary]_145-mary ? There might probably be some little awkwardness about the affair at first : [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} having such strong prejudices on the one hand ; and something of the same kind being likely to exist on the part of [[Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's family]_{6116-mr. carson 's family} . But [Jem]_154-jem knew [he]_154-jem had power over [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's mind ; and it would be something to exert that power in promoting [Mary]_145-mary 's happiness , and to relinquish all thought of self in so doing . Oh ! why had [Esther]_132-esther chosen [him]_154-jem for [this office]_{6117-this office} ? It was beyond [his]_154-jem strength to act rightly ! Why had [she]_132-esther singled [him]_154-jem out ? The answer came when [he]_154-jem was calm enough to listen for it . Because [Mary]_145-mary had [no other friend]_{6118-no other friend} capable of the duty required of [him]_154-jem ; the duty of [a brother]_{1622-a brother} , as [Esther]_132-esther imagined [him]_154-jem to be in feeling , from [his]_154-jem long friendship . [He]_154-jem would be unto [her]_145-mary as [a brother]_{1622-a brother} . As such , [he]_154-jem ought to ascertain [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's intentions towards [her]_145-mary in winning [her]_145-mary affections . [He]_154-jem would ask [him]_154-jem , straightforwardly , as [became man]_{6121-became man} speaking to [man]_5236-man , not concealing , if need were , the interest [he]_154-jem felt in [Mary]_145-mary . Then , with the resolve to do [his]_154-jem duty to the best of [his]_154-jem power , peace came into [his]_154-jem soul ; [he]_154-jem had left the windy storm and tempest behind . Two hours before day - dawn [he]_154-jem fell asleep . CHAPTER XV . A VIOLENT MEETING BETWEEN [THE RIVALS]_{299-the rivals} . "_[224-god] What thoughtful heart can look into [this gulf That darkly yawns ' twixt rich and poor]_{2522-this gulf that darkly yawns ' twixt rich and poor} , And not find food for saddest meditation ! Can see , without a pang of keenest grief , [Them]_2523-i fiercely battling ( like [some natural foes]_{2524-some natural foes} ) Whom [God]_224-god had made , with help and sympathy , To stand as [brothers]_{5186-brothers} , side by side , united ! Where is the wisdom that shall bridge [this gulf]_{2526-this gulf} , And bind [them]_2523-i once again in trust and love ? " "_[2523-i] LOVE - TRUTHS . " [We]_6123-we must return to [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [Poor John]_{300-poor john} ! [He]_{131-john barton} never got over [his]_{131-john barton} disappointing journey to [London]_28-london . The deep mortification [he]_{131-john barton} then experienced ( with , perhaps , as little selfishness for its cause as mortification ever had ) was of no temporary nature ; indeed , few of [his]_{131-john barton} feelings were . Then came a long period of bodily privation ; of daily hunger after food ; and though [he]_{131-john barton} tried to persuade [himself]_{131-john barton} [he]_{131-john barton} could bear want [himself]_{131-john barton} with stoical indifference , and did care about it as little as [most men]_{6124-most men} , yet the body took its revenge for its uneasy feelings . The mind became soured and morose , and lost much of its equipoise . It was no longer elastic , as in the days of youth , or in times of comparative happiness ; it ceased to hope . And it is hard to live on when [one]_518-one can no longer hope . The same state of feeling which [John Barton]_{131-john barton} entertained , if belonging to [one who had had leisure to think of such things]_{6126-one who had had leisure to think of such things} , and [physicians to give names to them]_{6127-physicians to give names to them} , would have been called monomania ; so haunting , so incessant , were the thoughts that pressed upon [him]_{131-john barton} . [I]_2523-i have somewhere read a forcibly described punishment among [the Italians]_{6128-the italians} , worthy of [a Borgia]_{6129-a borgia} . [The supposed or real criminal]_{6130-the supposed or real criminal} was shut up in [a room]_{5613-a room} , supplied with every convenience and luxury ; and at first mourned little over [his]_{131-john barton} imprisonment . But day by day [he]_{131-john barton} became aware that the space between the walls of [[his]_{131-john barton} apartment]_{6132-his apartment} was narrowing , and then [he]_{131-john barton} understood the end . Those painted walls would come into hideous nearness , and at last crush the life out of [him]_{131-john barton} . And so day by day , nearer and nearer , came the diseased thoughts of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [They]_6133-they excluded the light of heaven , the cheering sounds of earth . [They]_6133-they were preparing [his]_{131-john barton} death . It is true , much of [their]_6133-they morbid power might be ascribed to the use of opium . But before [you]_6134-you blame too harshly this use , or rather abuse , try a hopeless life , with daily cravings of the body for food . Try , not alone being without hope [yourself]_6134-you , but seeing all around [you]_6134-you reduced to the same despair , arising from the same circumstances ; all around [you]_6134-you telling ( though [they]_6133-they use no words or language ) , by [their]_6133-they looks and feeble actions , that [they]_6133-they are suffering and sinking under the pressure of want . Would [you]_6134-you not be glad to forget life , and its burdens ? And opium gives forgetfulness for a time . It is true [they]_6133-they who thus purchase it pay dearly for [their]_6133-they oblivion ; but can [you]_6134-you expect [the uneducated]_{6135-the uneducated} to count the cost of [their]_{6135-the uneducated} whistle ? [Poor wretches]_{6136-poor wretches} ! [They]_{6135-the uneducated} pay a heavy price . Days of oppressive weariness and languor , whose realities have the feeble sickliness of dreams ; nights , whose dreams are fierce realities of agony ; sinking health , tottering frames , incipient madness , and worse , the _ consciousness _ of incipient madness ; this is the price of [their]_{6135-the uneducated} whistle . But have [you]_6134-you taught [them]_{6135-the uneducated} the science of consequences ? [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's overpowering thought , which was to work out [his]_{131-john barton} fate on [earth]_1255-earth , was rich and poor ; why are [they]_6133-they so separate , so distinct , when [God]_224-god has made [them]_6133-they all ? It is not [His]_{131-john barton} will , that [their]_6133-they interests are so far apart . Whose doing is it ? And so on into the problems and mysteries of life , until , bewildered and lost , unhappy and suffering , the only feeling that remained clear and undisturbed in the tumult of [his]_{131-john barton} heart , was hatred to [the one class]_{6138-the one class} and keen sympathy with [the other]_{1048-the other} . But what availed [his]_{131-john barton} sympathy ? No education had given [him]_{131-john barton} wisdom ; and without wisdom , even love , with all its effects , too often works but harm . [He]_{131-john barton} acted to the best of [his]_{131-john barton} judgment , but it was a widely - erring judgment . The actions of [the uneducated]_{6135-the uneducated} seem to [me]_2523-i typified in those of [Frankenstein]_{301-frankenstein} , [that monster of many human qualities , ungifted with a soul]_{6141-that monster of many human qualities , ungifted with a soul} , a knowledge of the difference between good and evil . [The people]_{1184-the people} rise up to life ; [they]_{1184-the people} irritate [us]_6143-us , [they]_{1184-the people} terrify [us]_6143-us , and [we]_6143-us become [[their]_{1184-the people} enemies]_{6144-their enemies} . Then , in the sorrowful moment of [our]_6143-us triumphant power , [their]_{1184-the people} eyes gaze on [us]_6143-us with a mute reproach . Why have [we]_6143-us made [them]_{1184-the people} what [they]_{1184-the people} are ; [a powerful monster , yet without the inner means for peace and happiness]_{6145-a powerful monster , yet without the inner means for peace and happiness} ? [John Barton]_{131-john barton} became [a Chartist]_{822-a chartist} , [a Communist , all that is commonly called wild and visionary]_{6147-a communist , all that is commonly called wild and visionary} . Ay ! but being visionary is something . It shows a soul , a being not altogether sensual ; a creature who looks forward for [others]_737-others , if not for [himself]_{131-john barton} . And with all [his]_{131-john barton} weakness [he]_{131-john barton} had a sort of practical power , which made [him]_{131-john barton} useful to [the bodies of men to whom [he]_{131-john barton} belonged]_{6149-the bodies of men to whom he belonged} . [He]_{131-john barton} had a ready kind of rough Lancashire eloquence , arising out of the fulness of [his]_{131-john barton} heart , which was very stirring to [men similarly circumstanced]_{6150-men similarly circumstanced} , who liked to hear [their]_{6150-men similarly circumstanced} feelings put into words . [He]_{131-john barton} had a pretty clear head at times , for method and arrangement ; a necessary talent to large combinations of [men]_1197-men . And what perhaps more than all made [him]_{131-john barton} relied upon and valued , was the consciousness which [every one who came in contact with [him]_{131-john barton}]_{6152-every one who came in contact with him} felt , that [he]_{131-john barton} was actuated by no selfish motives ; that [his]_{131-john barton} class , [his]_{131-john barton} order , was what [he]_{131-john barton} stood by , not the rights of [his]_{131-john barton} own paltry self . For even in [great and noble men]_{6153-great and noble men} , as soon as self comes into prominent existence , it becomes a mean and paltry thing . A little time before this , there had come one of those occasions for deliberation among [the employed]_{438-the employed} , which deeply interested [John Barton]_{131-john barton} ; and the discussions concerning which had caused [his]_{131-john barton} frequent absence from [home of late]_{6155-home of late} . [I]_2523-i am not sure if [I]_2523-i can express [myself]_2523-i in the technical terms of either [masters]_6156-masters or [workmen]_1600-workmen , but [I]_2523-i will try simply to state the case on which [the latter]_{511-the latter} deliberated . An order for coarse goods came in from [a new foreign market]_{6159-a new foreign market} . It was a large order , giving employment to [all the mills engaged in that species of manufacture]_{6160-all the mills engaged in that species of manufacture} : but it was necessary to execute it speedily , and at as low prices as possible , as [the masters]_{489-the masters} had reason to believe a duplicate order had been sent to [one of [the continental manufacturing towns]_{6163-the continental manufacturing towns}]_{6162-one of the continental manufacturing towns} , where there were no restrictions on food , no taxes on building or machinery , and where consequently [they]_{489-the masters} dreaded that the goods could be made at a much lower price than [they]_{489-the masters} could afford [them]_{489-the masters} for ; and that , by so acting and charging , [the rival manufacturers]_{6164-the rival manufacturers} would obtain undivided possession of [the market]_{6165-the market} . It was clearly [their]_{489-the masters} interest to buy cotton as cheaply , and to beat down wages as low as possible . And in the long run the interests of [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} would have been thereby benefited . Distrust each other as [they]_{489-the masters} may , [the employers]_{437-the employers} and [the employed]_{438-the employed} must rise or fall together . There may be some difference as to chronology , none as to fact . But [the masters]_{489-the masters} did not choose to make all these facts known . [They]_{489-the masters} stood upon being [the masters]_{489-the masters} , and that [they]_{489-the masters} had a right to order work at [their]_{489-the masters} own prices , and [they]_{489-the masters} believed that in the present depression of trade , and unemployment of hands , there would be no great difficulty in getting it done . Now let [us]_6171-us turn to [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} 's view of the question . [The masters]_{489-the masters} ( of the tottering foundation of whose prosperity [they]_{489-the masters} were ignorant ) seemed doing well , and like [gentlemen]_{1771-gentlemen} , "_[2523-i] lived at [home]_4755-home in ease , " while [they]_{489-the masters} were starving , gasping on from day to day ; and there was a foreign order to be executed , the extent of which , large as it was , was greatly exaggerated ; and it was to be done speedily . Why were [the masters]_{489-the masters} offering such low wages under these circumstances ? Shame upon [them]_{489-the masters} ! It was taking advantage of [their]_{489-the masters} work - [people]_4744-people being almost starved ; but [they]_{489-the masters} would starve entirely rather than come into such terms . It was bad enough to be poor , while by the labour of [their]_{489-the masters} thin hands , the sweat of [their]_{489-the masters} brows , [the masters]_{489-the masters} were made rich ; but [they]_{489-the masters} would not be utterly ground down to dust . No ! [they]_{489-the masters} would fold [their]_{489-the masters} hands , and sit idle , and smile at [the masters , whom even in death]_{6178-the masters , whom even in death} [they]_{489-the masters} could baffle . With Spartan endurance [they]_{489-the masters} determined to let [the employers]_{437-the employers} know [their]_{489-the masters} power , by refusing to work . [So class]_{6180-so class} distrusted [class]_6181-class , and [their]_{489-the masters} want of mutual confidence wrought sorrow to both . [The masters]_{489-the masters} would not be bullied , and compelled to reveal why [they]_{489-the masters} felt it wisest and best to offer only such low wages ; [they]_{489-the masters} would not be made to tell that [they]_{489-the masters} were even sacrificing capital to obtain a decisive victory over [the continental manufacturers]_{6183-the continental manufacturers} . And [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} sat silent and stern with folded hands , refusing to work for such pay . There was a strike in [Manchester]_1-manchester . Of course it was succeeded by the usual consequences . [Many other Trades ' Unions , connected with different branches of business]_{6185-many other trades ' unions , connected with different branches of business} , supported with money , countenance , and encouragement of every kind , the stand which [the Manchester power - loom weavers]_{6186-the manchester power - loom weavers} were making against [[their]_{6186-the manchester power - loom weavers} masters]_{6187-their masters} . Delegates from [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , from [Nottingham]_{42-nottingham} , and [other towns]_{6188-other towns} , were sent to [Manchester]_1-manchester , to keep up the spirit of resistance ; [a committee]_{6189-a committee} was formed , and [all the requisite officers]_{6190-all the requisite officers} elected ; [chairman]_{6191-chairman} , [treasurer]_{6192-treasurer} , honorary secretary:--among [them]_{6190-all the requisite officers} was [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [The masters]_{489-the masters} , meanwhile , took [their]_{489-the masters} measures . [They]_{489-the masters} placarded the walls with advertisements for [power - loom weavers]_{6194-power - loom weavers} . [The workmen]_{441-the workmen} replied by a placard in still larger letters , stating [their]_{441-the workmen} grievances . [The masters]_{489-the masters} met daily in [town]_5223-town , to mourn over the time ( so fast slipping away ) for the fulfilment of the foreign orders ; and to strengthen [each other]_{436-each other} in [their]_{489-the masters} resolution not to yield . If [they]_{489-the masters} gave up now , [they]_{489-the masters} might give up always . It would never do . And amongst [the most energetic of [the masters]_{489-the masters}]_{6199-the most energetic of the masters} , [the Carsons]_188-carsons , [father]_4863-father and [son]_1435-son , took [their]_{6199-the most energetic of the masters} places . It is well known , that there is [no religionist so zealous as a convert]_{6203-no religionist so zealous as a convert} ; [no masters]_{6204-no masters} so stern , and regardless of the interests of [[their]_{489-the masters} work - people]_{6205-their work - people} , as [those who have risen from such a station [themselves]_{6206-those who have risen from such a station themselves}]_{6206-those who have risen from such a station themselves} . This would account for [the elder Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's determination not to be bullied into yielding ; not even to be bullied into giving reasons for acting as [the masters]_{489-the masters} did . It was [the employer]_{6208-the employer} 's will , and that should be enough for [the employed]_{438-the employed} . [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} did not trouble [himself]_{209-mr. carson} much about the grounds for [his]_{209-mr. carson} conduct . [He]_{209-mr. carson} liked the excitement of the affair . [He]_{209-mr. carson} liked the attitude of resistance . [He]_{209-mr. carson} was brave , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} liked the idea of personal danger , with which some of the more cautious tried to intimidate the violent among [the masters]_{489-the masters} . Meanwhile , [the power - loom weavers living in [the more remote parts of [Lancashire]_{20-lancashire}]_{6212-the more remote parts of lancashire} , and [the neighbouring counties]_{6213-the neighbouring counties}]_{6211-the power - loom weavers living in the more remote parts of lancashire , and the neighbouring counties} , heard of [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' advertisements for [workmen]_1600-workmen ; and in [[their]_{6211-the power - loom weavers living in the more remote parts of lancashire , and the neighbouring counties} solitary dwellings]_{6216-their solitary dwellings} grew weary of starvation , and resolved to come to [Manchester]_1-manchester . [Foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men [they]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} were]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} , as [they]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} tried to steal into [town]_5223-town in the early dawn , before [people were astir]_{6219-people were astir} , or late in the dusk of evening . And now began the real wrong - doing of [the Trades ' Unions]_{6220-the trades ' unions} . As to [their]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} decision to work , or not , at such a particular rate of wages , that was either wise or unwise ; all error of judgment at the worst . But [they]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} had no right to tyrannise over [others]_737-others , and tie [them]_737-others down to [their]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} own procrustean bed . Abhorring what [they]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} considered oppression in [the masters]_{489-the masters} , why did [they]_{6217-foot - sore , way - worn , half - starved looking men they were} oppress [others]_737-others ? Because , when [men]_1197-men get excited , [they]_1197-men know not what [they]_1197-men do . [Judge]_6225-judge , then , with something of the mercy of [the Holy One , whom [we]_6227-we all love]_{6226-the holy one , whom we all love} . In spite of [policemen]_{6228-policemen} set to watch over the safety of [the poor country weavers,--in spite of [magistrates]_{6230-magistrates} , and [prisons]_6231-prisons , and severe punishments,--the poor depressed men tramping in from [Burnley]_79-burnley , [Padiham]_80-padiham , and other places , to work at [the condemned "_[2523-i] Starvation Prices]_{6232-the condemned " starvation prices}]_{6229-the poor country weavers,--in spite of magistrates , and prisons , and severe punishments,--the poor depressed men tramping in from burnley , padiham , and other places , to work at the condemned " starvation prices} , " were waylaid , and beaten , and left almost for dead by [the road - side]_{6233-the road - side} . [The police]_{6234-the police} broke up every lounging knot of [men:--they]_{6235-men:--they} separated quietly , to reunite half - a - mile further out of [town]_5223-town . Of course the feeling between [the masters]_{489-the masters} and [workmen]_1600-workmen did not improve under these circumstances . Combination is an awful power . It is like the equally mighty agency of steam ; capable of almost unlimited good or evil . But to obtain a blessing on its labours , it must work under the direction of a high and intelligent will ; incapable of being misled by passion , or excitement . The will of [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} had not been guided to the calmness of wisdom . So much for generalities . Let [us]_6227-we now return to [individuals]_{6240-individuals} . A note , respectfully worded , although its tone of determination was strong , had been sent from the power - loom weavers , requesting that [a "_[2523-i] deputation " of [them]_{6235-men:--they}]_{6241-a " deputation " of them} might have a meeting with [the masters]_{489-the masters} , to state the conditions [they]_{6235-men:--they} must have fulfilled before [they]_{6235-men:--they} would end the turn - out . [They]_{6235-men:--they} thought [they]_{6235-men:--they} had attained a sufficiently commanding position to dictate . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} was appointed [one of [the deputation]_{6244-the deputation}]_{6243-one of the deputation} . [The masters]_{489-the masters} agreed to this meeting , being anxious to end the strife , although undetermined among [themselves]_{489-the masters} how far [they]_{489-the masters} should yield , or whether [they]_{489-the masters} should yield at all . [Some of [the old]_{6247-the old} , whose experience had taught [them]_{6246-some of the old , whose experience had taught them sympathy} sympathy]_{6246-some of the old , whose experience had taught them sympathy} , were for concession . [Others]_737-others , [white - headed men]_{6249-white - headed men} too , had only learnt hardness and obstinacy from the days of the years of [their]_{489-the masters} lives , and sneered at the more gentle and yielding . [The younger men]_{6250-the younger men} were [one and all for an unflinching resistance to claims urged with so much violence]_{6251-one and all for an unflinching resistance to claims urged with so much violence} . Of this party [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was [the leader]_{6252-the leader} . But like [all energetic people]_{6253-all energetic people} , the more [he]_{209-mr. carson} had to do the more time [he]_{209-mr. carson} seemed to find . With all [his]_{209-mr. carson} letter - writing , [his]_{209-mr. carson} calling , [his]_{209-mr. carson} being present at the New Bailey , when investigations of any case of violence against knob - sticks [ 44 ] were going on , [he]_{209-mr. carson} beset [Mary]_145-mary more than ever . [She]_145-mary was weary of [her]_145-mary life for [him]_{209-mr. carson} . From blandishments [he]_{209-mr. carson} had even gone to threats -- threats that whether [she]_145-mary would or not [she]_145-mary should be [his]_{209-mr. carson} ; [he]_{209-mr. carson} showed an indifference that was almost insulting to every thing that might attract attention and injure [her]_145-mary character . [ Footnote 44 : "_[2523-i] [Knob - sticks]_{2528-knob - sticks} , " [those who consent to work at lower wages]_{6254-those who consent to work at lower wages} . ] And still [she]_145-mary never saw [Jem]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary knew [he]_{209-mr. carson} had returned [home]_4755-home . [She]_145-mary heard of [him]_{209-mr. carson} occasionally through [[his]_{209-mr. carson} cousin]_{6256-his cousin} , who roved gaily from [house]_686-house to [house]_686-house , finding and making [friends everywhere]_{6259-friends everywhere} . But [she]_145-mary never saw [him]_{209-mr. carson} . What was [she]_145-mary to think ? Had [he]_{209-mr. carson} given [her]_145-mary up ? Were a few hasty words , spoken in a moment of irritation , to stamp [her]_145-mary lot through life ? At times [she]_145-mary thought that [she]_145-mary could bear this meekly , happy in [her]_145-mary own constant power of loving . For of change or of forgetfulness [she]_145-mary did not dream . Then at other times [her]_145-mary state of impatience was such , that it required all [her]_145-mary self - restraint to prevent [her]_145-mary from going and seeking [him]_{209-mr. carson} out , and ( as [man]_5236-man would do to [man]_5236-man , or [woman]_5701-woman to [woman]_5701-woman ) begging [him]_{209-mr. carson} to forgive [her]_145-mary hasty words , and allow [her]_145-mary to retract them , and bidding [him]_{209-mr. carson} accept of the love that was filling [her]_145-mary whole heart . [She]_145-mary wished [Margaret]_157-margaret had not advised [her]_145-mary against such a manner of proceeding ; [she]_145-mary believed it was [[her]_145-mary friend]_{586-her friend} 's words that seemed to make such a simple action impossible , in spite of all the internal urgings . But [a friend]_{5409-a friend} 's advice is only thus powerful , when it puts into language the secret oracle of [our]_6266-our souls . It was the whisperings of [her]_145-mary womanly nature that caused [her]_145-mary to shrink from any unmaidenly action , not [Margaret]_157-margaret 's counsel . All this time , this ten days or so , of [Will]_154-jem 's visit to [Manchester]_1-manchester , there was something going on which interested [Mary]_145-mary even now , and which , in former times , would have exceedingly amused and excited [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary saw as clearly as if told in words , that [the merry , random , boisterous sailor]_{6267-the merry , random , boisterous sailor} had fallen deeply in love with the quiet , prim , somewhat plain [Margaret]_157-margaret : [she]_145-mary doubted if [Margaret]_157-margaret was aware of it , and yet , as [she]_145-mary watched more closely , [she]_145-mary began to think some instinct made [the blind girl]_{6268-the blind girl} feel whose eyes were so often fixed upon [her]_{6268-the blind girl} pale face ; that some inner feeling made the delicate and becoming rose - flush steal over [her]_{6268-the blind girl} countenance . [She]_{6268-the blind girl} did not speak so decidedly as before ; there was a hesitation in [her]_{6268-the blind girl} manner , that seemed to make [her]_{6268-the blind girl} very attractive ; as if something softer , more loveable than excellent sense , were coming in as a motive for speech ; [her]_{6268-the blind girl} eyes had always been soft , and were in no ways disfigured by [her]_{6268-the blind girl} blindness , and now seemed to have a new charm , as they quivered under their white down - cast lids . [She]_{6268-the blind girl} must be conscious , thought [Mary,--heart]_{302-mary,--heart} answering heart . [Will]_154-jem 's love had no blushings , no downcast eyes , no weighing of words ; it was as open and undisguised as [his]_154-jem nature ; yet [he]_154-jem seemed afraid of the answer its acknowledgment might meet with . It was [Margaret]_157-margaret 's angelic voice that had entranced [him]_154-jem , and which made [him]_154-jem think of [her]_157-margaret as [a being of some other sphere]_{6269-a being of some other sphere} , that [he]_154-jem feared to woo . So [he]_154-jem tried to propitiate [Job]_156-job in all manner of ways . [He]_154-jem went over to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool to rummage in [his]_154-jem great sea - chest for the flying - fish ( no very odorous present by the way ) . [He]_154-jem hesitated over [a child]_{4770-a child} 's caul for some time , which was , in [his]_154-jem eyes , a far greater treasure than [any Exocetus]_{6271-any exocetus} . What use could it be of to [a landsman]_{6272-a landsman} ? Then [Margaret]_157-margaret 's voice rang in [his]_154-jem ears ; and [he]_154-jem determined to sacrifice it , [his]_154-jem most precious possession , to one whom [she]_157-margaret loved , as [she]_157-margaret did [[her]_157-margaret grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} . It was rather a relief to [him]_154-jem , when , having put it and the flying - fish together in a brown paper parcel , and sat upon them for security all the way in [the railroad]_{6274-the railroad} , [he]_154-jem found that [Job]_156-job was so indifferent to the precious caul , that [he]_154-jem might easily claim it again . [He]_154-jem hung about [Margaret]_157-margaret , till [he]_154-jem had received many warnings and reproaches from [his]_154-jem conscience in behalf of [[his]_154-jem dear]_{6275-his dear} aunt [Alice]_146-alice 's claims upon [his]_154-jem time . [He]_154-jem went away , and then [he]_154-jem bethought [him]_154-jem of some other little word with [Job]_156-job . And [he]_154-jem turned back , and stood talking once more in [Margaret]_157-margaret 's presence , door in hand , only waiting for some little speech of encouragement to come in and sit down again . But as the invitation was not given , [he]_154-jem was forced to leave at last , and go and do [his]_154-jem duty . Four days had [Jem Wilson]_154-jem watched for [Mr. Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} without success ; [his]_154-jem hours of going and returning to [[his]_154-jem home]_{5328-his home} were so irregular , owing to the meetings and consultations among [the masters]_{489-the masters} , which were rendered necessary by the turn - out . On the fifth , without any purpose on [Jem]_154-jem 's part , [they]_6278-they met . It was [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} 's dinner - hour , the interval between twelve and one ; when [the streets of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{6280-the streets of manchester} are comparatively quiet , for [a few shopping ladies]_{6281-a few shopping ladies} and [lounging gentlemen]_{6282-lounging gentlemen} count for nothing in [that busy , bustling , living place]_{6283-that busy , bustling , living place} . [Jem]_154-jem had been on an errand for [[his]_154-jem master]_{790-his master} , instead of returning to [his]_154-jem dinner ; and in passing along [a lane]_{6285-a lane} , [a road]_{6286-a road} ( called , in compliment to the intentions of [some future builder]_{6287-some future builder} , [a street]_{1347-a street} ) , [he]_154-jem encountered [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , [the only person , as far as [he]_154-jem saw beside [himself]_154-jem , treading the unfrequented path]_{6289-the only person , as far as he saw beside himself , treading the unfrequented path} . Along one side ran a high broad fence , blackened over by coal - tar , and spiked and stuck with pointed nails at the top , to prevent [any one]_{504-any one} from climbing over into [the garden beyond]_{6291-the garden beyond} . By this fence was [the foot - path]_{6292-the foot - path} . [The carriage road]_{6293-the carriage road} was such as [no carriage]_{6294-no carriage} , no , not even [a cart]_{6295-a cart} , could possibly have passed along , without [Hercules]_303-hercules to assist in lifting [it]_{6293-the carriage road} out of the deep clay ruts . On the other side of the way was a dead brick wall ; and [a field]_{6296-a field} after that , where there was a sawpit , and [[joiner]_6297-joiner 's shed]_{6298-joiner 's shed} . [Jem]_154-jem 's heart beat violently when [he]_154-jem saw [the gay , handsome young man]_{6299-the gay , handsome young man} approaching , with a light , buoyant step . This , then , was [he]_{6299-the gay , handsome young man} whom [Mary]_145-mary loved . It was , perhaps , no wonder ; for [he]_154-jem seemed to [the poor smith]_{6300-the poor smith} so elegant , so well - appointed , that [he]_154-jem felt [his]_154-jem superiority in externals , strangely and painfully , for an instant . Then something uprose within [him]_154-jem , and told [him]_154-jem , that "_{[4855-a man]} [a man]_{4855-a man} 's [a man]_{4855-a man} for a ' that , for a ' that , and twice as much as a ' that . " And [he]_154-jem no longer felt troubled by the outward appearance of [[his]_154-jem rival]_{6301-his rival} . [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} came on , lightly bounding over the dirty places with almost [a lad]_{1578-a lad} 's buoyancy . To [his]_154-jem surprise [the dark , sturdy - looking artisan]_{6303-the dark , sturdy - looking artisan} stopped [him]_154-jem by saying respectfully , "_{[4855-a man]} May [I]_0-i speak a word wi ' [you]_{4855-a man} , [sir]_5232-sir ? " "_[0-i] Certainly , [[my]_0-i good man]_{2532-my good man} , " looking [his]_154-jem astonishment ; then finding that the promised speech did not come very quickly , [he]_0-i added , "_[0-i] But make haste , for [I]_0-i 'm in a hurry . " [Jem]_154-jem had cast about for some less abrupt way of broaching the subject uppermost in [his]_154-jem mind than [he]_154-jem now found [himself]_154-jem obliged to use . With a husky voice that trembled as [he]_0-i spoke , [he]_0-i said , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i think , [sir]_5232-sir , [yo're]_5232-sir keeping company wi ' [a young woman called [Mary Barton]_145-mary]_{2534-a young woman called mary barton} ? " A light broke in upon [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's mind , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} paused before [he]_{209-mr. carson} gave the answer for which [the other]_{1048-the other} waited . Could [this man]_{6305-this man} be [a lover of [Mary]_145-mary 's]_{6306-a lover of mary 's} ? And ( strange , stinging thought ) could [he]_{6305-this man} be beloved by [her]_145-mary , and so have caused [her]_145-mary obstinate rejection of [himself]_{6305-this man} ? [He]_{209-mr. carson} looked at [Jem]_154-jem from head to foot , [a black , grimy mechanic]_{6307-a black , grimy mechanic} , in dirty fustian clothes , strongly built , and awkward ( according to [the dancing - master]_{6308-the dancing - master} ) ; then [he]_{209-mr. carson} glanced at [himself]_{209-mr. carson} , and recalled the reflection [he]_{209-mr. carson} had so lately quitted in [[his]_{209-mr. carson} bed - room]_{6091-his bed - room} . It was impossible . [No woman with eyes]_{6310-no woman with eyes} could choose the one when [the other wooed]_{6311-the other wooed} . It was [Hyperion]_304-hyperion to [a Satyr]_{6312-a satyr} . That quotation came aptly ; [he]_{209-mr. carson} forgot "_[145-mary] That [a man]_{4855-a man} 's [a man]_{4855-a man} for a ' that . " And yet here was a clue , which [he]_{209-mr. carson} had often wanted , to [her]_{4779-the girl} changed conduct towards [him]_{209-mr. carson} . If [she]_{4779-the girl} loved [this man]_{6305-this man} . If-- [he]_{209-mr. carson} hated [the fellow]_{5151-the fellow} , and longed to strike [him]_{209-mr. carson} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} would know all . "_{[4855-a man]} [Mary Barton]_145-mary ! let [me]_0-i see . Ay , that is the name of [the girl]_{4779-the girl} . [An arrant flirt]_{2538-an arrant flirt} , [the little hussy]_{2539-the little hussy} is ; but very pretty . [Ay]_305-ay , [Mary Barton]_145-mary is [her]_{4779-the girl} name . " [Jem]_154-jem bit [his]_154-jem lips . Was it then so ; that [Mary]_145-mary was [a flirt]_{6315-a flirt} , the giddy creature of whom [he]_154-jem spoke ? [He]_154-jem would not believe it , and yet how [he]_154-jem wished the suggestive words unspoken . That thought must keep now , though . Even if [she]_{4779-the girl} were , the more reason for there being some one to protect [her]_{4779-the girl} ; poor , [faulty darling]_{6316-faulty darling} . "_[145-mary] [She]_{4779-the girl} 's [a good girl]_{4864-a good girl} , [sir]_5232-sir , though may be a bit set up with [her]_{4779-the girl} beauty ; but [she]_{4779-the girl} 's [[[her]_{4779-the girl} father]_{564-her father} 's only child]_{2543-her father 's only child} , [sir]_5232-sir , and-- " [he]_154-jem stopped ; [he]_154-jem did not like to express suspicion , and yet [he]_154-jem was determined [he]_154-jem would be certain there was ground for none . What should [he]_154-jem say ? "_{[2545-my fine fellow]} Well , [[my]_0-i fine fellow]_{2545-my fine fellow} , and what have [I]_0-i to do with that ? It 's but loss of [my]_0-i time , and [yours]_2546-you , too , if [you]_2546-you 've only stopped [me]_0-i to tell [me]_0-i [Mary Barton]_145-mary is very pretty ; [I]_0-i know that well enough . " [He]_154-jem seemed as though [he]_154-jem would have gone on , but [Jem]_154-jem put [his]_154-jem black , working , right hand upon [his]_154-jem arm to detain [him]_154-jem . [The haughty young man]_{6317-the haughty young man} shook it off , and with [his]_{6317-the haughty young man} glove pretended to brush away the sooty contamination that might be left upon [his]_{6317-the haughty young man} light great - coat sleeve . The little action aroused [Jem]_154-jem . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will tell [you]_2546-you in plain words what [I]_0-i have got to say to [you]_2546-you , [young man]_{2372-young man} . It 's been telled [me]_0-i by one as knows , and has seen , that [you]_2546-you walk with this same [Mary Barton]_145-mary , and are known to be courting [her]_145-mary ; and [her]_145-mary as spoke to [me]_0-i about it , thinks as how [Mary]_145-mary loves [you]_2546-you . That may be , or may not . But [I]_0-i 'm [an old friend of hers]_{2548-an old friend of hers} , and [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's ; and [I]_0-i just wished to know if [you]_2546-you mean to marry [the girl]_{4779-the girl} . Spite of what [you]_2546-you said of [her]_145-mary lightness , [I]_0-i ha ' known [her]_145-mary long enough to be sure [she]_145-mary 'll make [a noble wife]_{2551-a noble wife} for [any one]_{504-any one} , let [him]_{504-any one} be what [he]_{504-any one} may ; and [I]_0-i mean to stand by [her]_145-mary like [a brother]_{1622-a brother} ; and if [you]_2546-you mean rightly , [you]_2546-you 'll not think the worse on [me]_0-i for what [I]_0-i 've now said ; and if -- but no , [I]_0-i 'll not say what [I]_0-i 'll do to [the man who wrongs a hair of [her]_145-mary head]_{2554-the man who wrongs a hair of her head} . [He]_{2554-the man who wrongs a hair of her head} shall rue it the longest day [he]_{2554-the man who wrongs a hair of her head} lives , that 's all . Now , [sir]_5232-sir , what [I]_0-i ask of [you]_5232-sir is this . If [you]_5232-sir mean fair and honourable by [her]_145-mary , well and good ; but if not , for [your]_5232-sir own sake as well as [hers]_145-mary , leave [her]_145-mary alone , and never speak to [her]_145-mary more . " [Jem]_154-jem 's voice quivered with the earnestness with which [he]_154-jem spoke , and [he]_154-jem eagerly waited for some answer . [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , meanwhile , instead of attending very particularly to the purpose [the man]_{708-the man} had in addressing [him]_{209-mr. carson} , was trying to gather from [his]_{209-mr. carson} speech what was the real state of the case . [He]_{209-mr. carson} succeeded so far as to comprehend that [Jem]_154-jem inclined to believe that [Mary]_145-mary loved [[his]_154-jem rival]_{6301-his rival} ; and consequently , that if [the speaker]_{6320-the speaker} were attached to [her]_145-mary [himself]_{6320-the speaker} , [he]_{6320-the speaker} was not [a favoured admirer]_{6321-a favoured admirer} . The idea came into [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's mind , that perhaps , after all , [Mary]_145-mary loved [him]_{209-mr. carson} in spite of [her]_145-mary frequent and obstinate rejections ; and that [she]_145-mary had employed [this person]_{6322-this person} ( whoever [he]_{209-mr. carson} was ) to bully [him]_{209-mr. carson} into marrying [her]_145-mary . [He]_{209-mr. carson} resolved to try and ascertain more correctly [the man]_{708-the man} 's relation to [her]_145-mary . Either [he]_{209-mr. carson} was [a lover]_{1055-a lover} , and if so , not [a favoured one]_{6325-a favoured one} ( in which case [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} could not at all understand [the man]_{708-the man} 's motives for interesting [himself]_{708-the man} in securing [her]_145-mary marriage ) ; or [he]_{209-mr. carson} was [a friend]_{5409-a friend} , [an accomplice , whom [she]_145-mary had employed to bully [him]_{708-the man}]_{6328-an accomplice , whom she had employed to bully him} . So little faith in goodness have the mean and selfish ! "_[0-i] Before [I]_0-i make [you]_2556-you into [[my]_0-i confidant]_{2557-my confidant} , [[my]_0-i good man]_{2532-my good man} , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , in a contemptuous tone , "_[2556-you] [I]_0-i think it might be as well to inquire [your]_2556-you right to meddle with [our]_2559-our affairs . Neither [Mary]_145-mary nor [I]_0-i , as [I]_0-i conceive , called [you]_2556-you in as [a mediator]_{2560-a mediator} . " [He]_{209-mr. carson} paused ; [he]_{209-mr. carson} wanted a distinct answer to this last supposition . None came ; so [he]_{209-mr. carson} began to imagine [he]_{209-mr. carson} was to be threatened into some engagement , and [his]_{209-mr. carson} angry spirit rose . "_[0-i] And so , [[my]_0-i fine fellow]_{2545-my fine fellow} , [you]_2556-you will have the kindness to leave [us]_2559-our to [ourselves]_2559-our , and not meddle with what does not concern [you]_2556-you . If [you]_2556-you were [a brother]_{1622-a brother} , or [father of hers]_{2563-father of hers} , the case might have been different . As it is , [I]_0-i can only consider [you]_2556-you [an impertinent meddler]_{2564-an impertinent meddler} . " Again [he]_2556-you would have passed on , but [Jem]_154-jem stood in a determined way before [him]_2556-you , saying , "_[2556-you] [You]_2556-you say if [I]_0-i had been [[her]_2565-her brother]_{4840-her brother} , or [[her]_2565-her father]_{564-her father} , [you]_2556-you 'd have answered [me]_0-i what [I]_0-i ask . Now , neither [father]_4863-father nor [brother]_2569-brother could love [her]_2565-her as [I]_0-i have loved [her]_2565-her , ay , and as [I]_0-i love [her]_2565-her still ; if love gives a right to satisfaction , it 's next to impossible any one breathing can come up to [my]_0-i right . Now , [sir]_5232-sir , tell [me]_0-i ! do [you]_5232-sir mean fair by [Mary]_145-mary or not ? [I]_0-i 've proved [my]_0-i claim to know , and , by G---- , [I]_0-i will know . " "_[0-i] Come , come , no impudence , " replied [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , who , having discovered what [he]_{209-mr. carson} wanted to know ( namely , that [Jem]_154-jem was a lover of [Mary]_145-mary 's , and that [she]_145-mary was not encouraging [his]_{209-mr. carson} suit ) , wished to pass on . "_{[4863-father]} [Father]_4863-father , [brother]_2569-brother , or [rejected lover]_{2573-rejected lover} " ( with an emphasis on the word rejected ) , "_{[1202-no one]} [no one]_{1202-no one} has a right to interfere between [[my]_0-i little girl]_{2457-my little girl} and [me]_0-i . [No one]_{1202-no one} shall . Confound [you]_5232-sir , [man]_5236-man ! get out of [my]_0-i way , or [I]_0-i 'll make [you]_5232-sir , " as [Jem]_154-jem still obstructed [his]_154-jem path with dogged determination . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wo n't , then , till [you]_5232-sir 've given [me]_0-i [your]_5232-sir word about [Mary]_145-mary , " replied [the mechanic]_{6329-the mechanic} , grinding [his]_0-i words out between [his]_0-i teeth , and the livid paleness of the anger [he]_0-i could no longer keep down covering [his]_0-i face till [he]_0-i looked ghastly . "_[5232-sir] Wo n't [you]_5232-sir ? " ( with a taunting laugh ) , "_[0-i] then [I]_0-i 'll make [you]_5232-sir . " [The young man]_{5590-the young man} raised [his]_{5590-the young man} slight cane , and smote [the artisan]_{6331-the artisan} across the face with a stinging stroke . An instant afterwards [he]_0-i lay stretched in [the muddy road]_{6332-the muddy road} , [Jem]_154-jem standing over [him]_0-i , panting with rage . What [he]_0-i would have done next in [his]_0-i moment of ungovernable passion , [no one]_{1202-no one} knows ; but [a policeman from [the main street]_{6335-the main street} , into which [this road]_{6336-this road} led]_{6334-a policeman from the main street , into which this road led} , had been sauntering about for some time , unobserved by either of [the parties]_{2132-the parties} , and expecting some kind of conclusion like the present to the violent discussion going on between [the two young men]_{6338-the two young men} . In a minute [he]_0-i had pinioned [Jem]_154-jem , who sullenly yielded to the surprise . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was on [his]_{209-mr. carson} feet directly , [his]_{209-mr. carson} face glowing with rage or shame . "_[0-i] Shall [I]_0-i take [him]_2578-him to [the lock - ups]_{2579-the lock - ups} for assault , [sir]_5232-sir ? " said [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} . "_[0-i] No , no , " exclaimed [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i struck [him]_2578-him first . It was no assault on [his]_2578-him side ; though , " [he]_0-i continued , hissing out [his]_0-i words to [Jem]_154-jem , who even hated freedom procured for [him]_2578-him , however justly , at the intervention of [[his]_2578-him rival]_{6301-his rival} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will never forgive or forget [your]_2578-him insult . Trust [me]_0-i , " [he]_0-i gasped the words in excess of passion , "_[0-i] [Mary]_145-mary shall fare no better for [your]_2578-him insolent interference . " [He]_0-i laughed , as if with the consciousness of power . [Jem]_154-jem replied with equal excitement--"And_[2578-him] if [you]_2578-him dare to injure [her]_145-mary in the least , [I]_0-i will await [you]_2578-him where [no policeman]_{2581-no policeman} can step in between . And [God]_224-god shall judge between [us]_2582-us two . " [The policeman]_{2480-the policeman} now interfered with persuasions and warnings . [He]_{2480-the policeman} locked [his]_{2480-the policeman} arm in [Jem]_154-jem 's to lead [him]_154-jem away in an opposite direction to that in which [he]_{2480-the policeman} saw [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was going . [Jem]_154-jem submitted gloomily , for a few steps , then wrenched [himself]_154-jem free . [The policeman]_{2480-the policeman} shouted after [him]_154-jem , "_[224-god] Take care , [[my]_0-i man]_{2583-my man} ! there 's [no girl on]_{2584-no girl on} [earth]_1255-earth worth what [you]_{2583-my man} 'll be bringing on [yourself]_{2583-my man} if [you]_{2583-my man} do n't mind . " But [Jem]_154-jem was out of hearing . CHAPTER XVI . MEETING BETWEEN [MASTERS AND WORKMEN]_{6343-masters and workmen} . "_{[2586-the scorner]} Not for a moment take [the scorner]_{2586-the scorner} 's chair ; While seated there , [thou]_2587-thou know'st not how a word , A tone , a look , may gall [[thy]_2587-thou brother]_{2588-thy brother} 's heart , And make [him]_{2588-thy brother} turn in bitterness against [thee]_2587-thou . " "_{[2586-the scorner]} LOVE - TRUTHS . " The day arrived on which [the masters]_{489-the masters} were to have an interview with [a deputation of [the work - people]_{6346-the work - people}]_{6345-a deputation of the work - people} . The meeting was to take place in [a public room]_{6347-a public room} , at [an hotel]_{6348-an hotel} ; and there , about eleven o'clock , [the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} , began to collect . Of course , the first subject , however full [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} minds might be of another , was the weather . Having done [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} duty by all the showers and sunshine which had occurred during the past week , [they]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} fell to talking about the business which brought [them]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} together . There might be about [twenty gentlemen in [the room]_{616-the room}]_{6350-twenty gentlemen in the room} , including [some by courtesy]_{6352-some by courtesy} , who were not immediately concerned in the settlement of the present question ; but who , nevertheless , were sufficiently interested to attend . These were divided into little groups , who did not seem unanimous by any means . [Some]_797-some were for a slight concession , just a sugar - plum to quieten [the naughty child]_{6354-the naughty child} , a sacrifice to peace and quietness . [Some]_797-some were steadily and vehemently opposed to the dangerous precedent of yielding one jot or one tittle to the outward force of a turn - out . It was teaching [the work - people]_{6346-the work - people} how to become [masters]_6156-masters , said [they]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} . Did [they]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} want the wildest thing heareafter , [they]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} would know that the way to obtain [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} wishes would be to strike work . Besides , [one or two of those present]_{6358-one or two of those present} had only just returned from [the New Bailey]_{58-the new bailey} , where [one of the turn - outs]_{6359-one of the turn - outs} had been tried for a cruel assault on [a poor north - country weaver , who had attempted to work at the low price]_{6360-a poor north - country weaver , who had attempted to work at the low price} . [They]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} were indignant , and justly so , at the merciless manner in which [the poor fellow]_{6361-the poor fellow} had been treated ; and [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} indignation at wrong , took ( as it so often does ) the extreme form of revenge . [They]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} felt as if , rather than yield to [the body of men who were resorting to such cruel measures towards [[their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} fellow - [workmen]_1600-workmen]_{6363-their fellow - workmen}]_{6362-the body of men who were resorting to such cruel measures towards their fellow - workmen} , [they]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} , [the masters]_{489-the masters} , would sooner relinquish all the benefits to be derived from the fulfilment of the commission , in order that [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} might suffer keenly . [They]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} forgot that the strike was in this instance the consequence of want and need , suffered unjustly , as [the endurers]_{6367-the endurers} believed ; for , however insane , and without ground of reason , such was [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} belief , and such was the cause of [their]_{6349-the mill - owners , who had received the foreign orders} violence . It is a great truth , that [you]_6368-you can not extinguish violence by violence . [You]_6368-you may put it down for a time ; but while [you]_6368-you are crowing over [your]_6368-you imaginary success , see if it does not return with seven devils worse than its former self ! [No one]_{1202-no one} thought of treating [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} as [brethren]_{6371-brethren} and [friends]_4851-friends , and openly , clearly , as appealing to [reasonable men]_{6373-reasonable men} , stating the exact and full circumstances which led [the masters]_{489-the masters} to think it was the wise policy of the time to make sacrifices [themselves]_{489-the masters} , and to hope for [them]_{489-the masters} from [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} . In going from group to group in [the room]_{616-the room} , [you]_6377-you caught such a medley of sentences as the following : "_{[2586-the scorner]} Poor devils ! [they]_2589-they 're near enough to starving , [I]_0-i 'm afraid . [Mrs. Aldred]_{306-mrs. aldred} makes two cows ' heads into soup every week , and [people]_4744-people come several miles to fetch it ; and if these times last [we]_2591-we must try and do more . But [we]_2591-we must not be bullied into any thing ! " "_{[306-mrs. aldred]} A rise of a shilling or so wo n't make much difference , and [they]_2589-they will go away thinking [they]_2589-they 've gained [their]_2589-they point . " "_[2589-they] That 's the very thing [I]_0-i object to . [They]_2589-they 'll think so , and whenever [they]_2589-they 've a point to gain , no matter how unreasonable , [they]_2589-they 'll strike work . " "_[2589-they] It really injures [them]_2589-they more than [us]_2591-we . " "_[2589-they] [I]_0-i do n't see how [our]_2591-we interests can be separated . " "_{[2592-the d----d brute]} [The d----d brute]_{2592-the d----d brute} had thrown vitriol on [the poor fellow]_{6361-the poor fellow} 's ankles , and [you]_2594-you know what a bad part that is to heal . [He]_{6361-the poor fellow} had to stand still with the pain , and that left [him]_{6361-the poor fellow} at the mercy of [the cruel wretch , who beat [him]_{6361-the poor fellow} about the head till [you]_2594-you 'd hardly have known [he]_{6361-the poor fellow} was [a man]_{4855-a man}]_{2595-the cruel wretch , who beat him about the head till you 'd hardly have known he was a man} . [They]_2589-they doubt if [he]_{6361-the poor fellow} 'll live . " "_[2589-they] If it were only for that , [I]_0-i 'll stand out against [them]_2589-they , even if it were the cause of [my]_0-i ruin . " "_[0-i] Ay , [I]_0-i for one wo n't yield one farthing to [the cruel brutes]_{2597-the cruel brutes} ; [they]_{2597-the cruel brutes} 're more like wild beasts than [human beings]_{668-human beings} . " ( Well ! who might have made [them]_{2597-the cruel brutes} different ? ) "_[0-i] [I]_0-i say , [Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , just go and tell [Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} of this fresh instance of [their]_2589-they abominable conduct . [He]_{307-mr. duncombe} 's wavering , but [I]_0-i think this will decide [him]_{307-mr. duncombe} . " The door was now opened , and [a waiter]_{6378-a waiter} announced that [the men]_{1152-the men} were below , and asked if it were the pleasure of [the gentlemen]_{6380-the gentlemen} that [they]_{1152-the men} should be shown up . [They]_{1152-the men} assented , and rapidly took [their]_{1152-the men} places round the official table ; looking , as like as [they]_{1152-the men} could , to [the Roman senators who awaited the irruption of [Brennus]_308-brennus and [[his]_308-brennus Gauls]_{6382-his gauls}]_{6381-the roman senators who awaited the irruption of brennus and his gauls} . [Tramp]_309-tramp , tramp , came the heavy clogged feet up [the stairs]_{6383-the stairs} ; and in a minute [five wild , earnest - looking men]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} stood in [the room]_{616-the room} . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , from some mistake as to time , was not among [them]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} . Had [they]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} been [larger boned men]_{6386-larger boned men} , [you]_6387-you would have called [them]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} gaunt ; as it was , [they]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} were little of stature , and [their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} fustian clothes hung loosely upon [their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} shrunk limbs . In choosing [[their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} delegates]_{6388-their delegates} , too , [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} had had more regard to [their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} brains , and power of speech , than to [their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} wardrobes ; [they]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} might have read the opinions of [that worthy Professor Teufelsdruch]_{6390-that worthy professor teufelsdruch} , in [Sartor Resartus]_{81-sartor resartus} , to judge from the dilapidated coats and trousers , which yet clothed [men of parts and of power]_{6391-men of parts and of power} . It was long since many of [them]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} had known the luxury of a new article of dress ; and air - gaps were to be seen in [their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} garments . [Some of [the masters]_{489-the masters}]_{6392-some of the masters} were rather affronted at such a ragged detachment coming between the wind and [[their]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} nobility]_{6394-their nobility} ; but what cared [they]_{6384-five wild , earnest - looking men} ? At the request of [a gentleman hastily chosen to officiate as chairman]_{6395-a gentleman hastily chosen to officiate as chairman} , [the leader of [the delegates]_{6397-the delegates}]_{6396-the leader of the delegates} read , in a high - pitched , psalm - singing voice , a paper , containing [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives} ' statement of the case at issue , [their]_{5426-the operatives} complaints , and [their]_{5426-the operatives} demands , which last were not remarkable for moderation . [He]_{6396-the leader of the delegates} was then desired to withdraw for a few minutes , with [[his]_{6396-the leader of the delegates} fellow delegates]_{6399-his fellow delegates} , to [another room]_{6400-another room} , while [the masters]_{489-the masters} considered what should be [their]_{489-the masters} definitive answer . When [the men]_{1152-the men} had left [the room]_{616-the room} , a whispered earnest consultation took place , [every one]_{669-every one} re - urging [his]_{669-every one} former arguments . [The conceders]_{6405-the conceders} carried the day , but only by a majority of one . [The minority]_{6406-the minority} haughtily and audibly expressed [their]_{6406-the minority} dissent from the measures to be adopted , even after [the delegates]_{6397-the delegates} re - entered [the room]_{616-the room} ; [their]_{6397-the delegates} words and looks did not pass unheeded by [the quick - eyed operatives]_{6409-the quick - eyed operatives} ; [their]_{6397-the delegates} names were registered in bitter hearts . [The masters]_{489-the masters} could not consent to the advance demanded by [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} . [They]_{489-the masters} would agree to give one shilling per week more than [they]_{489-the masters} had previously offered . Were [the delegates]_{6397-the delegates} empowered to accept such offer ? [They]_{6397-the delegates} were empowered to accept or decline any offer made that day by [the masters]_{489-the masters} . Then it might be as well for [them]_{6397-the delegates} to consult among [themselves]_{6397-the delegates} as to what should be [their]_{6397-the delegates} decision . [They]_{6397-the delegates} again withdrew . It was not for long . [They]_{6397-the delegates} came back , and positively declined any compromise of [their]_{6397-the delegates} demands . Then up sprang [Mr. Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , [the head and voice of the violent party among [the masters]_{489-the masters}]_{6414-the head and voice of the violent party among the masters} , and addressing [the chairman]_{6416-the chairman} , even before [the scowling operatives]_{6417-the scowling operatives} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} proposed some resolutions , which [he]_{209-mr. carson} , and those who agreed with [him]_{209-mr. carson} , had been concocting during this last absence of the deputation . [They]_{6397-the delegates} were , firstly , withdrawing the proposal just made , and declaring all communication between [the masters]_{489-the masters} and that particular [Trades ' Union]_{6419-trades ' union} at an end ; secondly , declaring that [no master]_{6420-no master} would employ [any workman]_{6421-any workman} in future , unless [he]_{6420-no master} signed a declaration that [he]_{6420-no master} did not belong to [any Trades ' Union]_{6422-any trades ' union} , and pledged [himself]_{6420-no master} not to assist or subscribe to any society , having for [its]_{6419-trades ' union} object interference with [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' powers ; and , thirdly , that [the masters]_{489-the masters} should pledge [themselves]_{489-the masters} to protect and encourage [all workmen]_{6425-all workmen} willing to accept employment on those conditions , and at the rate of wages first offered . Considering that [the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance]_{6426-the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance} were [all of [them]_{6426-the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance} leading [members of [the Union]_{6429-the union}]_{6428-members of the union}]_{6427-all of them leading members of the union} , such resolutions were in [themselves]_{489-the masters} sufficiently provocative of animosity : but not content with simply stating them , [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} went on to characterise the conduct of [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} in no measured terms ; every word [he]_{209-mr. carson} spoke rendering [their]_{6426-the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance} looks more livid , [their]_{6426-the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance} glaring eyes more fierce . [One among [them]_{6426-the men who now stood listening with lowering brows of defiance}]_{6431-one among them} would have spoken , but checked [himself]_{6431-one among them} in obedience to the stern glance and pressure on [his]_{6431-one among them} arm , received from [the leader]_{6252-the leader} . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} sat down , and [a friend]_{5409-a friend} instantly got up to second the motion . It was carried , but far from unanimously . [The chairman]_{6416-the chairman} announced it to [the delegates]_{6397-the delegates} ( who had been once more turned out of [the room]_{616-the room} for a division ) . [They]_{6397-the delegates} received it with deep brooding silence , but spake never a word , and left [the room]_{616-the room} without even a bow . Now there had been some by - play at this meeting , not recorded in the [Manchester]_1-manchester newspapers , which gave an account of the more regular part of the transaction . While [the men]_{1152-the men} had stood grouped near the door , on [their]_{1152-the men} first entrance , [Mr. Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had taken out [his]_{209-mr. carson} silver pencil , and had drawn an admirable caricature of [them]_{1152-the men} -- lank , ragged , dispirited , and famine - stricken . Underneath [he]_{209-mr. carson} wrote a hasty quotation from [the fat knight]_{6439-the fat knight} 's well - known speech in [Henry IV]_{310-henry iv} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} passed it to [one of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} neighbours]_{6441-his neighbours} , who acknowledged the likeness instantly , and by [him]_{209-mr. carson} it was sent round to [others , who all]_{6442-others , who all} smiled and nodded [their]_{6442-others , who all} heads . When it came back to [its owner]_{6443-its owner} [he]_{209-mr. carson} tore the back of the letter on which it was drawn , in two]_{6440-one of his neighbours , who acknowledged the likeness instantly , and by him it was sent round to others , who all smiled and nodded their heads . when it came back to its owner he tore the back of the letter on which it was drawn , in two} ; twisted them up , and flung them into the fire - place ; but , careless whether [they]_{1152-the men} reached [their]_{1152-the men} aim or not , [he]_{209-mr. carson} did not look to see that [they]_{1152-the men} fell just short of any consuming cinders . This proceeding was closely observed by [one of [the men]_{1152-the men}]_{6444-one of the men} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} watched [the masters]_{489-the masters} as [they]_{489-the masters} left [the hotel]_{6447-the hotel} ( laughing , [some of [them]_{489-the masters}]_{6448-some of them} were , at passing jokes ) , and when [all]_4906-all had gone , [he]_{209-mr. carson} re - entered . [He]_{209-mr. carson} went to [the waiter]_{6450-the waiter} , who recognised [him]_{209-mr. carson} . "_[0-i] There 's a bit on a picture up yonder , as [one o ' [the gentlemen]_{6380-the gentlemen}]_{2599-one o ' the gentlemen} threw away ; [I]_0-i 've [a little lad]_{2601-a little lad} at [home]_4755-home as dearly loves a picture ; by [your]_2603-your leave [I]_0-i 'll go up for it . " [The waiter]_{6450-the waiter} , good - natured and sympathetic , accompanied [him]_{209-mr. carson} up - [stairs]_4740-stairs ; saw the paper picked up and untwisted , and then being convinced , by a hasty glance at its contents , that it was only what [the man had called it , "_[0-i] a bit of a picture]_{6453-the man had called it , " a bit of a picture} , " [he]_{209-mr. carson} allowed [him]_{209-mr. carson} to bear away [his]_{209-mr. carson} prize . Towards seven o'clock that evening [many operatives]_{6454-many operatives} began to assemble in [a room in [the Weavers ' Arms public - house]_{6456-the weavers ' arms public - house}]_{6455-a room in the weavers ' arms public - house} , [a room appropriated for "_[2603-your] festive occasions]_{6457-a room appropriated for " festive occasions} , " as [the landlord]_{2461-the landlord} , in [his]_{2461-the landlord} circular , on opening [the premises]_{6459-the premises} , had described [it]_{6455-a room in the weavers ' arms public - house} . But , alas ! it was on no festive occasion that [they]_{6454-many operatives} met [there]_873-there on this night . [Starved , irritated , despairing men]_{6461-starved , irritated , despairing men} , [they]_{6454-many operatives} were assembling to hear the answer that morning given by [the masters]_{489-the masters} to [[their]_{6454-many operatives} delegates]_{6388-their delegates} ; after which , as was stated in the notice , [a gentleman from [London]_28-london]_{6464-a gentleman from london} would have the honour of addressing the meeting on the present state of affairs between [the employers]_{437-the employers} and [the employed]_{438-the employed} , or ( as [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} chose to term [them]_6467-them ) the idle and [the industrious classes]_{6468-the industrious classes} . [The room]_{616-the room} was not large , but [its]_{616-the room} bareness of furniture made [it]_{616-the room} appear so . Unshaded gas flared down upon [the lean and unwashed artisans]_{6470-the lean and unwashed artisans} as [they]_{6470-the lean and unwashed artisans} entered , [their]_{6470-the lean and unwashed artisans} eyes blinking at the excess of light . [They]_{6470-the lean and unwashed artisans} took [their]_{6470-the lean and unwashed artisans} seats on benches , and awaited the deputation . [The latter]_{511-the latter} , gloomily and ferociously , delivered [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' ultimatum , adding thereunto not one word of [their]_{489-the masters} own ; and it sank all the deeper into the sore hearts of [the listeners]_{6473-the listeners} for [their]_{6473-the listeners} forbearance . Then [the "_[0-i] gentleman from [London]_28-london]_{6474-the " gentleman from london} " ( who had been previously informed of [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' decision ) entered . [You]_6476-you would have been puzzled to define [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} exact position , or what was the state of [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} mind as regarded education . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} looked so self - conscious , so far from earnest , among the group of [eager , fierce , absorbed men]_{6477-eager , fierce , absorbed men} , among whom [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} now stood . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} might have been [a disgraced medical student of the Bob Sawyer class]_{6478-a disgraced medical student of the bob sawyer class} , or [an unsuccessful actor]_{6479-an unsuccessful actor} , or [a flashy shopman]_{6480-a flashy shopman} . The impression [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} would have given [you]_6476-you would have been unfavourable , and yet there was much about [him]_{6464-a gentleman from london} that could only be characterised as doubtful . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} smirked in acknowledgment of [their]_{489-the masters} uncouth greetings , and sat down ; then glancing round , [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} inquired whether it would not be agreeable to [the gentlemen present]_{6481-the gentlemen present} to have pipes and liquor handed round ; adding , that [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} would stand treat . As [the man who has had [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} taste educated to love reading]_{6482-the man who has had his taste educated to love reading} , falls devouringly upon books after a long abstinence , so [these poor fellows , whose tastes had been left to educate]_{6483-these poor fellows , whose tastes had been left to educate} [themselves]_{6483-these poor fellows , whose tastes had been left to educate} into a liking for tobacco , beer , and similar gratifications , gleamed up at the proposal of [the London delegate]_{6484-the london delegate} . Tobacco and drink deaden the pangs of hunger , and make [one]_518-one forget the miserable home , the desolate future . [They]_{489-the masters} were now ready to listen to [him]_{6464-a gentleman from london} with approbation . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} felt it ; and rising like [a great orator]_{6486-a great orator} , with [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} right arm outstretched , [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} left in the breast of [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} waistcoat , [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} began to declaim , with a forced theatrical voice . After a burst of eloquence , in which [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} blended the deeds of [the elder]_{6487-the elder} and [the younger Brutus]_{6488-the younger brutus} , and magnified the resistless might of [the "_[0-i] millions of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{6489-the " millions of manchester} , " [the Londoner]_{6490-the londoner} descended to matter - of - fact business , and in [his]_{6464-a gentleman from london} capacity this way [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} did not belie the good judgment of [those who had sent [him]_{6464-a gentleman from london} as [delegate]_{6492-delegate}]_{6491-those who had sent him as delegate} . Masses of [people]_4744-people , when left to [their]_{489-the masters} own free choice , seem to have discretion in distinguishing [men of natural talent]_{6494-men of natural talent} ; it is a pity [they]_{489-the masters} so little regard temper and principles . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} rapidly dictated resolutions , and suggested measures . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} wrote out a stirring placard for the walls . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} proposed sending [delegates]_{5458-delegates} to entreat the assistance of [other Trades ' Unions]_{6496-other trades ' unions} in [other towns]_{6188-other towns} . [He]_{6464-a gentleman from london} headed the list of subscribing Unions , by a liberal donation from that with which [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} was especially connected in [London]_28-london ; and what was more , and more uncommon , [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} paid down the money in [real , clinking , blinking , golden sovereigns]_{6498-real , clinking , blinking , golden sovereigns} ! The money , alas , was cravingly required ; but before alleviating any private necessities on the morrow , small sums were handed to each of [the delegates , who were in a day or two to set out]_{6499-the delegates , who were in a day or two to set out} on [their]_{6499-the delegates , who were in a day or two to set out} expeditions to [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , [Newcastle]_82-newcastle , [Nottingham]_{42-nottingham} , & amp;c . [These men]_{6500-these men} were [most of [them]_{6500-these men} members of the deputation who had that morning waited upon [the masters]_{489-the masters}]_{6501-most of them members of the deputation who had that morning waited upon the masters} . After [he]_{6464-a gentleman from london} had drawn up some letters , and spoken a few more stirring words , [the gentleman from [London]_28-london]_{6503-the gentleman from london} withdrew , previously shaking hands all round ; and many speedily followed [him]_{6464-a gentleman from london} out of [the room]_{616-the room} , and out of [the house]_{803-the house} . [The newly - appointed delegates]_{6506-the newly - appointed delegates} , and [one or two others]_{6507-one or two others} , remained behind to talk over [their]_{6506-the newly - appointed delegates} respective missions , and to give and exchange opinions in more homely and natural language than [they]_{6506-the newly - appointed delegates} dared to use before the [London]_28-london orator . "_[2604-he] [He]_2604-he 's [a rare chap]_{2605-a rare chap} , [yon]_2606-yon , " began [one]_518-one , indicating [the departed delegate]_{6509-the departed delegate} by a jerk of [his]_518-one thumb towards the door . "_{[2605-a rare chap]} [He]_2604-he 's gotten the gift of the gab , anyhow ! " "_[2604-he] Ay ! ay ! [he]_2604-he knows what [he]_2604-he 's about . See how [he]_2604-he poured it into [us]_2607-us about that there [Brutus]_311-brutus . [He]_2604-he were pretty hard , too , to kill [[his]_2604-he own son]_{2608-his own son} ! " "_[2604-he] [I]_0-i could kill [mine]_0-i if [he]_2604-he took part wi ' [the masters]_{489-the masters} ; to be sure , [he]_2604-he 's but [a step - son]_{2610-a step - son} , but that makes no odds , " said another . But now tongues were hushed , and all eyes were directed towards [the member of the deputation who had that morning returned to [the hotel]_{6447-the hotel} to obtain possession of [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's clever caricature of [the operatives]_{5426-the operatives}]_{6510-the member of the deputation who had that morning returned to the hotel to obtain possession of harry carson 's clever caricature of the operatives} . The heads clustered together , to gaze at and detect the likenesses . "_{[312-john slater]} That 's [John Slater]_{312-john slater} ! [I]_0-i 'd ha ' known [him]_{312-john slater} anywhere , by [his]_{312-john slater} big nose . [Lord]_2611-lord ! how like ; that 's [me]_0-i , by [G----]_313-g---- , it 's the very way [I]_0-i 'm obligated to pin [my]_0-i waistcoat up , to hide that [I]_0-i 've gotten no shirt . That _ is _ a shame , and [I]_0-i 'll not stand it . " "_[0-i] Well ! " said [John Slater]_{312-john slater} , after having acknowledged [his]_0-i nose and [his]_0-i likeness ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could laugh at a jest as well as e'er the best on ['em]_2612-'em , though it did tell again [mysel]_2613-mysel , if [I]_0-i were not clemming " ( [his]_0-i eyes filled with tears ; [he]_0-i was [a poor , pinched , sharp - featured man]_{6513-a poor , pinched , sharp - featured man} , with a gentle and melancholy expression of countenance ) , "_[2613-mysel] and if [I]_0-i could keep from thinking of [them]_2614-them at [home]_4755-home , as is clemming ; but with [their]_2614-them cries for food ringing in [my]_0-i ears , and making [me]_0-i afeard of going [home]_4755-home , and wonder if [I]_0-i should hear ['em]_2612-'em wailing out , if [I]_0-i lay cold and drowned at [th ' bottom o ' [th ' canal]_{2618-th ' canal}]_{2617-th ' bottom o ' th ' canal} , there,--why , [man]_5236-man , [I]_0-i can not laugh at ought . It seems to make [me]_0-i sad that there is any as can make game on what [they]_2614-them 've never knowed ; as can make such laughable pictures on [men]_1197-men , whose very hearts within 'em are so raw and sore as [ours]_2621-we were and are , [God]_224-god help [us]_2621-we . " [John Barton]_{131-john barton} began to speak ; [they]_1197-men turned to [him]_0-i with great attention . "_[224-god] It makes [me]_0-i more than sad , it makes [my]_0-i heart burn within [me]_0-i , to see that [folk]_5093-folk can make a jest of [earnest men]_{2623-earnest men} ; of [chaps who comed to ask for a bit o ' fire]_{2624-chaps who comed to ask for a bit o ' fire} for [th ' old granny]_{2625-th ' old granny} , as shivers in th ' cold ; for a bit o ' bedding , and some warm clothing to [the poor wife]_{1338-the poor wife} as lies in labour on th ' damp flags ; and for victuals for [the childer , whose little voices are getting too faint and weak to cry aloud wi ' hunger]_{2627-the childer , whose little voices are getting too faint and weak to cry aloud wi ' hunger} . For , [brothers]_{5186-brothers} , is not [them]_2629-their the things [we]_2621-we ask for when [we]_2621-we ask for more wage ? [We]_2621-we donnot want dainties , [we]_2621-we want bellyfuls ; [we]_2621-we donnot want gimcrack coats and waistcoats , [we]_2621-we want warm clothes , and so that [we]_2621-we get 'em [we]_2621-we 'd not quarrel wi ' what [they]_2629-their 're made on . [We]_2621-we donnot want [[their]_2629-their grand houses]_{2630-their grand houses} , [we]_2621-we want a roof to cover [us]_2621-we from the rain , and the snow , and the storm ; ay , and not alone to cover [us]_2621-we , but [the helpless ones that cling to [us]_2621-we in the keen wind , and ask [us]_2621-we with [their]_2629-their eyes why [we]_2621-we brought ['em]_2632-'em into [th ' world]_{1596-th ' world}]_{2631-the helpless ones that cling to us in the keen wind , and ask us with their eyes why we brought 'em into th ' world} to suffer ? " [He]_0-i lowered [his]_0-i deep voice almost to a whisper . "_{[2634-a father who had killed his child]} [I]_0-i 've seen [a father who had killed [his]_{2634-a father who had killed his child} child]_{2634-a father who had killed his child} rather than let it clem before [his]_{2634-a father who had killed his child} eyes ; and [he]_{2634-a father who had killed his child} were [a tender - hearted man]_{2635-a tender - hearted man} . " [He]_0-i began again in [his]_0-i usual tone . "_{[2634-a father who had killed his child]} [We]_2621-we come to [th ' masters wi ' full hearts]_{2636-th ' masters wi ' full hearts} , to ask for [them]_{2636-th ' masters wi ' full hearts} things [I]_0-i named afore . [We]_2621-we know that [they]_{2636-th ' masters wi ' full hearts} 've gotten money , as [we]_2621-we 've earned for 'em ; [we]_2621-we know trade is mending , and that [they]_{2636-th ' masters wi ' full hearts} 've large orders , for which [they]_{2636-th ' masters wi ' full hearts} 'll be well paid ; [we]_2621-we ask for [our]_2621-we share o ' th ' payment ; for , say [we]_2621-we , if [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} get [our]_2621-we share of payment it will only go to keep [servants]_{2638-servants} and horses , to more dress and pomp . Well and good , if [yo]_2639-you choose to be [fools]_2640-fools [we]_2621-we 'll not hinder [you]_2639-you , so long as [you]_2639-you 're just ; but [our]_2621-we share [we]_2621-we must and will have ; [we]_2621-we 'll not be cheated . _ [We]_2621-we _ want it for daily bread , for life itself ; and not for [our]_2621-we own lives neither ( for there 's many a one here , [I]_0-i know by [mysel]_2641-mysel , as would be glad and thankful to lie down and die out o ' [this weary world]_{2642-this weary world} ) , but for the lives of [them little ones , who do n't yet know what life is , and are afeard of death]_{2643-them little ones , who do n't yet know what life is , and are afeard of death} . Well , [we]_2621-we come before [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} to state what [we]_2621-we want , and what [we]_2621-we must have , afore [we]_2621-we 'll set shoulder to [their]_{5195-th ' masters} work ; and [they]_{5195-th ' masters} say , ' No . ' [One]_518-one would think that would be enough of hard - heartedness , but it is n't . [They]_{5195-th ' masters} go and make jesting pictures of [us]_2621-we ! [I]_0-i could laugh at [mysel]_2641-mysel , as well as poor [John Slater]_{312-john slater} [there]_873-there ; but then [I]_0-i must be easy in [my]_0-i mind to laugh . Now [I]_0-i only know that [I]_0-i would give the last drop o ' [my]_0-i blood to avenge [us]_2621-we on [[yon]_2647-yon chap , who had so little feeling in [him]_{2648-yon chap , who had so little feeling in him as to make game on earnest , suffering men} as to make game on [earnest , suffering men]_{2649-earnest , suffering men}]_{2648-yon chap , who had so little feeling in him as to make game on earnest , suffering men} ! " A low angry murmur was heard among [the men]_{1152-the men} , but it did not yet take form or words . [John]_{312-john slater} continued-- "_[2650-you] [You]_2650-you 'll wonder , [chaps]_2651-chaps , how [I]_0-i came to miss the time this morning ; [I]_0-i 'll just tell [you]_2650-you what [I]_0-i was a - doing . [[Th]_2652-th ' chaplain at [the New Bailey]_{58-the new bailey}]_{2653-th ' chaplain at the new bailey} sent and gived [me]_0-i an order to see [Jonas Higginbotham]_314-jonas ; [him]_314-jonas as was taken up last week for throwing vitriol in a knob - stick 's face . Well , [I]_0-i could n't help but go ; and [I]_0-i did n't reckon it would ha ' kept [me]_0-i so late . [Jonas]_314-jonas were like one crazy when [I]_0-i got to [him]_314-jonas ; [he]_314-jonas said [he]_314-jonas could na get rest night or day for th ' face of [the poor fellow [he]_314-jonas had damaged]_{2654-the poor fellow he had damaged} ; then [he]_314-jonas thought on [his]_314-jonas weak , clemmed look , as [he]_314-jonas tramped , foot - sore , into [town]_5223-town ; and [Jonas]_314-jonas thought , may be , [he]_314-jonas had left [them]_2656-them at [home]_4755-home as would look for news , and hope and get none , but , haply , tidings of [his]_314-jonas death . Well , [Jonas]_314-jonas had thought on these things till [he]_314-jonas could not rest , but walked up and down continually like a wild beast in [his]_314-jonas cage . At last [he]_314-jonas bethought [him]_314-jonas on a way to help a bit , and [he]_314-jonas got [th ' chaplain]_{2658-th ' chaplain} to send for [me]_0-i ; and [he]_314-jonas telled [me]_0-i this ; and that [th ' man]_{2659-th ' man} were lying in [th ' Infirmary]_{1532-th ' infirmary} , and [he]_314-jonas bade [me]_0-i go ( to - day 's the day as [folk]_5093-folk may be admitted into [th ' Infirmary]_{1532-th ' infirmary} ) and get [his]_314-jonas silver watch , as was [[his]_314-jonas mother]_{787-his mother} 's , and sell it as well as [I]_0-i could , and take the money , and bid [the poor knob - stick]_{2664-the poor knob - stick} send it to [[his]_314-jonas friends]_{2665-his friends} beyond [Burnley]_79-burnley ; and [I]_0-i were to take [him]_314-jonas [Jonas]_314-jonas 's kind regards , and [he]_314-jonas humbly axed [him]_314-jonas to forgive [him]_314-jonas . So [I]_0-i did what [Jonas]_314-jonas wished . But bless [your]_2666-your life , [none on [us]_2668-us]_{2667-none on us} would ever throw vitriol again ( at least at a knob - stick ) if [they]_2669-they could see the sight [I]_0-i saw to - day . [The man]_{708-the man} lay , [his]_{708-the man} face all wrapped in cloths , so [I]_0-i did n't see _ that _ ; but not a limb , nor a bit of a limb , could keep from quivering with pain . [He]_{708-the man} would ha ' bitten [his]_{708-the man} hand to keep down [his]_{708-the man} moans , but could n't , [his]_{708-the man} face hurt [him]_{708-the man} so if [he]_{708-the man} moved it e'er so little . [He]_{708-the man} could scarce mind [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i telled [him]_{708-the man} about [Jonas]_314-jonas ; [he]_{708-the man} did squeeze [my]_0-i hand when [I]_0-i jingled the money , but when [I]_0-i axed [[his]_{708-the man} wife]_{525-his wife} 's name [he]_{708-the man} shrieked out , ' [Mary]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , shall [I]_0-i never see [you]_145-mary again ? [Mary]_145-mary , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5220-my darling} , [they]_2673-they 've made [me]_0-i blind because [I]_0-i wanted to work for [you]_145-mary and [[our]_2674-our own baby]_{2675-our own baby} ; oh , [Mary]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ! ' Then [the nurse]_{2676-the nurse} came , and said [he]_{708-the man} were raving , and that [I]_0-i had made [him]_{708-the man} worse . And [I]_0-i 'm afeard it was true ; yet [I]_0-i were loth to go without knowing where to send the money . . . . So that kept [me]_0-i beyond [my]_0-i time , [chaps]_2651-chaps . " "_[2651-chaps] Did [yo]_2678-yo hear where [the wife]_{1298-the wife} lived at last ? " asked many anxious voices . "_[2678-yo] No ! [he]_{708-the man} went on talking to [her]_{1298-the wife} , till [his]_{708-the man} words cut [my]_0-i heart like a knife . [I]_0-i axed [th ' nurse]_{2680-th ' nurse} to find out who [she]_{1298-the wife} was , and where [she]_{1298-the wife} lived . But what [I]_0-i 'm more especial naming it now for is this,--for one thing [I]_0-i wanted [yo]_2678-yo all to know why [I]_0-i were n't at [[my]_0-i post]_{2681-my post} this morning ; for another , [I]_0-i wish to say , that [I]_0-i , for one , [ha]_2682-ha ' seen enough of what comes of attacking knob - sticks , and [I]_0-i 'll [ha]_2682-ha nought to do with it no more . " There were some expressions of disapprobation , but [John]_{312-john slater} did not mind [them]_6515-them . "_[0-i] Nay ! [I]_0-i 'm [no coward]_{2683-no coward} , " [he]_0-i replied , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i 'm true to [th]_2684-th ' backbone . What [I]_0-i would like , and what [I]_0-i would do , would be to fight [the masters]_{489-the masters} . There 's one among [yo]_2678-yo called [me]_0-i [a coward]_{2686-a coward} . Well ! [every man]_{2687-every man} has a right to [his]_{2687-every man} opinion ; but since [I]_0-i 've thought on [th]_2684-th ' matter to - day , [I]_0-i 've thought [we]_2688-we han all on [us]_2688-we been more like [cowards]_2689-cowards in attacking [the poor like [ourselves]_2688-we]_{2690-the poor like ourselves} ; [them]_{2690-the poor like ourselves} as has none to help , but mun choose between vitriol and starvation . [I]_0-i say [we]_2688-we 're more cowardly in doing that than in leaving [them]_{2690-the poor like ourselves} alone . No ! what [I]_0-i would do is this . Have at [the masters]_{489-the masters} ! " Again [he]_0-i shouted , "_{[489-the masters]} Have at [the masters]_{489-the masters} ! " [He]_0-i spoke lower ; [all]_4906-all listened with hushed breath . "_{[489-the masters]} It 's [the masters]_{489-the masters} as has wrought this woe ; it 's [the masters]_{489-the masters} as should pay for it . [Him]_2695-him as called [me]_0-i [coward]_2696-coward just now , may try if [I]_0-i am one or not . Set [me]_0-i to serve out [the masters]_{489-the masters} , and see if there 's ought [I]_0-i 'll stick at . " "_[2695-him] It would give [th ' masters]_{5195-th ' masters} a bit on a fright if one on [them]_{5195-th ' masters} were beaten within an inch of [his]_2695-him life , " said [one]_518-one . "_[2695-him] Ay ! or beaten till no life were left in [him]_2695-him , " growled [another]_1526-another . And so with words , or looks that told more than words , [they]_{5195-th ' masters} built up a deadly plan . Deeper and darker grew the import of [their]_{5195-th ' masters} speeches , as [they]_{5195-th ' masters} stood hoarsely muttering [their]_{5195-th ' masters} meaning out , and glaring , with eyes that told the terror [their]_{5195-th ' masters} own thoughts were to [them]_{5195-th ' masters} , upon [[their]_{5195-th ' masters} neighbours]_{6519-their neighbours} . [Their]_{5195-th ' masters} clenched fists , [their]_{5195-th ' masters} set teeth , [their]_{5195-th ' masters} livid looks , all told the suffering [their]_{5195-th ' masters} minds were voluntarily undergoing in the contemplation of crime , and in familiarising [themselves]_{5195-th ' masters} with its details . Then came one of those fierce terrible oaths which bind [members of [Trades ' Unions]_{2036-trades ' unions}]_{6520-members of trades ' unions} to any given purpose . Then , under the flaring gaslight , [they]_{5195-th ' masters} met together to consult further . With the distrust of guilt , [each]_5320-each was suspicious of [[his]_5320-each neighbour]_{6523-his neighbour} ; [each]_5320-each dreaded the treachery of another . A number of pieces of paper ( the identical letter on which the caricature had been drawn that very morning ) were torn up , and _ one was marked _ . Then [all]_4906-all were folded up again , looking exactly alike . [They]_4906-all were shuffled together in a hat . The gas was extinguished ; [each]_5320-each drew out a paper . The gas was re - lighted . Then [each]_5320-each went as far as [he]_5320-each could from [[his]_5320-each fellows]_{759-his fellows} , and examined the paper [he]_5320-each had drawn without saying a word , and with a countenance as stony and immovable as [he]_5320-each could make it . Then , still rigidly silent , [they]_{5195-th ' masters} each took up [their]_{5195-th ' masters} hats and went every one [his]_5320-each own way . [He]_5320-each who had drawn the marked paper had drawn the lot of [the assassin]_{6529-the assassin} ! and [he]_5320-each had sworn to act according to [his]_5320-each drawing ! But [no one]_{1202-no one} save [God]_224-god and [his]_5320-each own conscience knew who was [the appointed murderer]_{6531-the appointed murderer} ! CHAPTER XVII . [BARTON 'S NIGHT - ERRAND]_{315-barton 's night - errand} . "_[2695-him] Mournful is't to say Farewell , Though for few brief hours [we]_2699-we part ; In that absence , who can tell What may come to wring the heart ! " ANONYMOUS . The events recorded in the last chapter took place on a Tuesday . On Thursday afternoon [Mary]_145-mary was surprised , in the midst of some little bustle in which [she]_145-mary was engaged , by the entrance of [Will Wilson]_{6532-will wilson} . [He]_{6532-will wilson} looked strange , at least it was strange to see any different expression on [his]_{6532-will wilson} face to [his]_{6532-will wilson} usual joyous beaming appearance . [He]_{6532-will wilson} had a paper parcel in [his]_{6532-will wilson} hand . [He]_{6532-will wilson} came in , and sat down , more quietly than usual . "_[154-jem] Why , [Will]_154-jem ! what 's the matter with [you]_154-jem ? [You]_154-jem seem quite cut up about something ! " "_[154-jem] And [I]_0-i am , [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_0-i 'm come to say good - bye ; and [few folk]_{2700-few folk} like to say good - bye to [them]_{2700-few folk} [they]_{2700-few folk} love . " "_{[2700-few folk]} Good - bye ! Bless [me]_0-i , [Will]_154-jem , that 's sudden , is n't it ? " [Mary]_145-mary left off ironing , and came and stood near [the fire - place]_{625-the fire - place} . [She]_145-mary had always liked [Will]_154-jem ; but now it seemed as if a sudden spring of sisterly love had gushed up in [her]_145-mary heart , so sorry did [she]_145-mary feel to hear of [his]_154-jem approaching departure . "_[154-jem] It 's very sudden , is n't it ? " said [she]_145-mary , repeating [her]_145-mary question . "_[154-jem] Yes ! it 's very sudden , " said [he]_154-jem , dreamily . "_[154-jem] No , it is n't ; " rousing [himself]_154-jem , to think of what [he]_154-jem was saying . "_{[2701-the captain]} [The captain]_{2701-the captain} told [me]_0-i in a fortnight [he]_{2701-the captain} would be ready to sail again ; but it comes very sudden on [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i had got so fond of [you]_2702-you all . " [Mary]_145-mary understood the particular fondness that was thus generalised . [She]_145-mary spoke again . "_[0-i] But it 's not a fortnight since [you]_2702-you came . Not a fortnight since [you]_2702-you knocked at [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's door , and [I]_0-i was there , [you]_2702-you remember . Nothing like a fortnight ! " "_[0-i] No ; [I]_0-i know it 's not . But , [you]_2702-you see , [I]_0-i got a letter this afternoon from [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} , to tell [me]_0-i [[our]_2703-our ship]_{2405-our ship} sails on Tuesday next ; and it 's long since [I]_0-i promised [[my]_0-i uncle]_{2705-my uncle} ( [[[my]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} 's brother]_{2707-my mother 's brother} , [him]_{2707-my mother 's brother} that lives at [Kirk - Christ]_{83-kirk - christ} , beyond [Ramsay]_84-ramsay , in [the Isle of Man]_{2708-the isle of man} ) that [I]_0-i 'd go and see [him]_{2707-my mother 's brother} and [his]_{2707-my mother 's brother} , this time of coming ashore . [I]_0-i must go . [I]_0-i 'm sorry enough ; but [I]_0-i must n't [slight [poor mother]_{2710-poor mother} 's friends]_{2709-slight poor mother 's friends} . [I]_0-i must go . Do n't try to keep [me]_0-i , " said [he]_0-i , evidently fearing the strength of [his]_0-i own resolution , if hard pressed by entreaty . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm not a - going , [Will]_{130-jane wilson} . [I]_0-i dare say [you]_{130-jane wilson} 're right ; only [I]_0-i ca n't help feeling sorry [you]_{130-jane wilson} 're going away . It seems so flat to be left behind . When do [you]_{130-jane wilson} go ? " "_{[130-jane wilson]} To - night . [I]_0-i sha n't see [you]_{130-jane wilson} again . " "_[0-i] To - night ! and [you]_{130-jane wilson} go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ! May be [you]_{130-jane wilson} and [father]_4863-father will go together . [He]_4863-father 's going to [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , by way of [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . " "_{[4863-father]} No ! [I]_0-i 'm walking ; and [I]_0-i do n't think [[your]_{130-jane wilson} father]_{1640-your father} will be up to walking . " "_{[1640-your father]} Well ! and why on earth are [you]_{130-jane wilson} walking ? [You]_{130-jane wilson} can get by railway for three - and - sixpence . " "_{[130-jane wilson]} Ay , but [Mary]_145-mary ! ( [thou]_2713-thou must n't let out what [I]_0-i 'm going to tell [thee]_{130-jane wilson} ) [I]_0-i have n't got three shillings , no , nor even a sixpence left , at least not here ; before [I]_0-i came [here]_5235-here [I]_0-i gave [[my]_0-i landlady]_{2715-my landlady} enough to carry [me]_0-i to [the island]_{2331-the island} and back , and may be a trifle for presents , and [I]_0-i brought all the rest here ; and it 's all gone but this , " jingling a few coppers in [his]_0-i hand . "_{[130-jane wilson]} Nay , never fret over [my]_0-i walking a matter of thirty mile , " added [he]_0-i , as [he]_0-i saw [she]_{130-jane wilson} looked grave and sorry . "_{[130-jane wilson]} It 's a fine clear night , and [I]_0-i shall set off betimes , and get in afore the Manx packet sails . Where 's [[your]_{130-jane wilson} father]_{1640-your father} going ? To [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , did [you]_{130-jane wilson} say ? Perhaps [he]_{1640-your father} and [I]_0-i may have a bit of a trip together then , for , if [the Manx boat]_{2718-the manx boat} has sailed when [I]_0-i get into [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , [I]_0-i shall go by [a Scotch packet]_{2719-a scotch packet} . What 's [he]_{1640-your father} going to do in [Glasgow?--Seek]_{85-glasgow?--seek} for work ? Trade is as bad there as here , [folk]_5093-folk say . " "_[5093-folk] No ; [he]_{1640-your father} knows that , " answered [Mary]_145-mary , sadly . "_{[1640-your father]} [I]_0-i sometimes think [he]_{1640-your father} 'll never get work again , and that trade will never mend . It 's very hard to keep up [one]_518-one 's heart . [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i were [a boy]_{2722-a boy} , [I]_0-i 'd go to [sea]_4969-sea with [you]_2724-you . [It]_2725-it would be getting away from bad news at any rate ; and now , there 's hardly a creature that crosses the door - step , but has something sad and unhappy to tell one . [Father]_245-father is going as [a delegate from [[his]_245-father Union]_{5810-his union} , to ask help from [the [Glasgow]_44-glasgow folk]_{2728-the glasgow folk}]_{2726-a delegate from his union , to ask help from the glasgow folk} . [He]_245-father 's starting this evening . " [Mary]_145-mary sighed , for the feeling again came over [her]_145-mary that it was very flat to be left alone . "_[245-father] [You]_2724-you say [no one]_{1202-no one} crosses the threshold but has something sad to say ; [you]_2724-you do n't mean that [Margaret Jennings]_157-margaret has any trouble ? " asked [the young sailor]_{5982-the young sailor} , anxiously . "_{[157-margaret]} No ! " replied [Mary]_145-mary , smiling a little , "_{[157-margaret]} [she]_157-margaret 's [the only one [I]_0-i know]_{2730-the only one i know} , [I]_0-i believe , who seems free from care . [Her]_157-margaret blindness almost appears a blessing sometimes ; [she]_157-margaret was so downhearted when [she]_157-margaret dreaded it , and now [she]_157-margaret seems so calm and happy when it 's downright come . No ! [Margaret]_157-margaret 's happy , [I]_0-i do think . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could almost wish it had been otherwise , " said [Will]_{130-jane wilson} , thoughtfully . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could have been so glad to comfort [her]_157-margaret , and cherish [her]_157-margaret , if [she]_157-margaret had been in trouble . " "_[0-i] And why ca n't [you]_2724-you cherish [her]_157-margaret , even though [she]_157-margaret is happy ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[2724-you] Oh ! [I]_0-i do n't know . [She]_157-margaret seems so much better than [I]_0-i am ! And [her]_157-margaret voice ! When [I]_0-i hear it , and think of the wishes that are in [my]_0-i heart , it seems as much out of place to ask [her]_157-margaret to be [[my]_0-i wife]_{4735-my wife} , as it would be to ask [an angel]_{5560-an angel} from [heaven]_1833-heaven . " [Mary]_145-mary could not help laughing outright , in spite of [her]_145-mary depression , at the idea of [Margaret]_157-margaret as [an angel]_{5560-an angel} ; it was so difficult ( even to [her]_145-mary dress - making imagination ) to fancy where , and how , the wings would be fastened to the brown stuff gown , or the blue and yellow print . [Will]_{130-jane wilson} laughed , too , a little , out of sympathy with [Mary]_145-mary 's pretty merry laugh . Then [he]_0-i said-- "_{[157-margaret]} Ay , [you]_0-i may laugh , [Mary]_145-mary ; it only shows [you]_0-i 've never been in love . " In an instant [Mary]_145-mary was carnation colour , and the tears sprang to [her]_145-mary soft gray eyes ; [she]_145-mary was suffering so much from the doubts arising from love ! It was unkind of [him]_0-i . [He]_0-i did not notice [her]_145-mary change of look and of complexion . [He]_0-i only noticed that [she]_145-mary was silent , so [he]_0-i continued : "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought -- [I]_0-i think , that when [I]_0-i come back from this voyage , [I]_0-i will speak . It 's [my]_0-i fourth voyage in [the same ship]_{2734-the same ship} , and with [the same captain]_{2735-the same captain} , and [he]_{2735-the same captain} 's promised [he]_{2735-the same captain} 'll make [me]_0-i [second mate]_{2736-second mate} after this trip ; then [I]_0-i shall have something to offer [Margaret]_157-margaret ; and [[her]_157-margaret grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} , and [aunt Alice]_{2738-aunt alice} , shall live with [her]_157-margaret , to keep [her]_157-margaret from being lonesome while [I]_0-i 'm at [sea]_4969-sea . [I]_0-i 'm speaking as if [she]_157-margaret cared for [me]_0-i , and would marry [me]_0-i ; [d'ye]_2740-d'ye think [she]_157-margaret does care at all for [me]_0-i , [Mary]_145-mary ? " asked [he]_0-i , anxiously . [Mary]_145-mary had a very decided opinion of [her]_145-mary own on the subject , but [she]_145-mary did not feel as if [she]_145-mary had any right to give it . So [she]_145-mary said-- "_{[157-margaret]} [You]_0-i must ask [Margaret]_157-margaret , not [me]_0-i , [Will]_{130-jane wilson} ; [she]_157-margaret 's never named [your]_0-i name to [me]_0-i . " [His]_0-i countenance fell . "_{[157-margaret]} But [I]_0-i should say that was a good sign from [a girl like [her]_157-margaret]_{2741-a girl like her} . [I]_0-i 've no right to say what [I]_0-i think ; but , if [I]_0-i was [you]_0-i , [I]_0-i would not leave [her]_157-margaret now without speaking . " "_[0-i] No ! [I]_0-i can not speak ! [I]_0-i have tried . [I]_0-i 've been in to wish [them]_2742-them good - bye , and [my]_0-i voice stuck in [my]_0-i throat . [I]_0-i could say nought of what [I]_0-i 'd planned to say ; and [I]_0-i never thought of being so bold as to offer [her]_157-margaret marriage till [I]_0-i 'd been [my]_0-i next trip , and been made [mate]_2743-mate . [I]_0-i could not even offer [her]_157-margaret this box , " said [he]_0-i , undoing [his]_0-i paper parcel and displaying a gaudily ornamented accordion ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i longed to buy [her]_157-margaret something , and [I]_0-i thought , if it were something in the music line , [she]_157-margaret would may - be fancy it more . So , will [you]_2744-you give it to [her]_157-margaret , [Mary]_145-mary , when [I]_0-i 'm gone ? and , if [you]_2744-you can slip in something tender,--something , [you]_2744-you know , of what [I]_0-i feel,--may - be [she]_157-margaret would listen to [you]_2744-you , [Mary]_145-mary . " [Mary]_145-mary promised that [she]_145-mary would do all that [he]_0-i asked . "_{[157-margaret]} [I]_0-i shall be thinking on [her]_157-margaret many and many a night , when [I]_0-i 'm keeping [my]_0-i watch in mid - sea ; [I]_0-i wonder if [she]_157-margaret will ever think on [me]_0-i when the wind is whistling , and the gale rising . [You]_2744-you 'll often speak of [me]_0-i to [her]_157-margaret , [Mary]_145-mary ? And if [I]_0-i should meet with any mischance , tell [her]_157-margaret how dear , how very dear , [she]_157-margaret was to [me]_0-i , and bid [her]_157-margaret , for the sake of one who loved [her]_157-margaret well , try and comfort [[my]_0-i poor aunt]_{2745-my poor aunt} [Alice]_146-alice . [Dear old aunt]_{2746-dear old aunt} ! [you]_2744-you and [Margaret]_157-margaret will often go and see [her]_157-margaret , wo n't [you]_2744-you ? [She]_157-margaret 's sadly failed since [I]_0-i was last ashore . And so good as [she]_157-margaret has been ! When [I]_0-i lived with [her]_157-margaret , [a little wee chap]_{2747-a little wee chap} , [I]_0-i used to be wakened by [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} knocking [her]_157-margaret up ; [this one]_{2749-this one} was ill , or [that body 's child]_{2750-that body 's child} was restless ; and , for as tired as ever [she]_157-margaret might be , [she]_157-margaret would be up and dressed in a twinkling , never thinking of the hard day 's wash afore [her]_157-margaret next morning . Them were happy times ! How pleased [I]_0-i used to be when [she]_157-margaret would take [me]_0-i into [the fields]_{638-the fields} with [her]_157-margaret to gather herbs ! [I]_0-i 've tasted tea in [China]_86-china since then , but it was n't half so good as the herb tea [she]_157-margaret used to make for [me]_0-i o ' Sunday nights . And [she]_157-margaret knew such a deal about plants and birds , and their ways ! [She]_157-margaret used to tell [me]_0-i long stories about [her]_157-margaret childhood , and [we]_2752-we used to plan how [we]_2752-we would go sometime , please [God]_224-god ( that was always [her]_157-margaret word ) , and live near [[her]_157-margaret old home beyond [Lancaster]_15-lancaster]_{2753-her old home beyond lancaster} ; in [the very cottage where [she]_157-margaret was born if [we]_2752-we could get it]_{2754-the very cottage where she was born if we could get it} . [Dear]_5078-dear ! and how different it is ! Here is [she]_157-margaret still in [a back street o ' [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{2756-a back street o ' manchester} , never likely to see [[her]_157-margaret own home]_{4788-her own home} again ; and [I]_0-i , [a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} , off for [America]_72-america next week . [I]_0-i wish [she]_157-margaret had been able to go to [Burton]_13-burton once afore [she]_157-margaret died . " "_{[157-margaret]} [She]_157-margaret would may be have found all sadly changed , " said [Mary]_145-mary , though [her]_145-mary heart echoed [Will]_146-alice 's feeling . "_{[157-margaret]} Ay ! ay ! [I]_0-i dare say it 's best . One thing [I]_0-i do wish though , and [I]_0-i have often wished it when out alone on [the deep sea]_{2759-the deep sea} , when even the most thoughtless ca n't choose but think on th ' past and th ' future ; and that is , that [I]_0-i 'd never grieved [her]_157-margaret . Oh [Mary]_145-mary ! many a hasty word comes sorely back on the heart , when [one]_518-one thinks [one]_518-one shall never see [the person whom [one has grieved again]_{2763-one has grieved again}]_{2762-the person whom one has grieved again} ! " [They]_6536-they both stood thinking . Suddenly [Mary]_145-mary started . "_{[2764-that 's father]} [That 's [father]_4863-father]_{2764-that 's father} 's step . And [his]_4863-father shirt 's not ready ! " [She]_145-mary hurried to [her]_145-mary irons , and tried to make up for lost time . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} came in . Such [a haggard and wildly anxious looking man]_{6537-a haggard and wildly anxious looking man} , [Will]_146-alice thought [he]_0-i had never seen . [He]_{131-john barton} looked at [Will]_146-alice , but spoke no word of greeting or welcome . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm come to bid [you]_145-mary good bye , " said [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} , and would in [his]_{131-john barton} sociable friendly humour have gone on speaking . But [John]_{131-john barton} answered abruptly , "_[0-i] Good bye to [ye]_145-mary , then . " There was that in [his]_{131-john barton} manner which left no doubt of [his]_{131-john barton} desire to get rid of [the visitor]_{6539-the visitor} , and [Will]_146-alice accordingly shook hands with [Mary]_145-mary , and looked at [John]_{131-john barton} , as if doubting how far to offer to shake hands with [him]_{131-john barton} . But [he]_{131-john barton} met with no answering glance or gesture , so [he]_{131-john barton} went [his]_{131-john barton} way , stopping for an instant at the door to say , "_[145-mary] [You]_145-mary 'll think on [me]_0-i on Tuesday , [Mary]_145-mary . That 's the day [we]_2766-we shall hoist [our]_2766-we blue [Peter]_316-peter , [Jack Harris]_{291-jack harris} says . " [Mary]_145-mary was heartily sorry when the door closed ; it seemed like shutting out a friendly sunbeam . And [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ! what could be the matter with [him]_{564-her father} ? [He]_{564-her father} was so restless ; not speaking ( [she]_145-mary wished [he]_{564-her father} would ) , but starting up and then sitting down , and meddling with [her]_145-mary irons ; [he]_{564-her father} seemed so fierce , too , to judge from [his]_{564-her father} face . [She]_145-mary wondered if [he]_{564-her father} disliked [Will]_146-alice being [there]_873-there ; or if [he]_{564-her father} were vexed to find that [she]_145-mary had not got further on with [her]_145-mary work . At last [she]_145-mary could bear [his]_{564-her father} nervous way no longer , it made [her]_145-mary equally nervous and fidgetty . [She]_145-mary would speak . "_{[291-jack harris]} When are [you]_2767-you going , [father]_4863-father ? [I]_0-i do n't know the time o ' the trains . " "_[0-i] And why shouldst [thou]_2769-thou know ? " replied [he]_{564-her father} , gruffly . "_[2769-thou] Meddle with [thy]_2769-thou ironing , but donnot be asking questions about what does n't concern [thee]_2769-thou . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wanted to get [you]_2767-you something to eat first , " answered [she]_145-mary , gently . "_[0-i] [Thou]_2769-thou dost not know that [I]_0-i 'm larning to do without food , " said [he]_{564-her father} . [Mary]_145-mary looked at [him]_{564-her father} to see if [he]_{564-her father} spoke jestingly . No ! [he]_{564-her father} looked savagely grave . [She]_145-mary finished [her]_145-mary bit of ironing , and began preparing the food [she]_145-mary was sure [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} needed ; for by this time [her]_145-mary experience in the degrees of hunger had taught [her]_145-mary that [his]_{564-her father} present irritability was increased , if not caused , by want of food . [He]_{564-her father} had had a sovereign given [him]_{564-her father} to pay [his]_{564-her father} expenses as delegate to [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , and out of this [he]_{564-her father} had given [Mary]_145-mary a few shillings in the morning ; so [she]_145-mary had been able to buy a sufficient meal , and now [her]_145-mary care was to cook it so as most to tempt [him]_{564-her father} . "_[2769-thou] If thou'rt doing that for [me]_0-i , [Mary]_145-mary , [thou]_2770-thou may'st spare [thy]_2770-thou labour . [I]_0-i telled [thee]_145-mary [I]_0-i were not for eating . " "_[0-i] Just a little bit , [father]_4863-father , before starting , " coaxed [Mary]_145-mary , perseveringly . At that instant , who should come in but [Job Legh]_156-job . It was not often [he]_{564-her father} came , but when [he]_{564-her father} did pay visits , [Mary]_145-mary knew from past experience they were any thing but short . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's countenance fell back into the deep gloom from which it was but just emerging at the sound of [Mary]_145-mary 's sweet voice , and pretty pleading . [He]_{564-her father} became again restless and fidgetty , scarcely giving [Job Legh]_156-job the greeting necessary for [a host in [[his]_{564-her father} own house]_{6545-his own house}]_{6544-a host in his own house} . [Job]_156-job , however , did not stand upon ceremony . [He]_156-job had come to pay a visit , and was not to be daunted from [his]_156-job purpose . [He]_156-job was interested in [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's mission to [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , and wanted to hear all about it ; so [he]_156-job sat down , and made [himself]_156-job comfortable , in a manner that [Mary]_145-mary saw was meant to be stationary . "_{[4863-father]} So [thou'rt]_2772-thou'rt off to [Glasgow]_44-glasgow , art [thou]_2772-thou'rt ? " [he]_156-job began [his]_156-job catechism . "_{[2772-thou'rt]} Ay . " "_{[2772-thou'rt]} When art starting ? " "_{[4863-father]} To - night . " "_{[4863-father]} That [I]_0-i knowed . But by [what train]_{2773-what train} ? " That was just what [Mary]_145-mary wanted to know ; but what apparently [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was in no mood to tell . [He]_156-job got up without speaking , and went up - [stairs]_4740-stairs . [Mary]_145-mary knew from [his]_156-job step , and [his]_156-job way , how much [he]_156-job was put out , and feared [Job]_156-job would see it , too . But no ! [Job]_156-job seemed imperturbable . So much the better , and perhaps [she]_145-mary could cover [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's rudeness by [her]_145-mary own civility to [so kind a friend]_{6549-so kind a friend} . So half listening to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's movements up - stairs , ( passionate , violent , restless motions [they]_6551-they were ) and half attending to [Job Legh]_156-job , [she]_145-mary tried to pay [him]_{5695-thy father} all due regard . "_[0-i] When does [[thy]_2774-thy father]_{5695-thy father} start , [Mary]_145-mary ? " That plaguing question again . "_[145-mary] Oh ! very soon . [I]_0-i 'm just getting [him]_{5695-thy father} a bit of supper . Is [Margaret]_157-margaret very well ? " "_{[157-margaret]} Yes , [she]_157-margaret 's well enough . [She]_157-margaret 's meaning to go and keep [Alice Wilson]_146-alice company for an hour or so this evening ; as soon as [she]_157-margaret thinks [[her]_157-margaret nephew]_{2054-her nephew} will have started for [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ; for [she]_157-margaret fancies [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} will feel a bit lonesome . [Th ' Union]_{2778-th ' union} is paying for [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} , [I]_0-i suppose ? " "_[0-i] Yes , [they]_{2778-th ' union} 've given [him]_{5695-thy father} a sovereign . [You]_145-mary 're one of [th ' Union]_{2778-th ' union} , [Job]_156-job ? " "_[145-mary] Ay ! [I]_0-i 'm one , sure enough ; but [I]_0-i 'm but [a sleeping partner in the concern]_{2781-a sleeping partner in the concern} . [I]_0-i were obliged to become [a member for peace]_{2782-a member for peace} , else [I]_0-i do n't go along with ['em]_2783-'em . [Yo]_2784-yo see [they]_{2778-th ' union} think [themselves]_{2778-th ' union} wise , and [me]_0-i silly , for differing with [them]_{2778-th ' union} ; well ! there 's no harm in that . But then [they]_{2778-th ' union} wo n't let [me]_0-i be silly in peace and quietness , but will force [me]_0-i to be as wise as [they]_{2778-th ' union} are ; now that 's not [British]_87-british liberty , [I]_0-i say . [I]_0-i 'm forced to be wise according to [their]_{2778-th ' union} notions , else [they]_{2778-th ' union} parsecute [me]_0-i , and sarve [me]_0-i out . " What could [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} be doing up - [stairs]_4740-stairs ? Tramping and banging about . Why did [he]_{564-her father} not come down ? Or why did not [Job]_156-job go ? The supper would be spoilt . But [Job]_156-job had no notion of going . "_[2785-you] [You]_2785-you see [my]_0-i folly is this , [Mary]_145-mary . [I]_0-i would take what [I]_0-i could get ; [I]_0-i think half a loaf is better than no bread . [I]_0-i would work for low wages rather than sit idle and starve . But , comes [the Trades ' Union]_{1996-the trades ' union} , and says , ' Well , if [you]_0-i take the half - loaf , [we]_{1996-the trades ' union} 'll worry [you]_0-i out of [your]_0-i life . Will [you]_0-i be clemmed , or will [you]_0-i be worried ? ' Now clemming is a quiet death , and worrying is n't , so [I]_0-i choose clemming , and come into [th ' Union]_{2778-th ' union} . But [I]_0-i wish [they]_{1996-the trades ' union} 'd leave [me]_0-i free , if [I]_0-i am [a fool]_{5872-a fool} . " Creak , creak , went the stairs . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was coming down at last . Yes , [he]_{564-her father} came down , but more doggedly fierce than before , and made up for [his]_{564-her father} journey , too ; with [his]_{564-her father} little bundle on [his]_{564-her father} arm . [He]_{564-her father} went up to [Job]_156-job , and , more civilly than [Mary]_145-mary expected , wished [him]_{564-her father} good - bye . [He]_{564-her father} then turned to [her]_145-mary , and in a short cold manner , bade [her]_145-mary farewell . "_[0-i] Oh ! [father]_4863-father , do n't go yet . [Your]_4863-father supper is all ready . Stay one moment ! " But [he]_{564-her father} pushed [her]_145-mary away , and was gone . [She]_145-mary followed [him]_{564-her father} to the door , [her]_145-mary eyes blinded by sudden tears ; [she]_145-mary stood there looking after [him]_{564-her father} . [He]_{564-her father} was so strange , so cold , so hard . Suddenly , at the end of [the court]_{604-the court} , [he]_{564-her father} turned , and saw [her]_145-mary standing there ; [he]_{564-her father} came back quickly , and took [her]_145-mary in [his]_{564-her father} arms . "_{[4863-father]} God bless [thee]_4863-father , Mary!--God in heaven bless [thee]_4863-father , [poor child]_{2790-poor child} ! " [She]_145-mary threw [her]_145-mary arms round [his]_{564-her father} neck . "_{[4863-father]} Do n't go yet , [father]_4863-father ; [I]_0-i ca n't bear [you]_4863-father to go yet . Come in , and eat some supper ; [you]_4863-father look so ghastly ; [dear father]_{5226-dear father} , do ! " "_{[5226-dear father]} No , " [he]_{564-her father} said , faintly and mournfully . "_{[5226-dear father]} It 's best as it is . [I]_0-i could n't eat , and it 's best to be off . [I]_0-i can not be still at [home]_4755-home . [I]_0-i must be moving . " So saying , [he]_{564-her father} unlaced [her]_145-mary soft twining arms , and kissing [her]_145-mary once more , set off on [his]_{564-her father} fierce errand . And [he]_{564-her father} was out of sight ! [She]_145-mary did not know why , but [she]_145-mary had never before felt so depressed , so desolate . [She]_145-mary turned in to [Job]_156-job , who sat there still . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , as soon as [he]_{564-her father} was out of sight , slackened [his]_{564-her father} pace , and fell into that heavy listless step , which told as well as words could do , of hopelessness and weakness . It was getting dark , but [he]_{564-her father} loitered on , returning no greeting to [any one]_{504-any one} . [A child]_{4770-a child} 's cry caught [his]_{564-her father} ear . [His]_{564-her father} thoughts were running on [little Tom]_138-thomas ; on [the dead and buried child of happier years]_{6559-the dead and buried child of happier years} . [He]_{564-her father} followed the sound of the wail , that might have been _ [his]_{564-her father} _ , and found [a poor little mortal , who had lost [his]_{6560-a poor little mortal , who had lost his way} way]_{6560-a poor little mortal , who had lost his way} , and whose grief had choked up [his]_{6560-a poor little mortal , who had lost his way} thoughts to the single want , "_[0-i] Mammy , [mammy]_1320-mammy . " With tender address , [John Barton]_{131-john barton} soothed [the little laddie]_{6561-the little laddie} , and with beautiful patience [he]_{131-john barton} gathered fragments of meaning from the half spoken words which came mingled with sobs from the terrified little heart . So , aided by inquiries here and there from [a passer - by]_{499-a passer - by} , [he]_{131-john barton} led and carried [the little fellow]_{802-the little fellow} [home]_4755-home , where [[his]_{802-the little fellow} mother]_{787-his mother} had been too busy to miss [him]_{802-the little fellow} , but now received [him]_{802-the little fellow} with thankfulness , and with an eloquent Irish blessing . When [John]_{131-john barton} heard the words of blessing , [he]_{131-john barton} shook [his]_{131-john barton} head mournfully , and turned away to retrace [his]_{131-john barton} steps . Let [us]_6566-us leave [him]_{802-the little fellow} . [Mary]_145-mary took [her]_145-mary sewing after [he]_{802-the little fellow} had gone , and sat on , and sat on , trying to listen to [Job]_156-job , who was more inclined to talk than usual . [She]_145-mary had conquered [her]_145-mary feeling of impatience towards [him]_156-job so far as to be able to offer [him]_156-job [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's rejected supper ; and [she]_145-mary even tried to eat [herself]_145-mary . But [her]_145-mary heart failed [her]_145-mary . A leaden weight seemed to hang over [her]_145-mary ; a sort of presentiment of evil , or perhaps only an excess of low - spirited feeling in consequence of the two departures which had taken place that afternoon . [She]_145-mary wondered how long [Job Legh]_156-job would sit . [She]_145-mary did not like putting down [her]_145-mary work , and crying before [him]_156-job , and yet [she]_145-mary had never in [her]_145-mary life longed so much to be alone in order to indulge in a good hearty burst of tears . "_[1320-mammy] Well , [Mary]_145-mary , " [she]_145-mary suddenly caught [him]_156-job saying , "_[145-mary] [I]_0-i thought [you]_145-mary 'd be a bit lonely to - night ; and as [Margaret]_157-margaret were going to cheer [th ' old woman]_{2795-th ' old woman} , [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i 'd go and keep [th ' young un company]_{2796-th ' young un company} ; and a very pleasant , chatty evening [we]_2797-we 've had ; very . Only [I]_0-i wonder as [Margaret]_157-margaret is not come back . " "_{[157-margaret]} But perhaps [she]_157-margaret is , " suggested [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[157-margaret]} No , no , [I]_0-i took care o ' that . Look [ye]_145-mary here ! " and [he]_0-i pulled out [the great house]_{6568-the great house} - key . "_{[157-margaret]} [She]_157-margaret 'll have to stand waiting [i]_0-i ' [th ' street]_{5946-th ' street} , and that [I]_0-i 'm sure [she]_157-margaret would n't do , when [she]_157-margaret knew where to find [me]_0-i . " "_{[157-margaret]} Will [she]_157-margaret come back by [hersel]_2799-hersel ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[157-margaret]} Ay . At first [I]_0-i were afraid o ' trusting [her]_157-margaret , and [I]_0-i used to follow [her]_157-margaret a bit behind ; never letting on , of course . But , bless [you]_145-mary ! [she]_157-margaret goes along as steadily as can be ; rather slow , to be sure , and [her]_157-margaret head a bit on one side as if [she]_157-margaret were listening . And it 's real beautiful to see [her]_157-margaret cross [the road]_{2800-the road} . [She]_157-margaret 'll wait above a bit to hear that all is still ; not that [she]_157-margaret 's so dark as not to see [a coach]_{2801-a coach} or [a cart]_{6295-a cart} like a big black thing , but [she]_157-margaret ca n't rightly judge how far off it is by sight , so [she]_157-margaret listens . Hark ! that 's [her]_157-margaret ! " Yes ; in [she]_157-margaret came with [her]_157-margaret usually calm face all tear - stained and sorrow - marked . "_{[157-margaret]} What 's the matter , [[my]_0-i wench]_{2803-my wench} ? " said [Job]_156-job , hastily . "_{[157-margaret]} Oh ! [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} ! [Alice Wilson]_146-alice 's so bad ! " [She]_157-margaret could say no more , for [her]_157-margaret breathless agitation . The afternoon , and the parting with [Will]_146-alice , had weakened [her]_157-margaret nerves for any after - shock . "_[146-alice] What is it ? Do tell [us]_2805-us , [Margaret]_157-margaret ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , placing [her]_157-margaret in a chair , and loosening [her]_157-margaret bonnet - strings . "_{[157-margaret]} [I]_0-i think it 's a stroke o ' the palsy . Any rate [she]_157-margaret has lost the use of one side . " "_{[157-margaret]} Was it afore [Will]_146-alice had set off ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[2806-he] No ; [he]_2806-he were gone before [I]_0-i got [there]_873-there , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret ; "_{[157-margaret]} and [she]_157-margaret were much about as well as [she]_157-margaret has been this many a day . [She]_157-margaret spoke a bit , but not much ; but that were only natural , for [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} likes to have the talk to [hersel]_2808-hersel , [you]_2809-you know . [She]_157-margaret got up to go across [the room]_{616-the room} , and then [I]_0-i heard a drag wi ' [her]_157-margaret leg , and presently a fall , and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} came running , and set up such a cry ! [I]_0-i stopped wi ' [Alice]_146-alice , while [she]_157-margaret fetched [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} ; but [she]_157-margaret could not speak , to answer [me]_0-i , though [she]_157-margaret tried , [I]_0-i think . " "_{[157-margaret]} Where was [Jem]_154-jem ? Why did n't [he]_154-jem go for [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} ? " "_[154-jem] [He]_154-jem were out when [I]_0-i got [there]_873-there , and [he]_154-jem never came [home]_4755-home while [I]_0-i stopped . " "_[154-jem] [Thou'st]_2815-thou'st never left [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} alone wi ' poor [Alice]_146-alice ? " asked [Job]_156-job , hastily . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} No , no , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} But , oh ! [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} ; it 's now [I]_0-i feel how hard it is to have lost [my]_0-i sight . [I]_0-i should have so loved to nurse [her]_146-alice ; and [I]_0-i did try , until [I]_0-i found [I]_0-i did more harm than good . Oh ! [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} ; if [I]_0-i could but see ! " [She]_146-alice sobbed a little ; and [they]_6569-they let [her]_146-alice give that ease to [her]_146-alice heart . Then [she]_146-alice went on-- "_{[4996-grandfather]} No ! [I]_0-i went round by [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} 's , and [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} were hard at work ; but , the minute [I]_0-i told [my]_0-i errand , [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} were ready and willing to go to [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} , and stop up all night with [Alice]_146-alice . " "_[146-alice] And what does [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} say ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[684-the doctor]} Oh ! much what [all doctors]_{2819-all doctors} say : [he]_{684-the doctor} puts a fence on this side , and a fence on that , for fear [he]_{684-the doctor} should be caught tripping in [his]_{684-the doctor} judgment . One moment [he]_{684-the doctor} does not think there 's much hope -- but while there is life there is hope ; th ' next [he]_{684-the doctor} says [he]_{684-the doctor} should think [she]_146-alice might recover partial , but [her]_146-alice age is again [her]_146-alice . [He]_{684-the doctor} 's ordered [her]_146-alice leeches to [her]_146-alice head . " [Margaret]_157-margaret , having told [her]_157-margaret tale , leant back with weariness , both of body and mind . [Mary]_145-mary hastened to make [her]_157-margaret a cup of tea ; while [Job]_156-job , lately so talkative , sat quiet and mournfully silent . "_{[684-the doctor]} [I]_0-i 'll go first thing to - morrow morning , and learn how [she]_146-alice is ; and [I]_0-i 'll bring word back before [I]_0-i go to work , " said [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] It 's a bad job Will 's gone , " said [Job]_156-job . "_{[130-jane wilson]} [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} does not think [she]_{130-jane wilson} knows [any one]_{504-any one} , " replied [Margaret]_157-margaret . "_{[130-jane wilson]} [It]_2821-it 's perhaps as well [he]_{684-the doctor} should n't see [her]_{130-jane wilson} now , for [they]_2822-they say [her]_{130-jane wilson} face is sadly drawn . [He]_{684-the doctor} 'll remember [her]_{130-jane wilson} with [her]_{130-jane wilson} own face better , if [he]_{684-the doctor} does not see [her]_{130-jane wilson} again . " With a few more sorrowful remarks [they]_2822-they separated for the night , and [Mary]_145-mary was left alone in [[her]_145-mary house]_{1770-her house} , to meditate on the heavy day that had passed over [her]_145-mary head . Everything seemed going wrong . [Will]_{130-jane wilson} gone ; [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} gone -- and so strangely too ! And to [a place so mysteriously distant as [Glasgow]_44-glasgow seemed to be to [her]_145-mary]_{6572-a place so mysteriously distant as glasgow seemed to be to her} ! [She]_145-mary had felt [his]_{564-her father} presence as a protection against [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} and [his]_{209-mr. carson} threats ; and now [she]_145-mary dreaded lest [he]_{564-her father} should learn [she]_145-mary was alone . [Her]_145-mary heart began to despair , too , about [Jem]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary feared [he]_{564-her father} had ceased to love [her]_145-mary ; and [she]_145-mary -- [she]_145-mary only loved [him]_{564-her father} more and more for [his]_{564-her father} seeming neglect . And , as if all this aggregate of sorrowful thoughts was not enough , here was this new woe , of poor [Alice]_146-alice 's paralytic stroke . CHAPTER XVIII . MURDER . "_[2822-they] But in [his]_2823-his pulse there was no throb , Nor on [his]_2823-his lips one dying sob ; Sigh , nor word , nor struggling breath Heralded [his]_2823-his way to death . " [SIEGE OF [CORINTH]_88-corinth]_{6573-siege of corinth} . "_[0-i] [My]_0-i brain runs this way and that way ; ' twill not fix On aught but vengeance . " [DUKE OF [GUISE]_89-guise]_{6574-duke of guise} . [I]_0-i must now go back to an hour or two before [Mary]_145-mary and [[her]_145-mary friends]_{6575-her friends} parted for the night . It might be about eight o'clock that evening , and [the three Miss Carsons]_{6576-the three miss carsons} were sitting in [[[their]_{6576-the three miss carsons} father]_{6577-their father} 's drawing - room]_{6578-their father 's drawing - room} . [He]_{564-her father} was asleep in [the dining - room]_{6579-the dining - room} , in [his]_{564-her father} own comfortable chair . [Mrs. Carson]_226-harry was ( as was usual with [her]_226-harry , when no particular excitement was going on ) very poorly , and sitting up - stairs in [[her]_226-harry dressing - room]_{6580-her dressing - room} , indulging in the luxury of a head - ache . [She]_226-harry was not well , certainly . "_[0-i] Wind in the head , " [the servants]_{1411-the servants} called it . But it was but the natural consequence of the state of mental and bodily idleness in which [she]_226-harry was placed . Without education enough to value the resources of wealth and leisure , [she]_226-harry was so circumstanced as to command both . It would have done [her]_226-harry more good than all the æther and sal - volatile [she]_226-harry was daily in the habit of swallowing , if [she]_226-harry might have taken the work of [one of [[her]_226-harry own housemaids]_{6583-her own housemaids}]_{6582-one of her own housemaids} for a week ; made beds , rubbed tables , shaken carpets , and gone out into the fresh morning air , without all the paraphernalia of shawl , cloak , boa , fur boots , bonnet , and veil , in which [she]_226-harry was equipped before setting out for an "_[0-i] airing , " in [the closely shut - up carriage]_{6584-the closely shut - up carriage} . So [the three girls]_{6585-the three girls} were by [themselves]_{6585-the three girls} in [the comfortable , elegant , well - lighted drawing - room]_{6586-the comfortable , elegant , well - lighted drawing - room} ; and , like [many similarly - situated young ladies]_{6587-many similarly - situated young ladies} , [they]_{6585-the three girls} did not exactly know what to do to while away the time until the tea - hour . [The elder two]_{6588-the elder two} had been at a dancing - party the night before , and were listless and sleepy in consequence . [One]_518-one tried to read "_{[318-emerson]} [Emerson]_318-emerson 's Essays , " and fell asleep in the attempt ; [the other]_{1048-the other} was turning over a parcel of new music , in order to select what [she]_{1048-the other} liked . [Amy]_212-amy , [the youngest]_{6591-the youngest} , was copying some manuscript music . The air was heavy with the fragrance of strongly - scented flowers , which sent out [their]_{6585-the three girls} night odours from [an adjoining conservatory]_{6592-an adjoining conservatory} . The clock on the chimney - piece chimed eight . [Sophy]_213-sophy ( [the sleeping sister]_{6593-the sleeping sister} ) started up at the sound . "_{[318-emerson]} What o'clock is that ? " [she]_213-sophy asked . "_{[318-emerson]} Eight , " said [Amy]_212-amy . "_{[318-emerson]} Oh dear ! how tired [I]_0-i am ! Is [Harry]_226-harry come in ? Tea would rouse [one]_518-one up a little . Are not [you]_0-i worn out , [Helen]_214-helen ? " "_[214-helen] Yes ; [I]_0-i am tired enough . One is good for nothing the day after a dance . Yet [I]_0-i do n't feel weary at the time ; [I]_0-i suppose it is the lateness of the hours . " "_[0-i] And yet , how could it be managed otherwise ? So many do n't dine till five or six , that one can not begin before eight or nine ; and then it takes a long time to get into the spirit of the evening . It is always more pleasant after supper than before . " "_[0-i] Well , [I]_0-i 'm too tired to - night to reform [the world]_{1479-the world} in the matter of dances or balls . What are [you]_0-i copying , [Amy]_212-amy ? " "_[0-i] Only that little Spanish air [you]_0-i sing--'Quien quiera . ' " "_[0-i] What are [you]_0-i copying it for ? " asked [Helen]_214-helen . "_[0-i] [Harry]_226-harry asked [me]_0-i to do it for [him]_2826-he this morning at breakfast - time,--for [Miss Richardson]_{319-miss richardson} , [he]_2826-he said . " "_[2826-he] For [Jane Richardson]_{320-jane richardson} ! " said [Sophy]_213-sophy , as if a new idea were receiving strength in [her]_213-sophy mind . "_{[320-jane richardson]} Do [you]_0-i think [Harry]_226-harry means any thing by [his]_2826-he attention to [her]_{320-jane richardson} ? " asked [Helen]_214-helen . "_[0-i] Nay , [I]_0-i do not know any thing more than [you]_0-i do ; [I]_0-i can only observe and conjecture . What do [you]_0-i think , [Helen]_214-helen ? " "_[0-i] [Harry]_226-harry always likes to be of consequence to [the belle of [the room]_{616-the room}]_{2827-the belle of the room} . If [one girl]_{2829-one girl} is more admired than another , [he]_2826-he likes to flutter about [her]_{2829-one girl} , and seem to be on intimate terms with [her]_{2829-one girl} . That is [his]_2826-he way , and [I]_0-i have not noticed any thing beyond that in [his]_2826-he manner to [Jane Richardson]_{320-jane richardson} . " "_[2826-he] But [I]_0-i do n't think [she]_{320-jane richardson} knows it 's only [his]_2826-he way . Just watch [her]_{320-jane richardson} the next time [we]_2830-we meet [her]_{320-jane richardson} when [Harry]_226-harry is [there]_873-there , and see how [she]_{320-jane richardson} crimsons , and looks another way when [she]_{320-jane richardson} feels [he]_2826-he is coming up to [her]_{320-jane richardson} . [I]_0-i think [he]_2826-he sees it , too , and [I]_0-i think [he]_2826-he is pleased with it . " "_[2826-he] [I]_0-i dare say [Harry]_226-harry would like well enough to turn the head of [such a lovely girl as [Jane Richardson]_{320-jane richardson}]_{2832-such a lovely girl as jane richardson} . But [I]_0-i 'm not convinced that [he]_2826-he is in love , whatever [she]_{320-jane richardson} may be . " "_[0-i] Well , then ! " said [Sophy]_213-sophy , indignantly , "_[0-i] though it is [[our]_2830-we own brother]_{2833-our own brother} , [I]_0-i do think [he]_2826-he is behaving very wrongly . The more [I]_0-i think of it the more sure [I]_0-i am that [she]_{320-jane richardson} thinks [he]_2826-he means something , and that [he]_2826-he intends [her]_{320-jane richardson} to think so . And then , when [he]_2826-he leaves off paying [her]_{320-jane richardson} attention-- " "_[2826-he] Which will be as soon as [a prettier girl]_{2834-a prettier girl} makes [her]_{2834-a prettier girl} appearance , " interrupted [Helen]_214-helen . "_[2826-he] As soon as [he]_2826-he leaves off paying [her]_{320-jane richardson} attention , " resumed [Sophy]_213-sophy , "_[2826-he] [she]_{320-jane richardson} will have many and many a heart - ache , and then [she]_{320-jane richardson} will harden [herself]_{320-jane richardson} into being [a flirt]_{6315-a flirt} , [a feminine flirt]_{2836-a feminine flirt} , as [he]_2826-he is [a masculine flirt]_{2837-a masculine flirt} . [Poor girl]_{2838-poor girl} ! " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't like to hear [you]_2839-you speak so of [Harry]_226-harry , " said [Amy]_212-amy , looking up at [Sophy]_213-sophy . "_[2839-you] And [I]_0-i do n't like to have to speak so , [Amy]_212-amy , for [I]_0-i love [him]_2826-he dearly . [He]_2826-he is [a good , kind brother]_{2840-a good , kind brother} , but [I]_0-i do think [him]_2826-he vain , and [I]_0-i think [he]_2826-he hardly knows the misery , the crimes , to which indulged vanity may lead [him]_2826-he . " [Helen]_214-helen yawned . "_[2839-you] Oh ! do [you]_2839-you think [we]_2841-we may ring for tea ? Sleeping after dinner always makes [me]_0-i so feverish . " "_[2839-you] Yes , surely . Why should not [we]_2841-we ? " said [the more energetic Sophy]_{6594-the more energetic sophy} , pulling the bell with some determination . "_[2839-you] Tea directly , [Parker]_321-parker , " said [she]_214-helen , authoritatively , as [the man]_{708-the man} entered [the room]_{616-the room} . [She]_214-helen was too little in the habit of reading expressions on the faces of [others]_737-others to notice [Parker]_321-parker 's countenance . Yet it was striking . It was blanched to a dead whiteness ; the lips compressed as if to keep within some tale of horror ; the eyes distended and unnatural . It was a terror - stricken face . [The girls]_{505-the girls} began to put away [their]_{505-the girls} music and books , in preparation for tea . The door slowly opened again , and this time it was [the nurse]_{2676-the nurse} who entered . [I]_321-parker call [[her]_{2676-the nurse} nurse]_{6600-her nurse} , for such had been [[her]_{2676-the nurse} office]_{6601-her office} in by - gone days , though now [she]_{2676-the nurse} held rather an anomalous situation in [the family]_{6602-the family} . [Seamstress]_{6603-seamstress} , [attendant on [the young ladies]_{1431-the young ladies}]_{6604-attendant on the young ladies} , [keeper of [the stores]_{6607-the stores}]_{6606-keeper of the stores} ; only "_[321-parker] [Nurse]_322-nurse " was still [her]_{2676-the nurse} name . [She]_{2676-the nurse} had lived longer with [them]_{1431-the young ladies} than [any other servant]_{6608-any other servant} , and to [her]_{2676-the nurse} [their]_{1431-the young ladies} manner was far less haughty than to [the other domestics]_{6609-the other domestics} . [She]_{2676-the nurse} occasionally came into [the drawing - room]_{6610-the drawing - room} to look for things belonging to [[their]_{1431-the young ladies} father]_{6577-their father} or [mother]_4845-mother , so it did not excite any surprise when [she]_{2676-the nurse} advanced into [the room]_{616-the room} . [They]_{1431-the young ladies} went on arranging [their]_{1431-the young ladies} various articles of employment . [She]_{2676-the nurse} wanted [them]_{1431-the young ladies} to look up . [She]_{2676-the nurse} wanted [them]_{1431-the young ladies} to read something in [her]_{2676-the nurse} face -- [her]_{2676-the nurse} face so full of woe , of horror . But [they]_{1431-the young ladies} went on without taking any notice . [She]_{2676-the nurse} coughed ; not a natural cough ; but one of those coughs which ask so plainly for remark . "_{[2842-dear nurse]} [Dear nurse]_{2842-dear nurse} , what is the matter ? " asked [Amy]_212-amy . "_{[2842-dear nurse]} Are not [you]_{2842-dear nurse} well ? " "_{[2842-dear nurse]} Is [mamma]_2843-mamma ill ? " asked [Sophy]_213-sophy , quickly . "_[2844-nurse] Speak , speak , [nurse]_2844-nurse ! " said [they]_{1431-the young ladies} all , as [they]_{1431-the young ladies} saw [her]_{2676-the nurse} efforts to articulate , choked by the convulsive rising in [her]_{2676-the nurse} throat . [They]_{1431-the young ladies} clustered round [her]_{2676-the nurse} with eager faces , catching a glimpse of some terrible truth to be revealed . "_[2844-nurse] [[My]_0-i dear young ladies]_{2845-my dear young ladies} ! [[my]_0-i dear girls]_{2846-my dear girls} , " [she]_{2676-the nurse} gasped out at length , and then [she]_{2676-the nurse} burst into tears . "_[2844-nurse] Oh ! do tell [us]_{2845-my dear young ladies} what it is , [nurse]_2844-nurse , " said [one]_518-one . "_[2844-nurse] Any thing is better than this . Speak ! " "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i children]_{2848-my children} ! [I]_0-i do n't know how to break it to [you]_{2848-my children} . [[My]_0-i dears]_{2849-my dears} , poor [Mr. Harry]_{209-mr. carson} is brought home-- " "_{[209-mr. carson]} Brought home--_brought _ [home]_4755-home -- how ? " Instinctively [they]_{1431-the young ladies} sank [their]_{1431-the young ladies} voices to a whisper ; but a fearful whisper it was . In the same low tone , as if afraid lest the walls , the furniture , the inanimate things which told of preparation for life and comfort , should hear , [she]_{2676-the nurse} answered , "_{[209-mr. carson]} Dead ! " [Amy]_212-amy clutched [[her]_212-amy nurse]_{6600-her nurse} 's arm , and fixed [her]_{2676-the nurse} eyes on [her]_{6600-her nurse} as if to know if such a tale could be true ; and when [she]_{2676-the nurse} read its confirmation in those sad , mournful , unflinching eyes , [she]_{2676-the nurse} sank , without word or sound , down in a faint upon the floor . [One sister]_{6616-one sister} sat down on an ottoman , and covered [her]_{6616-one sister} face , to try and realise it . That was [Sophy]_213-sophy . [Helen]_214-helen threw [herself]_214-helen on the sofa , and burying [her]_214-helen head in the pillows , tried to stifle the screams and moans which shook [her]_214-helen frame . [The nurse]_{2676-the nurse} stood silent . [She]_{2676-the nurse} had not told _ all _ . "_[2844-nurse] Tell [me]_0-i , " said [Sophy]_213-sophy , looking up , and speaking in a hoarse voice , which told of the inward pain , "_[0-i] tell [me]_0-i , [nurse]_2844-nurse ! Is [he]_2852-he _ dead _ , did [you]_2844-nurse say ? Have [you]_2844-nurse sent for [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} ? Oh ! send for [one]_518-one , send for [one]_518-one , " continued [she]_213-sophy , [her]_213-sophy voice rising to shrillness , and starting to [her]_213-sophy feet . [Helen]_214-helen lifted [herself]_214-helen up , and looked , with breathless waiting , towards [nurse]_2844-nurse . "_[518-one] [[My]_0-i dears]_{2849-my dears} , [he]_2852-he is dead ! But [I]_0-i have sent for [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} . [I]_0-i have done all [I]_0-i could . " "_[0-i] When did [he]_2852-he -- when did [they]_2858-they bring [him]_2852-he [home]_4755-home ? " asked [Sophy]_213-sophy . "_[2858-they] Perhaps ten minutes ago . Before [you]_0-i rang for [Parker]_321-parker . " "_[0-i] How did [he]_2852-he die ? Where did [they]_2858-they find [him]_2852-he ? [He]_2852-he looked so well . [He]_2852-he always seemed so strong . Oh ! are [you]_0-i sure [he]_2852-he is dead ? " [She]_213-sophy went towards the door . [Nurse]_322-nurse laid [her]_322-nurse hand on [her]_213-sophy arm . "_[0-i] [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy , [I]_0-i have not told [you]_213-sophy all . Can [you]_213-sophy bear to hear it ? Remember , [master]_4919-master is in [the next room]_{2861-the next room} , and [he]_2852-he knows nothing yet . Come , [you]_213-sophy must help [me]_0-i to tell [him]_2852-he . Now be quiet , [dear]_5078-dear ! It was no common death [he]_2852-he died ! " [She]_322-nurse looked in [her]_213-sophy face as if trying to convey [her]_322-nurse meaning by [her]_322-nurse eyes . [Sophy]_213-sophy 's lips moved , but [nurse]_2844-nurse could hear no sound . "_[2852-he] [He]_2852-he has been shot as [he]_2852-he was coming [home]_4755-home along [Turner Street]_{90-turner street} , to - night . " [Sophy]_213-sophy went on with the motion of [her]_213-sophy lips , twitching them almost convulsively . "_[2852-he] [[My]_0-i dear]_{5712-my dear} , [you]_213-sophy must rouse [yourself]_213-sophy , and remember [[your]_213-sophy father]_{1640-your father} and [mother]_4845-mother have yet to be told . Speak ! [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy ! " But [she]_213-sophy could not ; [her]_213-sophy whole face worked involuntarily . [The nurse]_{2676-the nurse} left [the room]_{616-the room} , and almost immediately brought back some sal - volatile and water . [Sophy]_213-sophy drank it eagerly , and gave one or two deep gasps . Then [she]_213-sophy spoke in a calm unnatural voice . "_[213-sophy] What do [you]_213-sophy want [me]_0-i to do , [nurse]_2844-nurse ? Go to [Helen]_214-helen and poor [Amy]_212-amy . See , [they]_2868-they want help . " "_[2868-they] [Poor creatures]_{1648-poor creatures} ! [we]_2870-we must let [them]_{1648-poor creatures} alone for a bit . [You]_213-sophy must go to [master]_4919-master ; that 's what [I]_0-i want [you]_213-sophy to do , [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy . [You]_213-sophy must break it to [him]_4919-master , [poor old gentleman]_{2872-poor old gentleman} . Come , [he]_4919-master 's asleep in [the dining - room]_{6579-the dining - room} , and [the men]_{1152-the men} are waiting to speak to [him]_4919-master . " [Sophy]_213-sophy went mechanically to the dining - room door . "_{[1152-the men]} Oh ! [I]_0-i can not go in . [I]_0-i can not tell [him]_4919-master . What must [I]_0-i say ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll come with [you]_213-sophy , [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy . Break it to [him]_4919-master by degrees . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ca n't , [nurse]_2844-nurse . [My]_0-i head throbs so , [I]_0-i shall be sure to say the wrong thing . " However , [she]_2844-nurse opened the door . There sat [[her]_213-sophy father]_{564-her father} , the shaded light of the candle - lamp falling upon , and softening [his]_{564-her father} marked features , while [his]_{564-her father} snowy hair contrasted well with the deep crimson morocco of the chair . The newspaper [he]_{564-her father} had been reading had dropped on the carpet by [his]_{564-her father} side . [He]_{564-her father} breathed regularly and deeply . At that instant the words of [Mrs. Hemans]_{323-mrs. hemans} 's song came full into [Sophy]_213-sophy 's mind . "_[0-i] [Ye]_2876-ye know not what [ye]_2876-ye do , That call [the slumberer]_{2877-the slumberer} back From [the realms unseen by [you]_2876-ye]_{2878-the realms unseen by you} , To life 's dim , weary track . " But this life 's track would be to [the bereaved father]_{6623-the bereaved father} something more than dim and weary , hereafter . "_[217-papa] [Papa]_217-papa , " said [she]_2844-nurse , softly . [He]_217-papa did not stir . "_[217-papa] [Papa]_217-papa ! " [she]_2844-nurse exclaimed , somewhat louder . [He]_217-papa started up , half awake . "_[217-papa] Tea is ready , is it ? " and [he]_217-papa yawned . "_[5219-papa] No ! [papa]_5219-papa , but something very dreadful -- very sad , has happened ! " [He]_217-papa was gaping so loud that [he]_217-papa did not catch the words [she]_2844-nurse uttered , and did not see the expression of [her]_2844-nurse face . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [Master Henry]_{209-mr. carson} is not come back , " said [nurse]_2844-nurse . [Her]_2844-nurse voice , heard in unusual speech to [him]_217-papa , arrested [his]_217-papa attention , and rubbing [his]_217-papa eyes , [he]_217-papa looked at [the servant]_{6625-the servant} . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ! oh no ! [he]_{209-mr. carson} had to attend a meeting of [the masters about these cursed turn - outs]_{2880-the masters about these cursed turn - outs} . [I]_0-i do n't expect [him]_{209-mr. carson} yet . What are [you]_5219-papa looking at [me]_0-i so strangely for , [Sophy]_213-sophy ? " "_[5219-papa] Oh , [papa]_5219-papa , [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} is come back , " said [she]_5219-papa , bursting into tears . "_{[209-mr. carson]} What do [you]_5219-papa mean ? " said [he]_5219-papa , startled into an impatient consciousness that something was wrong . "_[5219-papa] One of [you]_5219-papa says [he]_{209-mr. carson} is not come [home]_4755-home , and [the other]_{1048-the other} says [he]_{209-mr. carson} is . Now that 's nonsense ! Tell [me]_0-i at once what 's the matter . Did [he]_{209-mr. carson} go on horseback to [town]_5223-town ? Is [he]_{209-mr. carson} thrown ? Speak , [child]_4860-child , ca n't [you]_5219-papa ? " "_[4860-child] No ! [he]_{209-mr. carson} 's not been thrown , [papa]_5219-papa , " said [Sophy]_213-sophy , sadly . "_[5219-papa] But [he]_{209-mr. carson} 's badly hurt , " put in [the nurse]_{2676-the nurse} , desirous to be drawing [his]_{209-mr. carson} anxiety to a point . "_{[209-mr. carson]} Hurt ? Where ? How ? Have [you]_5219-papa sent for [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} ? " said [he]_{209-mr. carson} , hastily rising , as if to leave [the room]_{616-the room} . "_[5219-papa] Yes , [papa]_5219-papa , [we]_2889-we 've sent for [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} -- but [I]_0-i 'm afraid -- [I]_0-i believe it 's of no use . " [He]_{209-mr. carson} looked at [her]_{2676-the nurse} for a moment , and in [her]_{2676-the nurse} face [he]_{209-mr. carson} read the truth . [[His]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} , [[his]_{209-mr. carson} only son]_{6629-his only son} , was dead . [He]_{209-mr. carson} sank back in [his]_{209-mr. carson} chair , and hid [his]_{209-mr. carson} face in [his]_{209-mr. carson} hands , and bowed [his]_{209-mr. carson} head upon the table . The strong mahogany dining - table shook and rattled under [his]_{209-mr. carson} agony . [Sophy]_213-sophy went and put [her]_213-sophy arms round [his]_{209-mr. carson} bowed neck . "_[0-i] Go ! [you]_0-i are not [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} , " said [he]_{209-mr. carson} ; but the action roused [him]_{209-mr. carson} . "_[0-i] Where is [he]_{209-mr. carson} ? where is the-- " said [he]_{209-mr. carson} , with [his]_{209-mr. carson} strong face set into the lines of anguish , by two minutes of such intense woe . "_{[1411-the servants]} In [[the servants]_{1411-the servants} ' hall]_{2892-the servants ' hall} , " said [nurse]_2844-nurse . "_{[1411-the servants]} [Two policemen]_{2893-two policemen} and [another man]_{5117-another man} brought [him]_{209-mr. carson} [home]_4755-home . [They]_{2893-two policemen} would be glad to speak to [you]_0-i when [you]_0-i are able , [sir]_5232-sir . " "_{[2893-two policemen]} [I]_0-i am able now , " replied [he]_{209-mr. carson} . At first when [he]_{209-mr. carson} stood up , [he]_{209-mr. carson} tottered . But steadying [himself]_{209-mr. carson} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} walked , as firmly as [a soldier on drill]_{6631-a soldier on drill} , to the door . Then [he]_{209-mr. carson} turned back and poured out a glass of wine from the decanter which yet remained on the table . [His]_{209-mr. carson} eye caught the wine - glass which [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} had used but two or three hours before . [He]_{209-mr. carson} sighed a long quivering sigh . And then mastering [himself]_{209-mr. carson} again , [he]_{209-mr. carson} left [the room]_{616-the room} . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i had better go back to [[your]_0-i sisters]_{2897-your sisters} , [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy , " said [nurse]_2844-nurse . [Miss Carson]_{324-miss carson} went . [She]_{324-miss carson} could not face death yet . [The nurse]_{2676-the nurse} followed [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} to [[the servants]_{1411-the servants} ' hall]_{2892-the servants ' hall} . There , on [their]_{1411-the servants} dinner - table , lay the poor dead body . [The men who had brought it]_{6637-the men who had brought it} were sitting near the fire , while [several of [the servants]_{1411-the servants}]_{6638-several of the servants} stood round the table , gazing at the remains . _ The remains ! _ [One or two]_{1061-one or two} were crying ; [one or two]_{1061-one or two} were whispering ; awed into a strange stillness of voice and action by the presence of the dead . When [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} came in [they]_{1411-the servants} all drew back and looked at [him]_{209-mr. carson} with the reverence due to sorrow . [He]_{209-mr. carson} went forward and gazed long and fondly on the calm , dead face ; then [he]_{209-mr. carson} bent down and kissed the lips yet crimson with life . [The policemen]_{6642-the policemen} had advanced and stood ready to be questioned . But at first [the old man]_{6643-the old man} 's mind could only take in the idea of death ; slowly , slowly came the conception of violence , of murder . "_[213-sophy] How did [he]_2898-he die ? " [he]_{6643-the old man} groaned forth . [The policemen]_{6642-the policemen} looked at [each other]_{436-each other} . Then [one]_518-one began , and stated that having heard the report of a gun in [Turner Street]_{90-turner street} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} had turned down that way ( a lonely , unfrequented way [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} knew , but a short cut to [[his]_{209-mr. carson} garden]_{6647-his garden} - door , of which [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} had a key ) ; that as [he]_{209-mr. carson} ( [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} ) came nearer , [he]_{209-mr. carson} had heard footsteps as of [a man running away]_{6649-a man running away} ; but the evening was so dark ( the moon not having yet risen ) that [he]_{209-mr. carson} could see [no one]_{1202-no one} twenty yards off . That [he]_{209-mr. carson} had even been startled when close to the body by seeing it lying across the path at [his]_{209-mr. carson} feet . That [he]_{209-mr. carson} had sprung [his]_{209-mr. carson} rattle ; and when [another policeman]_{6651-another policeman} came up , by the light of the lantern [they]_{6642-the policemen} had discovered who it was that had been killed . That [they]_{6642-the policemen} believed [him]_{209-mr. carson} to be dead when [they]_{6642-the policemen} first took [him]_{209-mr. carson} up , as [he]_{209-mr. carson} had never moved , spoken , or breathed . That intelligence of the murder had been sent to [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} , who would probably soon be here . That [two or three policemen]_{6653-two or three policemen} were still about the place where the murder was committed , seeking out for some trace of [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . Having said this , [they]_{6642-the policemen} stopped speaking . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had listened attentively , never taking [his]_{209-mr. carson} eyes off the dead body . When [they]_{6642-the policemen} had ended , [he]_{209-mr. carson} said , "_[2898-he] Where was [he]_2899-him shot ? " [They]_{6642-the policemen} lifted up some of the thick chestnut curls , and showed a blue spot ( [you]_6655-you could hardly call it a hole , the flesh had closed so much over it ) in the left temple . A deadly aim ! And yet it was so dark a night ! "_[2899-him] [He]_2899-him must have been close upon [him]_2899-him , " said [one policeman]_{6656-one policeman} . "_[2899-him] And have had [him]_2899-him between [him]_2899-him and the sky , " added [the other]_{1048-the other} . There was a little commotion at the door of [the room]_{616-the room} , and there stood poor [Mrs. Carson]_226-harry , [the mother]_{5048-the mother} . [She]_226-harry had heard unusual noises in [the house]_{803-the house} , and had sent down [[her]_226-harry maid]_{6661-her maid} ( much more [a companion to [her]_226-harry than [[her]_226-harry highly - educated daughters]_{6663-her highly - educated daughters}]_{6662-a companion to her than her highly - educated daughters} ) to discover what was going on . But [the maid]_{1429-the maid} either forgot , or dreaded , to return ; and with nervous impatience [Mrs. Carson]_226-harry came down [herself]_226-harry , and had traced the hum and buzz of voices to [[the servants]_{1411-the servants} ' hall]_{2892-the servants ' hall} . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} turned round . But [he]_{209-mr. carson} could not leave the dead for [any one living]_{6667-any one living} . "_[2899-him] Take [her]_2900-her away , [nurse]_2844-nurse . It is no sight for [her]_2900-her . Tell [Miss Sophy]_213-sophy to go to [[her]_2900-her mother]_{4774-her mother} . " [His]_{209-mr. carson} eyes were again fixed on the dead face of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} . [Presently Mrs. Carson]_226-harry 's hysterical cries were heard all over [the house]_{803-the house} . [[Her]_226-harry husband]_{587-her husband} shuddered at the outward expression of the agony which was rending [his]_{587-her husband} heart . Then [the police superintendent]_{6671-the police superintendent} came , and after [him]_{6671-the police superintendent} [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} . [The latter]_{511-the latter} went through all the forms of ascertaining death , without uttering a word , and when at the conclusion of the operation of opening a vein , from which no blood flowed , [he]_{587-her husband} shook [his]_{587-her husband} head , all present understood the confirmation of [their]_{511-the latter} previous belief . [The superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} asked to speak to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} in private . "_[213-sophy] It was just what [I]_0-i was going to request of [you]_2903-you , " answered [he]_0-i ; so [he]_0-i led the way into [the dining - room]_{6579-the dining - room} , with the wine - glass still on the table . The door was carefully shut , and [both]_876-both sat down , [each]_5320-each apparently waiting for [the other]_{1048-the other} to begin . At last [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} spoke . "_[0-i] [You]_2903-you probably have heard that [I]_0-i am [a rich man]_{2904-a rich man} . " [The superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} bowed in assent . "_{[2904-a rich man]} Well , [sir]_5232-sir , half -- nay , if necessary , the whole of [my]_0-i fortune [I]_0-i will give to have [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} brought to the gallows . " "_[5232-sir] Every exertion , [you]_5232-sir may be sure , [sir]_5232-sir , shall be used on [our]_2908-our part ; but probably offering a handsome reward might accelerate the discovery of [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . But what [I]_0-i wanted particularly to tell [you]_5232-sir , [sir]_5232-sir , is that [one of [[my]_0-i men]_{2912-my men}]_{2911-one of my men} has already got some clue , and that another ( who accompanied [me]_0-i here ) has within this quarter of an hour found a gun in the field which [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} crossed , and which [he]_{6654-the murderer} probably threw away when pursued , as encumbering [his]_{6654-the murderer} flight . [I]_0-i have not the smallest doubt of discovering [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . " "_[0-i] What do [you]_5232-sir call a handsome reward ? " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . "_[0-i] Well , [sir]_5232-sir , three , or five hundred pounds is a munificent reward : more than will probably be required as a temptation to [any accomplice]_{2916-any accomplice} . " "_[5232-sir] Make it a thousand , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , decisively . "_[5232-sir] It 's the doing of those damned turn - outs . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i imagine not , " said [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} . "_[0-i] Some days ago [the man [I]_0-i was naming to [you]_5232-sir before]_{2917-the man i was naming to you before} , reported to [the inspector]_{2918-the inspector} when [he]_{2917-the man i was naming to you before} came on [his]_{2917-the man i was naming to you before} beat , that [he]_{2917-the man i was naming to you before} had had to separate [[your]_5232-sir son]_{2919-your son} from [a young man]_{665-a young man} , who by [his]_{665-a young man} dress [he]_{665-a young man} believed to be employed in [a foundry]_{2921-a foundry} ; that [the man]_{708-the man} had thrown [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} down , and seemed inclined to proceed to more violence , when [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} came up and interfered . Indeed , [[my]_0-i man]_{2583-my man} wished to give [him]_{209-mr. carson} in charge for an assault , but [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} would not allow that to be done . " "_{[209-mr. carson]} Just like [him!--noble fellow]_{2925-him!--noble fellow} ! " murmured [the father]_{513-the father} . "_{[209-mr. carson]} But after [[your]_5232-sir son]_{2919-your son} had left , [the man]_{708-the man} made use of some pretty strong threats . And it 's rather a curious coincidence that this scuffle took place in the very same spot where the murder was committed ; in [Turner Street]_{90-turner street} . " There was [some one knocking at the door of]_{6682-some one knocking at the door of} [the room]_{616-the room} . It was [Sophy]_213-sophy , who beckoned [[her]_213-sophy father]_{564-her father} out , and then asked [him]_{564-her father} , in an awe - struck whisper , to come up - stairs and speak to [[her]_213-sophy mother]_{4774-her mother} . "_[2928-she] [She]_2928-she will not leave [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} , and talks so strangely . Indeed -- indeed -- [papa]_5219-papa , [I]_0-i think [she]_2928-she has lost [her]_2928-she senses . " And [the poor girl]_{6686-the poor girl} sobbed bitterly . "_[2928-she] Where is [she]_2928-she ? " asked [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . "_{[209-mr. carson]} In [[his]_{209-mr. carson} room]_{2930-his room} . " [They]_6687-they went up [stairs]_4740-stairs rapidly and silently . It was [a large , comfortable bedroom]_{6689-a large , comfortable bedroom} ; too large to be well lighted by the flaring , flickering [kitchen]_6690-kitchen - candle which had been hastily snatched up , and now stood on the dressing - table . On the bed , surrounded by [its]_6691-its heavy , pall - like green curtains , lay [the dead son]_{6692-the dead son} . [They]_6687-they had carried [him]_{6692-the dead son} up , and laid [him]_{6692-the dead son} down , as tenderly as though [they]_6687-they feared to waken [him]_{6692-the dead son} ; and , indeed , it looked more like sleep than death , so very calm and full of repose was the face . [You]_6693-you saw , too , the chiselled beauty of the features much more perfectly than when the brilliant colouring of life had distracted [your]_6693-you attention . There was a peace about [him]_{6692-the dead son} which told that death had come too instantaneously to give any previous pain . In a chair , at the head of the bed , sat [the mother,--smiling]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} . [She]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} held one of the hands ( rapidly stiffening , even in [her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} warm grasp ) , and gently stroked the back of it , with the endearing caress [she]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} had used to all [[her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} children]_{5064-her children} when young . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [I]_0-i am glad [you]_2931-you are come , " said [she]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} , looking up at [[her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} husband]_{587-her husband} , and still smiling . "_[2931-you] [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} is so full of fun , [he]_{209-mr. carson} always has something new to amuse [us]_2932-us with ; and now [he]_{209-mr. carson} pretends [he]_{209-mr. carson} is asleep , and that [we]_2932-us ca n't waken [him]_{209-mr. carson} . Look ! [he]_{209-mr. carson} is smiling now ; [he]_{209-mr. carson} hears [I]_0-i have found [him]_{209-mr. carson} out . Look ! " And , in truth , the lips , in the rest of death , did look as though they wore a smile , and the waving light of the unsnuffed candle almost made them seem to move . "_[212-amy] Look , [Amy]_212-amy , " said [she]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} to [[her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} youngest child]_{6697-her youngest child} , who knelt at [her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} feet , trying to soothe [her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} , by kissing [her]_{6694-the mother,--smiling} garments . "_[212-amy] Oh , [he]_{209-mr. carson} was always [a rogue]_{2933-a rogue} ! [You]_212-amy remember , do n't [you]_212-amy , [love]_2934-love ? how full of play [he]_{209-mr. carson} was as [a baby]_{4827-a baby} ; hiding [his]_{209-mr. carson} face under [my]_0-i arm , when [you]_212-amy wanted to play with [him]_{209-mr. carson} . Always [a rogue]_{2933-a rogue} , [Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ! " "_{[2933-a rogue]} [We]_2937-we must get [her]_2938-her away , [sir]_5232-sir , " said [nurse]_2844-nurse ; "_{[2933-a rogue]} [you]_5232-sir know there is much to be done before-- " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i understand , [nurse]_2844-nurse , " said [the father]_{513-the father} , hastily interrupting [her]_2844-nurse in dread of the distinct words which would tell of the changes of mortality . "_[2844-nurse] Come , [love]_2934-love , " said [he]_0-i to [[his]_0-i wife]_{525-his wife} . "_[2934-love] [I]_0-i want [you]_2934-love to come with [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i want to speak to [you]_2934-love down - [stairs]_4740-stairs . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm coming , " said [she]_2934-love , rising ; "_[0-i] perhaps , after all , [nurse]_2844-nurse , [he]_5232-sir 's really tired , and would be glad to sleep . Do n't let [him]_5232-sir get cold , though,--he feels rather chilly , " continued [she]_2934-love , after [she]_2934-love had bent down , and kissed the pale lips . [[Her]_2934-love husband]_{587-her husband} put [his]_0-i arm round [her]_2934-love waist , and [they]_6702-they left [the room]_{616-the room} . Then [the three sisters]_{6704-the three sisters} burst into unrestrained wailings . [They]_{6704-the three sisters} were startled into the reality of life and death . And yet , in the midst of shrieks and moans , of shivering , and chattering of teeth , [Sophy]_213-sophy 's eye caught the calm beauty of the dead ; so calm amidst such violence , and [she]_213-sophy hushed [her]_213-sophy emotion . "_[2844-nurse] Come , " said [she]_213-sophy to [[her]_213-sophy sisters]_{6705-her sisters} , "_[2844-nurse] [nurse]_2844-nurse wants [us]_2945-us to go ; and besides , [we]_2945-us ought to be with [mamma]_2843-mamma . [Papa]_217-papa told [the man [he]_217-papa was talking to]_{2947-the man he was talking to} , when [I]_0-i went for [him]_217-papa , to wait , and [she]_2843-mamma must not be left . " Meanwhile , [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} had taken a candle , and was examining the engravings that hung round [the dining - room]_{6579-the dining - room} . It was so common to [him]_{6652-the superintendent} to be acquainted with crime , that [he]_{6652-the superintendent} was far from feeling all [his]_{6652-the superintendent} interest absorbed in the present case of violence , although [he]_{6652-the superintendent} could not help having much anxiety to detect [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . [He]_{6652-the superintendent} was busy looking at the only oil - painting in [the room]_{616-the room} ( [a youth of eighteen or so , in a fancy dress )]_{6710-a youth of eighteen or so , in a fancy dress )} , and conjecturing its identity with [the young man so mysteriously dead]_{6711-the young man so mysteriously dead} , when the door opened , and [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} returned . Stern as [he]_{209-mr. carson} had looked before leaving [the room]_{616-the room} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} looked far sterner now . [His]_{209-mr. carson} face was hardened into deep - purposed wrath . "_[217-papa] [I]_0-i beg [your]_0-i pardon , [sir]_5232-sir , for leaving [you]_0-i . " [The superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} bowed . [They]_6714-they sat down , and spoke long together . One by one [the policemen]_{6642-the policemen} were called in , and questioned . All through the night there was bustle and commotion in [the house]_{803-the house} . [Nobody]_6717-nobody thought of going to bed . It seemed strange to [Sophy]_213-sophy to hear [nurse]_2844-nurse summoned from [[her]_2844-nurse mother]_{4774-her mother} 's side to supper , in the middle of the night , and still stranger that [she]_2844-nurse could go . The necessity of eating and drinking seemed out of place in [the house of death]_{6720-the house of death} . When night was passing into morning , [the dining - room]_{6579-the dining - room} door opened , and [two persons]_{6722-two persons} ' steps were heard along [the hall]_{6723-the hall} . [The superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} was leaving at last . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} stood on the front door - step , feeling the refreshment of the cooler morning air , and seeing the starlight fade away into dawn . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i will not forget , " said [he]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i trust to [you]_0-i . " [The policeman]_{2480-the policeman} bowed . "_[0-i] Spare no money . The only purpose for which [I]_0-i now value wealth is to have [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} arrested , and brought to justice . [My]_0-i hope in life now is to see [him]_{6654-the murderer} sentenced to death . Offer any rewards . Name a thousand pounds in the placards . Come to [me]_0-i at any hour , night or day , if that be required . All [I]_0-i ask of [you]_0-i is , to get [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} hanged . Next week , if possible -- to - day is Friday . Surely , with the clues [you]_0-i already possess , [you]_0-i can muster up evidence sufficient to have [him]_{6654-the murderer} tried next week . " "_{[6654-the murderer]} [He]_{6654-the murderer} may easily request an adjournment of [his]_{6654-the murderer} trial , on the ground of the shortness of the notice , " said [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} . "_{[6654-the murderer]} Oppose it , if possible . [I]_0-i will see that [the first lawyers]_{2951-the first lawyers} are employed . [I]_0-i shall know no rest while [he]_{6654-the murderer} lives . " "_[0-i] Every thing shall be done , [sir]_5232-sir . " "_[0-i] [You]_0-i will arrange with [the coroner]_{2953-the coroner} . Ten o'clock , if convenient . " [The superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} took leave . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} stood on the step , dreading to shut out the light and air , and return into [the haunted , gloomy house]_{6728-the haunted , gloomy house} . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} ! [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} ! " [he]_0-i said , at last . "_[0-i] But [you]_{1855-my son} shall be avenged , [[my]_0-i poor murdered boy]_{2956-my poor murdered boy} . " [Ay]_305-ay ! to avenge [his]_0-i wrongs [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} had singled out [[his]_0-i victim]_{6730-his victim} , and with one fell action had taken away the life that [God]_224-god had given . To avenge [[his]_0-i child]_{6731-his child} 's death , [the old man]_{6643-the old man} lived on ; with the single purpose in [his]_0-i heart of vengeance on [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . True , [his]_0-i vengeance was sanctioned by law , but was it the less revenge ? Are [we]_6734-we [worshippers of [Christ]_325-christ]_{6735-worshippers of christ} ? or of [Alecto]_326-alecto ? Oh ! [Orestes]_327-orestes ! [you]_327-orestes would have made [a very tolerable Christian of the nineteenth century]_{6736-a very tolerable christian of the nineteenth century} ! CHAPTER XIX . [JEM WILSON]_154-jem ARRESTED ON SUSPICION . "_[0-i] Deeds to be hid which were not hid , Which , all confused , [I]_0-i could not know , Whether [I]_0-i suffered or [I]_0-i did , For all seemed guilt , remorse , or woe . " [COLERIDGE]_{328-coleridge} . [I]_157-margaret left [Mary]_145-mary , on that same Thursday night which left its burden of woe at [[Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's threshold]_{6737-mr. carson 's threshold} , haunted with depressing thoughts . All through the night [she]_145-mary tossed restlessly about , trying to get quit of the ideas that harassed [her]_145-mary , and longing for the light when [she]_145-mary could rise , and find some employment . But just as dawn began to appear , [she]_145-mary became more quiet , and fell into a sound heavy sleep , which lasted till [she]_145-mary was sure it was late in the morning by the full light that shone in . [She]_145-mary dressed hastily , and heard [the neighbouring church]_{6738-the neighbouring church} - clock strike eight . It was far too late to do as [she]_145-mary had planned ( after inquiring how [Alice]_146-alice was , to return and tell [Margaret]_157-margaret ) , and [she]_145-mary accordingly went in to inform [the latter]_{511-the latter} of [her]_145-mary change of purpose , and the cause of it ; but on entering [the house]_{803-the house} [she]_145-mary found [Job]_156-job sitting alone , looking sad enough . [She]_145-mary told [him]_156-job what [she]_145-mary came for . "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret , [wench]_5103-wench ! why [she]_2958-she 's been gone to [Wilson]_146-alice 's these two hours . Ay ! sure , [you]_157-margaret did say last night [you]_157-margaret would go ; but [she]_2958-she could na rest in [her]_2958-she bed , so was off betimes this morning . " [Mary]_145-mary could do nothing but feel guilty of [her]_145-mary long morning nap , and hasten to follow [Margaret]_157-margaret 's steps ; for late as it was , [she]_145-mary felt [she]_145-mary could not settle well to [her]_145-mary work , unless [she]_145-mary learnt how kind good [Alice Wilson]_146-alice was going on . So , eating [her]_145-mary crust - of - bread breakfast , [she]_145-mary passed rapidly along [the streets]_{772-the streets} . [She]_145-mary remembered afterwards [the little groups of people [she]_145-mary had seen]_{6742-the little groups of people she had seen} , eagerly hearing , and imparting news ; but at the time [her]_145-mary only care was to hasten on [her]_145-mary way , in dread of a reprimand from [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} . [She]_145-mary went into [the house]_{803-the house} at [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's , [her]_145-mary heart at the instant giving a strange knock , and sending the rosy flush into [her]_145-mary face , at the thought that [Jem]_154-jem might possibly be inside the door . But [I]_0-i do assure [you]_6744-you , [she]_145-mary had not thought of it before . Impatient and loving as [she]_145-mary was , [her]_145-mary solicitude about [Alice]_146-alice on that hurried morning had not been mingled with any thought of [him]_154-jem . [Her]_145-mary heart need not have leaped , [her]_145-mary colour need not have rushed so painfully to [her]_145-mary cheeks , for [he]_154-jem was not there . There was the round table , with a cup and saucer , which had evidently been used , and there was [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} sitting on the other side , crying quietly , while [she]_{130-jane wilson} ate [her]_{130-jane wilson} breakfast with a sort of unconscious appetite . And there was [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} washing away at a night - cap or so , which , by [their]_6745-their simple , old - world make , [Mary]_145-mary knew at a glance were [Alice]_146-alice 's . But nothing -- [no one else]_{6746-no one else} . [Alice]_146-alice was much the same , or rather better of [the two]_{6747-the two} , [they]_6745-their told [her]_145-mary ; at any rate [she]_146-alice could speak , though it was sad rambling talk . Would [Mary]_145-mary like to see [her]_146-alice ? Of course [she]_145-mary would . [Many]_1183-many are interested by seeing [[their]_1183-many friends]_{5472-their friends} under the new aspect of illness ; and among [the poor]_{4790-the poor} there is no wholesome fear of injury or excitement to restrain this wish . So [Mary]_145-mary went up - [stairs]_4740-stairs , accompanied by [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , wringing the suds off [her]_145-mary hands , and speaking in a loud whisper far more audible than [her]_145-mary usual voice . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i mun be hastening [home]_4755-home , but [I]_0-i 'll come again to - night , time enough to iron [her]_2960-she cap ; ' twould be a sin and a shame if [we]_2961-we let [her]_2960-she go dirty now [she]_2960-she 's ill , when [she]_2960-she 's been so rare and clean all [her]_2960-she life - long . But [she]_2960-she 's sadly forsaken , poor thing ! [She]_2960-she 'll not know [you]_0-i , [Mary]_145-mary ; [she]_2960-she knows none on [us]_2961-we . " [The room]_{616-the room} up - [stairs]_4740-stairs held two beds , one superior in the grandeur of four posts and checked curtains to the other , which had been occupied by [the twins]_{545-the twins} in [their]_{545-the twins} brief life - time . The smaller had been [Alice]_146-alice 's bed since [she]_146-alice had lived [there]_873-there ; but with the natural reverence to one "_[2960-she] stricken of [God]_224-god and afflicted , " [she]_146-alice had been installed since [her]_146-alice paralytic stroke the evening before in the larger and grander bed , while [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} had taken [her]_{130-jane wilson} short broken rest on [the little pallet]_{6756-the little pallet} . [Margaret]_157-margaret came forwards to meet [[her]_157-margaret friend]_{586-her friend} , whom [she]_157-margaret half expected , and whose step [she]_157-margaret knew . [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} returned to [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} washing . [The two girls]_{1049-the two girls} did not speak ; the presence of [Alice]_146-alice awed [them]_{1049-the two girls} into silence . There [she]_146-alice lay with the rosy colour , absent from [her]_146-alice face since the days of childhood , flushed once more into it by [her]_146-alice sickness nigh unto death . [She]_146-alice lay on the affected side , and with [her]_146-alice other arm [she]_146-alice was constantly sawing the air , not exactly in a restless manner , but in a monotonous , incessant way , very trying to [a watcher]_{6759-a watcher} . [She]_146-alice was talking away , too , almost as constantly , in a low , indistinct tone . But [her]_146-alice face , [her]_146-alice profiled countenance , looked calm and smiling , even interested by the ideas that were passing through [her]_146-alice clouded mind . "_[2960-she] Listen ! " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , as [she]_157-margaret stooped [her]_157-margaret head down to catch the muttered words more distinctly . "_{[4845-mother]} What will [mother]_4845-mother say ? The bees are turning homeward for th ' last time , and [we]_2963-we 've a terrible long bit to go yet . See ! here 's a linnet 's nest in this gorse - bush . [Th]_2964-th ' hen - bird is on it . Look at [her]_2965-her bright eyes , [she]_2965-her wo n't stir ! Ay ! [we]_2963-we mun hurry [home]_4755-home . Wo n't [mother]_4845-mother be pleased with the bonny lot of heather [we]_2963-we 've got ! Make haste , [Sally]_162-sally , may be [we]_2963-we shall have cockles for supper . [I]_0-i saw [th ' cockle - man]_{2968-th ' cockle - man} 's donkey turn up [our]_2963-we way fra ' [Arnside]_91-arnside . " [Margaret]_157-margaret touched [Mary]_145-mary 's hand , and the pressure in return told [her]_157-margaret that [they]_2963-we understood [each other]_{436-each other} ; that [they]_2963-we knew how in this illness to [the old , world - weary woman]_{6761-the old , world - weary woman} , [God]_224-god had sent [her]_157-margaret a veiled blessing : [she]_157-margaret was once more in the scenes of [her]_157-margaret childhood , unchanged and bright as in those long departed days ; once more with [the sister of [her]_157-margaret youth]_{6762-the sister of her youth} , [the playmate of fifty years ago]_{6763-the playmate of fifty years ago} , who had for nearly as many years slept in [a grassy grave in [the little church - yard beyond [Burton]_13-burton]_{6765-the little church - yard beyond burton}]_{6764-a grassy grave in the little church - yard beyond burton} . [Alice]_146-alice 's face changed ; [she]_146-alice looked sorrowful , almost penitent . "_[162-sally] Oh , [Sally]_162-sally ! [I]_0-i wish [we]_2969-we 'd told [her]_2970-her . [She]_2970-her thinks [we]_2969-we were in [church]_5378-church all morning , and [we]_2969-we 've gone on deceiving [her]_2970-her . If [we]_2969-we 'd told [her]_2970-her at first how it was -- how sweet th ' hawthorn smelt through [the open church]_{2972-the open church} - door , and how [we]_2969-we were on [th]_2973-th ' last bench in the aisle , and how it were the first butterfly [we]_2969-we 'd seen this spring , and how it flew into [th ' very church]_{2974-th ' very church} itself ; oh ! [mother]_4845-mother is so gentle , [I]_0-i wish [we]_2969-we 'd told [her]_2970-her . [I]_0-i 'll go to [her]_2970-her next time [she]_2970-her comes in sight , and say , ' [Mother]_161-mother , [we]_2969-we were naughty last Sabbath . ' " [She]_2970-her stopped , and a few tears came stealing down the old withered cheek , at the thought of the temptation and deceit of [her]_2970-her childhood . Surely , many sins could not have darkened [that innocent child]_{6766-that innocent child} - like spirit since . [Mary]_145-mary found a red - spotted pocket - handkerchief , and put it into the hand which sought about for something to wipe away the trickling tears . [She]_145-mary took it with a gentle murmur . "_{[4845-mother]} Thank [you]_161-mother , [mother]_4845-mother . " [Mary]_145-mary pulled [Margaret]_157-margaret away from the bed . "_{[4845-mother]} Do n't [you]_161-mother think [she]_2970-her 's happy , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? " "_[161-mother] Ay ! that [I]_0-i do , bless [her]_2970-her . [She]_2970-her feels no pain , and knows nought of [her]_2970-her present state . Oh ! that [I]_0-i could see , [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_0-i try and be patient with [her]_2970-her afore [me]_0-i , but [I]_0-i 'd give aught [I]_0-i have to see [her]_2970-her , and see what [she]_2970-her wants . [I]_0-i am so useless ! [I]_0-i mean to stay here as long as [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} is alone ; and [I]_0-i would fain be here all to - night , but-- " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'll come , " said [Mary]_145-mary , decidedly . "_[2970-her] [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} said [she]_2970-her 'd come again , but [she]_2970-her 's hard - worked all day-- " "_[2970-her] [I]_0-i 'll come , " repeated [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] Do ! " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i 'll be here till [you]_0-i come . May be , [Jem]_154-jem and [you]_0-i could take th ' night between [you]_0-i , and [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} might get a bit of sound sleep in [his]_154-jem bed ; for [she]_{130-jane wilson} were up and down the better part of last night , and just when [she]_{130-jane wilson} were in a sound sleep this morning , between two and three , [Jem]_154-jem came [home]_4755-home , and th ' sound o ' [his]_154-jem voice roused [her]_{130-jane wilson} in a minute . " "_[154-jem] Where had [he]_154-jem been till that time o ' night ? " asked [Mary]_145-mary . "_[154-jem] Nay ! it were none of [my]_0-i business ; and , indeed , [I]_0-i never saw [him]_154-jem till [he]_154-jem came in [here]_5235-here to see [Alice]_146-alice . [He]_154-jem were in again this morning , and seemed sadly downcast . But [you]_0-i 'll , may be , manage to comfort [him]_154-jem to - night , [Mary]_145-mary , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , smiling , while a ray of hope glimmered in [Mary]_145-mary 's heart , and [she]_145-mary almost felt glad , for an instant , of the occasion which would at last bring [them]_6767-them together . Oh ! happy night ! when would it come ? Many hours had yet to pass . Then [she]_145-mary saw [Alice]_146-alice , and repented , with a bitter self - reproach . But [she]_145-mary could not help having gladness in the depths of [her]_145-mary heart , blame [herself]_145-mary as [she]_145-mary would . So [she]_145-mary tried not to think , as [she]_145-mary hurried along to [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' , with a dancing step of lightness . [She]_145-mary was late -- that [she]_145-mary knew [she]_145-mary should be . [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} was vexed and cross . That also [she]_{152-miss simmonds} had anticipated , but [she]_{152-miss simmonds} had intended to smooth [her]_{152-miss simmonds} raven down by extraordinary diligence and attention . But there was something about [the girls [she]_145-mary did not understand]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} -- had not anticipated . [They]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} stopped talking when [she]_145-mary came in ; or rather , [I]_145-mary should say , stopped listening , for [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally was [the talker to whom [they]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} were hearkening with intense attention]_{6769-the talker to whom they were hearkening with intense attention} . At first [they]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} eyed [Mary]_145-mary , as if [she]_145-mary had acquired some new interest to [them]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} , since the day before . Then [they]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} began to whisper ; and , absorbed as [Mary]_145-mary had been in [her]_145-mary own thoughts , [she]_145-mary could not help becoming aware that it was of [her]_145-mary [they]_{6768-the girls she did not understand} spoke . At last [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally asked [Mary]_145-mary if [she]_145-mary had heard the news ? "_[145-mary] No ! What news ? " answered [she]_162-sally . [The girls]_{505-the girls} looked at [each other]_{436-each other} with gloomy mystery . [Sally]_162-sally went on . "_[145-mary] Have [you]_2979-you not heard that [young Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was murdered last night ? " [Mary]_145-mary 's lips could not utter a negative , but [no one who looked at]_{6772-no one who looked at} [her]_145-mary pale and terror - stricken face could have doubted that [she]_145-mary had not heard before of the fearful occurrence . Oh , it is terrible , that sudden information , that one [you]_2979-you have known has met with a bloody death ! [You]_2979-you seem to shrink from [the world]_{1479-the world} where such deeds can be committed , and to grow sick with the idea of [the violent and wicked men of earth]_{6774-the violent and wicked men of earth} . Much as [Mary]_145-mary had learned to dread [him]_{209-mr. carson} lately , now [he]_{209-mr. carson} was dead ( and dead in such a manner ) [her]_145-mary feeling was that of oppressive sorrow for [him]_{209-mr. carson} . [The room]_{616-the room} went round and round , and [she]_145-mary felt as though [she]_145-mary should faint ; but [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} came in , bringing a waft of fresher air as [she]_{152-miss simmonds} opened the door , to refresh the body , and the certainty of a scolding for inattention to brace the sinking mind . [She]_{152-miss simmonds} , too , was full of the morning 's news . "_{[209-mr. carson]} Have [you]_2980-you heard any more of this horrid affair , [Miss Barton]_{329-miss barton} ? " asked [she]_{152-miss simmonds} , as [she]_{152-miss simmonds} settled to [her]_{152-miss simmonds} work . [Mary]_145-mary tried to speak ; at first [she]_145-mary could not , and when [she]_145-mary succeeded in uttering a sentence , it seemed as though it were not [her]_145-mary own voice that spoke . "_{[329-miss barton]} No , [ma'am]_2981-ma'am , [I]_0-i never heard of it till this minute . " "_[5078-dear] [Dear]_5078-dear ! that 's strange , for [every one]_{669-every one} is up about it . [I]_0-i hope [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} will be found out , that [I]_0-i do . [Such a handsome young man]_{2985-such a handsome young man} to be killed as [he]_{2985-such a handsome young man} was . [I]_0-i hope [the wretch that did it]_{2986-the wretch that did it} may be hanged as high as [Haman]_330-haman . " [One of [the girls]_{505-the girls}]_{6776-one of the girls} reminded [them]_2988-they that the assizes came on next week . "_[2988-they] Ay , " replied [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} , "_[2988-they] and [the milk - man]_{2987-the milk - man} told [me]_0-i [they]_2988-they will catch [the wretch]_{2989-the wretch} , and have [him]_{2989-the wretch} tried and hung in less than a week . Serve [him]_{2989-the wretch} right , whoever [he]_{2989-the wretch} is . Such [a handsome young man]_{2990-a handsome young man} as [he]_{2989-the wretch} was . " Then [each]_5320-each began to communicate to [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} the various reports [they]_2988-they had heard . Suddenly [she]_{152-miss simmonds} burst out-- "_{[2989-the wretch]} [Miss Barton]_{329-miss barton} ! as [I]_0-i live , dropping tears on that new silk gown of [Mrs. Hawkes]_{331-mrs. hawkes} ' ! Do n't [you]_{329-miss barton} know [they]_2988-they will stain , and make it shabby for ever ? Crying like [a baby]_{4827-a baby} , because [a handsome young man meets with an untimely end]_{2992-a handsome young man meets with an untimely end} . For shame of [yourself]_{329-miss barton} , [miss]_1623-miss . Mind [your]_{329-miss barton} character and [your]_{329-miss barton} work if [you]_{329-miss barton} please . Or , if [you]_{329-miss barton} must cry " ( seeing [her]_{152-miss simmonds} scolding rather increased the flow of [Mary]_145-mary 's tears , than otherwise ) , "_[2988-they] take this print to cry over . That wo n't be marked like this beautiful silk , " rubbing it , as if [she]_145-mary loved it , with a clean pocket - handkerchief , in order to soften the edges of the hard round drops . [Mary]_145-mary took the print , and naturally enough , having had leave given [her]_145-mary to cry over it , rather checked the inclination to weep . Every body was full of the one subject . [The girl sent out to match silk]_{6779-the girl sent out to match silk} , came back with the account gathered at [the shop]_{807-the shop} , of [[the coroner]_{2953-the coroner} 's inquest]_{6782-the coroner 's inquest} then sitting ; [the ladies who called to speak about gowns]_{6783-the ladies who called to speak about gowns} first began about the murder , and mingled details of that , with directions for [their]_{6783-the ladies who called to speak about gowns} dresses . [Mary]_145-mary felt as though the haunting horror were a nightmare , a fearful dream , from which awakening would relieve [her]_145-mary . The picture of the murdered body , far more ghastly than the reality , seemed to swim in the air before [her]_145-mary eyes . [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally looked and spoke of [her]_145-mary , almost accusingly , and made no secret now of [Mary]_145-mary 's conduct , more blameable to [[her]_145-mary fellow - workwomen]_{6784-her fellow - workwomen} for its latter changeableness , than for its former giddy flirting . "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} [Poor young gentleman]_{2994-poor young gentleman} , " said one , as [Sally]_162-sally recounted [Mary]_145-mary 's last interview with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} What a shame ! " exclaimed another , looking indignantly at [Mary]_145-mary . "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} That 's what [I]_0-i call regular jilting , " said [a third]_{6785-a third} . "_[0-i] And [he]_{2994-poor young gentleman} lying cold and bloody in [his]_{2994-poor young gentleman} coffin now ! " [Mary]_145-mary was more thankful than [she]_145-mary could express , when [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} returned , to put a stop to [Sally]_162-sally 's communications , and to check the remarks of [the girls]_{505-the girls} . [She]_145-mary longed for the peace of [[Alice]_146-alice 's sick room]_{6787-alice 's sick room} . No more thinking with infinite delight of [her]_145-mary anticipated meeting with [Jem]_154-jem , [she]_145-mary felt too much shocked for that now ; but longing for peace and kindness , for the images of rest and beauty , and sinless times long ago , which [the poor old woman]_{950-the poor old woman} 's rambling presented , [she]_145-mary wished to be as near death as [Alice]_146-alice ; and to have struggled through [this world]_{6789-this world} , whose sufferings [she]_145-mary had early learnt , and whose crimes now seemed pressing close upon [her]_145-mary . Old texts from the Bible that [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} used to read ( or rather spell out ) aloud , in the days of childhood , came up to [her]_145-mary memory . "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} Where the wicked cease from troubling , and [the weary]_{2995-the weary} are at rest . " "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} The tears shall be wiped away from all eyes , " & amp;c . And it was to [that world]_{6791-that world} [Alice]_146-alice was hastening ! Oh ! that [she]_146-alice were [Alice]_146-alice ! [I]_{2994-poor young gentleman} must return to [[the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} ' house]_{6792-the wilsons ' house} , which was far from being the abode of peace that [Mary]_145-mary was picturing [it]_{6792-the wilsons ' house} to [herself]_145-mary . [You]_6793-you remember the reward [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} offered for the apprehension of [the murderer of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son}]_{6794-the murderer of his son} ? It was in itself a temptation , and to aid its efficacy came the natural sympathy for [the aged parents]_{6796-the aged parents} mourning for [[their]_{6796-the aged parents} child]_{6797-their child} , for [the young man]_{5590-the young man} cut off in the flower of [his]_{5590-the young man} days ; and besides this , there is always a pleasure in unravelling a mystery , in catching at the gossamer clue which will guide to certainty . This feeling , [I]_{2994-poor young gentleman} am sure , gives much impetus to [the police]_{6234-the police} . [Their]_{6234-the police} senses are ever and always on the qui - vive , and [they]_{6234-the police} enjoy the collecting and collating evidence , and the life of adventure [they]_{6234-the police} experience : a continual unwinding of [Jack Sheppard]_{332-jack sheppard} romances , always interesting to the vulgar and uneducated mind , to which the outward signs and tokens of crime are ever exciting . There was no lack of clue or evidence at [the coroner]_{2953-the coroner} 's inquest that morning . The shot , the finding of the body , the subsequent discovery of the gun , were rapidly deposed to ; and then [the policeman who had interrupted the quarrel between [Jem Wilson]_154-jem and [the murdered young man]_{6802-the murdered young man}]_{6801-the policeman who had interrupted the quarrel between jem wilson and the murdered young man} was brought forward , and gave [his]_{6801-the policeman who had interrupted the quarrel between jem wilson and the murdered young man} evidence , clear , simple , and straightforward . [The coroner]_{2953-the coroner} had no hesitation , [the jury]_{6804-the jury} had none , but the verdict was cautiously worded . "_{[2994-poor young gentleman]} Wilful murder against [some person unknown]_{2996-some person unknown} . " This very cautiousness , when [he]_{2953-the coroner} deemed the thing so sure as to require no caution , irritated [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . It did not soothe [him]_{2953-the coroner} that [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} called the verdict a mere form,--exhibited a warrant empowering [him]_{2953-the coroner} to seize the body of [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , committed on suspicion,--declared [his]_{2953-the coroner} intention of employing [a well - known officer in the Detective Service]_{6806-a well - known officer in the detective service} to ascertain the ownership of the gun , and to collect other evidence , especially as regarded [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} , about whom [the policeman deposed that the quarrel had taken place]_{6808-the policeman deposed that the quarrel had taken place} : [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was still excited and irritable ; restless in body and mind . [He]_{2953-the coroner} made every preparation for the accusation of [Jem]_154-jem the following morning before [the magistrates]_{6809-the magistrates} : [he]_{2953-the coroner} engaged [attorneys skilled in criminal practice to watch the case and prepare briefs]_{6810-attorneys skilled in criminal practice to watch the case and prepare briefs} ; [he]_{2953-the coroner} wrote to [celebrated barristers coming [the Northern Circuit]_{6812-the northern circuit}]_{6811-celebrated barristers coming the northern circuit} , to bespeak [their]_{6811-celebrated barristers coming the northern circuit} services . A speedy conviction , a speedy execution , seemed to be the only things that would satisfy [his]_{2953-the coroner} craving thirst for blood . [He]_{2953-the coroner} would have fain been [policeman]_{6813-policeman} , [magistrate]_{6814-magistrate} , [accusing speaker]_{6815-accusing speaker} , all ; but most of all , [the judge]_{6816-the judge} , rising with full sentence of death on [his]_{6816-the judge} lips . That afternoon , as [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} had begun to feel the effect of a night 's disturbed rest , evinced in frequent droppings off to sleep while [she]_{130-jane wilson} sat by [[her]_{130-jane wilson} sister - in - law]_{5363-her sister - in - law} 's bed - side , lulled by the incessant crooning of [the invalid]_{6818-the invalid} 's feeble voice , [she]_{130-jane wilson} was startled by [a man speaking in [the house - place below]_{6820-the house - place below}]_{6819-a man speaking in the house - place below} , who , wearied of knocking at the door , without obtaining any answer , had entered and was calling lustily for "_{[2996-some person unknown]} Missis ! missis ! " When [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} caught a glimpse of [the intruder]_{6821-the intruder} through the stair - rails , [she]_{130-jane wilson} at once saw [he]_{6821-the intruder} was [a stranger]_{524-a stranger} , [a working - man]_{1331-a working - man} , it might be [a fellow - labourer with [[her]_{130-jane wilson} son]_{2056-her son}]_{6824-a fellow - labourer with her son} , for [his]_{6821-the intruder} dress was grimy enough for the supposition . [He]_{6821-the intruder} held a gun in [his]_{6821-the intruder} hand . "_{[2996-some person unknown]} May [I]_0-i make bold to ask if this gun belongs to [[your]_0-i son]_{2919-your son} ? " [She]_{130-jane wilson} first looked at [the man]_{708-the man} , and then , weary and half asleep , not seeing any reason for refusing to answer the inquiry , [she]_{130-jane wilson} moved forward to examine it , talking while [she]_{130-jane wilson} looked for certain old - fashioned ornaments on the stock . "_[0-i] It looks like [his]_{2919-your son} ; ay , it 's [his]_{2919-your son} , sure enough . [I]_0-i could speak to it anywhere by these marks . [You]_2998-you see it were [[his]_{2919-your son} grandfather]_{2999-his grandfather} 's , as were gamekeeper to [some one up in [th ' north]_{3001-th ' north}]_{3000-some one up in th ' north} ; and [they]_3002-they do n't make guns so smart now - a - days . But , how comed [you]_2998-you by it ? [He]_{2919-your son} sets great store on it . Is [he]_{2919-your son} bound for [th ' shooting gallery]_{3003-th ' shooting gallery} ? [He]_{2919-your son} is not , for sure , now [[his]_{2919-your son} aunt]_{663-his aunt} is so ill , and [me]_0-i left all alone ; " and the immediate cause for [her]_{130-jane wilson} anxiety being thus recalled to [her]_{130-jane wilson} mind , [she]_{130-jane wilson} entered on a long story of [Alice]_146-alice 's illness , interspersed with recollections of [[her]_{130-jane wilson} husband]_{587-her husband} 's and [[her]_{130-jane wilson} children]_{5064-her children} 's deaths . [The disguised policeman]_{6829-the disguised policeman} listened for a minute or two , to glean any further information [he]_{6829-the disguised policeman} could ; and then , saying [he]_{6829-the disguised policeman} was in a hurry , [he]_{6829-the disguised policeman} turned to go away . [She]_{130-jane wilson} followed [him]_{6829-the disguised policeman} to the door , still telling [him]_{6829-the disguised policeman} [her]_{130-jane wilson} troubles , and was never struck , until it was too late to ask the reason , with the unaccountableness of [his]_{6829-the disguised policeman} conduct , in carrying the gun away with [him]_{6829-the disguised policeman} . Then , as [she]_{130-jane wilson} heavily climbed [the stairs]_{6383-the stairs} , [she]_{130-jane wilson} put away the wonder and the thought about [his]_{6829-the disguised policeman} conduct , by determining to believe [he]_{6829-the disguised policeman} was [some workman with whom [[her]_{130-jane wilson} son]_{2056-her son} had made some arrangement about shooting at [the gallery]_{6833-the gallery}]_{6831-some workman with whom her son had made some arrangement about shooting at the gallery} ; or mending the old weapon ; or something or other . [She]_{130-jane wilson} had enough to fret [her]_{130-jane wilson} , without moidering [herself]_{130-jane wilson} about old guns . [Jem]_154-jem had given it [him]_154-jem to bring to [her]_{130-jane wilson} ; so it was safe enough ; or , if it was not , why [she]_{130-jane wilson} should be glad never to set eyes on it again , for [she]_{130-jane wilson} could not abide fire - arms , [they]_6834-they were so apt to shoot [people]_4744-people . So , comforting [herself]_{130-jane wilson} for [her]_{130-jane wilson} want of thought in not making further inquiry , [she]_{130-jane wilson} fell off into another doze , feverish , dream - haunted , and unrefreshing . Meanwhile , [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} walked off with [his]_{2480-the policeman} prize , with an odd mixture of feelings ; a little contempt , a little disappointment , and a good deal of pity . The contempt and the disappointment were caused by [the widow]_{1229-the widow} 's easy admission of the gun being [[her]_{130-jane wilson} son]_{2056-her son} 's property , and [her]_{130-jane wilson} manner of identifying it by the ornaments . [He]_{2480-the policeman} liked an attempt to baffle [him]_{2480-the policeman} ; [he]_{2480-the policeman} was accustomed to it ; it gave some exercise to [his]_{2480-the policeman} wits and [his]_{2480-the policeman} shrewdness . There would be no fun in fox - hunting , if [Reynard]_333-reynard yielded [himself]_333-reynard up without any effort to escape . Then , again , [[his]_333-reynard mother]_{787-his mother} 's milk was yet in [him]_333-reynard , [policeman]_{6813-policeman} , [officer of [the Detective Service]_{6842-the detective service} though [he]_333-reynard was]_{6841-officer of the detective service though he was} ; and [he]_333-reynard felt sorry for [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} , whose "_{[2919-your son]} softness " had given such material assistance in identifying [[her]_{937-the old woman} son]_{2056-her son} as [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . However , [he]_333-reynard conveyed the gun , and the intelligence [he]_333-reynard had gained , to [the superintendent]_{6652-the superintendent} ; and the result was , that , in a short time afterwards , [three policemen]_{6847-three policemen} went to [the works at which [Jem]_154-jem was [foreman]_6849-foreman]_{6848-the works at which jem was foreman} , and announced [their]_{6847-three policemen} errand to [the astonished overseer]_{6850-the astonished overseer} , who directed [them]_{6847-three policemen} to [the part of [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} where [Jem]_154-jem was then superintending a casting]_{6851-the part of the foundry where jem was then superintending a casting} . Dark , black were the walls , the ground , the faces around [them]_{6847-three policemen} , as [they]_{6847-three policemen} crossed [the yard]_{6853-the yard} . But , in [the furnace - house]_{6854-the furnace - house} a deep and lurid red glared over all ; the furnace roared with mighty flame . [The men]_{1152-the men} , like demons , in [their]_{1152-the men} fire - and - soot colouring , stood swart around , awaiting the moment when the tons of solid iron should have melted down into fiery liquid , fit to be poured , with still , heavy sound , into the delicate moulding of fine black sand , prepared to receive it . The heat was intense , and the red glare grew every instant more fierce ; [the policemen]_{6642-the policemen} stood awed with the novel sight . Then , [black figures]_{6857-black figures} , holding strange - shaped bucket shovels , came athwart the deep - red furnace light , and clear and brilliant flowed forth the iron into the appropriate mould . The buzz of voices rose again ; there was time to speak , and gasp , and wipe the brows ; and then , one by one , [the men]_{1152-the men} dispersed to some other branch of [their]_{1152-the men} employment . [No . B. 72]_{6859-no . b. 72} pointed out [Jem]_154-jem as [the man [he]_154-jem had seen]_{6860-the man he had seen} engaged in a scuffle with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , and then [the other two]_{6861-the other two} stepped forward and arrested [him]_154-jem , stating of what [he]_154-jem was accused , and the grounds of the accusation . [He]_154-jem offered no resistance , though [he]_154-jem seemed surprised ; but calling [a fellow - workman]_{6862-a fellow - workman} to [him]_154-jem , [he]_154-jem briefly requested [him]_154-jem to tell [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} [he]_154-jem had got into trouble , and could not return [home]_4755-home at present . [He]_154-jem did not wish [her]_{787-his mother} to hear more at first . So [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's sleep was next interrupted in almost an exactly similar way to the last , like a recurring nightmare . "_[211-missis] [Missis]_211-missis ! missis ! " [some one]_{5544-some one} called out from below . Again it was [a workman]_{6866-a workman} , but this time [a blacker - looking one than before]_{6867-a blacker - looking one than before} . "_[211-missis] What don [ye]_3005-ye want ? " said [she]_{787-his mother} , peevishly . "_[211-missis] Only nothing but-- " stammered [the man]_{708-the man} , [a kind - hearted matter - of - fact person , with no invention , but a great deal of sympathy]_{6869-a kind - hearted matter - of - fact person , with no invention , but a great deal of sympathy} . "_[211-missis] Well ! speak out , ca n't [ye]_3005-ye , and [ha]_3006-ha ' done with it ? " "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem 's in trouble , " said [he]_154-jem , repeating [Jem]_154-jem 's very words , as [he]_154-jem could think of [no others]_{6870-no others} . "_[154-jem] Trouble ! " said [the mother]_{5048-the mother} , in a high - pitched voice of distress . "_[154-jem] Trouble ! God help [me]_0-i , trouble will never end , [I]_0-i think . What d'ye mean by trouble ? Speak out , [man]_5236-man , ca n't [ye]_5236-man ? Is [he]_154-jem ill ? [[My]_0-i boy]_{5142-my boy} ! tell [me]_0-i , is [he]_154-jem ill ? " in a hurried voice of terror . "_[334-na] [Na]_334-na , [na]_3009-na , that 's not it . [He]_154-jem 's well enough . All [he]_154-jem bade [me]_0-i say was , ' Tell [mother]_4845-mother [I]_0-i 'm in trouble , and ca n't come [home]_4755-home to - night . ' " "_[154-jem] Not come [home]_4755-home to - night ! And what am [I]_0-i to do with [Alice]_146-alice ? [I]_0-i ca n't go on , wearing [my]_0-i life out wi ' watching . [He]_154-jem might come and help [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i tell [you]_4845-mother [he]_154-jem ca n't , " said [the man]_{708-the man} . "_[0-i] Ca n't ; and [he]_154-jem is well , [you]_4845-mother say ? Stuff ! It 's just that [he]_154-jem 's getten like [other young men]_{3013-other young men} , and wants to go a - larking . But [I]_0-i 'll give it [him]_154-jem when [he]_154-jem comes back . " [The man]_{708-the man} turned to go ; [he]_{708-the man} durst not trust [himself]_{708-the man} to speak in [Jem]_154-jem 's justification . But [she]_4845-mother would not let [him]_{708-the man} off . [She]_4845-mother stood between [him]_{708-the man} and the door , as [she]_4845-mother said , "_[0-i] [Yo]_0-i shall not go , till [yo've]_0-i told [me]_0-i what [he]_154-jem 's after . [I]_0-i can see plain enough [you]_4845-mother know , and [I]_0-i 'll know too , before [I]_0-i 've done . " "_{[4845-mother]} [You]_4845-mother 'll know soon enough , [missis]_4831-missis ! " "_{[4831-missis]} [I]_0-i 'll know now , [I]_0-i tell [ye]_4845-mother . What 's up that [he]_154-jem ca n't come [home]_4755-home and help [me]_0-i nurse ? [Me]_0-i , as never got a wink o ' sleep last night wi ' watching . " "_[0-i] Well , if [you]_4845-mother will have it out , " said [the poor badgered man]_{6874-the poor badgered man} , "_{[4845-mother]} [the police]_{6234-the police} have got hold on [him]_154-jem . " "_{[6234-the police]} On [[my]_0-i [Jem]_154-jem]_{3017-my jem} ! " said [the enraged mother]_{6875-the enraged mother} . "_{[6234-the police]} [You]_4845-mother 're [a downright liar]_{3018-a downright liar} , and that 's what [you]_4845-mother are . [[My]_0-i [Jem]_154-jem]_{3017-my jem} , as never did harm to [any one in [his]_154-jem life]_{3020-any one in his life} . [You]_4845-mother 're [a liar]_{3021-a liar} , that 's what [you]_4845-mother are . " "_{[4845-mother]} [He]_154-jem 's done harm enough now , " said [the man]_{708-the man} , angry in [his]_{708-the man} turn , "_[154-jem] for there 's good evidence [he]_154-jem murdered young [Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , as was shot last night . " [She]_{6875-the enraged mother} staggered forward to strike [the man]_{708-the man} for telling the terrible truth ; but the weakness of old age , of motherly agony , overcame [her]_{6875-the enraged mother} , and [she]_{6875-the enraged mother} sank down on a chair , and covered [her]_{6875-the enraged mother} face . [He]_{708-the man} could not leave [her]_{6875-the enraged mother} . When next [she]_{6875-the enraged mother} spoke , it was in an imploring , feeble , child - like voice . "_[154-jem] Oh , [master]_4919-master , say [you]_4919-master 're only joking . [I]_0-i ax [your]_4919-master pardon if [I]_0-i have vexed [ye]_4919-master , but please say [you]_4919-master 're only joking . [You]_4919-master do n't know what [Jem]_154-jem is to [me]_0-i . " [She]_{6875-the enraged mother} looked humbly , anxiously up at [him]_4919-master . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i were only joking , [missis]_4831-missis ; but it 's true as [I]_0-i say . [They]_3024-they 've taken [him]_154-jem up on charge o ' murder . It were [his]_154-jem gun as were found near [th ' place]_{3025-th ' place} ; and [one o ' the police]_{3026-one o ' the police} heard [him]_154-jem quarrelling with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} a few days back , about [a girl]_{577-a girl} . " "_{[209-mr. carson]} About [a girl]_{577-a girl} ! " broke in [the mother]_{5048-the mother} , once more indignant , though too feeble to show it as before . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [[My]_0-i [Jem]_154-jem]_{3017-my jem} was as steady as-- " [she]_{5048-the mother} hesitated for a comparison wherewith to finish , and then repeated , "_[154-jem] as steady as [Lucifer]_335-lucifer , and [he]_154-jem were [an angel]_{5560-an angel} , [you]_4831-missis know . [[My]_0-i [Jem]_154-jem]_{3017-my jem} was not one to quarrel about [a girl]_{577-a girl} . " "_[154-jem] Ay , but it was that , though . [They]_3033-they 'd got [her]_{577-a girl} name quite pat . [The man]_{708-the man} had heard all [they]_3033-they said . [Mary Barton]_145-mary was [her]_{577-a girl} name , whoever [she]_{577-a girl} may be . " "_[145-mary] [Mary Barton]_145-mary ! [the dirty hussey]_{3035-the dirty hussey} ! to bring [[my]_0-i [Jem]_154-jem]_{3017-my jem} into trouble of this kind . [I]_0-i 'll give it [her]_{3017-my jem} well when [I]_0-i see [her]_{3017-my jem} : that [I]_0-i will . Oh ! [my]_0-i poor [Jem]_154-jem ! " rocking [herself]_0-i to and fro . "_[154-jem] And what about the gun ? What did [ye]_{708-the man} say about that ? " "_{[708-the man]} [His]_{708-the man} gun were found on th ' spot where the murder were done . " "_{[708-the man]} That 's a lie for one , then . [A man]_{4855-a man} has got the gun now , safe and sound ; [I]_0-i saw it not an hour ago . " [The man]_{708-the man} shook [his]_{708-the man} head . "_{[4855-a man]} Yes , [he]_{4855-a man} has indeed . A friend o ' [Jem]_154-jem 's , as [he]_{4855-a man} 'd lent it to . " "_{[4855-a man]} Did [you]_0-i know [the chap]_{5680-the chap} ? " asked [the man]_{708-the man} , who was really anxious for [Jem]_154-jem 's exculpation , and caught a gleam of hope from [her]_6881-she last speech . "_[0-i] No ! [I]_0-i ca n't say as [I]_0-i did . But [he]_{5680-the chap} were put on as [a workman]_{6866-a workman} . " "_{[6866-a workman]} It 's may be only one of [[them]_3040-them [policemen]_{6228-policemen}]_{3041-them policemen} , disguised . " "_{[6228-policemen]} Nay ; [they]_3040-them 'd never go for to do that , and trick [me]_0-i into telling on [[my]_0-i own son]_{3043-my own son} . It would be like [seething [a kid]_{3045-a kid} in [its]_{3045-a kid} mother]_{3044-seething a kid in its mother} 's milk ; and that th ' Bible forbids . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know , " replied [the man]_{708-the man} . Soon afterwards [he]_{708-the man} went away , feeling unable to comfort , yet distressed at the sight of sorrow ; [she]_6881-she would fain have detained [him]_{708-the man} , but go [he]_{708-the man} would . And [she]_6881-she was alone . [She]_6881-she never for an instant believed [Jem]_154-jem guilty ; [she]_6881-she would have doubted if the sun were fire , first : but sorrow , desolation , and , at times , anger took possession of [her]_6881-she mind . [She]_6881-she told the unconscious [Alice]_146-alice , hoping to rouse [her]_146-alice to sympathy ; and then was disappointed , because , still smiling and calm , [she]_6881-she murmured of [[her]_6881-she mother]_{4774-her mother} , and the happy days of infancy . CHAPTER XX . [MARY]_145-mary 'S DREAM -- AND THE AWAKENING . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i saw where stark and cold [he]_3046-he lay , Beneath the gallows - tree , And [every one]_{669-every one} did point and say , '' Twas there [he]_3046-he died for [thee]_0-i ! ' * * * * * * " Oh ! weeping heart ! Oh , bleeding heart ! What boots [thy]_0-i pity now ? Bid from [his]_3046-he eyes that shade depart , That death - damp from [his]_3046-he brow ! "_{[669-every one]} " THE BIRTLE TRAGEDY . "_{[669-every one]} So there was no more peace in [the house of sickness]_{3048-the house of sickness} , except to [Alice]_146-alice , the dying [Alice]_146-alice . But [Mary]_145-mary knew nothing of the afternoon 's occurrences ; and gladly did [she]_145-mary breathe in the fresh air , as [she]_145-mary left [[Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' house]_{3049-miss simmonds ' house} , to hasten to [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} ' . The very change , from the in - door to the out - door atmosphere , seemed to alter the current of [her]_145-mary thoughts . [She]_145-mary thought less of the dreadful subject which had so haunted [her]_145-mary all day ; [she]_145-mary cared less for the upbraiding speeches of [[her]_145-mary fellow work - women]_{3050-her fellow work - women} ; the old association of comfort and sympathy received from [Alice]_146-alice gave [her]_145-mary the idea that , even now , [her]_145-mary bodily presence would soothe and compose [those who were in trouble]_{3051-those who were in trouble} , changed , unconscious , and absent though [her]_145-mary spirit might be . Then , again , [she]_145-mary reproached [herself]_145-mary a little for the feeling of pleasure [she]_145-mary experienced , in thinking that [he]_3052-he whom [she]_145-mary dreaded could never more beset [her]_145-mary path ; in the security with which [she]_145-mary could pass [each street corner]_{3053-each street corner} -- [each shop]_{3054-each shop} , where [he]_3052-he used to lie in ambush . Oh ! beating heart ! was there no other little thought of joy lurking within , to gladden the very air without ? Was [she]_145-mary not going to meet , to see , to hear [Jem]_154-jem ; and could [they]_3055-they fail at last to understand [each other]_{436-each other} 's loving hearts ! [She]_145-mary softly lifted the latch , with the privilege of friendship . _ [He]_3052-he _ was not [there]_873-there , but [[his]_3052-he mother]_{787-his mother} was standing by the fire , stirring some little mess or other . Never mind ! [he]_3052-he would come soon : and with an unmixed desire to do [her]_145-mary grateful duty to [all belonging to [him]_3052-he]_{3059-all belonging to him} , [she]_145-mary stepped lightly forwards , unheard by [the old lady , who was partly occupied by the simmering , bubbling sound of]_{3060-the old lady , who was partly occupied by the simmering , bubbling sound of} [her]_{3060-the old lady , who was partly occupied by the simmering , bubbling sound of} bit of cookery ; but more with [her]_{3060-the old lady , who was partly occupied by the simmering , bubbling sound of} own sad thoughts , and wailing , half - uttered murmurings . [Mary]_145-mary took off bonnet and shawl with speed , and advancing , made [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} conscious of [her]_145-mary presence , by saying , " Let [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} do that for [you]_145-mary . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'm sure [you]_145-mary mun be tired . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} slowly turned round , and [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} eyes gleamed like those of a pent - up wild beast , as [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} recognised [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} visitor]_{5529-her visitor} . " And is it [thee]_145-mary that dares set foot in [this house]_{6884-this house} , after what has come to pass ? Is it not enough to have robbed [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} of [[my]_{134-mrs. wilson} boy]_{5142-my boy} with [thy]_145-mary arts and [thy]_145-mary profligacy , but [thou]_145-mary must come here to crow over [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} -- [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} -- [[his]_{5142-my boy} mother]_{787-his mother} ? Dost [thou]_145-mary know where [he]_{5142-my boy} is , [thou]_145-mary bad hussy , with [thy]_145-mary great blue eyes and yellow hair , to lead [men]_1197-men on to ruin ? Out upon [thee]_145-mary , with [thy]_145-mary angel 's face , [thou]_145-mary whited sepulchre ! Dost [thou]_145-mary know where [Jem]_154-jem is , all through [thee]_145-mary ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " No ! "_[145-mary] quivered out [poor Mary]_145-mary , scarcely conscious that [she]_145-mary spoke , so daunted , so terrified was [she]_145-mary by [the indignant mother]_{3062-the indignant mother} 's greeting . " [He]_{5142-my boy} 's lying in [th ' New Bailey]_{6888-th ' new bailey} , "_{[5048-the mother]} slowly and distinctly spoke [the mother]_{5048-the mother} , watching the effect of [her]_{5048-the mother} words , as if believing in [their]_3064-their infinite power to pain . " There [he]_{5142-my boy} lies , waiting to take [his]_{5142-my boy} trial for murdering [young Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . "_{[5048-the mother]} There was no answer ; but such a blanched face , such wild , distended eyes , such trembling limbs , instinctively seeking support ! " Did [you]_{5048-the mother} know [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} as now lies dead ? "_{[3065-the merciless woman]} continued [the merciless woman]_{3065-the merciless woman} . " [Folk]_5093-folk say [you]_{5048-the mother} did , and knew [him]_{209-mr. carson} but too well . And that for the sake of such as [you]_{5048-the mother} , [[my]_{3065-the merciless woman} precious child]_{6890-my precious child} shot [yon]_{5048-the mother} chap . But [he]_{209-mr. carson} did not . [I]_{3065-the merciless woman} know [he]_{209-mr. carson} did not . [They]_6891-they may hang [him]_{209-mr. carson} , but [[his]_{209-mr. carson} mother]_{787-his mother} will speak to [his]_{209-mr. carson} innocence with [her]_{787-his mother} last dying breath . "_{[3065-the merciless woman]} [She]_{3065-the merciless woman} stopped more from exhaustion than want of words . [Mary]_145-mary spoke , but in so changed and choked a voice that [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} almost started . It seemed as if [some third person]_{5493-some third person} must be in [the room]_{616-the room} , the voice was so hoarse and strange . " Please , say it again . [I]_{5493-some third person} do n't quite understand [you]_{5048-the mother} . What has [Jem]_154-jem done ? Please to tell [me]_{5493-some third person} . "_{[5493-some third person]} " [I]_{5048-the mother} never said [he]_{209-mr. carson} had done it . [I]_{5048-the mother} said , and [I]_{5048-the mother} 'll swear that [he]_{209-mr. carson} never did do it . [I]_{5048-the mother} do n't care who heard ['em]_154-jem quarrel , or if it is [his]_{209-mr. carson} gun as were found near the body . It 's not [my]_{5048-the mother} own [Jem]_154-jem as would go for to kill [any man]_{1062-any man} , choose how [a girl]_{577-a girl} had jilted [him]_{209-mr. carson} . [My]_{5048-the mother} own good [Jem]_154-jem , as was a blessing sent upon [the house where [he]_{209-mr. carson} was born]_{6895-the house where he was born} . "_{[5048-the mother]} Tears came into [the mother]_{5048-the mother} 's burning eyes as [her]_{5048-the mother} heart recurred to the days when [she]_{5048-the mother} had rocked the cradle of [her]_{5048-the mother} " first - born ; "_{[5048-the mother]} and then , rapidly passing over events , till the full consciousness of [his]_3070-him present situation came upon [her]_{5048-the mother} , and perhaps annoyed at having shown any softness of character in the presence of [the Dalilah who had lured [him]_3070-him to [his]_3070-him danger]_{3071-the dalilah who had lured him to his danger} , [she]_{5048-the mother} spoke again , and in a sharper tone . " [I]_{5048-the mother} told [him]_3070-him , and told [him]_3070-him to leave off thinking on [thee]_3070-him ; but [he]_3070-him would n't be led by [me]_{5048-the mother} . [Thee]_3070-him ! wench ! [thou]_3070-him were not good enough to wipe the dust off [his]_3070-him feet . A vile , flirting quean as [thou]_3070-him art . It 's well [[thy]_3070-him mother]_{6896-thy mother} does not know ( poor body ) what a good - for - nothing [thou]_3070-him art . "_{[5048-the mother]} " [Mother]_161-mother ! oh [mother]_4845-mother ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , as if appealing to the merciful dead . " But [I]_145-mary was not good enough for [him]_3070-him ! [I]_145-mary know [I]_145-mary was not , "_[145-mary] added [she]_145-mary , in a voice of touching humility . For through [her]_145-mary heart went tolling the ominous , prophetic words [he]_3072-me had used when [he]_3072-me had last spoken to [her--]_145-mary " [Mary]_145-mary ! [you]_145-mary 'll may be hear of [me]_3072-me as [a drunkard]_{5207-a drunkard} , and may be as [a thief]_{5833-a thief} , and may be as [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} . Remember ! when all are speaking ill of [me]_3072-me , [yo]_145-mary will have no right to blame [me]_3072-me , for it 's [your]_145-mary cruelty that will have made [me]_3072-me what [I]_3072-me feel [I]_3072-me shall become . "_[3072-me] And [she]_145-mary did not blame [him]_3072-me , though [she]_145-mary doubted not [his]_3072-me guilt ; [she]_145-mary felt how madly [she]_145-mary might act if once jealous of [him]_3072-me , and how much cause had [she]_145-mary not given [him]_3072-me for jealousy , miserable guilty wretch that [she]_145-mary was ! Speak on , desolate mother ! Abuse [her]_145-mary as [you]_3073-you will . [Her]_145-mary broken spirit feels to have merited all . But [her]_145-mary last humble , self - abased words had touched [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's heart , sore as it was ; and [she]_145-mary looked at [the snow - pale girl with those piteous eyes]_{3074-the snow - pale girl with those piteous eyes} , so hopeless of comfort , and [she]_145-mary relented in spite of [herself]_145-mary . " [Thou]_6901-thy seest what comes of light conduct , [Mary]_145-mary ! It 's [thy]_6901-thy doing that suspicion has lighted on [him]_3072-me , who is as innocent as [the babe unborn]_{6902-the babe unborn} . [Thou'lt]_6901-thy have much to answer for if [he]_3072-me 's hung . [Thou'lt]_6901-thy have [my]_145-mary death too at [thy]_6901-thy door ! "_[145-mary] Harsh as these words seem , [she]_145-mary spoke them in a milder tone of voice than [she]_145-mary had yet used . But the idea of [Jem]_154-jem on the gallows , [Jem]_154-jem dead , took possession of [Mary]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary covered [her]_145-mary eyes with [her]_145-mary wan hands , as if indeed to shut out the fearful sight . [She]_145-mary murmured some words , which , though spoken low , as if choked up from the depths of agony , [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} caught . " [My]_145-mary heart is breaking , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , feebly . " [My]_145-mary heart is breaking . "_[145-mary] " Nonsense ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " Do n't talk in that silly way . [My]_{134-mrs. wilson} heart has a better right to break than [yours]_{130-jane wilson} , and yet [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} hold up , [you]_{130-jane wilson} see . But , oh dear ! oh dear ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} with a sudden revulsion of feeling , as the reality of the danger in which [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} son]_{2056-her son} was placed pressed upon [her]_145-mary . " What am [I]_145-mary saying ? How could [I]_145-mary hold up if [thou]_6903-thou wert gone , [Jem]_154-jem ? Though [I]_145-mary 'm as sure as [I]_145-mary stand here of [thy]_6903-thou innocence , if [they]_6904-they hang [thee]_154-jem , [[my]_145-mary lad]_{1544-my lad} , [I]_145-mary will lie down and die ! "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary sobbed aloud with bitter consciousness of the fearful chance awaiting [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} child]_{1391-her child} . [She]_145-mary cried more passionately still . [Mary]_145-mary roused [herself]_145-mary up . " Oh , let [me]_145-mary stay with [you]_{134-mrs. wilson} , at any rate , till [we]_6906-we know the end . [Dearest Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , may n't [I]_145-mary stay ? "_[145-mary] The more obstinately and upbraidingly [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} refused , the more [Mary]_145-mary pleaded , with ever the same soft , entreating cry , " Let [me]_145-mary stay with [you]_{134-mrs. wilson} . "_[145-mary] [Her]_145-mary stunned soul seemed to bound its wishes , for the hour at least , to remaining with [one who loved and sorrowed for the same human being]_{3077-one who loved and sorrowed for the same human being} that [she]_145-mary did . But no . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was inflexible . " [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 've may be been a bit hard on [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'll own that . But [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can not abide [you]_145-mary yet with [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can not but remember it 's [your]_145-mary giddiness as has wrought this woe . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'll stay wi ' [Alice]_146-alice , and perhaps [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} may come help a bit . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} can not put up with [you]_145-mary about [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} . Good - night . To - morrow [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} may look on [you]_145-mary different , may be . Good - night . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} And [Mary]_145-mary turned out of [the house]_{803-the house} , which had been _ [[his]_3079-his _ home]_{3080-his _ home} , where _ [he]_3079-his _ was loved , and mourned for , into [the busy , desolate , crowded street]_{3081-the busy , desolate , crowded street} , where [they]_3082-they were crying halfpenny broadsides , giving an account of the bloody murder , [the coroner]_{2953-the coroner} 's inquest , and a raw - head - and - bloody - bones picture of [the suspected murderer]_{3084-the suspected murderer} , [James Wilson]_154-jem . But [Mary]_145-mary heard not , [she]_145-mary heeded not . [She]_145-mary staggered on like one in a dream . With hung head and tottering steps , [she]_145-mary instinctively chose the shortest cut to [that home]_{3085-that home} , which was to [her]_145-mary , in [her]_145-mary present state of mind , only the hiding place of four walls , where [she]_145-mary might vent [her]_145-mary agony , unseen and unnoticed by [the keen , unkind world without]_{3086-the keen , unkind world without} , but where no welcome , no love , no sympathising tears awaited [her]_145-mary . As [she]_145-mary neared [that home]_{3085-that home} , within two minutes ' walk of [it]_{3085-that home} , [her]_145-mary impetuous course was arrested by a light touch on [her]_145-mary arm , and turning hastily , [she]_145-mary saw [a little Italian boy]_{3088-a little italian boy} with [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} humble show - box,--a white mouse , or some such thing . The setting sun cast its red glow on [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} face , otherwise the olive complexion would have been very pale ; and the glittering tear - drops hung on the long curled eye - lashes . With [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} soft voice and pleading looks , [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} uttered , in [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} pretty broken English , the words " Hungry ! so hungry . "_{[3088-a little italian boy]} And , as if to aid by gesture the effect of the solitary word , [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} pointed to [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} mouth , with its white quivering lips . [Mary]_145-mary answered [him]_{3088-a little italian boy} impatiently , " Oh , [lad]_1512-lad , hunger is nothing -- nothing ! "_[145-mary] And [she]_145-mary rapidly passed on . But [her]_145-mary heart upbraided [her]_145-mary the next minute with [her]_145-mary unrelenting speech , and [she]_145-mary hastily entered [her]_145-mary door and seized the scanty remnant of food which the cupboard contained , and retraced [her]_145-mary steps to the place where [the little hopeless stranger]_{3089-the little hopeless stranger} had sunk down by [[his]_{3088-a little italian boy} mute companion]_{3090-his mute companion} in loneliness and starvation , and was raining down tears as [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} spoke in some foreign tongue , with low cries for the far distant " Mamma mia ! "_{[3088-a little italian boy]} With the elasticity of heart belonging to childhood [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} sprang up as [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} saw the food [the girl]_{4779-the girl} brought ; [she]_{4779-the girl} whose face , lovely in its woe , had tempted [him]_{3088-a little italian boy} first to address [her]_{4779-the girl} ; and , with the graceful courtesy of [[his]_{3088-a little italian boy} country]_{3092-his country} , [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} looked up and smiled while [he]_{3088-a little italian boy} kissed [her]_{4779-the girl} hand , and then poured forth [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} thanks , and shared [her]_{4779-the girl} bounty with [[his]_{3088-a little italian boy} little pet companion]_{3093-his little pet companion} . [She]_145-mary stood an instant , diverted from the thought of [her]_145-mary own grief by the sight of [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} infantine gladness ; and then bending down and kissing [his]_{3088-a little italian boy} smooth forehead , [she]_145-mary left [him]_{3088-a little italian boy} , and sought to be alone with [her]_145-mary agony once more . [She]_145-mary re - entered [the house]_{803-the house} , locked the door , and tore off [her]_145-mary bonnet , as if greedy of every moment which took [her]_145-mary from the full indulgence of painful , despairing thought . Then [she]_145-mary threw [herself]_145-mary on the ground , yes , on the hard flags [she]_145-mary threw [her]_145-mary soft limbs down ; and the comb fell out of [her]_145-mary hair , and those bright tresses swept the dusty floor , while [she]_145-mary pillowed and hid [her]_145-mary face on [her]_145-mary arms , and burst forth into hard , suffocating sobs . Oh , earth ! [thou]_3095-thou didst seem but a dreary dwelling - place for [[thy]_3095-thou poor child]_{3096-thy poor child} that night . None to comfort , none to pity ! And self - reproach gnawing at [her]_145-mary heart . Oh , why did [she]_145-mary ever listen to [the tempter]_{6028-the tempter} ? Why did [she]_145-mary ever give ear to [her]_145-mary own suggestions , and cravings after wealth and grandeur ? Why had [she]_145-mary thought it a fine thing to have [a rich lover]_{3098-a rich lover} ? [She]_145-mary -- [she]_145-mary had deserved it all ; but [he]_{3098-a rich lover} was [the victim,--he]_{3099-the victim,--he} , [the beloved]_{3100-the beloved} . [She]_145-mary could not conjecture , [she]_145-mary could not even pause to think who had revealed , or how [he]_{3098-a rich lover} had discovered [her]_145-mary acquaintance with [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . It was but too clear , some way or another , [he]_{3098-a rich lover} had learnt all ; and what would [he]_{3098-a rich lover} think of [her]_145-mary ? No hope of [his]_{3098-a rich lover} love,--oh , that [she]_145-mary would give up , and be content ; it was [his]_{3098-a rich lover} life , [his]_{3098-a rich lover} precious life , that was threatened . Then [she]_145-mary tried to recall the particulars , which , when [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} had given [them]_3101-them , had fallen but upon a deafened ear,--something about a gun , a quarrel , which [she]_145-mary could not remember clearly . Oh , how terrible to think of [his]_{3098-a rich lover} crime , [his]_{3098-a rich lover} blood - guiltiness ; [he]_{3098-a rich lover} who had hitherto been so good , so noble , and now [an assassin]_{3102-an assassin} ! And then [she]_145-mary shrank from [him]_{3098-a rich lover} in thought ; and then , with bitter remorse , clung more closely to [his]_{3098-a rich lover} image with passionate self - upbraiding . Was it not [she]_145-mary who had led [him]_{3098-a rich lover} to [the pit into which [he]_{3098-a rich lover} had fallen]_{3103-the pit into which he had fallen} ? Was [she]_145-mary to blame [him]_{3098-a rich lover} ? [She]_145-mary to judge [him]_{3098-a rich lover} ? Who could tell how maddened [he]_{3098-a rich lover} might have been by jealousy ; how one moment 's uncontrollable passion might have led [him]_{3098-a rich lover} to become [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} ? And [she]_145-mary had blamed [him]_{3098-a rich lover} in [her]_145-mary heart after [his]_{3098-a rich lover} last deprecating , imploring , prophetic speech ! Then [she]_145-mary burst out crying afresh ; and when weary of crying , fell to thinking again . The gallows ! The gallows ! Black it stood against the burning light which dazzled [her]_145-mary shut eyes , press on them as [she]_145-mary would . Oh ! [she]_145-mary was going mad ; and for awhile [she]_145-mary lay outwardly still , but with the pulses careering through [her]_145-mary head with wild vehemence . And then came a strange forgetfulness of the present , in thought of the long - past times;--of those days when [she]_145-mary hid [her]_145-mary face on [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's pitying , loving bosom , and heard tender words of comfort , be [her]_145-mary grief or [her]_145-mary error what it might;--of those days when [she]_145-mary had felt as if [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's love was too mighty not to last for ever;--of those days when hunger had been to [her]_145-mary ( as to the little stranger [she]_145-mary had that evening relieved ) something to be thought about , and mourned over;--when [Jem]_154-jem and [she]_145-mary had played together ; [he]_154-jem , with the condescension of [an older child]_{3107-an older child} , and [she]_145-mary , with unconscious earnestness , believing that [he]_154-jem was as much gratified with important trifles as [she]_145-mary was;--when [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was [a cheery - hearted man]_{3109-a cheery - hearted man} , rich in the love of [[his]_{564-her father} wife]_{525-his wife} , and the companionship of [[his]_{564-her father} friend;--when]_{3111-his friend;--when} ( for it still worked round to that ) , when [mother]_4845-mother was alive , and _ [he]_154-jem _ was not [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} . And then [Heaven]_278-heaven blessed [her]_145-mary unaware , and [she]_145-mary sank from remembering , to wandering , unconnected thought , and thence to sleep . Yes ! it was sleep , though in that strange posture , on that hard cold bed ; and [she]_145-mary dreamt of the happy times of long ago , and [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} came to [her]_145-mary , and kissed [her]_145-mary as [she]_145-mary lay , and once more [the dead]_{717-the dead} were alive again in that happy world of dreams . All was restored to the gladness of childhood , even to [the little kitten which had been [[her]_145-mary playmate and bosom friend]_{3117-her playmate and bosom friend} then , and which had been long forgotten in [her]_145-mary waking hours]_{3116-the little kitten which had been her playmate and bosom friend then , and which had been long forgotten in her waking hours} . [All the loved ones]_{3118-all the loved ones} were there ! [She]_145-mary suddenly wakened ! Clear and wide awake ! Some noise had startled [her]_145-mary from sleep . [She]_145-mary sat up , and put [her]_145-mary hair ( still wet with tears ) back from [her]_145-mary flushed cheeks , and listened . At first [she]_145-mary could only hear [her]_145-mary beating heart . All was still without , for it was after midnight , such hours of agony had passed away ; but the moon shone clearly in at the unshuttered window , making [the room]_{616-the room} almost as light as day , in its cold ghastly radiance . There was a low knock at the door ! A strange feeling crept over [Mary]_145-mary 's heart , as if something spiritual were near ; as if the dead , so lately present in [her]_145-mary dreams , were yet gliding and hovering round [her]_145-mary , with their dim , dread forms . And yet , why dread ? Had [they]_3120-they not loved [her?--and]_{3121-her?--and} who loved [her]_145-mary now ? Was [she]_145-mary not lonely enough to welcome the spirits of the dead , who had loved [her]_145-mary while [here]_5235-here ? If [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} had conscious being , [her]_{4774-her mother} love for [[her]_{4774-her mother} child]_{1391-her child} endured . So [she]_145-mary quieted [her]_145-mary fears , and listened -- listened still . " [Mary]_145-mary ! [Mary]_145-mary ! open the door ! "_[145-mary] as a little movement on [her]_145-mary part seemed to tell the being outside of [her]_145-mary wakeful , watchful state . [They]_3125-they were the accents of [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} 's voice ; the very south - country pronunciation , that [Mary]_145-mary so well remembered ; and which [she]_145-mary had sometimes tried to imitate when alone , with the fond mimicry of affection . So , without fear , without hesitation , [she]_145-mary rose and unbarred the door . There , against the moonlight , stood a form , so closely resembling [[her]_145-mary dead mother]_{3127-her dead mother} , that [Mary]_145-mary never doubted the identity , but exclaiming ( as if [she]_145-mary were [a terrified child]_{3128-a terrified child} , secure of safety when near the protecting care of its parent)-- " Oh ! [mother]_4845-mother ! [mother]_4845-mother ! [You]_4845-mother are come at last ! "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary threw [herself]_145-mary , or rather fell , into the trembling arms of [[her]_145-mary long - lost , unrecognised aunt]_{3129-her long - lost , unrecognised aunt} [Esther]_132-esther . CHAPTER XXI . [ESTHER]_132-esther 'S MOTIVE IN SEEKING [MARY]_145-mary . " [My]_157-margaret rest is gone , [My]_157-margaret heart is sore , [Peace]_336-peace find [I]_157-margaret never , And never more . "_{[157-margaret]} [MARGARET]_157-margaret 'S SONG IN " FAUST . "_{[157-margaret]} [I]_0-i must go back a little to explain the motives which caused [Esther]_132-esther to seek an interview with [[her]_132-esther niece]_{3130-her niece} . The murder had been committed early on Thursday night , and between then and the dawn of the following day there was ample time for the news to spread far and wide among [all those whose duty , or whose want , or whose errors]_{3131-all those whose duty , or whose want , or whose errors} , caused [them]_{3131-all those whose duty , or whose want , or whose errors} to be abroad in [the streets of [Manchester]_1-manchester]_{6280-the streets of manchester} . Among [those who listened to the tale of violence]_{3133-those who listened to the tale of violence} was [Esther]_132-esther . A craving desire to know more took possession of [her]_132-esther mind . Far away as [she]_132-esther was from [Turner Street]_{90-turner street} , [she]_132-esther immediately set off to the scene of the murder , which was faintly lighted by the gray dawn as [she]_132-esther reached [the spot]_{3134-the spot} . It was so quiet and still that [she]_132-esther could hardly believe [it]_3135-it to be [the place]_{623-the place} . The only vestige of any scuffle or violence was a trail on the dust , as if [somebody]_{4737-somebody} had been lying there , and then been raised by extraneous force . The little birds were beginning to hop and twitter in the leafless hedge , making the only sound that was near and distinct . [She]_132-esther crossed into the field where [she]_132-esther guessed [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} to have stood ; it was easy of access , for the worn , stunted hawthorn - hedge had many gaps in [it]_3139-it . The night - smell of bruised grass came up from under [her]_132-esther feet , as [she]_132-esther went towards [the saw - pit]_{3140-the saw - pit} and [[carpenter]_{3141-carpenter} 's shed]_{3142-carpenter 's shed} , which , as [I]_0-i have said before , were in a corner of [the field]_{3143-the field} near [the road]_{2800-the road} , and where [one of [[her]_132-esther informants]_{3146-her informants} had told [her]_132-esther it was supposed by [the police]_{6234-the police} that [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} had lurked while waiting for [[his]_{6654-the murderer} victim]_{6730-his victim}]_{3145-one of her informants had told her it was supposed by the police that the murderer had lurked while waiting for his victim} . There was no sign , however , that [any one]_{504-any one} had been about [the place]_{623-the place} . If the grass had been bruised or bent where [he]_{6654-the murderer} had trod , it had had enough of the elasticity of life to raise itself under the dewy influences of night . [She]_132-esther hushed [her]_132-esther breath with involuntary awe , but nothing else told of the violent deed by which [a fellow - creature]_{3152-a fellow - creature} had passed away . [She]_132-esther stood still for a minute , imagining to [herself]_132-esther the position of [the parties]_{2132-the parties} , guided by the only circumstance which afforded any evidence , the trailing mark on the dust in [the road]_{2800-the road} . Suddenly ( it was before the sun had risen above the horizon ) [she]_132-esther became aware of something white in the hedge . All other colours wore the same murky hue , though the forms of objects were perfectly distinct . What was it ? It could not be a flower;--that , the time of year made clear . A frozen lump of snow , lingering late in one of the gnarled tufts of the hedge ? [She]_132-esther stepped forward to examine . It proved to be a little piece of stiff writing - paper compressed into a round shape . [She]_132-esther understood it instantly ; it was the paper that had served as wadding for [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} 's gun . Then [she]_132-esther had been standing just where [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} must have been but a few hours before ; probably ( as the rumour had spread through [the town]_{1111-the town} , reaching [her]_132-esther ears ) one of [the poor maddened turn - outs , who hung about everywhere , with black , fierce looks , as if contemplating some deed of violence]_{3158-the poor maddened turn - outs , who hung about everywhere , with black , fierce looks , as if contemplating some deed of violence} . [Her]_132-esther sympathy was all with [them]_{3158-the poor maddened turn - outs , who hung about everywhere , with black , fierce looks , as if contemplating some deed of violence} , for [she]_132-esther had known what [they]_{3158-the poor maddened turn - outs , who hung about everywhere , with black , fierce looks , as if contemplating some deed of violence} suffered ; and besides this there was [her]_132-esther own individual dislike of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , and dread of [him]_{209-mr. carson} for [Mary]_145-mary 's sake . Yet , poor [Mary]_145-mary ! Death was a terrible , though sure , remedy for the evil [Esther]_132-esther had dreaded for [her]_145-mary ; and how would [she]_145-mary stand the shock , loving as [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} believed [her]_145-mary to do ? [Poor Mary]_145-mary ! who would comfort [her]_145-mary ? [Esther]_132-esther 's thoughts began to picture [her]_132-esther sorrow , [her]_132-esther despair , when the news of [[her]_132-esther lover]_{2048-her lover} 's death should reach [her]_132-esther ; and [she]_132-esther longed to tell [her]_132-esther there might have been a keener grief yet had [he]_{2048-her lover} lived . Bright , beautiful came the slanting rays of the morning sun . It was time for such as [she]_132-esther to hide [themselves]_{3161-themselves} , with the other obscene things of night , from the glorious light of day , which was only for the happy . So [she]_132-esther turned [her]_132-esther steps towards [town]_5223-town , still holding the paper . But in getting over the hedge it encumbered [her]_132-esther to hold it in [her]_132-esther clasped hand , and [she]_132-esther threw it down . [She]_132-esther passed on a few steps , [her]_132-esther thoughts still of [Mary]_145-mary , till the idea crossed [her]_132-esther mind , could it ( blank as it appeared to be ) give any clue to [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} ? As [I]_0-i said before , [her]_132-esther sympathies were all on that side , so [she]_132-esther turned back and picked it up ; and then feeling as if in some measure an accessory , [she]_132-esther hid it unexamined in [her]_132-esther hand , and hastily passed out of [the street]_{4821-the street} at the opposite end to that by which [she]_132-esther had entered [it]_3165-it . And what do [you]_3166-you think [she]_132-esther felt , when , having walked some distance from the spot , [she]_132-esther dared to open the crushed paper , and saw written on it [Mary Barton]_145-mary 's name , and not only that , but [the street in which [she]_145-mary lived]_{3167-the street in which she lived} ! True , a letter or two was torn off , but , nevertheless , there was the name clear to be recognised . And oh ! what terrible thought flashed into [her]_132-esther mind ; or was it only fancy ? But it looked very like the writing which [she]_132-esther had once known well -- the writing of [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , who , when [she]_132-esther lived at [[her]_132-esther brother - in - law]_{3168-her brother - in - law} 's , and [he]_154-jem was [a near neighbour]_{3169-a near neighbour} , had often been employed by [her]_132-esther to write [her]_132-esther letters to [people]_4744-people , to whom [she]_132-esther was ashamed of sending [her]_132-esther own misspelt scrawl . [She]_132-esther remembered the wonderful flourishes [she]_132-esther had so much admired in those days , while [she]_132-esther sat by dictating , and [Jem]_154-jem , in all the pride of newly - acquired penmanship , used to dazzle [her]_132-esther eyes by extraordinary graces and twirls . If it were [his]_154-jem ! Oh ! perhaps it was merely that [her]_145-mary head was running so on [Mary]_145-mary , that [she]_145-mary was associating every trifle with [her]_145-mary . As if [only one person]_{3171-only one person} wrote in that flourishing , meandering style ! It was enough to fill [her]_132-esther mind to think from what [she]_132-esther might have saved [Mary]_145-mary by securing the paper . [She]_132-esther would look at it just once more , and see if [some very dense and stupid policeman]_{3172-some very dense and stupid policeman} could have mistaken the name , or if [Mary]_145-mary would certainly have been dragged into notice in the affair . No ! [no one]_{1202-no one} could have mistaken [the " ry Barton]_145-mary , "_[145-mary] and it _ was _ [Jem]_154-jem 's handwriting ! Oh ! if it was so , [she]_132-esther understood it all , and [she]_132-esther had been the cause ! With [her]_132-esther violent and unregulated nature , rendered morbid by the course of life [she]_132-esther led , and [her]_132-esther consciousness of [her]_132-esther degradation , [she]_132-esther cursed [herself]_132-esther for the interference which [she]_132-esther believed had led to this ; for the information and the warning [she]_132-esther had given to [Jem]_154-jem , which had roused [him]_154-jem to this murderous action . How could [she]_132-esther , [the abandoned and polluted outcast]_{3174-the abandoned and polluted outcast} , ever have dared to hope for a blessing , even on [her]_132-esther efforts to do good ? The black curse of Heaven rested on all [her]_132-esther doings , were they for good or for evil . Poor , diseased mind ! and there were none to minister to [thee]_3175-thee ! So [she]_132-esther wandered about , too restless to take [her]_132-esther usual heavy morning 's sleep , up and down [the streets]_{772-the streets} , greedily listening to every word of [the passers by]_{3177-the passers by} , and loitering near [each group of talkers]_{3178-each group of talkers} , anxious to scrape together every morsel of information , or conjecture , or suspicion , though without possessing any definite purpose in all this . And ever and always [she]_132-esther clenched the scrap of paper which might betray so much , until [her]_132-esther nails had deeply indented the palm of [her]_132-esther hand ; so fearful was [she]_132-esther in [her]_132-esther nervous dread , lest unawares [she]_132-esther should let it drop . Towards the middle of the day [she]_132-esther could no longer evade [the body]_{3179-the body} 's craving want of rest and refreshment ; but the rest was taken in a spirit vault , and the refreshment was a glass of gin . Then [she]_132-esther started up from the stupor [she]_132-esther had taken for repose ; and suddenly driven before the gusty impulses of [her]_132-esther mind , [she]_132-esther pushed [her]_132-esther way to the place where at that very time [the police]_{6234-the police} were bringing the information [they]_{6234-the police} had gathered with regard to the all - engrossing murder . [She]_132-esther listened with painful acuteness of comprehension to dropped words and unconnected sentences , the meaning of which became clearer , and yet more clear to [her]_132-esther . [Jem]_154-jem was suspected . [Jem]_154-jem was ascertained to be [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . [She]_132-esther saw [him]_154-jem ( although [he]_154-jem , absorbed in deep sad thought , saw [her]_132-esther not ) , [she]_132-esther saw [him]_154-jem brought hand - cuffed and guarded out of [the coach]_{5667-the coach} . [She]_132-esther saw [him]_154-jem enter [the station,--she]_{3183-the station,--she} gasped for breath till [he]_154-jem came out , still hand - cuffed , and still guarded , to be conveyed to [the New Bailey]_{3184-the new bailey} . [He]_154-jem was [the only one who had spoken to [her]_132-esther with hope , that [she]_132-esther might yet win [her]_132-esther way back to virtue]_{3185-the only one who had spoken to her with hope , that she might yet win her way back to virtue} . [His]_154-jem words had lingered in [her]_132-esther heart with a sort of call to Heaven , like distant Sabbath bells , although in [her]_132-esther despair [she]_132-esther had turned away from [his]_154-jem voice . [He]_154-jem was the only one who had spoken to [her]_132-esther kindly . The murder , shocking though it was , was an absent , abstract thing , on which [her]_132-esther thoughts could not , and would not dwell ; all that was present in [her]_132-esther mind was [Jem]_154-jem 's danger , and [his]_154-jem kindness . Then [Mary]_145-mary came to remembrance . [Esther]_132-esther wondered till [she]_132-esther was sick of wondering , in what way [she]_132-esther was taking the affair . In some manner it would be a terrible blow for [the poor , motherless girl]_{3186-the poor , motherless girl} ; with [[her]_{3186-the poor , motherless girl} dreadful father]_{3187-her dreadful father} , too , who was to [Esther]_132-esther [a sort of accusing angel]_{3188-a sort of accusing angel} . [She]_132-esther set off towards [the court where [Mary]_145-mary lived]_{3189-the court where mary lived} , to pick up what [she]_132-esther could there of information . But [she]_132-esther was ashamed to enter in where once [she]_132-esther had been innocent , and hung about [the neighbouring streets]_{3190-the neighbouring streets} , not daring to question , so [she]_132-esther learnt but little ; nothing in fact but the knowledge of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's absence from [home]_4755-home . [She]_132-esther went up [a dark entry]_{3192-a dark entry} to rest [her]_132-esther weary limbs on a door - step and think . [Her]_132-esther elbows on [her]_132-esther knees , [her]_132-esther face hidden in [her]_132-esther hands , [she]_132-esther tried to gather together and arrange [her]_132-esther thoughts . But still every now and then [she]_132-esther opened [her]_132-esther hand to see if the paper were yet there . [She]_132-esther got up at last . [She]_132-esther had formed a plan , and had a course of action to look forward to that would satisfy one craving desire at least . The time was long gone by when there was much wisdom or consistency in [her]_132-esther projects . It was getting late , and that was so much the better . [She]_132-esther went to [a pawn - shop]_{3193-a pawn - shop} , and took off [her]_132-esther finery in [a back room]_{3194-a back room} . [She]_132-esther was known by [the people]_{1184-the people} , and had a character for honesty , so [she]_132-esther had no very great difficulty in inducing [them]_{1184-the people} to let [her]_132-esther have a suit of outer clothes , befitting [the wife of [a working - man]_{1331-a working - man}]_{3196-the wife of a working - man} , a black silk bonnet , a printed gown , a plaid shawl , dirty and rather worn to be sure , but which had a sort of sanctity to the eyes of [the street - walker]_{3198-the street - walker} as being the appropriate garb of that happy class to which [she]_132-esther could never , never more belong . [She]_132-esther looked at [herself]_132-esther in the little glass which hung against the wall , and sadly shaking [her]_132-esther head , thought how easy were the duties of that Eden of innocence from which [she]_132-esther was shut out ; how [she]_132-esther would work , and toil , and starve , and die , if necessary , for [a husband]_{5751-a husband} , a home,--for children,--but that thought [she]_132-esther could not bear ; a little form rose up , stern in its innocence , from the witches ' cauldron of [her]_132-esther imagination , and [she]_132-esther rushed into action again . [You]_3200-you know now how [she]_132-esther came to stand by the threshold of [Mary]_145-mary 's door , waiting , trembling , until the latch was lifted , and [[her]_132-esther niece]_{3130-her niece} , with words that spoke of such desolation among [the living]_{3202-the living} , fell into [her]_132-esther arms . [She]_132-esther had felt as if some holy spell would prevent [her]_132-esther ( even as the unholy [Lady Geraldine]_{337-lady geraldine} was prevented , in [the abode of [Christabel]_{338-christabel}]_{3203-the abode of christabel} ) from crossing the threshold of [that home of [her]_132-esther early innocence]_{3204-that home of her early innocence} ; and [she]_132-esther had meant to wait for an invitation . But [Mary]_145-mary 's helpless action did away with all reluctant feeling , and [she]_145-mary bore or dragged [her]_132-esther to a seat , and looked on [her]_132-esther bewildered eyes , as , puzzled with the likeness , which was not identity , [she]_145-mary gazed on [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} 's features . In pursuance of [her]_132-esther plan , [Esther]_132-esther meant to assume the manners and character , as [she]_132-esther had done the dress , of [[a mechanic]_{3206-a mechanic} 's wife]_{3207-a mechanic 's wife} ; but then , to account for [her]_132-esther long absence , and [her]_132-esther long silence towards all that ought to have been dear to [her]_132-esther , it was necessary that [she]_132-esther should put on an indifference far distant from [her]_132-esther heart , which was loving and yearning , in spite of all its faults . And , perhaps , [she]_132-esther overacted [her]_132-esther part , for certainly [Mary]_145-mary felt a kind of repugnance to [the changed and altered aunt]_{3208-the changed and altered aunt} , who so suddenly re - appeared on the scene ; and it would have cut [Esther]_132-esther to the very core , could [she]_132-esther have known how [[her]_132-esther little darling]_{3209-her little darling} of former days was feeling towards [her]_145-mary . " [You]_145-mary do n't remember [me]_132-esther [I]_132-esther see , [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[132-esther] [she]_132-esther began . " It 's a long while since [I]_132-esther left [you]_145-mary all , to be sure ; and [I]_132-esther , many a time , thought of coming to see [you]_145-mary , and -- and [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} . But [I]_132-esther live so far off , and am always so busy , [I]_132-esther can not do just what [I]_132-esther wish . [You]_145-mary recollect [aunt Esther]_132-esther , do n't [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[132-esther] " Are [you]_132-esther [aunt Hetty]_{339-aunt hetty} ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , faintly , still looking at the face which was so different from the old recollections of [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} 's fresh dazzling beauty . " Yes ! [I]_145-mary am [aunt Hetty]_{339-aunt hetty} . Oh ! it 's so long since [I]_145-mary heard that name , "_[145-mary] sighing forth the thoughts it suggested ; then recovering [herself]_145-mary , and striving after the hard character [she]_145-mary wished to assume , [she]_145-mary continued : " And to - day [I]_145-mary heard [a friend of yours]_{6911-a friend of yours} , and of [mine]_145-mary too , long ago , was in trouble , and [I]_145-mary guessed [you]_145-mary would be in sorrow , so [I]_145-mary thought [I]_145-mary would just step this far and see [you]_145-mary . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary 's tears flowed afresh , but [she]_145-mary had no desire to open [her]_145-mary heart to [[her]_145-mary strangely - found aunt , who had , by [her]_{3211-her strangely - found aunt , who had , by her own confession , kept aloof from and neglected them for so many years} own confession , kept aloof from and neglected [them]_3212-them for so many years]_{3211-her strangely - found aunt , who had , by her own confession , kept aloof from and neglected them for so many years} . Yet [she]_145-mary tried to feel grateful for kindness ( however late ) from [any one]_{504-any one} , and wished to be civil . Moreover , [she]_145-mary had a strong disinclination to speak on the terrible subject uppermost in [her]_145-mary mind . So , after a pause [she]_145-mary said , " Thank [you]_145-mary . [I]_145-mary dare say [you]_145-mary mean very kind . Have [you]_145-mary had a long walk ? [I]_145-mary 'm so sorry , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , rising , with a sudden thought , which was as suddenly checked by recollection , " but [I]_145-mary 've nothing to eat in [the house]_{803-the house} , and [I]_145-mary 'm sure [you]_145-mary must be hungry , after [your]_145-mary walk . "_[145-mary] For [Mary]_145-mary concluded that certainly [[[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} 's residence]_{3215-her aunt 's residence} must be far away on [the other side of [the town]_{1111-the town}]_{3216-the other side of the town} , out of sight or hearing . But , after all , [she]_145-mary did not think much about [her]_{5389-her aunt} ; [her]_145-mary heart was so aching - full of other things , that all besides seemed like a dream . [She]_145-mary received feelings and impressions from [her]_145-mary conversation with [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} , but did not , could not , put them together , or think or argue about them . And [Esther]_132-esther ! How scanty had been [her]_{5389-her aunt} food for days and weeks , [her]_{5389-her aunt} thinly - covered bones and pale lips might tell , but [her]_{5389-her aunt} words should never reveal ! So , with a little unreal laugh , [she]_{5389-her aunt} replied , " Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , [[my]_{5389-her aunt} dear]_{5712-my dear} ! do n't talk about eating . [We]_6914-we 've the best of every thing , and plenty of it , for [[my]_{5389-her aunt} husband]_{6915-my husband} is in good work . [I]_{5389-her aunt} 'd such a supper before [I]_{5389-her aunt} came out . [I]_{5389-her aunt} could n't touch a morsel if [you]_145-mary had it . "_{[5389-her aunt]} [Her]_{5389-her aunt} words shot a strange pang through [Mary]_145-mary 's heart . [She]_145-mary had always remembered [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} 's loving and unselfish disposition ; how was it changed , if , living in plenty , [she]_145-mary had never thought it worth while to ask after [[her]_145-mary relations]_{3220-her relations} , who were all but starving ! [She]_145-mary shut up [her]_145-mary heart instinctively against [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} . And all the time poor [Esther]_132-esther was swallowing [her]_132-esther sobs , and over - acting [her]_132-esther part , and controlling [herself]_132-esther more than [she]_132-esther had done for many a long day , in order that [[her]_132-esther niece]_{3130-her niece} might not be shocked and revolted , by the knowledge of what [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} had [become:--a prostitute]_{3224-become:--a prostitute} ; [an outcast]_{3225-an outcast} . For [she]_145-mary longed to open [her]_145-mary wretched , wretched heart , so hopeless , so abandoned by all living things , to [one who had loved [her]_145-mary once]_{3226-one who had loved her once} ; and yet [she]_145-mary refrained , from dread of the averted eye , the altered voice , the internal loathing , which [she]_145-mary feared such disclosure might create . [She]_145-mary would go straight to the subject of the day . [She]_145-mary could not tarry long , for [she]_145-mary felt unable to support the character [she]_145-mary had assumed for any length of time . [They]_3227-they sat by the little round table , facing [each other]_{436-each other} . The candle was placed right between [them]_3227-they , and [Esther]_132-esther moved it in order to have a clearer view of [Mary]_145-mary 's face , so that [she]_132-esther might read [her]_145-mary emotions , and ascertain [her]_145-mary interests . Then [she]_132-esther began : " It 's a bad business , [I]_132-esther 'm afraid , this of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's murder . "_[132-esther] [Mary]_145-mary winced a little . " [I]_132-esther hear [Jem Wilson]_154-jem is taken up for it . "_[132-esther] [Mary]_145-mary covered [her]_145-mary eyes with [her]_145-mary hands , as if to shade them from the light , and [Esther]_132-esther [herself]_132-esther , less accustomed to self - command , was getting too much agitated for calm observation of another . " [I]_132-esther was taking a walk near [Turner Street]_{90-turner street} , and [I]_132-esther went to see [the spot]_{3134-the spot} , "_[132-esther] continued [Esther]_132-esther , " and , as luck would have it , [I]_132-esther spied this bit of paper in the hedge , "_[132-esther] producing the precious piece still folded in [her]_132-esther hand . " It has been used as wadding for the gun , [I]_132-esther reckon ; indeed , that 's clear enough , from the shape it 's crammed into . [I]_132-esther was sorry for [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} , whoever [he]_{6654-the murderer} might be ( [I]_132-esther did n't then know of [Jem]_154-jem 's being suspected ) , and [I]_132-esther thought [I]_132-esther would never leave a thing about as might help , if ever so little , to convict [him]_{6654-the murderer} ; [the police]_{6234-the police} are so ' cute about straws . So [I]_132-esther carried it a little way , and then [I]_132-esther opened it and saw [your]_145-mary name , [Mary]_145-mary . "_[132-esther] [Mary]_145-mary took [her]_145-mary hands away from [her]_145-mary eyes , and looked with surprise at [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} 's face , as [she]_145-mary uttered these words . [She]_145-mary _ was _ kind after all , for was [she]_145-mary not saving [her]_145-mary from being summoned , and from being questioned and examined ; a thing to be dreaded above all others : as [she]_145-mary felt sure that [her]_145-mary unwilling answers , frame them how [she]_145-mary might , would add to the suspicions against [Jem]_154-jem ; [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} was indeed kind , to think of what would spare [her]_145-mary this . [Esther]_132-esther went on , without noticing [Mary]_145-mary 's look . The very action of speaking was so painful to [her]_132-esther , and so much interrupted by the hard , raking little cough , which had been [her]_132-esther constant annoyance for months , that [she]_132-esther was too much engrossed by the physical difficulty of utterance , to be [a very close observer]_{3231-a very close observer} . " There could be no mistake if [they]_6919-they had found it . Look at [your]_145-mary name , together with the very name of [this court]_{609-this court} ! And in [Jem]_154-jem 's hand - writing too , or [I]_132-esther 'm much mistaken . Look , [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[132-esther] And now [she]_132-esther did watch [her]_145-mary . [Mary]_145-mary took the paper and flattened it ; then suddenly stood stiff up , with irrepressible movement , as if petrified by some horror abruptly disclosed ; [her]_145-mary face , strung and rigid ; [her]_145-mary lips compressed tight , to keep down some rising exclamation . [She]_145-mary dropped on [her]_145-mary seat , as suddenly as if the braced muscles had in an instant given way . But [she]_145-mary spoke no word . " It is [his]_154-jem hand - writing -- isn't it ? "_[132-esther] asked [Esther]_132-esther , though [Mary]_145-mary 's manner was almost confirmation enough . " [You]_145-mary will not tell . [You]_145-mary never will tell , "_[145-mary] demanded [Mary]_145-mary , in a tone so sternly earnest , as almost to be threatening . " Nay , [Mary]_145-mary , "_[132-esther] said [Esther]_132-esther , rather reproachfully , " [I]_132-esther am not so bad as that . Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , [you]_145-mary can not think [I]_132-esther would do that , whatever [I]_132-esther may be . "_[132-esther] The tears sprang to [her]_145-mary eyes at the idea that [she]_145-mary was suspected of being one who would help to inform against [an old friend]_{1040-an old friend} . [Mary]_145-mary caught [her]_145-mary sad and upbraiding look . " No ! [I]_145-mary know [you]_145-mary would not tell , [aunt]_2129-aunt . [I]_145-mary do n't know what [I]_145-mary say , [I]_145-mary am so shocked . But say [you]_145-mary will not tell . Do . "_[145-mary] " No , indeed [I]_145-mary will not tell , come what may . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary sat still , looking at the writing , and turning the paper round with careful examination , trying to hope , but [her]_145-mary very fears belying [her]_145-mary hopes . " [I]_132-esther thought [you]_145-mary cared for [the young man that 's murdered]_{6922-the young man that 's murdered} , "_[132-esther] observed [Esther]_132-esther , half aloud ; but feeling that [she]_132-esther could not mistake this strange interest in [the suspected murderer]_{3084-the suspected murderer} , implied by [Mary]_145-mary 's eagerness to screen [him]_{3084-the suspected murderer} from any thing which might strengthen suspicion against [him]_{3084-the suspected murderer} . [She]_132-esther had come , desirous to know the extent of [Mary]_145-mary 's grief for [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , and glad of the excuse afforded [her]_145-mary by the important scrap of paper . [Her]_145-mary remark about its being [Jem]_154-jem 's hand - writing , [she]_145-mary had , with this view of ascertaining [Mary]_145-mary 's state of feeling , felt to be most imprudent the instant after [she]_145-mary uttered it ; but [Mary]_145-mary 's anxiety that [she]_145-mary should not tell was too great , and too decided , to leave a doubt as to [her]_145-mary interest for [Jem]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary grew more and more bewildered , and [her]_145-mary dizzy head refused to reason . [Mary]_145-mary never spoke . [She]_145-mary held the bit of paper firmly , determined to retain possession of it , come what might ; and anxious , and impatient , for [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} to go . As [she]_145-mary sat , [her]_145-mary face bore a likeness to [[Esther]_132-esther 's dead child]_{3235-esther 's dead child} . " [You]_145-mary are so like [[my]_132-esther little girl]_{2457-my little girl} , [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[132-esther] said [Esther]_132-esther , weary of the one subject on which [she]_132-esther could get no satisfaction , and recurring , with full heart , to the thought of the dead . [Mary]_145-mary looked up . [[Her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} had [children]_{4826-children} , then . That was all the idea [she]_145-mary received . No faint imagination of the love and the woe of [that poor creature]_{3238-that poor creature} crossed [her]_145-mary mind , or [she]_145-mary would have taken [her]_{5389-her aunt} , all guilty and erring , to [her]_145-mary bosom , and tried to bind up the broken heart . No ! it was not to be . [[Her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} had [children]_{4826-children} , then ; and [she]_145-mary was on the point of putting some question about [them]_{4826-children} , but before it could be spoken another thought turned it aside , and [she]_145-mary went back to [her]_145-mary task of unravelling the mystery of the paper , and the hand - writing . Oh ! how [she]_145-mary wished [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} would go . As if , according to the believers in mesmerism , the intenseness of [her]_145-mary wish gave [her]_145-mary power over another , although the wish was unexpressed , [Esther]_132-esther felt [herself]_132-esther unwelcome , and that [her]_132-esther absence was desired . [She]_132-esther felt this some time before [she]_132-esther could summon up resolution to go . [She]_132-esther was so much disappointed in this longed - for , dreaded interview with [Mary]_145-mary ; [she]_132-esther had wished to impose upon [her]_132-esther with [her]_132-esther tale of married respectability , and yet [she]_132-esther had yearned and craved for sympathy in [her]_132-esther real lot . And [she]_132-esther had imposed upon [her]_132-esther well . [She]_132-esther should perhaps be glad of it afterwards ; but [her]_132-esther desolation of hope seemed for the time redoubled . And [she]_132-esther must leave [the old dwelling - place]_{3242-the old dwelling - place} , whose very walls , and flags , dingy and sordid as they were , had a charm for [her]_132-esther . Must leave the abode of poverty , for the more terrible abodes of vice . [She]_132-esther must -- [she]_132-esther would go . " Well , good - night , [Mary]_145-mary . That bit of paper is safe enough with [you]_145-mary , [I]_132-esther see . But [you]_145-mary made [me]_132-esther promise [I]_132-esther would not tell about it , and [you]_145-mary must promise [me]_132-esther to destroy it before [you]_145-mary sleep . "_[132-esther] " [I]_145-mary promise , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , hoarsely , but firmly . " Then [you]_145-mary are going ? "_[145-mary] " Yes . Not if [you]_145-mary wish [me]_132-esther to stay . Not if [I]_132-esther could be of any comfort to [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ; "_[132-esther] catching at some glimmering hope . " Oh , no , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , anxious to be alone . " [[Your]_145-mary husband]_{6924-your husband} will be wondering where [you]_145-mary are . Some day [you]_145-mary must tell [me]_132-esther all about [yourself]_145-mary . [I]_132-esther forget what [your]_145-mary name is ? "_[132-esther] " [Fergusson]_{340-fergusson} , "_[132-esther] said [Esther]_132-esther , sadly . " [Mrs. Fergusson]_{340-fergusson} , "_[145-mary] repeated [Mary]_145-mary , half unconsciously . " And where did [you]_145-mary say [you]_145-mary lived ? "_[145-mary] " [I]_132-esther never did say , "_[132-esther] muttered [Esther]_132-esther ; then aloud , " In [[Angel]_341-angel 's Meadow]_{6925-angel 's meadow} , 145 , [Nicholas Street]_{92-nicholas street} . "_[132-esther] " 145 , [Nicholas Street]_{92-nicholas street} , [Angel Meadow]_{93-angel meadow} . [I]_145-mary shall remember . "_[145-mary] As [Esther]_132-esther drew [her]_132-esther shawl around [her]_132-esther , and prepared to depart , a thought crossed [Mary]_145-mary 's mind that [she]_145-mary had been cold and hard in [her]_145-mary manner towards one , who had certainly meant to act kindly in bringing [her]_145-mary the paper ( that dread , terrible piece of paper ) and thus saving [her]_145-mary from -- [she]_145-mary could not rightly think how much , or how little [she]_145-mary was spared . So , desirous of making up for [her]_145-mary previous indifferent manner , [she]_145-mary advanced to kiss [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} before [her]_145-mary departure . But , to [her]_145-mary surprise , [[her]_145-mary aunt]_{5389-her aunt} pushed [her]_145-mary off with a frantic kind of gesture , and saying the words , " Not [me]_145-mary . [You]_145-mary must never kiss [me]_145-mary . [You]_145-mary ! "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary rushed into the outer darkness of [the street]_{4821-the street} , and there wept long and bitterly . CHAPTER XXII . [MARY]_145-mary 'S EFFORTS TO PROVE AN ALIBI . " There was a listening fear in [her]_145-mary regard , As if calamity had but begun ; As if the vanward clouds of evil days Had spent [their]_6926-their malice , and the sullen rear Was , with its stored thunder , labouring up . "_[342-keats] [KEATS]_342-keats ' " HYPERION . "_[342-keats] No sooner was [Mary]_145-mary alone than [she]_145-mary fastened the door , and put the shutters up against the window , which had all this time remained shaded only by the curtains hastily drawn together on [Esther]_132-esther 's entrance , and the lighting of the candle . [She]_145-mary did all this with the same compressed lips , and the same stony look that [her]_145-mary face had assumed on the first examination of the paper . Then [she]_145-mary sat down for an instant to think ; and rising directly , went , with a step rendered firm by inward resolution of purpose , up the stairs;--passed [her]_145-mary own door , two steps , into [[[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's room]_{3247-her father 's room} . What did [she]_145-mary want [there]_873-there ? [I]_0-i must tell [you]_3249-you ; [I]_0-i must put into words the dreadful secret which [she]_145-mary believed that bit of paper had revealed to [her]_145-mary . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} ! That corner of stiff , shining , thick writing - paper , [she]_145-mary recognised as part of the sheet on which [she]_145-mary had copied [Samuel Bamford]_{264-samuel bamford} 's beautiful lines so many months ago -- copied ( as [you]_3249-you perhaps remember ) on the blank part of a valentine sent to [her]_145-mary by [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , in those days when [she]_145-mary did not treasure and hoard up every thing [he]_{564-her father} had touched , as [she]_145-mary would do now . That copy had been given to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , for whom it was made , and [she]_145-mary had occasionally seen [him]_{564-her father} reading it over , not a fortnight ago [she]_145-mary was sure . But [she]_145-mary resolved to ascertain if the other part still remained in [his]_{564-her father} possession . [He]_{564-her father} might , it was just possible [he]_{564-her father} _ might _ , have given it away to [some friend]_{3253-some friend} ; and if so , [that person]_{2115-that person} was [the guilty one]_{3255-the guilty one} , for [she]_145-mary could swear to the paper anywhere . First of all [she]_145-mary pulled out every article from the little old chest of drawers . Amongst them were some things which had belonged to [[her]_145-mary mother]_{4774-her mother} , but [she]_145-mary had no time now to examine and try and remember them . All the reverence [she]_145-mary could pay [them]_3257-them was to carry them and lay them on the bed carefully , while the other things were tossed impatiently out upon the floor . The copy of [Bamford]_{264-samuel bamford} 's lines was not there . Oh ! perhaps [he]_{564-her father} might have given it away ; but then must it not have been to [Jem]_154-jem ? It was [his]_{564-her father} gun . And [she]_145-mary set to with redoubled vigour to examine the deal - box which served as chair , and which had once contained [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's Sunday clothes , in the days when [he]_{564-her father} could afford to have Sunday clothes . [He]_{564-her father} had redeemed [his]_{564-her father} better coat from [the pawn - shop]_{1303-the pawn - shop} before [he]_{564-her father} left , that [she]_145-mary had noticed . Here was [his]_{564-her father} old one . What rustled under [her]_145-mary hand in the pocket ? The paper ! " Oh ! [Father]_245-father ! "_[145-mary] Yes , it fitted ; jagged end to jagged end , letter to letter ; and even the part which [Esther]_132-esther had considered blank had its tallying mark with the larger piece , its tails of _ y_s and _ g_s . And then , as if that were not damning evidence enough , [she]_145-mary felt again , and found some bullets or shot ( [I]_0-i do n't know which [you]_3260-you would call them ) in that same pocket , along with a small paper parcel of gunpowder . As [she]_145-mary was going to replace the jacket , having abstracted the paper , and bullets , & amp;c . , [she]_145-mary saw a woollen gun - case made of that sort of striped horse - cloth [you]_3260-you must have seen a thousand times appropriated to such a purpose . The sight of it made [her]_145-mary examine still further , but there was nothing else that could afford any evidence , so [she]_145-mary locked the box , and sat down on the floor to contemplate the articles ; now with a sickening despair , now with a kind of wondering curiosity , how [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} had managed to evade observation . After all it was easy enough . [He]_{564-her father} had evidently got possession of some gun ( was it really [Jem]_154-jem 's ; was [he]_{564-her father} [an accomplice]_{3262-an accomplice} ? No ! [she]_145-mary did not believe it ; [he]_{564-her father} never , never would deliberately plan a murder with another , however [he]_{564-her father} might be wrought up to it by passionate feeling at the time . Least of all would [he]_{564-her father} accuse [her]_145-mary to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , without previously warning [her]_145-mary ; it was out of [his]_{564-her father} nature ) . Then having obtained possession of the gun , [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} had loaded it at [home]_4755-home , and might have carried it away with [him]_{564-her father} some time when [the neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} were not noticing , and [she]_145-mary was out , or asleep ; and then [he]_{564-her father} might have hidden it somewhere to be in readiness when [he]_{564-her father} should want it . [She]_145-mary was sure [he]_{564-her father} had no such thing with [him]_{564-her father} when [he]_{564-her father} went away the last time . [She]_145-mary felt it was of no use to conjecture [his]_{564-her father} motives . [His]_{564-her father} actions had become so wild and irregular of late , that [she]_145-mary could not reason upon them . Besides , was it not enough to know that [he]_{564-her father} was guilty of this terrible offence ? [Her]_145-mary love for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} seemed to return with painful force , mixed up as it was with horror at [his]_{564-her father} crime . [That dear father]_{3268-that dear father} , who was once so kind , so warm - hearted , so ready to help either [man or beast in distress]_{3269-man or beast in distress} , to murder ! But , in the desert of misery with which these thoughts surrounded [her]_145-mary , the arid depths of whose gloom [she]_145-mary dared not venture to contemplate , a little spring of comfort was gushing up at [her]_145-mary feet , unnoticed at first , but soon to give [her]_145-mary strength and hope . And _ that _ was the necessity for exertion on [her]_145-mary part which this discovery enforced . Oh ! [I]_0-i do think that the necessity for exertion , for some kind of action ( bodily or mental ) in time of distress , is a most infinite blessing , although the first efforts at such seasons are painful . Something to be done implies that there is yet hope of some good thing to be accomplished , or some additional evil that may be avoided ; and by degrees the hope absorbs much of the sorrow . It is the woes that can not in any earthly way be escaped that admit least earthly comforting . Of all trite , worn - out , hollow mockeries of comfort that were ever uttered by [people who will not take the trouble of sympathising with [others]_737-others]_{3270-people who will not take the trouble of sympathising with others} , the one [I]_0-i dislike the most is the exhortation not to grieve over an event , " for it can not be helped . "_[3272-you] Do [you]_3272-you think if [I]_0-i could help it , [I]_0-i would sit still with folded hands , content to mourn ? Do [you]_3272-you not believe that as long as hope remained [I]_0-i would be up and doing ? [I]_0-i mourn because what has occurred can not be helped . The reason [you]_3272-you give [me]_0-i for not grieving , is the very and sole reason of [my]_0-i grief . Give [me]_0-i nobler and higher reasons for enduring meekly what [[my]_0-i Father]_{5863-my father} sees fit to send , and [I]_0-i will try earnestly and faithfully to be patient ; but mock [me]_0-i not , or [any other mourner]_{3274-any other mourner} , with the speech , " Do not grieve , for it can not be helped . It is past remedy . "_{[3274-any other mourner]} But some remedy to [Mary]_145-mary 's sorrow came with thinking . If [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was guilty , [Jem]_154-jem was innocent . If innocent , there was a possibility of saving [him]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem must be saved . And [she]_145-mary must do it ; for was not [she]_145-mary [the sole depository of the terrible secret]_{3276-the sole depository of the terrible secret} ? [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was not suspected ; and never should be , if by any foresight or any exertions of [her]_145-mary own [she]_145-mary could prevent it . [She]_145-mary did not yet know how [Jem]_154-jem was to be saved , while [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was also to be considered innocent . It would require much thought and much prudence . But with the call upon [her]_145-mary exertions , and [her]_145-mary various qualities of judgment and discretion , came the answering consciousness of innate power to meet the emergency . Every step now , nay , the employment of every minute , was of consequence ; for [you]_3279-you must remember [she]_145-mary had learnt at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' the probability that [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} would be brought to trial the next week . And [you]_3279-you must remember , too , that never was so young [a girl]_{577-a girl} so friendless , or so penniless , as [Mary]_145-mary was at this time . But the lion accompanied [Una]_343-una through [the wilderness]_{3282-the wilderness} and the danger ; and so will a high , resolved purpose of right - doing ever guard and accompany the helpless . It struck two ; deep , mirk , night . It was of no use bewildering [herself]_145-mary with plans this weary , endless night . Nothing could be done before morning : and , at first in [her]_145-mary impatience , [she]_145-mary began to long for day ; but then [she]_145-mary felt in how unfit a state [her]_145-mary body was for any plan of exertion , and [she]_145-mary resolutely made up [her]_145-mary mind to husband [her]_145-mary physical strength . First of all [she]_145-mary must burn the tell - tale paper . The powder , bullets , and gun - case , [she]_145-mary tied into a bundle , and hid in the sacking of the bed for the present , although there was no likelihood of [their]_3283-their affording evidence against [any one]_{504-any one} . Then [she]_145-mary carried the paper down [stairs]_4740-stairs , and burnt it on the hearth , powdering the very ashes with [her]_145-mary fingers , and dispersing the fragments of fluttering black films among the cinders of the grate . Then [she]_145-mary breathed again . [Her]_145-mary head ached with dizzying violence ; [she]_145-mary must get quit of the pain or it would incapacitate [her]_145-mary for thinking and planning . [She]_145-mary looked for food , but there was nothing but a little raw oatmeal in [the house]_{803-the house} : still , although it almost choked [her]_145-mary , [she]_145-mary ate some of this , knowing from experience , how often headaches were caused by long fasting . Then [she]_145-mary sought for some water to bathe [her]_145-mary throbbing temples , and quench [her]_145-mary feverish thirst . There was none in [the house]_{803-the house} , so [she]_145-mary took the jug and went out to the pump at [the other end of [the court]_{604-the court}]_{3288-the other end of the court} , whose echoes resounded [her]_145-mary light footsteps in the quiet stillness of the night . The hard , square outlines of [the houses]_{5540-the houses} cut sharply against the cold bright sky , from which myriads of stars were shining down in eternal repose . There was little sympathy in the outward scene , with the internal trouble . All was so still , so motionless , so hard ! Very different to this lovely night in [the country in which [I]_0-i am now writing]_{3291-the country in which i am now writing} , where the distant horizon is soft and undulating in the moonlight , and the nearer trees sway gently to and fro in the night - wind with something of almost human motion ; and the rustling air makes music among their branches , as if speaking soothingly to [the weary ones who lie awake in heaviness of heart]_{3292-the weary ones who lie awake in heaviness of heart} . The sights and sounds of such a night lull pain and grief to rest . But [Mary]_145-mary re - entered [[her]_145-mary home]_{3293-her home} after [she]_145-mary had filled [her]_145-mary pitcher , with a still stronger sense of anxiety , and a still clearer conviction of how much rested upon [her]_145-mary unassisted and friendless self , alone with [her]_145-mary terrible knowledge , in [the hard , cold , populous world]_{3294-the hard , cold , populous world} . [She]_145-mary bathed [her]_145-mary forehead , and quenched [her]_145-mary thirst , and then , with wise deliberation of purpose , went [upstairs]_{5348-upstairs} , and undressed [herself]_145-mary , as if for a long night 's slumber , although so few hours intervened before day - dawn . [She]_145-mary believed [she]_145-mary never could sleep , but [she]_145-mary lay down , and shut [her]_145-mary eyes ; and before many minutes [she]_145-mary was in as deep and sound a slumber as if there was no sin nor sorrow in [the world]_{1479-the world} . [She]_145-mary awakened , as it was natural , much refreshed in body ; but with a consciousness of some great impending calamity . [She]_145-mary sat up in bed to recollect , and when [she]_145-mary did remember , [she]_145-mary sank down again with all the helplessness of despair . But it was only the weakness of an instant ; for were not the very minutes precious , for deliberation if not for action ? Before [she]_145-mary had finished the necessary morning business of dressing , and setting [[her]_145-mary house]_{1770-her house} in some kind of order , [she]_145-mary had disentangled [her]_145-mary ravelled ideas , and arranged some kind of a plan for action . If [Jem]_154-jem was innocent ( and now , of [his]_154-jem guilt , even [his]_154-jem slightest participation in , or knowledge of , the murder , [she]_145-mary acquitted [him]_154-jem with all [her]_145-mary heart and soul ) , [he]_154-jem must have been somewhere else when the crime was committed ; probably with [some others , who might bear witness to the fact]_{3298-some others , who might bear witness to the fact} , if [she]_145-mary only knew where to find [them]_{3298-some others , who might bear witness to the fact} . Every thing rested on [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary had heard of an alibi , and believed it might mean the deliverance [she]_145-mary wished to accomplish ; but [she]_145-mary was not quite sure , and determined to apply to [Job]_156-job , as [one of [the few among [her]_145-mary acquaintance]_{3300-the few among her acquaintance} gifted with the knowledge of hard words , for to [her]_145-mary , all terms of law , or natural history]_{3299-one of the few among her acquaintance gifted with the knowledge of hard words , for to her , all terms of law , or natural history} , were alike many - syllabled mysteries . No time was to be lost . [She]_145-mary went straight to [[Job Legh]_156-job 's house]_{3301-job legh 's house} , and found [the old man]_{6643-the old man} and [[his]_{6643-the old man} grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} sitting at breakfast ; as [she]_145-mary opened the door [she]_145-mary heard [their]_3304-they voices speaking in a grave , hushed , subdued tone , as if something grieved [their]_3304-they hearts . [They]_3304-they stopped talking on [her]_145-mary entrance , and then [she]_145-mary knew [they]_3304-they had been conversing about the murder ; about [Jem]_154-jem 's probable guilt ; and ( it flashed upon [her]_145-mary for the first time ) on the new light [they]_3304-they would have obtained regarding [herself]_145-mary : for until now [they]_3304-they had never heard of [her]_145-mary giddy flirting with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; not in all [her]_145-mary confidential talk with [Margaret]_157-margaret had [she]_145-mary ever spoken of [him]_{209-mr. carson} . And now [Margaret]_157-margaret would hear [her]_145-mary conduct talked of by all , as that of [a bold , bad girl]_{3305-a bold , bad girl} ; and even if [she]_157-margaret did not believe every thing that was said , [she]_157-margaret could hardly help feeling wounded , and disappointed in [Mary]_145-mary . So it was in a timid voice that [Mary]_145-mary wished [her]_145-mary usual good - morrow , and [her]_145-mary heart sank within [her]_145-mary a little , when [Job]_156-job , with a form of civility , bade [her]_145-mary welcome in [that dwelling]_{3306-that dwelling} , where , until now , [she]_145-mary had been too well assured to require to be asked to sit down . [She]_145-mary took a chair . [Margaret]_157-margaret continued silent . " [I]_157-margaret 'm come to speak to [you]_156-job about this -- about [Jem Wilson]_154-jem . "_{[157-margaret]} " It 's a bad business , [I]_156-job 'm afeared , "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job , sadly . " Ay , it 's bad enough anyhow . But [Jem]_154-jem 's innocent . Indeed [he]_154-jem is ; [I]_156-job 'm as sure as sure can be . "_[156-job] " How can [you]_156-job know , [wench]_5103-wench ? [Facts]_344-facts bear strong again [him]_154-jem , [poor fellow]_{4959-poor fellow} , though [he]_154-jem 'd a deal to put [him]_154-jem up , and aggravate [him]_154-jem , [they]_344-facts say . Ay , [poor lad]_{1482-poor lad} , [he]_154-jem 's done for [himself]_154-jem , [I]_157-margaret 'm afeared . "_{[157-margaret]} " [Job]_156-job ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , rising from [her]_145-mary chair in [her]_145-mary eagerness , " [you]_156-job must not say [he]_154-jem did it . [He]_154-jem did n't ; [I]_145-mary 'm sure and certain [he]_154-jem did n't . Oh ! why do [you]_156-job shake [your]_156-job head ? Who is to believe [me,--who]_{6930-me,--who} is to think [him]_154-jem innocent , if [you]_156-job , who know'd [him]_154-jem so well , stick to it [he]_154-jem 's guilty ? "_[145-mary] " [I]_156-job 'm loth enough to do it , [lass]_4844-lass , "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job ; " but [I]_156-job think [he]_154-jem 's been ill used , and -- jilted ( that 's plain truth , [Mary]_145-mary , hard as it may seem ) , and [his]_154-jem blood has been up -- many [a man]_{4855-a man} has done the like afore , from like causes . "_[156-job] " Oh , [God]_224-god ! Then [you]_156-job wo n't help [me]_145-mary , [Job]_156-job , to prove [him]_154-jem innocent ? Oh ! Job , [Job]_156-job ; believe [me]_145-mary , [Jem]_154-jem never did harm to [no one]_{1202-no one} . "_[145-mary] " Not afore;--and mind , [wench]_5103-wench ! [I]_156-job do n't over - blame [him]_154-jem for this . "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job relapsed into silence . [Mary]_145-mary thought a moment . " Well , [Job]_156-job , [you]_156-job 'll not refuse [me]_145-mary this , [I]_145-mary know . [I]_145-mary wo n't mind what [you]_156-job think , if [you]_156-job 'll help [me]_145-mary as if [he]_154-jem was innocent . Now suppose [I]_145-mary know -- [I]_145-mary knew [he]_154-jem was innocent,--it 's only supposing , Job,--what must [I]_145-mary do to prove it ? Tell [me]_145-mary , [Job]_156-job ! Is n't it called an _ alibi _ , the getting [folk]_5093-folk to swear to where [he]_154-jem really was at the time ? "_[145-mary] " Best way , if [you]_156-job know'd [him]_154-jem innocent , would be to find out [the real murderer]_{6936-the real murderer} . [Some one]_{5544-some one} did it , that 's clear enough . If it was n't [Jem]_154-jem , who was it ? "_[156-job] " How can [I]_145-mary tell ? "_[145-mary] answered [Mary]_145-mary , in an agony of terror , lest [Job]_156-job 's question was prompted by any suspicion of the truth . But [he]_156-job was far enough from any such thought . Indeed , [he]_156-job had no doubt in [his]_156-job own mind that [Jem]_154-jem had , in some passionate moment , urged on by slighted love and jealousy , been [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . And [he]_156-job was strongly inclined to believe , that [Mary]_145-mary was aware of this , only that , too late repentant of [her]_145-mary light conduct which had led to such fatal consequences , [she]_145-mary was now most anxious to save [[her]_145-mary old play - fellow]_{3308-her old play - fellow} , [[her]_145-mary early friend]_{3309-her early friend} , from the doom awaiting the shedder of blood . " If [Jem]_154-jem 's not done it , [I]_145-mary do n't see as any on [us]_6938-we can tell who did . [We]_6938-we might find out something if [we]_6938-we 'd time ; but [they]_6939-they say [he]_154-jem 's to be tried on Tuesday . It 's no use hiding it , [Mary]_145-mary ; things looks strong against [him]_154-jem . "_[145-mary] " [I]_{3308-her old play - fellow} know [they]_6939-they do ! [I]_{3308-her old play - fellow} know [they]_6939-they do ! But , oh ! Job ! is n't an _ alibi _ a proving where [he]_154-jem really was at th ' time of the murder ; and how must [I]_{3308-her old play - fellow} set about an _ alibi _ ? "_{[3308-her old play - fellow]} " An _ alibi _ is that , sure enough . "_{[3308-her old play - fellow]} [He]_{3308-her old play - fellow} thought a little . " [You]_145-mary mun ask [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} [his]_154-jem doings , and [his]_154-jem whereabouts that night ; the knowledge of that will guide [you]_145-mary a bit . "_{[3308-her old play - fellow]} For [he]_{3308-her old play - fellow} was anxious that on another should fall the task of enlightening [Mary]_145-mary on the hopelessness of the case , and [he]_{3308-her old play - fellow} felt that [her]_145-mary own sense would be more convinced by inquiry and examination than any mere assertion of [his]_{3308-her old play - fellow} . [Margaret]_157-margaret had sat silent and grave all this time . To tell the truth , [she]_157-margaret was surprised and disappointed by the disclosure of [Mary]_145-mary 's conduct , with regard to [Mr. Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . Gentle , reserved , and prudent [herself]_157-margaret , never exposed to the trial of being admired for [her]_157-margaret personal appearance , and unsusceptible enough to be in doubt even yet , whether the fluttering , tender , infinitely - joyous feeling [she]_157-margaret was for the first time experiencing , at sight , or sound , or thought of [Will Wilson]_{3310-will wilson} , was love or not,--Margaret had no sympathy with the temptations to which loveliness , vanity , ambition , or the desire of being admired , exposes so many ; no sympathy with [flirting girls]_{3311-flirting girls} , in short . Then , [she]_157-margaret had no idea of the strength of the conflict between will and principle in [some who were differently constituted from [herself]_157-margaret]_{3312-some who were differently constituted from herself} . With [her]_157-margaret , to be convinced that an action was wrong , was tantamount to a determination not to do so again ; and [she]_157-margaret had little or no difficulty in carrying out [her]_157-margaret determination . So [she]_157-margaret could not understand how it was that [Mary]_145-mary had acted wrongly , and had felt too much ashamed , in spite of all internal sophistry , to speak of [her]_145-mary actions . [Margaret]_157-margaret considered [herself]_157-margaret deceived ; felt aggrieved ; and , at the time of which [I]_0-i am now telling [you]_3313-you , was strongly inclined to give [Mary]_145-mary up altogether , as [a girl devoid of the modest proprieties of]_{3314-a girl devoid of the modest proprieties of} [her]_157-margaret sex , and capable of gross duplicity , in speaking of [one lover]_{3315-one lover} as [she]_157-margaret had done of [Jem]_154-jem , while [she]_157-margaret was encouraging [another]_1526-another in attentions , at best of a very doubtful character . But now [Margaret]_157-margaret was drawn into the conversation . Suddenly it flashed across [Mary]_145-mary 's mind , that the night of the murder was the very night , or rather the same early morning , that [Margaret]_157-margaret had been with [Alice]_146-alice . [She]_157-margaret turned sharp round , with-- " Oh ! [Margaret]_157-margaret , [you]_157-margaret can tell [me]_157-margaret ; [you]_157-margaret were there when [he]_154-jem came back that night ; were [you]_157-margaret not ? No ! [you]_157-margaret were not ; but [you]_157-margaret were there not many hours after . Did not [you]_157-margaret hear where [he]_154-jem 'd been ? [He]_154-jem was away the night before , too , when [Alice]_146-alice was first taken ; when [you]_157-margaret were there for [your]_157-margaret tea . Oh ! where was [he]_154-jem , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? "_{[157-margaret]} " [I]_157-margaret do n't know , "_{[157-margaret]} [she]_157-margaret answered . " Stay ! [I]_157-margaret do remember something about [his]_154-jem keeping [Will]_146-alice company , in [his]_154-jem walk to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . [I]_157-margaret ca n't justly say what it was , so much happened that night . "_{[157-margaret]} " [I]_145-mary 'll go to [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , resolutely . [They]_3317-they neither of [them]_3317-they spoke , either to advise or dissuade . [Mary]_145-mary felt [she]_145-mary had no sympathy from [them]_3317-they , and braced up [her]_145-mary soul to act without such loving aid of friendship . [She]_145-mary knew that [their]_3317-they advice would be willingly given at [her]_145-mary demand , and that was all [she]_145-mary really required for [Jem]_154-jem 's sake . Still [her]_145-mary courage failed a little as [she]_145-mary walked to [[Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's]_{3318-jane wilson 's} , alone in [the world]_{1479-the world} with [her]_145-mary secret . [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} 's eyes were swelled with crying ; and it was sad to see the ravages which intense anxiety and sorrow had made on [her]_145-mary appearance in four - and - twenty hours . All night long [she]_145-mary and [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} had crooned over [their]_3317-they sorrows , always recurring , like the burden of an old song , to the dreadest sorrow of all , which was now impending over [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . [She]_145-mary had grown -- [I]_0-i hardly know what word to use -- but , something like proud of [her]_145-mary martyrdom ; [she]_145-mary had grown to hug [her]_145-mary grief ; to feel an excitement in [her]_145-mary agony of anxiety about [[her]_145-mary boy]_{3320-her boy} . " So , [Mary]_145-mary , [you]_145-mary 're here ! Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , [lass]_4844-lass ! [He]_{3320-her boy} 's to be tried on Tuesday . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary fell to sobbing , in the convulsive breath - catching manner which tells so of much previous weeping . " Oh ! [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , do n't take on so ! [We]_3317-they 'll get [him]_{3320-her boy} off , [you]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'll see . Do n't fret ; [they]_3317-they ca n't prove [him]_{3320-her boy} guilty ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " But [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} tell [thee]_{134-mrs. wilson} [they]_3317-they will , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} interrupted [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , half - irritated at the light way , as [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} considered it , in which [Mary]_145-mary spoke ; and a little displeased that [another]_1526-another could hope when [she]_145-mary had almost brought [herself]_145-mary to find pleasure in despair . " It may suit [thee]_{134-mrs. wilson} well , "_[145-mary] continued [she]_145-mary , " to make light o ' the misery [thou]_{134-mrs. wilson} hast caused ; but [I]_145-mary shall lay [his]_{3320-her boy} death at [thy]_{134-mrs. wilson} door , as long as [I]_145-mary live , and die [I]_145-mary know [he]_{3320-her boy} will ; and all for what [he]_{3320-her boy} never did -- no , [he]_{3320-her boy} never did ; [[my]_145-mary own blessed boy]_{6943-my own blessed boy} ! "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary was too weak to be angry long ; [her]_145-mary wrath sank away to feeble sobbing and worn - out moans . [Mary]_145-mary was most anxious to soothe [her]_145-mary from any violence of either grief or anger ; [she]_145-mary did so want [her]_145-mary to be clear in [her]_145-mary recollection ; and , besides , [her]_145-mary tenderness was great towards [[Jem]_154-jem 's mother]_{3322-jem 's mother} . So [she]_145-mary spoke in a low gentle tone the loving sentences , which sound so broken and powerless in repetition , and which yet have so much power when accompanied with caressing looks and actions , fresh from the heart ; and [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} insensibly gave [herself]_{937-the old woman} up to the influence of those sweet , loving blue eyes , those tears of sympathy , those words of love and hope , and was lulled into a less morbid state of mind . " And now , [dear Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , can [you]_{134-mrs. wilson} remember where [he]_{3320-her boy} said [he]_{3320-her boy} was going on Thursday night ? [He]_{3320-her boy} was out when [Alice]_146-alice was taken ill ; and [he]_{3320-her boy} did not come [home]_4755-home till early in the morning , or , to speak true , in the night : did [he]_{3320-her boy} ? "_{[130-jane wilson]} " Ay ! [he]_{3320-her boy} went out near upon five ; [he]_{3320-her boy} went out with [Will]_146-alice ; [he]_{3320-her boy} said [he]_{3320-her boy} were going to set [ 45 ] [him]_{3320-her boy} a part of the way , for [Will]_146-alice were hot upon walking to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , and would n't hearken to [Jem]_154-jem 's offer of lending [him]_{3320-her boy} five shilling for [his]_{3320-her boy} fare . So [the two lads]_{6945-the two lads} set off together . [I]_{130-jane wilson} mind it all now ; but , [thou]_6946-thou seest , [Alice]_146-alice 's illness , and this business of poor [Jem]_154-jem 's , drove it out of [my]_{130-jane wilson} head ; [they]_{6945-the two lads} went off together , to walk to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ; that 's to say , [Jem]_154-jem were to go a part o ' th ' way . But , who knows "_{[130-jane wilson]} ( falling back into the old desponding tone ) " if [he]_{3320-her boy} really went ? [He]_{3320-her boy} might be led off on [the road]_{2800-the road} . Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , [wench]_5103-wench ! [they]_{6945-the two lads} 'll hang [him]_{3320-her boy} for what [he]_{3320-her boy} 's never done . "_{[130-jane wilson]} [ Footnote 45 : " To set , "_{[130-jane wilson]} to accompany . ] " No , [they]_{6945-the two lads} won't -- [they]_{6945-the two lads} sha n't ! [I]_{130-jane wilson} see [my]_{130-jane wilson} way a bit now . [We]_{6945-the two lads} mun get [Will]_154-jem to help ; there 'll be time . [He]_154-jem can swear that [Jem]_154-jem were with [him]_154-jem . Where is [Jem]_154-jem ? "_{[130-jane wilson]} " [Folk]_5093-folk said [he]_{3320-her boy} were taken to [Kirkdale]_94-kirkdale , [i]_{130-jane wilson} ' [th ' prison - van]_{6950-th ' prison - van} , this morning ; without [my]_{130-jane wilson} seeing [him]_{3320-her boy} , [poor chap]_{6951-poor chap} ! Oh ! wench ! but [they]_{6945-the two lads} 've hurried on the business at a cruel rate . "_{[130-jane wilson]} " Ay ! [they]_{6945-the two lads} 've not let grass grow under [their]_{6945-the two lads} feet , in hunting out [the man that did it]_{6952-the man that did it} , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , sorrowfully and bitterly . " But keep up [your]_6953-your heart . [They]_{6945-the two lads} got on the wrong scent when [they]_{6945-the two lads} took to suspecting [Jem]_154-jem . Do n't be afeard . [You]_6953-your 'll see it will end right for [Jem]_154-jem . "_[145-mary] " [I]_{130-jane wilson} should mind it less if [I]_{130-jane wilson} could do aught , "_{[130-jane wilson]} said [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} ; " but [I]_{130-jane wilson} 'm such [a poor weak old body]_{6954-a poor weak old body} , and [my]_{130-jane wilson} head 's so gone , and [I]_{130-jane wilson} 'm so dazed - like , what with [Alice]_146-alice and all , that [I]_{130-jane wilson} think and think , and can do nought to help [[my]_{130-jane wilson} child]_{4784-my child} . [I]_{130-jane wilson} might ha ' gone and seen [him]_{4784-my child} last night , [they]_6956-they tell [me]_{130-jane wilson} now , and then [I]_{130-jane wilson} missed it . Oh ! [Mary]_145-mary , [I]_{130-jane wilson} missed it ; and [I]_{130-jane wilson} may never see [the lad]_{4980-the lad} again . "_{[130-jane wilson]} [She]_{130-jane wilson} looked so piteously in [Mary]_145-mary 's face with [her]_{130-jane wilson} miserable eyes , that [Mary]_145-mary felt [her]_145-mary heart giving way , and , dreading the weakening of [her]_145-mary powers , which the burst of crying [she]_145-mary longed for would occasion , hastily changed the subject to [Alice]_146-alice ; and [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} , in [her]_{130-jane wilson} heart , feeling that there was no sorrow like [a mother]_{883-a mother} 's sorrow , replied , " [She]_146-alice keeps on much the same , thank [you]_145-mary . [She]_146-alice 's happy , for [she]_146-alice knows nought of what 's going on ; but [th ' doctor]_{4853-th ' doctor} says [she]_146-alice grows weaker and weaker . [Thou'lt]_6959-thou'lt may be like to see [her]_146-alice ? "_{[130-jane wilson]} [Mary]_145-mary went up - stairs : partly because it is the etiquette in humble life to offer to [friends]_4851-friends a last opportunity of seeing [the dying or the dead]_{3326-the dying or the dead} , while the same etiquette forbids a refusal of the invitation ; and partly because [she]_145-mary longed to breathe , for an instant , the atmosphere of holy calm , which seemed ever to surround [the pious good old woman]_{3327-the pious good old woman} . [Alice]_146-alice lay , as before , without pain , or at least any outward expression of it ; but totally unconscious of all present circumstances , and absorbed in recollections of the days of [her]_146-alice girlhood , which were vivid enough to take the place of realities to [her]_146-alice . Still [she]_146-alice talked of [green fields]_{3328-green fields} , and still [she]_146-alice spoke to [the long - dead mother]_{3329-the long - dead mother} and [sister]_3330-sister , low - lying in [their]_3331-their graves this many a year , as if [they]_3331-their were with [her]_146-alice and about [her]_146-alice , in the pleasant places where [her]_146-alice youth had passed . But the voice was fainter , the motions were more languid ; [she]_146-alice was evidently passing away ; but _ how _ happily ! [Mary]_145-mary stood for a time in silence , watching and listening . Then [she]_146-alice bent down and reverently kissed [Alice]_146-alice 's cheek ; and drawing [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} away from the bed , as if the spirit of [her]_146-alice [who lay there were yet cognisant of present realities]_{3332-who lay there were yet cognisant of present realities} , [she]_146-alice whispered a few words of hope to [the poor mother]_{3333-the poor mother} , and kissing [her]_{3333-the poor mother} over and over again in a warm , loving manner , [she]_146-alice bade [her]_{3333-the poor mother} good - bye , went a few steps , and then once more came back to bid [her]_{3333-the poor mother} keep up [her]_{3333-the poor mother} heart . And when [she]_146-alice had fairly left [the house]_{803-the house} , [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} felt as if a sun - beam had ceased shining into [the room]_{616-the room} . Yet oh ! how sorely [Mary]_145-mary 's heart ached ; for more and more the fell certainty came on [her]_145-mary that [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} ! [She]_145-mary struggled hard not to dwell on this conviction ; to think alone on the means of proving [Jem]_154-jem 's innocence ; that was [her]_145-mary first duty , and that should be done . CHAPTER XXIII . [THE SUB - POENA]_{345-the sub - poena} . " And must it then depend on this poor eye And this unsteady hand , whether the bark , That bears [my]_{345-the sub - poena} all of treasured hope and love , Shall find a passage through [these frowning rocks]_{6960-these frowning rocks} To [some fair port where peace and safety smile,-- Or whether it shall blindly dash against them , And miserably sink]_{6961-some fair port where peace and safety smile,-- or whether it shall blindly dash against them , and miserably sink} ? Heaven be [my]_{345-the sub - poena} help ; And clear [my]_{345-the sub - poena} eye , and nerve [my]_{345-the sub - poena} trembling hand ! "_{[345-the sub - poena]} " [THE CONSTANT WOMAN]_{6962-the constant woman} . "_[145-mary] [Her]_145-mary heart beating , [her]_145-mary head full of ideas , which required time and solitude to be reduced into order , [Mary]_145-mary hurried [home]_4755-home . [She]_145-mary was like one who finds a jewel of which [he]_3339-he can not all at once ascertain the value , but who hides [his]_3339-he treasure until some quiet hour when [he]_3339-he may ponder over the capabilities its possession unfolds . [She]_145-mary was like one who discovers the silken clue which guides to some bower of bliss , and secure of the power within [his]_3339-he grasp , has to wait for a time before [he]_3339-he may tread the labyrinth . But no jewel , [no bower of bliss]_{3340-no bower of bliss} was ever so precious to [miser]_3341-miser or [lover]_3342-lover as was the belief which now pervaded [Mary]_145-mary 's mind , that [Jem]_154-jem 's innocence might be proved , without involving any suspicion of [that other]_{3343-that other} -- [that dear one]_{3344-that dear one} , so dear , although so criminal -- on whose part in this cruel business [she]_145-mary dared not dwell even in thought . For if [she]_145-mary did , there arose the awful question,--if all went against [Jem]_154-jem the innocent , if [judge]_6225-judge and [jury]_3346-jury gave the verdict forth which had the looming gallows in the rear , what ought [she]_145-mary to do , possessed of [her]_145-mary terrible knowledge ? Surely not to inculpate [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} -- and yet -- and yet -- [she]_145-mary almost prayed for the blessed unconsciousness of death or madness , rather than that awful question should have to be answered by [her]_145-mary . But now a way seemed opening , opening yet more clear . [She]_145-mary was thankful [she]_145-mary had thought of the _ alibi _ , and yet more thankful to have so easily obtained the clue to [Jem]_154-jem 's whereabouts that miserable night . The bright light that [her]_145-mary new hope threw over all seemed also to make [her]_145-mary thankful for the early time appointed for the trial . It would be easy to catch [Will Wilson]_{3348-will wilson} on [his]_{3348-will wilson} return from [the Isle of [Man]_95-man]_{2708-the isle of man} , which [he]_{3348-will wilson} had planned should be on the Monday ; and on the Tuesday all would be made clear -- all that [she]_145-mary dared to wish to be made clear . [She]_145-mary had still to collect [her]_145-mary thoughts and freshen [her]_145-mary memory enough to arrange how to meet with [Will]_154-jem -- for to the chances of a letter [she]_145-mary would not trust ; to find out [[his]_154-jem lodgings]_{3350-his lodgings} when in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ; to try and remember the name of [the ship in which [he]_154-jem was to sail]_{3351-the ship in which he was to sail} : and the more [she]_145-mary considered these points the more difficulty [she]_145-mary found there would be in ascertaining these minor but important facts . For [you]_3352-you are aware that [Alice]_146-alice , whose memory was clear and strong on all points in which [her]_146-alice heart was interested , was lying in a manner senseless : that [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} was ( to use [her]_{130-jane wilson} own word , so expressive to [a Lancashire ear]_{3353-a lancashire ear} ) " dazed , "_{[130-jane wilson]} that is to say , bewildered , lost in the confusion of terrifying and distressing thoughts ; incapable of concentrating [her]_{130-jane wilson} mind ; and at the best of times [Will]_{130-jane wilson} 's proceedings were a matter of little importance to [her]_145-mary ( or so [she]_145-mary pretended ) , [she]_145-mary was so jealous of aught which distracted attention from [her]_145-mary pearl of price , [[her]_145-mary only son]_{3354-her only son} [Jem]_154-jem . So [Mary]_145-mary felt hopeless of obtaining any intelligence of [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} 's arrangements from [her]_145-mary . Then , should [she]_145-mary apply to [Jem]_154-jem [himself]_154-jem ? No ! [she]_145-mary knew [him]_154-jem too well . [She]_145-mary felt how thoroughly [he]_154-jem must ere now have had it in [his]_154-jem power to exculpate [himself]_154-jem at [another]_1526-another 's expense . And [his]_154-jem tacit refusal so to do had assured [her]_145-mary of what [she]_145-mary had never doubted , that [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} was safe from any impeachment of [his]_154-jem . But then neither would [he]_154-jem consent , [she]_145-mary feared , to any steps which might tend to prove [himself]_154-jem innocent . At any rate , [she]_145-mary could not consult [him]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem was removed to [Kirkdale]_94-kirkdale , and time pressed . Already it was Saturday at noon . And even if [she]_145-mary could have gone to [him]_154-jem , [I]_0-i believe [she]_145-mary would not . [She]_145-mary longed to do all [herself]_145-mary ; to be [[his]_154-jem liberator]_{3358-his liberator} , [[his]_154-jem deliverer]_{3359-his deliverer} ; to win [him]_154-jem life , though [she]_145-mary might never regain [his]_154-jem lost love , by [her]_145-mary own exertions . And oh ! how could [she]_145-mary see [him]_154-jem to discuss a subject in which [both]_876-both knew who was [the blood - stained man]_{3361-the blood - stained man} ; and yet whose name might not be breathed by either , so dearly with all [his]_154-jem faults , [his]_154-jem sins , was [he]_154-jem loved by both . All at once , when [she]_145-mary had ceased to try and remember , the name of [[Will]_{130-jane wilson} 's ship]_{3362-will 's ship} flashed across [her]_145-mary mind . [The _ John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} . [He]_154-jem had named it , [she]_145-mary had been sure , all along . [He]_154-jem had named it in [his]_154-jem conversation with [her]_145-mary that last , that fatal Thursday evening . [She]_145-mary repeated it over and over again , through a nervous dread of again forgetting it . [The _ John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ . And then , as if [she]_145-mary were rousing [herself]_145-mary out of some strange stupor , [she]_145-mary bethought [her]_145-mary of [Margaret]_157-margaret . Who so likely as [Margaret]_157-margaret to treasure every little particular respecting Will , now [Alice]_146-alice was dead to all the stirring purposes of life ? [She]_145-mary had gone thus far in [her]_145-mary process of thought , when [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} stepped in ; [she]_145-mary with whom [they]_3364-they had usually deposited the house - key , when both [Mary]_145-mary and [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} were absent from [home]_4755-home , and who consequently took upon [herself]_145-mary to answer all inquiries , and receive all messages which [any friends]_{3367-any friends} might make , or leave , on finding [the house]_{803-the house} shut up . " Here 's somewhat for [you]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary ! [A policeman]_{4806-a policeman} left it . "_{[3369-many people]} A bit of parchment . [Many people]_{3369-many people} have a dread of those mysterious pieces of parchment . [I]_0-i am one . [Mary]_145-mary was another . [Her]_145-mary heart misgave [her]_145-mary as [she]_145-mary took it , and looked at the unusual appearance of the writing , which , though legible enough , conveyed no idea to [her]_145-mary , or rather [her]_145-mary mind shut itself up against receiving any idea , which after all was rather a proof [she]_145-mary had some suspicion of the meaning that awaited [her]_145-mary . " What is it ? "_[145-mary] asked [she]_145-mary , in a voice from which all the pith and marrow of strength seemed extracted . " Nay ! how should [I]_145-mary know ? [Policeman]_{347-policeman} said [he]_{347-policeman} 'd call again towards evening , and see if [you]_145-mary 'd getten it . [He]_{347-policeman} were loth to leave it , though [I]_145-mary telled [him]_{347-policeman} who [I]_145-mary was , and all about [my]_145-mary keeping th ' key , and taking messages . "_[145-mary] " What is it about ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary again , in the same hoarse , feeble voice , and turning it over in [her]_145-mary fingers , as if [she]_145-mary dreaded to inform [herself]_145-mary of its meaning . " Well ! [yo]_145-mary can read word of writing and [I]_145-mary can not , so it 's queer [I]_145-mary should have to tell [you]_145-mary . But [[my]_145-mary master]_{5167-my master} says it 's a summons for [yo]_145-mary to bear witness again [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , at th ' trial at [Liverpool Assize]_{96-liverpool assize} . "_[145-mary] " [God]_224-god pity [me]_145-mary ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , faintly , as white as a sheet . " Nay , [wench]_5103-wench , never take on so . What [yo]_145-mary can say will go little way either to help or to hinder , for [folk]_5093-folk say [he]_154-jem 's certain to be hung ; and sure enough it was t'other one as was [[your]_145-mary sweetheart]_{6967-your sweetheart} . "_[145-mary] But [Mary]_145-mary was beyond any pang this speech would have given at another time . [Her]_145-mary thoughts were all busy picturing to [herself]_145-mary the terrible occasion of [their]_3370-their next meeting -- not as [lovers]_5496-lovers meet should [they]_3370-their meet ! " Well ! "_{[695-the neighbour]} said [the neighbour]_{695-the neighbour} , seeing no use in remaining with one who noticed [her]_145-mary words or [her]_145-mary presence so little ; " [thou'lt]_6968-thou'lt tell policeman thou'st getten [his]_154-jem precious bit of paper . [He]_154-jem seemed to think [I]_{695-the neighbour} should be keeping it for [mysel]_{695-the neighbour} ; [he]_154-jem 's th ' first as has ever misdoubted [me]_{695-the neighbour} about giving messages , or notes . Good day . "_{[695-the neighbour]} [She]_145-mary left [the house]_{803-the house} , but [Mary]_145-mary did not know it . [She]_145-mary sat still with the parchment in [her]_145-mary hand . All at once [she]_145-mary started up . [She]_145-mary would take it to [Job Legh]_156-job and ask [him]_156-job to tell [her]_145-mary the true meaning , for it could not be _ that _ . So [she]_145-mary went , and choked out [her]_145-mary words of inquiry . " It 's a sub - poena , "_[156-job] [he]_156-job replied , turning the parchment over with the air of [a connoisseur]_{3374-a connoisseur} ; for [Job]_156-job loved hard words , and lawyer - like forms , and even esteemed [himself]_156-job slightly qualified for [a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} , from the smattering of knowledge [he]_156-job had picked up from an odd volume of Blackstone that [he]_156-job had once purchased at a book - stall . " [A sub - poena]_{6969-a sub - poena} -- what is that ? "_[145-mary] gasped [Mary]_145-mary , still in suspense . [Job]_156-job was struck with [her]_145-mary voice , [her]_145-mary changed , miserable voice , and peered at [her]_145-mary countenance from over [his]_156-job spectacles . " [A sub - poena]_{6969-a sub - poena} is neither more nor less than this , [[my]_156-job dear]_{5712-my dear} . It 's a summonsing [you]_{5712-my dear} to attend , and answer such questions as may be asked of [you]_{5712-my dear} regarding the trial of [James Wilson]_154-jem , for the murder of [Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; that 's the long and short of it , only more elegantly put , for the benefit of [them]_6972-they who knows how to value the gift of language . [I]_156-job 've been [a witness]_{2197-a witness} before - time [myself]_156-job ; there 's nothing much to be afeared on ; if [they]_6972-they are impudent , why , just [you]_{5712-my dear} be impudent , and give ['em]_6974-'em tit for tat . "_[156-job] " Nothing much to be afeared on ! "_[145-mary] echoed [Mary]_145-mary , but in such a different tone . " Ay , [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} , [I]_145-mary see how it is . It 'll go hard with [thee]_{4866-poor wench} a bit , [I]_145-mary dare say ; but keep up [thy]_{4866-poor wench} heart . [Yo]_{5712-my dear} can not have much to tell ['em]_6974-'em , that can go either one way or th ' other . Nay ! may be [thou]_6976-thou may do [him]_{4866-poor wench} a bit o ' good , for when [they]_6972-they set eyes on [thee]_6976-thou , [they]_6972-they 'll see fast enough how [he]_{4866-poor wench} came to be so led away by jealousy ; for [thou'rt]_6976-thou [a pretty creature]_{6977-a pretty creature} , [Mary]_145-mary , and one look at [thy]_{4866-poor wench} face will let ['em]_6974-'em into th ' secret of [a young man]_{665-a young man} 's madness , and make ['em]_6974-'em more ready to pass it over . "_[145-mary] " Oh ! [Job]_156-job , and wo n't [you]_{4866-poor wench} ever believe [me]_156-job when [I]_156-job tell [you]_{4866-poor wench} [he]_{4866-poor wench} 's innocent ? Indeed , and indeed [I]_156-job can prove it ; [he]_{4866-poor wench} was with [Will]_154-jem all that night ; [he]_{4866-poor wench} was , indeed , [Job]_156-job ! "_[156-job] " [[My]_156-job wench]_{2803-my wench} ! whose word hast [thou]_{4866-poor wench} for that ? "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , pityingly . " Why ! [[his]_{4866-poor wench} mother]_{787-his mother} told [me]_156-job , and [I]_156-job 'll get Will to bear witness to it . But , oh ! [Job]_156-job "_[156-job] ( bursting into tears ) , " it is hard if [you]_{4866-poor wench} wo n't believe [me]_156-job . How shall [I]_156-job clear [him]_{4866-poor wench} to [strangers]_{1301-strangers} , when [those who know [him]_{4866-poor wench} , and ought to love [him]_{4866-poor wench}]_{6982-those who know him , and ought to love him} , are so set against [his]_{4866-poor wench} being innocent ? "_[156-job] " God knows , [I]_156-job 'm not against [his]_{4866-poor wench} being innocent , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , solemnly . " [I]_156-job 'd give half [my]_156-job remaining days on earth,--I'd give [them]_6983-them all , [Mary]_145-mary ( and but for the love [I]_156-job bear to [[my]_156-job poor blind girl]_{6984-my poor blind girl} , [they]_6983-them 'd be no great gift ) , if [I]_156-job could save [him]_{4866-poor wench} . [You]_145-mary 've thought [me]_156-job hard , [Mary]_145-mary , but [I]_156-job 'm not hard at bottom , and [I]_156-job 'll help [you]_145-mary if [I]_156-job can ; that [I]_156-job will , right or wrong , "_[156-job] [he]_156-job added ; but in a low voice , and coughed the uncertain words away the moment afterwards . " Oh , [Job]_156-job ! if [you]_156-job will help [me]_145-mary , "_[145-mary] exclaimed [Mary]_145-mary , brightening up ( though it was but a wintry gleam after all ) , " tell [me]_145-mary what to say , when [they]_6985-they question [me]_145-mary ; [I]_145-mary shall be so gloppened , [ 46 ] [I]_145-mary sha n't know what to answer . "_[145-mary] [ Footnote 46 : " [Gloppened]_{348-gloppened} , "_[145-mary] terrified . ] " [Thou]_6986-thou canst do nought better than tell the truth . Truth 's best at all times , [they]_6985-they say ; and for sure it is when [folk]_5093-folk have to do with [lawyers]_6988-lawyers ; for [they]_6985-they 're ' cute and cunning enough to get it out sooner or later , and it makes [folk]_5093-folk look like [Tom Noddies]_{349-tom noddies} , when truth follows falsehood , against [their]_5093-folk will . "_[145-mary] " But [I]_145-mary do n't know the truth ; [I]_145-mary mean -- [I]_145-mary ca n't say rightly what [I]_145-mary mean ; but [I]_145-mary 'm sure , if [I]_145-mary were pent up , and stared at by hundreds of [folk]_5093-folk , and asked ever so simple a question , [I]_145-mary should be for answering it wrong ; if [they]_6985-they asked [me]_145-mary if [I]_145-mary had seen [you]_6991-you on a Saturday , or a Tuesday , or any day , [I]_145-mary should have clean forgotten all about it , and say the very thing [I]_145-mary should not . "_[145-mary] " Well , well , do n't go for to get such notions into [your]_6991-you head ; [they]_6992-they 're what [they]_6985-they call ' narvous , ' and talking on 'em does no good . Here 's [Margaret]_157-margaret ! bless [the wench]_{6993-the wench} ! Look , [Mary]_145-mary , how well [she]_157-margaret guides hersel . "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job fell to watching [[his]_156-job grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} , as with balancing , measured steps , timed almost as if to music , [she]_{1025-his grand - daughter} made [her]_{1025-his grand - daughter} way across [the street]_{4821-the street} . [Mary]_145-mary shrank as if from a cold blast -- shrank from [Margaret]_157-margaret ! [The blind girl]_{6268-the blind girl} , with [her]_{6268-the blind girl} reserve , [her]_{6268-the blind girl} silence , seemed to be [a severe judge]_{3379-a severe judge} ; [she]_{6268-the blind girl} , listening , would be such a check to the trusting earnestness of confidence , which was beginning to unlock the sympathy of [Job]_156-job . [Mary]_145-mary knew [herself]_145-mary to blame ; felt [her]_145-mary errors in every fibre of [her]_145-mary heart ; but yet [she]_145-mary would rather have had [them]_3380-them spoken about , even in terms of severest censure , than have been treated in the icy manner in which [Margaret]_157-margaret had received [her]_145-mary that morning . " Here 's [Mary]_145-mary , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , almost as if [he]_156-job wished to propitiate [[his]_156-job grand - daughter]_{1025-his grand - daughter} , " come to take a bit of dinner with [us]_6994-us , for [I]_156-job 'll warrant [she]_{1025-his grand - daughter} 's never thought of cooking any for [herself]_{1025-his grand - daughter} to - day ; and [she]_{1025-his grand - daughter} looks as wan and pale as a ghost . "_[156-job] It was calling out the feeling of hospitality , so strong and warm in most of those who have little to offer , but whose heart goes eagerly and kindly with that little . [Margaret]_157-margaret came towards [Mary]_145-mary with a welcoming gesture , and a kinder manner by far than [she]_157-margaret had used in the morning . " Nay , [Mary]_145-mary , [thou]_145-mary know'st thou'st getten nought at [home]_4755-home , "_[156-job] urged [Job]_156-job . And [Mary]_145-mary , faint and weary , and with a heart too aching - full of other matters to be pertinacious in this , withdrew [her]_145-mary refusal . [They]_3382-they ate [their]_3382-they dinner quietly ; for to all it was an effort to speak , and after one or two attempts [they]_3382-they had subsided into silence . When the meal was ended [Job]_156-job began again on the subject [they]_3382-they all had at heart . " [[Yon]_6996-yon poor lad at [Kirkdale]_94-kirkdale]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} will want [a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} to see [they]_{3375-a lawyer} do n't put on [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} , but do [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} justice . Hast thought of that ? "_[156-job] [Mary]_145-mary had not , and felt sure [[his]_156-job mother]_{787-his mother} had not . [Margaret]_157-margaret confirmed this last supposition . " [I]_157-margaret 've but just been there , and poor [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} is like [one dateless]_{6999-one dateless} ; so many griefs come on [her]_{130-jane wilson} at once . One time [she]_{130-jane wilson} seems to make sure [he]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} 'll be hung ; and if [I]_157-margaret took [her]_{130-jane wilson} in that way , [she]_{130-jane wilson} flew out ( poor body ! ) and said , that in spite of what [folk]_5093-folk said , there were [them]_5093-folk as could , and would prove [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} guiltless . So [I]_157-margaret never knew where to have [her]_{130-jane wilson} . The only thing [she]_{130-jane wilson} was constant in , was declaring [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} innocent . "_{[157-margaret]} " [Mother]_161-mother - like ! "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job . " [She]_{130-jane wilson} meant [Will]_{130-jane wilson} , when [she]_{130-jane wilson} spoke of [them]_5093-folk that could prove [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} innocent . [He]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} was with [Will]_{130-jane wilson} on Thursday night , walking a part of the way with [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ; now the thing is to lay hold on [Will]_{130-jane wilson} and get [him]_{6997-yon poor lad at kirkdale} to prove this . "_[156-job] So spoke [Mary]_145-mary , calm , from the earnestness of [her]_145-mary purpose . " Do n't build too much on it , [[my]_156-job dear]_{5712-my dear} , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job . " [I]_145-mary do build on it , "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , " because [I]_145-mary know it 's the truth , and [I]_145-mary mean to try and prove it , come what may . Nothing [you]_156-job can say will daunt [me]_145-mary , [Job]_156-job , so do n't [you]_156-job go and try . [You]_156-job may help , but [you]_156-job can not hinder [me]_145-mary doing what [I]_145-mary 'm resolved on . "_[145-mary] [They]_3384-they respected [her]_145-mary firmness of determination , and [Job]_156-job almost gave in to [her]_145-mary belief , when [he]_156-job saw how steadfastly [she]_145-mary was acting upon it . Oh ! surest way of conversion to [our]_3385-our faith , whatever it may be,--regarding either small things , or great,--when it is beheld as the actuating principle , from which [we]_3385-our never swerve ! When it is seen that , instead of over - much profession , it is worked into the life , and moves every action ! [Mary]_145-mary gained courage as [she]_145-mary instinctively felt [she]_145-mary had made way with [one at least of [[her]_145-mary companions]_{2489-her companions}]_{3386-one at least of her companions} . " Now [I]_145-mary 'm clear about this much , "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary continued , " [he]_{3386-one at least of her companions} was with [Will]_{130-jane wilson} when the -- shot was fired ( [she]_145-mary could not bring [herself]_145-mary to say , when the murder was committed , when [she]_145-mary remembered _ who _ it was that , [she]_145-mary had every reason to believe , was [the taker - away of life]_{7002-the taker - away of life} ) . [Will]_{130-jane wilson} can prove this . [I]_145-mary must find [Will]_{130-jane wilson} . [He]_{3386-one at least of her companions} was n't to sail till Tuesday . There 's time enough . [He]_{3386-one at least of her companions} was to come back from [[his]_{3386-one at least of her companions} uncle]_{7003-his uncle} 's , in [the Isle of Man]_{97-the isle of man} , on Monday . [I]_145-mary must meet [him]_{3386-one at least of her companions} in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , on that day , and tell [him]_{3386-one at least of her companions} what has happened , and how poor [Jem]_154-jem is in trouble , and that [he]_{3386-one at least of her companions} must prove an _ alibi _ , come Tuesday . All this [I]_145-mary can and will do , though perhaps [I]_145-mary do n't clearly know how , just at present . But surely [God]_224-god will help [me]_145-mary . When [I]_145-mary know [I]_145-mary 'm doing right , [I]_145-mary will have no fear , but put [my]_145-mary trust in [Him]_{3386-one at least of her companions} ; for [I]_145-mary 'm acting for [the innocent]_{7004-the innocent} and good , and not for [my]_145-mary own self , who have done so wrong . [I]_145-mary have no fear when [I]_145-mary think of [Jem]_154-jem , who is so good . "_[145-mary] [She]_3388-her stopped , oppressed with the fulness of [her]_3388-her heart . [Margaret]_157-margaret began to love [her]_3388-her again ; to see in [her]_3388-her the same sweet , faulty , impulsive , lovable creature [she]_157-margaret had known in the former [Mary Barton]_145-mary , but with more of dignity , self - reliance , and purpose . [Mary]_145-mary spoke again . " Now [I]_3389-i know the name of [[Will]_{130-jane wilson} 's vessel]_{7005-will 's vessel} -- the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ ; and [I]_3389-i know that [she]_{7005-will 's vessel} is bound to [America]_72-america . That is something to know . But [I]_3389-i forget , if [I]_3389-i ever heard , where [he]_154-jem lodges in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . [He]_154-jem spoke of [[his]_154-jem landlady]_{7006-his landlady} , as [a good , trustworthy woman]_{7007-a good , trustworthy woman} ; but if [he]_154-jem named [her]_{7006-his landlady} name , it has slipped [my]_3389-i memory . Can [you]_{586-her friend} help [me]_3389-i , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? "_[3389-i] [She]_3389-i appealed to [[her]_3389-i friend]_{586-her friend} calmly and openly , as if perfectly aware of , and recognising the unspoken tie which bound [her]_3389-i and [Will]_{130-jane wilson} together ; [she]_3389-i asked [her]_{586-her friend} in the same manner in which [she]_3389-i would have asked a wife where [[her]_3389-i husband]_{587-her husband} dwelt . And [Margaret]_157-margaret replied in the like calm tone , two spots of crimson on [her]_157-margaret cheeks alone bearing witness to any internal agitation . " [He]_154-jem lodges at [a [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's , [Milk - House Yard]_{98-milk - house yard} , out of [Nicholas Street]_{92-nicholas street}]_{7008-a mrs. jones 's , milk - house yard , out of nicholas street} . [He]_154-jem has lodged [there]_873-there ever since [he]_154-jem began to go to [sea]_4969-sea ; [she]_7011-she is [a very decent kind of woman]_{7012-a very decent kind of woman} , [I]_157-margaret believe . "_{[157-margaret]} " Well , [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_156-job 'll give [you]_145-mary [my]_156-job prayers , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job . " It 's not often [I]_156-job pray regular , though [I]_156-job often speak a word to [God]_224-god , when [I]_156-job 'm either very happy or very sorry ; [I]_156-job 've catched [myself]_156-job thanking [Him]_154-jem at odd hours when [I]_156-job 've found a rare insect , or had a fine day for an out ; but [I]_156-job can not help it , no more than [I]_156-job can talking to [a friend]_{5409-a friend} . But this time [I]_156-job 'll pray regular for [Jem]_154-jem , and for [you]_145-mary . And so will [Margaret]_157-margaret , [I]_156-job 'll be bound . Still , [wench]_5103-wench ! what think [yo]_157-margaret of [a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} ? [I]_156-job know one , [Mr. Cheshire]_{351-mr. cheshire} , who 's rather given to [th]_7016-th ' insect line -- and [a good kind o ' chap]_{7017-a good kind o ' chap} . [He]_{351-mr. cheshire} and [I]_156-job have swopped specimens many 's the time , when [either of [us]_7019-us]_{7018-either of us} had a duplicate . [He]_{351-mr. cheshire} 'll do [me]_156-job a kind turn , [I]_156-job 'm sure . [I]_156-job 'll just take [my]_156-job hat , and pay [him]_{351-mr. cheshire} a visit . "_[156-job] No sooner said , than done . [Margaret]_157-margaret and [Mary]_145-mary were left alone . And this seemed to bring back the feeling of awkwardness , not to say estrangement . But [Mary]_145-mary , excited to an unusual pitch of courage , was the first to break silence . " Oh , [Margaret]_157-margaret ! "_{[157-margaret]} said [she]_157-margaret , " [I]_157-margaret see -- [I]_157-margaret feel how wrong [you]_157-margaret think [I]_157-margaret have acted ; [you]_157-margaret can not think [me]_157-margaret worse than [I]_157-margaret think [myself]_157-margaret , now [my]_157-margaret eyes are opened . "_{[157-margaret]} Here [her]_157-margaret sobs came choking up [her]_157-margaret voice . " Nay , "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret began , " [I]_157-margaret have no right to-- "_{[157-margaret]} " Yes , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [you]_157-margaret have a right to judge ; [you]_157-margaret can not help it ; only in [your]_157-margaret judgment remember mercy , as the Bible says . [You]_157-margaret , who have been always good , can not tell how easy it is at first to go a little wrong , and then how hard it is to go back . Oh ! [I]_157-margaret little thought when [I]_157-margaret was first pleased with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's speeches , how it would all end ; perhaps in the death of [him]_{209-mr. carson} [I]_157-margaret love better than life . "_{[157-margaret]} [She]_157-margaret burst into a passion of tears . The feelings pent up through the day would have vent . But checking [herself]_157-margaret with a strong effort , and looking up at [Margaret]_157-margaret as piteously as if those calm , stony eyes could see [her]_157-margaret imploring face , [she]_157-margaret added , " [I]_157-margaret must not cry ; [I]_157-margaret must not give way ; there will be time enough for that hereafter , if -- [I]_157-margaret only wanted [you]_157-margaret to speak kindly to [me]_157-margaret , [Margaret]_157-margaret , for [I]_157-margaret am very , very wretched ; more wretched than [any one]_{504-any one} can ever know ; more wretched , [I]_157-margaret sometimes fancy , than [I]_157-margaret have deserved,--but that 's wrong , is n't it , [Margaret]_157-margaret ? Oh ! [I]_157-margaret have done wrong , and [I]_157-margaret am punished ; [you]_157-margaret can not tell how much . "_{[157-margaret]} Who could resist [her]_157-margaret voice , [her]_157-margaret tones of misery , of humility ? Who would refuse the kindness for which [she]_157-margaret begged so penitently ? Not [Margaret]_157-margaret . The old friendly manner came back . With it , may be , more of tenderness . " Oh ! [Margaret]_157-margaret , do [you]_157-margaret think [he]_7021-he can be saved ; do [you]_157-margaret think [they]_7022-they can find [him]_7021-he guilty if [Will]_154-jem comes forward as [a witness]_{2197-a witness} ? Wo n't that be a good _ alibi _ ? "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret did not answer for a moment . " Oh , speak ! [Margaret]_157-margaret , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , with anxious impatience . " [I]_157-margaret know nought about law , or _ alibis _ , "_{[157-margaret]} replied [Margaret]_157-margaret , meekly ; " but , [Mary]_145-mary , as [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} says , are n't [you]_145-mary building too much on what [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} has told [you]_145-mary about [his]_7021-he going with [Will]_{130-jane wilson} ? [Poor soul]_{7025-poor soul} , [she]_{7025-poor soul} 's gone dateless , [I]_157-margaret think , with care , and watching , and over - much trouble ; and who can wonder ? Or [Jem]_154-jem may have told [her]_{7025-poor soul} [he]_154-jem was going , by way of a blind . "_{[157-margaret]} " [You]_145-mary do n't know [Jem]_154-jem , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , starting from [her]_145-mary seat in a hurried manner , " or [you]_145-mary would not say so . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary hope [I]_145-mary may be wrong ; but think , [Mary]_145-mary , how much there is against [him]_154-jem . The shot was fired with [his]_154-jem gun ; [he]_154-jem it was as threatened [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} not many days before ; [he]_154-jem was absent from [home]_4755-home at that very time , as [we]_7027-we know , and , as [I]_145-mary 'm much afeared , [some one]_{5544-some one} will be called on to prove ; and there 's [no one else]_{6746-no one else} to share suspicion with [him]_154-jem . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary heaved a deep sigh . " But , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [he]_154-jem did not do it , "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary again asserted . [Margaret]_157-margaret looked unconvinced . " [I]_157-margaret can do no good , [I]_157-margaret see , by saying so , for none on [you]_157-margaret believe [me]_157-margaret , and [I]_157-margaret wo n't say so again till [I]_157-margaret can prove it . Monday morning [I]_157-margaret 'll go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . [I]_157-margaret shall be at hand for the trial . Oh dear ! dear ! And [I]_157-margaret will find [Will]_{130-jane wilson} ; and then , [Margaret]_157-margaret , [I]_157-margaret think [you]_157-margaret 'll be sorry for being so stubborn about [Jem]_154-jem . "_{[157-margaret]} " Do n't fly off , [dear]_5078-dear [Mary]_145-mary ; [I]_145-mary 'd give a deal to be wrong . And now [I]_145-mary 'm going to be plain spoken . [You]_157-margaret 'll want money . [[Them]_7031-them [lawyers]_6988-lawyers]_{7032-them lawyers} is no better than a spunge for sucking up money ; let alone [your]_157-margaret hunting out Will , and [your]_157-margaret keep in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , and what not . [You]_157-margaret must take some of the mint [I]_145-mary 've got laid by in the old tea - pot . [You]_157-margaret have no right to refuse , for [I]_145-mary offer it to [Jem]_154-jem , not to [you]_157-margaret ; it 's for [his]_154-jem purposes [you]_157-margaret 're to use it . "_[145-mary] " [I]_157-margaret know -- [I]_157-margaret see . Thank [you]_157-margaret , [Margaret]_157-margaret ; [you]_157-margaret 're [a kind one]_{7034-a kind one} , at any rate . [I]_157-margaret take it for [Jem]_154-jem ; and [I]_157-margaret 'll do [my]_157-margaret very best with it for [him]_154-jem . Not all , though ; do n't think [I]_157-margaret 'll take all . [They]_7035-they 'll pay [me]_157-margaret for [my]_157-margaret keep . [I]_157-margaret 'll take this , "_{[157-margaret]} accepting a sovereign from the hoard which [Margaret]_157-margaret produced out of its accustomed place in the cupboard . " [[Your]_157-margaret grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} will pay [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} . [I]_157-margaret 'll have nought to do with [him]_154-jem , "_{[157-margaret]} shuddering as [she]_157-margaret remembered [Job]_156-job 's words , about [lawyers]_6988-lawyers ' skill in always discovering the truth , sooner or later ; and knowing what was the secret [she]_157-margaret had to hide . " Bless [you]_145-mary ! do n't make such ado about it , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret , cutting short [Mary]_145-mary 's thanks . " [I]_157-margaret sometimes think there 's two sides to the commandment ; and that [we]_7038-we may say , ' Let [others]_737-others do unto [you]_157-margaret , as [you]_157-margaret would do unto [them]_737-others , ' for pride often prevents [our]_7038-we giving [others]_737-others a great deal of pleasure , in not letting [them]_737-others be kind , when [their]_737-others hearts are longing to help ; and when [we]_7038-we [ourselves]_7038-we should wish to do just the same , if [we]_7038-we were in [their]_737-others place . Oh ! how often [I]_157-margaret 've been hurt , by being coldly told by [persons]_7041-persons not to trouble [myself]_157-margaret about [their]_737-others care , or sorrow , when [I]_157-margaret saw [them]_737-others in great grief , and wanted to be of comfort . [[Our]_7038-we Lord [Jesus]_352-jesus]_{7042-our lord jesus} was not above letting [folk]_5093-folk minister to [Him]_352-jesus , for [He]_352-jesus knew how happy it makes one to do aught for another . It 's the happiest work on [earth]_1255-earth . "_{[157-margaret]} [Mary]_145-mary had been too much engrossed by watching what was passing in [the street]_{4821-the street} to attend very closely to that which [Margaret]_157-margaret was saying . From [her]_145-mary seat [she]_145-mary could see out of the window pretty plainly , and [she]_145-mary caught sight of [a gentleman walking alongside of [Job]_156-job]_{3394-a gentleman walking alongside of job} , evidently in earnest conversation with [him]_156-job , and looking keen and penetrating enough to be [a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} . [Job]_156-job was laying down something to be attended to [she]_145-mary could see , by [his]_156-job up - lifted fore - finger , and [his]_156-job whole gesture ; then [he]_156-job pointed and nodded across [the street]_{4821-the street} to [[his]_156-job own house]_{6545-his own house} , as if inducing [[his]_156-job companion]_{690-his companion} to come in . [Mary]_145-mary dreaded lest [he]_156-job should , and [she]_145-mary be subjected to a closer cross - examination than [she]_145-mary had hitherto undergone , as to why [she]_145-mary was so certain that [Jem]_154-jem was innocent . [She]_145-mary feared [he]_156-job was coming ; [he]_156-job stepped a little towards the spot . No ! it was only to make way for [a child]_{4770-a child} , tottering along , whom [Mary]_145-mary had overlooked . Now [Job]_156-job took [him]_156-job by the button , so earnestly familiar had [he]_156-job grown . [The gentleman]_{6092-the gentleman} looked " fidging fain "_{[6092-the gentleman]} to be gone , but submitted in a manner that made [Mary]_145-mary like [him]_156-job in spite of [his]_156-job profession . Then came a volley of last words , answered by briefest nods , and monosyllables ; and then [the stranger]_{3401-the stranger} went off with redoubled quickness of pace , and [Job]_156-job crossed [the street]_{4821-the street} with a little satisfied air of importance on [his]_156-job kindly face . " Well ! [Mary]_145-mary , "_[156-job] said [he]_156-job on entering , " [I]_156-job 've seen [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} , not [Mr. Cheshire]_{351-mr. cheshire} though ; trials for murder , it seems , are not [his]_156-job line o ' business . But [he]_156-job gived [me]_156-job a note to [another ' torney]_{7046-another ' torney} ; [a fine fellow enough , only too much of a talker]_{7047-a fine fellow enough , only too much of a talker} ; [I]_156-job could hardly get a word in , [he]_156-job cut [me]_156-job so short . However , [I]_156-job 've just been going over the principal points again to [him]_156-job ; may be [you]_145-mary saw [us]_7048-us ? [I]_156-job wanted [him]_156-job just to come over and speak to [you]_145-mary [himsel]_{7046-another ' torney} , [Mary]_145-mary , but [he]_156-job was pressed for time ; and [he]_156-job said [your]_145-mary evidence would not be much either here or there . [He]_156-job 's going to [the ' sizes first train]_{7049-the ' sizes first train} on Monday morning , and will see [Jem]_154-jem , and hear the ins and outs from [him]_156-job , and [he]_156-job 's gived [me]_156-job [his]_156-job address , [Mary]_145-mary , and [you]_145-mary and [Will]_154-jem are to call on [him]_156-job ( [Will]_154-jem ' special ) on Monday at two o'clock . [Thou'rt]_7050-thou'rt taking it in , [Mary]_145-mary ; [thou'rt]_7050-thou'rt to call on [him]_156-job in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool at two , Monday afternoon ? "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job had reason to doubt if [she]_3403-she fully understood [him]_156-job ; for all this minuteness of detail , these satisfactory arrangements , as [he]_156-job considered them , only seemed to bring the circumstances in which [she]_3403-she was placed more vividly [home]_4755-home to [Mary]_145-mary . [They]_3405-they convinced [her]_145-mary that it was real , and not all a dream , as [she]_145-mary had sunk into fancying it for a few minutes , while sitting in [the old accustomed place]_{3406-the old accustomed place} , [her]_145-mary body enjoying the rest , and [her]_145-mary frame sustained by food , and listening to [Margaret]_157-margaret 's calm voice . [The gentleman [she]_145-mary had just beheld]_{3407-the gentleman she had just beheld} would see and question [Jem]_154-jem in a few hours , and what would be the result ? Monday : that was the day after to - morrow , and on Tuesday , life and death would be tremendous realities to [[her]_145-mary lover]_{2048-her lover} ; or else death would be an awful certainty to [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . No wonder [Job]_156-job went over [his]_156-job main points again:-- " Monday ; at two o'clock , mind ; and here 's [his]_156-job card . ' [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , 41 , [Renshaw Street]_{99-renshaw street} , [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . ' [He]_156-job 'll be lodging [there]_873-there . "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job ceased talking , and the silence roused [Mary]_145-mary up to thank [him]_156-job . " [You]_156-job 're very kind , [Job]_156-job ; very . [You]_156-job and [Margaret]_157-margaret wo n't desert [me]_156-job , come what will . "_[156-job] " Pooh ! pooh ! wench ; do n't lose heart , just as [I]_156-job 'm beginning to get it . [He]_156-job seems to think a deal on [Will]_154-jem 's evidence . [You]_156-job 're sure , [girls]_4752-girls , [you]_156-job 're under no mistake about [Will]_154-jem ? "_[156-job] " [I]_145-mary 'm sure , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , " [he]_156-job went straight from here , purposing to go see [[his]_156-job uncle]_{7003-his uncle} at [the Isle of Man]_{2708-the isle of man} , and be back Sunday night , ready for [the ship sailing on Tuesday]_{7055-the ship sailing on tuesday} . "_[145-mary] " So am [I]_157-margaret , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret . " And [the ship]_{5017-the ship} 's name was the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ , and [he]_156-job lodged where [I]_157-margaret told [Mary]_145-mary before . Have [you]_145-mary got it down , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_{[157-margaret]} [Mary]_145-mary wrote it on the back of [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's card . " [He]_156-job was not over - willing to go , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , as [she]_145-mary wrote , " for [he]_156-job knew little about [[his]_156-job uncle]_{7003-his uncle} , and said [he]_156-job did n't care if [he]_156-job never knowed more . But [he]_156-job said kinsfolk was kinsfolk , and promises was promises , so [he]_156-job 'd go for a day or so , and then it would be over . "_[145-mary] [Margaret]_157-margaret had to go and practise some singing in [town]_5223-town ; so , though loth to depart and be alone , [Mary]_145-mary bade [[her]_145-mary friends]_{6575-her friends} good - bye . CHAPTER XXIV . WITH THE DYING . " O sad and solemn is the trembling watch Of [those who sit and count the heavy hours]_{7058-those who sit and count the heavy hours} , Beside the fevered sleep of one [they]_{7058-those who sit and count the heavy hours} love ! O awful is it in the hushed mid night , While gazing on the pallid , moveless form , To start and ask , ' Is it now sleep -- or death ? ' "_[145-mary] ANONYMOUS . [Mary]_145-mary could not be patient in [her]_145-mary loneliness ; so much painful thought weighed on [her]_145-mary mind ; [the very house]_{3412-the very house} was haunted with memories and foreshadowings . Having performed all duties to [Jem]_154-jem , as far as [her]_145-mary weak powers , yet loving heart could act ; and a black veil being drawn over [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's past , present , and future life , beyond which [she]_145-mary could not penetrate to judge of any filial service [she]_145-mary ought to render ; [her]_145-mary mind unconsciously sought after some course of action in which [she]_145-mary might engage . Any thing , any thing , rather than leisure for reflection . And then came up the old feeling which first bound [Ruth]_354-ruth to [Naomi]_355-naomi ; the love [they]_3414-they both held towards one object ; and [Mary]_145-mary felt that [her]_145-mary cares would be most lightened by being of use , or of comfort to [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} . So [she]_145-mary once more locked up [the house]_{803-the house} , and set off towards [Ancoats]_8-ancoats ; rushing along with down - cast head , for fear lest [any one]_{504-any one} should recognise [her]_145-mary and arrest [her]_145-mary progress . [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} sat quietly in [her]_{130-jane wilson} chair as [Mary]_145-mary entered ; so quietly , as to strike one by the contrast it presented to [her]_{130-jane wilson} usual bustling and nervous manner . [She]_{130-jane wilson} looked very pale and wan ; but the quietness was the thing that struck [Mary]_145-mary most . [She]_{130-jane wilson} did not rise as [Mary]_145-mary came in , but sat still and said something in so gentle , so feeble a voice , that [Mary]_145-mary did not catch it . [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , who was there , plucked [Mary]_145-mary by the gown , and whispered , " Never heed [her]_{130-jane wilson} ; [she]_{130-jane wilson} 's worn out , and best let alone . [I]_{219-mrs. davenport} 'll tell [you]_145-mary all about it , up - [stairs]_4740-stairs . "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} But [Mary]_145-mary , touched by the anxious look with which [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} gazed at [her]_145-mary , as if awaiting the answer to some question , went forward to listen to the speech [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} was again repeating . " What is this ? will [you]_{219-mrs. davenport} tell [me]_{219-mrs. davenport} ? "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} Then [Mary]_145-mary looked and saw another ominous slip of parchment in [the mother]_{5048-the mother} 's hand , which [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} was rolling up and down in a tremulous manner between [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} fingers . [Mary]_145-mary 's heart sickened within [her]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary could not speak . " What is it ? "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary repeated . " Will [you]_{219-mrs. davenport} tell [me]_145-mary ? "_[145-mary] [She]_{219-mrs. davenport} still looked at [Mary]_145-mary , with the same child - like gaze of wonder and patient entreaty . What could [she]_145-mary answer ? " [I]_{219-mrs. davenport} telled [ye]_145-mary not to heed [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} , "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} said [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , a little angrily . " [She]_{219-mrs. davenport} knows well enough what it is,--too well , belike . [I]_{219-mrs. davenport} was not in when [they]_7060-they sarved it ; but [Mrs. Heming]_{357-mrs. heming} ( [her]_{357-mrs. heming} as lives next door ) was , and [she]_{357-mrs. heming} spelled out the meaning , and made it all clear to [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . It 's a summons to be [a witness]_{2197-a witness} on [Jem]_154-jem 's trial -- [Mrs. Heming]_{357-mrs. heming} thinks , to swear to the gun ; for , [yo]_145-mary see , there 's nobbut [ 47 ] [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} as can testify to its being [his]_154-jem , and [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} let on so easily to [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} that it was [his]_154-jem , that there 's no getting off [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} word now . [Poor body]_{7063-poor body} ; [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} takes it very hard , [I]_{219-mrs. davenport} dare say ! "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} [ Footnote 47 : " Nobbut , "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} none - but . " [No man]_{1243-no man} sigh evere God _ no but _ [the oon bigetun sone]_{7065-the oon bigetun sone} . "--_Wiclif_{[219-mrs. davenport]} 's Version . _ ] [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} had waited patiently while this whispered speech was being uttered , imagining , perhaps , that it would end in some explanation addressed to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} . But when [both]_876-both were silent , though [their]_876-both eyes , without speech or language , told [their]_876-both hearts ' pity , [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} spoke again in the same unaltered gentle voice ( so different from the irritable impatience [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had been ever apt to show to every one except [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} husband,--he who had wedded [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} , broken - down and injured)--in a voice so different , [I]_0-i say , from the old , hasty manner , [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} spoke now the same anxious words , " What is this ? Will [you]_0-i tell [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [Yo'd]_0-i better give it [me]_145-mary at once , [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , and let [me]_145-mary put it out of [your]_{134-mrs. wilson} sight.--Speak to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [Mary]_145-mary , [wench]_5103-wench , and ask for a sight on it ; [I]_145-mary 've tried , and better - tried to get it from [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} , and [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} takes no heed of words , and [I]_145-mary 'm loth to pull it by force out of [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} hands . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary drew the little " cricket "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [ 48 ] out from under the dresser , and sat down at [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's knee , and , coaxing one of [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} tremulous , ever - moving hands into [hers]_{134-mrs. wilson} , began to rub it soothingly ; there was a little resistance -- a very little , but that was all ; and presently , in the nervous movement of the imprisoned hand , the parchment fell to the ground . [ Footnote 48 " [Cricket]_358-cricket , "_{[4779-the girl]} a stool . ] [Mary]_145-mary calmly and openly picked it up without any attempt at concealment , and quietly placing it in sight of the anxious eyes that followed it with a kind of spell - bound dread , went on with [her]_145-mary soothing caresses . " [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} has had no sleep for many nights , "_{[4779-the girl]} said [the girl]_{4779-the girl} to [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} , " and all this woe and sorrow,--it 's no wonder . "_{[4779-the girl]} " No , indeed ! "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} answered . " [We]_3422-they must get [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} fairly to bed ; [we]_3422-they must get [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} undressed , and all ; and trust to [God]_224-god , in [His]_224-god mercy , to send [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} to sleep , or else,-- "_{[219-mrs. davenport]} For , [you]_3421-you see , [they]_3422-they spoke before [her]_145-mary as if [she]_145-mary were not there ; [her]_145-mary heart was so far away . Accordingly [they]_3422-they almost lifted [her]_145-mary from the chair in which [she]_145-mary sat motionless , and taking [her]_145-mary up as gently as [a mother]_{883-a mother} carries [[her]_{883-a mother} sleeping baby]_{3424-her sleeping baby} , [they]_3422-they undressed [her]_145-mary poor , worn form , and laid [her]_145-mary in the little bed up - stairs . [They]_3422-they had once thought of placing [her]_145-mary in [Jem]_154-jem 's bed , to be out of sight or sound of any disturbance of [Alice]_146-alice 's , but then again [they]_3422-they remembered the shock [she]_145-mary might receive in awakening in so unusual a place , and also that [Mary]_145-mary , who intended to keep vigil that night in [the house of mourning]_{5335-the house of mourning} , would find it difficult to divide [her]_145-mary attention in the possible cases that might ensue . So [they]_3422-they laid [her]_145-mary , as [I]_0-i said before , on that little pallet - bed ; and , as [they]_3422-they were slowly withdrawing from the bed - side , hoping and praying that [she]_145-mary might sleep , and forget for a time [her]_145-mary heavy burden , [she]_145-mary looked wistfully after [Mary]_145-mary , and whispered , " [You]_145-mary have n't told [me]_145-mary what it is . What is it ? "_[145-mary] And gazing in [her]_145-mary face for the expected answer , [her]_145-mary eye - lids slowly closed , and [she]_145-mary fell into a deep , heavy sleep , almost as profound a rest as death . [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} went [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} way , and [Mary]_145-mary was alone,--for [I]_0-i can not call [those who sleep allies against the agony of thought which solitude]_{3426-those who sleep allies against the agony of thought which solitude} sometimes brings up . [She]_145-mary dreaded the night before [her]_145-mary . [Alice]_146-alice might die ; [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} had that day declared [her]_145-mary case hopeless , and not far from death ; and at times the terror , so natural to [the young]_{3428-the young} , not of death , but of the remains of the dead , came over [Mary]_145-mary ; and [she]_145-mary bent and listened anxiously for the long - drawn , pausing breath of the sleeping [Alice]_146-alice . Or [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} might awake in a state which [Mary]_145-mary dreaded to anticipate , and anticipated while [she]_145-mary dreaded;--in a state of complete delirium . Already [her]_145-mary senses had been severely stunned by the full explanation of what was required of [her,--of]_{3429-her,--of} what [she]_145-mary had to prove against [[her]_145-mary son]_{2056-her son} , [[her]_145-mary Jem]_{3431-her jem} , [her]_145-mary only child,--which [Mary]_145-mary could not doubt the officious [Mrs. Heming]_{357-mrs. heming} had given ; and what if in dreams ( [that land into which no sympathy or love can penetrate with another]_{3432-that land into which no sympathy or love can penetrate with another} , either to share its bliss or its agony,--that land whose scenes are unspeakable terrors , are hidden mysteries , are priceless treasures to [one alone,--that land where alone [I]_0-i may see]_{3433-one alone,--that land where alone i may see} , while yet [I]_0-i tarry here , the sweet looks of [my]_0-i dead child),--what if , in the horrors of [her]_145-mary dreams , [her]_145-mary brain should go still more astray , and [she]_145-mary should waken crazy with [her]_145-mary visions , and the terrible reality that begot them ? How much worse is anticipation sometimes than reality ! How [Mary]_145-mary dreaded that night , and how calmly it passed by ! Even more so than if [Mary]_145-mary had not had such claims upon [her]_145-mary care ! Anxiety about [them]_3434-them deadened [her]_145-mary own peculiar anxieties . [She]_145-mary thought of [the sleepers whom [she]_145-mary was watching]_{3435-the sleepers whom she was watching} , till overpowered [herself]_145-mary by the want of rest , [she]_145-mary fell off into short slumbers in which the night wore imperceptibly away . To be sure [Alice]_146-alice spoke , and sang , during [her]_146-alice waking moments , like [the child]_{805-the child} [she]_146-alice deemed [herself]_146-alice ; but so happily with [the dearly - loved ones around [her]_146-alice]_{3437-the dearly - loved ones around her} , with the scent of the heather , and the song of the wild bird hovering about [her]_146-alice in imagination -- with old scraps of ballads , or old snatches of primitive versions of the Psalms ( such as are sung in [country churches]_{3438-country churches} half draperied over with ivy , and where [the running brook]_{3439-the running brook} , or the murmuring wind among the trees makes fit accompaniment to the chorus of [human voices]_{3440-human voices} uttering praise and thanksgiving to [their]_{3440-human voices} God)--that the speech and the song gave comfort and good cheer to [the listener]_{3441-the listener} 's heart , and the gray dawn began to dim the light of the rush - candle , before [Mary]_145-mary thought it possible that day was already trembling on the horizon . Then [she]_145-mary got up from the chair where [she]_145-mary had been dozing , and went , half - asleep , to the window to assure [herself]_145-mary that morning was at hand . [The streets]_{772-the streets} were unusually quiet with a Sabbath stillness . No factory bells that morning ; [no early workmen]_{3443-no early workmen} going to [their]_{3443-no early workmen} labours ; [no slip - shod girls cleaning the windows of [the little shops]_{3445-the little shops} which broke the monotony of [the street]_{4821-the street}]_{3444-no slip - shod girls cleaning the windows of the little shops which broke the monotony of the street} ; instead , [you]_3447-you might see here and there [some operative]_{3448-some operative} sallying forth for a breath of country air , or [some father]_{3449-some father} leading out [his]_{3449-some father} wee toddling bairns for the unwonted pleasure of a walk with " [Daddy]_191-daddy , "_{[3449-some father]} in the clear frosty morning . [Men with more leisure on week - days]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} would perhaps have walked quicker than [they]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} did through the fresh sharp air of this Sunday morning ; but to [them]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} there was a pleasure , an absolute refreshment in the dawdling gait [they]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} , one and all of [them]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} , had . To be sure , there were [one or two passengers on that morning whose objects]_{3451-one or two passengers on that morning whose objects} were less innocent and less praiseworthy than those of [the people [I]_0-i have already mentioned]_{3452-the people i have already mentioned} , and [whose animal state of mind and body clashed jarringly on the peacefulness of the day]_{3453-whose animal state of mind and body clashed jarringly on the peacefulness of the day} ; but upon [them]_{3450-men with more leisure on week - days} [I]_0-i will not dwell : as [you]_3447-you and [I]_0-i , and almost every one , [I]_0-i think , may send up [our]_3454-our individual cry of self - reproach that [we]_3454-our have not done all that [we]_3454-our could for [the stray and wandering ones of [[our]_3454-our brethren]_{3456-our brethren}]_{3455-the stray and wandering ones of our brethren} . When [Mary]_145-mary turned from the window , [she]_145-mary went to the bed of [each sleeper]_{3457-each sleeper} , to look and listen . [Alice]_146-alice looked perfectly quiet and happy in [her]_146-alice slumber , and [her]_146-alice face seemed to have become much more youthful during [her]_146-alice painless approach to death . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's countenance was stamped with the anxiety of the last few days , although [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} , too , appeared sleeping soundly ; but as [Mary]_145-mary gazed on [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} , trying to trace a likeness to [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} son]_{2056-her son} in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} face , [she]_145-mary awoke and looked up into [Mary]_145-mary 's eyes , while the expression of consciousness came back into [her]_145-mary own . [Both]_876-both were silent for a minute or two . [Mary]_145-mary 's eyes had fallen beneath that penetrating gaze , in which the agony of memory seemed every moment to find fuller vent . " Is it a dream ? "_{[5048-the mother]} [the mother]_{5048-the mother} asked at last in a low voice . " No ! "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , in the same tone . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} hid [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} face in the pillow . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} was fully conscious of every thing this morning ; it was evident that the stunning effect of the subpoena , which had affected [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} so much last night in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} weak , worn - out state , had passed away . [Mary]_145-mary offered no opposition when [she]_145-mary indicated by languid gesture and action that [she]_145-mary wished to rise . [A sleepless bed]_{3461-a sleepless bed} is [a haunted place]_{3462-a haunted place} . When [she]_145-mary was dressed with [Mary]_145-mary 's help , [she]_145-mary stood by [Alice]_146-alice for a minute or two , looking at the slumberer . " How happy [she]_146-alice is ! "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , quietly and sadly . All the time that [Mary]_145-mary was getting breakfast ready , and performing every other little domestic office [she]_145-mary could think of , to add to the comfort of [[Jem]_154-jem 's mother]_{3322-jem 's mother} , [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} sat still in the arm - chair , watching [her]_145-mary silently . [Her]_145-mary old irritation of temper and manner seemed to have suddenly disappeared , or perhaps [she]_145-mary was too depressed in body and mind to show it . [Mary]_145-mary told [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} all that had been done with regard to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} ; all [her]_145-mary own plans for seeking out Will ; all [her]_145-mary hopes ; and concealed as well as [she]_145-mary could all the doubts and fears that would arise unbidden . To [this Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} listened without much remark , but with deep interest and perfect comprehension . When [Mary]_145-mary ceased [she]_145-mary sighed and said , " Oh wench ! [I]_145-mary am [[his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} mother]_{787-his mother} , and yet [I]_145-mary do so little , [I]_145-mary can do so little ! That 's what frets [me]_145-mary ! [I]_145-mary seem like [a child]_{4770-a child} as sees [its]_{4770-a child} mammy ill , and moans and cries [its]_{4770-a child} little heart out , yet does nought to help . [I]_145-mary think [my]_145-mary sense has left [me]_145-mary all at once , and [I]_145-mary ca n't even find strength to cry like [the little child]_{1375-the little child} . "_[145-mary] Hereupon [she]_145-mary broke into a feeble wail of self - reproach , that [her]_145-mary outward show of misery was not greater ; as if any cries , or tears , or loud - spoken words could have told of such pangs at the heart as that look , and that thin , piping , altered voice ! But think of [Mary]_145-mary and what [she]_145-mary was enduring ! Picture to [yourself]_{3464-yourself} ( for [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_{3464-yourself} ) the armies of thoughts that met and clashed in [her]_145-mary brain ; and then imagine the effort it cost [her]_145-mary to be calm , and quiet , and even , in a faint way , cheerful and smiling at times . After a while [she]_145-mary began to stir about in [her]_145-mary own mind for some means of sparing [the poor mother]_{3333-the poor mother} the trial of appearing as [a witness in the matter of the gun]_{3466-a witness in the matter of the gun} . [She]_145-mary had made no allusion to [her]_145-mary summons this morning , and [Mary]_145-mary almost thought [she]_145-mary must have forgotten it ; and surely some means might be found to prevent that additional sorrow . [She]_145-mary must see [Job]_156-job about it ; nay , if necessary , [she]_145-mary must see [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , with all [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} truth - compelling powers ; for , indeed , [she]_145-mary had so struggled and triumphed ( though a sadly - bleeding victor at heart ) over [herself]_145-mary these two last days , had so concealed agony , and hidden [her]_145-mary inward woe and bewilderment , that [she]_145-mary began to take confidence , and to have faith in [her]_145-mary own powers of meeting [any one]_{504-any one} with a passably fair show , whatever might be rending [her]_145-mary life beneath the cloak of [her]_145-mary deception . Accordingly , as soon as [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} came in after [morning church]_{3468-morning church} , to ask after [the two lone women]_{3469-the two lone women} , and [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} had heard the report [Mary]_145-mary had to give ( so much better as regarded [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} than what [they]_{3469-the two lone women} had feared the night before it would have been)--as soon as [this kind - hearted , grateful woman]_{3470-this kind - hearted , grateful woman} came in , [Mary]_145-mary , telling [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} [her]_145-mary purpose , went off to fetch [the doctor who attended [Alice]_146-alice]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} . [He]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} was shaking [himself]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} after [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} morning 's round , and happy in the anticipation of [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} Sunday 's dinner ; but [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} was [a good - tempered man , who found it difficult to keep down [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} jovial easiness even by the bed of sickness or death]_{3472-a good - tempered man , who found it difficult to keep down his jovial easiness even by the bed of sickness or death} . [He]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} had mischosen [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} profession ; for it was [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} delight to see every one around [him]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} in full enjoyment of life . However , [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} subdued [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} face to the proper expression of sympathy , befitting [a doctor]_{5084-a doctor} listening to [a patient]_{3474-a patient} , or [[a patient]_{3474-a patient} 's friend]_{3476-a patient 's friend} ( and [Mary]_145-mary 's sad , pale , anxious face might be taken for either [the one or the other]_{3477-the one or the other} ) . " Well , [[my]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} girl]_{4777-my girl} ! and what brings [you]_145-mary [here]_5235-here ? "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} said [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} , as [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} entered [[his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} surgery]_{3478-his surgery} . " Not on [your]_145-mary own account , [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} hope . "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} " [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} wanted [you]_145-mary to come and see [Alice Wilson,--and]_146-alice then [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} thought [you]_145-mary would may be take a look at [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} [He]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} bustled on [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} hat and coat , and followed [Mary]_145-mary instantly . After shaking [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} head over [Alice]_146-alice ( as if it was a mournful thing for [one so pure and good , so true]_{3479-one so pure and good , so true} , although so humble [a Christian]_{3480-a christian} , to be nearing [her]_146-alice desired haven ) , and muttering the accustomed words intended to destroy hope , and prepare anticipation , [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} went in compliance with [Mary]_145-mary 's look to ask the usual questions of [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , who sat passively in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} arm - chair . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} answered [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} questions , and submitted to [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} examination . " How do [you]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} think [her]_146-alice ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , eagerly . " Why -- a , "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} began [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} , perceiving that [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} was desired to take one side in [his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} answer , and unable to find out whether [[his]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} listener]_{3481-his listener} was anxious for a favourable verdict or otherwise ; but thinking it most probable that [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} would desire the former , [he]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} continued , " [She]_146-alice is weak , certainly ; the natural result of such a shock as the arrest of [[her]_146-alice son]_{2056-her son} would be,--for [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} understand this [James Wilson]_154-jem , who murdered [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , was [[her]_146-alice son]_{2056-her son} . Sad thing to have such a reprobate in [the family]_{6602-the family} . "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} " [You]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} say ' _ who murdered _ , ' [sir]_5232-sir ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , indignantly . " [He]_154-jem is only taken up on suspicion , and [many]_1183-many have no doubt of [his]_154-jem innocence -- those who know [him]_154-jem , [sir]_5232-sir . "_[145-mary] " Ah , well , well ! [doctors]_5893-doctors have seldom time to read newspapers , and [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} dare say [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} 'm not very correct in [my]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} story . [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} dare say [he]_154-jem 's innocent ; [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} 'm sure [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} had no right to say otherwise,--only words slip out.--No ! indeed , [young woman]_{1835-young woman} , [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} see no cause for apprehension about this poor creature in the next room;--weak -- certainly ; but a day or two 's good nursing will set [her]_{1835-young woman} up , and [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} 'm sure [you]_{1835-young woman} 're [a good nurse]_{7080-a good nurse} , [[my]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} dear]_{5712-my dear} , from [your]_{1835-young woman} pretty , kind - hearted face,--I'll send a couple of pills and a draught , but do n't alarm [yourself,--there]_{7082-yourself,--there} 's no occasion , [I]_{3471-the doctor who attended alice} assure [you]_{1835-young woman} . "_{[3471-the doctor who attended alice]} " But [you]_3482-he do n't think [her]_{1835-young woman} fit to go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , still in the anxious tone of one who wishes earnestly for some particular decision . " To [Liverpool]_17-liverpool -- yes , "_[3482-he] replied [he]_3482-he . " A short journey like that could not fatigue , and might distract [her]_{1835-young woman} thoughts . Let [her]_{1835-young woman} go by all means,--it would be the very thing for [her]_{1835-young woman} . "_[3482-he] " Oh , [sir]_5232-sir ! "_[145-mary] burst out [Mary]_145-mary , almost sobbing ; " [I]_145-mary did so hope [you]_3482-he would say [she]_{1835-young woman} was too ill to go . "_[145-mary] " Whew-- "_[3482-he] said [he]_3482-he , with a prolonged whistle , trying to understand the case , but being , as [he]_3482-he said , [no reader of newspapers]_{3483-no reader of newspapers} , utterly unaware of the peculiar reasons there might be for so apparently unfeeling a wish,--"Why did [you]_{1835-young woman} not tell [me]_3482-he so sooner ? It might certainly do [her]_{1835-young woman} harm in [her]_{1835-young woman} weak state ; there is always some risk attending journeys -- draughts , and what not . To [her]_{1835-young woman} , they might prove very injurious,--very . [I]_3482-he disapprove of journeys , or excitement , in all cases where [the patient]_{7084-the patient} is in the low , fluttered state in which [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} is . If [you]_{1835-young woman} take _ [my]_3482-he _ advice , [you]_{1835-young woman} will certainly put a stop to all thoughts of going to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . "_[3482-he] [He]_3482-he really had completely changed [his]_3482-he opinion , though quite unconsciously ; so desirous was [he]_3482-he to comply with the wishes of [others]_737-others . " Oh , [sir]_5232-sir , thank [you]_5232-sir ! And will [you]_5232-sir give [me]_3485-me a certificate of [her]_{1835-young woman} being unable to go , if [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} says [we]_7087-we must have one ? [The lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} , [you]_5232-sir know , "_[3485-me] continued [she]_3485-me , seeing [him]_3482-he look puzzled , " who is to defend [Jem,--it]_359-jem,--it was as [a witness]_{2197-a witness} against [him--]_359-jem,--it "_[3485-me] " [[My]_3482-he dear girl]_{7090-my dear girl} ! "_[3482-he] said [he]_3482-he , almost angrily , " why did [you]_{7090-my dear girl} not state the case fully at first ? one minute would have done it,--and [my]_3482-he dinner waiting all this time . To be sure [she]_{1835-young woman} ca n't go,--it would be madness to think of it ; if [her]_{1835-young woman} evidence could have done good , it would have been a different thing . Come to [me]_3482-he for the certificate any time ; that is to say , if [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} advises [you]_{7090-my dear girl} . [I]_3482-he second [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} ; take [counsel with both the learned professions]_{7093-counsel with both the learned professions} -- ha , ha , ha,-- "_[3482-he] And laughing at [his]_3482-he own joke , [he]_3482-he departed , leaving [Mary]_145-mary accusing [herself]_145-mary of stupidity in having imagined that [every one]_{669-every one} was as well acquainted with the facts concerning the trial as [she]_145-mary was [herself]_145-mary ; for indeed [she]_145-mary had never doubted that [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} would have been aware of the purpose of poor [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's journey to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . Presently [she]_145-mary went to [Job]_156-job ( the ever - ready [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} keeping watch over [the two old women]_{3488-the two old women} ) , and told [him]_3482-he [her]_145-mary fears , [her]_145-mary plans , and [her]_145-mary proceedings . To [her]_145-mary surprise [he]_3482-he shook [his]_3482-he head doubtfully . " It may have an awkward look , if [we]_7094-we keep [her]_145-mary back . [Lawyers]_6988-lawyers is up to tricks . "_[3482-he] " But it 's no trick , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " [She]_145-mary is so poorly , [she]_145-mary was last night , at least ; and to - day [she]_145-mary 's so faded and weak . "_[145-mary] " [Poor soul]_{7025-poor soul} ! [I]_3482-he dare say . [I]_3482-he only mean for [Jem]_154-jem 's sake ; as so much is known , it wo n't do now to hang back . But [I]_3482-he 'll ask [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} . [I]_3482-he 'll e'en take [[your]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} doctor]_{7097-your doctor} 's advice . [Yo]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} tarry at [home]_4755-home , and [I]_3482-he 'll come to [yo]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} in an hour 's time . Go [thy]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} ways , [wench]_5103-wench . "_[3482-he] CHAPTER XXV . [MRS . WILSON]_{134-mrs. wilson} 'S DETERMINATION . " Something there was , what , [none]_7100-none presumed to say , Clouds lightly passing on a smiling day,-- Whispers and hints which went from ear to ear , And mixed reports [no judge on earth]_{7101-no judge on earth} could clear . "_[360-crabbe] [CRABBE]_360-crabbe . " Curious conjectures [he]_360-crabbe may always make , And either side of dubious questions take . "_[360-crabbe] [IB . Mary]_145-mary went [home]_4755-home . Oh ! how [her]_3490-her head did ache , and how dizzy [her]_3490-her brain was growing ! But there would be time enough [she]_3490-her felt for giving way , hereafter . So [she]_3490-her sat quiet and still by an effort ; sitting near the window , and looking out of it , but seeing nothing , when all at once [she]_3490-her caught sight of something which roused [her]_3490-her up , and made [her]_3490-her draw back . But it was too late . [She]_3490-her had been seen . [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally flaunted into [the little dingy room]_{3491-the little dingy room} , making it gaudy with the Sunday excess of colouring in [her]_162-sally dress . [She]_162-sally was really curious to see [Mary]_145-mary ; [her]_162-sally connexion with [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} seemed to have made [her]_162-sally into a sort of _ lusus naturæ _ , and was almost , by some , expected to have made a change in [her]_162-sally personal appearance , so earnestly did [they]_3493-they stare at [her]_162-sally . But [Mary]_145-mary had been too much absorbed this last day or two to notice this . Now [Sally]_162-sally had a grand view , and looked [her]_145-mary over and over ( a very different thing from looking [her]_145-mary through and through ) , and almost learnt [her]_145-mary off by heart;--"her every - day gown ( [Hoyle]_362-hoyle 's print [you]_7102-you know , that lilac thing with the high body ) [she]_162-sally was so fond of ; a little black silk handkerchief just knotted round [her]_162-sally neck , like [a boy]_{2722-a boy} ; [her]_162-sally hair all taken back from [her]_162-sally face , as if [she]_162-sally wanted to keep [her]_162-sally head cool -- [she]_162-sally would always keep that hair of [hers]_162-sally so long ; and [her]_162-sally hands twitching continually about . "_[162-sally] Such particulars would make [Sally]_162-sally into a Gazette Extraordinary the next morning at [the work - room]_{3494-the work - room} , and were worth coming for , even if little else could be extracted from [Mary]_145-mary . " Why , [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[162-sally] [she]_162-sally began . " Where have [you]_162-sally hidden [yourself]_162-sally ? [You]_162-sally never showed [your]_162-sally face all yesterday at [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' . [You]_162-sally do n't fancy [we]_7104-we think any the worse of [you]_162-sally for what 's come and gone . Some on [us]_7104-we , indeed , were a bit sorry for [the poor young man]_{5623-the poor young man} , as lies stiff and cold for [your]_162-sally sake , [Mary]_145-mary ; but [we]_7104-we shall ne'er cast it up against [you]_162-sally . [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} , too , will be mighty put out if [you]_162-sally do n't come , for there 's a deal of mourning , agait . "_[162-sally] " [I]_145-mary ca n't , "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary said , in a low voice . " [I]_145-mary do n't mean ever to come again . "_[145-mary] " Why , [Mary]_145-mary ! "_[162-sally] said [Sally]_162-sally , in unfeigned surprise . " To be sure [you]_162-sally 'll have to be in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , Tuesday , and may be Wednesday ; but after that [you]_162-sally 'll surely come , and tell [us]_7104-we all about it . [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} knows [you]_162-sally 'll have to be off those two days . But between [you]_162-sally and [me]_162-sally , [she]_{152-miss simmonds} 's a bit of a gossip , and will like hearing all how and about the trial , well enough to let [you]_162-sally off very easy for [your]_162-sally being absent a day or two . Besides , [Betsy Morgan]_{363-betsy morgan} was saying yesterday , [she]_{363-betsy morgan} should n't wonder but [you]_162-sally 'd prove quite an attraction to [customers]_{7106-customers} . [Many a one]_{5056-many a one} would come and have [their]_{5056-many a one} gowns made by [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} just to catch a glimpse at [you]_162-sally , at after the trial 's over . Really , [Mary]_145-mary , [you]_162-sally 'll turn out quite [a heroine]_{5500-a heroine} . "_[162-sally] The little fingers twitched worse than ever ; the large soft eyes looked up pleadingly into [Sally]_162-sally 's face ; but [she]_162-sally went on in the same strain , not from any unkind or cruel feeling towards [Mary]_145-mary , but solely because [she]_145-mary was incapable of comprehending [her]_145-mary suffering . [She]_145-mary had been shocked , of course , at [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's death , though at the same time the excitement was rather pleasant than otherwise ; and dearly now would [she]_145-mary have enjoyed the conspicuous notice which [Mary]_145-mary was sure to receive . " How shall [you]_162-sally like being cross - examined , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[145-mary] " Not at all , "_[145-mary] answered [Mary]_145-mary , when [she]_145-mary found [she]_145-mary must answer . " [La]_100-la ! what impudent [fellows those lawyers]_{7109-fellows those lawyers} are ! And [[their]_{7109-fellows those lawyers} clerks]_{7110-their clerks} , too , not a bit better . [I]_145-mary should n't wonder "_[145-mary] ( in a comforting tone , and really believing [she]_145-mary was giving comfort ) " if [you]_162-sally picked up [a new sweetheart in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool]_{7111-a new sweetheart in liverpool} . What gown are [you]_162-sally going in , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_[145-mary] " Oh , [I]_145-mary do n't know and do n't care , "_[145-mary] exclaimed [Mary]_145-mary , sick and weary of [[her]_145-mary visitor]_{5529-her visitor} . " Well , then ! take [my]_145-mary advice , and go in that blue merino . It 's old to be sure , and a bit worn at elbows , but [folk]_5093-folk wo n't notice that , and th ' colour suits [you]_162-sally . Now mind , [Mary]_145-mary . And [I]_145-mary 'll lend [you]_162-sally [my]_145-mary black watered scarf , "_[145-mary] added [she]_145-mary , really good - naturedly , according to [her]_145-mary sense of things , and [withal]_364-withal , a little bit pleased at the idea of [her]_145-mary pet article of dress figuring away on the person of [a witness at a trial for murder]_{3496-a witness at a trial for murder} . " [I]_364-withal 'll bring it to - morrow before [you]_162-sally start . "_[364-withal] " No , do n't ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary ; " thank [you]_162-sally , but [I]_145-mary do n't want it . "_[145-mary] " Why , what can [you]_162-sally wear ? [I]_145-mary know all [your]_162-sally clothes as well as [I]_145-mary do [my]_145-mary own , and what is there [you]_162-sally can wear ? Not [your]_162-sally old plaid shawl , [I]_145-mary do hope ? [You]_162-sally would not fancy this [I]_145-mary have on , more nor the scarf , would [you]_162-sally ? "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , brightening up at the thought , and willing to lend it , or any thing else . " Oh [Sally]_162-sally ! do n't go on talking a - that - ns ; how can [I]_145-mary think on dress at such a time ? When it 's a matter of life and death to [Jem]_154-jem ? "_[145-mary] " Bless [the girl]_{4779-the girl} ! It 's [Jem]_154-jem , is it ? Well now , [I]_145-mary thought there was some sweetheart in the back - ground , when [you]_162-sally flew off so with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . Then what in the name of goodness made [him]_{209-mr. carson} shoot [Mr. Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ? After [you]_162-sally had given up going with [him]_{209-mr. carson} , [I]_145-mary mean ? Was [he]_{209-mr. carson} afraid [you]_162-sally 'd be on again ? "_[145-mary] " How dare [you]_162-sally say [he]_{209-mr. carson} shot [Mr. Harry]_{209-mr. carson} ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , firing up from the state of languid indifference into which [she]_145-mary had sunk while [Sally]_162-sally had been settling about [her]_162-sally dress . " But it 's no matter what [you]_162-sally think as did not know [him]_{209-mr. carson} . What grieves [me]_145-mary is , that [people]_4744-people should go on thinking [him]_{209-mr. carson} guilty as did know [him]_{209-mr. carson} , "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary said , sinking back into [her]_145-mary former depressed tone and manner . " And do n't [you]_162-sally think [he]_{209-mr. carson} did it ? "_[162-sally] asked [Sally]_162-sally . [Mary]_145-mary paused ; [she]_145-mary was going on too fast with [one so curious and so unscrupulous]_{3497-one so curious and so unscrupulous} . Besides [she]_145-mary remembered how even [she]_145-mary [herself]_145-mary had , at first , believed [him]_3498-him guilty ; and [she]_145-mary felt it was not for [her]_145-mary to cast stones at [those who , on similar evidence , inclined to the same belief]_{3499-those who , on similar evidence , inclined to the same belief} . None had given [him]_3498-him much benefit of a doubt . [None]_365-none had faith in [his]_3498-him innocence . None but [[his]_3498-him mother]_{787-his mother} ; and there the heart loved more than the head reasoned , and [her]_145-mary yearning affection had never for an instant entertained the idea that [[her]_145-mary [Jem]_154-jem]_{3431-her jem} was [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} . But [Mary]_145-mary disliked the whole conversation ; the subject , the manner in which it was treated , were all painful , and [she]_145-mary had a repugnance to [the person with whom [she]_145-mary spoke]_{3503-the person with whom she spoke} . [She]_145-mary was thankful , therefore , when [Job Legh]_156-job 's voice was heard at the door , as [he]_156-job stood with the latch in [his]_156-job hand , talking to [a neighbour]_{5266-a neighbour} , and when [Sally]_162-sally jumped up in vexation and said , " There 's that old fogey coming in here , as [I]_162-sally 'm alive ! Did [[your]_145-mary father]_{1640-your father} set [him]_156-job to look after [you]_145-mary while [he]_156-job was away ? or what brings [the old chap]_{7116-the old chap} [here]_5235-here ? However , [I]_162-sally 'm off ; [I]_162-sally never could abide either [him]_156-job or [[his]_156-job prim grand - daughter]_{7118-his prim grand - daughter} . Goodbye , [Mary]_145-mary . "_[162-sally] So far in a whisper , then louder , " If [you]_145-mary think better of [my]_162-sally offer about the scarf , [Mary]_145-mary , just step in to - morrow before nine , and [you]_145-mary 're quite welcome to it . "_[162-sally] [She]_162-sally and [Job]_156-job passed each other at the door , with mutual looks of dislike , which [neither]_3505-neither took any pains to conceal . " Yon 's [a bold , bad girl]_{3305-a bold , bad girl} , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job to [Mary]_145-mary . " [She]_162-sally 's very good - natured , "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , too honourable to abuse [a visitor who had only that instant]_{3506-a visitor who had only that instant} crossed [her]_145-mary threshold , and gladly dwelling on the good quality most apparent in [Sally]_162-sally 's character . " Ay , ay ! good - natured , generous , jolly , full of fun ; there are a number of other names for the good qualities [the devil]_{7120-the devil} leaves [[his]_{7120-the devil} childer]_{7121-his childer} , as baits to catch gudgeons with . D'ye think [folk]_5093-folk could be led astray by one who was every way bad ? [Howe'er]_239-howe'er , that 's not what [I]_145-mary came to talk about . [I]_145-mary 've seen [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , and [he]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} is in a manner of the same mind as [me]_145-mary ; [he]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} thinks it would have an awkward look , and might tell against [the poor lad]_{7123-the poor lad} on [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} trial ; still if [she]_{7123-the poor lad} 's ill [she]_{7123-the poor lad} 's ill , and it ca n't be helped . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary do n't know if [she]_{7123-the poor lad} 's so bad as all that , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , who began to dread [her]_145-mary part in doing any thing which might tell against [[her]_145-mary poor lover]_{3507-her poor lover} . " Will [you]_156-job come and see [her]_{7123-the poor lad} , [Job]_156-job ? [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} seemed to say as [I]_145-mary liked , not as [he]_{684-the doctor} thought . "_[145-mary] " That 's because [he]_{684-the doctor} had no great thought on the subject , either one way or t'other , "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job , whose contempt for [medical men]_{3508-medical men} pretty nearly equalled [his]_156-job respect for [lawyers]_6988-lawyers . " But [I]_156-job 'll go and welcome . [I]_156-job han not seen [th ' oud ladies]_{7125-th ' oud ladies} since [their]_{7125-th ' oud ladies} sorrows , and it 's but manners to go and ax after [them]_{7125-th ' oud ladies} . Come along . "_[156-job] [The room at [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's]_{3510-the room at mrs. wilson 's} had that still , changeless look [you]_3511-you must have often observed in the house of sickness or mourning . No particular employment going on ; [people]_4744-people watching and waiting rather than acting , unless in the more sudden and violent attacks ; what little movement is going on , so noiseless and hushed ; the furniture all arranged and stationary , with a view to the comfort of [the afflicted]_{3513-the afflicted} ; the window - blinds drawn down to keep out the disturbing variety of a sun - beam ; the same saddened , serious look on the faces of [the in - dwellers]_{3514-the in - dwellers} ; [you]_3511-you fall back into the same train of thought with all these associations , and forget [the street]_{4821-the street} , [the outer world]_{3516-the outer world} , in the contemplation of [the one stationary , absorbing interest within]_{3517-the one stationary , absorbing interest within} . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} sat quietly in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} chair , with just the same look [Mary]_145-mary had left on [her]_145-mary face ; [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} went about with creaking shoes , which made all the more noise from [her]_{219-mrs. davenport} careful and lengthened tread , annoying the ears of [those who were well , in this instance , far more than the dulled senses of the sick]_{3518-those who were well , in this instance , far more than the dulled senses of the sick} and the sorrowful . [Alice]_146-alice 's voice still was going on cheerfully in [the upper room]_{3519-the upper room} with incessant talking and little laughs to [herself]_146-alice , or perhaps in sympathy with [[her]_146-alice unseen companions]_{3520-her unseen companions} ; " unseen , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i say , in preference to " fancied , "_[0-i] for who knows whether [God]_224-god does not permit the forms of [those who were dearest when living]_{3521-those who were dearest when living} , to hover round the bed of the dying ? [Job]_156-job spoke , and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} answered . So quietly , that it was unnatural under the circumstances . It made a deeper impression on [the old man]_{6643-the old man} than any token of mere bodily illness could have done . If [she]_{219-mrs. davenport} had raved in delirium , or moaned in fever , [he]_{6643-the old man} could have spoken after [his]_{6643-the old man} wo nt , and given [his]_{6643-the old man} opinion , [his]_{6643-the old man} advice , and [his]_{6643-the old man} consolation ; now [he]_{6643-the old man} was awed into silence . At length [he]_{6643-the old man} pulled [Mary]_145-mary aside into a corner of [the house]_{803-the house} - place where [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was sitting , and began to talk to [her]_145-mary . " Yo're right , [Mary]_145-mary ! [She]_145-mary 's no ways fit to go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , [poor soul]_{7025-poor soul} . Now [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 've seen [her]_145-mary , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} only wonder [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} could ha ' been unsettled in [his]_{6643-the old man} mind at th ' first . Choose how it goes wi ' poor [Jem]_154-jem , [she]_145-mary can not go . One way or another it will soon be over , and best to leave [her]_145-mary in the state [she]_145-mary is till then . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [I]_145-mary was sure [you]_3524-they would think so , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . But [they]_3524-they were reckoning without [[their]_3524-they host]_{3525-their host} . [They]_3524-they esteemed [her]_{3525-their host} senses gone , while , in fact , they were only inert , and could not convey impressions rapidly to the over - burdened , troubled brain . [They]_3524-they had not noticed that [her]_{3525-their host} eyes had followed [them]_3524-they ( mechanically it seemed at first ) as [they]_3524-they had moved away to the corner of [the room]_{616-the room} ; that [her]_{3525-their host} face , hitherto so changeless , had begun to work with one or two of the old symptoms of impatience . But when [they]_3524-they were silent [she]_{3525-their host} stood up , and startled [them]_3524-they almost as if [a dead person]_{3527-a dead person} had spoken , by saying clearly and decidedly--"I go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . [I]_{3525-their host} hear [you]_3524-they and [your]_3524-they plans ; and [I]_{3525-their host} tell [you]_3524-they [I]_{3525-their host} shall go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . If [my]_{3525-their host} words are to kill [[my]_{3525-their host} son]_{1855-my son} , they have already gone forth out of [my]_{3525-their host} mouth , and nought can bring them back . But [I]_{3525-their host} will have faith . [Alice]_146-alice ( up above ) has often telled [me]_{3525-their host} [I]_{3525-their host} wanted faith , and now [I]_{3525-their host} will have it . [They]_3524-they cannot -- [they]_3524-they will not kill [[my]_{3525-their host} child]_{4784-my child} , [[my]_{3525-their host} only child]_{5585-my only child} . [I]_{3525-their host} will not be afeared . Yet , oh ! [I]_{3525-their host} am so sick with terror . But if [he]_{1855-my son} is to die , think [ye]_7131-ye not that [I]_{3525-their host} will see [him]_{1855-my son} again ; ay ! see [him]_{1855-my son} at [his]_{1855-my son} trial ? When [all]_4906-all are hating [him]_{1855-my son} , [he]_{1855-my son} shall have [[his]_{1855-my son} poor mother]_{7133-his poor mother} near [him]_{1855-my son} , to give [him]_{1855-my son} all the comfort , eyes , and looks , and tears , and a heart that is dead to all but [him]_{1855-my son} , can give ; [[his]_{1855-my son} poor old mother]_{7134-his poor old mother} , who knows how free [he]_{1855-my son} is from sin -- in the sight of [man]_5236-man at least . [They]_4906-all 'll let [me]_{3525-their host} go to [him]_{1855-my son} , maybe , the very minute it 's over ; and [I]_{3525-their host} know many Scripture texts ( though [you]_7136-you would not think it ) , that may keep up [his]_{1855-my son} heart . [I]_{3525-their host} missed seeing [him]_{1855-my son} ere [he]_{1855-my son} went to [yon prison]_{7137-yon prison} , but nought shall keep [me]_{3525-their host} away again one minute when [I]_{3525-their host} can see [his]_{1855-my son} face ; for maybe the minutes are numbered , and the count but small . [I]_{3525-their host} know [I]_{3525-their host} can be a comfort to [him]_{1855-my son} , [poor lad]_{1482-poor lad} . [You]_7136-you would not think it , now , but [he]_{1855-my son} 'd alway speak as kind and soft to [me]_{3525-their host} as if [he]_{1855-my son} were courting [me]_{3525-their host} , like . [He]_{1855-my son} loved [me]_{3525-their host} above a bit ; and am [I]_{3525-their host} to leave [him]_{1855-my son} now to dree all the cruel slander [they]_7139-they 'll put upon [him]_{1855-my son} ? [I]_{3525-their host} can pray for [him]_{1855-my son} at each hard word [they]_7139-they say against [him]_{1855-my son} , if [I]_{3525-their host} can do nought else ; and [he]_{1855-my son} 'll know what [[his]_{1855-my son} mother]_{787-his mother} is doing for [him]_{1855-my son} , [poor lad]_{1482-poor lad} , by the look on [my]_{3525-their host} face . "_{[3525-their host]} Still [they]_3528-they made some look , or gesture of opposition to [her]_3529-her wishes . [She]_3529-her turned sharp round on [Mary]_145-mary , the old object of [her]_3529-her pettish attacks , and said , " Now , [wench]_5103-wench ! once for all ! [I]_3529-her tell [yo]_5103-wench this . _ [He]_{1855-my son} _ could never guide [me]_3529-her ; and [he]_{1855-my son} 'd sense enough not to try . What [he]_{1855-my son} could na do , do n't [you]_5103-wench try . [I]_3529-her shall go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool to - morrow , and find [[my]_3529-her lad]_{1544-my lad} , and stay with [him]_{1544-my lad} through thick and thin ; and if [he]_{1544-my lad} dies , why , perhaps , God of [His]_{1855-my son} mercy will take [me]_3529-her too . The grave is a sure cure for an aching heart . "_[3529-her] [She]_3529-her sank back in [her]_3529-her chair , quite exhausted by the sudden effort [she]_3529-her had made ; but if [they]_3530-they even offered to speak , [she]_3529-her cut [them]_3530-they short ( whatever the subject might be ) , with the repetition of the same words , " [I]_3529-her shall go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . "_[3529-her] No more could be said , [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} 's opinion had been so undecided ; [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} had given [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} legal voice in favour of [her]_3529-her going , and [Mary]_145-mary was obliged to relinquish the idea of persuading [her]_3529-her to remain at [home]_4755-home , if indeed under all the circumstances it could be thought desirable . " Best way will be , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , " for [me]_156-job to hunt out [Will]_146-alice , early to - morrow morning , and [yo]_145-mary , [Mary]_145-mary , come at after with [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} . [I]_156-job know [a decent woman]_{7144-a decent woman} where [yo]_145-mary two can have a bed , and where [we]_7145-we may meet together when [I]_156-job 've found [Will]_{130-jane wilson} , afore going to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's at two o'clock ; for , [I]_156-job can tell [him]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , [I]_156-job 'll not trust none of [[his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} clerks]_{7146-his clerks} for hunting up Will , if [Jem]_154-jem 's life is to depend on it . "_[156-job] Now [Mary]_145-mary disliked this plan inexpressibly ; [her]_145-mary dislike was partly grounded on reason , and partly on feeling . [She]_145-mary could not bear the idea of deputing to any one the active measures necessary to be taken in order to save [Jem]_154-jem . [She]_145-mary felt as if they were [her]_145-mary duty , [her]_145-mary right . [She]_145-mary durst not trust to [any one]_{504-any one} the completion of [her]_145-mary plan ; [they]_{504-any one} might not have energy , or perseverance , or desperation enough to follow out the slightest chance ; and [her]_145-mary love would endow [her]_145-mary with all these qualities , independently of the terrible alternative which awaited [her]_145-mary in case all failed and [Jem]_154-jem was condemned . [No one]_{1202-no one} could have [her]_145-mary motives ; and consequently [no one]_{1202-no one} could have [her]_145-mary sharpened brain , [her]_145-mary despairing determination . Besides ( only that was purely selfish ) , [she]_145-mary could not endure the suspense of remaining quiet , and only knowing the result when all was accomplished . So with vehemence and impatience [she]_145-mary rebutted every reason [Job]_156-job adduced for [his]_156-job plan ; and of course , thus opposed , by what appeared to [him]_156-job wilfulness , [he]_156-job became more resolute , and angry words were exchanged , and a feeling of estrangement rose up between [them]_3536-they , for a time , as [they]_3536-they walked homewards . But then came in [Margaret]_157-margaret with [her]_157-margaret gentleness , like [an angel of peace]_{3537-an angel of peace} , so calm and reasonable , that [both]_876-both felt ashamed of [their]_876-both irritation , and tacitly left the decision to [her]_157-margaret ( only , by the way , [I]_0-i think [Mary]_145-mary could never have submitted if it had gone against [her]_145-mary , penitent and tearful as was [her]_145-mary manner now to [Job]_156-job , [the good old man who was helping [her]_145-mary to work for [Jem]_154-jem]_{3539-the good old man who was helping her to work for jem} , although [they]_3536-they differed as to the manner ) . " [Mary]_145-mary had better go , "_{[157-margaret]} said [Margaret]_157-margaret to [[her]_157-margaret grandfather]_{1036-her grandfather} , in a low tone , " [I]_157-margaret know what [she]_145-mary 's feeling , and it will be a comfort to [her]_145-mary soon , may be , to think [she]_145-mary did all [she]_145-mary could [herself]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary would perhaps fancy it might have been different ; do , [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} , let [her]_145-mary . "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret had still , [you]_3541-you see , little or no belief in [Jem]_154-jem 's innocence ; and besides , [she]_157-margaret thought if [Mary]_145-mary saw [Will]_154-jem , and heard [herself]_145-mary from [him]_154-jem that [Jem]_154-jem had not been with [him]_154-jem that Thursday night , it would in a measure break the force of the blow which was impending . " Let [me]_157-margaret lock up [house]_686-house , [grandfather]_{4996-grandfather} , for a couple of days , and go and stay with [Alice]_146-alice . It 's but [little one like [me]_157-margaret]_{7150-little one like me} can do , [I]_157-margaret know "_{[157-margaret]} ( [she]_157-margaret added softly ) ; " but , by the blessing o ' [God]_224-god , [I]_157-margaret 'll do it and welcome ; and here comes one kindly use o ' money , [I]_157-margaret can hire [them]_7151-them as will do for [her]_146-alice what [I]_157-margaret can not . [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} is a willing body , and [one who knows sorrow and sickness]_{7152-one who knows sorrow and sickness} , and [I]_157-margaret can pay [her]_146-alice for [her]_146-alice time , and keep [her]_146-alice there pretty near altogether . So let that be settled . And [you]_{4996-grandfather} take [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [dear grandad]_{7153-dear grandad} , and let [Mary]_145-mary go find [Will]_{134-mrs. wilson} , and [you]_{4996-grandfather} can [all]_4906-all meet together at after , and [I]_157-margaret 'm sure [I]_157-margaret wish [you]_{4996-grandfather} luck . "_{[157-margaret]} [Job]_156-job consented with only a few dissenting grunts ; but on the whole , with a very good grace for [an old man who had been so positive only a few minutes before]_{3542-an old man who had been so positive only a few minutes before} . [Mary]_145-mary was thankful for [Margaret]_157-margaret 's interference . [She]_145-mary did not speak , but threw [her]_145-mary arms round [Margaret]_157-margaret 's neck , and put up [her]_145-mary rosy - red mouth to be kissed ; and even [Job]_156-job was attracted by the pretty , child - like gesture ; and when [she]_145-mary drew near [him]_156-job , afterwards , like a little creature sidling up to [some person whom it feels to have offended]_{3543-some person whom it feels to have offended} , [he]_156-job bent down and blessed [her]_145-mary , as if [she]_145-mary had been [a child of [his]_156-job own]_{3544-a child of his own} . To [Mary]_145-mary [the old man]_{6643-the old man} 's blessing came like words of power . CHAPTER XXVI . THE JOURNEY TO [LIVERPOOL]_17-liverpool . " Like a bark upon [the sea]_{4983-the sea} , Life is floating over death ; Above , below , encircling [thee]_7156-thee , Danger lurks in every breath . Parted art [thou]_7156-thee from the grave Only by a plank most frail ; Tossed upon the restless wave , Sport of every fickle gale . Let the skies be e'er so clear , And so calm and still [the sea]_{4983-the sea} , Shipwreck yet has [he]_{6643-the old man} to fear , Who life 's voyager will be . "_{[6643-the old man]} RÜCKERT . [The early trains for [Liverpool]_17-liverpool]_{3546-the early trains for liverpool} , on Monday morning , were crowded by [attorneys]_{3547-attorneys} , [attorneys ' clerks]_{3548-attorneys ' clerks} , [plaintiffs]_{3549-plaintiffs} , [defendants]_{3550-defendants} , and [witnesses]_{3551-witnesses} , all going to [the Assizes]_{3552-the assizes} . [They]_{3546-the early trains for liverpool} were [a motley assembly]_{3553-a motley assembly} , each with some cause for anxiety stirring at [his]_{6643-the old man} heart ; though , after all , that is saying little or nothing , for [we]_3554-we are all of [us]_3554-we in the same predicament through life ; each with a fear and a hope from childhood to death . Among [the passengers]_{3555-the passengers} there was [Mary Barton]_145-mary , dressed in the blue gown and obnoxious plaid shawl . Common as [railroads]_{3556-railroads} are now in all places as a means of transit , and especially in [Manchester]_1-manchester , [Mary]_145-mary had never been on one before ; and [she]_145-mary felt bewildered by the hurry , the noise of [people]_4744-people , and bells , and horns ; the whiz and the scream of [the arriving trains]_{3558-the arriving trains} . The very journey itself seemed to [her]_145-mary a matter of wonder . [She]_145-mary had a back seat , and looked towards [the factory - chimneys]_{3559-the factory - chimneys} , and the cloud of smoke which hovers over [Manchester]_1-manchester , with a feeling akin to the " Heimweh . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary was losing sight of the familiar objects of [her]_145-mary childhood for the first time ; and unpleasant as those objects are to most , [she]_145-mary yearned after them with some of the same sentiment which gives pathos to the thoughts of [the emigrant]_{3560-the emigrant} . The cloud - shadows which give beauty to [Chat - Moss]_{101-chat - moss} , [the picturesque old houses of [Newton]_177-newton]_{3561-the picturesque old houses of newton} , what were they to [Mary]_145-mary , whose heart was full of many things ? Yet [she]_145-mary seemed to look at [them]_3562-them earnestly as [they]_3562-them glided past ; but [she]_145-mary neither saw nor heard . [She]_145-mary neither saw nor heard till some well - known names fell upon [her]_145-mary ear . [Two lawyers ' clerks]_{3563-two lawyers ' clerks} were discussing the cases to come on that Assizes ; of course , " the murder - case , "_{[3563-two lawyers ' clerks]} as it had come to be termed , held a conspicuous place in [their]_{3563-two lawyers ' clerks} conversation . [They]_{3563-two lawyers ' clerks} had no doubt of the result . " [Juries]_7158-juries are always very unwilling to convict on circumstantial evidence , it is true , "_[518-one] said [one]_518-one , " but here there can hardly be any doubt . "_[518-one] " If it had not been so clear a case , "_{[1048-the other]} replied [the other]_{1048-the other} , " [I]_{1048-the other} should have said [they]_{3563-two lawyers ' clerks} were injudicious in hurrying on the trial so much . Still , more evidence might have been collected . "_{[1048-the other]} " [They]_{3563-two lawyers ' clerks} tell [me]_7159-me , "_{[7160-the first speaker,--"the people in gardener 's office]} said [the first speaker,--"the people in [[Gardener]_366-gardener 's office]_{7161-gardener 's office}]_{7160-the first speaker,--"the people in gardener 's office} [I]_{1048-the other} mean,--that it was really feared [the old gentleman]_{2293-the old gentleman} would have gone out of [his]_{2293-the old gentleman} mind , if the trial had been delayed . [He]_{2293-the old gentleman} was with [Mr. Gardener]_366-gardener as many as seven times on Saturday , and called [him]_{2293-the old gentleman} up at night to suggest that some letter should be written , or something done to secure the verdict . "_{[1048-the other]} " [Poor old man]_{7163-poor old man} , "_{[690-his companion]} answered [[his]_518-one companion]_{690-his companion} , " who can wonder?--an only son,--such a death,--the disagreeable circumstances attending it ; [I]_{690-his companion} had not time to read the _ Guardian _ on Saturday , but [I]_{690-his companion} understand it was some dispute about [a factory girl]_{5870-a factory girl} . "_{[690-his companion]} " Yes , [some such person]_{7165-some such person} . Of course [she]_{5870-a factory girl} 'll be examined , and [Williams]_367-williams will do it in style . [I]_{7160-the first speaker,--"the people in gardener 's office} shall slip out from [[our]_7166-our court]_{7167-our court} to hear [him]_{2293-the old gentleman} if [I]_{7160-the first speaker,--"the people in gardener 's office} can hit the nick of time . "_{[7160-the first speaker,--"the people in gardener 's office]} " And if [you]_{1048-the other} can get a place , [you]_{1048-the other} mean , for depend upon it [the court]_{604-the court} will be crowded . "_{[1048-the other]} " Ay , ay , [the ladies]_{7169-the ladies} ( [sweet souls]_{7170-sweet souls} ) will come in [shoals]_7171-shoals to hear a trial for murder , and see [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} , and watch [the judge]_{6816-the judge} put on [his]_{6816-the judge} black cap . "_{[690-his companion]} " And then go [home]_4755-home and groan over [the Spanish ladies who take delight in bull - fights--'such unfeminine creatures]_{7175-the spanish ladies who take delight in bull - fights--'such unfeminine creatures} ! ' "_{[1048-the other]} Then [they]_3567-they went on to other subjects . It was but another drop to [Mary]_145-mary 's cup ; but [she]_145-mary was nearly in that state which [Crabbe]_360-crabbe describes , " For when so full the cup of sorrows flows Add but a drop , it instantly o'erflows . "_[360-crabbe] And now [they]_3567-they were in [the tunnel!--and]_{3568-the tunnel!--and} now [they]_3567-they were in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ; and [she]_145-mary must rouse [herself]_145-mary from the torpor of mind and body which was creeping over [her]_145-mary ; the result of much anxiety and fatigue , and several sleepless nights . [She]_145-mary asked [a policeman]_{4806-a policeman} the way to [Milk House Yard]_{98-milk - house yard} , and following [his]_{4806-a policeman} directions with [the _ savoir faire _ of [a town - bred girl]_{3571-a town - bred girl}]_{3570-the _ savoir faire _ of a town - bred girl} , [she]_145-mary reached [a little court leading out of [a busy , thronged street]_{3573-a busy , thronged street} , not far from [the Docks]_{5006-the docks}]_{3572-a little court leading out of a busy , thronged street , not far from the docks} . When [she]_145-mary entered [the quiet little yard]_{3575-the quiet little yard} [she]_145-mary stopped to regain [her]_145-mary breath , and to gather strength , for [her]_145-mary limbs trembled , and [her]_145-mary heart beat violently . All the unfavourable contingencies [she]_145-mary had , until now , forbidden [herself]_145-mary to dwell upon , came forward to [her]_145-mary mind . The possibility , the bare possibility , of [Jem]_154-jem being [an accomplice in the murder]_{3576-an accomplice in the murder} ; the still greater possibility that [he]_154-jem had not fulfilled [his]_154-jem intention of going part of the way with [Will]_154-jem , but had been led off by some little accidental occurrence from [his]_154-jem original intention ; and that [he]_154-jem had spent the evening with [those , whom it was now too late to bring forward as witnesses]_{3577-those , whom it was now too late to bring forward as witnesses} . But sooner or later [she]_145-mary must know the truth ; so taking courage [she]_145-mary knocked at the door of [a house]_{4761-a house} . " Is this [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's ? "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary inquired . " Next door but one , "_[145-mary] was the curt answer . And even this extra minute was a reprieve . [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} was busy washing , and would have spoken angrily to [the person who knocked so gently at the door]_{3579-the person who knocked so gently at the door} , if anger had been in [her]_145-mary nature ; but [she]_145-mary was [a soft , helpless kind of woman]_{3580-a soft , helpless kind of woman} , and only sighed over the many interruptions [she]_145-mary had had to [her]_145-mary business that unlucky Monday morning . But the feeling which would have been anger in a more impatient temper , took the form of prejudice against [the disturber]_{3581-the disturber} , whoever [he]_3582-he or [she]_3583-she might be . [Mary]_145-mary 's fluttered and excited appearance strengthened this prejudice in [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's mind , as [she]_145-mary stood , stripping the soap - suds off [her]_145-mary arms , while [she]_145-mary eyed [[her]_145-mary visitor]_{5529-her visitor} , and waited to be told what [her]_145-mary business was . But no words would come . [Mary]_145-mary 's voice seemed choked up in [her]_145-mary throat . " Pray what do [you]_145-mary want , [young woman]_{1835-young woman} ? "_[145-mary] coldly asked [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} at last . " [I]_{350-mrs. jones} want -- Oh ! is [Will Wilson]_{7177-will wilson} [here]_5235-here ? "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " No , [he]_{7177-will wilson} is not , "_{[350-mrs. jones]} replied [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} , inclining to shut the door in [her]_{350-mrs. jones} face . " Is [he]_{7177-will wilson} not come back from [the Isle of Man]_{2708-the isle of man} ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , sickening . " [He]_{7177-will wilson} never went ; [he]_{7177-will wilson} stayed in [Manchester]_1-manchester too long ; as perhaps [you]_{350-mrs. jones} know , already . "_[145-mary] And again the door seemed closing . But [Mary]_145-mary bent forwards with suppliant action ( as some young tree bends , when blown by the rough , autumnal wind ) , and gasped out , " Tell [me]_145-mary -- tell [me]_145-mary -- where is [he]_{7177-will wilson} ? "_[145-mary] [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} suspected some love affair , and , perhaps , [one of not the most creditable kind]_{3585-one of not the most creditable kind} ; but the distress of [the pale young creature before [her]_145-mary]_{3586-the pale young creature before her} was so obvious and so pitiable , that were [she]_145-mary ever so sinful , [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} could no longer uphold [her]_{350-mrs. jones} short , reserved manner . " [He]_{7177-will wilson} 's gone this very morning , [[my]_{350-mrs. jones} poor girl]_{7180-my poor girl} . Step in , and [I]_{350-mrs. jones} 'll tell [you]_145-mary about it . "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " Gone ! "_[145-mary] cried [Mary]_145-mary . " How gone ? [I]_{350-mrs. jones} must see [him,--it]_{7181-him,--it} 's a matter of life and death : [he]_{7177-will wilson} can save [the innocent]_{7004-the innocent} from being hanged,--he can not be gone,--how gone ? "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " Sailed , [[my]_{350-mrs. jones} dear]_{5712-my dear} ! sailed in the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ this very blessed morning . "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " Sailed ! "_{[350-mrs. jones]} CHAPTER XXVII . IN [THE LIVERPOOL DOCKS]_{3587-the liverpool docks} . " [Yon]_7184-yon is [[our]_7185-our quay]_{7186-our quay} ! Hark to the clamour in [that miry road]_{7187-that miry road} , Bounded and narrowed by [yon]_7184-yon vessel 's load ; The lumbering wealth [she]_{7177-will wilson} empties round [the place]_{623-the place} , Package and parcel , hogshead , chest and case : While [the loud seaman]_{7189-the loud seaman} and [the angry hind]_{7190-the angry hind} , Mingling in business , bellow to the wind . "_[360-crabbe] [CRABBE]_360-crabbe . [Mary]_145-mary staggered into [the house]_{803-the house} . [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} placed [her]_145-mary tenderly in a chair , and there stood bewildered by [her]_145-mary side . " Oh , [father]_4863-father ! [father]_4863-father ! "_[145-mary] muttered [she]_145-mary , " what have [you]_4863-father done?--What must [I]_145-mary do ? must [the innocent]_{7004-the innocent} die?--or [he]_{7004-the innocent} -- whom [I]_145-mary fear -- [I]_145-mary fear -- oh ! what am [I]_145-mary saying ? "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , looking round affrighted , and seemingly reassured by [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's countenance , " [I]_145-mary am so helpless , so weak,--but [a poor girl]_{5875-a poor girl} after all . How can [I]_145-mary tell what is right ? [Father]_245-father ! [you]_4863-father have always been so kind to [me,--and]_{7195-me,--and} [you]_4863-father to be -- never mind -- never mind , all will come right in the grave . "_[145-mary] " Save [us]_7196-us , and bless [us]_7196-us ! "_{[350-mrs. jones]} exclaimed [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} , " if [I]_{350-mrs. jones} do n't think [she]_145-mary 's gone out of [her]_145-mary wits ! "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " No , [I]_145-mary 'm not ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , catching at the words , and with a strong effort controlling the mind [she]_145-mary felt to be wandering , while the red blood flushed to scarlet the heretofore white cheek , " [I]_{350-mrs. jones} 'm not out of [my]_{350-mrs. jones} senses ; there is so much to be done -- so much -- and [no one]_{1202-no one} but [me]_{350-mrs. jones} to do it , [you]_4863-father know,--though [I]_{350-mrs. jones} ca n't rightly tell what it is , "_{[350-mrs. jones]} looking up with bewilderment into [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's face . " [I]_{350-mrs. jones} must not go mad whatever comes -- at least not yet . No ! "_{[350-mrs. jones]} ( bracing [herself]_145-mary up ) " something may yet be done , and [I]_{350-mrs. jones} must do it . Sailed ! did [you]_4863-father say ? [The _ John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} ? Sailed ? "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " [Ay]_305-ay ! [she]_145-mary went out of [dock]_7198-dock last night , to be ready for the morning 's tide . "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " [I]_145-mary thought [she]_145-mary was not to sail till to - morrow , "_[145-mary] murmured [Mary]_145-mary . " So did [Will]_154-jem ( [he]_154-jem 's lodged [here]_5235-here long , so [we]_7200-we all call [him]_154-jem ' Will ' ) , "_{[350-mrs. jones]} replied [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} . " [The mate]_{7201-the mate} had told [him]_154-jem so , [I]_{350-mrs. jones} believe , and [he]_154-jem never knew different till [he]_154-jem got to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool on Friday morning ; but as soon as [he]_154-jem heard , [he]_154-jem gave up going to [the Isle o ' Man]_{7202-the isle o ' man} , and just ran over to [Rhyl]_104-rhyl with [the mate]_{7201-the mate} , one [John Harris]_{368-john harris} , as has [friends]_4851-friends a bit beyond [Abergele]_105-abergele ; [you]_7205-you may have heard [him]_{7201-the mate} speak on [him]_{7201-the mate} , for [they]_4851-friends are [great chums]_{7206-great chums} , though [I]_{350-mrs. jones} 've [my]_{350-mrs. jones} own opinion of [Harris]_{368-john harris} . "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " And [he]_154-jem 's sailed ? "_[145-mary] repeated [Mary]_145-mary , trying by repetition to realise the fact to [herself]_145-mary . " Ay , [he]_154-jem went on board last night to be ready for the morning 's tide , as [I]_145-mary said afore , and [[my]_145-mary boy]_{5142-my boy} went to see [the ship]_{5017-the ship} go down [the river]_{7209-the river} , and came back all agog with the sight . Here , [Charley]_369-charley , [Charley]_369-charley ! "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary called out loudly for [[her]_145-mary son]_{2056-her son} : but [Charley]_369-charley was one of [those boys who are never " far to seek]_{7210-those boys who are never " far to seek} , "_[145-mary] as [the Lancashire people]_{2260-the lancashire people} say , when any thing is going on ; a mysterious conversation , an unusual event , a fire , or a riot , any thing , in short ; [such boys]_{3591-such boys} are [the little omnipresent people of this world]_{3592-the little omnipresent people of this world} . [Charley]_369-charley had , in fact , been [spectator and auditor]_{3593-spectator and auditor} all this time ; though for a little while [he]_369-charley had been engaged in " dollying "_{[3593-spectator and auditor]} and a few other mischievous feats in the washing line , which had prevented [his]_369-charley attention from being fully given to [[his]_369-charley mother]_{787-his mother} 's conversation with [the strange girl who had entered]_{3595-the strange girl who had entered} . " Oh , [Charley]_369-charley ! there [you]_369-charley are ! Did [you]_369-charley not see [the _ John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} sail down [the river]_{7209-the river} this morning ? Tell [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} about it , for [I]_369-charley think [she]_{6807-the young woman} hardly credits [me]_369-charley . "_{[369-charley]} " [I]_369-charley saw [her]_{6807-the young woman} tugged down [the river]_{7209-the river} by [a steam - boat]_{7214-a steam - boat} , which comes to same thing , "_{[369-charley]} replied [he]_369-charley . " Oh ! if [I]_369-charley had but come last night ! "_{[369-charley]} moaned [Mary]_145-mary . " But [I]_369-charley never thought of it . [I]_369-charley never thought but what [he]_369-charley knew right when [he]_369-charley said [he]_369-charley would be back from [the Isle of Man]_{97-the isle of man} on Monday morning , and not afore -- and now [some one]_{5544-some one} must die for [my]_369-charley negligence ! "_{[369-charley]} " Die ! "_{[4980-the lad]} exclaimed [the lad]_{4980-the lad} . " How ? "_{[4980-the lad]} " Oh ! Will would have proved an _ alibi_,--but [he]_369-charley 's gone,--and what am [I]_369-charley to do ? "_{[369-charley]} " Do n't give it up yet , "_{[3597-the energetic boy , interested at once in the case]} cried [the energetic boy , interested at once in the case]_{3597-the energetic boy , interested at once in the case} ; " let 's have a try for [him]_369-charley . [We]_7216-we are but where [we]_7216-we were if [we]_7216-we fail . "_{[3597-the energetic boy , interested at once in the case]} [Mary]_145-mary roused [herself]_145-mary . The sympathetic " [we]_7216-we "_{[369-charley]} gave [her]_145-mary heart and hope . " But what can be done ? [You]_{4980-the lad} say [he]_369-charley 's sailed ; what can be done ? "_{[369-charley]} But [she]_145-mary spoke louder , and in a more life - like tone . " No ! [I]_145-mary did not say [he]_369-charley 'd sailed ; [mother]_4845-mother said that , and [women]_4730-women know nought about such matters . [You]_{4980-the lad} see "_[145-mary] ( proud of [his]_{4980-the lad} office of [instructor]_{3598-instructor} , and insensibly influenced , as all about [her]_145-mary were , by [Mary]_145-mary 's sweet , earnest , lovely countenance ) " there 's sand - banks at [the mouth of [the river]_{7209-the river}]_{7219-the mouth of the river} , and [ships]_7221-ships ca n't get over them but at high - water ; especially ships of heavy burden , like [the _ John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} . Now , [she]_{346-john cropper} was tugged down [the river]_{7209-the river} at low water , or pretty near , and will have to lie some time before the water will be high enough to float [her]_{346-john cropper} over [the banks]_{7223-the banks} . So hold up [your]_{4980-the lad} head,--you've a chance yet , though may be but a poor one . "_[145-mary] " But what must [I]_145-mary do ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary , to whom all this explanation had been a vague mystery . " Do ! "_{[3599-the boy]} said [the boy]_{3599-the boy} , impatiently , " why , have not [I]_{3599-the boy} told [you]_145-mary ? [Only women]_{7224-only women} ( begging [your]_145-mary pardon ) are so stupid at understanding about any thing belonging to the [sea;--you]_{7225-sea;--you} must get [a boat]_{7226-a boat} , and make all haste , and sail after him,--after [the _ John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ . [You]_{4980-the lad} may overtake [her]_{346-john cropper} , or [you]_{4980-the lad} may not . It 's just a chance ; but [she]_{346-john cropper} 's heavy laden , and that 's in [your]_{4980-the lad} favour . [She]_{346-john cropper} 'll draw many feet of water . "_{[3599-the boy]} [Mary]_145-mary had humbly and eagerly ( oh , how eagerly ! ) listened to [this young Sir Oracle]_{3600-this young sir oracle} 's speech ; but try as [she]_145-mary would , [she]_145-mary could only understand that [she]_145-mary must make haste , and sail -- somewhere-- " [I]_145-mary beg [your]_{4980-the lad} pardon , "_[145-mary] ( and [her]_145-mary little acknowledgment of inferiority in this speech pleased [the lad]_{4980-the lad} , and made [him]_{4980-the lad} [her]_145-mary still more zealous friend ) . " [I]_145-mary beg [your]_{4980-the lad} pardon , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , " but [I]_145-mary do n't know where to get [a boat]_{7226-a boat} . Are there [boat - stands]_{7228-boat - stands} ? "_[145-mary] [The lad]_{4980-the lad} laughed outright . " [You]_145-mary 're not long in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , [I]_{4980-the lad} guess . [Boat - stands]_{7228-boat - stands} ! No ; go down to [the pier,--any pier]_{7230-the pier,--any pier} will do , and hire a boat,--you'll be at no loss when once [you]_145-mary are [there]_873-there . Only make haste . "_{[4980-the lad]} " Oh , [you]_{4980-the lad} need not tell [me]_145-mary that , if [I]_145-mary but knew how , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , trembling with eagerness . " But [you]_{4980-the lad} say right,--I never was [here]_5235-here before , and [I]_145-mary do n't know [my]_145-mary way to [the place [you]_{4980-the lad} speak on]_{7233-the place you speak on} ; only tell [me]_145-mary , and [I]_145-mary 'll not lose a minute . "_[145-mary] " [Mother]_161-mother ! "_{[3603-the wilful lad]} said [the wilful lad]_{3603-the wilful lad} , " [I]_{3603-the wilful lad} 'm going to show [her]_145-mary the way to [the pier]_{7234-the pier} ; [I]_{3603-the wilful lad} 'll be back in an hour,--or so,-- "_{[3603-the wilful lad]} [he]_{3603-the wilful lad} added in a lower tone . And before [the gentle Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} could collect [her]_{350-mrs. jones} scattered wits sufficiently to understand half of the hastily formed plan , [[her]_{350-mrs. jones} son]_{2056-her son} was scudding down [the street]_{4821-the street} , closely followed by [Mary]_145-mary 's half - running steps . Presently [he]_{3603-the wilful lad} slackened [his]_{3603-the wilful lad} pace sufficiently to enable [him]_{3603-the wilful lad} to enter into conversation with [Mary]_145-mary , for once escaped from the reach of [[his]_{3603-the wilful lad} mother]_{787-his mother} 's recalling voice , [he]_{3603-the wilful lad} thought [he]_{3603-the wilful lad} might venture to indulge [his]_{3603-the wilful lad} curiosity . " [Ahem!--What]_{7235-ahem!--what} 's [your]_145-mary name ? It 's so awkward to be calling [you]_145-mary [young woman]_{1835-young woman} . "_{[3603-the wilful lad]} " [My]_145-mary name is [Mary,--Mary Barton]_145-mary , "_[145-mary] answered [she]_145-mary , anxious to propitiate one who seemed so willing to exert [himself]_{3603-the wilful lad} in [her]_145-mary behalf , or else [she]_145-mary grudged every word which caused the slightest relaxation in [her]_145-mary speed , although [her]_145-mary chest seemed tightened , and [her]_145-mary head throbbing , from the rate at which [they]_3607-they were walking . " And [you]_145-mary want [Will Wilson]_154-jem to prove an _ alibi_--is that it ? "_[145-mary] " Yes -- oh , yes -- can [we]_3607-they not cross now ? "_[145-mary] " No , wait a minute ; it 's the teagle hoisting above [your]_145-mary head [I]_145-mary 'm afraid of;--and who is it that 's to be tried ? "_[145-mary] " [Jem]_154-jem ; oh , [lad]_1512-lad ! ca n't [we]_3607-they get past ? "_[145-mary] [They]_3607-they rushed under the great bales quivering in the air above [their]_3607-they heads and pressed onwards for a few minutes , till [Master Charley]_370-charley again saw fit to walk a little slower , and ask a few more questions . " [Mary]_145-mary , is [Jem]_154-jem [[your]_145-mary brother]_{7238-your brother} , or [[your]_145-mary sweetheart]_{6967-your sweetheart} , that [you]_145-mary 're so set upon saving [him]_154-jem ? "_{[370-charley]} " No -- no , "_[3608-you] replied [she]_3608-you , but with something of hesitation , that made [the shrewd boy]_{3609-the shrewd boy} yet more anxious to clear up the mystery . " Perhaps [he]_154-jem 's [[your]_145-mary cousin]_{7240-your cousin} , then ? Many [a girl]_{577-a girl} has [a cousin who has not a sweetheart]_{7242-a cousin who has not a sweetheart} . "_[3608-you] " No , [he]_154-jem 's neither [kith]_7243-kith nor kin to [me]_3608-you . What 's the matter ? What are [you]_370-charley stopping for ? "_[3608-you] said [she]_3608-you , with nervous terror , as [Charley]_370-charley turned back a few steps , and peered up [a side street]_{3610-a side street} . " Oh , nothing to flurry [you]_3608-you so , [Mary]_145-mary . [I]_3608-you heard [you]_3608-you say to [mother]_4845-mother [you]_3608-you had never been in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool before , and if [you]_3608-you 'll only look up [this street]_{1277-this street} [you]_3608-you may see the back windows of [[our]_7246-we Exchange]_{7247-our exchange} . [Such a building as [yon]_3608-you is]_{7248-such a building as yon is} ! with ' [natomy]_371-natomy hiding under a blanket , and [Lord Admiral Nelson]_{372-lord admiral nelson} , and [a few more people in the middle of [the court]_{604-the court}]_{7249-a few more people in the middle of the court} ! No ! come here , "_[3608-you] as [Mary]_145-mary , in [her]_145-mary eagerness , was looking at any window that caught [her]_145-mary eye first , to satisfy [the boy]_{3599-the boy} . " Here , then , now [you]_3608-you can see it . [You]_3608-you can say , now , [you]_3608-you 've seen [Liverpool Exchange]_{106-liverpool exchange} . "_[3608-you] " Yes , to be sure -- it 's a beautiful window , [I]_3608-you 'm sure . But are [we]_7246-we near [the boats]_{7251-the boats} ? [I]_3608-you 'll stop as [I]_3608-you come back , [you]_3608-you know ; only [I]_3608-you think [we]_7246-we 'd better get on now . "_[3608-you] " Oh ! if the wind 's in [your]_3608-you favour , [you]_3608-you 'll be down [the river]_{7209-the river} in no time , and catch Will , [I]_3608-you 'll be bound ; and if it 's not , why , [you]_3608-you know , the minute it took [you]_3608-you to look at [the Exchange]_{7253-the exchange} will be neither here nor there . "_[3608-you] Another rush onwards , till [one of the long crossings near [the docks]_{5006-the docks}]_{3612-one of the long crossings near the docks} caused a stoppage , and gave [Mary]_145-mary time for breathing , and [Charley]_370-charley leisure to ask another question . " [You]_3608-you 've never said where [you]_3608-you come from ? "_{[370-charley]} " [Manchester]_1-manchester , "_[145-mary] replied [she]_145-mary . " Eh , then ! [you]_3608-you 've a power of things to see . [Liverpool]_17-liverpool beats [Manchester]_1-manchester hollow , [they]_17-liverpool say . [A nasty , smoky hole]_{7254-a nasty , smoky hole} , bean't it ? Are [you]_3608-you bound to live [there]_873-there ? "_[145-mary] " Oh , yes ! it 's [[my]_3608-you home]_{5584-my home} . "_[3608-you] " Well , [I]_145-mary do n't think [I]_145-mary could abide [a home in the middle of smoke]_{7257-a home in the middle of smoke} . Look there ! now [you]_3608-you see [the river]_{7209-the river} ! That 's something now [you]_3608-you 'd give a deal for in [Manchester]_1-manchester . Look ! "_[145-mary] And [Mary]_145-mary did look , and saw down an opening made in the forest of masts belonging to the vessels in [dock]_7198-dock , [the glorious river]_{3615-the glorious river} , along which [white - sailed ships]_{3616-white - sailed ships} were gliding with [the ensigns of [all nations]_{3618-all nations}]_{3617-the ensigns of all nations} , not " braving the battle , "_[3608-you] but telling of [the distant lands]_{3619-the distant lands} , spicy or frozen , that sent to [that mighty mart]_{3620-that mighty mart} for [their]_{3620-that mighty mart} comforts or [their]_{3620-that mighty mart} luxuries ; [she]_145-mary saw [small boats]_{3621-small boats} passing to and fro on [that glittering highway]_{3622-that glittering highway} , but [she]_145-mary also saw such puffs and clouds of smoke from [the countless steamers]_{3623-the countless steamers} , that [she]_145-mary wondered at [Charley]_370-charley 's intolerance of the smoke of [Manchester]_1-manchester . Across [the swing - bridge]_{3624-the swing - bridge} , along [the pier,--and]_{3625-the pier,--and} [they]_3626-they stood breathless by [a magnificent dock]_{3627-a magnificent dock} , where hundreds of [ships]_7221-ships lay motionless during the process of loading and unloading . The cries of [the sailors]_{5007-the sailors} , the variety of languages used by [the passers - by]_{5408-the passers - by} , and the entire novelty of the sight compared with any thing which [Mary]_145-mary had ever seen , made [her]_145-mary feel most helpless and forlorn ; and [she]_145-mary clung to [[her]_145-mary young guide]_{3631-her young guide} as to one who alone by [his]_{3631-her young guide} superior knowledge could interpret between [her]_145-mary and [the new race of men by whom [she]_145-mary was surrounded,--for [a new race sailors]_{3633-a new race sailors} might reasonably be considered]_{3632-the new race of men by whom she was surrounded,--for a new race sailors might reasonably be considered} , to [a girl who had hitherto seen [none but inland dwellers]_{3635-none but inland dwellers}]_{3634-a girl who had hitherto seen none but inland dwellers} , and [those for the greater part factory people]_{3636-those for the greater part factory people} . In [that new world of sight]_{3637-that new world of sight} and sound , [she]_145-mary still bore one prevailing thought , and though [her]_145-mary eye glanced over [the ships]_{3638-the ships} and [the wide - spreading river]_{3639-the wide - spreading river} , [her]_145-mary mind was full of the thought of reaching [Will]_154-jem . " Why are [we]_7259-we here ? "_[145-mary] asked [she]_145-mary of [Charley]_370-charley . " There are [no little boats]_{7260-no little boats} about , and [I]_145-mary thought [I]_145-mary was to go in [a little boat]_{7261-a little boat} ; [those ships]_{7262-those ships} are never meant for short distances , are [they]_{7262-those ships} ? "_[145-mary] " To be sure not , "_{[370-charley]} replied [he]_370-charley , rather contemptuously . " But the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ lay in [this dock]_{7263-this dock} , and [I]_145-mary know [many of [the sailors]_{5007-the sailors}]_{7264-many of the sailors} ; and if [I]_145-mary could see one [I]_145-mary knew , [I]_145-mary 'd ask [him]_370-charley to run up the mast , and see if [he]_370-charley could catch a sight of [her]_7266-her in the offing . If [she]_7266-her 's weighed [her]_7266-her anchor no use for [your]_145-mary going , [you]_145-mary know . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary assented quietly to this speech , as if [she]_145-mary were as careless as [Charley]_370-charley seemed now to be about [her]_145-mary overtaking [Will]_154-jem ; but in truth [her]_145-mary heart was sinking within [her]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary no longer felt the energy which had hitherto upheld [her]_145-mary . [Her]_145-mary bodily strength was giving way , and [she]_145-mary stood cold and shivering , although the noon - day sun beat down with considerable power on the shadeless spot where [she]_145-mary was standing . " Here 's [Tom Bourne]_{373-tom bourne} ! "_{[370-charley]} said [Charley]_370-charley ; and altering [his]_370-charley manner from the patronising key in which [he]_370-charley had spoken to [Mary]_145-mary , [he]_370-charley addressed [a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where [they]_3641-they stood , [his]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} hands in [his]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} pockets , and [his]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} quid in [his]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about [him]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} , and spit right and left]_{3640-a weather - beaten old sailor who came rolling along the pathway where they stood , his hands in his pockets , and his quid in his mouth , with very much the air of one who had nothing to do but look about him , and spit right and left} ; addressing [this old tar]_{3642-this old tar} , [Charley]_370-charley made known to [him]_{3642-this old tar} [his]_370-charley wish in slang , which to [Mary]_145-mary was almost inaudible , and quite unintelligible , and which [I]_0-i am too much of [a land - lubber]_{3643-a land - lubber} to repeat correctly . [Mary]_145-mary watched looks and actions with a renovated keenness of perception . [She]_145-mary saw [the old man]_{6643-the old man} listen attentively to [Charley]_370-charley ; [she]_145-mary saw [him]_{6643-the old man} eye [her]_145-mary over from head to foot , and wind up [his]_{6643-the old man} inspection with a little nod of approbation ( for [her]_145-mary very shabbiness and poverty of dress were creditable signs to [the experienced old sailor]_{3645-the experienced old sailor} ) ; and then [she]_145-mary watched [him]_{6643-the old man} leisurely swing [himself]_{6643-the old man} on to [a ship in]_{3646-a ship in} [the basin]_{3647-the basin} , and , borrowing a glass , run up the mast with the speed of a monkey . " [He]_{6643-the old man} 'll fall ! "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , in affright , clutching at [Charley]_370-charley 's arm , and judging [the sailor]_{5011-the sailor} , from [his]_{6643-the old man} storm - marked face and unsteady walk on [land]_2343-land , to be much older than [he]_{6643-the old man} really was . " Not [he]_{6643-the old man} ! "_{[370-charley]} said [Charley]_370-charley . " [He]_{6643-the old man} 's at the mast - head now . See ! [he]_{6643-the old man} 's looking through [his]_{6643-the old man} glass , and using [his]_{6643-the old man} arms as steady as if [he]_{6643-the old man} were on [dry land]_{7267-dry land} . Why , [I]_370-charley 've been up the mast , many and many a time ; only do n't tell [mother]_4845-mother . [She]_4845-mother thinks [I]_370-charley 'm to be [a shoemaker]_{7269-a shoemaker} , but [I]_370-charley 've made up [my]_370-charley mind to be [a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} ; only there 's no good arguing with [a woman]_{5614-a woman} . [You]_3650-she 'll not tell [her]_4845-mother , [Mary]_145-mary ? "_{[370-charley]} " Oh , see ! "_[3650-she] exclaimed [she]_3650-she ( [his]_370-charley secret was very safe with [her]_3650-she , for , in fact , [she]_3650-she had not heard it ) . " See ! [he]_370-charley 's coming down ; [he]_370-charley 's down . Speak to [him]_370-charley , [Charley]_370-charley . "_[3650-she] But unable to wait another instant [she]_3650-she called out [herself]_3650-she , " Can [you]_370-charley see the _ [John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} ? Is [she]_{346-john cropper} there yet ? "_[3650-she] " Ay , ay , "_{[370-charley]} [he]_370-charley answered , and coming quickly up to [them]_3651-they , [he]_370-charley hurried [them]_3651-they away to seek for [a boat]_{7226-a boat} , saying the bar was already covered , and in an hour [the ship]_{5017-the ship} would hoist [her]_{5017-the ship} sails and be off . " [You]_3651-they 've the wind right against [you]_3651-they , and must use oars . No time to lose . "_[3651-they] [They]_3651-they ran to some steps leading down to [the water]_{4976-the water} . [They]_3651-they beckoned to [some watermen , who , suspecting the real state of the case]_{3655-some watermen , who , suspecting the real state of the case} , appeared in no hurry for a fare , but leisurely brought [[their]_3651-they boat]_{3656-their boat} alongside the stairs , as if it were a matter of indifference to [them]_3651-they whether [they]_3651-they were engaged or not , while [they]_3651-they conversed together in few words , and in an under - tone , respecting the charge [they]_3651-they should make . " Oh , pray make haste , "_[145-mary] called [Mary]_145-mary . " [I]_145-mary want [you]_{1152-the men} to take [me]_145-mary to the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ . Where is [she]_{346-john cropper} , [Charley]_370-charley ? Tell [them]_{3655-some watermen , who , suspecting the real state of the case} -- [I]_145-mary do n't rightly know the words,--only make haste ! "_[145-mary] " In the offing [she]_{346-john cropper} is , sure enough , [miss]_1623-miss , "_{[6444-one of the men]} answered [one of [the men]_{1152-the men}]_{6444-one of the men} , shoving [Charley]_370-charley on one side , regarding [him]_370-charley as too young to be [a principal in the bargain]_{3659-a principal in the bargain} . " [I]_{6444-one of the men} do n't think [we]_7273-us can go , [Dick]_374-dick , "_{[6444-one of the men]} said [he]_{6444-one of the men} , with a wink to [[his]_{6444-one of the men} companion]_{690-his companion} ; " there 's [the gentleman over at [New Brighton]_{107-new brighton}]_{7274-the gentleman over at new brighton} as wants [us]_7273-us . "_{[6444-one of the men]} " But , mayhap , [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} will pay [us]_7273-us handsome for giving [her]_{6807-the young woman} a last look at [[her]_{6807-the young woman} sweetheart]_{7276-her sweetheart} , "_{[1048-the other]} interposed [the other]_{1048-the other} . " Oh , how much do [you]_{3662-the boatmen} want ? Only make haste -- [I've]_145-mary enough to pay [you]_{3662-the boatmen} , but every moment is precious , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary . " Ay , that it is . Less than an hour wo n't take [us]_7273-us to [the mouth of [the river]_{7209-the river}]_{7219-the mouth of the river} , and [she]_{6807-the young woman} 'll be off by two o'clock ! "_[145-mary] [Poor Mary]_145-mary 's ideas of " plenty of money , "_[145-mary] however , were different to those entertained by [the boatmen]_{3662-the boatmen} . Only fourteen or fifteen shillings remained out of the sovereign [Margaret]_157-margaret had lent [her]_157-margaret , and [the boatmen]_{3662-the boatmen} , imagining " plenty "_{[3662-the boatmen]} to mean no less than several pounds , insisted upon receiving a sovereign ( an exorbitant fare , by the bye , although reduced from [their]_{3662-the boatmen} first demand of thirty shillings ) . While [Charley]_370-charley , with [a boy]_{2722-a boy} 's impatience of delay , and disregard of money , kept urging , " Give it ['em]_7279-'em , [Mary]_145-mary ; [they]_{3662-the boatmen} 'll none of [them]_{3662-the boatmen} take [you]_145-mary for less . It 's [your]_145-mary only chance . There 's [St. Nicholas]_{375-st. nicholas} ringing one ! "_{[370-charley]} " [I]_157-margaret 've only got fourteen and ninepence , "_{[157-margaret]} cried [she]_157-margaret , in despair , after counting over [her]_157-margaret money ; " but [I]_157-margaret 'll give [you]_145-mary [my]_157-margaret shawl , and [you]_145-mary can sell it for four or five shillings,--oh ! wo n't that much do ? "_{[157-margaret]} asked [she]_157-margaret , in such a tone of voice , that [they]_{3662-the boatmen} must indeed have had hard hearts who could refuse such agonised entreaty . [They]_{3662-the boatmen} took [her]_157-margaret on board . And in less than five minutes [she]_157-margaret was rocking and tossing in [a boat]_{7226-a boat} for the first time in [her]_157-margaret life , alone with [two rough , hard - looking men]_{3666-two rough , hard - looking men} . CHAPTER XXVIII . " [JOHN CROPPER]_{346-john cropper} , AHOY ! "_{[3662-the boatmen]} " A wet sheet and [a flowing sea]_{7280-a flowing sea} , A wind that follows fast And fills the white and rustling sail , And bends the gallant mast ! And bends the gallant mast , [[my]_{376-allan cunningham} boys]_{7281-my boys} , While , like the eagle free , Away [the good ship]_{7282-the good ship} flies , and leaves [Old England]_{108-old england} on the lee . "_{[376-allan cunningham]} [ALLAN CUNNINGHAM]_{376-allan cunningham} . [Mary]_145-mary had not understood that [Charley]_370-charley was not coming with [her]_145-mary . In fact , [she]_145-mary had not thought about it , till [she]_145-mary perceived [his]_370-charley absence , as [they]_3667-they pushed off from [the landing - place]_{3668-the landing - place} , and remembered that [she]_145-mary had never thanked [him]_370-charley for all [his]_370-charley kind interest in [her]_145-mary behalf ; and now [his]_370-charley absence made [her]_145-mary feel most lonely -- even [his]_370-charley , [the little mushroom friend of an hour 's growth]_{3669-the little mushroom friend of an hour 's growth} . [The boat]_{3670-the boat} threaded [her]_145-mary way through [the maze of [larger vessels]_{3672-larger vessels} which surrounded [the shore]_{3673-the shore}]_{3671-the maze of larger vessels which surrounded the shore} , bumping against one , kept off by the oars from going right against another , overshadowed by a third , until at length [they]_3667-they were fairly out on [the broad river]_{3674-the broad river} , away from [either shore]_{3675-either shore} ; the sights and sounds of [land]_2343-land being lost in the distance . And then came a sort of pause . Both wind and tide were against [the two men]_{566-the two men} , and labour as [they]_3667-they would [they]_3667-they made but little way . Once [Mary]_145-mary in [her]_145-mary impatience had risen up to obtain a better view of the progress [they]_{566-the two men} had made , but [the men]_{1152-the men} had roughly told [her]_145-mary to sit down immediately , and [she]_145-mary had dropped on [her]_145-mary seat like [a chidden child]_{3679-a chidden child} , although the impatience was still at [her]_145-mary heart . But now [she]_145-mary grew sure [they]_{566-the two men} were turning off from the straight course which [they]_{566-the two men} had hitherto kept on [the Cheshire side of [the river]_{7209-the river}]_{3680-the cheshire side of the river} , whither [they]_{566-the two men} had gone to avoid the force of the current , and after a short time [she]_145-mary could not help naming [her]_145-mary conviction , as a kind of nightmare dread and belief came over [her]_145-mary , that every thing animate and inanimate was in league against [her]_145-mary one sole aim and object of overtaking Will . [They]_{1152-the men} answered gruffly . [They]_{1152-the men} saw [a boatman whom [they]_{1152-the men} knew]_{3682-a boatman whom they knew} , and were desirous of obtaining [his]_{3682-a boatman whom they knew} services as [steersman]_{3683-steersman} , so that [both might row with greater effect]_{3684-both might row with greater effect} . [They]_{1152-the men} knew what [they]_{1152-the men} were about . So [she]_145-mary sat silent with clenched hands while [the parley]_{3685-the parley} went on , the explanation was given , the favour asked and granted . But [she]_145-mary was sickening all the time with nervous fear . [They]_{566-the two men} had been rowing a long , long time -- half a day it seemed , at least -- yet [Liverpool]_17-liverpool appeared still close at hand , and [Mary]_145-mary began almost to wonder that [the men]_{1152-the men} were not as much disheartened as [she]_145-mary was , when the wind , which had been hitherto against [them]_{566-the two men} , dropped , and thin clouds began to gather over the sky , shutting out the sun , and casting a chilly gloom over every thing . There was not a breath of air , and yet it was colder than when the soft violence of the westerly wind had been felt . [The men]_{1152-the men} renewed [their]_{1152-the men} efforts . [The boat]_{3670-the boat} gave a bound forwards at every pull of the oars . [The water]_{4976-the water} was glassy and motionless , reflecting tint by tint of the Indian - ink sky above . [Mary]_145-mary shivered , and [her]_145-mary heart sank within [her]_145-mary . Still now [they]_{566-the two men} evidently were making progress . Then [the steersman]_{3690-the steersman} pointed to a rippling line in [the river]_{7209-the river} only a little way off , and [the men]_{1152-the men} disturbed [Mary]_145-mary , who was watching [the ships]_{3638-the ships} that lay in what appeared to [her]_145-mary [the open sea]_{3694-the open sea} , to get at [their]_{1152-the men} sails . [She]_145-mary gave a little start , and rose . [Her]_145-mary patience , [her]_145-mary grief , and perhaps [her]_145-mary silence , had begun to win upon [the men]_{1152-the men} . " Yon second to [the norrard]_{7283-the norrard} is the _ [John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} . Wind 's right now , and sails will soon carry [us]_{1152-the men} alongside of [her]_145-mary . "_{[3690-the steersman]} [He]_{3690-the steersman} had forgotten ( or perhaps [he]_{3690-the steersman} did not like to remind [Mary]_145-mary ) that the same wind which now bore [[their]_{1152-the men} little craft]_{3696-their little craft} along with easy , rapid motion , would also be favourable to the _ [John Cropper _]_{346-john cropper} . But as [they]_{1152-the men} looked with straining eyes , as if to measure the decreasing distance that separated [them]_{1152-the men} from [her]_145-mary , [they]_{1152-the men} saw [her]_145-mary sails unfurled and flap in the breeze , till , catching the right point , [they]_{1152-the men} bellied forth into white roundness , and [the ship]_{5017-the ship} began to plunge and heave , as if [she]_145-mary were a living creature , impatient to be off . " [They]_{1152-the men} 're heaving anchor ! "_{[3662-the boatmen]} said one of [the boatmen]_{3662-the boatmen} to [the others]_{2080-the others} , as the faint musical cry of [the sailors]_{5007-the sailors} came floating over the waters that still separated [them]_{1152-the men} . Full of the spirit of the chase , though as yet ignorant of [Mary]_145-mary 's motives , [the men]_{1152-the men} sprang to hoist another sail . It was fully as much as [the boat]_{3670-the boat} could bear , in the keen , gusty east wind which was now blowing , and [she]_145-mary bent , and laboured , and ploughed , and creaked upbraidingly as if tasked beyond [her]_145-mary strength ; but [she]_145-mary sped along with a gallant swiftness . [They]_{1152-the men} drew nearer , and [they]_{1152-the men} heard the distant " ahoy "_{[1152-the men]} more clearly . It ceased . The anchor was up , and [the ship]_{5017-the ship} was away . [Mary]_145-mary stood up , steadying [herself]_145-mary by the mast , and stretched out [her]_145-mary arms , imploring [the flying vessel]_{3704-the flying vessel} to stay its course by that mute action , while the tears streamed down [her]_145-mary cheeks . [The men]_{1152-the men} caught up [their]_{1152-the men} oars and hoisted [them]_{1152-the men} in the air , and shouted to arrest attention . [They]_{1152-the men} were seen by [the men aboard [the larger craft]_{3707-the larger craft}]_{3706-the men aboard the larger craft} ; but [they]_{1152-the men} were too busy with all the confusion prevalent in [an outward - bound vessel]_{3708-an outward - bound vessel} to pay much attention . There were coils of ropes and [seamen]_3709-seamen 's chests to be stumbled over at every turn ; there were animals , not properly secured , roaming bewildered about [the deck]_{3710-the deck} , adding [their]_{1152-the men} pitiful lowings and bleatings to the aggregate of noises . There were carcases not cut up , looking like corpses of sheep and pigs rather than like mutton and pork ; there were [sailors running here and there and everywhere , having had no time to fall into method]_{3711-sailors running here and there and everywhere , having had no time to fall into method} , and with [their]_{1152-the men} minds divided between thoughts of [the land]_{5552-the land} and [the people [they]_{1152-the men} had left]_{3713-the people they had left} , and the present duties on [board ship]_{2367-board ship} ; while [the captain]_{2701-the captain} strove hard to procure some kind of order by hasty commands given in a loud , impatient voice , to right and left , starboard and larboard , [cabin]_3716-cabin and steerage . As [he]_{2701-the captain} paced [the deck]_{3710-the deck} with a chafed step , vexed at one or two little mistakes on the part of [the mate]_{7201-the mate} , and suffering [himself]_{2701-the captain} from the pain of separation from [wife]_510-wife and [children]_{4826-children} , but showing [his]_{2701-the captain} suffering only by [his]_{2701-the captain} outward irritation , [he]_{2701-the captain} heard a hail from [the shabby little river - boat that was striving to overtake [[his]_{2701-the captain} winged ship]_{3722-his winged ship}]_{3721-the shabby little river - boat that was striving to overtake his winged ship} . For [the men]_{1152-the men} fearing that , as [the ship]_{5017-the ship} was now fairly over the bar , [they]_{1152-the men} should only increase the distance between [them]_{1152-the men} , and being now within shouting range , had asked of [Mary]_145-mary [her]_145-mary more particular desire . [Her]_145-mary throat was dry ; all musical sound had gone out of [her]_145-mary voice ; but in a loud harsh whisper [she]_145-mary told [the men]_{1152-the men} [her]_145-mary errand of life and death , and [they]_{1152-the men} hailed [the ship]_{5017-the ship} . " [We]_{1152-the men} 're come for one [William Wilson]_{377-william wilson} , who is wanted to prove an _ alibi _ in [[Liverpool]_17-liverpool Assize Courts to - morrow]_{109-liverpool assize courts to - morrow} . [James Wilson]_154-jem is to be tried for a murder , done on Thursday night , when [he]_154-jem was with [William Wilson]_{377-william wilson} . Any thing more , [missis]_4831-missis ? "_{[3727-the boat - man of mary]} asked [the boat - man of [Mary]_145-mary]_{3727-the boat - man of mary} , in a lower voice , and taking [his]_{3727-the boat - man of mary} hands down from [his]_{3727-the boat - man of mary} mouth . " Say [I]_{3728-the boatman} 'm [Mary Barton]_145-mary . Oh , [the ship]_{5017-the ship} is going on ! Oh , for the love of [Heaven]_278-heaven , ask [them]_3732-they to stop . "_{[3728-the boatman]} [The boatman]_{3728-the boatman} was angry at the little regard paid to [his]_{3727-the boat - man of mary} summons , and called out again ; repeating the message with the name of [the young woman who sent it , and interlarding it with sailors]_{3729-the young woman who sent it , and interlarding it with sailors} ' oaths . [The ship]_{5017-the ship} flew along -- [away,--the boat]_{3731-away,--the boat} struggled after . [They]_3732-they could see [the captain]_{2701-the captain} take [his]_{2701-the captain} speaking - trumpet . And oh ! and alas ! [they]_3732-they heard [his]_{2701-the captain} words . [He]_{2701-the captain} swore a dreadful oath ; [he]_{2701-the captain} called [Mary]_145-mary a disgraceful name ; and [he]_{2701-the captain} said [he]_{2701-the captain} would not stop [[his]_{2701-the captain} ship]_{5944-his ship} for any one , nor could [he]_{2701-the captain} part with a single hand , whoever swung for it . The words came in unpitying clearness with [their]_3732-they trumpet - sound . [Mary]_145-mary sat down , looking like [one who prays in the death - agony]_{3735-one who prays in the death - agony} . For [her]_145-mary eyes were turned up to [that Heaven]_{3736-that heaven} , where mercy dwelleth , while [her]_145-mary blue lips quivered , though no sound came . Then [she]_145-mary bowed [her]_145-mary head and hid it in [her]_145-mary hands . " Hark ! [yon sailor]_{7286-yon sailor} hails [us]_3732-they . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary looked up . And [her]_145-mary heart stopped its beating to listen . [William Wilson]_{377-william wilson} stood as near the stern of [the vessel]_{3737-the vessel} as [he]_{377-william wilson} could get ; and unable to obtain the trumpet from [the angry captain]_{3738-the angry captain} , made a tube of [his]_{377-william wilson} own hands . " So help [me]_{377-william wilson} [God]_224-god , [Mary Barton]_145-mary , [I]_{377-william wilson} 'll come back in [the pilot - boat]_{7287-the pilot - boat} , time enough to save the life of [the innocent]_{7004-the innocent} . "_{[377-william wilson]} " What does [he]_{3738-the angry captain} say ? "_[145-mary] asked [Mary]_145-mary wildly , as the voice died away in the increasing distance , while [the boatmen]_{3662-the boatmen} cheered , in [their]_{3662-the boatmen} kindled sympathy with [[their]_{3662-the boatmen} passenger]_{3740-their passenger} . " What does [he]_{3738-the angry captain} say ? "_[145-mary] repeated [she]_145-mary . " Tell [me]_145-mary . [I]_145-mary could not hear . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary had heard with [her]_145-mary ears , but [her]_145-mary brain refused to recognise the sense . [They]_{3662-the boatmen} repeated [his]_3741-his speech , [all three]_{3742-all three} speaking at once , with many comments ; while [Mary]_145-mary looked at [them]_{3662-the boatmen} and then at [the vessel now far away]_{3743-the vessel now far away} . " [I]_145-mary do n't rightly know about it , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , sorrowfully . " What is [the pilot - boat]_{7287-the pilot - boat} ? "_{[3662-the boatmen]} [They]_{3662-the boatmen} told [her]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary gathered the meaning out of [the sailors]_{5007-the sailors} ' slang which enveloped it . There was a hope still , although so slight and faint . " How far does [the pilot]_{7290-the pilot} go with [the ship]_{5017-the ship} ? "_{[3662-the boatmen]} To different distances [they]_{3662-the boatmen} said . [Some pilots]_{3745-some pilots} would go as far as [Holyhead]_110-holyhead for the chance of [the homeward - bound vessels]_{3746-the homeward - bound vessels} ; [others]_737-others only took [the ships]_{3638-the ships} over [the Banks]_{111-the banks} . [Some captains]_{3749-some captains} were more cautious than [others]_737-others , and [the pilots]_{3751-the pilots} had different ways . The wind was against [the homeward bound vessels]_{3752-the homeward bound vessels} , so perhaps [the pilot aboard [the _]_{112-the _} [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _]_{3753-the pilot aboard the _ john cropper _} would not care to go far out . " How soon would [he]_{3753-the pilot aboard the _ john cropper _} come back ? "_{[3753-the pilot aboard the _ john cropper _]} There were [three boatmen]_{3754-three boatmen} , and three opinions , varying from twelve hours to two days . Nay , [the man who gave [his]_{3755-the man who gave his vote for the longest time , on having his judgment disputed} vote for the longest time , on having [his]_{3755-the man who gave his vote for the longest time , on having his judgment disputed} judgment disputed]_{3755-the man who gave his vote for the longest time , on having his judgment disputed} , grew stubborn , and doubled the time , and thought it might be the end of the week before [the pilot - boat]_{7287-the pilot - boat} came [home]_4755-home . [They]_{3754-three boatmen} began disputing , and urging reasons ; and [Mary]_145-mary tried to understand them ; but independently of [their]_{3754-three boatmen} nautical language , a veil seemed drawn over [her]_145-mary mind , and [she]_145-mary had no clear perception of any thing that passed . [Her]_145-mary very words seemed not [her]_145-mary own , and beyond [her]_145-mary power of control , for [she]_145-mary found [herself]_145-mary speaking quite differently to what [she]_145-mary meant . One by one [her]_145-mary hopes had fallen away , and left [her]_145-mary desolate ; and though a chance yet remained , [she]_145-mary could no longer hope . [She]_145-mary felt certain it , too , would fade and vanish . [She]_145-mary sank into a kind of stupor . All outward objects harmonised with [her]_145-mary despair . The gloomy leaden sky,--the deep , dark waters below , of a still heavier shade of colour,--the cold , flat yellow shore in the distance , which no ray lightened up,--the nipping , cutting wind . [She]_145-mary shivered with [her]_145-mary depression of mind and body . The sails were taken down , of course , on the return to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , and the progress [they]_{3754-three boatmen} made , rowing and tacking , was very slow . [The men]_{1152-the men} talked together , disputing about [the pilots]_{3751-the pilots} at first , and then about matters of local importance , in which [Mary]_145-mary would have taken no interest at any time , and [she]_145-mary gradually became drowsy ; irrepressibly so , indeed , for in spite of [her]_145-mary jerking efforts to keep awake [she]_145-mary sank away to the bottom of [the boat]_{3670-the boat} , and there lay couched on a rough heap of sails , rope , and tackle of various kinds . The measured beat of the waters against the sides of [the boat]_{3670-the boat} , and the musical boom of the more distant waves , were more lulling than silence , and [she]_145-mary slept sound . Once [she]_145-mary opened [her]_145-mary eyes heavily , and dimly saw [the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare]_{3762-the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare} ) covering [her]_145-mary with [his]_{3762-the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare} thick pea - jacket . [He]_{3762-the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare} had taken it off on purpose , and was doing it tenderly in [his]_{3762-the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare} way , but before [she]_145-mary could rouse [herself]_145-mary up to thank [him]_{3762-the old gray , rough boatman ( who had stood out the most obstinately for the full fare} [she]_145-mary had dropped off to sleep again . At last , in the dusk of evening , [they]_{1152-the men} arrived at [the landing - place from which [they]_{1152-the men} had started some hours before]_{3763-the landing - place from which they had started some hours before} . [The men]_{1152-the men} spoke to [Mary]_145-mary , but though [she]_145-mary mechanically replied , [she]_145-mary did not stir ; so , at length , [they]_{1152-the men} were obliged to shake [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary stood up , shivering and puzzled as to [her]_145-mary whereabouts . " Now tell [me]_{3765-the gray old man} where [you]_145-mary are bound to , [missis]_4831-missis , "_{[3765-the gray old man]} said [the gray old man]_{3765-the gray old man} , " and maybe [I]_{3765-the gray old man} can put [you]_145-mary in the way . "_{[3765-the gray old man]} [She]_145-mary slowly comprehended what [he]_{3765-the gray old man} said , and went through the process of recollection ; but very dimly , and with much labour . [She]_145-mary put [her]_145-mary hand into [her]_145-mary pocket and pulled out [her]_145-mary purse , and shook its contents into [the man]_{708-the man} 's hand ; and then began meekly to unpin [her]_145-mary shawl , although [they]_{1152-the men} had turned away without asking for it . " No , no ! "_{[3767-the older man , who lingered on the step]} said [the older man , who lingered on the step]_{3767-the older man , who lingered on the step} before springing into [the boat]_{3670-the boat} , and to whom [she]_145-mary mutely offered the shawl . " Keep it ! [we]_{1152-the men} donnot want it . It were only for to try [you,--some folks]_{7293-you,--some folks} say [they]_{7293-you,--some folks} 've no more blunt , when all the while [they]_{7293-you,--some folks} 've getten a mint . "_{[3767-the older man , who lingered on the step]} " Thank [you]_{708-the man} , "_[145-mary] said [she]_145-mary , in a dull , low tone . " Where are [you]_{708-the man} bound to ? [I]_{3769-the gruff old fellow} axed that question afore , "_{[3769-the gruff old fellow]} said [the gruff old fellow]_{3769-the gruff old fellow} . " [I]_145-mary do n't know . [I]_145-mary 'm [a stranger]_{524-a stranger} , "_[145-mary] replied [she]_145-mary , quietly , with a strange absence of anxiety under the circumstances . " But [you]_145-mary mun find out then , "_{[708-the man]} said [he]_{708-the man} , sharply , " pier - head 's no place for [a young woman]_{7295-a young woman} to be standing on , gape - saying . "_{[708-the man]} " [I]_145-mary 've a card somewhere as will tell [me]_145-mary , "_[145-mary] [she]_145-mary answered , and [the man]_{708-the man} , partly relieved , jumped into [the boat]_{3670-the boat} , which was now pushing off to make way for the arrivals from [some steamer]_{3772-some steamer} . [Mary]_145-mary felt in [her]_145-mary pocket for the card , on which was written the name of [the street where [she]_145-mary was to have met [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} at two o'clock]_{3773-the street where she was to have met mr. bridgenorth at two o'clock} ; where [Job]_156-job and [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} were to have been , and where [she]_145-mary was to have learnt from the former the particulars of [some respectable lodging]_{3774-some respectable lodging} . It was not to be found . [She]_145-mary tried to brighten [her]_145-mary perceptions , and felt again , and took out the little articles [her]_145-mary pocket contained , [her]_145-mary empty purse , [her]_145-mary pocket - handkerchief , and such little things , but it was not there . In fact [she]_145-mary had dropped it when , so eager to embark , [she]_145-mary had pulled out [her]_145-mary purse to reckon up [her]_145-mary money . [She]_145-mary did not know this , of course . [She]_145-mary only knew it was gone . It added but little to the despair that was creeping over [her]_145-mary . But [she]_145-mary tried a little more to help [herself]_145-mary , though every minute [her]_145-mary mind became more cloudy . [She]_145-mary strove to remember where [Will]_{134-mrs. wilson} had lodged , but [she]_145-mary could not ; name , [street]_5398-street , every thing had passed away , and it did not signify ; better [she]_145-mary were lost than found . [She]_145-mary sat down quietly on the top step of [the landing]_{3776-the landing} , and gazed down into the dark , dank water below . Once or twice a spectral thought loomed among the shadows of [her]_145-mary brain ; a wonder whether beneath that cold dismal surface there would not be rest from the troubles of earth . But [she]_145-mary could not hold an idea before [her]_145-mary for two consecutive moments ; and [she]_145-mary forgot what [she]_145-mary thought about before [she]_145-mary could act upon it . So [she]_145-mary continued sitting motionless , without looking up , or regarding in any way the insults to which [she]_145-mary was subjected . Through the darkening light [the old boatman]_{3777-the old boatman} had watched [her]_145-mary : interested in [her]_145-mary in spite of [himself]_{3777-the old boatman} , and [his]_{3777-the old boatman} scoldings of [himself]_{3777-the old boatman} . When [the landing - place]_{3668-the landing - place} was once more comparatively clear , [he]_{3777-the old boatman} made [his]_{3777-the old boatman} way towards [it]_{3668-the landing - place} , across [boats]_3779-boats , and along planks , swearing at [himself]_{3777-the old boatman} while [he]_{3777-the old boatman} did so , for [an old fool]_{3780-an old fool} . [He]_{3777-the old boatman} shook [Mary]_145-mary 's shoulder violently . " D---- [you]_145-mary , [I]_{3777-the old boatman} ask [you]_145-mary again where [you]_145-mary 're bound to ? Do n't sit there , stupid . Where are [you]_145-mary going to ? "_{[3777-the old boatman]} " [I]_145-mary do n't know , "_[145-mary] sighed [Mary]_145-mary . " Come , come ; avast with that story . [You]_145-mary said a bit ago [you]_145-mary 'd a card , which was to tell [you]_145-mary where to go . "_[145-mary] " [I]_145-mary had , but [I]_145-mary 've lost it . Never mind . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary looked again down upon the black mirror below . [He]_{3777-the old boatman} stood by [her]_145-mary , striving to put down [his]_{3777-the old boatman} better self ; but [he]_{3777-the old boatman} could not . [He]_{3777-the old boatman} shook [her]_145-mary again . [She]_145-mary looked up , as if [she]_145-mary had forgotten [him]_{3777-the old boatman} . " What do [you]_{3777-the old boatman} want ? "_[145-mary] asked [she]_145-mary , wearily . " Come with [me]_{3777-the old boatman} , and be d----d to [you]_145-mary ! "_{[3777-the old boatman]} replied [he]_{3777-the old boatman} , clutching [her]_145-mary arm to pull [her]_145-mary up . [She]_145-mary arose and followed [him]_{3777-the old boatman} , with the unquestioning docility of [a little child]_{1319-a little child} . CHAPTER XXIX . A TRUE BILL AGAINST [JEM]_154-jem . " There are who , living by the legal pen , Are held in honour -- [honourable men]_{7296-honourable men} . "_[360-crabbe] [CRABBE]_360-crabbe . At five minutes before two , [Job Legh]_156-job stood upon the door - step of [the house where [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} lodged at Assize time]_{3782-the house where mr. bridgenorth lodged at assize time} . [He]_156-job had left [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} at the dwelling of [a friend of [his]_156-job]_{3783-a friend of his} , who had offered [him]_156-job [a room for [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} and [Mary]_145-mary]_{3784-a room for the old woman and mary} : [a room which had frequently been [his]_156-job , on [his]_156-job occasional visits to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , but which [he]_156-job was thankful now to have obtained for [them]_3787-them , as [his]_156-job own sleeping - place]_{3786-a room which had frequently been his , on his occasional visits to liverpool , but which he was thankful now to have obtained for them , as his own sleeping - place} was a matter of indifference to [him]_156-job , and [the town]_{1111-the town} appeared crowded and disorderly on the eve of the Assizes . [He]_156-job was shown in to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , who was writing . [Mary]_145-mary and [Will Wilson]_{3789-will wilson} had not yet arrived , being , as [you]_3790-you know , far away on [the broad sea]_{3791-the broad sea} ; but of this [Job]_156-job of course knew nothing , and [he]_156-job did not as yet feel much anxiety about [their]_3787-them non - appearance ; [he]_156-job was more curious to know the result of [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's interview that morning with [Jem]_154-jem . " Why , yes , "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} said [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , putting down [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} pen , " [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} have seen [him]_156-job , but to little purpose , [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 'm afraid . [He]_156-job 's very impracticable -- very . [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} told [him]_156-job , of course , that [he]_156-job must be perfectly open with [me]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , or else [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} could not be prepared for the weak points . [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} named [your]_156-job name with the view of unlocking [his]_156-job confidence , but-- "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} " What did [he]_156-job say ? "_[156-job] asked [Job]_156-job , breathlessly . " Why , very little . [He]_156-job barely answered [me]_156-job . Indeed , [he]_156-job refused to answer some questions -- positively refused . [I]_156-job do n't know what [I]_156-job can do for [him]_156-job . "_[156-job] " Then [you]_156-job think [him]_156-job guilty , [sir]_5232-sir ? "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , despondingly . " No , [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} do n't , "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} replied [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , quickly and decisively . " Much less than [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} did before [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} saw [him]_156-job . The impression ( mind , ' tis only impression ; [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} rely upon [your]_5232-sir caution , not to take it for fact)--the impression , "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} with an emphasis on the word , " [he]_156-job gave [me]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} is , that [he]_156-job knows something about the affair , but what , [he]_156-job will not say ; and so the chances are , if [he]_156-job persists in [his]_156-job obstinacy , [he]_156-job 'll be hung . That 's all . "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} [He]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} began to write again , for [he]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} had no time to lose . " But [he]_156-job must not be hung , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , with vehemence . [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} looked up , smiled a little , but shook [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} head . " What did [he]_156-job say , [sir]_5232-sir , if [I]_156-job may be so bold as to ask ? "_[156-job] continued [Job]_156-job . " [His]_156-job words were few enough , and [he]_156-job was so reserved and short , that as [I]_156-job said before , [I]_156-job can only give [you]_5232-sir the impression [they]_7299-they conveyed to [me]_156-job . [I]_156-job told [him]_156-job of course who [I]_156-job was , and for what [I]_156-job was sent . [He]_156-job looked pleased , [I]_156-job thought,--at least [his]_156-job face ( sad enough when [I]_156-job went in , [I]_156-job assure [ye]_5232-sir ) brightened a little ; but [he]_156-job said [he]_156-job had nothing to say , no defence to make . [I]_156-job asked [him]_156-job if [he]_156-job was guilty , then ; and by way of opening [his]_156-job heart [I]_156-job said [I]_156-job understood [he]_156-job had had provocation enough , inasmuch as [I]_156-job heard that [the girl]_{4779-the girl} was very lovely , and had jilted [him]_156-job to fall desperately in love with that handsome young [Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ( [poor fellow]_{4959-poor fellow} ! ) . But [James Wilson]_154-jem did not speak one way or another . [I]_156-job then went to particulars . [I]_156-job asked [him]_156-job if the gun was [his]_156-job , as [[his]_156-job mother]_{787-his mother} had declared . [He]_156-job had not heard of [her]_{787-his mother} admission it was evident , from [his]_156-job quick way of looking up , and the glance of [his]_156-job eye ; but when [he]_156-job saw [I]_156-job was observing [him]_156-job , [he]_156-job hung down [his]_156-job head again , and merely said [she]_{787-his mother} was right ; it was [his]_156-job gun . "_[156-job] " Well ! "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , impatiently , as [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} paused . " Nay ! [I]_{3792-that gentleman} have little more to tell [you]_156-job , "_{[3792-that gentleman]} continued [that gentleman]_{3792-that gentleman} . " [I]_{3792-that gentleman} asked [him]_156-job to inform [me]_{3792-that gentleman} in all confidence , how it came to be found there . [He]_156-job was silent for a time , and then refused . Not only refused to answer that question , but candidly told [me]_{3792-that gentleman} [he]_156-job would not say another word on the subject , and , thanking [me]_{3792-that gentleman} for [my]_{3792-that gentleman} trouble and interest in [his]_156-job behalf , [he]_156-job all but dismissed [me]_{3792-that gentleman} . Ungracious enough on the whole , was it not , [Mr. Legh]_{378-mr. legh} ? And yet , [I]_{3792-that gentleman} assure [ye]_156-job , [I]_{3792-that gentleman} am twenty times more inclined to think [him]_156-job innocent than before [I]_{3792-that gentleman} had the interview . "_{[3792-that gentleman]} " [I]_156-job wish [Mary Barton]_145-mary would come , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , anxiously . " [She]_145-mary and [Will]_154-jem are a long time about it . "_[156-job] " Ay , that 's [our]_7303-our only chance , [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} believe , "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} answered [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , who was writing again . " [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} sent [Johnson]_379-johnson off before twelve to serve [him]_379-johnson with [his]_379-johnson sub - poena , and to say [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} wanted to speak with [him]_379-johnson ; [he]_379-johnson 'll be here soon , [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 've no doubt . "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} There was a pause . [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} looked up again , and spoke . " [Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} promised to be here to speak to [his]_379-johnson character . [I]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} sent [him]_379-johnson a subpoena on Saturday night . Though after all , [juries]_7158-juries go very little by such general and vague testimony as that to character . It is very right that [they]_7158-juries should not often ; but in this instance unfortunate for [us]_7305-us , as [we]_7305-us must rest [our]_7305-us case on the _ alibi _ . "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} The pen went again , scratch , scratch over the paper . [Job]_156-job grew very fidgetty . [He]_156-job sat on the edge of [his]_156-job chair , the more readily to start up when [Will]_154-jem and [Mary]_145-mary should appear . [He]_156-job listened intently to every noise and every step on [the stair]_{3793-the stair} . Once [he]_156-job heard [a man]_{4855-a man} 's footstep , and [his]_156-job old heart gave a leap of delight . But it was only [[Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's clerk]_{3795-mr. bridgenorth 's clerk} , bringing [him]_156-job a list of those cases in which [the grand jury]_{3796-the grand jury} had found true bills . [He]_156-job glanced it over and pushed it to [Job]_156-job , merely saying , " Of course [we]_7306-we expected this , "_[156-job] and went on with [his]_156-job writing . There was a true bill against [James Wilson]_154-jem . Of course . And yet [Job]_156-job felt now doubly anxious and sad . It seemed the beginning of the end . [He]_156-job had got , by imperceptible degrees , to think [Jem]_154-jem innocent . Little by little this persuasion had come upon [him]_156-job . [Mary]_145-mary ( tossing about in [the little boat on [the broad river]_{3674-the broad river}]_{3797-the little boat on the broad river} ) did not come , nor did [Will]_154-jem . [Job]_156-job grew very restless . [He]_156-job longed to go and watch for [them]_3799-them out of the window , but feared to interrupt [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} . At length [his]_156-job desire to look out was irresistible , and [he]_156-job got up and walked carefully and gently across [the room]_{616-the room} , [his]_156-job boots creaking at every cautious step . The gloom which had overspread the sky , and the influence of which had been felt by [Mary]_145-mary on [the open water]_{3801-the open water} , was yet more perceptible in [the dark , dull street]_{3802-the dark , dull street} . [Job]_156-job grew more and more fidgetty . [He]_156-job was obliged to walk about [the room]_{616-the room} , for [he]_156-job could not keep still ; and [he]_156-job did so , regardless of [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's impatient little motions and noises , as the slow , stealthy , creaking movements were heard , backwards and forwards , behind [his]_156-job chair . [He]_156-job really liked [Job]_156-job , and was interested for [Jem]_154-jem , else [his]_156-job nervousness would have overcome [his]_156-job sympathy long before it did . But [he]_156-job could hold out no longer against the monotonous , grating sound ; so at last [he]_156-job threw down [his]_156-job pen , locked [his]_156-job portfolio , and taking up [his]_156-job hat and gloves , [he]_156-job told [Job]_156-job [he]_156-job must go to [the courts]_{3804-the courts} . " But [Will Wilson]_154-jem is not come , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , in dismay . " Just wait while [I]_156-job run to [[his]_154-jem lodgings]_{3350-his lodgings} . [I]_156-job would have done it before , but [I]_156-job thought [they]_{3350-his lodgings} 'd be here every minute , and [I]_156-job were afraid of missing [them]_{3350-his lodgings} . [I]_156-job 'll be back in no time . "_[156-job] " No , [[my]_3805-i good fellow]_{7308-my good fellow} , [I]_3805-i really must go . Besides , [I]_3805-i begin to think [Johnson]_379-johnson must have made a mistake , and have fixed with [this William Wilson]_{377-william wilson} to meet [me]_3805-i at [the courts]_{3804-the courts} . If [you]_{7308-my good fellow} like to wait for [him]_154-jem here , pray make use of [[my]_3805-i room]_{7310-my room} ; but [I]_3805-i 've a notion [I]_3805-i shall find [him]_154-jem [there]_873-there : in which case , [I]_3805-i 'll send [him]_154-jem to [[your]_{7308-my good fellow} lodgings]_{7312-your lodgings} ; shall [I]_3805-i ? [You]_{7308-my good fellow} know where to find [me]_3805-i . [I]_3805-i shall be [here]_5235-here again by eight o'clock , and with the evidence of this witness that 's to prove the _ alibi _ , [I]_3805-i 'll have the brief drawn out , and in the hands of counsel to - night . "_[3805-i] So saying [he]_3805-i shook hands with [Job]_156-job , and went [his]_3805-i way . [The old man]_{6643-the old man} considered for a minute as [he]_{6643-the old man} lingered at the door , and then bent [his]_{6643-the old man} steps towards [[Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's]_{3807-mrs. jones 's} , where [he]_{6643-the old man} knew ( from reference to queer , odd , heterogeneous memoranda , in an ancient black - leather pocket - book ) that Will lodged , and where [he]_{6643-the old man} doubted not [he]_{6643-the old man} should hear both of [him]_{6643-the old man} and of [Mary]_145-mary . [He]_{6643-the old man} went [there]_873-there , and gathered what intelligence [he]_{6643-the old man} could out of [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's slow replies . [He]_{6643-the old man} asked if [a young woman]_{7295-a young woman} had been [there]_873-there that morning , and if [she]_{7295-a young woman} had seen [Will Wilson]_{3811-will wilson} . " No ! "_{[7295-a young woman]} " Why not ? "_{[6643-the old man]} " Why , bless [you]_{6643-the old man} , 'cause [he]_{3811-will wilson} had sailed some hours before [she]_{7295-a young woman} came asking for [him]_{3811-will wilson} . "_{[7295-a young woman]} There was a dead silence , broken only by the even , heavy sound of [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's ironing . " Where is [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} now ? "_[156-job] asked [Job]_156-job . " Somewhere down at [the docks]_{5006-the docks} , "_{[7295-a young woman]} [she]_{7295-a young woman} thought . " [Charley]_370-charley would know , if [he]_370-charley was in , but [he]_370-charley was n't . [He]_370-charley was in mischief , somewhere or other , [she]_{7295-a young woman} had no doubt . [Boys]_501-boys always were . [He]_370-charley would break [his]_370-charley neck some day , [she]_{7295-a young woman} knew ; "_{[7295-a young woman]} so saying , [she]_{7295-a young woman} quietly spat upon [her]_{7295-a young woman} fresh iron , to test its heat , and then went on with [her]_{7295-a young woman} business . [Job]_156-job could have boxed [her]_{7295-a young woman} , [he]_156-job was in such a state of irritation . But [he]_156-job did not , and [he]_156-job had [his]_156-job reward . [Charley]_370-charley came in , whistling with an air of indifference , assumed to carry off [his]_370-charley knowledge of the lateness of the hour to which [he]_370-charley had lingered about [the docks]_{5006-the docks} . " Here 's [an old man]_{1627-an old man} come to know where [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} is who went out with [thee]_370-charley this morning , "_{[787-his mother]} said [[his]_370-charley mother]_{787-his mother} , after [she]_{787-his mother} had bestowed on [him]_370-charley a little motherly scolding . " Where [she]_{6807-the young woman} is now , [I]_{787-his mother} do n't know . [I]_{787-his mother} saw [her]_{6807-the young woman} last sailing down [the river]_{7209-the river} after the _ [John Cropper]_{346-john cropper} _ . [I]_{787-his mother} 'm afeared [she]_{6807-the young woman} wo n't reach [her]_{6807-the young woman} ; wind changed and [she]_{6807-the young woman} would be under weigh , and over the bar in no time . [She]_{6807-the young woman} should have been back by now . "_{[787-his mother]} It took [Job]_156-job some little time to understand this , from the confused use of the feminine pronoun . Then [he]_156-job inquired how [he]_156-job could best find [Mary]_145-mary . " [I]_{3599-the boy} 'll run down again to [the pier]_{7234-the pier} , "_{[3599-the boy]} said [the boy]_{3599-the boy} ; " [I]_{3599-the boy} 'll warrant [I]_{3599-the boy} 'll find [her]_{6807-the young woman} . "_{[3599-the boy]} " [Thou]_7321-thou shalt do no such a thing , "_[145-mary] said [[his]_{3599-the boy} mother]_{787-his mother} , setting [her]_145-mary back against the door . [The lad]_{4980-the lad} made a comical face at [Job]_156-job , which met with no responsive look from [the old man]_{6643-the old man} , whose sympathies were naturally in favour of [the parent]_{3818-the parent} ; although [he]_{6643-the old man} would thankfully have availed [himself]_{6643-the old man} of [Charley]_370-charley 's offer , for [he]_{6643-the old man} was weary , and anxious to return to [poor Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , who would be wondering what had become of [him]_{6643-the old man} . " How can [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} best find [her]_145-mary ? Who did [she]_145-mary go with , [lad]_1512-lad ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} But [Charley]_370-charley was sullen at [[his]_370-charley mother]_{787-his mother} 's exercise of authority before [a stranger]_{524-a stranger} , and at [that stranger]_{1874-that stranger} 's grave looks when [he]_370-charley meant to have made [him]_370-charley laugh . " [They]_7323-they were river boatmen;--that 's all [I]_370-charley know , "_{[370-charley]} said [he]_370-charley . " But what was the name of [[their]_7323-they boat]_{3656-their boat} ? "_{[370-charley]} persevered [Job]_156-job . " [I]_156-job never took no notice;--the [Anne]_230-nancy , or [William,--or]_{380-william,--or} some of [them]_7323-they common names , [I]_156-job 'll be bound . "_[156-job] " What pier did [she]_{524-a stranger} start from ? "_[156-job] asked [Job]_156-job , despairingly . " Oh , as for that matter , it were [the stairs on [the Prince 's Pier]_{7326-the prince 's pier} [she]_{524-a stranger} started from]_{7325-the stairs on the prince 's pier she started from} ; but [she]_{524-a stranger} 'll not come back to the same , for [the American steamer]_{7327-the american steamer} came up with the tide , and anchored close to it , blocking up the way for all [the smaller craft]_{7328-the smaller craft} . It 's a rough evening too , to be out on , "_[156-job] [he]_156-job maliciously added . " Well , [God]_224-god 's will be done ! [I]_156-job did hope [we]_7329-we could have saved [the lad]_{4980-the lad} , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , sorrowfully ; " but [I]_156-job 'm getten very doubtful again . [I]_156-job 'm uneasy about [Mary]_145-mary , too,--very . [She]_145-mary 's [a stranger in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool]_{7331-a stranger in liverpool} . "_[156-job] " So [she]_145-mary told [me]_370-charley , "_{[370-charley]} said [Charley]_370-charley . " There 's traps about for [young women]_{7332-young women} at every corner . It 's a pity [she]_145-mary 's [no one to meet [her]_145-mary when [she]_145-mary lands]_{7333-no one to meet her when she lands} . "_{[370-charley]} " As for that , "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job , " [I]_156-job do n't see how [any one]_{504-any one} could meet [her]_145-mary when [we]_7335-we ca n't tell where [she]_145-mary would come to . [I]_156-job must trust to [her]_145-mary coming right . [She]_145-mary 's getten spirit and sense . [She]_145-mary 'll most likely be for coming here again . Indeed , [I]_156-job do n't know what else [she]_145-mary can do , for [she]_145-mary knows no other place in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . [Missus]_7336-missus , if [she]_145-mary comes , will [you]_7336-missus give [[your]_7336-missus son]_{2919-your son} leave to bring [her]_145-mary to [No . 8]_{7338-no . 8} , [Back Garden Court]_{7339-back garden court} , where there 's [friends]_4851-friends waiting for [her]_145-mary ? [I]_156-job 'll give [him]_{2919-your son} sixpence for [his]_{2919-your son} trouble . "_[156-job] [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} , pleased with the reference to [her]_{350-mrs. jones} , gladly promised . And even [Charley]_370-charley , indignant as [he]_370-charley was at first at the idea of [his]_370-charley motions being under the control of [[his]_370-charley mother]_{787-his mother} , was mollified at the prospect of the sixpence , and at the probability of getting nearer to the heart of the mystery . But [Mary]_145-mary never came . CHAPTER XXX . [JOB LEGH 'S DECEPTION]_156-job . " [Poor Susan]_381-susan moans , poor [Susan]_381-susan groans ; The clock gives warning for eleven ; ' Tis on the stroke--'He must be near , ' [Quoth Betty]_382-betty , ' and will soon be [here]_5235-here , As sure as there 's a moon in heaven . ' The clock is on the stroke of twelve , And [Johnny]_{332-jack sheppard} is not yet in sight , --The moon 's in heaven , as [Betty]_382-betty sees , But [Betty]_382-betty is not quite at ease ; And [Susan]_381-susan has a dreadful night . "_{[383-wordsworth]} [WORDSWORTH]_{383-wordsworth} . [Job]_156-job found [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} pacing about in a restless way ; not speaking to [the woman at whose house [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} was staying]_{3823-the woman at whose house she was staying} , but occasionally heaving such deep oppressive sighs as quite startled those around [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} . " Well ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} , turning sharp round in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} tottering walk up and down , as [Job]_156-job came in . " Well , speak ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} repeated [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} , before [he]_156-job could make up [his]_156-job mind what to say ; for , to tell the truth , [he]_156-job was studying for some kind - hearted lie which might soothe [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} for a time . But now the real state of the case came blurting forth in answer to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} impatient questioning . " Will 's not to the fore . But [he]_156-job 'll may be turn up yet , time enough . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} looked at [him]_156-job steadily for a minute , as if almost doubting if such despair could be in store for [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} as [his]_156-job words seemed to imply . Then [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} slowly shook [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} head , and said , more quietly than might have been expected from [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} previous excited manner , " Do n't go for to say that ! [Thou]_156-job dost not think it . [Thou'rt]_156-job well - nigh hopeless , like [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} seed all along [[my]_{134-mrs. wilson} lad]_{1544-my lad} would be hung for what [he]_156-job never did . And better [he]_156-job were , and were shut [ 49 ] of [this weary world]_{2642-this weary world} , where there 's neither justice nor mercy left . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [ Footnote 49 : " Shut , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} quit . ] [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} looked up with tranced eyes as if praying to that throne where mercy ever abideth , and then sat down . " Nay , now thou'rt off at a gallop , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job . " [Will]_{134-mrs. wilson} has sailed this morning for sure , but [that brave wench]_{7344-that brave wench} , [Mary Barton]_145-mary , is after [him]_156-job , and will bring [him]_156-job back , [I]_156-job 'll be bound , if [she]_{7344-that brave wench} can but get speech on [him]_156-job . [She]_{7344-that brave wench} 's not back yet . Come , come , hold up [thy]_{134-mrs. wilson} head . It will all end right . "_[156-job] " It will all end right , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} echoed [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} ; " but not as [thou]_{134-mrs. wilson} tak'st it . [Jem]_154-jem will be hung , and will go to [[his]_154-jem father]_{902-his father} and [the little lads]_{7346-the little lads} , where [the Lord God]_{7347-the lord god} wipes away all tears , and where [the Lord Jesus]_{7348-the lord jesus} speaks kindly to [the little ones]_{5058-the little ones} , who look about for [the mothers [they]_{5058-the little ones} left upon [earth]_1255-earth]_{7350-the mothers they left upon earth} . [Eh]_7352-eh , [Job]_156-job , yon 's [a blessed land]_{7353-a blessed land} , and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} long to go to [it]_{7353-a blessed land} , and yet [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} fret because [Jem]_154-jem is hastening there . [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} would not fret if [he]_154-jem and [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} could lie down to - night to sleep [our]_7354-our last sleep ; not a bit would [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} fret if [folk]_5093-folk would but know [him]_154-jem to be innocent -- as [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} do . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [They]_5093-folk 'll know it sooner or later , and repent sore if [they]_5093-folk 've hanged [him]_154-jem for what [he]_154-jem never did , "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job . " Ay , that [they]_5093-folk will . [Poor souls]_{7356-poor souls} ! May [God]_224-god have mercy on [them]_5093-folk when [they]_5093-folk find out [their]_5093-folk mistake . "_[156-job] [Presently Job]_156-job grew tired of sitting waiting , and got up , and hung about the door and window , like some animal wanting to go out . It was pitch dark , for the moon had not yet risen . " [You]_{1229-the widow} just go to bed , "_[156-job] said [he]_156-job to [the widow]_{1229-the widow} . " [You]_{1229-the widow} 'll want [your]_{1229-the widow} strength for to - morrow . [Jem]_154-jem will be sadly off , if [he]_154-jem sees [you]_{1229-the widow} so cut up as [you]_{1229-the widow} look to - night . [I]_156-job 'll step down again and find [Mary]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary 'll be back by this time . [I]_156-job 'll come and tell [you]_{1229-the widow} every thing , never fear . But , now , [you]_{1229-the widow} go to bed . "_[156-job] " [Thou'rt]_7357-thou [a kind friend]_{7358-a kind friend} , [Job Legh]_156-job , and [I]_3825-me 'll go , as [thou]_7357-thou wishest [me]_3825-me . But , oh ! mind [thou]_7357-thou com'st straight off to [me]_3825-me , and bring [Mary]_145-mary as soon as [thou'st]_7357-thou lit on [her]_145-mary . "_[3825-me] [She]_3825-me spoke low , but very calmly . " Ay , ay ! "_[156-job] replied [Job]_156-job , slipping out of [the house]_{803-the house} . [He]_156-job went first to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's , where it had struck [him]_156-job that [Will]_154-jem and [Mary]_145-mary might be all this time waiting for [him]_156-job . [They]_3827-they were not [there]_873-there , however . [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} had just come in , and [Job]_156-job went breathlessly up - [stairs]_4740-stairs to consult with [him]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} as to the state of the case . " It 's a bad job , "_{[7037-the lawyer]} said [the lawyer]_{7037-the lawyer} , looking very grave , while [he]_{7037-the lawyer} arranged [his]_{7037-the lawyer} papers . " [Johnson]_379-johnson told [me]_{7037-the lawyer} how it was ; [the woman that [Wilson]_154-jem lodged with]_{7359-the woman that wilson lodged with} told [him]_379-johnson . [I]_{7037-the lawyer} doubt it 's but a wild - goose chase of [the girl]_{4779-the girl} [Barton]_145-mary . [Our]_7361-our case must rest on the uncertainty of circumstantial evidence , and the goodness of [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} 's previous character . A very vague and weak defence . However , [I]_{7037-the lawyer} 've engaged [Mr. Clinton]_{384-mr. clinton} as [counsel]_7363-counsel , and [he]_{384-mr. clinton} 'll make the best of it . And now , [[my]_{7037-the lawyer} good fellow]_{7308-my good fellow} , [I]_{7037-the lawyer} must wish [you]_{7308-my good fellow} good - night , and turn [you]_{7308-my good fellow} out of doors . As it is , [I]_{7037-the lawyer} shall have to sit up into the small hours . Did [you]_{7308-my good fellow} see [[my]_{7037-the lawyer} clerk]_{7365-my clerk} as [you]_{7308-my good fellow} came up - [stairs]_4740-stairs ? [You]_{7308-my good fellow} did ! Then may [I]_{7037-the lawyer} trouble [you]_{7308-my good fellow} to ask [him]_{7365-my clerk} to step up immediately ? "_{[7037-the lawyer]} After [this Job]_{3831-this job} could not stay , and , making [his]_3832-he humble bow , [he]_3832-he left [the room]_{616-the room} . Then [he]_3832-he went to [[Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's]_{3807-mrs. jones 's} . [She]_{350-mrs. jones} was in , but [Charley]_370-charley had slipped off again . There was no holding [that boy]_{3835-that boy} . Nothing kept [him]_370-charley but lock and key , and [they]_3836-they did not always ; for once [she]_{350-mrs. jones} had [him]_370-charley locked up in [the garret]_{3837-the garret} , and [he]_370-charley had got off through the skylight . Perhaps now [he]_3832-he was gone to see after [the young woman]_{6807-the young woman} down at [the docks]_{5006-the docks} . [He]_3832-he never wanted an excuse to be [there]_873-there . [Unasked]_385-unasked , [Job]_156-job took a chair , resolved to await [Charley]_370-charley 's re - appearance . [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} ironed and folded [her]_{350-mrs. jones} clothes , talking all the time of [Charley]_370-charley and [[her]_{350-mrs. jones} husband]_{587-her husband} , who was [a sailor in [some ship bound for [India]_113-india]_{3843-some ship bound for india} , and who , in leaving [her]_{350-mrs. jones} [[their]_3844-their boy]_{3845-their boy}]_{3842-a sailor in some ship bound for india , and who , in leaving her their boy} , had evidently left [her]_{350-mrs. jones} rather more than [she]_{350-mrs. jones} could manage . [She]_{6807-the young woman} moaned and croaked over [sailors]_2413-sailors , and [sea - port towns]_{3847-sea - port towns} , and stormy weather , and sleepless nights , and trousers all over tar and pitch , long after [Job]_156-job had left off attending to [her]_{6807-the young woman} , and was only trying to hearken to every step and every voice in [the street]_{4821-the street} . At last [Charley]_370-charley came in , but [he]_370-charley came alone . " [Yon Mary Barton]_145-mary has getten into some scrape or another , "_{[370-charley]} said [he]_370-charley , addressing [himself]_370-charley to [Job]_156-job . " [She]_{6807-the young woman} 's not to be heard of at [any of [the piers]_{7368-the piers}]_{7367-any of the piers} ; and [Bourne]_{373-tom bourne} says it were a boat from [the [Cheshire]_114-cheshire side]_{7369-the cheshire side} as [she]_{6807-the young woman} went aboard of . So there 's no hearing of [her]_{6807-the young woman} till to - morrow morning . "_{[370-charley]} " To - morrow morning [she]_{6807-the young woman} 'll have to be in court at nine o'clock , to bear witness on a trial , "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job , sorrowfully . " So [she]_{6807-the young woman} said ; at least somewhat of the kind , "_{[370-charley]} said [Charley]_370-charley , looking desirous to hear more . But [Job]_156-job was silent . [He]_370-charley could not think of any thing further that could be done ; so [he]_370-charley rose up , and , thanking [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} for the shelter [she]_{350-mrs. jones} had given [him]_370-charley , [he]_370-charley went out into [the street]_{4821-the street} ; and there [he]_370-charley stood still , to ponder over probabilities and chances . After some little time [he]_370-charley slowly turned towards [the lodging where [he]_370-charley had left [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson}]_{3850-the lodging where he had left mrs. wilson} . There was nothing else to be done ; but [he]_370-charley loitered on the way , fervently hoping that [her]_{350-mrs. jones} weariness and [her]_{350-mrs. jones} woes might have sent [her]_{350-mrs. jones} to sleep before [his]_370-charley return , that [he]_370-charley might be spared [her]_{350-mrs. jones} questionings . [He]_370-charley went very gently into [the house - place where [the sleepy landlady]_{3852-the sleepy landlady} awaited [his]_370-charley coming and [his]_370-charley bringing [the girl]_{4779-the girl} , who , [she]_{350-mrs. jones} had been told , was to share [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} 's bed]_{3851-the house - place where the sleepy landlady awaited his coming and his bringing the girl , who , she had been told , was to share the old woman 's bed} . But in [her]_{350-mrs. jones} sleepy blindness [she]_{350-mrs. jones} knocked things so about in lighting the candle ( [she]_{350-mrs. jones} could see to have a nap by fire - light , [she]_{350-mrs. jones} said ) , that the voice of [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was heard from [the little back - room]_{3855-the little back - room} , where [she]_{350-mrs. jones} was to pass the night . " Who 's [there]_873-there ? "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job gave no answer , and kept down [his]_156-job breath , that [she]_{350-mrs. jones} might think [herself]_{350-mrs. jones} mistaken . [The landlady]_{5603-the landlady} , having no such care , dropped the snuffers with a sharp metallic sound , and then , by [her]_{350-mrs. jones} endless apologies , convinced [the listening woman]_{3857-the listening woman} that [Job]_156-job had returned . " [Job]_156-job ! [Job Legh]_156-job ! "_{[350-mrs. jones]} [she]_{350-mrs. jones} cried out , nervously . " Eh , [dear]_5078-dear ! "_[156-job] said [Job]_156-job to [himself]_156-job , going reluctantly to [her]_{350-mrs. jones} bed - room door . " [I]_156-job wonder if one little lie would be a sin as things stand ? It would happen give [her]_{350-mrs. jones} sleep , and [she]_{350-mrs. jones} wo n't have sleep for many and many a night ( not to call sleep ) , if things goes wrong to - morrow . [I]_156-job 'll chance it , any way . "_[156-job] " [Job]_156-job ! art [thou]_156-job there ? "_{[350-mrs. jones]} asked [she]_{350-mrs. jones} again with a trembling impatience that told in every tone of [her]_{350-mrs. jones} voice . " Ay ! sure ! [I]_{350-mrs. jones} thought [thou'd]_156-job [ha]_7372-ha ' been asleep by this time . "_{[350-mrs. jones]} " Asleep ! How could [I]_156-job sleep till [I]_156-job knowed if Will were found ? "_[156-job] " Now for it , "_[156-job] muttered [Job]_156-job to [himself]_156-job . Then in a louder voice , " Never fear ! [he]_7373-he 's found , and safe , ready for to - morrow . "_[156-job] " And [he]_7373-he 'll prove that thing for [[my]_156-job poor lad]_{7374-my poor lad} , will [he]_7373-he ? [He]_7373-he 'll bear witness that [Jem]_154-jem were with [him]_7373-he ? Oh , [Job]_156-job , speak ! tell [me]_156-job all ! "_[156-job] " In for a penny , in for a pound , "_[156-job] thought [Job]_156-job . " Happen one prayer will do for the sum total . Any rate , [I]_156-job must go on now.--Ay , ay , "_[156-job] shouted [he]_156-job , through the door . " [He]_7373-he can prove all ; and [Jem]_154-jem will come off as clear as [a new - born babe]_{7375-a new - born babe} . "_[156-job] [He]_156-job could hear [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's rustling movements , and in an instant guessed [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} was on [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} knees , for [he]_156-job heard [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} trembling voice uplifted in thanksgiving and praise to [God]_224-god , stopped at times by sobs of gladness and relief . And when [he]_156-job heard this , [his]_156-job heart misgave [him]_156-job ; for [he]_156-job thought of the awful enlightening , the terrible revulsion of feeling that awaited [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} in the morning . [He]_156-job saw the short - sightedness of falsehood ; but what could [he]_156-job do now ? While [he]_156-job listened , [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} ended [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} grateful prayers . " And [Mary]_145-mary ? [Thou'st]_7376-thou'st found [her]_145-mary at [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} 's , [Job]_156-job ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} said [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} , continuing [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} inquiries . [He]_156-job gave a great sigh . " Yes , [she]_145-mary was there , safe enough , second time of going.--God forgive [me]_156-job ! "_[156-job] muttered [he]_156-job , " who 'd [ha]_7377-ha ' thought of [my]_156-job turning out such an arrant liar in [my]_156-job old days ? "_[156-job] " Bless [the wench]_{6993-the wench} ! Is [she]_145-mary here ? Why does [she]_145-mary not come to bed ? [I]_156-job 'm sure [she]_145-mary 's need . "_[156-job] [Job]_156-job coughed away [his]_156-job remains of conscience , and made answer , " [She]_145-mary was a bit weary , and o'er done with [her]_145-mary sail ; and [Mrs. Jones]_{350-mrs. jones} axed [her]_145-mary to stay [there]_873-there all night . It was nigh at hand to [the courts]_{3804-the courts} , where [she]_145-mary will have to be in the morning . "_[156-job] " It comes easy enough after a while , "_[156-job] groaned out [Job]_156-job . " [The father of lies]_{7381-the father of lies} helps one , [I]_156-job suppose , for now [my]_156-job speech comes as natural as truth . [She]_145-mary 's done questioning now , that 's one good thing . [I]_156-job 'll be off before [Satan]_386-satan and [she]_145-mary are at [me]_156-job again . "_[156-job] [He]_156-job went to [the house - place]_{614-the house - place} , where [the landlady]_{5603-the landlady} stood wearily waiting . [[Her]_{5603-the landlady} husband]_{587-her husband} was in bed , and asleep long ago . But [Job]_156-job had not yet made up [his]_156-job mind what to do . [He]_156-job could not go to sleep , with all [his]_156-job anxieties , if [he]_156-job were put into the best bed in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . " [Thou'lt]_7382-thou'lt let [me]_156-job sit up in this arm - chair , "_[156-job] said [he]_156-job at length to [the woman]_{681-the woman} , who stood , expecting [his]_156-job departure . [He]_156-job was [an old friend]_{1040-an old friend} , so [she]_{681-the woman} let [him]_156-job do as [he]_156-job wished . But , indeed , [she]_{681-the woman} was too sleepy to have opposed [him]_156-job . [She]_{681-the woman} was too glad to be released and go to bed . CHAPTER XXXI . HOW [MARY]_145-mary PASSED THE NIGHT . " To think That all this long interminable night , Which [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} have passed in thinking on two words-- ' Guilty'--'Not Guilty!'--like one happy moment O'er many a head hath flown unheeded by ; [O'er happy sleepers]_{7383-o'er happy sleepers} dreaming in [their]_{7383-o'er happy sleepers} bliss Of bright to - morrows -- or far happier still , With deep breath buried in forgetfulness . O all the dismallest images of death Did swim before [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} eyes ! "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [WILSON]_{134-mrs. wilson} . And now , where was [Mary]_145-mary ? How [Job]_156-job 's heart would have been relieved of one of its cares if [he]_156-job could have seen [her]_145-mary : for [he]_156-job was in a miserable state of anxiety about [her]_145-mary ; and many and many a time through that long night [he]_156-job scolded [her]_145-mary and [himself]_156-job ; [her]_145-mary for [her]_145-mary obstinacy , and [himself]_156-job for [his]_156-job weakness in yielding to [her]_145-mary obstinacy , when [she]_145-mary insisted on being the one to follow and find out Will . [She]_145-mary did not pass that night in bed any more than [Job]_156-job ; but [she]_145-mary was under a respectable roof , and among [kind , though rough people]_{3863-kind , though rough people} . [She]_145-mary had offered no resistance to [the old boatman]_{3777-the old boatman} , when [he]_{3777-the old boatman} had clutched [her]_145-mary arm , in order to insure [her]_145-mary following [him]_{3777-the old boatman} , as [he]_{3777-the old boatman} threaded [the crowded dock - ways]_{3865-the crowded dock - ways} , and dived up [strange bye - streets]_{3866-strange bye - streets} . [She]_145-mary came on meekly after [him]_{3777-the old boatman} , scarcely thinking in [her]_145-mary stupor where [she]_145-mary was going , and glad ( in a dead , heavy way ) that [some one]_{5544-some one} was deciding things for [her]_145-mary . [He]_{3777-the old boatman} led [her]_145-mary to [an old - fashioned house , almost as small as [house]_686-house could be , which had been built long ago , before all the other part of [the street]_{4821-the street}]_{3868-an old - fashioned house , almost as small as house could be , which had been built long ago , before all the other part of the street} , and had a country - town look about [it]_{3868-an old - fashioned house , almost as small as house could be , which had been built long ago , before all the other part of the street} in the middle of [that bustling back street]_{3871-that bustling back street} . [He]_{3777-the old boatman} pulled [her]_145-mary into [the house - place]_{614-the house - place} ; and relieved to a certain degree of [his]_{3777-the old boatman} fear of losing [her]_145-mary on the way , [he]_{3777-the old boatman} exclaimed , " There ! "_{[3777-the old boatman]} giving a great slap of one hand on [her]_145-mary back . [The room]_{616-the room} was light and bright , and roused [Mary]_145-mary ( perhaps the slap on [her]_145-mary back might help a little , too ) , and [she]_145-mary felt the awkwardness of accounting for [her]_145-mary presence to [a little bustling old woman who had been moving about the fire - place on [her]_145-mary entrance]_{3874-a little bustling old woman who had been moving about the fire - place on her entrance} . [The boatman]_{3728-the boatman} took it very quietly , never deigning to give any explanation , but sitting down in [his]_{3728-the boatman} own particular chair , and chewing tobacco , while [he]_{3728-the boatman} looked at [Mary]_145-mary with the most satisfied air imaginable , half triumphantly , as if [she]_145-mary were the captive of [his]_{3728-the boatman} bow and spear , and half defyingly , as if daring [her]_145-mary to escape . [The old woman]_{937-the old woman} , [[his]_{3728-the boatman} wife]_{525-his wife} , stood still , poker in hand , waiting to be told who it was that [[her]_{937-the old woman} husband]_{587-her husband} had brought [home]_4755-home so unceremoniously ; but , as [she]_{937-the old woman} looked in amazement [the girl]_{4779-the girl} 's cheek flushed , and then blanched to a dead whiteness ; a film came over [her]_{4779-the girl} eyes , and catching at the dresser for support in [that hot whirling room]_{3881-that hot whirling room} , [she]_{4779-the girl} fell in a heap on the floor . [Both man]_{3882-both man} and [wife]_510-wife came quickly to [her]_145-mary assistance . [They]_{3882-both man} raised [her]_145-mary up , still insensible , and [he]_{3728-the boatman} supported [her]_145-mary on one knee , while [[his]_{3728-the boatman} wife]_{525-his wife} pattered away for some cold fresh water . [She]_{937-the old woman} threw it straight over [Mary]_145-mary ; but though it caused a great sob , the eyes still remained closed , and the face as pale as ashes . " Who is [she]_145-mary , [Ben]_{194-davenport} ? "_{[681-the woman]} asked [the woman]_{681-the woman} , as [she]_{681-the woman} rubbed [her]_{681-the woman} unresisting , powerless hands . " How should [I]_{587-her husband} know ? "_{[587-her husband]} answered [[her]_{681-the woman} husband]_{587-her husband} gruffly . " Well - a - well ! "_{[587-her husband]} ( in a soothing tone , such as [you]_3887-you use to irritated [children]_{4826-children} ) , and as if half to [herself]_{681-the woman} , " [I]_{681-the woman} only thought [you]_{194-davenport} might , [you]_{194-davenport} know , as [you]_{194-davenport} brought [her]_145-mary [home]_4755-home . [Poor thing]_{7385-poor thing} ! [we]_7386-we must not ask [aught]_7387-aught about [her]_145-mary , but that [she]_145-mary needs help . [I]_{681-the woman} wish [I]_{681-the woman} 'd [my]_{681-the woman} salts at [home]_4755-home , but [I]_{681-the woman} lent ['em]_7389-'em to [Mrs. Burton]_{387-mrs. burton} , last Sunday in [church]_5378-church , for [she]_145-mary could not keep awake through the sermon . Dear - a - [me]_{681-the woman} , how white [she]_145-mary is ! "_{[681-the woman]} " Here ! [you]_3889-she hold [her]_145-mary up a bit , "_[3889-she] said [[her]_3889-she husband]_{587-her husband} . [She]_3889-she did as [he]_{587-her husband} desired , still crooning to [herself]_3889-she , not caring for [his]_{587-her husband} short , sharp interruptions as [she]_3889-she went on ; and , indeed , to [her]_3889-she old , loving heart , [his]_{587-her husband} crossest words fell like pearls and diamonds , for [he]_{587-her husband} had been [the husband of [her]_3889-she youth]_{3891-the husband of her youth} ; and even [he]_{587-her husband} , rough and crabbed as [he]_{587-her husband} was , was secretly soothed by the sound of [her]_3889-she voice , although not for worlds , if [he]_{587-her husband} could have helped it , would [he]_{587-her husband} have shown any of the love that was hidden beneath [his]_{587-her husband} rough outside . " What 's [the old fellow]_{7391-the old fellow} after ? "_[3889-she] said [she]_3889-she , bending over [Mary]_145-mary , so as to accommodate the drooping head . " Taking [my]_3889-she pen , as [I]_3889-she 've had better nor five year . Bless [us]_7392-us , and save [us]_7392-us ! [he]_{7391-the old fellow} 's burning it ! Ay , [I]_3889-she see now , [he]_{7391-the old fellow} 's [his]_{7391-the old fellow} wits about [him]_{7391-the old fellow} ; burnt feathers is always good for a faint . But [they]_7393-they do n't bring [her]_145-mary round , [poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} ! Now what 's [he]_{7391-the old fellow} after next ? Well ! [he]_{7391-the old fellow} is [a bright one]_{7395-a bright one} , [[my]_3889-she old man]_{7396-my old man} ! That [I]_3889-she never thought of that , to be sure ! "_[3889-she] exclaimed [she]_3889-she , as [he]_3892-he produced a square bottle of smuggled spirits , labelled " [Golden Wasser]_{388-golden wasser} , "_[3892-he] from a corner cupboard in [[their]_3893-their little room]_{3894-their little room} . " That 'll do ! "_[3889-she] said [she]_3889-she , as the dose [he]_3892-he poured into [Mary]_145-mary 's open mouth made [her]_145-mary start and cough . " Bless [the man]_{708-the man} ! It 's just like [him]_{708-the man} to be so tender and thoughtful ! "_[3889-she] " Not a bit ! "_[3892-he] snarled [he]_3892-he , as [he]_3892-he was relieved by [Mary]_145-mary 's returning colour , and opened eyes , and wondering , sensible gaze ; " not a bit ! [I]_3892-he never was such a fool afore . "_[3892-he] [[His]_3892-he wife]_{525-his wife} helped [Mary]_145-mary to rise , and placed [her]_145-mary in a chair . " All 's right now , [young woman]_{1835-young woman} ? "_{[3728-the boatman]} asked [the boatman]_{3728-the boatman} , anxiously . " Yes , [sir]_5232-sir , and thank [you]_5232-sir . [I]_145-mary 'm sure , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_145-mary do n't know rightly how to thank [you]_5232-sir , "_[145-mary] faltered [Mary]_145-mary , softly forth . " Be hanged to [you]_5232-sir and [your]_5232-sir thanks . "_[145-mary] And [he]_3892-he shook [himself]_3892-he , took [his]_3892-he pipe , and went out without deigning another word ; leaving [[his]_3892-he wife]_{525-his wife} sorely puzzled as to the character and history of [the stranger within [her]_{525-his wife} doors]_{3898-the stranger within her doors} . [Mary]_145-mary watched [the boatman]_{3728-the boatman} leave [the house]_{803-the house} , and then , turning [her]_145-mary sorrowful eyes to the face of [[her]_145-mary hostess]_{3901-her hostess} , [she]_145-mary attempted feebly to rise , with the intention of going away,--where [she]_145-mary knew not . " Nay ! nay ! who e'er [thou]_7401-thou'rt be'st , [thou'rt]_7401-thou'rt not fit to go out into [the street]_{4821-the street} . Perhaps "_[145-mary] ( sinking [her]_145-mary voice a little ) " [thou'rt]_7401-thou'rt [a bad one]_{7403-a bad one} ; [I]_145-mary almost misdoubt [thee]_7401-thou'rt , [thou'rt]_7401-thou'rt so pretty . Well - a - well ! it 's [the bad ones as have the broken hearts]_{7404-the bad ones as have the broken hearts} , sure enough ; [good folk]_{5748-good folk} never get utterly cast down , [they]_{5748-good folk} 've always getten hope in [the Lord]_{4929-the lord} : it 's the sinful as bear the bitter , bitter grief in [their]_{5748-good folk} crushed hearts , [poor souls]_{7356-poor souls} ; it 's [them]_{5748-good folk} [we]_7408-we ought , most of all , to pity and to help . [She]_7401-thou'rt shanna leave [the house]_{803-the house} to - night , choose who [she]_7401-thou'rt [is,--worst woman in [Liverpool]_17-liverpool]_{7410-is,--worst woman in liverpool} , [she]_7401-thou'rt shanna . [I]_145-mary wished [I]_145-mary knew where [th ' old man]_{7411-th ' old man} picked [her]_7401-thou'rt up , that [I]_145-mary do . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary had listened feebly to this soliloquy , and now tried to satisfy [[her]_145-mary hostess]_{3901-her hostess} in weak , broken sentences . " [I]_145-mary 'm not [a bad one]_{7403-a bad one} , [missis]_4831-missis , indeed . [[Your]_4831-missis master]_{5174-your master} took [me]_145-mary out to [sea]_4969-sea after [a ship as had sailed]_{7416-a ship as had sailed} . There was [a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} . [The captain]_{2701-the captain} would not let [him]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} come , but [he]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} says [he]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} 'll come back in [the pilot - boat]_{7287-the pilot - boat} . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary fell to sobbing at the thought of [her]_145-mary waning hopes , and [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} tried to comfort [her]_145-mary , beginning with [her]_{937-the old woman} accustomed , " Well - a - well ! and [he]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} 'll come back , [I]_{937-the old woman} 'm sure . [I]_{937-the old woman} know [he]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} will ; so keep up [your]_145-mary heart . Do n't fret about it . [He]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} 's sure to be back . "_{[937-the old woman]} " Oh ! [I]_145-mary 'm afraid ! [I]_145-mary 'm sore afraid [he]_{7417-a man in it as might save a life at the trial to - morrow} wo n't , "_[145-mary] cried [Mary]_145-mary , consoled , nevertheless , by [the woman]_{681-the woman} 's assertions , all groundless as [she]_145-mary knew them to be . Still talking half to [herself]_{937-the old woman} and half to [Mary]_145-mary , [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} prepared tea , and urged [[her]_{937-the old woman} visitor]_{5529-her visitor} to eat and refresh [herself]_{937-the old woman} . But [Mary]_145-mary shook [her]_145-mary head at the proffered food , and only drank a cup of tea with thirsty eagerness . For the spirits had thrown [her]_145-mary into a burning heat , and rendered each impression received through [her]_145-mary senses of the most painful distinctness and intensity , while [her]_145-mary head ached in a terrible manner . [She]_145-mary disliked speaking , [her]_145-mary power over [her]_145-mary words seemed so utterly gone . [She]_145-mary used quite different expressions to those [she]_145-mary intended . So [she]_145-mary kept silent , while [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} ( for that was the name of [[her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} hostess]_{3901-her hostess} ) talked away , and put [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} tea - things by , and moved about incessantly , in a manner that increased the dizziness in [Mary]_145-mary 's head . [She]_145-mary felt as if [she]_145-mary ought to take leave for the night and go . But where ? Presently [the old man]_{6643-the old man} came back , crosser and gruffer than when [he]_{6643-the old man} went away . [He]_{6643-the old man} kicked aside the dry shoes [[his]_{6643-the old man} wife]_{525-his wife} had prepared for [him]_{6643-the old man} , and snarled at all [she]_{525-his wife} said . [Mary]_145-mary attributed this to [his]_{6643-the old man} finding [her]_{525-his wife} still there , and gathered up [her]_145-mary strength for an effort to leave [the house]_{803-the house} . But [she]_145-mary was mistaken . By - and - bye , [he]_{6643-the old man} said ( looking right into the fire , as if addressing it ) , " Wind 's right against [them]_3912-them ! "_{[6643-the old man]} " Ay , ay , and is it so ? "_{[525-his wife]} said [[his]_{6643-the old man} wife]_{525-his wife} , who , knowing [him]_{6643-the old man} well , knew that [his]_{6643-the old man} surliness proceeded from some repressed sympathy . " Well - a - well , wind changes often at night . Time enough before morning . [I]_145-mary 'd bet a penny it has changed sin ' thou looked . "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary looked out of [their]_3912-them little window at a weather - cock , near , glittering in the moonlight ; and as [she]_145-mary was [[a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} 's wife]_{3914-a sailor 's wife} , [she]_145-mary instantly recognised the unfavourable point at which the indicator seemed stationary , and giving a heavy sigh , turned into [the room]_{616-the room} , and began to beat about in [her]_145-mary own mind for some other mode of comfort . " There 's [no one else who can prove what [you]_{6643-the old man} want at the trial to - morrow]_{7420-no one else who can prove what you want at the trial to - morrow} , is there ? "_[145-mary] asked [she]_145-mary . " [No one]_{1202-no one} ! "_[145-mary] answered [Mary]_145-mary . " And [you]_{6643-the old man} 've no clue to [the one as is really guilty]_{7422-the one as is really guilty} , if t'other is not ? "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary did not answer , but trembled all over . [Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} saw it . " Do n't bother [her]_{525-his wife} with [thy]_{525-his wife} questions , "_[3916-he] said [he]_3916-he to [[his]_3916-he wife]_{525-his wife} . " [She]_{525-his wife} mun go to bed , for [she]_{525-his wife} 's all in a shiver with the sea air . [I]_145-mary 'll see after the wind , hang it , and the weather - cock , too . Tide will help ['em]_7423-'em when it turns . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary went up - stairs murmuring thanks and blessings on those who took [the stranger]_{3401-the stranger} in . [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} led [her]_145-mary into [a little room redolent of [the sea]_{4983-the sea} and [foreign lands]_{3921-foreign lands}]_{3919-a little room redolent of the sea and foreign lands} . There was a small bed for [one son]_{3922-one son} , bound for [China]_86-china ; and a hammock slung above for [another , who was now tossing in the Baltic]_{3923-another , who was now tossing in the baltic} . The sheets looked made out of sail - cloth , but were fresh and clean in spite of their brownness . Against the wall were wafered two rough drawings of vessels with [their]_3924-their names written underneath , on which [the mother]_{5048-the mother} 's eyes caught , and gazed until they filled with tears . But [she]_{389-mrs. sturgis} brushed the drops away with the back of [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} hand , and in a cheerful tone went on to assure [Mary]_145-mary the bed was well aired . " [I]_145-mary can not sleep , thank [you]_{389-mrs. sturgis} . [I]_145-mary will sit here , if [you]_{389-mrs. sturgis} please , "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , sinking down on the window - seat . " Come , now , "_{[389-mrs. sturgis]} said [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , " [[my]_{389-mrs. sturgis} master]_{5167-my master} told [me]_{389-mrs. sturgis} to see [you]_145-mary to bed , and [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} mun . What 's the use of watching ? A watched pot never boils , and [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} see [you]_145-mary are after watching that weather - cock . Why now , [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} try never to look at it , else [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} could do nought else . [My]_{389-mrs. sturgis} heart many a time goes sick when the wind rises , but [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} turn away and work away , and try never to think on the wind , but on what [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} ha ' getten to do . "_{[389-mrs. sturgis]} " Let [me]_145-mary stay up a little , "_[145-mary] pleaded [Mary]_145-mary , as [[her]_145-mary hostess]_{3901-her hostess} seemed so resolute about seeing [her]_145-mary to bed . [Her]_145-mary looks won [her]_145-mary suit . " Well , [I]_145-mary suppose [I]_145-mary mun . [I]_145-mary shall catch it down [stairs]_4740-stairs , [I]_145-mary know . [He]_7426-he 'll be in a fidget till [you]_145-mary 're getten to bed , [I]_145-mary know ; so [you]_145-mary mun be quiet if [you]_145-mary are so bent upon staying up . "_[145-mary] And quietly , noiselessly , [Mary]_145-mary watched [the unchanging weather - cock through the night]_{3927-the unchanging weather - cock through the night} . [She]_145-mary sat on the little window - seat , [her]_145-mary hand holding back the curtain which shaded [the room]_{616-the room} from the bright moonlight without ; [her]_145-mary head resting its weariness against the corner of the window - frame ; [her]_145-mary eyes burning and stiff with the intensity of [her]_145-mary gaze . The ruddy morning stole up the horizon , casting a crimson glow into [[the watcher]_{3929-the watcher} 's room]_{3930-the watcher 's room} . It was the morning of the day of trial ! CHAPTER XXXII . THE TRIAL AND VERDICT--"NOT GUILTY . "_[145-mary] " [Thou]_7427-thou stand'st here arraign'd , That , with presumption impious and accursed , [Thou]_7427-thou hast usurp'd [God]_224-god 's high prerogative , Making [[thy]_7427-thou fellow mortal]_{7428-thy fellow mortal} 's life and death Wait on [thy]_7427-thou moody and diseased passions ; That with a violent and untimely steel Hast set abroach the blood that should have ebbed In calm and natural current : to sum all In one wild name -- a name the pale air freezes at , And every cheek of [man]_5236-man sinks in with horror-- [Thou]_7427-thou art [a cold and midnight murderer]_{7430-a cold and midnight murderer} . "_[390-milman] [MILMAN]_390-milman 'S " [FAZIO]_391-fazio . "_[145-mary] Of [all the restless people who found that night 's hours agonising from excess of anxiety]_{3931-all the restless people who found that night 's hours agonising from excess of anxiety} , [the poor father of [the murdered man]_{3933-the murdered man}]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} was perhaps the most restless . [He]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} had slept but little since the blow had fallen ; [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} waking hours had been too full of agitated thought , which seemed to haunt and pursue [him]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} through [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} unquiet slumbers . And this night of all others was the most sleepless . [He]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} turned over and over again in [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} mind the wonder if every thing had been done that could be done , to insure the conviction of [Jem Wilson]_154-jem . [He]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} almost regretted the haste with which [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} had urged forward the proceedings , and yet until [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} had obtained vengeance , [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} felt as if there was no peace on [earth]_1255-earth for [him]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} ( [I]_0-i do n't know that [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} exactly used the term vengeance in [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} thoughts ; [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} spoke of justice , and probably thought of [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} desired end as such ) ; no peace either bodily or mental , for [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} moved up and down [[his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} bedroom]_{3935-his bedroom} with the restless incessant tramp of a wild beast in a cage , and if [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} compelled [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} aching limbs to cease for an instant , the twitchings which ensued almost amounted to convulsions , and [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} re - commenced [his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} walk as the lesser evil , and the more bearable fatigue . With daylight increased power of action came ; and [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} drove off to arouse [[his]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} attorney]_{3936-his attorney} , and worry [him]_{3936-his attorney} with further directions and inquiries ; and when that was ended , [he]_{3932-the poor father of the murdered man} sat , watch in hand , until [the courts]_{3804-the courts} should be opened , and the trial begin . What were [all the living,--wife]_{3938-all the living,--wife} or daughters,--what were [they]_{3938-all the living,--wife} in comparison with [the dead,--the murdered son who lay unburied still , in compliance with [[his]_{3939-the dead,--the murdered son who lay unburied still , in compliance with his father 's earnest wish , and almost vowed purpose of having the slayer of his child sentenced to death , before he committed the body to the rest of the grave} father]_{902-his father} 's earnest wish , and almost vowed purpose of having the slayer of [[his]_{902-his father} child]_{6731-his child} sentenced to death , before [he]_{902-his father} committed the body to the rest of the grave]_{3939-the dead,--the murdered son who lay unburied still , in compliance with his father 's earnest wish , and almost vowed purpose of having the slayer of his child sentenced to death , before he committed the body to the rest of the grave} ? At nine o'clock [they]_3942-they all met at [[their]_3942-they awful place of _ rendezvous _]_{3943-their awful place of _ rendezvous _} . [The judge]_{6816-the judge} , [the jury]_{6804-the jury} , [the avenger of blood]_{3946-the avenger of blood} , [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} , [the witnesses]_{3948-the witnesses} -- all were gathered together within [one building]_{3949-one building} . And besides these were [many others]_{3950-many others} , personally interested in some part of the proceedings , in which , however , [they]_{3950-many others} took no part ; [Job Legh]_156-job , [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} , and [several others]_{3951-several others} were [there]_873-there , amongst whom was [Charley Jones]_369-charley . [Job Legh]_156-job had carefully avoided any questioning from [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} that morning . Indeed [he]_156-job had not been much in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} company , for [he]_156-job had risen up early to go out once more to make inquiry for [Mary]_145-mary ; and when [he]_156-job could hear nothing of [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} , [he]_156-job had desperately resolved not to undeceive [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , as sorrow never came too late ; and if the blow were inevitable , it would be better to leave [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} in ignorance of the impending evil as long as possible . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} took [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} place in [the witness - room]_{3953-the witness - room} , worn and dispirited , but not anxious . As [Job]_156-job struggled through [the crowd]_{1141-the crowd} into the body of [the court]_{604-the court} , [[Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's clerk]_{3795-mr. bridgenorth 's clerk} beckoned to [him]_156-job . " Here 's a letter for [you]_156-job from [[our]_7431-our client]_{7432-our client} ! "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} [Job]_156-job sickened as [he]_156-job took it . [He]_156-job did not know why , but [he]_156-job dreaded a confession of guilt , which would be an overthrow of all hope . The letter ran as follows . [DEAR FRIEND,--I]_{3957-dear friend,--i} thank [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} heartily for [your]_{3957-dear friend,--i} goodness in finding [me]_0-i [a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} , but [lawyers]_6988-lawyers can do no good to [me]_0-i , whatever [they]_6988-lawyers may do to [other people]_{2274-other people} . But [I]_0-i am not the less obliged to [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} , [dear friend]_{3961-dear friend} . [I]_0-i foresee things will go against [me]_0-i -- and no wonder . If [I]_0-i was [a jury - man]_{3962-a jury - man} , [I]_0-i should say [the man]_{708-the man} was guilty as had as much evidence brought against [him]_{708-the man} as may be brought against [me]_0-i to - morrow . So it 's no blame to [them]_6988-lawyers if [they]_6988-lawyers do . But , [Job Legh]_156-job , [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i need not tell [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} [I]_0-i am as guiltless in this matter as [the babe unborn]_{6902-the babe unborn} , although it is not in [my]_0-i power to prove it . If [I]_0-i did not believe that [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} thought [me]_0-i innocent , [I]_0-i could not write as [I]_0-i do now to tell [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} [my]_0-i wishes . [You]_{3957-dear friend,--i} 'll not forget they are the wishes of [a man]_{4855-a man} shortly to die . [Dear friend]_{3961-dear friend} , [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} must take care of [[my]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} . Not in the money way , for [she]_{4875-my mother} will have enough for [her]_{4875-my mother} and [Aunt Alice]_{393-aunt alice} ; but [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} must let [her]_{4875-my mother} talk to [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} of [me]_0-i ; and show [her]_{4875-my mother} that ( whatever [others]_737-others may do ) [you]_{3957-dear friend,--i} think [I]_0-i died innocent . [I]_0-i do n't reckon [she]_{4875-my mother} will stay long behind when [we]_3969-we are all gone . Be tender with [her]_{4875-my mother} , [Job]_156-job , for [my]_0-i sake ; and if [she]_{4875-my mother} is a bit fractious at times , remember what [she]_{4875-my mother} has gone through . [I]_0-i know [mother]_4845-mother will never doubt [me]_0-i , [God]_3971-god bless [her]_{4875-my mother} . There is one other whom [I]_0-i fear [I]_0-i have loved too dearly ; and yet , the loving [her]_{4875-my mother} has made the happiness of [my]_0-i life . [She]_{4875-my mother} will think [I]_0-i have murdered [[her]_{4875-my mother} lover]_{2048-her lover} ; [she]_{4875-my mother} will think [I]_0-i have caused the grief [she]_{4875-my mother} must be feeling . And [she]_{4875-my mother} must go on thinking so . It is hard upon [me]_0-i to say this ; but [she]_{4875-my mother} _ must _ . It will be best for [her]_{4875-my mother} , and that 's all [I]_0-i ought to think on . But , dear [Job]_156-job , [you]_156-job are [a hearty fellow]_{3973-a hearty fellow} for [your]_156-job time of life , and may live a many years to come ; and perhaps [you]_156-job could tell [her]_{4875-my mother} , when [you]_156-job felt sure [you]_156-job were drawing near [your]_156-job end , that [I]_0-i solemnly told [you]_156-job ( as [I]_0-i do now ) that [I]_0-i was innocent of this thing . [You]_156-job must not tell [her]_{4875-my mother} for many years to come ; but [I]_0-i can not well bear to think on [her]_{4875-my mother} living through a long life , and hating the thought of [me]_0-i as [the murderer of [him]_3975-him [she]_{4875-my mother} loved]_{3974-the murderer of him she loved} , and dying with that hatred to [me]_0-i in [her]_{4875-my mother} heart . It would hurt [me]_0-i sore in [the other world]_{3976-the other world} to see the look of it in [her]_{4875-my mother} face , as it would be , till [she]_{4875-my mother} was told . [I]_0-i must not let [myself]_0-i think on how [she]_{4875-my mother} must be viewing [me]_0-i now . So God bless [you]_156-job , [Job Legh]_156-job ; and no more from [Yours]_156-job to command , [JAMES WILSON]_154-jem . [Job]_156-job turned the letter over and over when [he]_156-job had read it ; sighed deeply ; and then wrapping it carefully up in a bit of newspaper [he]_156-job had about [him]_156-job , [he]_156-job put it in [his]_156-job waistcoat pocket , and went off to the door of [the witness - room]_{3953-the witness - room} to ask if [Mary Barton]_145-mary were there . As the door opened [he]_156-job saw [her]_145-mary sitting within , against a table on which [her]_145-mary folded arms were resting , and [her]_145-mary head was hidden within them . It was an attitude of hopelessness , and would have served to strike [Job]_156-job dumb in sickness of heart , even without the sound of [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's voice in passionate sobbing , and sore lamentations , which told [him]_156-job as well as words could do ( for [she]_145-mary was not within view of the door , and [he]_156-job did not care to go in ) , that [she]_145-mary was at any rate partially undeceived as to the hopes [he]_156-job had given [her]_145-mary last night . Sorrowfully did [Job]_156-job return into the body of [the court]_{604-the court} ; neither [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} nor [Mary]_145-mary having seen [him]_156-job as [he]_156-job had stood at the witness - room door . As soon as [he]_156-job could bring [his]_156-job distracted thoughts to bear upon the present scene , [he]_156-job perceived that the trial of [James Wilson]_154-jem for the murder of [Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was just commencing . [The clerk]_{3979-the clerk} was gabbling over the indictment , and in a minute or two there was the accustomed question , " How say [you]_7433-you , Guilty , or Not Guilty ? "_{[3979-the clerk]} Although but one answer was expected,--was customary in all cases,--there was a pause of dead silence , an interval of solemnity even in this hackneyed part of the proceeding ; while [the prisoner at the bar]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} stood with compressed lips , looking at [the judge]_{6816-the judge} with [his]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} outward eyes , but with far other and different scenes presented to [his]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} mental vision;--a sort of rapid recapitulation of [his]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} life,--remembrances of [his]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} [childhood,--his father]_{3982-childhood,--his father} ( so proud of [him]_156-job , [his]_156-job first - born [child),--his sweet little playfellow]_{3983-child),--his sweet little playfellow} , [Mary,--his]_{3984-mary,--his} hopes , [his]_156-job love,--his despair , yet still , yet ever and ever , [his]_156-job love,--the blank , wide world it had been without [her]_{3982-childhood,--his father} love,--his mother,--his childless mother,--but not long to be so,--not long to be away from all [she]_{3982-childhood,--his father} loved,--nor during that time to be oppressed with doubt as to [his]_156-job innocence , sure and secure of [[her]_{3982-childhood,--his father} darling]_{3985-her darling} 's heart;--he started from [his]_156-job instant 's pause , and said in a low firm voice , " Not guilty , [[my]_156-job lord]_{7434-my lord} . "_[156-job] The circumstances of the murder , the discovery of the body , the causes of suspicion against [Jem]_154-jem , were as well known to [most of [the audience]_{3987-the audience}]_{3986-most of the audience} as they are to [you]_3988-you , so there was some little buzz of conversation going on among [the people]_{1184-the people} while [the leading counsel for the prosecution]_{3990-the leading counsel for the prosecution} made [his]_156-job very effective speech . " That 's [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , [the father]_{513-the father} , sitting behind [Serjeant Wilkinson]_{394-serjeant wilkinson} ! "_[156-job] " What [a noble - looking old man]_{7436-a noble - looking old man} [he]_156-job is ! so stern and inflexible , with such classical features ! Does [he]_156-job not remind [you]_3988-you of some of the busts of [Jupiter]_395-jupiter ? "_[156-job] " [I]_156-job am more interested by watching [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} . [Criminals]_{7438-criminals} always interest [me]_156-job . [I]_156-job try to trace in the features common to humanity some expression of the crimes by which [they]_{7438-criminals} have distinguished [themselves]_{7438-criminals} from [[their]_{7438-criminals} kind]_{7439-their kind} . [I]_156-job have seen a good number of [murderers]_{7440-murderers} in [my]_156-job day , but [I]_156-job have seldom seen one with such marks of [Cain]_273-cain on [his]_156-job countenance as [the man at the bar]_{7441-the man at the bar} . "_[156-job] " Well , [I]_156-job am [no physiognomist]_{7442-no physiognomist} , but [I]_156-job do n't think [his]_156-job face strikes [me]_156-job as bad . It certainly is gloomy and depressed , and not unnaturally so , considering [his]_156-job situation . "_[156-job] " Only look at [his]_156-job low , resolute brow , [his]_156-job downcast eye , [his]_156-job white compressed lips . [He]_156-job never looks up,--just watch [him]_156-job . "_[156-job] " [His]_156-job forehead is not so low if [he]_156-job had that mass of black hair removed , and is very square , which [some people]_{2369-some people} say is a good sign . If [others]_737-others are to be influenced by such trifles as [you]_7445-you are , it would have been much better if [the prison barber]_{7446-the prison barber} had cut [his]_156-job hair a little previous to the trial ; and as for down - cast eye , and compressed lip , it is all part and parcel of [his]_156-job inward agitation just now ; nothing to do with character , [[my]_156-job good fellow]_{7308-my good fellow} . "_[156-job] [Poor [Jem]_154-jem]_{3991-poor jem} ! [His]_154-jem raven hair ( [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's pride , and so often fondly caressed by [her]_{787-his mother} fingers ) , was that too to have its influence against [him]_154-jem ? [The witnesses]_{3948-the witnesses} were called . At first [they]_{3948-the witnesses} consisted principally of [policemen]_{6228-policemen} ; who , being much accustomed to giving evidence , knew what were the material points [they]_{3948-the witnesses} were called on to prove , and did not lose the time of [the court]_{604-the court} in listening to any thing unnecessary . " Clear as day against [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} , "_{[3996-one attorney]} whispered [[one attorney]_{3996-one attorney} 's clerk]_{3997-one attorney 's clerk} to another . " Black as night , [you]_{3997-one attorney 's clerk} mean , "_{[553-his friend]} replied [[his]_{3996-one attorney} friend]_{553-his friend} ; and [they]_{3948-the witnesses} both smiled . " [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} ! who 's [she]_{130-jane wilson} ? some relation , [I]_{3948-the witnesses} suppose , from the name . "_{[3948-the witnesses]} " [The mother,--she]_{396-the mother,--she} that is to prove the gun part of the case . "_{[4000-one of the officers of the court]} " Oh , ay -- [I]_876-both remember ! Rather hard on [her]_{130-jane wilson} , too , [I]_876-both think . "_[876-both] Then [both]_876-both were silent , as [one of [the officers of the court]_{4001-the officers of the court}]_{4000-one of the officers of the court} ushered [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} into the witness - box . [I]_0-i have often called [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} " [the old woman]_{937-the old woman} , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} and " [an old woman]_{7450-an old woman} , "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} because , in truth , [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} appearance was so much beyond [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} years , which might not be many above fifty . But partly owing to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} accident in early life , which left a stamp of pain upon [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} face , partly owing to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} anxious temper , partly to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} sorrows , and partly to [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} limping gait , [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} always gave [me]_0-i the idea of age . But now [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} might have seemed more than seventy ; [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} lines were so set and deep , [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} features so sharpened , and [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} walk so feeble . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} was trying to check [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} sobs into composure , and ( unconsciously ) was striving to behave as [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} thought would best please [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} poor boy]_{4002-her poor boy} , whom [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} knew [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had often grieved by [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} uncontrolled impatience . [He]_{4002-her poor boy} had buried [his]_{4002-her poor boy} face in [his]_{4002-her poor boy} arms , which rested on the front of [the dock]_{4003-the dock} ( an attitude [he]_{4002-her poor boy} retained during the greater part of [his]_{4002-her poor boy} trial , and which prejudiced many against [him]_{4002-her poor boy} ) . [The counsel]_{4004-the counsel} began the examination . " [Your]_{2056-her son} name is [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} , [I]_{4004-the counsel} believe . "_{[4004-the counsel]} " Yes , [sir]_5232-sir . "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " [The mother of [the prisoner at the bar]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar}]_{7452-the mother of the prisoner at the bar} ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} " Yes , [sir]_5232-sir ; "_{[4004-the counsel]} with quivering voice , ready to break out into weeping , but earning respect by the strong effort at self - control , prompted , as [I]_0-i have said before , by [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} earnest wish to please [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} son]_{2056-her son} by [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} behaviour . [The barrister]_{4006-the barrister} now proceeded to the important part of the examination , tending to prove that the gun found on the scene of the murder was [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} 's . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} had committed [herself]_{134-mrs. wilson} so fully to [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} , that [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} could not well retract ; so without much delay in bringing the question round to the desired point , the gun was produced in [court]_4009-court , and the inquiry made-- " That gun belongs to [[your]_5232-sir son]_{2919-your son} , does it not ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} clenched the sides of the witness - box in [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} efforts to make [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} parched tongue utter words . At last [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} moaned forth , " Oh ! [Jem]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem ! what mun [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} say ? "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} [Every one]_{669-every one} bent forward to hear [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} 's answer ; although , in fact , it was of little importance to the issue of the trial . [He]_{7362-the prisoner} lifted up [his]_{7362-the prisoner} head ; and with a face brimming full of pity for [[his]_{7362-the prisoner} mother]_{787-his mother} , yet resolved into endurance , said , " Tell the truth , [mother]_4845-mother ! "_{[7362-the prisoner]} And so [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} did , with the fidelity of [a little child]_{1319-a little child} . [Every one]_{669-every one} felt that [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} did ; and the little colloquy between [mother]_4845-mother and [son]_1435-son did [them]_4017-them some slight service in the opinion of [the audience]_{3987-the audience} . But [the awful judge]_{4019-the awful judge} sat unmoved ; and [the jurymen]_{4020-the jurymen} changed not a muscle of [their]_{4020-the jurymen} countenances ; while [the counsel for the prosecution]_{4021-the counsel for the prosecution} went triumphantly through this part of the case , including the fact of [Jem]_154-jem 's absence from [home]_4755-home on the night of the murder , and bringing every admission to bear right against [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} . It was over . [She]_{134-mrs. wilson} was told to go down . But [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} could no longer compel [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} mother]_{4774-her mother} 's heart to keep silence , and suddenly turning towards [the judge]_{6816-the judge} ( with whom [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} imagined the verdict to rest ) , [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} thus addressed [him]_{6816-the judge} with [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} choking voice . " And now , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} 've telled [you]_5232-sir the truth , and the whole truth , as _ [he]_{7362-the prisoner} _ bid [me]_{134-mrs. wilson} ; but do n't [ye]_5232-sir let what [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} have said go for to hang [him]_{7362-the prisoner} ; oh , [[my]_{134-mrs. wilson} lord judge]_{7458-my lord judge} , take [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} word for it , [he]_{7362-the prisoner} 's as innocent as [the child]_{805-the child} as has yet to be born . For sure , [I]_{134-mrs. wilson} , who am [[his]_{7362-the prisoner} mother]_{787-his mother} , and have nursed [him]_{7362-the prisoner} on [my]_{134-mrs. wilson} knee , and been gladdened by the sight of [him]_{7362-the prisoner} every day since , ought to know [him]_{7362-the prisoner} better than [[yon]_7461-yon pack of [fellows]_7463-fellows]_{7462-yon pack of fellows} "_{[134-mrs. wilson]} ( indicating [the jury]_{6804-the jury} , while [she]_4027-i strove against [her]_4027-i heart to render [her]_4027-i words distinct and clear for [[her]_4027-i dear son]_{4028-her dear son} 's sake ) " who , [I]_4027-i 'll go bail , never saw [him]_{7362-the prisoner} before this morning in all [their]_7464-their born days . [[My]_4027-i lord judge]_{7458-my lord judge} , [he]_{7362-the prisoner} 's so good [I]_4027-i often wondered what harm there was in [him]_{7362-the prisoner} ; many is the time when [I]_4027-i 've been fretted ( for [I]_4027-i 'm frabbit enough at times ) , when [I]_4027-i 've scold't [myself]_4027-i , and said , ' [You]_{7458-my lord judge} ungrateful thing , [the Lord God]_{7347-the lord god} has given [you]_{7458-my lord judge} [Jem]_154-jem , and is n't that blessing enough for [you]_{7458-my lord judge} ? ' But [He]_{7347-the lord god} has seen fit to punish [me]_4027-i . If [Jem]_154-jem is -- if [Jem]_154-jem is -- taken from [me]_4027-i , [I]_4027-i shall be [a childless woman]_{7467-a childless woman} ; and very poor , having nought left to love on earth , and [I]_4027-i can not say ' [His]_154-jem will be done . ' [I]_4027-i can not , [[my]_4027-i lord judge]_{7458-my lord judge} , oh , [I]_4027-i can not . "_[4027-i] While sobbing out these words [she]_4029-she was led away by [the officers of the court]_{4001-the officers of the court} , but tenderly , and reverently , with the respect which great sorrow commands . The stream of evidence went on and on , gathering fresh force from [every witness who was examined]_{4031-every witness who was examined} , and threatening to overwhelm [poor Jem]_154-jem . Already [they]_{4001-the officers of the court} had proved that the gun was [his]_154-jem , that [he]_154-jem had been heard not many days before the commission of the deed to threaten [the deceased]_{4032-the deceased} ; indeed , that [the police]_{6234-the police} had , at that time , been obliged to interfere to prevent some probable act of violence . It only remained to bring forward a sufficient motive for the threat and the murder . The clue to this had been furnished by [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} , who had overheard [Jem]_154-jem 's angry language to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; and [his]_{209-mr. carson} report in the first instance had occasioned the subpoena to [Mary]_145-mary . And now [she]_4029-she was to be called on to bear [witness]_4035-witness . [The court]_{604-the court} was by this time almost as full as it could hold ; but fresh attempts were being made to squeeze in at all the entrances , for [many]_1183-many were anxious to see and hear this part of the trial . [Old Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} felt an additional beat at [his]_{209-mr. carson} heart at the thought of seeing the fatal [Helen]_214-helen , the cause of all -- a kind of interest and yet repugnance , for was not [she]_214-helen beloved by the dead ; nay , perhaps in [her]_214-helen way , loving and mourning for the same being that [he]_{209-mr. carson} [himself]_{209-mr. carson} was so bitterly grieving over ? And yet [he]_{209-mr. carson} felt as if [he]_{209-mr. carson} abhorred [her]_214-helen and [her]_214-helen rumoured loveliness , as if [she]_214-helen were the curse against [him]_{209-mr. carson} ; and [he]_{209-mr. carson} grew jealous of the love with which [she]_214-helen had inspired [[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} , and would fain have deprived [her]_214-helen of even [her]_214-helen natural right of sorrowing over [[her]_214-helen lover]_{2048-her lover} 's untimely end : for [you]_4040-you see it was a fixed idea in the minds of all , that [the handsome , bright , gay , rich young gentleman]_{4041-the handsome , bright , gay , rich young gentleman} must have been beloved in preference to [the serious , almost stern - looking smith]_{4042-the serious , almost stern - looking smith} , who had to toil for [his]_{4042-the serious , almost stern - looking smith} daily bread . Hitherto the effect of the trial had equalled [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's most sanguine hopes , and a severe look of satisfaction came over the face of [the avenger,--over that countenance whence the smile]_{4043-the avenger,--over that countenance whence the smile} had departed , never more to return . All eyes were directed to the door through which [the witnesses]_{3948-the witnesses} entered . [Even Jem]_154-jem looked up to catch one glimpse before [he]_154-jem hid [his]_154-jem face from [her]_214-helen look of aversion . [The officer]_{4045-the officer} had gone to fetch [her]_214-helen . [She]_214-helen was in exactly the same attitude as when [Job Legh]_156-job had seen [her]_214-helen two hours before through the half - open door . Not a finger had moved . [The officer]_{4045-the officer} summoned [her]_214-helen , but [she]_214-helen did not stir . [She]_214-helen was so still [he]_{4045-the officer} thought [she]_214-helen had fallen asleep , and [he]_{4045-the officer} stepped forward and touched [her]_214-helen . [She]_214-helen started up in an instant , and followed [him]_{4045-the officer} with a kind of rushing rapid motion into [the court]_{604-the court} , into [the witness]_{4048-the witness} - box . And amid all that sea of faces , misty and swimming before [her]_214-helen eyes , [she]_214-helen saw but two clear bright spots , distinct and fixed : [the judge]_{6816-the judge} , who might have to condemn ; and [the prisoner , who might have to die]_{4050-the prisoner , who might have to die} . The mellow sunlight streamed down that high window on [her]_214-helen head , and fell on the rich treasure of [her]_214-helen golden hair , stuffed away in masses under [her]_214-helen little bonnet - cap ; and in those warm beams the motes kept dancing up and down . The wind had changed -- had changed almost as soon as [she]_214-helen had given up [her]_214-helen watching ; the wind had changed , and [she]_214-helen heeded it not . [Many who were looking for mere flesh and blood beauty , mere colouring]_{4051-many who were looking for mere flesh and blood beauty , mere colouring} , were disappointed ; for [her]_214-helen face was deadly white , and almost set in its expression , while [a mournful bewildered soul]_{4052-a mournful bewildered soul} looked out of the depths of those soft , deep , gray eyes . But [others]_737-others recognised a higher and stranger kind of beauty ; one that would keep its hold on the memory for many after years . [I]_0-i was not there [myself]_0-i ; but one who was , told [me]_0-i that [her]_214-helen look , and indeed [her]_214-helen whole face , was more like the well - known engraving from [Guido]_398-guido 's picture of " [Beatrice Cenci]_{399-beatrice cenci} "_[4054-he] than any thing else [he]_4054-he could give [me]_0-i an idea of . [He]_4054-he added , that [her]_214-helen countenance haunted [him]_4054-he , like the remembrance of some wild sad melody , heard in childhood ; that it would perpetually recur with its mute imploring agony . With all the court reeling before [her]_214-helen ( always save and except those awful two ) , [she]_214-helen heard a voice speak , and answered the simple inquiry ( something about [her]_214-helen name ) mechanically , as if in a dream . So [she]_214-helen went on for two or three more questions , with a strange wonder in [her]_214-helen brain , as to the reality of the terrible circumstances in which [she]_214-helen was placed . Suddenly [she]_214-helen was roused , [she]_214-helen knew not how or by what . [She]_214-helen was conscious that all was real , that [hundreds]_{4055-hundreds} were looking at [her]_214-helen , that true - sounding words were being extracted from [her]_214-helen ; that [that figure , so bowed down , with the face concealed by both hands]_{4056-that figure , so bowed down , with the face concealed by both hands} , was really [Jem]_154-jem . [Her]_214-helen face flushed scarlet , and then paler than before . But in [her]_214-helen dread of [herself]_214-helen , with the tremendous secret imprisoned within [her]_214-helen , [she]_214-helen exerted every power [she]_214-helen had to keep in the full understanding of what was going on , of what [she]_214-helen was asked , and of what [she]_214-helen answered . With all [her]_214-helen faculties preternaturally alive and sensitive , [she]_214-helen heard the next question from [the pert young barrister]_{4057-the pert young barrister} , who was delighted to have the examination of [this witness]_{4058-this witness} . " And pray , may [I]_{4057-the pert young barrister} ask , which was [the favoured lover]_{7469-the favoured lover} ? [You]_214-helen say [you]_214-helen knew [both these young men]_{7470-both these young men} . Which was [the favoured lover]_{7469-the favoured lover} ? Which did [you]_214-helen prefer ? "_{[4057-the pert young barrister]} And who was [he]_{4057-the pert young barrister} , [the questioner]_{4059-the questioner} , that [he]_{4057-the pert young barrister} should dare so lightly to ask of [her]_214-helen heart 's secrets ? That [he]_{4057-the pert young barrister} should dare to ask [her]_214-helen to tell , before [that multitude assembled there]_{4060-that multitude assembled there} , [what woman]_{4061-what woman} usually whispers with blushes and tears , and many hesitations , to one ear alone ? So , for an instant , a look of indignation contracted [Mary]_145-mary 's brow , as [she]_145-mary steadily met the eyes of [the impertinent counsellor]_{4062-the impertinent counsellor} . But , in that instant , [she]_145-mary saw the hands removed from a face beyond , behind ; and a countenance revealed of such intense love and woe,--such a deprecating dread of [her]_145-mary answer ; and suddenly [her]_145-mary resolution was taken . The present was everything ; the future , that vast shroud , it was maddening to think upon ; but _ now _ [she]_145-mary might own [her]_145-mary fault , but _ now _ [she]_145-mary might even own [her]_145-mary love . Now , when [the beloved]_{3100-the beloved} stood thus , abhorred of [men]_1197-men , there would be no feminine shame to stand between [her]_145-mary and [her]_145-mary avowal . So [she]_145-mary also turned towards [the judge]_{6816-the judge} , partly to mark that [her]_145-mary answer was not given to [the monkeyfied man who questioned [her]_145-mary]_{4066-the monkeyfied man who questioned her} , and likewise that [her]_145-mary face might be averted from , and [her]_145-mary eyes not gaze upon , the form that contracted with the dread of the words [he]_{4066-the monkeyfied man who questioned her} anticipated . " [He]_{4066-the monkeyfied man who questioned her} asks [me]_4067-i which of [them]_7472-them two [I]_4067-i liked the best . Perhaps [I]_4067-i liked [Mr. Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} once -- [I]_4067-i do n't know -- [I've]_4067-i forgotten ; but [I]_4067-i loved [James Wilson]_154-jem , that 's now on trial , above what tongue can tell -- above all else on [earth]_1255-earth put together ; and [I]_4067-i love [him]_154-jem now better than ever , though [he]_154-jem has never known a word of it till this minute . For [you]_{4066-the monkeyfied man who questioned her} see , [sir]_5232-sir , [mother]_4845-mother died before [I]_4067-i was thirteen , before [I]_4067-i could know right from wrong about some things ; and [I]_4067-i was giddy and vain , and ready to listen to any praise of [my]_4067-i good looks ; and [this poor young [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson}]_{7476-this poor young mr. carson} fell in with [me]_4067-i , and told [me]_4067-i [he]_{209-mr. carson} loved [me]_4067-i ; and [I]_4067-i was foolish enough to think [he]_{209-mr. carson} meant [me]_4067-i marriage : [a mother]_{883-a mother} is a pitiful loss to [a girl]_{577-a girl} , [sir]_5232-sir ; and so [I]_4067-i used to fancy [I]_4067-i could like to be [a lady]_{4776-a lady} , and rich , and never know want any more . [I]_4067-i never found out how dearly [I]_4067-i loved [another]_1526-another till one day , when [James Wilson]_154-jem asked [me]_4067-i to marry [him]_154-jem , and [I]_4067-i was very hard and sharp in [my]_4067-i answer ( for indeed , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_4067-i 'd a deal to bear just then ) , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} took [me]_4067-i at [my]_4067-i word and left [me]_4067-i ; and from that day to this [I]_4067-i 've never spoken a word to [him]_{209-mr. carson} , or set eyes on [him]_{209-mr. carson} ; though [I]_4067-i 'd fain have done so , to try and show [him]_{209-mr. carson} [we]_7483-we had both been too hasty ; for [he]_{209-mr. carson} 'd not been gone out of [my]_4067-i sight above a minute before [I]_4067-i knew [I]_4067-i loved -- far above [my]_4067-i life , "_[4067-i] said [she]_4067-i , dropping [her]_4067-i voice as [she]_4067-i came to this second confession of the strength of [her]_4067-i attachment . " But , if [the gentleman]_{6092-the gentleman} asks [me]_4067-i which [I]_4067-i loved the best , [I]_4067-i make answer , [I]_4067-i was flattered by [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , and pleased with [his]_{209-mr. carson} flattery ; but [James Wilson]_154-jem [I--]_4067-i "_[4067-i] [She]_4067-i covered [her]_4067-i face with [her]_4067-i hands , to hide the burning scarlet blushes , which even dyed [her]_4067-i fingers . There was a little pause ; still , though [her]_4067-i speech might inspire pity for [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} , it only strengthened the supposition of [his]_{7362-the prisoner} guilt . Presently [the counsellor]_{4069-the counsellor} went on with [his]_{4069-the counsellor} examination . " But [you]_{4069-the counsellor} have seen [young Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} since [your]_{4069-the counsellor} rejection of [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} ? "_{[4069-the counsellor]} " Yes , often . "_[4067-i] " [You]_{4069-the counsellor} have spoken to [him]_{7362-the prisoner} , [I]_4067-i conclude , at these times . "_[4067-i] " Only once to call speaking . "_[4067-i] " And what was the substance of [your]_{4069-the counsellor} conversation ? Did [you]_{4069-the counsellor} tell [him]_{7362-the prisoner} [you]_{4069-the counsellor} found [you]_{4069-the counsellor} preferred [[his]_{7362-the prisoner} rival]_{6301-his rival} ? "_[4067-i] " No , [sir]_5232-sir . [I]_4067-i do n't think as [I]_4067-i 've done wrong in saying , now as things stand , what [my]_4067-i feelings are ; but [I]_4067-i never would be so bold as to tell [one young man]_{7488-one young man} [I]_4067-i cared for another . [I]_4067-i never named [Jem]_154-jem 's name to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . Never . "_[4067-i] " Then what did [you]_{4069-the counsellor} say when [you]_{4069-the counsellor} had this final conversation with [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ? [You]_{4069-the counsellor} can give [me]_4067-i the substance of it , if [you]_{4069-the counsellor} do n't remember the words . "_[4067-i] " [I]_4067-i 'll try , [sir]_5232-sir ; but [I]_4067-i 'm not very clear . [I]_4067-i told [him]_{209-mr. carson} [I]_4067-i could not love [him]_{209-mr. carson} , and wished to have nothing more to do with [him]_{209-mr. carson} . [He]_{209-mr. carson} did [his]_{209-mr. carson} best to over - persuade [me]_4067-i , but [I]_4067-i kept steady , and at last [I]_4067-i ran off . "_[4067-i] " And [you]_{4069-the counsellor} never spoke to [him]_{209-mr. carson} again ? "_[4067-i] " Never ! "_[4067-i] " Now , [young woman]_{1835-young woman} , remember [you]_{4069-the counsellor} are upon [your]_{4069-the counsellor} oath . Did [you]_{4069-the counsellor} ever tell [the prisoner at [the bar of [Mr. Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson}]_{7492-the bar of mr. henry carson} 's attentions to [you]_{4069-the counsellor}]_{7491-the prisoner at the bar of mr. henry carson 's attentions to you} ? of [your]_{4069-the counsellor} acquaintance , in short ? Did [you]_{4069-the counsellor} ever try to excite [his]_{209-mr. carson} jealousy by boasting of [a lover so far above [you]_{4069-the counsellor} in [station]_2514-station]_{7493-a lover so far above you in station} ? "_[4067-i] " Never . [I]_4070-she never did , "_[4070-she] said [she]_4070-she , in so firm and distinct a manner as to leave no doubt . " Were [you]_{4069-the counsellor} aware that [he]_{209-mr. carson} knew of [Mr. Henry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's regard for [you]_{4069-the counsellor} ? Remember [you]_{4069-the counsellor} are on [your]_{4069-the counsellor} oath ! "_[4070-she] " Never , [sir]_5232-sir . [I]_4067-i was not aware until [I]_4067-i heard of the quarrel between [them]_7496-them , and what [Jem]_154-jem had said to [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} , and that was after the murder . To this day [I]_4067-i ca n't make out who told [Jem]_154-jem . Oh , [sir]_5232-sir , may not [I]_4067-i go down ? "_[4067-i] For [she]_4070-she felt the sense , the composure , the very bodily strength which [she]_4070-she had compelled to [her]_4070-she aid for a time , suddenly giving way , and was conscious that [she]_4070-she was losing all command over [herself]_4070-she . There was no occasion to detain [her]_4070-she longer ; [she]_4070-she had done [her]_4070-she part . [She]_4070-she might go down . The evidence was still stronger against [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} ; but now [he]_{7362-the prisoner} stood erect and firm , with self - respect in [his]_{7362-the prisoner} attitude , and a look of determination on [his]_{7362-the prisoner} face , which almost made it appear noble . Yet [he]_{7362-the prisoner} seemed lost in thought . [Job Legh]_156-job had all this time been trying to soothe and comfort [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , who would first be in [the court]_{604-the court} , in order to see [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} darling]_{3985-her darling} , and then , when [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} sobs became irrepressible , had to be led out into the open air , and sat there weeping , on the steps of [the court - house]_{4074-the court - house} . Who would have taken charge of [Mary]_145-mary on [her]_145-mary release from the witness - box [I]_0-i do not know , if [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , [[the boatman]_{3728-the boatman} 's wife]_{4076-the boatman 's wife} , had not been [there]_873-there , brought by [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} interest in [Mary]_145-mary , towards whom [she]_{389-mrs. sturgis} now pressed , in order to urge [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} to leave the scene of the trial . " No ! no ! "_[145-mary] said [Mary]_145-mary , to this proposition . " [I]_145-mary must be here , [I]_145-mary must watch that [they]_7499-they do n't hang [him]_{3728-the boatman} , [you]_145-mary know [I]_145-mary must . "_[145-mary] " Oh ! [they]_7499-they 'll not hang [him]_{3728-the boatman} ! never fear ! Besides the wind has changed , and that 's in [his]_{3728-the boatman} favour . Come away . [You]_145-mary 're so hot , and first white and then red ; [I]_{389-mrs. sturgis} 'm sure [you]_145-mary 're ill . Just come away . "_{[389-mrs. sturgis]} " Oh ! [I]_145-mary do n't know about any thing but that [I]_145-mary must stay , "_[145-mary] replied [Mary]_145-mary , in a strange hurried manner , catching hold of some rails as if [she]_145-mary feared some bodily force would be employed to remove [her]_145-mary . So [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} just waited patiently by [her]_145-mary , every now and then peeping among the congregation of heads in the body of [the court]_{604-the court} , to see if [[her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} husband]_{587-her husband} were still there . And there [he]_{587-her husband} always was to be seen , looking and listening with all [his]_{587-her husband} might . [[His]_{587-her husband} wife]_{525-his wife} felt easy that [he]_{587-her husband} would not be wanting [her]_145-mary at [home]_4755-home until the trial was ended . [Mary]_145-mary never let go [her]_145-mary clutched hold on the rails . [She]_145-mary wanted [them]_4082-them to steady [her]_145-mary , in that heaving , whirling court . [She]_145-mary thought the feeling of something hard compressed within [her]_145-mary hand would help [her]_145-mary to listen , for it was such pain , such weary pain in [her]_145-mary head , to strive to attend to what was being said . [They]_4083-they were all at [sea]_4969-sea , sailing away on billowy waves , and [every one]_{669-every one} speaking at once , and [no one]_{1202-no one} heeding [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , who was calling on [them]_4083-they to be silent , and listen to [him]_{587-her husband} . Then again , for a brief second , [the court]_{604-the court} stood still , and [she]_145-mary could see [the judge]_{6816-the judge} , sitting up there like [an idol]_{4090-an idol} , with [his]_{6816-the judge} trappings , so rigid and stiff ; and [Jem]_154-jem , opposite , looking at [her]_145-mary , as if to say , Am [I]_0-i to die for what [you]_145-mary know [your]_145-mary ---- . Then [she]_145-mary checked [herself]_145-mary , and by a great struggle brought [herself]_145-mary round to an instant 's sanity . But the round of thought never stood still ; and off [she]_145-mary went again ; and every time [her]_145-mary power of struggling against the growing delirium grew fainter and fainter . [She]_145-mary muttered low to [herself]_145-mary , but [no one]_{1202-no one} heard [her]_145-mary except [[her]_145-mary neighbour]_{1151-her neighbour} , [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} ; all were too closely attending to the case for the prosecution , which was now being wound up . [The counsel for]_{4093-the counsel for} [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} had avoided much cross - examination , reserving to [himself]_{4093-the counsel for} the right of calling [the witnesses]_{3948-the witnesses} forward again ; for [he]_{4093-the counsel for} had received so little , and such vague instructions , and understood that so much depended on the evidence of [one who was not forthcoming]_{4096-one who was not forthcoming} , that in fact [he]_{4093-the counsel for} had little hope of establishing any thing like a show of a defence , and contented [himself]_{4093-the counsel for} with watching the case , and lying in wait for any legal objections that might offer [themselves]_4097-their . [He]_{4093-the counsel for} lay back on the seat , occasionally taking a pinch of snuff in a manner intended to be contemptuous ; now and then elevating [his]_{4093-the counsel for} eyebrows , and sometimes exchanging a little note with [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} behind [him]_{4093-the counsel for} . [The attorney]_{4098-the attorney} had far more interest in the case than [the barrister]_{4006-the barrister} , to which [he]_{4093-the counsel for} was perhaps excited by [[his]_{4093-the counsel for} poor old friend]_{4100-his poor old friend} [Job Legh]_156-job ; who had edged and wedged [himself]_{4100-his poor old friend} through the crowd close to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} 's elbow , sent thither by [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} , to whom [he]_{4093-the counsel for} had been " introduced "_{[4100-his poor old friend]} by [Charley Jones]_369-charley , and who had accounted for [Mary]_145-mary 's disappearance on the preceding day , and spoken of [their]_4097-their chase , [their]_4097-their fears , [their]_4097-their hopes . All this was told in a few words to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} -- so few , that [they]_4097-their gave [him]_{4093-the counsel for} but a confused idea , that time was of value ; and this [he]_{4093-the counsel for} named to [[his]_{4093-the counsel for} counsel]_{4101-his counsel} , who now rose to speak for the defence . [Job Legh]_156-job looked about for [Mary]_145-mary , now [he]_156-job had gained , and given , some idea of the position of things . At last [he]_156-job saw [her]_145-mary , standing by [a decent - looking woman]_{4102-a decent - looking woman} , looking flushed and anxious , and moving [her]_145-mary lips incessantly , as if eagerly talking ; [her]_145-mary eyes never resting on any object , but wandering about as if in search of something . [Job]_156-job thought it was for [him]_156-job [she]_145-mary was seeking , and [he]_156-job struggled to get round to [her]_145-mary . When [he]_156-job had succeeded , [she]_145-mary took no notice of [him]_156-job , although [he]_156-job spoke to [her]_145-mary , but still kept looking round and round in the same wild , restless manner . [He]_156-job tried to hear the low quick mutterings of [her]_145-mary voice , as [he]_156-job caught the repetition of the same words over and over again . " [I]_145-mary must not go mad . [I]_145-mary must not , indeed . [They]_7500-they say [people]_4744-people tell the truth when [they]_4744-people 're mad ; but [I]_145-mary do n't . [I]_145-mary was always [a liar]_{3021-a liar} . [I]_145-mary was , indeed ; but [I]_145-mary 'm not mad . [I]_145-mary must not go mad . [I]_145-mary must not , indeed . "_[145-mary] Suddenly [she]_145-mary seemed to become aware how earnestly [Job]_156-job was listening ( with mournful attention ) to [her]_145-mary words , and turning sharp round upon [him]_156-job , with upbraiding for [his]_156-job eaves - dropping on [her]_145-mary lips , [she]_145-mary caught sight of something,--or some one,--who , even in that state , had power to arrest [her]_145-mary attention , and throwing up [her]_145-mary arms with wild energy , [she]_145-mary shrieked aloud , " Oh , [Jem]_154-jem ! [Jem]_154-jem ! [you]_154-jem 're saved ; and [I]_145-mary _ am _ mad-- "_[145-mary] and was instantly seized with convulsions . With much commiseration [she]_145-mary was taken out of [court]_4009-court , while the attention of [many]_1183-many was diverted from [her]_145-mary , by the fierce energy with which [a sailor]_{4970-a sailor} forced [his]_{4970-a sailor} way over rails and seats , against turnkeys and [policemen]_{6228-policemen} . [The officers of [the court]_{604-the court}]_{4001-the officers of the court} opposed this forcible manner of entrance , but [they]_{4001-the officers of the court} could hardly induce [the offender]_{4109-the offender} to adopt any quieter way of attaining [his]_{4109-the offender} object , and telling [his]_{4109-the offender} tale in the witness - box , the legitimate place . For [Will]_154-jem had dwelt so impatiently on the danger in which [his]_154-jem absence would place [[his]_154-jem cousin]_{6256-his cousin} , that even yet [he]_154-jem seemed to fear that [he]_154-jem might see [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} carried off , and hung , before [he]_154-jem could pour out the narrative which would exculpate [him]_154-jem . As for [Job Legh]_156-job , [his]_156-job feelings were all but uncontrollable ; as [you]_4112-you may judge by the indifference with which [he]_156-job saw [Mary]_145-mary borne , stiff and convulsed , out of [the court]_{604-the court} , in the charge of the kind [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , who , [you]_4112-you will remember , was [an utter stranger to [him]_156-job]_{4114-an utter stranger to him} . " [She]_145-mary 'll keep ! [I]_156-job 'll not trouble [myself]_156-job about [her]_145-mary , "_[156-job] said [he]_156-job to [himself]_156-job , as [he]_156-job wrote with trembling hands a little note of information to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , who had conjectured , when [Will]_154-jem had first disturbed the awful tranquillity of [the life - and - death court]_{4115-the life - and - death court} , that [the witness]_{4048-the witness} had arrived ( better late than never ) on whose evidence rested all the slight chance yet remaining to [Jem Wilson]_154-jem of escaping death . During the commotion in [the court]_{604-the court} , among all the cries and commands , the dismay and the directions , consequent upon [Will]_154-jem 's entrance , and poor [Mary]_145-mary 's fearful attack of illness , [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} had kept [his]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} lawyer - like presence of mind ; and long before [Job Legh]_156-job 's almost illegible note was poked at [him]_156-job , [he]_156-job had recapitulated the facts on which [Will]_154-jem had to give evidence , and the manner in which [he]_154-jem had been pursued , after [[his]_154-jem ship]_{5944-his ship} had taken [her]_145-mary leave of [the land]_{5552-the land} . [The barrister who defended [Jem]_154-jem]_{4120-the barrister who defended jem} took new heart when [he]_{4120-the barrister who defended jem} was put in possession of these striking points to be adduced , not so much out of earnestness to save [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} , of whose innocence [he]_{4120-the barrister who defended jem} was still doubtful , as because [he]_{4120-the barrister who defended jem} saw the opportunities for the display of forensic eloquence which were presented by the facts ; " a gallant tar brought back from [the pathless ocean]_{7503-the pathless ocean} by [a girl]_{577-a girl} 's noble daring , "_{[4120-the barrister who defended jem]} " the dangers of too hastily judging from circumstantial evidence , "_{[4120-the barrister who defended jem]} & amp;c . , & amp;c . while [the counsellor for the prosecution]_{4122-the counsellor for the prosecution} prepared [himself]_{4122-the counsellor for the prosecution} by folding [his]_{4122-the counsellor for the prosecution} arms , elevating [his]_{4122-the counsellor for the prosecution} eyebrows , and putting [his]_{4122-the counsellor for the prosecution} lips in the form in which [they]_4123-they might best whistle down the wind such evidence as might be produced by [a suborned witness]_{4124-a suborned witness} , who dared to perjure [himself]_{4124-a suborned witness} . For , of course , it is etiquette to suppose that such evidence as may be given against the opinion which [lawyers]_6988-lawyers are paid to uphold , is any thing but based on truth ; and " perjury , "_{[4124-a suborned witness]} " conspiracy , "_{[4124-a suborned witness]} and " peril of [your]_7505-your immortal soul , "_{[4124-a suborned witness]} are light expressions to throw at the heads of [those who may prove]_{4126-those who may prove} ( not [the speaker]_{6320-the speaker} , there would then be some excuse for the hasty words of personal anger , but ) [the hirer of [the speaker]_{6320-the speaker}]_{4128-the hirer of the speaker} to be wrong , or mistaken . But when once [Will]_154-jem had attained [his]_154-jem end , and felt that [his]_154-jem tale , or part of a tale , would be heard by [judge]_6225-judge and [jury]_3346-jury ; when once [he]_154-jem saw [Jem]_154-jem standing safe and well before [him]_154-jem ( even though [he]_154-jem saw [him]_154-jem pale and care - worn at [[the felon]_{4132-the felon} 's bar]_{4133-the felon 's bar} ) ; [his]_154-jem courage took the shape of presence of mind , and [he]_154-jem awaited the examination with a calm , unflinching intelligence , which dictated the clearest and most pertinent answers . [He]_154-jem told the story [you]_4134-you know so well : how [his]_154-jem leave of absence being nearly expired , [he]_154-jem had resolved to fulfil [his]_154-jem promise , and go to see [an uncle]_{4135-an uncle} residing in [the Isle of Man]_{97-the isle of man} ; how [his]_154-jem money ( [sailor]_4136-sailor - like ) was all expended in [Manchester]_1-manchester , and how , consequently , it had been necessary for [him]_154-jem to walk to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , which [he]_154-jem had accordingly done on the very night of the murder , accompanied as far as [Hollins Greeb]_{400-hollins greeb} by [[his]_154-jem friend]_{553-his friend} and cousin , [the prisoner at [the bar]_{4139-the bar}]_{3980-the prisoner at the bar} . [He]_154-jem was clear and distinct in every corroborative circumstance , and gave a short account of the singular way in which [he]_154-jem had been recalled from [his]_154-jem outward - bound voyage , and the terrible anxiety [he]_154-jem had felt , as [the pilot - boat]_{7287-the pilot - boat} had struggled [home]_4755-home against the wind . [The jury]_{6804-the jury} felt that [their]_{6804-the jury} opinion ( so nearly decided half an hour ago ) was shaken and disturbed in a very uncomfortable and perplexing way , and were almost grateful to [the counsel for the prosecution]_{4021-the counsel for the prosecution} , when [he]_154-jem got up , with a brow of thunder , to demolish the evidence , which was so bewildering when taken in connexion with every thing previously adduced . But if such , without looking to the consequences , was the first impulsive feeling of some among [the jury]_{6804-the jury} , how shall [I]_0-i describe the vehemence of passion which possessed the mind of [poor Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , as [he]_154-jem saw the effect of [the young sailor]_{5982-the young sailor} 's statement ? It never shook [his]_154-jem belief in [Jem]_154-jem 's guilt in the least , that attempt at an alibi ; [his]_154-jem hatred , [his]_154-jem longing for vengeance , having once defined an object to itself , could no more bear to be frustrated and disappointed than the beast of prey can submit to have [[his]_154-jem victim]_{6730-his victim} taken from [his]_154-jem hungry jaws . No more likeness to the calm stern power of [Jupiter]_395-jupiter was there in that white eager face , almost distorted by its fell anxiety of expression . [The counsel to whom etiquette assigned the cross - examination of [Will]_154-jem]_{4147-the counsel to whom etiquette assigned the cross - examination of will} , caught the look on [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's face , and in [his]_154-jem desire to further the intense wish there manifested , [he]_154-jem over - shot [his]_154-jem mark even in [his]_154-jem first insulting question : " And now , [[my]_154-jem man]_{2583-my man} , [you]_{2583-my man} 've told [the court]_{604-the court} a very good and very convincing story ; [no reasonable man]_{7508-no reasonable man} ought to doubt the unstained innocence of [your]_{2583-my man} relation at the bar . Still there is one circumstance [you]_{2583-my man} have forgotten to name ; and [I]_154-jem feel that without it [your]_{2583-my man} evidence is rather incomplete . Will [you]_{2583-my man} have the kindness to inform [the gentlemen of the jury]_{7509-the gentlemen of the jury} what has been [your]_{2583-my man} charge for repeating this very plausible story ? How much good coin of [[Her]_7510-her Majesty]_{7511-her majesty} 's realm have [you]_{2583-my man} received , or are [you]_{2583-my man} to receive , for walking up from [the docks]_{5006-the docks} , or [some less creditable place]_{7513-some less creditable place} , and uttering the tale [you]_{2583-my man} have just now repeated,--very much to the credit of [[your]_{2583-my man} instructor]_{7514-your instructor} , [I]_154-jem must say ? Remember , [sir]_5232-sir , [you]_5232-sir are upon oath . "_[154-jem] It took [Will]_154-jem a minute to extract the meaning from the garb of unaccustomed words in which it was invested , and during this time [he]_154-jem looked a little confused . But the instant the truth flashed upon [him]_154-jem , [he]_154-jem fixed [his]_154-jem bright clear eyes , flaming with indignation , upon [the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} . Then , and not till then , [Will]_154-jem made answer . " Will [you]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} tell [the judge and jury]_{7516-the judge and jury} how much money [you]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} 've been paid for [your]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} impudence towards one who has told [God]_224-god 's blessed truth , and who would scorn to tell a lie , or blackguard any one , for the biggest fee as [ever lawyer]_{7517-ever lawyer} got for doing dirty work ? Will [you]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} tell , [sir?--]_7518-sir?-- But [I]_154-jem 'm ready , [[my]_154-jem lord judge]_{7458-my lord judge} , to take [my]_154-jem oath as many times as [[your]_{4148-the counsellor , whose look fell at last before that stern unflinching gaze} lordship]_{7520-your lordship} or [the jury]_{6804-the jury} would like , to testify to things having happened just as [I]_154-jem said . There 's [O'Brien]_7522-o'brien , [the pilot]_{7290-the pilot} , in [court]_4009-court now . Would [somebody with a wig on please]_{7525-somebody with a wig on please} to ask [him]_7522-o'brien how much [he]_7522-o'brien can say for [me]_154-jem ? "_[154-jem] It was a good idea , and caught at by [the counsel for the defence]_{4149-the counsel for the defence} . [O'Brien]_401-o'brien gave just such testimony as was required to clear [Will]_154-jem from all suspicion . [He]_401-o'brien had witnessed the pursuit , [he]_401-o'brien had heard the conversation which took place between [the boat]_{3670-the boat} and [the ship]_{5017-the ship} ; [he]_401-o'brien had given [Will]_154-jem a homeward passage in [[his]_401-o'brien boat]_{4152-his boat} . And the character of [an accredited pilot]_{4153-an accredited pilot} , appointed by [Trinity House]_{115-trinity house} , was known to be above suspicion . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} sank back on [his]_{209-mr. carson} seat in sickening despair . [He]_{209-mr. carson} knew enough of [courts]_4154-courts to be aware of the extreme unwillingness of [juries]_7158-juries to convict , even where the evidence is most clear , when the penalty of such conviction is death . At the period of the trial most condemnatory to [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} had repeated this fact to [himself]_{209-mr. carson} in order to damp [his]_{209-mr. carson} too certain expectation of a conviction . Now it needed not repetition , for it forced itself upon [his]_{209-mr. carson} consciousness , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} seemed to _ know _ , even before [the jury]_{6804-the jury} retired to consult , that by some trick , some negligence , some miserable hocus - pocus , [the murderer of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} child]_{6731-his child} , [[his]_{209-mr. carson} darling]_{1455-his darling} , [his]_{209-mr. carson} Absalom , who had never rebelled,--the slayer of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} unburied boy]_{4161-his unburied boy}]_{4158-the murderer of his child , his darling , his absalom , who had never rebelled,--the slayer of his unburied boy} would slip through the fangs of justice , and walk free and unscathed over [that earth]_{4162-that earth} where [[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} would never more be seen . It was even so . [The prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} hid [his]_{7362-the prisoner} face once more to shield the expression of an emotion [he]_{7362-the prisoner} could not control , from the notice of the over - curious ; [Job Legh]_156-job ceased [his]_156-job eager talking to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} ; [Charley]_369-charley looked grave and earnest ; for [the jury]_{6804-the jury} filed one by one back into [their]_{6804-the jury} box , and the question was asked to which such an awful answer might be given . The verdict [they]_{6804-the jury} had come to was unsatisfactory to [themselves]_{6804-the jury} at last ; neither being convinced of [his]_{7362-the prisoner} innocence , nor yet quite willing to believe [him]_{7362-the prisoner} guilty in the teeth of the alibi . But the punishment that awaited [him]_{7362-the prisoner} , if guilty , was so terrible , and so unnatural a sentence for [man]_5236-man to pronounce on [man]_5236-man , that the knowledge of it had weighed down the scale on the side of innocence , and " Not Guilty "_{[4168-the breathless court]} was the verdict that thrilled through [the breathless court]_{4168-the breathless court} . One moment of silence , and then the murmurs rose , as the verdict was discussed by [all]_4906-all with lowered voice . [Jem]_154-jem stood motionless , [his]_154-jem head bowed ; [poor fellow]_{4959-poor fellow} , [he]_154-jem was stunned with the rapid career of events during the last few hours . [He]_154-jem had assumed [his]_154-jem place at the bar with little or no expectation of an acquittal ; and with scarcely any desire for life , in the complication of occurrences tending to strengthen the idea of [Mary]_145-mary 's more than indifference to [him]_154-jem ; [she]_145-mary had loved [another]_1526-another , and in [her]_145-mary mind [Jem]_154-jem believed that [he]_154-jem [himself]_154-jem must be regarded as [the murderer of [him]_154-jem [she]_145-mary loved]_{3974-the murderer of him she loved} . And suddenly , athwart this gloom which made life seem such a blank expanse of desolation , there flashed the exquisite delight of hearing [Mary]_145-mary 's avowal of love , making the future all glorious , if a future in [this world]_{6789-this world} [he]_154-jem might hope to have . [He]_154-jem could not dwell on any thing but [her]_145-mary words , telling of [her]_145-mary passionate love ; all else was indistinct , nor could [he]_154-jem strive to make it otherwise . [She]_145-mary loved [him]_154-jem . And Life , now full of tender images , suddenly bright with all exquisite promises , hung on a breath , the slenderest gossamer chance . [He]_154-jem tried to think that the knowledge of [her]_145-mary love would soothe [him]_154-jem even in [his]_154-jem dying hours ; but the phantoms of what life with [her]_145-mary might be , would obtrude , and made [him]_154-jem almost gasp and reel under the uncertainty [he]_154-jem was enduring . [Will]_154-jem 's appearance had only added to the intensity of this suspense . The full meaning of the verdict could not at once penetrate [his]_154-jem brain . [He]_154-jem stood dizzy and motionless . [Some one]_{5544-some one} pulled [his]_154-jem coat . [He]_154-jem turned , and saw [Job Legh]_156-job , the tears stealing down [his]_156-job brown furrowed cheeks , while [he]_156-job tried in vain to command voice enough to speak . [He]_156-job kept shaking [Jem]_154-jem by the hand as the best and necessary expression of [his]_156-job feeling . " Here ! make [yourself]_154-jem scarce ! [I]_156-job should think [you]_154-jem 'd be glad to get out of that ! "_[156-job] exclaimed [the gaoler]_{4175-the gaoler} , as [he]_156-job brought up [another livid prisoner]_{4176-another livid prisoner} , from out whose eyes came the anxiety which [he]_156-job would not allow any other feature to display . [Job Legh]_156-job pressed out of [court]_4009-court , and [Jem]_154-jem followed unreasoningly . [The crowd]_{1141-the crowd} made way , and kept [their]_{1141-the crowd} garments tight about [them]_{1141-the crowd} , as [Jem]_154-jem passed , for about [him]_154-jem there still hung the taint of [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . [He]_154-jem was in the open air , and free once more ! Although [many]_1183-many looked on [him]_154-jem with suspicion , [faithful friends]_{4181-faithful friends} closed round [him]_154-jem ; [his]_154-jem arm was unresistingly pumped up and down by [[his]_154-jem cousin]_{6256-his cousin} and [Job]_156-job ; when [one]_518-one was tired , [the other]_{1048-the other} took up the wholesome exercise , while [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} was working off [his]_{392-ben sturgis} interest in the scene by scolding [Charley]_369-charley for walking on [his]_{392-ben sturgis} head round and round [[Mary]_145-mary 's sweetheart]_{4185-mary 's sweetheart} , for [a sweetheart [he]_154-jem was now satisfactorily ascertained to be]_{4186-a sweetheart he was now satisfactorily ascertained to be} , in spite of [her]_{4185-mary 's sweetheart} assertion to the contrary . And all this time [Jem]_154-jem [himself]_154-jem felt bewildered and dazzled ; [he]_154-jem would have given any thing for an hour 's uninterrupted thought on the occurrences of the past week , and the new visions raised up during the morning ; aye , even though that tranquil hour were to be passed in the hermitage of [[his]_154-jem quiet prison cell]_{4187-his quiet prison cell} . The first question sobbed out by [his]_154-jem choking voice , oppressed with emotion , was , " Where is [she]_{787-his mother} ? "_[4188-they] [They]_4188-they led [him]_154-jem to [the room where [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} sat]_{4189-the room where his mother sat} . [They]_4188-they had told [her]_{787-his mother} of [[her]_{787-his mother} son]_{2056-her son} 's acquittal , and now [she]_{787-his mother} was laughing , and crying , and talking , and giving way to all those feelings which [she]_{787-his mother} had restrained with such effort during the last few days . [They]_4188-they brought [[her]_{787-his mother} son]_{2056-her son} to [her]_{787-his mother} , and [she]_{787-his mother} threw [herself]_{787-his mother} upon [his]_154-jem neck , weeping there . [He]_154-jem returned [her]_{787-his mother} embrace , but looked around , beyond . Excepting [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} there was [no one]_{1202-no one} in [the room]_{616-the room} but [the friends who had entered with [him]_154-jem]_{4196-the friends who had entered with him} . " Eh , [lad]_1512-lad ! "_{[787-his mother]} said [she]_{787-his mother} , when [she]_{787-his mother} found voice to speak . " See what it is to have behaved [thysel]_1512-lad ! [I]_{787-his mother} could put in a good word for [thee]_1512-lad , and [the jury]_{6804-the jury} could na go and hang [thee]_1512-lad in the face of th ' character [I]_{787-his mother} gave [thee]_1512-lad . Was na it a good thing [they]_{6804-the jury} did na keep [me]_{787-his mother} from [Liverpool]_17-liverpool ? But [I]_{787-his mother} would come ; [I]_{787-his mother} knew [I]_{787-his mother} could do [thee]_1512-lad good , bless [thee]_1512-lad , [[my]_{787-his mother} lad]_{1544-my lad} . But thou'rt very white , and all of a tremble . "_{[787-his mother]} [He]_4197-he kissed [her]_{787-his mother} again and again , but looking round as if searching for some one [he]_4197-he could not find , the first words [he]_4197-he uttered were still , " Where is [she]_{787-his mother} ? "_[4197-he] CHAPTER XXXIII . REQUIESCAT IN PACE . " Fear no more the heat o ' th ' sun , Nor the furious winter 's rages ; [Thou]_1512-lad [thy]_1512-lad worldly task hast done , Home art gone and ta'en [thy]_1512-lad wages . "_[4197-he] [CYMBELINE]_{116-cymbeline} . " While day and night can bring delight , Or nature aught of pleasure give ; While joys above [my]_4197-he mind can move For [thee]_1512-lad , and [thee]_1512-lad alone [I]_4197-he live : "_[4197-he] When that grim foe of joy below Comes in between to make [us]_4198-us part , The iron hand that breaks [our]_4198-us band , It breaks [my]_0-i bliss -- it breaks [my]_0-i heart . " BURNS . [She]_{787-his mother} was where no words of peace , no soothing hopeful tidings could reach [her]_{787-his mother} ; in the ghastly spectral world of delirium . Hour after hour , day after day , [she]_{787-his mother} started up with passionate cries on [[her]_{787-his mother} father]_{564-her father} to save [Jem]_154-jem ; or rose wildly , imploring the winds and waves , the pitiless winds and waves , to have mercy ; and over and over again [she]_{787-his mother} exhausted [her]_{787-his mother} feverish fitful strength in these agonised entreaties , and fell back powerless , uttering only the wailing moans of despair . [They]_7530-they told [her]_{787-his mother} [Jem]_154-jem was safe , [they]_7530-they brought [him]_154-jem before [her]_{787-his mother} eyes ; but sight and hearing were no longer channels of information to that poor distracted brain , nor could human voice penetrate to [her]_{787-his mother} understanding . [Jem]_154-jem alone gathered the full meaning of some of [her]_{787-his mother} strange sentences , and perceived that by some means or other [she]_{787-his mother} , like [himself]_154-jem , had divined the truth of [[her]_{787-his mother} father]_{564-her father} being [the murderer]_{6654-the murderer} . Long ago ( reckoning time by events and thoughts , and not by clock or dial - plate ) , [Jem]_154-jem had felt certain that [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} was [[Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's murderer]_{7534-harry carson 's murderer} ; and although the motive was in some measure a mystery , yet a whole train of circumstances ( the principal of which was that [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had borrowed the fatal gun only two days before ) had left no doubt in [Jem]_154-jem 's mind . Sometimes [he]_154-jem thought that [John]_{131-john barton} had discovered , and thus bloodily resented , the attentions which [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had paid to [[his]_{209-mr. carson} daughter]_{724-his daughter} ; at others , [he]_154-jem believed the motive to exist in the bitter feuds between [the masters]_{489-the masters} and [[their]_{489-the masters} work - people]_{6205-their work - people} , in which [Barton]_{131-john barton} was known to take so keen an interest . But if [he]_154-jem had felt [himself]_154-jem pledged to preserve this secret , even when [his]_154-jem own life was the probable penalty , and [he]_154-jem believed [he]_154-jem should fall , execrated by [Mary]_145-mary as [the guilty destroyer of [[her]_145-mary lover]_{2048-her lover}]_{7538-the guilty destroyer of her lover} , how much more was [he]_154-jem bound now to labour to prevent any word of [hers]_145-mary from inculpating [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , now that [she]_145-mary was [his]_154-jem own ; now that [she]_145-mary had braved so much to rescue [him]_154-jem ; and now that [her]_145-mary poor brain had lost all guiding and controlling power over [her]_145-mary words . All that night long [Jem]_154-jem wandered up and down [the narrow precincts of [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} 's house]_{7541-the narrow precincts of ben sturgis 's house} . In [the little bed - room where [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} alternately tended [Mary]_145-mary]_{7542-the little bed - room where mrs. sturgis alternately tended mary} , and wept over the violence of [her]_145-mary illness , [he]_154-jem listened to [her]_145-mary ravings ; each sentence of which had its own peculiar meaning and reference , intelligible to [his]_154-jem mind , till [her]_145-mary words rose to the wild pitch of agony , that [no one]_{1202-no one} could alleviate , and [he]_154-jem could bear it no longer , and stole , sick and miserable down [stairs]_4740-stairs , where [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} thought it [his]_{392-ben sturgis} duty to snore away in an arm - chair instead of [his]_{392-ben sturgis} bed , under the idea that [he]_{392-ben sturgis} should thus be more ready for active service , such as fetching [the doctor]_{684-the doctor} to revisit [[his]_{392-ben sturgis} patient]_{7546-his patient} . Before it was fairly light , [Jem]_154-jem ( wide - awake , and listening with an earnest attention [he]_154-jem could not deaden , however painful its results proved ) heard a gentle subdued knock at the house door ; it was no business of [his]_154-jem , to be sure , to open it , but as [Ben]_{392-ben sturgis} slept on , [he]_154-jem thought [he]_154-jem would see who [the early visitor]_{7547-the early visitor} might be , and ascertain if there was any occasion for disturbing either [host]_5980-host or [hostess]_953-hostess . It was [Job Legh]_156-job who stood there , distinct against the outer light of [the street]_{4821-the street} . "_[4197-he] How is [she]_4199-she ? Eh ! poor soul ! is that [her]_4199-she ! no need to ask ! How strange [her]_4199-she voice sounds ! Screech ! screech ! and [she]_4199-she so low , sweet - spoken , when [she]_4199-she 's well ! [Thou]_4200-thou must keep up heart , [old boy]_{4201-old boy} , and not look so dismal , [thysel]_{4201-old boy} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ca n't help [it]_4202-it , [Job]_156-job ; it 's past [a man]_{4855-a man} 's bearing to hear such a one as [she]_4199-she is , going on as [she]_4199-she is doing ; even if [I]_0-i did not care for [her]_4199-she , it would cut [me]_0-i sore to see one so young , and -- [I]_0-i ca n't speak of it , [Job]_156-job , as [a man]_{4855-a man} should do , " said [Jem]_154-jem , [his]_154-jem sobs choking [him]_154-jem . "_[0-i] Let [me]_0-i in , will [you]_0-i ? " said [Job]_156-job , pushing past [him]_154-jem , for all this time [Jem]_154-jem had stood holding the door , unwilling to admit [Job]_156-job where [he]_154-jem might hear so much that would be suggestive to one acquainted with [the parties that [Mary]_145-mary named]_{7551-the parties that mary named} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'd more than one reason for coming betimes . [I]_0-i wanted to hear how [yon poor wench]_{4205-yon poor wench} was;--that stood first . Late last night [I]_0-i got a letter from [Margaret]_157-margaret , very anxious - like . [The doctor]_{684-the doctor} says [the old lady]_{4207-the old lady} yonder ca n't last many days longer , and it seems so lonesome for [her]_{4207-the old lady} to die with [no one]_{1202-no one} but [Margaret]_157-margaret and [Mrs. Davenport]_{219-mrs. davenport} about [her]_{4207-the old lady} . So [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd just come and stay with [Mary Barton]_145-mary , and see as [she]_145-mary 's well done to , and [you]_4209-you and [[your]_4209-you mother]_{4848-your mother} and Will go and take leave of [old Alice]_{393-aunt alice} . " [Jem]_154-jem 's countenance , sad at best just now , fell lower and lower . But [Job]_156-job went on with [his]_156-job speech . "_{[393-aunt alice]} [She]_{393-aunt alice} still wanders , [Margaret]_157-margaret says , and thinks [she]_{393-aunt alice} 's with [[her]_{393-aunt alice} mother]_{4774-her mother} at [home]_4755-home ; but for all that , [she]_{393-aunt alice} should have some kith and kin near [her]_{393-aunt alice} to close [her]_{393-aunt alice} eyes , to [my]_0-i thinking . " "_{[393-aunt alice]} Could not [you]_4209-you and Will take [mother]_4845-mother [home]_4755-home ? [I]_0-i 'd follow when-- " [Jem]_154-jem faltered out thus far , when [Job]_156-job interrupted , "_[1512-lad] [Lad]_1512-lad ! if [thou]_4216-thou knew what [[thy]_1512-lad mother]_{6896-thy mother} has suffered for [thee]_1512-lad , thou'd not speak of leaving [her]_{6896-thy mother} just when [she]_{6896-thy mother} 's got [thee]_1512-lad from the grave as it were . Why , this very night [she]_{6896-thy mother} roused [me]_0-i up , and ' [Job]_156-job , ' says [she]_{6896-thy mother} , ' [I]_0-i ask [your]_1512-lad pardon for wakening [you]_1512-lad , but tell [me]_0-i , am [I]_0-i awake or dreaming ? Is [Jem]_154-jem proved innocent ? Oh , [Job Legh]_156-job ! [God]_4218-god send [I]_0-i 've not been only dreaming it ! ' For [thou]_4216-thou see'st [she]_{6896-thy mother} ca n't rightly understand why thou'rt with [Mary]_145-mary , and not with [her]_145-mary . Ay , ay ! [I]_0-i know why ; but [a mother]_{883-a mother} only gives up [[her]_{883-a mother} son]_{2056-her son} 's heart inch by inch to [[his]_{2056-her son} wife]_{525-his wife} , and then [she]_{883-a mother} gives it up with a grudge . No , [Jem]_154-jem ! [thou]_4216-thou must go with [[thy]_4216-thou mother]_{6896-thy mother} just now , if ever [thou]_4216-thou hopest for [God]_224-god 's blessing . [She]_{6896-thy mother} 's [a widow]_{5890-a widow} , and has none but [thee]_4216-thou . Never fear for [Mary]_145-mary ! [She]_145-mary 's young and will struggle through . [They]_4224-they are [decent people]_{4225-decent people} , [these folk [she]_145-mary is with]_{4226-these folk she is with} , and [I]_0-i 'll watch o'er [her]_145-mary as though [she]_145-mary was [[my]_0-i own poor girl]_{4227-my own poor girl} , that lies cold enough in [London - town]_28-london . [I]_0-i grant [ye]_4216-thou , it 's hard enough for [her]_145-mary to be left among [strangers]_{1301-strangers} . To [my]_0-i mind [John Barton]_{131-john barton} would be more in the way of [his]_{131-john barton} duty , looking after [[his]_{131-john barton} daughter]_{724-his daughter} , than delegating it up and down [the country]_{422-the country} , looking after [every one]_{669-every one} 's business but [his]_{131-john barton} own . " A new idea and a new fear came into [Jem]_154-jem 's mind . What if [Mary]_145-mary should implicate [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} ? "_[145-mary] [She]_145-mary raves terribly , " said [he]_154-jem . "_[145-mary] All night long [she]_145-mary 's been speaking of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , and mixing up thoughts of [him]_{564-her father} with the trial [she]_145-mary saw yesterday . [I]_0-i should not wonder if [she]_145-mary 'll speak of [him]_{564-her father} as being in court next thing . " "_[145-mary] [I]_0-i should na wonder , either , " answered [Job]_156-job . "_[145-mary] [Folk in [her]_145-mary way]_{4233-folk in her way} say many and many a strange thing ; and th ' best way is never to mind [them]_{4233-folk in her way} . Now [you]_4234-you take [[your]_4234-you mother]_{4848-your mother} [home]_4755-home , [Jem]_154-jem , and stay by [her]_{4848-your mother} till [old Alice]_{393-aunt alice} is gone , and trust [me]_0-i for seeing after [Mary]_145-mary . " [Jem]_154-jem felt how right [Job]_156-job was , and could not resist what [he]_154-jem knew to be [his]_154-jem duty , but [I]_154-jem can not tell [you]_4234-you how heavy and sick at heart [he]_154-jem was as [he]_154-jem stood at the door to take a last fond , lingering look at [Mary]_145-mary . [He]_154-jem saw [her]_{4848-your mother} sitting up in bed , [her]_{4848-your mother} golden hair , dimmed with [her]_{4848-your mother} one day 's illness , floating behind [her]_{4848-your mother} , [her]_{4848-your mother} head bound round with wetted cloths , [her]_{4848-your mother} features all agitated , even to distortion , with the pangs of [her]_{4848-your mother} anxiety . [[Her]_{4848-your mother} lover]_{2048-her lover} 's eyes filled with tears . [He]_154-jem could not hope . The elasticity of [his]_154-jem heart had been crushed out of [him]_154-jem by early sorrows ; and now , especially , the dark side of every thing seemed to be presented to [him]_154-jem . What if [she]_{4848-your mother} died , just when [he]_154-jem knew the treasure , the untold treasure [he]_154-jem possessed in [her]_{4848-your mother} love ! What if ( worse than death ) [she]_{4848-your mother} remained [a poor gibbering maniac]_{7554-a poor gibbering maniac} all [her]_{4848-your mother} life long ( and [mad people]_{7555-mad people} do live to be old sometimes , even under all the pressure of [their]_{7555-mad people} burden ) , terror - distracted as [she]_{4848-your mother} was now , and [no one]_{1202-no one} able to comfort [her]_{4848-your mother} ! "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! " said [Job]_156-job , partly guessing the other 's feelings by [his]_156-job own . "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! " repeated [he]_156-job , arresting [his]_156-job attention before [he]_156-job spoke . [Jem]_154-jem turned round , the little motion causing the tears to overflow and trickle down [his]_154-jem cheeks . "_[154-jem] [Thou]_4237-thou must trust in [God]_224-god , and leave [her]_4238-her in [His]_224-god hands . " [He]_156-job spoke hushed , and low ; but the words sank all the more into [Jem]_154-jem 's heart , and gave [him]_154-jem strength to tear [himself]_154-jem away . [He]_154-jem found [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} ( notwithstanding that [she]_{787-his mother} had but just regained [[her]_{787-his mother} child]_{1391-her child} through [Mary]_145-mary 's instrumentality ) half inclined to resent [his]_154-jem having passed the night in anxious devotion to [the poor invalid]_{7559-the poor invalid} . [She]_{787-his mother} dwelt on the duties of [children]_{4826-children} to [[their]_{4826-children} parents]_{5309-their parents} ( above all others ) , till [Jem]_154-jem could hardly believe the relative positions [they]_7562-they had held only yesterday , when [she]_{787-his mother} was struggling with and controlling every instinct of [her]_{787-his mother} nature , only because _ [he]_154-jem _ wished it . However , the recollection of that yesterday , with its hair 's breadth between [him]_154-jem and [a felon]_{7563-a felon} 's death , and the love that had lightened the dark shadow , made [him]_154-jem bear with the meekness and patience of [a true - hearted man]_{7564-a true - hearted man} all the worrying little acerbities of to - day ; and [he]_154-jem had no small merit in so doing ; for in [him]_154-jem , as in [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} , the re - action after intense excitement had produced its usual effect in increased irritability of the nervous system . [They]_7562-they found [Alice]_{393-aunt alice} alive , and without pain . And that was all . [A child of a few weeks old]_{7566-a child of a few weeks old} would have had more bodily strength ; [a child of a very few months old]_{7567-a child of a very few months old} , more consciousness of what was passing before [her]_{393-aunt alice} . But even in this state [she]_{393-aunt alice} diffused an atmosphere of peace around [her]_{393-aunt alice} . True , [Will]_154-jem , at first , wept passionate tears at the sight of [her]_{393-aunt alice} , who had been as a mother to [him]_154-jem , so standing on the confines of life . But even now , as always , loud passionate feeling could not long endure in the calm of [her]_{393-aunt alice} presence . The firm faith which [her]_{393-aunt alice} mind had no longer power to grasp , had left its trail of glory ; for by no other word can [I]_4237-thou call the bright happy look which illumined [the old earth - worn face]_{7568-the old earth - worn face} . [Her]_{393-aunt alice} talk , it is true , bore no more that constant earnest reference to [God]_224-god and [His]_224-god holy Word which [it]_7569-it had done in health , and there were no death - bed words of exhortation from the lips of [one so habitually pious]_{7570-one so habitually pious} . For still [she]_{393-aunt alice} imagined [herself]_{393-aunt alice} once again in the happy , happy realms of childhood ; and again dwelling in [the lovely northern haunts where [she]_{393-aunt alice} had so often longed to be]_{7571-the lovely northern haunts where she had so often longed to be} . Though earthly sight was gone away , [she]_{393-aunt alice} beheld again the scenes [she]_{393-aunt alice} had loved from long years ago ! [she]_{393-aunt alice} saw them without a change to dim the old radiant hues . [The long dead]_{7572-the long dead} were with [her]_{393-aunt alice} , fresh and blooming as in those bygone days . And death came to [her]_{393-aunt alice} as a welcome blessing , like as evening comes to [the weary child]_{7573-the weary child} . [Her]_{393-aunt alice} work [here]_5235-here was finished , and faithfully done . What better sentence can [an emperor]_{7575-an emperor} wish to have said over [his]_{7575-an emperor} bier ? In second childhood ( that blessing clouded by a name ) , [she]_{393-aunt alice} said [her]_{393-aunt alice} "_[4237-thou] Nunc Dimittis,"--the sweetest canticle to the holy . "_[161-mother] [Mother]_161-mother , good night ! [Dear mother]_{4239-dear mother} ! bless [me]_0-i once more ! [I]_0-i 'm very tired , and would fain go to sleep . " [She]_{393-aunt alice} never spoke again on this side Heaven . [She]_{393-aunt alice} died the day after [their]_7576-their return from [Liverpool]_17-liverpool . From that time , [Jem]_154-jem became aware that [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} was jealously watching for some word or sign which should betoken [his]_154-jem wish to return to [Mary]_145-mary . And yet go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool [he]_154-jem must and would , as soon as the funeral was over , if but for a single glimpse of [[his]_154-jem darling]_{1455-his darling} . For [Job]_156-job had never written ; indeed , any necessity for [his]_154-jem so doing had never entered [his]_154-jem head . If [Mary]_145-mary died , [he]_154-jem would announce it personally ; if [she]_145-mary recovered , [he]_154-jem meant to bring [her]_145-mary [home]_4755-home with [him]_154-jem . Writing was to [him]_154-jem little more than an auxiliary to natural history ; a way of ticketing specimens , not of expressing thoughts . The consequence of this want of intelligence as to [Mary]_145-mary 's state was , that [Jem]_154-jem was constantly anticipating that [every person and every scrap of paper]_{7580-every person and every scrap of paper} was to convey to [him]_154-jem the news of [her]_145-mary death . [He]_154-jem could not endure this state long ; but [he]_154-jem resolved not to disturb [the house]_{803-the house} by announcing to [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} [his]_154-jem purposed intention of returning to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , until the dead had been carried forth . On Sunday afternoon [they]_7583-they laid [her]_145-mary low with many tears . [Will]_154-jem wept as one who would not be comforted . The old childish feeling came over [him]_154-jem , the feeling of loneliness at being left among [strangers]_{1301-strangers} . By and bye , [Margaret]_157-margaret timidly stole near [him]_154-jem , as if waiting to console ; and soon [his]_154-jem passion sank down to grief , and grief gave way to melancholy , and though [he]_154-jem felt as if [he]_154-jem never could be joyful again , [he]_154-jem was all the while unconsciously approaching nearer to the full happiness of calling [Margaret]_157-margaret [his]_154-jem own , and a golden thread was interwoven even now with the darkness of [his]_154-jem sorrow . Yet it was on [his]_154-jem arm that [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} leant on [her]_{130-jane wilson} return homewards . [Jem]_154-jem took charge of [Margaret]_157-margaret . "_{[157-margaret]} [Margaret]_157-margaret , [I]_0-i 'm bound for [Liverpool]_17-liverpool by [the first train]_{4240-the first train} to - morrow ; [I]_0-i must set [[your]_157-margaret grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} at liberty . " "_{[5001-your grandfather]} [I]_0-i 'm sure [he]_{5001-your grandfather} likes nothing better than watching over poor [Mary]_145-mary ; [he]_{5001-your grandfather} loves [her]_145-mary nearly as well as [me]_0-i . But let [me]_0-i go ! [I]_0-i have been so full of [poor Alice]_{393-aunt alice} , [I]_0-i 've never thought of it before ; [I]_0-i ca n't do so much as many a one , but [Mary]_145-mary will like to have [a woman about [her]_145-mary that [she]_145-mary knows]_{4242-a woman about her that she knows} . [I]_0-i 'm sorry [I]_0-i waited to be reminded , [Jem]_154-jem . " replied [Margaret]_157-margaret , with some little self - reproach . But [Margaret]_157-margaret 's proposition did not at all agree with [[her]_157-margaret companion]_{7585-her companion} 's wishes . [He]_0-i found [he]_0-i had better speak out , and put [his]_0-i intention at once to the right motive ; the subterfuge about setting Job Legh at liberty had done [him]_0-i harm instead of good . "_[154-jem] To tell truth , [Margaret]_157-margaret , it 's [I]_0-i that must go , and that for [my]_0-i own sake , not [[your]_157-margaret grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} 's . [I]_0-i can rest neither by night nor day for thinking on [Mary]_145-mary . Whether [she]_145-mary lives or dies [I]_0-i look on [her]_145-mary as [[my]_0-i wife]_{4735-my wife} before [God]_224-god , as surely and solemnly as if [we]_4245-we were married . So being , [I]_0-i have the greatest right to look after [her]_145-mary , and [I]_0-i can not yield it even to-- " "_{[564-her father]} [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , " said [Margaret]_157-margaret , finishing [his]_0-i interrupted sentence . "_{[564-her father]} It seems strange that [a girl like [her]_145-mary]_{2741-a girl like her} should be thrown on [the bare world]_{4248-the bare world} to struggle through so bad an illness . [No one]_{1202-no one} seems to know where [John Barton]_{131-john barton} is , else [I]_0-i thought of getting [Morris]_402-morris to write [him]_402-morris a letter telling [him]_402-morris about [Mary]_145-mary . [I]_0-i wish [he]_402-morris was [home]_4755-home , that [I]_0-i do ! " [Jem]_154-jem could not echo this wish . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary 's not bad off for [friends]_4851-friends where [she]_145-mary is , " said [he]_0-i . "_[145-mary] [I]_0-i call [them]_4851-friends [friends]_4851-friends , though a week ago [we]_4253-we none of [us]_4253-we knew there were [such folks in [the world]_{1479-the world}]_{4254-such folks in the world} . But being anxious and sorrowful about the same thing makes [people friends]_{4256-people friends} quicker than any thing , [I]_0-i think . [She]_145-mary 's like [a mother]_{883-a mother} to [Mary]_145-mary in [her]_145-mary ways ; and [he]_4258-he bears a good character , as far as [I]_0-i could learn just in that hurry . [We]_4253-we 're drawing near [home]_4755-home , and [I]_0-i 've not said [my]_0-i say , [Margaret]_157-margaret . [I]_0-i want [you]_157-margaret to look after [mother]_4845-mother a bit . [She]_4845-mother 'll not like [my]_0-i going , and [I]_0-i 've got to break it to [her]_4845-mother yet . If [she]_4845-mother takes it very badly , [I]_0-i 'll come back to - morrow night ; but if [she]_4845-mother 's not against it very much , [I]_0-i mean to stay till it 's settled about [Mary]_145-mary , one way or the other . [Will]_154-jem , [you]_157-margaret know , will be [there]_873-there , [Margaret]_157-margaret , to help a bit in doing for [mother]_4845-mother . " [Will]_154-jem 's being there made the only objection [Margaret]_157-margaret saw to this plan . [She]_157-margaret disliked the idea of seeming to throw [herself]_157-margaret in [his]_154-jem way ; and yet [she]_157-margaret did not like to say any thing of this feeling to [Jem]_154-jem , who had all along seemed perfectly unconscious of any love - affair , besides [his]_154-jem own , in progress . So [Margaret]_157-margaret gave a reluctant consent . "_[154-jem] If [you]_154-jem can just step up to [[our]_4263-our house]_{4767-our house} to - night , [Jem]_154-jem , [I]_0-i 'll put up a few things as may be useful to [Mary]_145-mary , and then [you]_154-jem can say when [you]_154-jem 'll likely be back . If [you]_154-jem come [home]_4755-home to - morrow night , and [Will]_154-jem 's [there]_873-there , perhaps [I]_0-i need not step up ? " "_{[157-margaret]} Yes , [Margaret]_157-margaret , do ! [I]_0-i sha n't leave easy unless [you]_154-jem go some time in the day to see [mother]_4845-mother . [I]_0-i 'll come to - night , though ; and now good - bye . Stay ! do [you]_154-jem think [you]_154-jem could just coax poor [Will]_154-jem to walk a bit [home]_4755-home with [you]_154-jem , that [I]_0-i might speak to [mother]_4845-mother by [myself]_0-i ? " No ! that [Margaret]_157-margaret could not do . That was expecting too great a sacrifice of bashful feeling . But the object was accomplished by [Will]_154-jem 's going up - [stairs]_4740-stairs immediately on [their]_7587-their return to [the house]_{803-the house} , to indulge [his]_154-jem mournful thoughts alone . As soon as [Jem]_154-jem and [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} were left by [themselves]_7587-their , [he]_154-jem began on the subject uppermost in [his]_154-jem mind . "_{[4845-mother]} [Mother]_4845-mother ! " [She]_157-margaret put [her]_157-margaret handkerchief from [her]_157-margaret eyes , and turned quickly round so as to face [him]_154-jem where [he]_154-jem stood , thinking what best to say . The little action annoyed [him]_154-jem , and [he]_154-jem rushed at once into the subject . "_{[4845-mother]} [Mother]_4845-mother ! [I]_0-i am going back to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool to - morrow morning to see how [Mary Barton]_145-mary is . " "_[145-mary] And what 's [Mary Barton]_145-mary to [thee]_0-i , that [thou]_4272-thou shouldst be running after [her]_145-mary in that - a - way ? " "_[145-mary] If [she]_145-mary lives , [she]_145-mary shall be [[my]_0-i wedded wife]_{4273-my wedded wife} . If [she]_145-mary dies -- [mother]_4845-mother , [I]_0-i ca n't speak of what [I]_0-i shall feel if [she]_145-mary dies . " [His]_154-jem voice was choked in [his]_154-jem throat . For an instant [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} was interested by [his]_154-jem words ; and then came back the old jealousy of being supplanted in the affections of [that son]_{7591-that son} , who had been , as it were , newly born to [her]_{787-his mother} , by the escape [he]_154-jem had so lately experienced from danger . So [she]_{787-his mother} hardened [her]_{787-his mother} heart against entertaining any feeling of sympathy ; and turned away from the face , which recalled the earnest look of [his]_154-jem childhood , when [he]_154-jem had come to [her]_{787-his mother} in some trouble , sure of help and comfort . And coldly [she]_{787-his mother} spoke , in those tones which [Jem]_154-jem knew and dreaded , even before the meaning they expressed was fully shaped . "_{[4845-mother]} [Thou'rt]_4275-thou'rt old enough to please [thysel]_4276-thysel . [Old mothers]_{4277-old mothers} are cast aside , and what [they]_{4277-old mothers} 've borne forgotten , as soon as a pretty face comes across . [I]_0-i might have thought of that last Tuesday , when [I]_0-i felt as if [thou]_4278-thee wert all [my]_0-i own , and [the judge]_{6816-the judge} were some wild animal trying to rend [thee]_4278-thee from [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i spoke up for [thee]_4278-thee then ; but it 's all forgotten now , [I]_0-i suppose . " "_[161-mother] [Mother]_161-mother ! [you]_161-mother know all this while , _ [you]_161-mother know _ [I]_0-i can never forget any kindness [you]_161-mother 've ever done for [me]_0-i ; and they 've been many . Why should [you]_161-mother think [I]_0-i 've only room for one love in [my]_0-i heart ? [I]_0-i can love [you]_161-mother as dearly as ever , and [Mary]_145-mary too , as much as [man]_5236-man ever loved [woman]_5701-woman . " [He]_0-i awaited a reply . None was vouchsafed . "_{[4845-mother]} [Mother]_4845-mother , answer [me]_0-i ! " said [he]_0-i , at last . "_{[4845-mother]} What mun [I]_0-i answer ? [You]_4845-mother asked [me]_0-i no question . " "_{[4845-mother]} Well ! [I]_0-i ask [you]_161-mother this now . To - morrow morning [I]_0-i go to [Liverpool]_17-liverpool to see [her]_4283-her , who is as [[my]_0-i wife]_{4735-my wife} . [Dear mother]_{4239-dear mother} ! will [you]_161-mother bless [me]_0-i on [my]_0-i errand ? If it please [God]_224-god [she]_4283-her recovers , will [you]_161-mother take [her]_4283-her to [you]_161-mother as [you]_161-mother would [a daughter]_{4286-a daughter} ? " [She]_{4239-dear mother} could neither refuse nor assent . "_[161-mother] Why need [you]_161-mother go ? " said [she]_{4239-dear mother} querulously , at length . "_[161-mother] [You]_161-mother 'll be getting in some mischief or another again . Ca n't [you]_161-mother stop at [home]_4755-home quiet with [me]_0-i ? " [Jem]_154-jem got up , and walked about [the room]_{616-the room} in despairing impatience . [She]_{4239-dear mother} would not understand [his]_154-jem feelings . At last [he]_154-jem stopped right before the place where [she]_{4239-dear mother} was sitting , with an air of injured meekness on [her]_{4239-dear mother} face . "_[161-mother] [Mother]_161-mother ! [I]_0-i often think what [a good man]_{4288-a good man} [father]_4863-father was ! [I]_0-i 've often heard [you]_161-mother tell of [your]_161-mother courting days ; and of the accident that befell [you]_161-mother , and how ill [you]_161-mother were . How long is it ago ? " "_{[4863-father]} Near upon five - and - twenty years , " said [she]_{4239-dear mother} , with a sigh . "_{[4863-father]} [You]_161-mother little thought when [you]_161-mother were so ill [you]_161-mother should live to have such [a fine strapping son]_{4290-a fine strapping son} as [I]_0-i am , did [you]_161-mother now ? " [She]_{4239-dear mother} smiled a little , and looked up at [him]_4863-father , which was just what [he]_4863-father wanted . "_[161-mother] [Thou'rt]_4291-thou'rt not so fine a man as [[thy]_4291-thou'rt father]_{5695-thy father} was , by a deal ! " said [she]_{4239-dear mother} , looking at [him]_4863-father with much fondness , notwithstanding [her]_{4239-dear mother} depreciatory words . [He]_4863-father took another turn or two up and down [the room]_{616-the room} . [He]_4863-father wanted to bend the subject round to [his]_4863-father own case . "_[161-mother] Those were happy days when [father]_4863-father was alive ! " "_[161-mother] [You]_161-mother may say so , [lad]_1512-lad ! Such days as will never come again to [me]_0-i , at any rate . " [She]_{4239-dear mother} sighed sorrowfully . "_[161-mother] [Mother]_161-mother ! " said [he]_4863-father at last , stopping short , and taking [her]_{4239-dear mother} hand in [his]_4863-father with tender affection , "_[161-mother] [you]_161-mother 'd like [me]_0-i to be as happy [a man]_{4855-a man} as [[my]_0-i father]_{5863-my father} was before [me]_0-i , would not [you]_161-mother ? [You]_161-mother 'd like [me]_0-i to have some one to make [me]_0-i as happy as [you]_161-mother made [father]_4863-father ? Now , would [you]_161-mother not , [dear mother]_{4239-dear mother} ? " "_[161-mother] [I]_0-i did not make [him]_4863-father as happy as [I]_0-i might ha ' done , " murmured [she]_161-mother , in a low , sad voice of self - reproach . "_[0-i] [Th]_4299-th ' accident gave a jar to [my]_0-i temper it 's never got the better of ; and now [he]_4863-father 's gone where [he]_4863-father can never know how [I]_0-i grieve for having frabbed [him]_4863-father as [I]_0-i did . " "_{[4845-mother]} Nay , [mother]_4845-mother , [we]_4301-we do n't know that ! " said [Jem]_154-jem , with gentle soothing . "_[4301-we] Any how , [you]_161-mother and [father]_4863-father got along with as few rubs as [most people]_{5997-most people} . But for _ [his]_4863-father _ sake , [dear mother]_{4239-dear mother} , do n't say [me]_0-i nay , now that [I]_0-i come to [you]_{4239-dear mother} to ask [your]_{4239-dear mother} blessing before setting out to see [her]_4305-her , who is to be [[my]_0-i wife]_{4735-my wife} , if ever [woman]_5701-woman is ; for _ [his]_4863-father _ sake , if not for [mine]_0-i , love [her]_4305-her who [I]_0-i shall bring [home]_4755-home to be to [me]_0-i all [you]_{4239-dear mother} were to [him]_4863-father : and [mother]_4845-mother ! [I]_0-i do not ask for a truer or a tenderer heart than [yours]_{4239-dear mother} is , in the long run . " The hard look left [her]_{4239-dear mother} face ; though [her]_{4239-dear mother} eyes were still averted from [Jem]_154-jem 's gaze , it was more because they were brimming over with tears , called forth by [his]_154-jem words , than because any angry feeling yet remained . And when [his]_154-jem manly voice died away in low pleadings , [she]_{4239-dear mother} lifted up [her]_{4239-dear mother} hands , and bent down [[her]_{4239-dear mother} son]_{2056-her son} 's head below the level of [her]_{4239-dear mother} own ; and then [she]_{4239-dear mother} solemnly uttered a blessing . "_[0-i] God bless [thee]_4863-father , [Jem]_154-jem , [[my]_0-i own dear lad]_{4310-my own dear lad} . And may [He]_4863-father bless [Mary Barton]_145-mary for [thy]_4863-father sake . " [Jem]_154-jem 's heart leaped up , and from this time hope took the place of fear in [his]_154-jem anticipations with regard to [Mary]_145-mary . "_[161-mother] [Mother]_161-mother ! [you]_4863-father show [your]_4863-father own true self to [Mary]_145-mary , and [she]_145-mary 'll love [you]_4863-father as dearly as [I]_0-i do . " So with some few smiles , and some few tears , and much earnest talking , the evening wore away . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i must be off to see [Margaret]_157-margaret . Why , it 's near ten o'clock ! Could [you]_157-margaret have thought it ? Now do n't [you]_157-margaret stop up for [me]_0-i , [mother]_4845-mother . [You]_157-margaret and Will go to bed , for [you]_157-margaret 've both need of it . [I]_0-i shall be [home]_4755-home in an hour . " [Margaret]_157-margaret had felt the evening long and lonely ; and was all but giving up the thoughts of [Jem]_154-jem 's coming that night , when [she]_157-margaret heard [his]_154-jem step at the door . [He]_154-jem told [her]_157-margaret of [his]_154-jem progress with [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} ; [he]_154-jem told [her]_157-margaret [his]_154-jem hopes , and was silent on the subject of [his]_154-jem fears . "_[0-i] To think how sorrow and joy are mixed up together . [You]_157-margaret 'll date [your]_157-margaret start in life as [[Mary]_145-mary 's acknowledged lover]_{4313-mary 's acknowledged lover} from poor [Alice Wilson]_146-alice 's burial day . Well ! the dead are soon forgotten ! " "_{[157-margaret]} Dear Margaret!--But [you]_157-margaret 're worn out with [your]_157-margaret long evening waiting for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i do n't wonder . But never [you]_157-margaret , nor [any one else]_{4314-any one else} , think because [God]_224-god sees fit to call up new interests , perhaps right out of the grave , that therefore [the dead]_{717-the dead} are forgotten . [Margaret]_157-margaret , [you]_157-margaret [yourself]_157-margaret can remember [our]_4316-our looks , and fancy what [we]_4316-our 're like . " "_{[157-margaret]} Yes ! but what has that to do with remembering [Alice]_146-alice ? " "_[146-alice] Why , just this . [You]_157-margaret 're not always trying to think on [our]_4316-our faces , and making a labour of remembering ; but often , [I]_0-i 'll be bound , when [you]_157-margaret 're sinking off to sleep , or when [you]_157-margaret 're very quiet and still , the faces [you]_157-margaret knew so well when [you]_157-margaret could see , come smiling before [you]_157-margaret with loving looks . Or [you]_157-margaret remember them , without striving after it , and without thinking it 's [your]_157-margaret duty to keep recalling them . And so it is with [them]_4317-they that are hidden from [our]_4316-our sight . If [they]_4317-they 've been worthy to be heartily loved while alive , [they]_4317-they 'll not be forgotten when dead ; it 's against nature . And [we]_4316-our need no more be upbraiding [ourselves]_4316-our for letting in [God]_224-god 's rays of light upon [our]_4316-our sorrow , and no more be fearful of forgetting them , because [their]_4317-they memory is not always haunting and taking up [our]_4316-our minds , than [you]_157-margaret need to trouble [yourself]_157-margaret about remembering [[your]_157-margaret grandfather]_{5001-your grandfather} 's face , or what the stars were like,--you ca n't forget if [you]_157-margaret would , what it 's such a pleasure to think about . Do n't fear [my]_0-i forgetting [Aunt Alice]_{393-aunt alice} . " "_{[393-aunt alice]} [I]_0-i 'm not , [Jem]_154-jem ; not now , at least ; only [you]_154-jem seemed so full about [Mary]_145-mary . " "_[154-jem] [I]_0-i 've kept it down so long , remember . How glad [Aunt Alice]_{393-aunt alice} would have been to know that [I]_0-i might hope to have [her]_145-mary for [[my]_0-i wife]_{4735-my wife} ! that 's to say , if [God]_224-god spares [her]_{393-aunt alice} ! " "_{[393-aunt alice]} [She]_{393-aunt alice} would not have known it , even if [you]_154-jem could have told [her]_{393-aunt alice} this last fortnight,--ever since [you]_154-jem went away [she]_{393-aunt alice} 's been thinking always that [she]_{393-aunt alice} was [a little child at [[her]_{393-aunt alice} mother]_{4774-her mother} 's apron - string]_{4320-a little child at her mother 's apron - string} . [She]_{393-aunt alice} must have been a happy little thing ; it was such a pleasure to [her]_{393-aunt alice} to think about those early days , when [she]_{393-aunt alice} lay old and gray on [her]_{393-aunt alice} death - bed . " "_{[393-aunt alice]} [I]_0-i never knew [any one]_{504-any one} seem more happy all [her]_{393-aunt alice} life long . " "_{[504-any one]} Ay ! and how gentle and easy [her]_{393-aunt alice} death was ! [She]_{393-aunt alice} thought [[her]_{393-aunt alice} mother]_{4774-her mother} was near [her]_{393-aunt alice} . " [They]_7596-they fell into calm thought about those last peaceful happy hours . It struck eleven . [Jem]_154-jem started up . "_{[393-aunt alice]} [I]_0-i should have been gone long ago . Give [me]_0-i the bundle . [You]_4324-you 'll not forget [[my]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} . Good night , [Margaret]_157-margaret . " [She]_157-margaret let [him]_154-jem out and bolted the door behind [him]_154-jem . [He]_154-jem stood on the steps to adjust some fastening about the bundle . [The court]_{604-the court} , [the street]_{4821-the street} , was deeply still . Long ago had [all]_4906-all retired to rest on that quiet Sabbath evening . The stars shone down on [the silent deserted streets]_{7600-the silent deserted streets} , and the soft clear moonlight fell in bright masses , leaving the steps on which [Jem]_154-jem stood in shadow . A foot - fall was heard along [the pavement]_{1222-the pavement} ; slow and heavy was the sound . Before [Jem]_154-jem had ended [his]_154-jem little piece of business , a form had glided into sight ; a wan , feeble figure , bearing , with evident and painful labour , a jug of water from the neighbouring pump . It went before [Jem]_154-jem , turned up [the court at the corner of which [he]_154-jem was standing]_{7602-the court at the corner of which he was standing} , passed into the broad , calm light ; and there , with bowed head , sinking and shrunk body , [Jem]_154-jem recognised [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . [No haunting ghost]_{7603-no haunting ghost} could have had less of the energy of life in its involuntary motions than [he]_{131-john barton} , who , nevertheless , went on with the same measured clock - work tread until the door of [[his]_{131-john barton} own house]_{6545-his own house} was reached . And then [he]_{131-john barton} disappeared , and the latch fell feebly to , and made a faint and wavering sound , breaking the solemn silence of the night . Then all again was still . For a minute or two [Jem]_154-jem stood motionless , stunned by the thoughts which the sight of [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} had called up . [Margaret]_157-margaret did not know [he]_154-jem was at [home]_4755-home : had [he]_154-jem stolen like [a thief]_{5833-a thief} by dead of night into [[his]_154-jem own dwelling]_{7608-his own dwelling} ? Depressed as [Jem]_154-jem had often and long seen [him]_154-jem , this night there was something different about [him]_154-jem still ; beaten down by some inward storm , [he]_154-jem seemed to grovel along , all self - respect lost and gone . Must [he]_154-jem be told of [Mary]_145-mary 's state ? [Jem]_154-jem felt [he]_154-jem must not ; and this for many reasons . [He]_154-jem could not be informed of [her]_145-mary illness without many other particulars being communicated at the same time , of which it were better [he]_154-jem should be kept in ignorance ; indeed , of which [Mary]_145-mary [herself]_145-mary could alone give the full explanation . No suspicion that [he]_154-jem was [the criminal]_{1362-the criminal} seemed hitherto to have been excited in the mind of [any one]_{504-any one} . Added to these reasons was [Jem]_154-jem 's extreme unwillingness to face [him]_154-jem , with the belief in [his]_154-jem breast that [he]_154-jem , and [none other]_{7611-none other} , had done the fearful deed . It was true that [he]_154-jem was [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} , and as such had every right to be told of all concerning [her]_145-mary ; but supposing [he]_154-jem were , and that [he]_154-jem followed the impulse so natural to [a father]_{7613-a father} , and wished to go to [her]_145-mary , what might be the consequences ? Among the mingled feelings [she]_145-mary had revealed in [her]_145-mary delirium , ay , mingled even with the most tender expressions of love for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} , was a sort of horror of [him]_154-jem ; a dread of [him]_154-jem as a blood - shedder , which seemed to separate [him]_154-jem into [two persons,--one]_{7615-two persons,--one} , [the father who had dandled [her]_145-mary on [his]_154-jem knee , and loved [her]_145-mary all [her]_145-mary life long]_{7616-the father who had dandled her on his knee , and loved her all her life long} ; the other , [the assassin]_{6529-the assassin} , the cause of all [her]_145-mary trouble and woe . If [he]_154-jem presented [himself]_154-jem before [her]_145-mary while this idea of [his]_154-jem character was uppermost , who might tell the consequence ? [Jem]_154-jem could not , and would not , expose [her]_145-mary to any such fearful chance : and to tell the truth , [I]_157-margaret believe [he]_154-jem looked upon [her]_145-mary as more [his]_154-jem own , to guard from all shadow of injury with most loving care , than as belonging to any one else in [this world]_{6789-this world} , though girt with the reverend name of [Father , and guiltless of aught that might have lessened such reverence]_{7619-father , and guiltless of aught that might have lessened such reverence} . If [you]_7620-you think this account of [mine]_157-margaret confused , of the half - feelings , half - reasons , which passed through [Jem]_154-jem 's mind , as [he]_154-jem stood gazing at [the empty space]_{7621-the empty space} , where that crushed form had so lately been seen,--if [you]_7620-you are perplexed to disentangle the real motives , [I]_157-margaret do assure [you]_7620-you it was from just such an involved set of thoughts that [Jem]_154-jem drew the resolution to act as if [he]_154-jem had not seen that phantom likeness of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} ; [himself]_154-jem , yet not [himself]_154-jem . CHAPTER XXXIV . THE RETURN [HOME]_4755-home . "_{[157-margaret]} _ [Dixwell]_403-dixwell . _ Forgiveness ! Oh , forgiveness , and [a grave]_{4326-a grave} ! _ [Mary]_145-mary . _ [God]_224-god knows [thy]_224-god heart , [[my]_0-i father]_{5863-my father} ! and [I]_0-i shudder To think what [thou]_224-god perchance hast acted . _ [Dixwell]_403-dixwell . _ Oh ! _ [Mary]_145-mary . _ No common load of woe is thine , [[my]_0-i father]_{5863-my father} . " [ELLIOTT]_176-elliott 'S "_{[404-kerhonah]} [KERHONAH]_404-kerhonah . " [Mary]_145-mary still hovered between life and death when [Jem]_154-jem arrived at [the house]_{803-the house} where [she]_145-mary lay ; and [the doctors]_{7624-the doctors} were as yet unwilling to compromise [their]_{7624-the doctors} wisdom by allowing too much hope to be entertained . But the state of things , if not less anxious , was less distressing than when [Jem]_154-jem had quitted [her]_145-mary . [She]_145-mary lay now in a stupor , which was partly disease , and partly exhaustion after the previous excitement . And now [Jem]_154-jem found the difficulty which [every one who has watched by a sick bed]_{7625-every one who has watched by a sick bed} knows full well ; and which is perhaps more insurmountable to [men]_1197-men than it is to women,--the difficulty of being patient , and trying not to expect any visible change for long , long hours of sad monotony . But after awhile the reward came . The laboured breathing became lower and softer , the heavy look of oppressive pain melted away from the face , and a languor that was almost peace took the place of suffering . [She]_145-mary slept a natural sleep ; and [they]_{7624-the doctors} stole about on tip - toe , and spoke low , and softly , and hardly dared to breathe , however much [they]_{7624-the doctors} longed to sigh out [their]_{7624-the doctors} thankful relief . [She]_145-mary opened [her]_145-mary eyes . [Her]_145-mary mind was in the tender state of [a lately - born infant]_{7627-a lately - born infant} 's . [She]_145-mary was pleased with the gay but not dazzling colours of the paper ; soothed by the subdued light ; and quite sufficiently amused by looking at all the objects in the room,--the drawing of [the ships]_{3638-the ships} , the festoons of the curtain , the bright flowers on the painted backs of the chairs,--to care for any stronger excitement . [She]_145-mary wondered at the ball of glass , containing various coloured sands from [the Isle of Wight]_{118-the isle of wight} , or some such place , which hung suspended from the middle of the little valance over the window . But [she]_145-mary did not care to exert [herself]_145-mary to ask any questions , although [she]_145-mary saw [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} standing at the bed - side with some tea , ready to drop it into [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} mouth by spoonfuls . [She]_145-mary did not see the face of honest joy , of earnest thankfulness,--the clasped [hands,--the]_{7629-hands,--the} beaming eyes,--the trembling eagerness of gesture , of one who had long awaited [her]_145-mary awakening , and who now stood behind the curtains watching through some little chink [her]_145-mary every faint motion ; or if [she]_145-mary had caught a glimpse of that loving , peeping face , [she]_145-mary was in too exhausted a state to have taken much notice , or have long retained the impression that [he]_7630-he [she]_145-mary loved so well was hanging about [her]_145-mary , and blessing [God]_224-god for every conscious look which stole over [her]_145-mary countenance . [She]_145-mary fell softly into slumber , without a word having been spoken by [any one]_{504-any one} during that half hour of inexpressible joy . And again the stillness was enforced by sign and whispered word , but with eyes that beamed out their bright thoughts of hope . [Jem]_154-jem sat by the side of the bed , holding back the little curtain , and gazing as if [he]_154-jem could never gaze [his]_154-jem fill at the pale , wasted face , so marbled and so chiselled in its wan outline . [She]_145-mary wakened once more ; [her]_145-mary soft eyes opened , and met [his]_154-jem over - bending look . [She]_145-mary smiled gently , as [a baby]_{4827-a baby} does when [it]_{4827-a baby} sees [[its]_{4827-a baby} mother]_{5661-its mother} tending [its]_{4827-a baby} little cot ; and continued [her]_145-mary innocent , infantine gaze into [his]_154-jem face , as if the sight gave [her]_145-mary much unconscious pleasure . But by - and - by a different expression came into [her]_145-mary sweet eyes ; a look of memory and intelligence ; [her]_145-mary white face flushed the brightest rosy red , and with feeble motion [she]_145-mary tried to hide [her]_145-mary head in the pillow . It required all [Jem]_154-jem 's self - control to do what [he]_154-jem knew and felt to be necessary , to call [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , who was quietly dozing by the fireside ; and that done , [he]_154-jem felt almost obliged to leave [the room]_{616-the room} to keep down the happy agitation which would gush out in every feature , every gesture , and every tone . From that time forward [Mary]_145-mary 's progress towards health was rapid . There was every reason , but one , in favour of [her]_145-mary speedy removal [home]_4755-home . All [Jem]_154-jem 's duties lay in [Manchester]_1-manchester . It was [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's dwelling - place , and there [his]_154-jem plans for life had been to be worked out ; plans , which the suspicion and imprisonment [he]_154-jem had fallen into , had thrown for a time into a chaos , which [his]_154-jem presence was required to arrange into form . For [he]_154-jem might find , in spite of [a jury]_{7637-a jury} 's verdict , that too strong a taint was on [his]_154-jem character for [him]_154-jem ever to labour in [Manchester]_1-manchester again . [He]_154-jem remembered the manner in which [some one]_{5544-some one} suspected of having been [a convict]_{7639-a convict} was shunned by [masters]_6156-masters and [men]_1197-men , when [he]_{5544-some one} had accidentally met with work in [[their]_1197-men foundry]_{7642-their foundry} ; the recollection smote [him]_154-jem now , how [he]_154-jem [himself]_154-jem had thought that it did not become [an honest upright man]_{7643-an honest upright man} to associate with [one who had been [a prisoner]_{7645-a prisoner}]_{7644-one who had been a prisoner} . [He]_154-jem could not choose but think on [that poor humble being]_{7646-that poor humble being} , with [his]_{7646-that poor humble being} downcast conscious look ; hunted out of [the work - shop]_{7647-the work - shop} , where [he]_{7646-that poor humble being} had sought to earn an honest livelihood , by the looks , and half - spoken words , and the black silence of repugnance ( worse than words to bear ) , that met [him]_{7646-that poor humble being} on all sides . [Jem]_154-jem felt that [his]_154-jem own character had been attainted ; and that to many it might still appear suspicious . [He]_154-jem knew that [he]_154-jem could convince [the world]_{1479-the world} , by a future as blameless as [his]_154-jem past had been , that [he]_154-jem was innocent . But at the same time [he]_154-jem saw that [he]_154-jem must have patience , and nerve [himself]_154-jem for some trials ; and the sooner these were undergone , the sooner [he]_154-jem was aware of the place [he]_154-jem held in [men]_1197-men 's estimation , the better . [He]_154-jem longed to have presented [himself]_154-jem once more at [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} ; and then the reality would drive away the pictures that would ( unbidden ) come of [a shunned man]_{7651-a shunned man} , eyed askance by all , and driven forth to shape out some new career . [I]_404-kerhonah said every reason "_{[404-kerhonah]} but one " inclined [Jem]_154-jem to hasten [Mary]_145-mary 's return as soon as [she]_145-mary was sufficiently convalescent . That one was the meeting which awaited [her]_145-mary at [home]_4755-home . Turn it over as [Jem]_154-jem would , [he]_154-jem could not decide what was the best course to pursue . [He]_154-jem could compel [himself]_154-jem to any line of conduct that [his]_154-jem reason and [his]_154-jem sense of right told [him]_154-jem to be desirable ; but [they]_1197-men did not tell [him]_154-jem it was desirable to speak to [Mary]_145-mary , in [her]_145-mary tender state of mind and body , of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} . How much would be implied by the mere mention of [his]_154-jem name ! Speak it as calmly , and as indifferently as [he]_154-jem might , [he]_154-jem could not avoid expressing some consciousness of the terrible knowledge [she]_145-mary possessed . [She]_145-mary , for [her]_145-mary part , was softer and gentler than [she]_145-mary had ever been in [her]_145-mary gentlest mood ; since [her]_145-mary illness , [her]_145-mary motions , [her]_145-mary glances , [her]_145-mary voice were all tender in their languor . It seemed almost a trouble to [her]_145-mary to break the silence with the low sounds of [her]_145-mary own sweet voice , and [her]_145-mary words fell sparingly on [Jem]_154-jem 's greedy , listening ear . [Her]_145-mary face was , however , so full of love and confidence , that [Jem]_154-jem felt no uneasiness at the state of silent abstraction into which [she]_145-mary often fell . If [she]_145-mary did but love [him]_154-jem , all would yet go right ; and it was better not to press for confidence on that one subject which must be painful to both . There came a fine , bright , balmy day . And [Mary]_145-mary tottered once more out into the open air , leaning on [Jem]_154-jem 's arm , and close to [his]_154-jem beating heart . And [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} watched [them]_7654-they from [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} door , with a blessing on [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} lips , as [they]_7654-they went slowly up [the street]_{4821-the street} . [They]_7654-they came in sight of [the river]_{7209-the river} . [Mary]_145-mary shuddered . "_[154-jem] Oh , [Jem]_154-jem ! take [me]_0-i [home]_4755-home . [Yon river]_{4330-yon river} seems all made of glittering , heaving , dazzling metal , just as it did when [I]_0-i began to be ill . " [Jem]_154-jem led [her]_145-mary homewards . [She]_145-mary dropped [her]_145-mary head as searching for something on the ground . "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! " [He]_154-jem was all attention . [She]_145-mary paused for an instant . "_[154-jem] When may [I]_0-i go [home]_4755-home ? To [Manchester]_1-manchester , [I]_0-i mean . [I]_0-i am so weary of [this place]_{4332-this place} ; and [I]_0-i would fain be at [home]_4755-home . " [She]_145-mary spoke in a feeble voice ; not at all impatiently , as the words themselves would seem to intimate , but in a mournful way , as if anticipating sorrow even in the very fulfilment of [her]_145-mary wishes . "_[0-i] [Darling]_5820-darling ! [we]_4335-we will go whenever [you]_5820-darling wish ; whenever [you]_5820-darling feel strong enough . [I]_0-i asked [Job]_156-job to tell [Margaret]_157-margaret to get all in readiness for [you]_5820-darling to go [there]_873-there at first . [She]_157-margaret 'll tend [you]_5820-darling and nurse [you]_5820-darling . [You]_5820-darling must not go [home]_4755-home . [Job]_156-job proffered for [you]_5820-darling to go [there]_873-there . " "_[156-job] Ah ! but [I]_0-i must go [home]_4755-home , [Jem]_154-jem . [I]_0-i 'll try and not fail now in what 's right . There are things [we]_4335-we must not speak on " ( lowering [her]_145-mary voice ) , "_[154-jem] but [you]_154-jem 'll be really kind if [you]_154-jem 'll not speak against [my]_0-i going [home]_4755-home . Let [us]_4335-we say no more about it , dear [Jem]_154-jem . [I]_0-i must go [home]_4755-home , and [I]_0-i must go alone . " "_[0-i] Not alone , [Mary]_145-mary ! " "_[145-mary] Yes , alone ! [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_154-jem why [I]_0-i ask it . And if [you]_154-jem guess , [I]_0-i know [you]_154-jem well enough to be sure [you]_154-jem 'll understand why [I]_0-i ask [you]_154-jem never to speak on that again to [me]_0-i , till [I]_0-i begin . Promise , [dear Jem]_154-jem , promise ! " [He]_154-jem promised ; to gratify that beseeching face [he]_154-jem promised . And then [he]_154-jem repented , and felt as if [he]_154-jem had done ill . Then again [he]_154-jem felt as if [she]_145-mary were [the best judge]_{7657-the best judge} , and knowing all ( perhaps more than even [he]_154-jem did ) might be forming plans which [his]_154-jem interference would mar . One thing was certain ! it was a miserable thing to have this awful forbidden ground of discourse ; to guess at [each other]_{436-each other} 's thoughts , when eyes were averted , and cheeks blanched , and words stood still , arrested in their flow by some casual allusion . At last a day , fine enough for [Mary]_145-mary to travel on , arrived . [She]_145-mary had wished to go , but now [her]_145-mary courage failed [her]_145-mary . How could [she]_145-mary have said [she]_145-mary was weary of [that quiet house]_{7659-that quiet house} , where even [Ben Sturgis]_{392-ben sturgis} ' grumblings only made a kind of harmonious bass in the concord between [him]_{392-ben sturgis} and [[his]_{392-ben sturgis} wife]_{525-his wife} , so thoroughly did [they]_{436-each other} know [each other]_{436-each other} with the knowledge of many years ! How could [she]_145-mary have longed to quit [that little peaceful room where [she]_145-mary had experienced such loving tendence]_{7662-that little peaceful room where she had experienced such loving tendence} ! Even the very check bed - curtains became dear to [her]_145-mary under the idea of seeing [them]_{436-each other} no more . If it was so with inanimate objects , if [they]_{436-each other} had such power of exciting regret , what were [her]_145-mary feelings with regard to [the kind old couple]_{7663-the kind old couple} , who had taken [the stranger]_{3401-the stranger} in , and cared for [her]_145-mary , and nursed [her]_145-mary , as though [she]_145-mary had been [a daughter]_{4286-a daughter} ? Each wilful sentence spoken in the half unconscious irritation of feebleness came now with avenging self - reproach to [her]_145-mary memory , as [she]_145-mary hung about [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , with many tears , which served instead of words to express [her]_145-mary gratitude and love . [Ben]_{392-ben sturgis} bustled about with the square bottle of Goldenwasser in one of [his]_{392-ben sturgis} hands , and a small tumbler in the other ; [he]_{392-ben sturgis} went to [Mary]_145-mary , [Jem]_154-jem , and [[his]_{392-ben sturgis} wife]_{525-his wife} in succession , pouring out a glass for each and bidding [them]_{7663-the kind old couple} drink it to keep [their]_{7663-the kind old couple} spirits up : but as each severally refused , [he]_{392-ben sturgis} drank it [himself]_{392-ben sturgis} ; and passed on to offer the same hospitality to [another]_1526-another with the like refusal , and the like result . When [he]_0-i had swallowed the last of the three draughts , [he]_0-i condescended to give [his]_0-i reasons for having done so . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i can not abide waste . What 's poured out mun be drunk . That 's [my]_0-i maxim . " So saying , [he]_0-i replaced the bottle in the cupboard . It was [he]_0-i who in a firm commanding voice at last told [Jem]_154-jem and [Mary]_145-mary to be off , or [they]_4342-they would be too late . [Mrs. Sturgis]_{389-mrs. sturgis} had kept up till then ; but as [they]_4342-they left [[her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} house]_{1770-her house} , [she]_{389-mrs. sturgis} could no longer restrain [her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} tears , and cried aloud in spite of [[her]_{389-mrs. sturgis} husband]_{587-her husband} 's upbraiding . "_[0-i] Perhaps [they]_4342-they 'll be too late for [th ' train]_{4343-th ' train} ! " exclaimed [she]_{389-mrs. sturgis} , with a degree of hope , as the clock struck two . "_[4342-they] What ! and come back again ! No ! no ! that would never do . [We]_4344-our 've done [our]_4344-our part , and cried [our]_4344-our cry ; it 's no use going o'er the same ground again . [I]_0-i should ha ' to give ['em]_4345-'em more out of yon bottle when next parting time came , and [them]_4342-they three glasses [they]_4342-they had made a hole in the stuff , [I]_0-i can tell [you]_4346-you . Time [Jack]_{332-jack sheppard} was back from [Hamburg]_119-hamburg with some more . " When [they]_4344-our reached [Manchester]_1-manchester , [Mary]_145-mary looked very white , and the expression on [her]_145-mary face was almost stern . [She]_145-mary was in fact summoning up [her]_145-mary resolution to meet [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} if [he]_{564-her father} were at [home]_4755-home . [Jem]_154-jem had never named [his]_154-jem midnight glimpse of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} to [human being]_{7672-human being} ; but [Mary]_145-mary had a sort of presentiment that wander where [he]_{564-her father} would , [he]_{564-her father} would seek [[his]_{564-her father} home]_{5328-his home} at last . But in what mood [she]_145-mary dreaded to think . For the knowledge of [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} 's capability of guilt seemed to have opened a dark gulf in [his]_{564-her father} character , into the depths of which [she]_145-mary trembled to look . At one moment [she]_145-mary would fain have claimed protection against the life [she]_145-mary must lead , for some time at least , alone with [a murderer]_{5834-a murderer} ! [She]_145-mary thought of [his]_{564-her father} gloom , before [his]_{564-her father} mind was haunted by the memory of so terrible a crime ; [his]_{564-her father} moody , irritable ways . [She]_145-mary imagined the evenings as of old : [she]_145-mary , toiling at some work , long after [houses]_1080-houses were shut , and [folks]_4739-folks abed ; [he]_{564-her father} , more savage than [he]_{564-her father} had ever been before with the inward gnawing of [his]_{564-her father} remorse . At such times [she]_145-mary could have cried aloud with terror , at the scenes [her]_145-mary fancy conjured up . But [her]_145-mary filial duty , nay , [her]_145-mary love and gratitude for many deeds of kindness done to [her]_145-mary as [a little child]_{1319-a little child} , conquered all fear . [She]_145-mary would endure all imaginable terrors , although of daily occurrence . And [she]_145-mary would patiently bear all wayward violence of temper ; more than patiently would [she]_145-mary bear it -- pitifully , as [one who knew of some awful curse awaiting the blood - shedder]_{7679-one who knew of some awful curse awaiting the blood - shedder} . [She]_145-mary would watch over [him]_{564-her father} tenderly , as [the Innocent]_{7004-the innocent} should watch over [the Guilty]_{7681-the guilty} ; awaiting the gracious seasons , wherein to pour oil and balm into the bitter wounds . With the untroubled peace which the resolve to endure to the end gives , [she]_145-mary approached [the house that from habit [she]_145-mary still called [home , but which possessed the holiness of home]_{7683-home , but which possessed the holiness of home} no longer]_{7682-the house that from habit she still called home , but which possessed the holiness of home no longer} . "_{[332-jack sheppard]} [Jem]_154-jem ! " said [she]_145-mary , as [they]_7684-they stood at the entrance to [the court]_{604-the court} , close by [Job Legh]_156-job 's door , "_[154-jem] [you]_154-jem must go in [there]_873-there and wait half - an - hour . Not less . If in that time [I]_0-i do n't come back , [you]_154-jem go [your]_154-jem ways to [[your]_154-jem mother]_{4848-your mother} . Give [her]_{4848-your mother} [my]_0-i dear love . [I]_0-i will send by [Margaret]_157-margaret when [I]_0-i want to see [you]_154-jem . " [She]_157-margaret sighed heavily . "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary ! [Mary]_145-mary ! [I]_0-i can not leave [you]_154-jem . [You]_154-jem speak as coldly as if [we]_4349-we were to be nought to [each other]_{436-each other} . And [my]_0-i heart 's bound up in [you]_154-jem . [I]_0-i know why [you]_154-jem bid [me]_0-i keep away , but-- " [She]_157-margaret put [her]_157-margaret hand on [his]_154-jem arm , as [he]_154-jem spoke in a loud agitated tone ; [she]_157-margaret looked into [his]_154-jem face with upbraiding love in [her]_157-margaret eyes , and then [she]_157-margaret said , while [her]_157-margaret lips quivered , and [he]_154-jem felt [her]_157-margaret whole frame trembling : "_[147-jem] [Dear Jem]_147-jem ! [I]_0-i often could have told [you]_147-jem more of love , if [I]_0-i had not once spoken out so free . Remember that time , [Jem]_147-jem , if ever [you]_147-jem think [me]_0-i cold . Then , the love that 's in [my]_0-i heart would out in words ; but now , though [I]_0-i 'm silent on the pain [I]_0-i 'm feeling in quitting [you]_147-jem , the love is in [my]_0-i heart all the same . But this is not the time to speak on such things . If [I]_0-i do not do what [I]_0-i feel to be right now , [I]_0-i may blame [myself]_0-i all [my]_0-i life long ! [Jem]_147-jem , [you]_147-jem promised-- " And so saying [she]_157-margaret left [him]_147-jem . [She]_157-margaret went quicker than [she]_157-margaret would otherwise have passed over those few yards of ground , for fear [he]_147-jem should still try to accompany [her]_157-margaret . [Her]_157-margaret hand was on the latch , and in a breath the door was opened . There sat [[her]_157-margaret father]_{564-her father} , still and motionless -- not even turning [his]_147-jem head to see who had entered ; but perhaps [he]_147-jem recognised the foot - step,--the trick of action . [He]_147-jem sat by the fire ; the grate [I]_147-jem should say , for fire there was none . Some dull , gray ashes , negligently left , long days ago , coldly choked up the bars . [He]_147-jem had taken the accustomed seat from mere force of habit , which ruled [his]_147-jem automaton - body . For all energy , both physical and mental , seemed to have retreated inwards to [some of the great citadels of life]_{7687-some of the great citadels of life} , there to do battle against [the Destroyer , Conscience]_{7688-the destroyer , conscience} . [His]_147-jem hands were crossed , [his]_147-jem fingers interlaced ; usually a position implying some degree of resolution , or strength ; but in [him]_147-jem it was so faintly maintained , that it appeared more the result of chance ; an attitude requiring some application of outward force to alter,--and a blow with a straw seemed as though it would be sufficient . And as for [his]_147-jem face , it was sunk and worn,--like a skull , with yet a suffering expression that skulls have not ! [Your]_7689-your heart would have ached to have seen [the man]_{708-the man} , however hardly [you]_7689-your might have judged [his]_147-jem crime . But crime and all was forgotten by [[his]_147-jem daughter]_{724-his daughter} , as [she]_{724-his daughter} saw [his]_147-jem abashed look , [his]_147-jem smitten helplessness . All along [she]_{724-his daughter} had felt it difficult ( as [I]_147-jem may have said before ) to reconcile the two ideas , of [[her]_{724-his daughter} father]_{564-her father} and a blood - shedder . But now it was impossible . [He]_147-jem was [[her]_{724-his daughter} father]_{564-her father} ! [[her]_{724-his daughter} own dear father]_{7694-her own dear father} ! and in [his]_147-jem sufferings , whatever [their]_7695-their cause , more dearly loved than ever before . [His]_147-jem crime was a thing apart , never more to be considered by [her]_{724-his daughter} . And tenderly did [she]_{724-his daughter} treat [him]_147-jem , and fondly did [she]_{724-his daughter} serve [him]_147-jem in every way that heart could devise , or hand execute . [She]_{724-his daughter} had some money about [her]_{724-his daughter} , the price of [her]_{724-his daughter} strange services as [a witness]_{2197-a witness} ; and when the lingering dusk drew on , [she]_{724-his daughter} stole out to effect some purchases necessary for [[her]_{724-his daughter} father]_{564-her father} 's comfort . For how body and soul had been kept together , even as much as [they]_7695-their were , during the days [he]_147-jem had dwelt alone , [no one]_{1202-no one} can say . [The house]_{803-the house} was bare as when [Mary]_145-mary had left [it]_{803-the house} , of coal , or of candle , of food , or of blessing in any shape . [She]_{724-his daughter} came quickly [home]_4755-home ; but as [she]_{724-his daughter} passed [Job Legh]_156-job 's door , [she]_{724-his daughter} stopped . Doubtless [Jem]_147-jem had long since gone ; and doubtless , too , [he]_147-jem had given [Margaret]_157-margaret some good reason for not intruding upon [[her]_157-margaret friend]_{586-her friend} for this night at least , otherwise [Mary]_145-mary would have seen [her]_{586-her friend} before now . But to - morrow,--would [she]_{586-her friend} not come in to - morrow ? And who so quick as blind [Margaret]_157-margaret in noticing tones , and sighs , and even silence ? [She]_{724-his daughter} did not give [herself]_{724-his daughter} time for further thought , [her]_{724-his daughter} desire to be once more with [[her]_{724-his daughter} father]_{564-her father} was too pressing ; but [she]_{724-his daughter} opened the door , before [she]_{724-his daughter} well knew what to say . "_[147-jem] It 's [Mary Barton]_145-mary ! [I]_0-i know [her]_145-mary by [her]_145-mary breathing ! [Grandfather]_{181-grandfather} , it 's [Mary Barton]_145-mary ! " [Margaret]_157-margaret 's joy at meeting [her]_145-mary , the open demonstration of [her]_157-margaret love , affected [Mary]_145-mary much ; [she]_145-mary could not keep from crying , and sat down weak and agitated on the first chair [she]_145-mary could find . "_[145-mary] Ay , ay , [Mary]_145-mary ! [thou'rt]_4351-thou'rt looking a bit different to when [I]_0-i saw [thee]_145-mary last . [Thou'lt]_4352-thou'lt give [Jem]_147-jem and [me]_0-i good characters for [sick nurses]_{4353-sick nurses} , [I]_0-i trust . If all trades fail , [I]_0-i 'll turn to that . [[Jem]_147-jem 's place]_{4354-jem 's place} is for life , [I]_0-i reckon . Nay , never redden so , [lass]_4844-lass . [You]_4844-lass and [he]_147-jem know [each other]_{436-each other} 's minds by this time ! " [Margaret]_157-margaret held [her]_157-margaret hand , and gently smiled into [her]_157-margaret face . [Job Legh]_156-job took the candle up , and began a leisurely inspection . "_[4357-thy] [Thou]_4357-thy hast getten a bit of pink in [thy]_4357-thy cheeks,--not much ; but when last [I]_0-i saw [thee]_4357-thy , [thy]_4357-thy lips were as white as a sheet . [Thy]_4357-thy nose is sharpish at th ' end ; thou'rt more like [[thy]_4357-thy father]_{5695-thy father} than ever [thou]_4357-thy wert before . [Lord]_4359-lord ! [child]_4860-child , what 's the matter ? Art [thou]_4357-thy going to faint ? " For [Mary]_145-mary had sickened at the mention of that name ; yet [she]_145-mary felt that now or never was the time to speak . "_[245-father] [Father]_245-father 's come [home]_4755-home ! " [she]_145-mary said , "_[245-father] but [he]_245-father 's very poorly ; [I]_0-i never saw [him]_245-father as [he]_245-father is now , before . [I]_0-i asked [Jem]_147-jem not to come near [him]_245-father for fear it might fidget [him]_245-father . " [She]_145-mary spoke hastily , and ( to [her]_145-mary own idea ) in an unnatural manner . But [they]_7703-they did not seem to notice it , nor to take the hint [she]_145-mary had thrown out of company being unacceptable ; for [Job Legh]_156-job directly put down some insect , which [he]_156-job was impaling on a corking - pin , and exclaimed , "_[0-i] [[Thy]_4357-thy father]_{5695-thy father} come [home]_4755-home ! Why , [Jem]_147-jem never said a word of it ! And ailing too ! [I]_0-i 'll go in , and cheer [him]_245-father with a bit of talk . [I]_0-i ne'er knew any good come of delegating it . " "_[0-i] Oh , [Job]_156-job ! [father]_4863-father can not stand -- [father]_4863-father is too ill . Do n't come ; not but that [you]_156-job 're very kind and good ; but to - night -- indeed , " said [she]_7704-she at last , in despair , seeing [Job]_156-job still persevere in putting away [his]_156-job things ; "_[156-job] [you]_156-job must not come till [I]_0-i send or come for [you]_156-job . [Father]_245-father 's in that strange way , [I]_0-i ca n't answer for it if [he]_245-father sees [strangers]_{1301-strangers} . Please do n't come . [I]_0-i 'll come and tell [you]_156-job every day how [he]_245-father goes on . [I]_0-i must be off now to see after [him]_245-father . [Dear Job]_156-job ! kind [Job]_156-job ! do n't be angry with [me]_0-i . If [you]_156-job knew all [you]_156-job 'd pity [me]_0-i . " For [Job]_156-job was muttering away in high dudgeon , and even [Margaret]_157-margaret 's tone was altered as [she]_157-margaret wished [Mary]_145-mary good night . Just then [she]_157-margaret could ill brook coldness from [any one]_{504-any one} , and least of all bear the idea of being considered ungrateful by [so kind and zealous a friend]_{7706-so kind and zealous a friend} as [Job]_156-job had been ; so [she]_157-margaret turned round suddenly , even when [her]_157-margaret hand was on the latch of the door , and ran back , and threw [her]_157-margaret arms about [his]_156-job neck , and kissed [him]_156-job first , and then [Margaret]_157-margaret . And then , the tears fast - falling down [her]_157-margaret cheeks , but no word spoken , [she]_157-margaret hastily left [the house]_{803-the house} , and went back to [[her]_157-margaret home]_{3293-her home} . There was no change in [[her]_157-margaret father]_{564-her father} 's position , or in [his]_156-job spectral look . [He]_156-job had answered [her]_157-margaret questions ( but few in number , for so many subjects were unapproachable ) by monosyllables , and in a weak , high , childish voice ; but [he]_156-job had not lifted [his]_156-job eyes ; [he]_156-job could not meet [[his]_156-job daughter]_{724-his daughter} 's look . And [she]_157-margaret , when [she]_157-margaret spoke , or as [she]_157-margaret moved about , avoided letting [her]_157-margaret eyes rest upon [him]_156-job . [She]_157-margaret wished to be [her]_157-margaret usual self ; but while every thing was done with a consciousness of purpose , [she]_157-margaret felt it was impossible . In this manner things went on for some days . At night [he]_156-job feebly clambered up [stairs]_4740-stairs to bed ; and during those long dark hours [Mary]_145-mary heard those groans of agony which never escaped [his]_156-job lips by day , when they were compressed in silence over [his]_156-job inward woe . Many a time [she]_157-margaret sat up listening , and wondering if it would ease [his]_156-job miserable heart if [she]_157-margaret went to [him]_156-job , and told [him]_156-job [she]_157-margaret knew all , and loved and pitied [him]_156-job more than words could tell . By day the monotonous hours wore on in the same heavy , hushed manner as on that first dreary afternoon . [He]_156-job ate,--but without relish ; and food seemed no longer to nourish [him]_156-job , for each morning [his]_156-job face had caught more of the ghastly fore - shadowing of [Death]_190-death . [The neighbours]_{4804-the neighbours} kept strangely aloof . Of late years [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had had a repellent power about [him]_{131-john barton} , felt by all , except to [the few who had either known [him]_{131-john barton} in [his]_{131-john barton} better and happier days]_{7713-the few who had either known him in his better and happier days} , or [those to whom [he]_{131-john barton} had given [his]_{131-john barton} sympathy and [his]_{131-john barton} confidence]_{7714-those to whom he had given his sympathy and his confidence} . [People]_4744-people did not care to enter the doors of one whose very depth of thoughtfulness rendered [him]_{131-john barton} moody and stern . And now [they]_4744-people contented [themselves]_4744-people with a kind inquiry when [they]_4744-people saw [Mary]_145-mary in [her]_145-mary goings - out or in [her]_145-mary comings - in . With [her]_145-mary oppressing knowledge , [she]_145-mary imagined [their]_4744-people reserved conduct stranger than it was in reality . [She]_145-mary missed [Job]_156-job and [Margaret]_157-margaret too ; who , in all former times of sorrow or anxiety since [their]_4744-people acquaintance first began , had been ready with [their]_4744-people sympathy . But most of all [she]_145-mary missed the delicious luxury [she]_145-mary had lately enjoyed in having [Jem]_147-jem 's tender love at hand every hour of the day , to ward off every wind of heaven , and every disturbing thought . [She]_145-mary knew [he]_147-jem was often hovering about [the house]_{803-the house} ; though the knowledge seemed to come more by intuition , than by any positive sight or sound for the first day or two . On the third day [she]_145-mary met [him]_147-jem at [Job Legh]_156-job 's . [They]_4744-people received [her]_145-mary with every effort of cordiality ; but still there was a cobweb - veil of separation between [them]_4744-people , to which [Mary]_145-mary was morbidly acute ; while in [Jem]_147-jem 's voice , and eyes , and manner , there was every evidence of most passionate , most admiring , and most trusting love . The trust was shown by [his]_147-jem respectful silence on that one point of reserve on which [she]_145-mary had interdicted conversation . [He]_147-jem left [[Job Legh]_156-job 's house]_{3301-job legh 's house} when [she]_145-mary did . [They]_4744-people lingered on the step , [he]_147-jem holding [her]_145-mary hand between both of [his]_147-jem , as loth to let [her]_145-mary go ; [he]_147-jem questioned [her]_145-mary as to when [he]_147-jem should see [her]_145-mary again . "_[156-job] [Mother]_161-mother does so want to see [you]_4367-you , " whispered [he]_147-jem . "_[161-mother] Can [you]_4367-you come to see [her]_161-mother to - morrow ? or when ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i can not tell , " replied [she]_145-mary , softly . "_[0-i] Not yet . Wait awhile ; perhaps only a little while . [Dear Jem]_147-jem , [I]_0-i must go to him,--dearest [Jem]_147-jem . " The next day , the fourth from [Mary]_145-mary 's return [home]_4755-home , as [she]_145-mary was sitting near the window , sadly dreaming over some work , [she]_145-mary caught a glimpse of [the last person [she]_145-mary wished to see]_{5526-the last person she wished to see} -- of [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally ! [She]_145-mary was evidently coming to [[their]_7720-their house]_{5750-their house} ; another moment , and [she]_145-mary tapped at the door . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} gave an anxious , uneasy side - glance . [Mary]_145-mary knew that if [she]_145-mary delayed answering the knock , [Sally]_162-sally would not scruple to enter ; so as hastily as if the visit had been desired , [she]_145-mary opened the door , and stood there with the latch in [her]_145-mary hand , barring up all entrance , and as much as possible obstructing all curious glances into the interior . "_[147-jem] Well , [Mary Barton]_145-mary ! [You]_145-mary 're [home]_4755-home at last ! [I]_0-i heard [you]_145-mary 'd getten [home]_4755-home ; so [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd just step over and hear the news . " [She]_145-mary was bent on coming in , and saw [Mary]_145-mary 's preventive design . So [she]_145-mary stood on tip - toe , looking over [Mary]_145-mary 's shoulders into [the room where [she]_145-mary suspected [a lover]_{1055-a lover} to be lurking]_{7722-the room where she suspected a lover to be lurking} ; but instead , [she]_145-mary saw only the figure of [the stern , gloomy father [she]_145-mary had always been in the habit of avoiding]_{7724-the stern , gloomy father she had always been in the habit of avoiding} ; and [she]_145-mary dropped down again , content to carry on the conversation where [Mary]_145-mary chose , and as [Mary]_145-mary chose , in whispers . "_[0-i] So [the old governor]_{4370-the old governor} is back again , eh ? And what does [he]_{4370-the old governor} say to all [your]_145-mary fine doings at [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , and [before?--you]_{4371-before?--you} and [I]_0-i know where . [You]_145-mary ca n't hide it now , [Mary]_145-mary , for it 's all in print . " [Mary]_145-mary gave a low moan,--and then implored [Sally]_162-sally to change the subject ; for unpleasant as it always was , it was doubly unpleasant in the manner in which [she]_162-sally was treating it . If [they]_7725-they had been alone , [Mary]_145-mary would have borne it patiently,--or so [she]_145-mary thought,--but now [she]_145-mary felt almost certain [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was listening ; there was a subdued breathing , a slight bracing - up of the listless attitude . But there was no arresting [Sally]_162-sally 's curiosity to hear all [she]_162-sally could respecting the adventures [Mary]_145-mary had experienced . [She]_162-sally , in common with [the rest of [[Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' young ladies]_{5386-miss simmonds ' young ladies}]_{7727-the rest of miss simmonds ' young ladies} , was almost jealous of the fame that [Mary]_145-mary had obtained ; to [herself]_162-sally , such miserable notoriety . "_[145-mary] Nay ! there 's no use shunning talking it over . Why ! it was in the _ Guardian_,--and the _ Courier_,--and [some one]_{5544-some one} told [Jane Hodson]_{406-jane hodson} it was even copied into a [London]_28-london paper . [You]_4373-you 've set up [heroine]_4374-heroine on [your]_4373-you own account , [Mary Barton]_145-mary . How did [you]_4373-you like [standing witness]_{4375-standing witness} ? Ar'n't [them]_{4375-standing witness} lawyers impudent things ? staring at one so . [I]_0-i 'll be bound [you]_4373-you wished [you]_4373-you 'd taken [my]_0-i offer , and borrowed [my]_0-i black watered scarf ! Now did n't [you]_4373-you , [Mary]_145-mary ? Speak truth ! " "_[145-mary] To tell truth , [I]_0-i never thought about it then , [Sally]_162-sally . How could [I]_0-i ? " asked [she]_162-sally , reproachfully . "_[0-i] Oh -- [I]_0-i forgot . [You]_4373-you were all for [that stupid James Wilson]_154-jem . Well ! if [I]_0-i 've ever the luck to go [witness on a trial]_{4376-witness on a trial} , see if [I]_0-i do n't pick up [a better beau]_{4377-a better beau} than [the prisoner]_{7362-the prisoner} . [I]_0-i 'll aim at [[a lawyer]_{3375-a lawyer} 's clerk]_{4380-a lawyer 's clerk} , but [I]_0-i 'll not take less than a turnkey . " Cast down as [Mary]_145-mary was , [she]_145-mary could hardly keep from smiling at the idea , so wildly incongruous with the scene [she]_145-mary had really undergone , of looking out for [admirers during a trial for murder]_{7729-admirers during a trial for murder} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'd no thought to be looking out for [beaux]_4381-beaux , [I]_0-i can assure [you]_4373-you , [Sally.--But]_{407-sally.--but} do n't let [us]_4382-us talk any more about it ; [I]_0-i ca n't bear to think on it . How is [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ? and [everybody]_{4383-everybody} ? " "_{[152-miss simmonds]} Oh , very well ; and by the way [she]_{152-miss simmonds} gave [me]_0-i a bit of a message for [you]_4373-you . [You]_4373-you may come back to work if [you]_4373-you 'll behave [yourself]_4373-you , [she]_{152-miss simmonds} says . [I]_0-i told [you]_4373-you [she]_{152-miss simmonds} 'd be glad to have [you]_4373-you back , after all this piece of business , by way of tempting [people]_4744-people to come to [[her]_{152-miss simmonds} shop]_{4385-her shop} . [They]_4744-people 'd come from [Salford]_121-salford to have a peep at [you]_4373-you , for six months at least . " "_{[4744-people]} Do n't talk so ; [I]_0-i can not come , [I]_0-i can never face [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} again . And even if [I]_0-i could-- " [she]_4373-you stopped , and blushed . "_[0-i] Ay ! [I]_0-i know what [you]_4373-you 're thinking on . But that will not be this some time , as [he]_4386-he 's turned off from the foundry,--you'd better think twice afore refusing [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} ' offer . " "_{[152-miss simmonds]} Turned off from [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} ! [Jem]_154-jem ? " cried [Mary]_145-mary . "_[154-jem] To be sure ! did n't [you]_154-jem know it ? [Decent men]_{4388-decent men} were not going to work with a -- no ! [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i must n't say it , seeing [you]_4373-you went to such trouble to get up an _ alibi _ ; not that [I]_0-i should think much the worse of [a spirited young fellow]_{4389-a spirited young fellow} for falling foul of [a rival,--they]_{4390-a rival,--they} always do at [the theatre]_{4391-the theatre} . " But [Mary]_145-mary 's thoughts were with [Jem]_154-jem . How good [he]_154-jem had been never to name [his]_154-jem dismissal to [her]_145-mary . How much [he]_154-jem had had to endure for [her]_145-mary sake ! "_{[4390-a rival,--they]} Tell [me]_0-i all about it , " [she]_145-mary gasped out . "_{[4390-a rival,--they]} Why , [you]_4373-you see , [they]_4392-they 've always swords quite handy at [them]_4392-they plays , " began [Sally]_162-sally ; but [Mary]_145-mary , with an impatient shake of [her]_145-mary head , interrupted , "_[4392-they] About [Jem,--about Jem]_{408-jem,--about jem} , [I]_0-i want to know . " "_[0-i] Oh ! [I]_0-i do n't pretend to know more than is in [every one]_{669-every one} 's mouth : [he]_{408-jem,--about jem} 's turned away from [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} , because [folks]_4739-folks do n't think [you]_4373-you 've cleared [him]_{408-jem,--about jem} outright of the murder ; though perhaps [the jury]_{6804-the jury} were loth to hang [him]_{408-jem,--about jem} . [Old Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} is savage against [judge]_6225-judge and [jury]_3346-jury , and [lawyers]_6988-lawyers and all , as [I]_0-i heard . " "_{[209-mr. carson]} [I]_0-i must go to [him]_{408-jem,--about jem} , [I]_0-i must go to [him]_{408-jem,--about jem} , " repeated [Mary]_145-mary , in a hurried manner . "_{[408-jem,--about jem]} [He]_{408-jem,--about jem} 'll tell [you]_4373-you all [I]_0-i 've said is true , and not a word of lie , " replied [Sally]_162-sally . "_{[408-jem,--about jem]} So [I]_0-i 'll not give [your]_4373-you answer to [Miss Simmonds]_{152-miss simmonds} , but leave [you]_4373-you to think twice about it . Good afternoon ! " [Mary]_145-mary shut the door , and turned into [the house]_{803-the house} . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} sat in the same attitude ; the old unchanging attitude . Only [his]_{564-her father} head was more bowed towards the ground . [She]_145-mary put on [her]_145-mary bonnet to go to [Ancoats]_8-ancoats ; for see , and question , and comfort , and worship [Jem]_{408-jem,--about jem} , [she]_145-mary must . As [she]_145-mary hung about [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} for an instant before leaving [him]_{564-her father} , [he]_{564-her father} spoke -- voluntarily spoke for the first time since [her]_145-mary return ; but [his]_{564-her father} head was drooping so low [she]_145-mary could not hear what [he]_{564-her father} said , so [she]_145-mary stooped down ; and after a moment 's pause , [he]_{564-her father} repeated the words , "_[154-jem] Tell [Jem Wilson]_154-jem to come here at eight o'clock to - night . " Could [he]_{564-her father} have overheard [her]_145-mary conversation with [Sally Leadbitter]_162-sally ? [They]_7733-they had whispered low , [she]_145-mary thought . Pondering on this , and many other things , [she]_145-mary reached [Ancoats]_8-ancoats . CHAPTER XXXV . "_[154-jem] FORGIVE [US]_4400-us [OUR]_4400-us TRESPASSES . " "_[154-jem] Oh , had [he]_154-jem lived , Replied [Rusilla]_409-rusilla , never penitence Had equalled [his]_154-jem ! full well [I]_0-i know [his]_154-jem heart , Vehement in all things . [He]_154-jem would on [himself]_154-jem Have wreaked such penance as had reached the height Of fleshly suffering,--yea , which being told , With its portentous rigour should have made The memory of [his]_154-jem fault , o'erpowered and lost In shuddering pity and astonishment , Fade like a feeble horror . " [SOUTHEY]_410-southey 'S "_{[411-roderick]} [RODERICK]_411-roderick . " As [Mary]_145-mary was turning into [the street]_{4821-the street} where [the Wilsons]_{144-the wilsons} lived , [Jem]_154-jem overtook [her]_145-mary . [He]_154-jem came upon [her]_145-mary suddenly , and [she]_145-mary started . "_{[411-roderick]} [You]_4401-you 're going to see [mother]_4845-mother ? " [he]_154-jem asked tenderly , placing [her]_145-mary arm within [his]_154-jem , and slackening [his]_154-jem pace . "_[4401-you] Yes , and [you]_4401-you too . Oh , [Jem]_154-jem , is it true ? tell [me]_0-i . " [She]_145-mary felt rightly that [he]_154-jem would guess the meaning of [her]_145-mary only half expressed inquiry . [He]_154-jem hesitated a moment before [he]_154-jem answered [her]_145-mary . "_[154-jem] [Darling]_412-darling , it is ; it 's no use hiding it -- if [you]_412-darling mean that [I]_0-i 'm no longer to work at [[Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} 's foundry]_{4403-duncombe 's foundry} . It 's no time ( to [my]_0-i mind ) to have secrets from each other , though [I]_0-i did not name it yesterday , thinking [you]_412-darling might fret . [I]_0-i shall soon get work again , never fear . " "_[0-i] But why did [they]_4404-they turn [you]_0-i off , when [the jury]_{6804-the jury} had said [you]_0-i were innocent ? " "_[4404-they] It was not just to say turned off , though [I]_0-i do n't think [I]_0-i could have well stayed on . [A good number of [the men]_{1152-the men}]_{4406-a good number of the men} managed to let out [they]_{4406-a good number of the men} should not like to work under [me]_0-i again ; there were [some few who knew [me]_0-i well enough to feel [I]_0-i could not have done it , but more were doubtful]_{4408-some few who knew me well enough to feel i could not have done it , but more were doubtful} ; and [one]_518-one spoke to [young Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} , hinting at what [they]_4404-they thought . " "_[518-one] Oh [Jem]_154-jem ! what a shame ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , with mournful indignation . "_[518-one] Nay , [darling]_5820-darling ! [I]_0-i 'm not for blaming [them]_4404-they . [Poor fellows like [them]_4404-they]_{4411-poor fellows like them} have nought to stand upon and be proud of but [their]_4404-they character , and it 's fitting [they]_4404-they should take care of that , and keep that free from soil and taint . " "_[4404-they] But you,--what could [they]_4404-they get but good from [you]_0-i ? [They]_4404-they might have known [you]_0-i by this time . " "_[4404-they] So [some]_797-some do ; [the overlooker]_{5242-the overlooker} , [I]_0-i 'm sure , would know [I]_0-i 'm innocent . Indeed , [he]_{5242-the overlooker} said as much to - day ; and [he]_{5242-the overlooker} said [he]_{5242-the overlooker} had had some talk with [old Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} , and [they]_4404-they thought it might be better if [I]_0-i left [Manchester]_1-manchester for a bit ; [they]_4404-they 'd recommend [me]_0-i to some other place . " But [Mary]_145-mary could only shake [her]_145-mary head in a mournful way , and repeat [her]_145-mary words , "_[4404-they] [They]_4404-they might have known [thee]_0-i better , [Jem]_154-jem . " [Jem]_154-jem pressed the little hand [he]_154-jem held between [his]_154-jem own work - hardened ones . After a minute or two , [he]_154-jem asked , "_[4404-they] [Mary]_145-mary , art [thou]_145-mary much bound to [Manchester]_1-manchester ? Would it grieve [thee]_145-mary sore to quit [the old smoke - jack]_{4414-the old smoke - jack} ? " "_[145-mary] With [thee]_0-i ? " [she]_145-mary asked , in a quiet , glancing way . "_[145-mary] Ay , [lass]_4844-lass ! Trust [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i 'll ne'er ask [thee]_145-mary to leave [Manchester]_1-manchester while [I]_0-i 'm in [it]_1-manchester . Because [I]_0-i 've heard fine things of [Canada]_122-canada ; and [[our]_4416-our overlooker]_{4417-our overlooker} has [a cousin in the foundry line there.--Thou knowest where [Canada]_122-canada is]_{4418-a cousin in the foundry line there.--thou knowest where canada is} , [Mary]_145-mary ? " "_[145-mary] Not rightly -- not now , at any rate;--but with [thee]_0-i , [Jem]_154-jem , " [her]_145-mary voice sunk to a soft , low whisper , "_[154-jem] anywhere-- " What was the use of a geographical description ? "_{[4863-father]} But [father]_4863-father ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , suddenly breaking that delicious silence with the one sharp discord in [her]_145-mary present life . [She]_145-mary looked up at [[her]_145-mary lover]_{2048-her lover} 's grave face ; and then the message [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} had sent flashed across [her]_145-mary memory . "_{[4863-father]} Oh , [Jem]_154-jem , did [I]_0-i tell you?--Father sent word [he]_4863-father wished to speak with [you]_154-jem . [I]_0-i was to bid [you]_154-jem come to [him]_4863-father at eight to - night . What can [he]_4863-father want , [Jem]_154-jem ? " "_[154-jem] [I]_0-i can not tell , " replied [he]_0-i . "_[154-jem] At any rate [I]_0-i 'll go . It 's no use troubling [ourselves]_{4420-ourselves} to guess , " [he]_0-i continued , after a pause of a few minutes , during which [they]_{4420-ourselves} slowly and silently paced up and down [the by - street]_{7737-the by - street} , into which [he]_0-i had led [her]_145-mary when [their]_{4420-ourselves} conversation began . "_{[4845-mother]} Come and see [mother]_4845-mother , and then [I]_0-i 'll take [thee]_154-jem [home]_4755-home , [Mary]_145-mary . [Thou]_4423-thou wert all in a tremble when first [I]_0-i came up with [thee]_154-jem ; thou'rt not fit to be trusted [home]_4755-home by [thyself]_4425-thyself , " said [he]_0-i , with fond exaggeration of [her]_145-mary helplessness . Yet a little more [lovers]_5496-lovers ' loitering ; a few more words , in themselves nothing -- to [you]_145-mary nothing , but to [those two]_{7739-those two} what tender passionate language can [I]_4425-thyself use to express the feelings which thrilled through [that young man]_{7740-that young man} and [maiden]_7741-maiden , as [they]_{7739-those two} listened to the syllables made dear and lovely through life by that hour 's low - whispered talk . It struck the half hour past seven . "_{[4425-thyself]} Come and speak to [mother]_4845-mother ; [she]_4845-mother knows [you]_154-jem 're to be [[her]_4845-mother daughter]_{698-her daughter} , [Mary]_145-mary , [darling]_5820-darling . " So [they]_{7739-those two} went in . [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} was rather chafed at [[her]_{130-jane wilson} son]_{2056-her son} 's delay in returning [home]_4755-home , for as yet [he]_{2056-her son} had managed to keep [her]_{130-jane wilson} in ignorance of [his]_{2056-her son} dismissal from [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} ; and it was [her]_{130-jane wilson} way to prepare some little pleasure , some little comfort for those [she]_{130-jane wilson} loved ; and if [they]_{7739-those two} , unwittingly , did not appear at the proper time to enjoy [her]_{130-jane wilson} preparation , [she]_{130-jane wilson} worked [herself]_{130-jane wilson} up into a state of fretfulness which found vent in upbraidings as soon as ever the objects of [her]_{130-jane wilson} care appeared , thereby marring the peace which should ever be the atmosphere of [a home]_{2515-a home} , however humble ; and causing a feeling almost amounting to loathing to arise at the sight of the "_[145-mary] stalled ox , " which , though an effect and proof of careful love , has been the cause of so much disturbance . [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} had first sighed , and then grumbled to [herself]_{134-mrs. wilson} , over the increasing toughness of the potato - cakes [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had made for [[her]_{134-mrs. wilson} son]_{2056-her son} 's tea . The door opened , and [he]_{2056-her son} came in ; [his]_{2056-her son} face brightening into proud smiles , [Mary Barton]_145-mary hanging on [his]_{2056-her son} arm , blushing and dimpling , with eye - lids veiling the happy light of [her]_145-mary eyes,--there was around [the young couple]_{7747-the young couple} a radiant atmosphere -- a glory of happiness . Could [[his]_{2056-her son} mother]_{787-his mother} mar it ? Could [she]_{787-his mother} break into it with [her]_{787-his mother} [Martha]_413-martha - like cares ? Only for one moment did [she]_{787-his mother} remember [her]_{787-his mother} sense of injury,--her wasted trouble,--and then , [[her]_{787-his mother} whole woman]_{7749-her whole woman} 's heart heaving with motherly love and sympathy , [she]_{787-his mother} opened [her]_{787-his mother} arms , and received [Mary]_145-mary into [them]_7750-them , as , shedding tears of agitated joy , [she]_{787-his mother} murmured in [her]_145-mary ear , "_[145-mary] Bless [thee]_4429-thee , [Mary]_145-mary , bless [thee]_4429-thee ! Only make [him]_4430-him happy , and [God]_224-god bless [thee]_4429-thee for ever ! " It took some of [Jem]_154-jem 's self - command to separate those whom [he]_154-jem so much loved , and who were beginning , for [his]_154-jem sake , to love [one another]_{4862-one another} so dearly . But the time for [his]_154-jem meeting [John Barton]_{131-john barton} drew on : and it was a long way to [[his]_154-jem house]_{1071-his house} . As [they]_7753-they walked briskly thither [they]_7753-they hardly spoke ; though many thoughts were in [their]_7753-they minds . The sun had not long set , but the first faint shade of twilight was over all ; and when [they]_7753-they opened the door , [Jem]_154-jem could hardly perceive the objects within by the waning light of day , and the flickering fire - blaze . But [Mary]_145-mary saw all at a glance ! [Her]_145-mary eye , accustomed to what was usual in the aspect of [the room]_{616-the room} , saw instantly what was unusual,--saw , and understood it all . [[Her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} was standing behind [his]_{564-her father} habitual chair , holding by the back of it as if for support . And opposite to [him]_{564-her father} there stood [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; the dark out - line of [his]_{209-mr. carson} stern figure looming large against the light of the fire in [that little room]_{7756-that little room} . Behind [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} sat [Job Legh]_156-job , [his]_156-job head in [his]_156-job hands , and resting [his]_156-job elbows on the little family table,--listening evidently ; but as evidently deeply affected by what [he]_156-job heard . There seemed to be some pause in the conversation . [Mary]_145-mary and [Jem]_154-jem stood at the half - open door , not daring to stir ; hardly to breathe . "_[224-god] And have [I]_0-i heard [you]_0-i aright ? " began [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , with [his]_{209-mr. carson} deep quivering voice . "_[0-i] [Man]_5236-man ! have [I]_0-i heard [you]_0-i aright ? Was it [you]_0-i , then , that killed [[my]_0-i boy]_{5142-my boy} ? [[my]_0-i only son?"--(he]_{7758-my only son?"--(he} said these last few words almost as if appealing for pity , and then [he]_{209-mr. carson} changed [his]_{209-mr. carson} tone to one more vehement and fierce ) . "_{[7758-my only son?"--(he]} Do n't dare to think that [I]_0-i shall be merciful , and spare [you]_0-i , because [you]_0-i have come forward to accuse [yourself]_0-i . [I]_0-i tell [you]_0-i [I]_0-i will not spare [you]_0-i the least pang the law can inflict,--you , who did not show pity on [[my]_0-i boy]_{5142-my boy} , shall have none from [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did not ask for any , " said [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , in a low voice . "_[0-i] Ask , or not ask , what care [I]_0-i ? [You]_0-i shall be hanged -- hanged -- man ! " said [he]_0-i , advancing [his]_0-i face , and repeating the word with slow , grinding emphasis , as if to infuse some of the bitterness of [his]_0-i soul into it . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} gasped , but not with fear . It was only that [he]_{131-john barton} felt it terrible to have inspired such hatred , as was concentrated into every word , every gesture of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's . "_[0-i] As for being hanged , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_0-i know it 's all right and proper . [I]_0-i dare say it 's bad enough ; but [I]_0-i tell [you]_5232-sir what , [sir]_5232-sir , " speaking with an out - burst , "_[0-i] if [you]_5232-sir 'd hanged [me]_0-i the day after [I]_0-i 'd done the deed , [I]_0-i would have gone down on [my]_0-i knees and blessed [you]_5232-sir . Death ! [Lord]_4436-lord , what is it to Life ? To such a life as [I]_0-i 've been leading this fortnight past . Life at best is no great thing ; but such a life as [I]_0-i have dragged through since that night , " [he]_0-i shuddered at the thought . "_[0-i] Why , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_0-i 've been on the point of killing [myself]_0-i this many a time to get away from [my]_0-i own thoughts . [I]_0-i did n't ! and [I]_0-i 'll tell [you]_5232-sir why . [I]_0-i did n't know but that [I]_0-i should be more haunted than ever with the recollection of [my]_0-i sin . Oh ! [God]_224-god above only can tell the agony with which [I]_0-i 've repented [me]_0-i of it , and part perhaps because [I]_0-i feared [He]_4438-he would think [I]_0-i were impatient of the misery [He]_4438-he sent as punishment -- far , far worse misery than any hanging , [sir]_5232-sir . " [He]_0-i ceased from excess of emotion . Then [he]_0-i began again . "_[4438-he] Sin ' that day ( it may be very wicked , [sir]_5232-sir , but it 's the truth ) [I]_0-i 've kept thinking and thinking if [I]_0-i were but in that world where [they]_4441-they say [God]_224-god is , [He]_224-god would , may be , teach [me]_0-i right from wrong , even if it were with many stripes . [I]_0-i 've been sore puzzled here . [I]_0-i would go through Hell - fire if [I]_0-i could but get free from sin at last , it 's such an awful thing . As for hanging , that 's just nought at all . " [His]_0-i exhaustion compelled [him]_0-i to sit down . [Mary]_145-mary rushed to [him]_0-i . It seemed as if till then [he]_0-i had been unaware of [her]_145-mary presence . "_[5103-wench] Ay , ay , [wench]_5103-wench ! " said [he]_0-i feebly , "_[5103-wench] is it [thee]_5103-wench ? Where 's [Jem Wilson]_154-jem ? " [Jem]_154-jem came forward . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} spoke again , with many a break and gasping pause , "_[154-jem] [Lad]_1512-lad ! [thou]_4444-thou hast borne a deal for [me]_0-i . It 's the meanest thing [I]_0-i ever did to leave [thee]_1512-lad to bear the brunt . [Thou]_4444-thou , who wert as innocent of any knowledge of it as [the babe unborn]_{6902-the babe unborn} . [I]_0-i 'll not bless [thee]_1512-lad for it . Blessing from such as [me]_0-i would not bring [thee]_1512-lad any good . [Thou'lt]_4444-thou love [Mary]_145-mary , though [she]_145-mary is [[my]_0-i child]_{4784-my child} . " [He]_0-i ceased , and there was a pause of a few seconds . Then [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} turned to go . When [his]_{209-mr. carson} hand was on the latch of the door , [he]_{209-mr. carson} hesitated for an instant . "_[4444-thou] [You]_1512-lad can have no doubt for what purpose [I]_0-i go . Straight to [the police - office]_{4447-the police - office} , to send [men]_1197-men to take care of [you]_1512-lad , [wretched man]_{4449-wretched man} , and [[your]_1512-lad accomplice]_{4450-your accomplice} . To - morrow morning [your]_1512-lad tale shall be repeated to those who can commit [you]_1512-lad to gaol , and before long [you]_1512-lad shall have the opportunity of trying how desirable hanging is . " "_[1512-lad] Oh , [sir]_5232-sir ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , springing forward , and catching hold of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's arm , "_[1512-lad] [[my]_0-i father]_{5863-my father} is dying . Look at [him]_{5863-my father} , [sir]_5232-sir . If [you]_5232-sir want Death for Death , [you]_5232-sir have it . Do n't take [him]_{5863-my father} away from [me]_0-i these last hours . [He]_{5863-my father} must go alone through Death , but let [me]_0-i be with [him]_{5863-my father} as long as [I]_0-i can . Oh , [sir]_5232-sir ! if [you]_5232-sir have any mercy in [you]_5232-sir , leave [him]_{5863-my father} here to die . " [John]_{131-john barton} [himself]_{131-john barton} stood up , stiff and rigid , and replied , "_[145-mary] [Mary]_145-mary , [wench]_5103-wench ! [I]_0-i owe [him]_{5863-my father} summut . [I]_0-i will go die , where , and as [he]_{5863-my father} wishes [me]_0-i . [Thou]_4456-thou hast said true , [I]_0-i am standing side by side with [Death]_190-death ; and it matters little where [I]_0-i spend the bit of time left of Life . That time [I]_0-i must pass in wrestling with [my]_0-i soul for a character to take into [the other world]_{3976-the other world} . [I]_0-i 'll go where [you]_5232-sir see fit , [sir]_5232-sir . [He]_{5863-my father} 's innocent , " faintly indicating [Jem]_154-jem , as [he]_154-jem fell back in [his]_154-jem chair . "_{[5863-my father]} Never fear ! [They]_4459-they can not touch [him]_{5863-my father} , " said [Job Legh]_156-job , in a low voice . But as [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was on the point of leaving [the house]_{803-the house} with no sign of relenting about [him]_{209-mr. carson} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} was again stopped by [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , who had risen once more from [his]_{131-john barton} chair , and stood supporting [himself]_{131-john barton} on [Jem]_154-jem , while [he]_{131-john barton} spoke . "_[5232-sir] [Sir]_5232-sir , one word ! [My]_0-i hairs are gray with suffering , and yours with years-- " "_[0-i] And have [I]_0-i had no suffering ? " asked [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , as if appealing for sympathy , even to [the murderer of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} child]_{6731-his child}]_{7760-the murderer of his child} . And [the murderer of [[his]_{209-mr. carson} child]_{6731-his child}]_{7760-the murderer of his child} answered to the appeal , and groaned in spirit over the anguish [he]_{209-mr. carson} had caused . "_[0-i] Have [I]_0-i had no inward suffering to blanch these hairs ? Have not [I]_0-i toiled and struggled even to these years with hopes in [my]_0-i heart that all centered in [[my]_0-i boy]_{5142-my boy} ? [I]_0-i did not speak of them , but were [they]_4462-they not there ? [I]_0-i seemed hard and cold ; and so [I]_0-i might be to [others]_737-others , but not to [him!--who]_{4464-him!--who} shall ever imagine the love [I]_0-i bore to [him]_{5142-my boy} ? Even [he]_{5142-my boy} never dreamed how [my]_0-i heart leapt up at the sound of [his]_{5142-my boy} footstep , and how precious [he]_{5142-my boy} was to [[his]_{5142-my boy} poor old father.--And]_{4465-his poor old father.--and} [he]_{5142-my boy} is gone -- killed -- out of the hearing of all loving words -- out of [my]_0-i sight for ever . [He]_{5142-my boy} was [my]_0-i sunshine , and now it is night ! Oh , [[my]_0-i God]_{4466-my god} ! comfort [me]_0-i , comfort [me]_0-i ! " cried [the old man]_{6643-the old man} aloud . The eyes of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} grew dim with tears . Rich and poor , [masters]_6156-masters and [men]_1197-men , were then [brothers]_{5186-brothers} in the deep suffering of the heart ; for was not this the very anguish [he]_{131-john barton} had felt for [little Tom]_{373-tom bourne} , in years so long gone by that [they]_7768-they seemed like another life ! [The mourner before [him]_{131-john barton}]_{7769-the mourner before him} was no longer [the employer]_{6208-the employer} ; [a being of another race , eternally placed in antagonistic attitude]_{7771-a being of another race , eternally placed in antagonistic attitude} ; going through [the world]_{1479-the world} glittering like gold , with a stony [heart within , which knew no sorrow but through the accidents of Trade]_{7773-heart within , which knew no sorrow but through the accidents of trade} ; no longer [the enemy]_{7774-the enemy} , [the oppressor]_{7775-the oppressor} , but [a very poor and desolate old man]_{7776-a very poor and desolate old man} . The sympathy for suffering , formerly so prevalent a feeling with [him]_{131-john barton} , again filled [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's heart , and almost impelled [him]_{131-john barton} to speak ( as best [he]_{131-john barton} could ) some earnest , tender words to [the stern man]_{7777-the stern man} , shaking in [his]_{7777-the stern man} agony . But who was [he]_{131-john barton} , that [he]_{131-john barton} should utter sympathy or consolation ? The cause of all this woe . Oh blasting thought ! Oh miserable remembrance ! [He]_{131-john barton} had forfeited all right to bind up [[his]_{131-john barton} brother]_{7778-his brother} 's wounds . Stunned by the thought , [he]_{131-john barton} sank upon the seat , almost crushed with the knowledge of the consequences of [his]_{131-john barton} own action ; for [he]_{131-john barton} had no more imagined to [himself]_{131-john barton} [the blighted home]_{7779-the blighted home} , and [the miserable parents]_{7780-the miserable parents} , than does [the soldier]_{7781-the soldier} , who discharges [his]_{7781-the soldier} musket , picture to [himself]_{7781-the soldier} the desolation of [the wife]_{1298-the wife} , and the pitiful cries of [the helpless little ones , who are in an instant to be made widowed and fatherless]_{7783-the helpless little ones , who are in an instant to be made widowed and fatherless} . To intimidate [a class of men]_{7784-a class of men} , known only to [those below [them]_{7784-a class of men}]_{7785-those below them} as desirous to obtain the greatest quantity of work for the lowest wages,--at most to remove [an overbearing partner]_{7786-an overbearing partner} from an obnoxious firm , who stood in the way of [those who struggled as well as [they]_{7787-those who struggled as well as they were able to obtain their rights,--this} were able to obtain [their]_{7787-those who struggled as well as they were able to obtain their rights,--this} rights,--this]_{7787-those who struggled as well as they were able to obtain their rights,--this} was the light in which [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had viewed [his]_{131-john barton} deed ; and even so viewing it , after the excitement had passed away , [the Avenger]_{7788-the avenger} , [the sure Avenger]_{7789-the sure avenger} , had found [him]_{131-john barton} out . But now [he]_{131-john barton} knew that [he]_{131-john barton} had killed [a man]_{4855-a man} , and a brother,--now [he]_{131-john barton} knew that no good thing could come out of this evil , even to [the sufferers whose cause [he]_{131-john barton} had so blindly espoused]_{7791-the sufferers whose cause he had so blindly espoused} . [He]_{131-john barton} lay across the table , broken - hearted . Every fresh quivering sob of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's stabbed [him]_{131-john barton} to [his]_{131-john barton} soul . [He]_{131-john barton} felt execrated by all ; and as if [he]_{131-john barton} could never lay bare the perverted reasonings which had made the performance of undoubted sin appear a duty . The longing to plead some faint excuse grew stronger and stronger . [He]_{131-john barton} feebly raised [his]_{131-john barton} head , and looking at [Job Legh]_156-job , [he]_{131-john barton} whispered out , "_{[4466-my god]} [I]_0-i did not know what [I]_0-i was doing , [Job Legh]_156-job ; God knows [I]_0-i did n't ! Oh , [sir]_5232-sir ! " said [he]_0-i wildly , almost throwing [himself]_0-i at [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's feet , "_[5232-sir] say [you]_5232-sir forgive [me]_0-i the anguish [I]_0-i now see [I]_0-i have caused [you]_5232-sir . [I]_0-i care not for pain , or death , [you]_5232-sir know [I]_0-i do n't ; but oh , [man]_5236-man ! forgive [me]_0-i the trespass [I]_0-i have done ! " "_[5236-man] Forgive [us]_4469-us [our]_4469-us trespasses as [we]_4469-us forgive [them]_4470-them that trespass against [us]_4469-us , " said [Job]_156-job , solemnly and low , as if in prayer ; as if the words were suggested by those [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had used . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} took [his]_{209-mr. carson} hands away from [his]_{209-mr. carson} face . [I]_4469-us would rather see death than the ghastly gloom which darkened that countenance . "_[4469-us] Let [my]_0-i trespasses be unforgiven , so that [I]_0-i may have vengeance for [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} 's murder . " There are blasphemous actions as well as blasphemous words : all unloving , cruel deeds are acted blasphemy . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} left [the house]_{803-the house} . And [John Barton]_{131-john barton} lay on the ground as [one dead]_{7793-one dead} . [They]_7794-they lifted [him]_{131-john barton} up , and almost hoping that that deep trance might be to [him]_{131-john barton} the end of all earthly things , [they]_7794-they bore [him]_{131-john barton} to [his]_{131-john barton} bed . For a time [they]_7794-they listened with divided attention to [his]_{131-john barton} faint breathings ; for in each hasty hurried step that echoed in [the street outside]_{7795-the street outside} , [they]_7794-they thought [they]_7794-they heard the approach of [the officers of justice]_{7796-the officers of justice} . When [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} left [the house]_{803-the house} [he]_{209-mr. carson} was dizzy with agitation ; the hot blood went careering through [his]_{209-mr. carson} frame . [He]_{209-mr. carson} could not see the deep blue of the night - heavens for the fierce pulses which throbbed in [his]_{209-mr. carson} head . And partly to steady and calm [himself]_{209-mr. carson} , [he]_{209-mr. carson} leaned against a railing , and looked up into those calm majestic depths with all their thousand stars . And by - and - by [his]_{209-mr. carson} own voice returned upon [him]_{209-mr. carson} , as if the last words [he]_{209-mr. carson} had spoken were being uttered through all that infinite space ; but in their echoes there was a tone of unutterable sorrow . "_[4469-us] Let [my]_0-i trespasses be unforgiven , so that [I]_0-i may have vengeance for [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} 's murder . " [He]_{209-mr. carson} tried to shake off the spiritual impression made by this imagination . [He]_{209-mr. carson} was feverish and ill,--and no wonder . So [he]_{209-mr. carson} turned to go homewards ; not , as [he]_{209-mr. carson} had threatened , to [the police - office]_{4447-the police - office} . After all ( [he]_{209-mr. carson} told [himself]_{209-mr. carson} ) , that would do in the morning . No fear of [the man]_{708-the man} 's escaping , unless [he]_{209-mr. carson} escaped to the grave . So [he]_{209-mr. carson} tried to banish the phantom voices and shapes which came unbidden to [his]_{209-mr. carson} brain , and to recall [his]_{209-mr. carson} balance of mind by walking calmly and slowly , and noticing every thing which struck [his]_{209-mr. carson} senses . It was a warm soft evening in spring , and there were [many persons in [the streets]_{772-the streets}]_{7800-many persons in the streets} . Among others , [a nurse with [a little girl]_{2448-a little girl} in [her]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} charge]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} , conveying [her]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} [home]_4755-home from [some children]_{7805-some children} 's gaiety ; a dance most likely , for [the lovely little creature]_{7806-the lovely little creature} was daintily decked out in soft , snowy muslin ; and [her]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} fairy feet tripped along by [[her]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} nurse]_{6600-her nurse} 's side as if to the measure of some tune [she]_{7802-a nurse with a little girl in her charge} had lately kept time to . Suddenly up behind [her]_{6600-her nurse} there came [a rough , rude errand - boy]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} , nine or ten years of age ; a giant [he]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} looked by [the fairy - child]_{7809-the fairy - child} , as [she]_{7809-the fairy - child} fluttered along . [I]_4473-you do n't know how it was , but in some awkward way [he]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} knocked [the poor little girl]_{7810-the poor little girl} down upon the hard pavement as [he]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} brushed rudely past , not much caring whom [he]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} hurt , so that [he]_{7808-a rough , rude errand - boy} got along . [The child]_{805-the child} arose sobbing with pain ; and not without cause , for blood was dropping down from the face , but a minute before so fair and bright -- dropping down on the pretty frock , making those scarlet marks so terrible to [little children]_{7812-little children} . [The nurse]_{2676-the nurse} , [a powerful woman]_{7814-a powerful woman} , had seized [the boy]_{3599-the boy} , just as [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ( who had seen the whole transaction ) came up . "_[4473-you] [[You]_4473-you naughty little rascal]_{4474-you naughty little rascal} ! [I]_0-i 'll give [you]_4473-you to [a policeman]_{4806-a policeman} , that [I]_0-i will ! Do [you]_4473-you see how [you]_4473-you 've hurt [the little girl]_{4476-the little girl} ? Do [you]_4473-you ? " accompanying every sentence with a violent jerk of passionate anger . [The lad]_{4980-the lad} looked hard and defying ; but withal terrified at the threat of [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} , [those ogres of [[our]_7819-our streets]_{7820-our streets} to [all unlucky urchins]_{7821-all unlucky urchins}]_{7818-those ogres of our streets to all unlucky urchins} . [The nurse]_{2676-the nurse} saw it , and began to drag [him]_{4980-the lad} along , with a view of making what [she]_{2676-the nurse} called "_[4473-you] a wholesome impression . " [His]_{4980-the lad} terror increased , and with it [his]_{4980-the lad} irritation ; when [the little sweet face]_{7823-the little sweet face} , choking away its sobs , pulled down [nurse]_2844-nurse 's head and said , "_[4473-you] Please , [dear nurse]_{2842-dear nurse} , [I]_0-i 'm not much hurt ; it was very silly to cry , [you]_{2842-dear nurse} know . [He]_0-i did not mean to do it . _ [He]_0-i did not know what [he]_0-i was doing _ , did [you]_{2842-dear nurse} , [little boy]_{4478-little boy} ? [Nurse]_322-nurse wo n't call [a policeman]_{4806-a policeman} , so do n't be frightened . " And [she]_{4481-that little lady} put up [her]_{4481-that little lady} little mouth to be kissed by [[her]_{4481-that little lady} injurer]_{7825-her injurer} , just as [she]_{4481-that little lady} had been taught to do at [home]_4755-home to "_{[2842-dear nurse]} make peace . " "_{[4480-that lad]} [That lad]_{4480-that lad} will mind , and be more gentle for the time to come , [I]_0-i 'll be bound , thanks to [that little lady]_{4481-that little lady} , " said [a passer - by]_{499-a passer - by} , half to [himself]_0-i , and half to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , whom [he]_0-i had observed to notice the scene . [The latter]_{511-the latter} took no apparent heed of the remark , but passed on . But [the child]_{805-the child} 's pleading reminded [him]_0-i of the low , broken voice [he]_0-i had so lately heard , penitently and humbly urging the same extenuation of [his]_0-i great guilt . "_{[4481-that little lady]} [I]_0-i did not know what [I]_0-i was doing . " [He]_0-i had some association with those words ; [he]_0-i had heard , or read of that plea somewhere before . Where was it ? Could it be-- ? [He]_0-i would look when [he]_0-i got [home]_4755-home . So when [he]_0-i entered [[his]_0-i house]_{1071-his house} [he]_0-i went straight and silently up - stairs to [[his]_0-i library]_{7832-his library} , and took down the great large handsome Bible , all grand and golden , with its leaves adhering together from the bookbinder 's press , so little had it been used . On the first page ( which fell open to [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's view ) were written the names of [[his]_0-i children]_{1273-his children} , and [his]_0-i own . "_{[4481-that little lady]} [Henry John]_{414-henry john} , [son of the above John]_{4482-son of the above john} and [Elizabeth Carson]_{415-elizabeth carson} . Born , Sept. 29th , 1815 . " To make the entry complete , [his]_0-i death should now be added . But the page became hidden by the gathering mist of tears . Thought upon thought , and recollection upon recollection came crowding in , from the remembrance of the proud day when [he]_0-i had purchased the costly book , in order to write down the birth of [the little babe of a day old]_{7834-the little babe of a day old} . [He]_0-i laid [his]_0-i head down on the open page , and let the tears fall slowly on the spotless leaves . [[His]_0-i son]_{1261-his son} 's murderer was discovered ; had confessed [his]_0-i guilt ; and yet ( strange to say ) [he]_0-i could not hate [him]_0-i with the vehemence of hatred [he]_0-i had felt , when [he]_0-i had imagined [him]_0-i [a young man , full of lusty life , defying all laws , human and divine]_{7836-a young man , full of lusty life , defying all laws , human and divine} . In spite of [his]_0-i desire to retain the revengeful feeling [he]_0-i considered as a duty to [[his]_0-i dead son]_{5347-his dead son} , something of pity would steal in for [the poor , wasted skeleton of [a man]_{4855-a man} , the smitten creature , who had told [him]_0-i of [his]_0-i sin , and implored [his]_0-i pardon that night]_{7838-the poor , wasted skeleton of a man , the smitten creature , who had told him of his sin , and implored his pardon that night} . In the days of [his]_0-i childhood and youth , [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had been accustomed to poverty ; but it was honest , decent poverty ; not the grinding squalid misery [he]_0-i had remarked in every part of [[John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's house]_{7840-john barton 's house} , and which contrasted strangely with the pompous sumptuousness of [the room in which [he]_0-i now sat]_{7841-the room in which he now sat} . Unaccustomed wonder filled [his]_0-i mind at the reflection of the different lots of [the brethren of mankind]_{7842-the brethren of mankind} . Then [he]_0-i roused [himself]_0-i from [his]_0-i reverie , and turned to the object of [his]_0-i search -- the Gospel , where [he]_0-i half expected to find the tender pleading : "_[4483-they] [They]_4483-they know not what [they]_4483-they do . " It was murk midnight by this time , and [the house]_{803-the house} was still and quiet . There was nothing to interrupt [the old man]_{6643-the old man} in [his]_{6643-the old man} unwonted study . Years ago , the Gospel had been [his]_{6643-the old man} task - book in learning to read . So many years ago , that [he]_0-i had become familiar with the events before [he]_0-i could comprehend the Spirit that made the Life . [He]_0-i fell to the narrative now afresh , with all the interest of [a little child]_{1319-a little child} . [He]_0-i began at the beginning , and read on almost greedily , understanding for the first time the full meaning of the story . [He]_0-i came to the end ; the awful End . And there were the haunting words of pleading . [He]_0-i shut the book , and thought deeply . All night long , [the Archangel]_{5261-the archangel} combated with [the Demon]_{7847-the demon} . All night long , [others watched by the bed of Death]_{7848-others watched by the bed of death} . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had revived to fitful intelligence . [He]_{131-john barton} spoke at times with even something of [his]_{131-john barton} former energy ; and in the racy Lancashire dialect [he]_{131-john barton} had always used when speaking freely . "_[4484-you] [You]_4484-you see [I]_0-i 've so often been hankering after the right way ; and it 's a hard one for [a poor man]_{4828-a poor man} to find . At least it 's been so to [me]_0-i . [No one]_{1202-no one} learned [me]_0-i , and [no one]_{1202-no one} telled [me]_0-i . When [I]_0-i was [a little chap]_{4488-a little chap} [they]_4489-they taught [me]_0-i to read , and then [[they]_4489-they ne'er]_{4490-they ne'er} gave [me]_0-i no books ; only [I]_0-i heard say the Bible was a good book . So when [I]_0-i grew thoughtful , and puzzled , [I]_0-i took to it . But [you]_4484-you 'd never believe black was black , or night was night , when [you]_4484-you saw all about [you]_4484-you acting as if black was white , and night was day . It 's not much [I]_0-i can say for [myself]_0-i in [t'other world]_{4491-t'other world} , [God]_224-god forgive [me]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i can say this , [I]_0-i would fain have gone after the Bible rules if [I]_0-i 'd seen [folk]_5093-folk credit it ; [they]_5093-folk all spoke up for it , and went and did clean contrary . In those days [I]_0-i would ha ' gone about wi ' [my]_0-i Bible , like [a little child]_{1319-a little child} , [my]_0-i finger in th ' place , and asking the meaning of this or that text , and [no one]_{1202-no one} told [me]_0-i . Then [I]_0-i took out two or three texts as clear as glass , and [I]_0-i tried to do what [they]_5093-folk bid [me]_0-i do . But [I]_0-i do n't know how it was ; [masters]_6156-masters and [men]_1197-men , [all alike]_{4497-all alike} cared no more for minding those texts , than [I]_0-i did for th ' [Lord Mayor of [London]_28-london]_{4498-lord mayor of london} ; so [I]_0-i grew to think it must be a sham put upon [poor ignorant folk]_{4499-poor ignorant folk} , [women]_4730-women , and such - like . " It was not long [I]_0-i tried to live Gospel - wise , but it was liker heaven than [any other bit of earth]_{7849-any other bit of earth} has been . [I]_0-i 'd [old Alice]_{393-aunt alice} to strengthen [me]_0-i ; but [every one else]_{7850-every one else} said , ' Stand up for [thy]_{7850-every one else} rights , or [thou'lt]_{7850-every one else} never get ['em]_7851-'em ; ' and [wife]_510-wife and [children]_{4826-children} never spoke , but [their]_{4826-children} helplessness cried aloud , and [I]_0-i was driven to do as [others]_737-others did,--and then [Tom]_{373-tom bourne} died . [You]_7855-you know all about that -- [I'm]_0-i getting scant o ' breath , and blind - like . "_[0-i] Then again [he]_0-i spoke , after some minutes of hushed silence . " All along it came natural to love [folk]_5093-folk , though now [I]_0-i am what [I]_0-i am . [I]_0-i think one time [I]_0-i could [e'en]_7857-e'en have loved [the masters]_{489-the masters} if [they]_{489-the masters} 'd ha ' letten [me]_0-i ; that was in [my]_0-i Gospel - days , afore [[my]_0-i child]_{4784-my child} died o ' hunger . [I]_0-i was tore in two often - times , between [my]_0-i sorrow for [poor suffering folk]_{7860-poor suffering folk} , and [my]_0-i trying to love [them]_{7860-poor suffering folk} as caused [their]_{7860-poor suffering folk} sufferings ( to [my]_0-i mind ) . "_[0-i] At last [I]_0-i gave it up in despair , trying to make [folks]_4739-folks ' actions square wi ' [th]_4502-th ' Bible ; and [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i 'd no longer labour at following [th ' Bible]_{4503-th ' bible} [mysel]_4504-mysel . [I]_0-i 've said all this afore , may be . But from that time [I]_0-i 've dropped down , down,--down . " After that [he]_0-i only spoke in broken sentences . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did not think [he]_4505-he 'd been such [an old man,--Oh]_{4506-an old man,--oh} ! that [he]_4505-he had but forgiven [me,"--and]_{7861-me,"--and} then came earnest , passionate , broken words of prayer . [Job Legh]_156-job had gone [home]_4755-home like [one struck down with the unexpected shock]_{7863-one struck down with the unexpected shock} . [Mary]_145-mary and [Jem]_154-jem together waited the approach of death ; but as the final struggle drew on , and morning dawned , [Jem]_154-jem suggested some alleviation to the gasping breath , to purchase which [he]_154-jem left [the house]_{803-the house} in search of [a druggist 's shop]_{1366-a druggist 's shop} , which should be open at that early hour . During [his]_154-jem absence , [Barton]_145-mary grew worse ; [he]_154-jem had fallen across the bed , and [his]_154-jem breathing seemed almost stopped ; in vain did [Mary]_145-mary strive to raise [him]_154-jem , [her]_145-mary sorrow and exhaustion had rendered [her]_145-mary too weak . So , on hearing [some one]_{5544-some one} enter [the house - place below]_{6820-the house - place below} , [she]_145-mary cried out for [Jem]_154-jem to come to [her]_145-mary assistance . A step , which was not [Jem]_154-jem 's , came up the stairs . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} stood in the door - way . In one instant [he]_{209-mr. carson} comprehended the case . [He]_{209-mr. carson} raised up the powerless frame ; and [the departing soul]_{7868-the departing soul} looked out of the eyes with gratitude . [He]_{209-mr. carson} held [the dying man]_{7869-the dying man} propped in [his]_{209-mr. carson} arms . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} folded [his]_{131-john barton} hands as if in prayer . "_[224-god] Pray for [us]_4507-us , " said [Mary]_145-mary , sinking on [her]_145-mary knees , and forgetting in that solemn hour all that had divided [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} and [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . No other words could suggest themselves than some of those [he]_{131-john barton} had read only a few hours before . "_[224-god] [God]_224-god be merciful to [us]_4507-us sinners.--Forgive [us]_4507-us [our]_4507-us trespasses as [we]_4507-us forgive [them]_4508-them that trespass against [us]_4507-us . " And when the words were said , [John Barton]_{131-john barton} lay a corpse in [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's arms . So ended the tragedy of [a poor man]_{4828-a poor man} 's life . [Mary]_145-mary knew nothing more for many minutes . When [she]_145-mary recovered consciousness , [she]_145-mary found [herself]_145-mary supported by [Jem]_154-jem on the "_[224-god] settle " in [the house - place]_{614-the house - place} . [Job]_156-job and [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} were [there]_873-there , talking together lowly and solemnly . Then [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} bade farewell and left [the house]_{803-the house} ; and [Job]_156-job said aloud , but as if speaking to [himself]_156-job , "_[224-god] [God]_224-god has heard [that man]_{4509-that man} 's prayer . [He]_224-god has comforted [him]_{4509-that man} . " CHAPTER XXXVI . [JEM]_154-jem 'S INTERVIEW WITH [MR . DUNCOMBE]_{307-mr. duncombe} . "_[224-god] The first dark day of nothingness , The last of danger and distress . " [BYRON]_416-byron . Although [Mary]_145-mary had hardly been conscious of [her]_145-mary thoughts , and it had been more like a secret instinct informing [her]_145-mary soul , than the result of any process of reasoning , [she]_145-mary had felt for some time ( ever since [her]_145-mary return from [Liverpool]_17-liverpool , in fact ) , that for [[her]_145-mary father]_{564-her father} there was but one thing to be desired and anticipated , and that was death ! [She]_145-mary had seen that [Conscience]_{417-conscience} had given the mortal wound to [his]_{564-her father} earthly frame ; [she]_145-mary did not dare to question of the infinite mercy of [God]_224-god , what the Future Life would be to [him]_{564-her father} . Though at first desolate and stunned by the blow which had fallen on [herself]_145-mary , [she]_145-mary was resigned and submissive as soon as [she]_145-mary recovered strength enough to ponder and consider a little ; and [you]_7876-you may be sure that no tenderness or love was wanting on [Jem]_154-jem 's part , and no consideration and sympathy on that of [Job]_156-job and [Margaret]_157-margaret , to soothe and comfort [the girl who now stood alone in [the world]_{1479-the world} as far as blood - relations were concerned]_{7877-the girl who now stood alone in the world as far as blood - relations were concerned} . [She]_145-mary did not ask or care to know what arrangements [they]_7879-they were making in whispered tones with regard to the funeral . [She]_145-mary put [herself]_145-mary into [their]_7879-they hands with the trust of [a little child]_{1319-a little child} ; glad to be undisturbed in the reveries and remembrances which filled [her]_145-mary eyes with tears , and caused them to fall quietly down [her]_145-mary pale cheeks . It was the longest day [she]_145-mary had ever known in [her]_145-mary life ; every charge and every occupation was taken away from [her]_145-mary : but perhaps the length of quiet time thus afforded was really good , although its duration weighed upon [her]_145-mary ; for by this means [she]_145-mary contemplated [her]_145-mary situation in every light , and fully understood that the morning 's event had left [her]_145-mary [an orphan]_{7881-an orphan} ; and thus [she]_145-mary was spared the pangs caused to [us]_7882-we by the occurrence of death in the evening , just before [we]_7882-we should naturally , in the usual course of events , lie down to slumber . For in such case , worn out by anxiety , and it may be by much watching , [our]_7882-we very excess of grief rocks itself to sleep , before [we]_7882-we have had time to realise its cause ; and [we]_7882-we waken , with a start of agony like a fresh stab , to the consciousness of the one awful vacancy , which shall never , while [the world]_{1479-the world} endures , be filled again . The day brought its burden of duty to [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} . [She]_145-mary felt bound by regard , as well as by etiquette , to go and see [[her]_145-mary future daughter - in - law]_{7884-her future daughter - in - law} . And by an old association of ideas ( perhaps of death with [church - yards]_{7885-church - yards} , and [churches]_{7886-churches} with Sunday ) [she]_145-mary thought it necessary to put on [her]_145-mary best , and latterly unused clothes , the airing of which on a little clothes - horse before the fire seemed to give [her]_145-mary a not unpleasing occupation . When [Jem]_154-jem returned [home]_4755-home late in the evening succeeding [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's death , weary and oppressed with the occurrences and excitements of the day , [he]_154-jem found [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} busy about [her]_{787-his mother} mourning , and much inclined to talk . Although [he]_154-jem longed for quiet , [he]_154-jem could not avoid sitting down and answering [her]_{787-his mother} questions . "_[224-god] Well , [Jem]_154-jem , [he]_4510-he 's gone at last , is [he]_4510-he ? " "_[4510-he] Yes . How did [you]_154-jem hear , [mother]_4845-mother ? " "_{[4845-mother]} Oh , [Job]_156-job came over here and telled [me]_0-i , on [his]_156-job way to [the undertaker]_{4512-the undertaker} 's . Did [he]_156-job make a fine end ? " It struck [Jem]_154-jem that [she]_{787-his mother} had not heard of the confession which had been made by [John Barton]_{131-john barton} on [his]_{131-john barton} death - bed ; [he]_154-jem remembered [Job Legh]_156-job 's discretion , and [he]_154-jem determined that if it could be avoided [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} should never hear of it . Many of the difficulties to be anticipated in preserving the secret would be obviated , if [he]_154-jem could induce [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} to fall into the plan [he]_154-jem had named to [Mary]_145-mary of emigrating to [Canada]_122-canada . The reasons which rendered this secrecy desirable related to the domestic happiness [he]_154-jem hoped for . With [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's irritable temper [he]_154-jem could hardly expect that all allusion to the crime of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} would be for ever restrained from passing [her]_{787-his mother} lips , and [he]_154-jem knew the deep trial such references would be to [Mary]_145-mary . Accordingly [he]_154-jem resolved as soon as possible in the morning to go to Job and beseech [his]_154-jem silence ; [he]_154-jem trusted that secrecy in that quarter , even if the knowledge had been extended to [Margaret]_157-margaret , might be easily secured . But what would be [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's course ? Were there any means by which [he]_154-jem might be persuaded to spare [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's memory ? [He]_154-jem was roused up from this train of thought by [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's more irritated tone of voice . "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! " [she]_{787-his mother} was saying , "_[0-i] [thou]_4513-thou might'st just as well never be at a death - bed again , if [thou]_4513-thou can not bring off more news about it ; here have [I]_0-i been by [mysel]_0-i all day ( except when oud [Job]_156-job came in ) , but thinks [I]_0-i , when [Jem]_154-jem comes [he]_154-jem 'll be sure to be good company , seeing [he]_154-jem was in [the house]_{803-the house} at the very time of the death ; and here [thou]_4513-thou art , without a word to throw at a dog , much less [[thy]_4513-thou mother]_{6896-thy mother} : it 's no use [thy]_4513-thou going to [a death - bed]_{4516-a death - bed} if [thou]_4513-thou can not carry away any of the sayings ! " "_[154-jem] [He]_154-jem did not make any , [mother]_4845-mother , " replied [Jem]_154-jem . "_{[4845-mother]} Well , to be sure ! So fond as [he]_154-jem used to be of holding forth , to miss such a fine opportunity that will never come again ! Did [he]_154-jem die easy ? " "_[154-jem] [He]_154-jem was very restless all night long , " said [Jem]_154-jem , reluctantly returning to the thoughts of that time . "_[154-jem] And in course [thou]_4513-thou plucked the pillow away ? [Thou]_4513-thou didst not ! Well ! with [thy]_4513-thou bringing up , and [thy]_4513-thou learning , [thou]_4513-thou might'st have known that were the only help in such a case . There were pigeons ' feathers in the pillow , depend on't . To think of [two grown - up folk like [you]_4519-you and [Mary]_145-mary]_{4518-two grown - up folk like you and mary} , not knowing death could never come easy to [a person lying on a pillow with pigeons ' feathers in]_{4520-a person lying on a pillow with pigeons ' feathers in} ! " [Jem]_154-jem was glad to escape from all this talking to the solitude and quiet of [[his]_154-jem own room]_{6084-his own room} , where [he]_154-jem could lie and think uninterruptedly of what had happened and remained to be done . The first thing was to seek an interview with [Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} , [[his]_154-jem former master]_{7894-his former master} . Accordingly , early the next morning [Jem]_154-jem set off on [his]_154-jem walk to [the works]_{5368-the works} , where for so many years [his]_154-jem days had been spent ; where for so long a time [his]_154-jem thoughts had been thought , [his]_154-jem hopes and fears experienced . It was not a cheering feeling to remember that henceforward [he]_154-jem was to be severed from all [these familiar places]_{7896-these familiar places} ; nor were [his]_154-jem spirits enlivened by the evident feelings of [the majority of those who had been [[his]_154-jem fellow - workmen]_{7898-his fellow - workmen}]_{7897-the majority of those who had been his fellow - workmen} . As [he]_154-jem stood in the entrance to [the foundry]_{6852-the foundry} , awaiting [Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} 's leisure , [many of [those employed in the works]_{7901-those employed in the works}]_{7900-many of those employed in the works} passed [him]_154-jem on [their]_{7900-many of those employed in the works} return from breakfast ; and with one or two exceptions , without any acknowledgment of former acquaintance beyond a distant nod at the utmost . "_[145-mary] It is hard , " said [Jem]_154-jem to [himself]_154-jem , with a bitter and indignant feeling rising in [his]_154-jem throat , "_[145-mary] that let [a man]_{4855-a man} 's life be what it may , [folk]_5093-folk are so ready to credit the first word against [him]_{4855-a man} . [I]_0-i could live it down if [I]_0-i stayed in [England]_46-england ; but then what would not [Mary]_145-mary have to bear ? Sooner or later the truth would out ; and then [she]_145-mary would be a show to [folk]_5093-folk for many a day as [[John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's daughter]_{4524-john barton 's daughter} . Well ! [God]_224-god does not judge as hardly as [man]_5236-man , that 's one comfort for [all of [us]_{5965-all of us}]_{5965-all of us} ! " [Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} did not believe in [Jem]_154-jem 's guilt , in spite of the silence in which [he]_{307-mr. duncombe} again this day heard the imputation of it ; but [he]_{307-mr. duncombe} agreed that under the circumstances it was better [he]_154-jem should leave [the country]_{422-the country} . "_[4527-we] [We]_4527-we have been written to by [government]_{4528-government} , as [I]_0-i think [I]_0-i told [you]_4529-you before , to recommend [an intelligent man , well acquainted with mechanics]_{4530-an intelligent man , well acquainted with mechanics} , as [instrument - maker to [the Agricultural College [they]_{4528-government} are establishing]_{4532-the agricultural college they are establishing} [at [Toronto]_124-toronto , in [Canada]_122-canada]_{123-at toronto , in canada}]_{4531-instrument - maker to the agricultural college they are establishing at toronto , in canada} . It is a comfortable appointment,--house,--land,--and a good per - centage on the instruments made . [I]_0-i will show [you]_4529-you the particulars if [I]_0-i can lay [my]_0-i hand on the letter , which [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i must have left at [home]_4755-home . " "_[0-i] Thank [you]_4529-you , [sir]_5232-sir . No need for seeing the letter to say [I]_0-i 'll accept it . [I]_0-i must leave [Manchester]_1-manchester ; and [I]_0-i 'd as lief quit [England]_46-england at once when [I]_0-i 'm about it . " "_[0-i] Of course government will give [you]_4529-you [your]_4529-you passage ; indeed , [I]_0-i believe an allowance would be made for [a family]_{4535-a family} if [you]_4529-you had one ; but [you]_4529-you are not [a married man]_{4536-a married man} , [I]_0-i believe ? " "_[0-i] No , [sir]_5232-sir , but-- " [Jem]_154-jem hung back from a confession with the awkwardness of [a girl]_{577-a girl} . "_[0-i] But-- " said [Mr. Duncombe]_{307-mr. duncombe} , smiling , "_[0-i] [you]_4529-you would like to be [a married man]_{4536-a married man} before [you]_4529-you go , [I]_0-i suppose ; eh , [Wilson]_154-jem ? " "_[154-jem] If [you]_5232-sir please , [sir]_5232-sir . And there 's [[my]_0-i mother]_{4875-my mother} , too . [I]_0-i hope [she]_{4875-my mother} 'll go with [us]_4541-us . But [I]_0-i can pay [her]_{4875-my mother} passage ; no need to trouble government . " "_[0-i] Nay , nay ! [I]_0-i 'll write to - day and recommend [you]_4529-you ; and say that [you]_4529-you have [a family of two]_{4542-a family of two} . [They]_4543-they 'll never ask if [the family]_{6602-the family} goes upwards or downwards . [I]_0-i shall see [you]_4529-you again before [you]_4529-you sail , [I]_0-i hope , [Wilson]_154-jem ; though [I]_0-i believe [they]_4543-they 'll not allow [you]_4529-you long to wait . Come to [[my]_0-i house]_{5737-my house} next time ; [you]_4529-you 'll find it pleasanter , [I]_0-i daresay . [These men]_{6500-these men} are so wrong - headed . Keep up [your]_4529-you heart ! " [Jem]_154-jem felt that it was a relief to have this point settled ; and that [he]_154-jem need no longer weigh reasons for and against [his]_154-jem emigration . And with [his]_154-jem path growing clearer and clearer before [him]_154-jem the longer [he]_154-jem contemplated it , [he]_154-jem went to see [Mary]_145-mary , and if [he]_154-jem judged it fit , to tell [her]_145-mary what [he]_154-jem had decided upon . [Margaret]_157-margaret was sitting with [her]_145-mary . "_[4529-you] [Grandfather]_{181-grandfather} wants to see [you]_4529-you ! " said [she]_157-margaret to [Jem]_154-jem on [his]_154-jem entrance . "_{[181-grandfather]} And [I]_0-i want to see [him]_{181-grandfather} , " replied [Jem]_154-jem , suddenly remembering [his]_154-jem last night 's determination to enjoin secrecy on [Job Legh]_156-job . So [he]_154-jem hardly stayed to kiss [poor Mary]_145-mary 's sweet woe - begone face , but tore [himself]_154-jem away from [[his]_154-jem darling]_{1455-his darling} to go to [the old man]_{6643-the old man} , who awaited [him]_154-jem impatiently . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 've getten a note from [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , " exclaimed [Job]_156-job the moment [he]_156-job saw [Jem]_154-jem ; "_{[209-mr. carson]} and [man - alive]_{4547-man - alive} , [he]_{181-grandfather} wants to see [thee]_4548-thee and [me]_0-i ! For sure , there 's no more mischief up , is there ? " said [he]_156-job , looking at [Jem]_154-jem with an expression of wonder . But if any suspicion mingled for an instant with the thoughts that crossed [Job]_156-job 's mind , it was immediately dispelled by [Jem]_154-jem 's honest , fearless , open countenance . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i ca n't guess what [he]_{181-grandfather} 's wanting , [poor old chap]_{4549-poor old chap} , " answered [he]_156-job . "_[0-i] May be there 's some point [he]_{181-grandfather} 's not yet satisfied on ; may be -- but it 's no use guessing ; let 's be off . " "_{[4549-poor old chap]} It would n't be better for [thee]_4548-thee to be scarce a bit , would it , and leave [me]_0-i to go and find out what 's up ? [He]_{181-grandfather} has , perhaps , getten some crotchet into [his]_{181-grandfather} head thou'rt [an accomplice]_{3262-an accomplice} , and is laying a trap for [thee]_4548-thee . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm not afeared ! " said [Jem]_154-jem ; "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 've done nought wrong , and know nought wrong , about [yon poor dead lad]_{4551-yon poor dead lad} ; though [I]_0-i 'll own [I]_0-i had evil thoughts once on a time . [Folk]_5093-folk ca n't mistake long if once [they]_5093-folk 'll search into the truth . [I]_0-i 'll go and give [the old gentleman]_{2293-the old gentleman} all the satisfaction in [my]_0-i power , now it can injure [no one]_{1202-no one} . [I]_0-i 'd [my]_0-i own reasons for wanting to see [him]_{2293-the old gentleman} besides , and it all falls in right enough for [me]_0-i . " [Job]_156-job was a little reassured by [Jem]_154-jem 's boldness ; but still , if the truth must be told , [he]_156-job wished [the young man]_{5590-the young man} would follow [his]_156-job advice , and leave [him]_{5590-the young man} to sound [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's intentions . Meanwhile [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} had donned [her]_{130-jane wilson} Sunday suit of black , and set off on [her]_{130-jane wilson} errand of condolence . [She]_{130-jane wilson} felt nervous and uneasy at the idea of the moral sayings and texts which [she]_{130-jane wilson} fancied were expected from [visitors]_927-visitors on occasions like the present ; and prepared many a good set speech as [she]_{130-jane wilson} walked towards [the house of mourning]_{5335-the house of mourning} . As [she]_{130-jane wilson} gently opened the door , [Mary]_145-mary , sitting idly by the fire , caught a glimpse of her,--of [Jem]_154-jem 's mother,--of [the early friend of [her]_145-mary dead]_{7909-the early friend of her dead} parents,--of [the kind minister]_{7910-the kind minister} to many a little want in days of childhood,--and rose and came and fell about [her]_145-mary neck , with many a sob and moan , saying , "_[4555-he] Oh , [he]_4555-he 's gone -- [he]_4555-he 's dead -- all gone -- all dead , and [I]_0-i am left alone ! " "_{[4866-poor wench]} [Poor wench]_{4866-poor wench} ! [poor , poor wench]_{4557-poor , poor wench} ! " said [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} , tenderly kissing [her]_145-mary . "_{[4866-poor wench]} [Thou'rt]_4558-thou not alone , so donnot take on so . [I]_0-i 'll say nought of [Him]_4555-he who 's above , for [thou]_4558-thou know'st [He]_4555-he is ever [[the orphan]_{4559-the orphan} 's friend]_{4560-the orphan 's friend} ; but think on [Jem]_154-jem ! nay , [Mary]_145-mary , dear , think on [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i 'm but [a frabbit woman]_{4561-a frabbit woman} at times , but [I]_0-i 've a heart within [me]_0-i through all [my]_0-i temper , and [thou]_4558-thou shalt be as [a daughter]_{4286-a daughter} henceforward,--as [mine]_0-i own ewe - lamb . [Jem]_154-jem shall not love [thee]_4558-thou better in [his]_154-jem way , than [I]_0-i will in [mine]_0-i ; and [thou'lt]_4558-thou bear with [my]_0-i turns , [Mary]_145-mary , knowing that in [my]_0-i soul [God]_4563-god sees the love that shall ever be thine , if [thou'lt]_4558-thou take [me]_0-i for [[thy]_4558-thou mother]_{6896-thy mother} , and speak no more of being alone . " [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} was weeping [herself]_{134-mrs. wilson} long before [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had ended this speech , which was so different to all [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had planned to say , and from all the formal piety [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} had laid in store for the visit ; for this was heart 's piety , and needed no garnish of texts to make it true religion , pure and undefiled . [They]_7911-they sat together on the same chair , [their]_7911-they arms encircling [each other]_{436-each other} ; [they]_7911-they wept for the same dead ; [they]_7911-they had the same hope , and trust , and overflowing love in the living . From that time forward , hardly a passing cloud dimmed the happy confidence of [their]_7911-they intercourse ; even by [Jem]_154-jem would [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's temper sooner be irritated than by [Mary]_145-mary ; before the latter [she]_{787-his mother} repressed [her]_{787-his mother} occasional nervous ill - humour till the habit of indulging it was perceptibly decreased . Years afterwards in conversation with [Jem]_154-jem , [he]_154-jem was startled by a chance expression which dropped from [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's lips ; it implied a knowledge of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's crime . It was many a long day since [they]_7911-they had seen [any [Manchester]_1-manchester people who could have revealed the secret ( if indeed it was known in [Manchester]_1-manchester , against which [Jem]_154-jem had guarded in every possible way )]_{7915-any manchester people who could have revealed the secret ( if indeed it was known in manchester , against which jem had guarded in every possible way )} . And [he]_154-jem was led to inquire first as to the extent , and then as to the source of [her]_{787-his mother} knowledge . It was [Mary]_145-mary [herself]_145-mary who had told all . For on the morning to which this chapter principally relates , as [Mary]_145-mary sat weeping , and as [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} comforted [her]_145-mary by every tenderest word and caress , [she]_{787-his mother} revealed to the dismayed and astonished [Jane]_{130-jane wilson} , the sting of [her]_{787-his mother} deep sorrow ; the crime which stained [[her]_{787-his mother} dead father]_{7916-her dead father} 's memory . [She]_{787-his mother} was quite unconscious that [Jem]_154-jem had kept it secret from [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} ; [she]_{787-his mother} had imagined it bruited abroad as the suspicion against [[her]_{787-his mother} lover]_{2048-her lover} had been ; so word after word ( dropped from [her]_{787-his mother} lips in the supposition that [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} knew all ) had told the tale and revealed the cause of [her]_{787-his mother} deep anguish ; deeper than is ever caused by Death alone . On large occasions like the present , [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} 's innate generosity came out . [Her]_{787-his mother} weak and ailing frame imparted its irritation to [her]_{787-his mother} conduct in small things , and daily trifles ; but [she]_{787-his mother} had deep and noble sympathy with great sorrows , and even at the time that [Mary]_145-mary spoke [she]_{787-his mother} allowed no expression of surprise or horror to escape [her]_{787-his mother} lips . [She]_{787-his mother} gave way to no curiosity as to the untold details ; [she]_{787-his mother} was as secret and trustworthy as [[her]_{787-his mother} son]_{2056-her son} [himself]_{2056-her son} ; and if in years to come [her]_{787-his mother} anger was occasionally excited against [Mary]_145-mary , and [she]_{787-his mother} , on rare occasions , yielded to ill - temper against [[her]_{787-his mother} daughter - in - law]_{7920-her daughter - in - law} , [she]_{787-his mother} would upbraid [her]_145-mary for extravagance , or stinginess , or over - dressing , or under - dressing , or too much mirth or too much gloom , but never , never in [her]_{787-his mother} most uncontrolled moments did [she]_{787-his mother} allude to any one of the circumstances relating to [Mary]_145-mary 's flirtation with [Harry Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , or [[his]_{209-mr. carson} murderer]_{6102-his murderer} ; and always when [she]_{787-his mother} spoke of [John Barton]_{131-john barton} , named [him]_{131-john barton} with the respect due to [his]_{131-john barton} conduct before the last , miserable , guilty month of [his]_{131-john barton} life . Therefore it came like a blow to [Jem]_154-jem when , after years had passed away , [he]_154-jem gathered [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} 's knowledge of the whole affair . From the day when [he]_154-jem learnt ( not without remorse ) what hidden depths of self - restraint [she]_{787-his mother} had in [her]_{787-his mother} soul , [his]_154-jem manner to [her]_{787-his mother} , always tender and respectful , became reverential ; and it was more than ever a loving strife between [him]_154-jem and [Mary]_145-mary which should most contribute towards the happiness of the declining years of [[their]_7923-their mother]_{539-their mother} . But [I]_{4785-the rich man} am speaking of the events which have occurred only lately , while [I]_{4785-the rich man} have yet many things to tell [you]_7925-you that happened six or seven years ago . CHAPTER XXXVII . DETAILS CONNECTED WITH THE MURDER . "_{[4785-the rich man]} [The rich man]_{4785-the rich man} dines , while [the poor man]_{5145-the poor man} pines , And eats [his]_{5145-the poor man} heart away ; ' [They]_4567-they teach [us]_4568-us lies , ' [he]_{5145-the poor man} sternly cries , ' Would _ [brothers]_{5186-brothers} _ do as [they]_4567-they ? ' " "_{[5145-the poor man]} THE DREAM . " [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} stood at one of the breathing - moments of life . The object of the toils , the fears , and the wishes of [his]_{209-mr. carson} past years , was suddenly hidden from [his]_{209-mr. carson} sight,--vanished into the deep mystery which circumscribes existence . Nay , even the vengeance which [he]_{209-mr. carson} had proposed to [himself]_{209-mr. carson} as an aim for exertion , had been taken away from before [his]_{209-mr. carson} eyes , as by the hand of [God]_224-god . Events like these would have startled the most thoughtless into reflection , much more such [a man as [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , whose mind , if not enlarged , was energetic ; indeed , whose very energy , having been hitherto the cause of the employment of [his]_{209-mr. carson} powers in only one direction , had prevented [him]_{209-mr. carson} from becoming largely and philosophically comprehensive in [his]_{209-mr. carson} views]_{7926-a man as mr. carson , whose mind , if not enlarged , was energetic ; indeed , whose very energy , having been hitherto the cause of the employment of his powers in only one direction , had prevented him from becoming largely and philosophically comprehensive in his views} . But now the foundations of [his]_{209-mr. carson} past life were razed to the ground , and [the place [they]_4567-they had once occupied]_{7927-the place they had once occupied} was sown with salt , to be for ever rebuilt no more . It was like the change from this Life to that other hidden one , when so many of the motives which have actuated all [our]_4568-us earthly existence , will have become more fleeting than the shadows of a dream . With a wrench of [his]_{209-mr. carson} soul from the past , so much of which was as nothing , and worse than nothing to [him]_{209-mr. carson} now , [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} took some hours , after [he]_{209-mr. carson} had witnessed the death of [[[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} 's murderer]_{7929-his son 's murderer} , to consider [his]_{209-mr. carson} situation . But suddenly , while [he]_{209-mr. carson} was deliberating , and searching for motives which should be effective to compel [him]_{209-mr. carson} to exertion and action once more ; while [he]_{209-mr. carson} contemplated the desire after riches , social distinction , a name among [the merchant - princes amidst whom [he]_{209-mr. carson} moved]_{7930-the merchant - princes amidst whom he moved} , and saw these false substances fade away into the shadows they truly are , and one by one disappear into the grave of [his]_{209-mr. carson} son,--suddenly , [I]_{5145-the poor man} say , the thought arose within [him]_{209-mr. carson} that more yet remained to be learned about the circumstances and feelings which had prompted [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's crime ; and when once this mournful curiosity was excited , it seemed to gather strength in every moment that its gratification was delayed . Accordingly [he]_{209-mr. carson} sent a message to summon [Job Legh]_156-job and [Jem Wilson]_154-jem , from whom [he]_{209-mr. carson} promised [himself]_{209-mr. carson} some elucidation of what was as yet unexplained ; while [he]_{209-mr. carson} [himself]_{209-mr. carson} set forth to call on [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} , whom [he]_{209-mr. carson} knew to have been [[Jem]_154-jem 's attorney]_{7931-jem 's attorney} , with a glimmering suspicion intruding on [his]_{209-mr. carson} mind , which [he]_{209-mr. carson} strove to repel , that [Jem]_154-jem might have had some share in [[his]_{209-mr. carson} son]_{1261-his son} 's death . [He]_{209-mr. carson} had returned before [[his]_{209-mr. carson} summoned visitors]_{7933-his summoned visitors} arrived ; and had time enough to recur to the evening on which [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had made [his]_{131-john barton} confession . [He]_{209-mr. carson} remembered with mortification how [he]_{209-mr. carson} had forgotten [his]_{209-mr. carson} proud reserve , and [his]_{209-mr. carson} habitual concealment of [his]_{209-mr. carson} feelings , and had laid bare [his]_{209-mr. carson} agony of grief in the presence of [these two men]_{7934-these two men} who were coming to see [him]_{209-mr. carson} by [his]_{209-mr. carson} desire ; and [he]_{209-mr. carson} entrenched [himself]_{209-mr. carson} behind stiff barriers of self - control , through which [he]_{209-mr. carson} hoped no appearance of emotion would force its way in the conversation [he]_{209-mr. carson} anticipated . Nevertheless , when [the servant]_{6625-the servant} announced that [two men]_{1144-two men} were there by appointment to speak to [him]_{209-mr. carson} , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} had desired that [they]_{1144-two men} might be shown into [the library]_{7937-the library} where [he]_{209-mr. carson} sat , [any watcher]_{7938-any watcher} might have perceived by the trembling hands , and shaking head , not only how much [he]_{209-mr. carson} was aged by the occurrences of the last few weeks , but also how much [he]_{209-mr. carson} was agitated at the thought of the impending interview . But [he]_{209-mr. carson} so far succeeded in commanding [himself]_{209-mr. carson} at first , as to appear to [Jem Wilson]_154-jem and [Job Legh]_156-job one of [the hardest and most haughty men [they]_{1144-two men} had ever spoken to]_{7939-the hardest and most haughty men they had ever spoken to} , and to forfeit all the interest which [he]_{209-mr. carson} had previously excited in [their]_{1144-two men} minds by [his]_{209-mr. carson} unreserved display of deep and genuine feeling . When [he]_{209-mr. carson} had desired [them]_{1144-two men} to be seated , [he]_{209-mr. carson} shaded [his]_{209-mr. carson} face with [his]_{209-mr. carson} hand for an instant before speaking . "_{[5145-the poor man]} [I]_0-i have been calling on [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} this morning , " said [he]_{209-mr. carson} , at last ; "_{[353-mr. bridgenorth]} as [I]_0-i expected , [he]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} can give [me]_0-i but little satisfaction on some points respecting the occurrence on the 18th of last month which [I]_0-i desire to have cleared up . Perhaps [you]_4570-you two can tell [me]_0-i what [I]_0-i want to know . As [intimate friends of [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's [you]_4570-you probably know]_{4571-intimate friends of barton 's you probably know} , or can conjecture a good deal . Have no scruple as to speaking the truth . What [you]_4570-you say in [this room]_{4572-this room} shall never be named again by [me]_0-i . Besides , [you]_4570-you are aware that the law allows [no one]_{1202-no one} to be tried twice for the same offence . " [He]_0-i stopped for a minute , for the mere act of speaking was fatiguing to [him]_0-i after the excitement of the last few weeks . [Job Legh]_156-job took the opportunity of speaking . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm not going to be affronted either for [myself]_0-i or [Jem]_154-jem at what [you]_4570-you 've just now been saying about the truth . [You]_4570-you do n't know [us]_4574-us , and there 's an end on't ; only it 's as well for [folk]_5093-folk to think [others]_737-others good and true until [they]_737-others 're proved contrary . Ask what [you]_4570-you like , [sir]_5232-sir , [I]_0-i 'll answer for it [we]_4574-us 'll either tell truth or hold [our]_4574-us tongues . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i beg [your]_4570-you pardon , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , slightly bowing [his]_0-i head . "_[4570-you] What [I]_0-i wished to know was , " referring to a slip of paper [he]_0-i held in [his]_0-i hand , and shaking so much [he]_0-i could hardly adjust [his]_0-i glasses to [his]_0-i eyes , "_[4570-you] whether [you]_4570-you , [Wilson]_154-jem , can explain how [Barton]_{131-john barton} came possessed of [your]_4570-you gun . [I]_0-i believe [you]_4570-you refused this explanation to [Mr. Bridgenorth]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did , [sir]_5232-sir ! If [I]_0-i had said what [I]_0-i knew then , [I]_0-i saw it would criminate [Barton]_{131-john barton} , and so [I]_0-i refused telling aught . To [you]_5232-sir , [sir]_5232-sir , now [I]_0-i will tell every thing and any thing ; only it is but little . The gun was [[my]_0-i father]_{5863-my father} 's before it was [mine]_0-i , and long ago [he]_{5863-my father} and [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had a fancy for shooting at [the gallery]_{6833-the gallery} ; and [they]_4582-they used always to take this gun , and brag that though it was old - fashioned it was sure . " [Jem]_154-jem saw with self - upbraiding pain how [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} winced at these last words , but at each irrepressible and involuntary evidence of feeling , the hearts of [the two men]_{566-the two men} warmed towards [him]_154-jem . [Jem]_154-jem went on speaking . "_[4582-they] One day in the week -- [I]_0-i think it was on the Wednesday,--yes , it was,--it was on [St. Patrick]_{418-st. patrick} 's day , [I]_0-i met [John]_{131-john barton} just coming out of [[our]_4583-our house]_{4767-our house} , as [I]_0-i were going to [my]_0-i dinner . [Mother]_161-mother was out , and [he]_{5863-my father} 'd found [no one]_{1202-no one} in . [He]_{5863-my father} said [he]_{5863-my father} 'd come to borrow the old gun , and that [he]_{5863-my father} 'd have made bold , and taken it , but it was not to be seen . [Mother]_161-mother was afraid of it , so after [father]_4863-father 's death ( for while [he]_4863-father were alive , [she]_161-mother seemed to think [he]_4863-father could manage it ) [I]_0-i had carried [it]_4587-it to [[my]_0-i own room]_{4588-my own room} . [I]_0-i went up and fetched it for [John]_{131-john barton} , who stood outside the door all the time . " "_{[131-john barton]} What did [he]_{5863-my father} say [he]_{5863-my father} wanted it for ? " asked [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , hastily . "_{[5863-my father]} [I]_0-i do n't think [he]_{5863-my father} spoke when [I]_0-i gave it [him]_{5863-my father} . At first [he]_{5863-my father} muttered something about [the shooting - gallery]_{4589-the shooting - gallery} , and [I]_0-i never doubted but that it were for practice there , as [I]_0-i knew [he]_{5863-my father} had done years before . " [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had strung up [his]_{209-mr. carson} frame to an attitude of upright attention while [Jem]_154-jem was speaking ; now the tension relaxed , and [he]_{209-mr. carson} sank back in [his]_{209-mr. carson} chair , weak and powerless . [He]_{209-mr. carson} rose up again , however , as [Jem]_154-jem went on , anxious to give every particular which could satisfy [the bereaved father]_{6623-the bereaved father} . "_{[5863-my father]} [I]_0-i never knew for what [he]_{5863-my father} wanted the gun till [I]_0-i was taken up,--I do not know yet why [he]_{5863-my father} wanted it . [No one]_{1202-no one} would have had [me]_0-i get out of the scrape by implicating [an old friend,--my father 's old friend]_{4591-an old friend,--my father 's old friend} , and [the father of [the girl [I]_0-i loved]_{4593-the girl i loved}]_{4592-the father of the girl i loved} . So [I]_0-i refused to tell [Mr. Bridgenorth aught]_{353-mr. bridgenorth} about it , and would not have named it now to [any one]_{504-any one} but [you]_4595-you . " [Jem]_154-jem 's face became very red at the allusion [he]_154-jem made to [Mary]_145-mary , but [his]_154-jem honest , fearless eyes had met [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} 's penetrating gaze unflinchingly , and had carried conviction of [his]_154-jem innocence and truthfulness . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} felt certain that [he]_{209-mr. carson} had heard all that [Jem]_154-jem could tell . Accordingly [he]_{209-mr. carson} turned to [Job Legh]_156-job . "_[4595-you] [You]_4595-you were in [the room]_{616-the room} the whole time while [Barton]_{131-john barton} was speaking to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i think ? " "_[0-i] Yes , [sir]_5232-sir , " answered [Job]_156-job . "_[0-i] [You]_5232-sir 'll excuse [my]_0-i asking plain and direct questions ; the information [I]_0-i am gaining is really a relief to [my]_0-i mind , [I]_0-i do n't know how , but it is,--will [you]_5232-sir tell [me]_0-i if [you]_5232-sir had any idea of [Barton]_{131-john barton} 's guilt in this matter before ? " "_[5232-sir] None whatever , so help [me]_0-i [God]_224-god ! " said [Job]_156-job , solemnly . "_[224-god] To tell truth ( and axing [your]_5232-sir forgiveness , [Jem]_154-jem ) , [I]_0-i had never got quite shut of the notion that [Jem]_154-jem here had done it . At times [I]_0-i was as clear of [his]_154-jem innocence as [I]_0-i was of [my]_0-i own ; and whenever [I]_0-i took to reasoning about it , [I]_0-i saw [he]_154-jem could not have been [the man that did it]_{6952-the man that did it} . Still [I]_0-i never thought of [Barton]_{131-john barton} . " "_{[131-john barton]} And yet by [his]_154-jem confession [he]_154-jem must have been absent at the time , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , referring to [his]_{209-mr. carson} slip of paper . "_[154-jem] Ay , and for many a day after,--I ca n't rightly say how long . But still , [you]_5232-sir see , [one]_518-one 's often blind to many a thing that lies right under one 's nose , till it 's pointed out . And till [I]_0-i heard what [John Barton]_{131-john barton} had to say yon night , [I]_0-i could not have seen what reason [he]_{131-john barton} had for doing it ; while in the case of [Jem]_154-jem , [any one who looked at [Mary Barton]_145-mary]_{4600-any one who looked at mary barton} might have seen a cause for jealousy , clear enough . " "_[154-jem] Then [you]_154-jem believe that [Barton]_{131-john barton} had no knowledge of [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} 's unfortunate,-- " [he]_0-i looked at [Jem]_154-jem , "_{[131-john barton]} of [his]_{131-john barton} attentions to [Mary Barton]_145-mary . [This young man]_{4602-this young man} , [Wilson]_154-jem , had heard of [them]_4603-them , [you]_5232-sir see . " "_{[4602-this young man]} [The person who told [me]_0-i]_{4604-the person who told me} said clearly [she]_{4604-the person who told me} neither had , nor would tell [[Mary]_145-mary 's father]_{1067-mary 's father} , " interposed [Jem]_154-jem . "_{[4604-the person who told me]} [I]_0-i do n't believe [he]_{1067-mary 's father} 'd ever heard of it ; [he]_{1067-mary 's father} were n't [a man to keep still in such a matter]_{4606-a man to keep still in such a matter} , if [he]_{1067-mary 's father} had . " "_{[1067-mary 's father]} Besides , " said [Job]_156-job , "_{[1067-mary 's father]} the reason [he]_{1067-mary 's father} gave on [his]_{1067-mary 's father} death - bed , so to speak , was enough ; ' specially to [those who knew [him]_{1067-mary 's father}]_{4607-those who knew him} . " "_{[1067-mary 's father]} [You]_5232-sir mean [his]_{1067-mary 's father} feelings regarding the treatment of [the workmen]_{441-the workmen} by [the masters]_{489-the masters} ; [you]_5232-sir think [he]_{1067-mary 's father} acted from motives of revenge , in consequence of the part [[my]_0-i son]_{1855-my son} had taken in putting down the strike ? " "_{[1067-mary 's father]} Well , [sir]_5232-sir , " replied [Job]_156-job , "_[5232-sir] it 's hard to say : [John Barton]_{131-john barton} was not [a man]_{4855-a man} to take counsel with [people]_4744-people ; nor did [he]_{131-john barton} make many words about [his]_{131-john barton} doings . So [I]_0-i can only judge from [his]_{131-john barton} way of thinking and talking in general , never having heard [him]_{131-john barton} breathe a syllable concerning this matter in particular . [You]_4614-you see [he]_{131-john barton} were sadly put about to make great riches and great poverty square with [Christ]_325-christ 's Gospel"--Job paused , in order to try and express what was clear enough in [his]_{131-john barton} own mind , as to the effect produced on [John Barton]_{131-john barton} by the great and mocking contrasts presented by the varieties of human condition . Before [he]_{131-john barton} could find suitable words to explain [his]_{131-john barton} meaning , [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} spoke . "_[4614-you] [You]_4614-you mean [he]_{131-john barton} was [an Owenite]_{4615-an owenite} ; all for equality and community of goods , and that kind of absurdity . " "_[4614-you] No , no ! [John Barton]_{131-john barton} was [no fool]_{4616-no fool} . No need to tell [him]_{131-john barton} that were [all men]_{4617-all men} equal to - night , [some]_797-some would get the start by rising an hour earlier to - morrow . Nor yet did [he]_{131-john barton} care for goods , nor wealth -- [no man]_{1243-no man} less , so that [he]_{131-john barton} could get daily bread for [him]_{131-john barton} and [his]_4620-his ; but what hurt [him]_{131-john barton} sore , and rankled in [him]_{131-john barton} as long as [I]_0-i knew [him]_{131-john barton} ( and , [sir]_5232-sir , it rankles in many [a poor man]_{4828-a poor man} 's heart far more than the want of any creature - comforts , and puts a sting into starvation itself ) , was that [those who wore finer clothes , and eat better food]_{4623-those who wore finer clothes , and eat better food} , and had more money in [their]_{4623-those who wore finer clothes , and eat better food} pockets , kept [him]_{131-john barton} at arm 's length , and cared not whether [his]_{131-john barton} heart was sorry or glad ; whether [he]_{131-john barton} lived or died,--whether [he]_{131-john barton} was bound for heaven or hell . It seemed hard to [him]_{131-john barton} that a heap of gold should part [him]_{131-john barton} and [[his]_{131-john barton} brother]_{7778-his brother} so far asunder . For [he]_{131-john barton} was [a loving man]_{4625-a loving man} before [he]_{131-john barton} grew mad with seeing such as [he]_{131-john barton} was slighted , as if [Christ]_325-christ [Himself]_{131-john barton} had not been poor . At one time , [I]_0-i 've heard [him]_{131-john barton} say , [he]_{131-john barton} felt kindly towards [every man]_{2687-every man} , rich or poor , because [he]_{131-john barton} thought [they]_{2687-every man} were [all men alike]_{4627-all men alike} . But latterly [he]_{131-john barton} grew aggravated with the sorrows and suffering that [he]_{131-john barton} saw , and which [he]_{131-john barton} thought [the masters]_{489-the masters} might help if [they]_{489-the masters} would . " "_{[131-john barton]} That 's the notion [you]_4629-you 've all of [you]_4629-you got , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . "_[4629-you] Now , how in [the world]_{1479-the world} can [we]_4631-we help it ? [We]_4631-we can not regulate the demand for labour . [No man]_{1243-no man} or set of [men]_1197-men can do it . It depends on events which [God]_224-god alone can control . When there is no market for [our]_4631-we goods , [we]_4631-we suffer just as much as [you]_4634-you can do . " "_[4634-you] Not as much , [I]_0-i 'm sure , [sir]_5232-sir ; though [I]_0-i 'm not given to Political Economy , [I]_0-i know that much . [I]_0-i 'm wanting in learning , [I]_0-i 'm aware ; but [I]_0-i can use [my]_0-i eyes . [I]_0-i never see [the masters]_{489-the masters} getting thin and haggard for want of food ; [I]_0-i hardly ever see [them]_{489-the masters} making much change in [their]_{489-the masters} way of living , though [I]_0-i do n't doubt [they]_{489-the masters} 've got to do it in bad times . But it 's in things for show [they]_{489-the masters} cut short ; while for such as [me]_0-i , it 's in things for life [we]_4631-we 've to stint . For sure , [sir]_5232-sir , [you]_4634-you 'll own it 's come to a hard pass when [a man]_{4855-a man} would give aught in [the world]_{1479-the world} for work to keep [[his]_{4855-a man} children]_{1273-his children} from starving , and ca n't get a bit , if [he]_{4855-a man} 's ever so willing to labour . [I]_0-i 'm not up to talking as [John Barton]_{131-john barton} would have done , but that 's clear to [me]_0-i at any rate . " "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i good man]_{2532-my good man} , just listen to [me]_0-i . [Two men]_{1144-two men} live in solitude ; [one]_518-one produces loaves of bread , the other coats,--or what [you]_4634-you will . Now , would it not be hard if [the bread - producer]_{4644-the bread - producer} were forced to give bread for the coats , whether [he]_{4644-the bread - producer} wanted them or not , in order to furnish employment to the other ? That is the simple form of the case ; [you]_4634-you 've only to multiply the numbers . There will come times of great changes in the occupation of [thousands]_{5454-thousands} , when improvements in manufactures and machinery are made.--It 's all nonsense talking,--it must be so ! " [Job Legh]_156-job pondered a few moments . "_{[5454-thousands]} It 's true it was a sore time for [the hand - loom weavers]_{4646-the hand - loom weavers} when power - looms came in : them new - fangled things make [a man]_{4855-a man} 's life like a lottery ; and yet [I]_0-i 'll never misdoubt that power - looms , and [railways]_{4648-railways} , and all such - like inventions , are the gifts of [God]_224-god . [I]_0-i have lived long enough , too , to see that it is part of [His]_224-god plan to send suffering to bring out a higher good ; but surely it 's also part of [His]_224-god plan that as much of the burden of the suffering as can be , should be lightened by those whom it is [His]_224-god pleasure to make happy , and content in [their]_4649-their own circumstances . Of course it would take a deal more thought and wisdom than [me]_0-i , or [any other man]_{4650-any other man} has , to settle out of hand how this should be done . But [I]_0-i 'm clear about this , when [God]_224-god gives a blessing to be enjoyed , [He]_224-god gives it with a duty to be done ; and the duty of the happy is to help the suffering to bear [their]_4649-their woe . " "_[224-god] Still , facts have proved and are daily proving how much better it is for [every man]_{2687-every man} to be independent of help , and self - reliant , " said [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} , thoughtfully . "_[4652-you] [You]_4652-you can never work facts as [you]_4652-you would fixed quantities , and say , given two facts , and the product is so and so . [God]_224-god has given [men]_1197-men feelings and passions which can not be worked into the problem , because they are for ever changing and uncertain . [God]_224-god has also made [some weak]_{4654-some weak} ; not in any one way , but in all . [One]_518-one is weak in body , another in mind , another in steadiness of purpose , a fourth ca n't tell right from wrong , and so on ; or if [he]_224-god can tell the right , [he]_224-god wants strength to hold by it . Now to [my]_0-i thinking , [them]_4656-them that is strong in any of [God]_224-god 's gifts is meant to help the weak,--be hanged to the facts ! [I]_0-i ask [your]_4657-you pardon , [sir]_5232-sir ; [I]_0-i ca n't rightly explain the meaning that is in [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i 'm like a tap as wo n't run , but keeps letting it out drop by drop , so that [you]_4652-you 've no notion of the force of what 's within . " [Job]_156-job looked and felt very sorrowful at the want of power in [his]_156-job words , while the feeling within [him]_156-job was so strong and clear . "_[4657-you] What [you]_4657-you say is very true , no doubt , " replied [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} ; "_[4657-you] but how would [you]_4657-you bring it to bear upon [the masters]_{489-the masters} ' conduct,--on [my]_0-i particular case ? " added [he]_{209-mr. carson} , gravely . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm not learned enough to argue . Thoughts come into [my]_0-i head that [I]_0-i 'm sure are as true as Gospel , though may be [they]_4660-they do n't follow each other like the Q. E. D. of a Proposition . [The masters]_{489-the masters} has it on [their]_{489-the masters} own conscience,--you have it on [yours]_4652-you , [sir]_5232-sir , to answer for to [God]_224-god whether [you]_4652-you 've done , and are doing all in [your]_4652-you power to lighten the evils that seem always to hang on the trades by which [you]_4652-you make [your]_4652-you fortunes . It 's no business of [mine]_0-i , thank [God]_224-god . [John Barton]_{131-john barton} took the question in hand , and [his]_{131-john barton} answer to it was NO ! Then [he]_{131-john barton} grew bitter , and angry , and mad ; and in [his]_{131-john barton} madness [he]_{131-john barton} did a great sin , and wrought a great woe ; and repented [him]_{131-john barton} with tears as of blood ; and will go through [his]_{131-john barton} penance humbly and meekly in t'other place , [I]_0-i 'll be bound . [I]_0-i never seed such bitter repentance as [his]_{131-john barton} that last night . " There was a silence of many minutes . [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} had covered [his]_{209-mr. carson} face , and seemed utterly forgetful of [their]_4663-you presence ; and yet [they]_4663-you did not like to disturb [him]_{209-mr. carson} by rising to leave [the room]_{616-the room} . At last [he]_0-i said , without meeting [their]_4663-you sympathetic eyes , "_[0-i] Thank [you]_4663-you both for coming,--and for speaking candidly to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i fear , [Legh]_156-job , neither [you]_4663-you nor [I]_0-i have convinced [each other]_{436-each other} , as to the power , or want of power , in [the masters]_{489-the masters} to remedy the evils [the men]_{1152-the men} complain of . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm loth to vex [you]_4663-you , [sir]_5232-sir , just now ; but it was not the want of power [I]_0-i was talking on ; what [we]_4668-we all feel sharpest is the want of inclination to try and help the evils which come like blights at times over [the manufacturing places]_{4669-the manufacturing places} , while [we]_4668-we see [the masters]_{489-the masters} can stop work and not suffer . If [we]_4668-we saw [the masters]_{489-the masters} try for [our]_4668-we sakes to find a remedy,--even if [they]_{489-the masters} were long about it,--even if [they]_{489-the masters} could find no help , and at the end of all could only say , ' [Poor fellows]_{1511-poor fellows} , [our]_4668-we hearts are sore for [ye]_{1511-poor fellows} ; [we]_4668-we 've done all [we]_4668-we could , and ca n't find a cure,'--we'd bear up like [men]_1197-men through bad times . [No one]_{1202-no one} knows till [they]_{1202-no one} 've tried , what power of bearing lies in [them]_{1202-no one} , if once [they]_{1202-no one} believe that [men]_1197-men are caring for [their]_1197-men sorrows and will help if [they]_1197-men can . If [fellow - creatures]_{4676-fellow - creatures} can give nought but tears and brave words , [we]_4668-we take [our]_4668-we trials straight from [God]_224-god , and [we]_4668-we know enough of [His]_224-god love to put [ourselves]_4668-we blind into [His]_224-god hands . [You]_4677-you say [our]_4668-we talk has done no good . [I]_0-i say it has . [I]_0-i see the view [you]_4677-you take of things from the place where [you]_4677-you stand . [I]_0-i can remember that , when the time comes for judging [you]_4677-you ; [I]_0-i sha'n't think any longer , does [he]_224-god act right on [my]_0-i views of a thing , but does [he]_224-god act right on [his]_224-god own . It has done [me]_0-i good in that way . [I]_0-i 'm [an old man]_{1627-an old man} , and may never see [you]_4677-you again ; but [I]_0-i 'll pray for [you]_4677-you , and think on [you]_4677-you and [your]_4677-you trials , both of [your]_4677-you great wealth , and of [[your]_4677-you son]_{2919-your son} 's cruel death , many and many a day to come ; and [I]_0-i 'll ask [God]_224-god to bless both to [you]_4677-you now and for evermore . Amen . Farewell ! " [Jem]_154-jem had maintained a manly and dignified reserve ever since [he]_154-jem had made [his]_154-jem open statement of all [he]_154-jem knew . Now both [the men]_{1152-the men} rose and bowed low , looking at [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} with the deep human interest [they]_{1152-the men} could not fail to take in [one who had endured and forgiven a deep injury]_{7944-one who had endured and forgiven a deep injury} ; and who struggled hard , as it was evident [he]_{7944-one who had endured and forgiven a deep injury} did , to bear up like [a man under [his]_{7944-one who had endured and forgiven a deep injury} affliction]_{7945-a man under his affliction} . [He]_154-jem bowed low in return to [them]_{1152-the men} . Then [he]_154-jem suddenly came forward and shook [them]_{1152-the men} by the hand ; and thus , without a word more , [they]_{1152-the men} parted . There are stages in the contemplation and endurance of great sorrow , which endow [men]_1197-men with the same earnestness and clearness of thought that in some of old took the form of Prophecy . To [those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} , there comes a time in [their]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} woe , when [they]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} are lifted out of the contemplation of [their]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} individual case into a searching inquiry into the nature of [their]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} calamity , and the remedy ( if remedy there be ) which may prevent its recurrence to [others]_737-others as well as to [themselves]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} . Hence the beautiful , noble efforts which are from time to time brought to light , as being continuously made by [those who have once hung on the cross of agony]_{7949-those who have once hung on the cross of agony} , in order that [others]_737-others may not suffer as [they]_{7947-those who have large capability of loving and suffering , united with great power of firm endurance} have done ; one of the grandest ends which sorrow can accomplish ; [the sufferer]_{7951-the sufferer} wrestling with [God]_224-god 's messenger until a blessing is left behind , not for one alone but for generations . It took time before the stern nature of [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was compelled to the recognition of this secret of comfort , and that same sternness prevented [his]_{209-mr. carson} reaping any benefit in public estimation from the actions [he]_{209-mr. carson} performed ; for the character is more easily changed than the habits and manners originally formed by that character , and to [his]_{209-mr. carson} dying day [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} was considered hard and cold by those who only casually saw [him]_{209-mr. carson} , or superficially knew [him]_{209-mr. carson} . But [those who were admitted into]_{7952-those who were admitted into} [his]_{209-mr. carson} confidence were aware , that the wish which lay nearest to [his]_{209-mr. carson} heart was that [none]_7100-none might suffer from the cause from which [he]_{209-mr. carson} had suffered ; that a perfect understanding , and complete confidence and love , might exist between [masters]_6156-masters and [men]_1197-men ; that the truth might be recognised that the interests of one were the interests of all , and as such , required the consideration and deliberation of all ; that hence it was most desirable to have [educated workers]_{7956-educated workers} , capable of judging , not [mere machines of [ignorant men]_{7958-ignorant men}]_{7957-mere machines of ignorant men} ; and to have [them]_{7956-educated workers} bound to [[their]_{7956-educated workers} employers]_{5430-their employers} by the ties of respect and affection , not by mere money bargains alone ; in short , to acknowledge the Spirit of [Christ]_325-christ as the regulating law between [both parties]_{7960-both parties} . Many of the improvements now in practice in the system of employment in [Manchester]_1-manchester , owe [their]_{7956-educated workers} origin to short , earnest sentences spoken by [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . Many and many yet to be carried into execution , take [their]_{7956-educated workers} birth from that stern , thoughtful mind , which submitted to be taught by suffering . CHAPTER XXXVIII . CONCLUSION . "_[224-god] Touch [us]_4680-they gently , gentle Time ! [We]_4680-they 've not proud nor soaring wings , [Our]_4680-they ambition , [our]_4680-they content , Lies in simple things ; [Humble voyagers]_{4681-humble voyagers} are [we]_4680-they O'er life 's [dim unsounded sea]_{4682-dim unsounded sea} ; Touch [us]_4680-they gently , gentle Time ! " [BARRY CORNWALL]_{419-barry cornwall} . Not many days after [John Barton]_{131-john barton} 's funeral was over , all was arranged respecting [Jem]_154-jem 's appointment at [Toronto]_124-toronto ; and the time was fixed for [his]_154-jem sailing . It was to take place almost immediately : yet much remained to be done ; many domestic preparations were to be made ; and one great obstacle , anticipated by both [Jem]_154-jem and [Mary]_145-mary , to be removed . This was the opposition [they]_4680-they expected from [Mrs. Wilson]_{134-mrs. wilson} , to whom the plan had never yet been named . [They]_4680-they were most anxious that [[their]_4680-they home]_{7961-their home} should continue ever to be [hers]_{134-mrs. wilson} , yet [they]_4680-they feared that [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} dislike to [a new country]_{7962-a new country} might be an insuperable objection to this . At last [Jem]_154-jem took advantage of an evening of unusual placidity , as [he]_154-jem sat alone with [[his]_154-jem mother]_{787-his mother} just before going to bed , to broach the subject ; and to [his]_154-jem surprise [she]_{134-mrs. wilson} acceded willingly to [his]_154-jem proposition of [her]_{134-mrs. wilson} accompanying [himself]_154-jem and [[his]_154-jem wife]_{525-his wife} . "_[4680-they] To be sure ' [Merica]_125-merica is a long way to flit to ; beyond [London]_28-london a good bit [I]_0-i reckon ; and quite in foreign parts ; but [I]_0-i 've never had no opinion of [England]_46-england , ever since [they]_46-england could be such fools as take up [a quiet chap like [thee]_4684-thee]_{4683-a quiet chap like thee} , and clap [thee]_4684-thee in [prison]_2099-prison . Where [you]_4684-thee go , [I]_0-i 'll go . Perhaps in [them Indian countries]_{4686-them indian countries} [they]_46-england 'll know [a well - behaved lad]_{4687-a well - behaved lad} when [they]_46-england see [him]_{4687-a well - behaved lad} ; [ne'er]_5953-ne'er speak a word more , [lad]_1512-lad , [I]_0-i 'll go . " [Their]_7965-they path became daily more smooth and easy ; the present was clear and practicable , the future was hopeful ; [they]_7965-they had leisure of mind enough to turn to the past . "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! " said [Mary]_145-mary to [him]_154-jem , one evening as [they]_7965-they sat in the twilight , talking together in low happy voices till [Margaret]_157-margaret should come to keep [Mary]_145-mary company through the night , "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem ! [you]_154-jem 've never yet told [me]_0-i how [you]_154-jem came to know about [my]_0-i naughty ways with poor young [Mr. Carson]_{209-mr. carson} . " [She]_145-mary blushed for shame at the remembrance of [her]_145-mary folly , and hid [her]_145-mary head on [his]_154-jem shoulder while [he]_154-jem made answer . "_{[209-mr. carson]} [Darling]_5820-darling , [I]_0-i 'm almost loth to tell [you]_5820-darling ; [[your]_5820-darling aunt]_{4691-your aunt} [Esther]_132-esther told [me]_0-i . " "_[132-esther] Ah , [I]_0-i remember ! but how did [she]_132-esther know ? [I]_0-i was so put about that night [I]_0-i did not think of asking [her]_132-esther . Where did [you]_154-jem see [her]_132-esther ? [I]_0-i 've forgotten where [she]_132-esther lives . " [Mary]_145-mary said all this in so open and innocent a manner , that [Jem]_154-jem felt sure [she]_145-mary knew not the truth respecting [Esther]_132-esther , and [he]_154-jem half hesitated to tell [her]_145-mary . At length [he]_154-jem replied , "_[0-i] Where did [you]_154-jem see [Esther]_132-esther lately ? When ? Tell [me]_0-i , love , for [you]_154-jem 've never named it before , and [I]_0-i ca n't make it out . " "_[0-i] Oh ! it was that horrible night which is like a dream . " And [she]_145-mary told [him]_154-jem of [Esther]_132-esther 's midnight visit , concluding with , "_[0-i] [We]_4692-we must go and see [her]_132-esther before [we]_4692-we leave , though [I]_0-i do n't rightly know where to find [her]_132-esther . " "_[0-i] [Dearest Mary,--]_{420-dearest mary,--} " "_[154-jem] What , [Jem]_154-jem ? " exclaimed [she]_145-mary , alarmed by [his]_154-jem hesitation . "_[154-jem] [[Your]_154-jem poor aunt]_{4693-your poor aunt} [Esther]_132-esther has no home:--she 's one of [them]_4694-them miserable creatures that walk [the streets]_{772-the streets} . " And [he]_154-jem in [his]_154-jem turn told of [his]_154-jem encounter with [Esther]_132-esther , with so many details that [Mary]_145-mary was forced to be convinced , although [her]_145-mary heart rebelled against the belief . "_[154-jem] [Jem]_154-jem , [lad]_1512-lad ! " said [she]_145-mary , vehemently , "_[154-jem] [we]_4697-we must find [her]_132-esther out,--we must hunt [her]_132-esther up ! " [She]_145-mary rose as if [she]_145-mary was going on the search [there]_873-there and then . "_[154-jem] What could [we]_4697-we do , [darling]_5820-darling ? " asked [he]_154-jem , fondly restraining [her]_145-mary . "_[4697-we] Do ! Why ! what could [we]_4697-we _ not _ do , if [we]_4697-we could but find [her]_132-esther ? [She]_132-esther 's none so happy in [her]_132-esther ways , think [ye]_4699-ye , but what [she]_132-esther 'd turn from [them]_4700-them , if [any one]_{504-any one} would lend [her]_132-esther a helping hand . Do n't hold [me]_0-i , [Jem]_154-jem ; this is just the time for such as [her]_132-esther to be out , and who knows but what [I]_0-i might find [her]_132-esther close at hand . " "_[0-i] Stay , [Mary]_145-mary , for a minute ; [I]_0-i 'll go out now and search for [her]_132-esther if [you]_145-mary wish , though it 's but a wild chase . [You]_145-mary must not go . It would be better to ask [the police]_{6234-the police} to - morrow . But if [I]_0-i should find [her]_132-esther , how can [I]_0-i make [her]_132-esther come with [me]_0-i ? Once before [she]_132-esther refused , and said [she]_132-esther could not break off [her]_132-esther drinking ways , come what might ? " "_[132-esther] [You]_145-mary never will persuade [her]_132-esther if [you]_145-mary fear and doubt , " said [Mary]_145-mary , in tears . "_[145-mary] Hope [yourself]_145-mary , and trust to the good that must be in [her]_132-esther . Speak to [that,--she]_{421-that,--she} has it in [her]_132-esther yet,--oh , bring [her]_132-esther [home]_4755-home , and [we]_4704-we will love [her]_132-esther so , [we]_4704-we 'll make [her]_132-esther good . " "_[4704-we] Yes ! " said [Jem]_154-jem , catching [Mary]_145-mary 's sanguine spirit ; "_[4704-we] [she]_132-esther shall go to [America]_72-america with [us]_4704-we ; and [we]_4704-we 'll help [her]_132-esther to get rid of [her]_132-esther sins . [I]_0-i 'll go now , [[my]_0-i precious darling]_{4705-my precious darling} , and if [I]_0-i ca n't find [her]_132-esther , it 's but trying [the police]_{6234-the police} to - morrow . Take care of [your]_{4705-my precious darling} own sweet self , [Mary]_145-mary , " said [he]_0-i , fondly kissing [her]_145-mary before [he]_0-i went out . It was not to be . [Jem]_154-jem wandered far and wide that night , but never met [Esther]_132-esther . The next day [he]_154-jem applied to [the police]_{6234-the police} ; and at last [they]_{6234-the police} recognised under [his]_154-jem description of [her]_132-esther , [a woman known to [them]_{6234-the police} under the name of the "_{[4705-my precious darling]} Butterfly]_{7968-a woman known to them under the name of the " butterfly} , " from the gaiety of [her]_132-esther dress a year or two ago . By [their]_{6234-the police} help [he]_154-jem traced out [one of [[her]_132-esther haunts]_{7970-her haunts}]_{7969-one of her haunts} , [a low lodging - house behind [Peter Street]_{126-peter street}]_{7971-a low lodging - house behind peter street} . [He]_154-jem and [[his]_154-jem companion]_{690-his companion} , [a kind - hearted policeman]_{7973-a kind - hearted policeman} , were admitted , suspiciously enough , by [the landlady]_{5603-the landlady} , who ushered [them]_{6234-the police} into a large garret where [twenty or thirty people of all ages and both sexes]_{7975-twenty or thirty people of all ages and both sexes} lay and dozed away the day , choosing the evening and night for [their]_{7975-twenty or thirty people of all ages and both sexes} trades of beggary , thieving , or prostitution . "_{[4705-my precious darling]} [I]_0-i know [the Butterfly]_{4707-the butterfly} was [here]_5235-here , " said [she]_{5603-the landlady} , looking round . "_{[4707-the butterfly]} [She]_{4707-the butterfly} came in , the night before last , and said [she]_{4707-the butterfly} had not a penny to get a place for shelter ; and that if [she]_{4707-the butterfly} was far away in [the country]_{422-the country} [she]_{4707-the butterfly} could steal aside and die in a copse , or a clough , like the wild animals ; but here [the police]_{6234-the police} would let [no one]_{1202-no one} alone in [the streets]_{772-the streets} , and [she]_{4707-the butterfly} wanted a spot to die in , in peace . It 's a queer sort of peace [we]_4713-we have [here]_5235-here , but that night [the room]_{616-the room} was uncommon empty , and [I]_0-i 'm not [a hard - hearted woman]_{4716-a hard - hearted woman} ( [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i were , [I]_0-i could ha ' made a good thing out of it afore this if [I]_0-i were harder ) , so [I]_0-i sent [her]_{4707-the butterfly} up,--but [she]_{4707-the butterfly} 's not here now , [I]_0-i think . " "_[0-i] Was [she]_{4707-the butterfly} very bad ? " asked [Jem]_154-jem . "_[0-i] Ay ! nought but skin and bone , with a cough to tear [her]_{4707-the butterfly} in two . " [They]_{6234-the police} made some inquiries , and found that in the restlessness of approaching death , [she]_{4707-the butterfly} had longed to be once more in the open air , and had gone forth,--where , [no one]_{1202-no one} seemed to be able to tell . Leaving many messages for [her]_{4707-the butterfly} , and directions that [he]_154-jem was to be sent for if either [the policeman]_{2480-the policeman} or [the landlady]_{5603-the landlady} obtained any clue to [her]_{4707-the butterfly} where - abouts , [Jem]_154-jem bent [his]_154-jem steps towards [[Mary]_145-mary 's house]_{7979-mary 's house} ; for [he]_154-jem had not seen [her]_{4707-the butterfly} all that long day of search . [He]_154-jem told [her]_{4707-the butterfly} of [his]_154-jem proceedings and want of success ; and [both]_876-both were saddened at the recital , and sat silent for some time . After a while [they]_{6234-the police} began talking over [their]_{6234-the police} plans . In a day or two , [Mary]_145-mary was to give up [house]_686-house , and go and live for a week or so with [Job Legh]_156-job , until the time of [her]_145-mary marriage , which would take place immediately before sailing ; [they]_{6234-the police} talked [themselves]_{6234-the police} back into silence and delicious reverie . [Mary]_145-mary sat by [Jem]_154-jem , [his]_154-jem arm round [her]_145-mary waist , [her]_145-mary head on [his]_154-jem shoulder ; and thought over the scenes which had passed in [that home]_{3085-that home} [she]_145-mary was so soon to leave for ever . Suddenly [she]_{4707-the butterfly} felt [Jem]_154-jem start , and started too without knowing why ; [she]_{4707-the butterfly} tried to see [his]_154-jem countenance , but the shades of evening had deepened so much [she]_{4707-the butterfly} could read no expression there . It was turned to the window ; [she]_{4707-the butterfly} looked and saw a white face pressed against the panes on the outside , gazing intently into [the dusky chamber]_{7983-the dusky chamber} . While [they]_{6234-the police} watched , as if fascinated by the appearance , and unable to think or stir , a film came over the bright , feverish , glittering eyes outside , and the form sank down to the ground without a struggle of instinctive resistance . "_[0-i] It is [Esther]_132-esther ! " exclaimed [they]_{6234-the police} , both at once . [They]_{6234-the police} rushed outside ; and , fallen into what appeared simply a heap of white or light - coloured clothes , fainting or dead , lay [the poor crushed Butterfly]_{7984-the poor crushed butterfly} -- [the once innocent Esther]_{7985-the once innocent esther} . [She]_132-esther had come ( as a wounded deer drags its heavy limbs once more to the green coolness of the lair in which it was born , [there to die]_{7986-there to die} ) to see the place familiar to [her]_132-esther innocence , yet once again before [her]_132-esther death . Whether [she]_132-esther was indeed alive or dead , [they]_{6234-the police} knew not now . [Job]_156-job came in with [Margaret]_157-margaret , for it was bed - time . [He]_156-job said [Esther]_132-esther 's pulse beat a little yet . [They]_{6234-the police} carried [her]_132-esther [upstairs]_{5348-upstairs} and laid [her]_132-esther on [Mary]_145-mary 's bed , not daring to undress [her]_132-esther , lest any motion should frighten the trembling life away ; but it was all in vain . Towards midnight , [she]_132-esther opened wide [her]_132-esther eyes and looked around on [the once familiar room]_{7988-the once familiar room} ; [Job Legh]_156-job knelt by the bed praying aloud and fervently for [her]_132-esther , but [he]_156-job stopped as [he]_156-job saw [her]_132-esther roused look . [She]_132-esther sat up in bed with a sudden convulsive motion . "_[132-esther] Has it been a dream then ? " asked [she]_132-esther wildly . Then with a habit , which came like instinct even in that awful dying hour , [her]_132-esther hand sought for a locket which hung concealed in [her]_132-esther bosom , and , finding that , [she]_132-esther knew all was true which had befallen [her]_132-esther since last [she]_132-esther lay [an innocent girl]_{7989-an innocent girl} on that bed . [She]_132-esther fell back , and spoke word never more . [She]_132-esther held the locket containing [[her]_132-esther child]_{1391-her child} 's hair still in [her]_132-esther hand , and once or twice [she]_132-esther kissed it with a long soft kiss . [She]_132-esther cried feebly and sadly as long as [she]_132-esther had any strength to cry , and then [she]_132-esther died . [They]_7991-they laid [her]_132-esther in one grave with [John Barton]_{131-john barton} . And there [they]_7991-they lie without name , or initial , or date . Only this verse is inscribed upon the stone which covers the remains of [these two wanderers]_{7992-these two wanderers} . Psalm ciii . v. 9.--"For_[4717-he] [He]_4717-he will not always chide , neither will [He]_4717-he keep [His]_4717-he anger for ever . " [I]_4717-he see [a long , low , wooden house]_{7993-a long , low , wooden house} , with [room enough and to spare]_{7994-room enough and to spare} . The old primeval trees are felled and gone for many a mile around ; one alone remains to overshadow the gable - end of [the cottage]_{4936-the cottage} . There is [a garden]_{7996-a garden} around [the dwelling]_{7997-the dwelling} , and far beyond that stretches [an orchard]_{7998-an orchard} . The glory of an Indian summer is over all , making the heart leap at the sight of [its]_{7993-a long , low , wooden house} gorgeous beauty . At the door of [the house]_{803-the house} , looking towards [the town]_{1111-the town} , stands [Mary]_145-mary , watching for the return of [[her]_145-mary husband]_{587-her husband} from [his]_{587-her husband} daily work ; and while [she]_145-mary watches , [she]_145-mary listens , smiling ; "_[4717-he] Clap hands , [daddy]_4718-daddy comes , With [his]_4718-daddy pocket full of plums , And a cake for [Johnnie]_263-johnnie . " Then comes a crow of delight from [Johnnie]_263-johnnie . Then [[his]_263-johnnie grandmother]_{8002-his grandmother} carries [him]_263-johnnie to the door , and glories in seeing [him]_263-johnnie resist [[his]_263-johnnie mother]_{787-his mother} 's blandishments to cling to [her]_{787-his mother} . "_[4718-daddy] English letters ! ' Twas that made [me]_0-i so late ! " "_[154-jem] Oh , [Jem]_154-jem , [Jem]_154-jem ! do n't hold them so tight ! What do [they]_4719-they say ? " "_[4719-they] Why , some good news . Come , give a guess what it is . " "_[0-i] Oh , tell [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i can not guess , " said [Mary]_145-mary . "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i give it up , do [you]_0-i ? What do [you]_0-i say , [mother]_4845-mother ? " [Jane Wilson]_{130-jane wilson} thought a moment . "_[0-i] [Will]_{130-jane wilson} and [Margaret]_157-margaret are married ? " asked [she]_{130-jane wilson} . "_[0-i] Not exactly,--but very near . [The old woman]_{937-the old woman} has twice the spirit of [the young one]_{4722-the young one} . Come , [Mary]_145-mary , give a guess ! " [He]_263-johnnie covered [[his]_263-johnnie little boy]_{8004-his little boy} 's eyes with [his]_263-johnnie hands for an instant , significantly , till [the baby]_{4734-the baby} pushed them down , saying in [his]_{4734-the baby} imperfect way , "_[145-mary] Tan't see . " "_[145-mary] There now ! [Johnnie]_263-johnnie can see . Do [you]_145-mary guess , [Mary]_145-mary ? " "_[145-mary] [They]_4723-they 've done something to [Margaret]_157-margaret to give [her]_157-margaret back [her]_157-margaret sight ! " exclaimed [she]_145-mary . "_[4723-they] [They]_4723-they have . [She]_157-margaret has been couched , and can see as well as ever . [She]_157-margaret and [Will]_{130-jane wilson} are to be married on the twenty - fifth of this month , and [he]_4724-he 's bringing [her]_157-margaret out here next voyage ; and [Job Legh]_156-job talks of coming too,--not to see [you]_145-mary , [Mary,--nor]_{4725-mary,--nor} [you]_145-mary , mother,--nor [you]_145-mary , [[my]_0-i little hero]_{4726-my little hero} " ( kissing [him]_4724-he ) , "_{[130-jane wilson]} but to try and pick up a few specimens of Canadian insects , [Will]_{130-jane wilson} says . All the compliment is to the earwigs , [you]_145-mary see , [mother]_4845-mother ! " "_{[4845-mother]} [Dear Job Legh]_156-job ! " said [Mary]_145-mary , softly and seriously . * * *